#A bit confused but ya know

[theinactivefaniguess]

Do I believe Jimmy to be smart enough and having done that entire bit of his house looking like the Barbie Dream House (right as Barbie Movie Hype is going on), looking like Ken, essentially being a toy again and roping Martyn into it- all of it intentionally?

Yes. Absolutely.

Do I also believe Jimmy to be have been dumb enough (/affectionately) to have done it all on accident?

... Also yes.

#jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #new life smp #nlsmp #nlsmp jimmy #Jimmy is so fascinating to me I can't read him #He's like Scar in that regard #Sometimes with them you're like 'Is it a bit?? Is it serious?? IDK????' #They're both confusing and confused in that way and I love them both for it #I genuinely cannot tell #It could be a whole bit and Jimmy is usually very committed to the bit #but it could also be real ya know??? I mean why else the 'Bad Guy' Origin??? #But then again... pink house doesn't really scream bad guy... idk man #he's so fascinating to me #I know I know he's a Good Guy now (haven't watched the episode yet) but still that bit lives in my head rent free #congrats I guess? #Lac's own posts

[thatdemiboymess]

Drew some bees for a friend of my aunt - he wants a friendly and cartoony bee with a honeycomb and a drop of honey for a candy he's selling, apparently! :33

#irl #my art #bumblebee #bees #its my first time trying to draw a bee tbh #they're very cute and i especially like their funky little beaks where their proboscis comes out #i kinda doubt he's gonna decide to use my art tho tbh but i think they're cute so I'm posting them here anyways #i haven't drawn anything in a while either so this was kinda nice to do even if it was also a bit frustrating #then again the reason it was frustrating was cause my aunt is acting as our in-between and her friend seems to have a very specific idea of #what exactly it is that he wants and not talking to him directly to figure that out is kinda not working #I also think he got a bit confused on the difference between horizontal and vertical because I drew the horizontal one first #and part of his feedback was that he wanted it horizontal and in flying motion so??? #anyways it's not like he's paying me so if the second one isn't what he's looking for I'm calling it quits #my aunt did actually offer to pay me for it but I don't wanna take any money from her since she's not the client - it feels wrong #she's just trying to do a friend a favor by introducing him to an artist ya know??? #...also low-key don't feel like this (my art) is worth actual real world money so ehhhh... #ANYWAYS!!! Look!!! Cute bees!!! #EDIT I have been offered like $30 but it is still on the table kinda since I'm not willing to make anymore changes asdfghjkll #$30....for bee??? Little bee drawing??? May have to delete/take this down if indeed $30 for little bee drawing...

[stardustedwanderer]

..I'm not. Sure I can really love someone the way you're meant to love someone...

It's. Not that I don't care, or want to spend time together or...

...

It's. The other stuff. The bedroom stuff...

I just. Really never felt much want for that. With anyone..

#stardust.txt #..... #((running him as a sex pos ace but ya know. hes gonna be a lil confused for a bit too))

[menequillo]

I've been struggling with my gender identity for about two years at this point. I'm pretty sure I'm not cis but it also feels wrong to put anything else. Just a bit weird I guess. I don't know why I'm posting this just wanted to get it out

I made this in a picrew today and it looks cool so have that I guess

#vent ig #gender #questoning #there's nothing that indicates to me that im a trans woman but i also dont feel comfortable to be genderfluid or non-binary. #feels like im just doing it for attention ya know #just a bit #confused ig

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Horsies in the Plex if Roxy is a horse lover before she knows they've ever existed here is really good honestly. She's off exploring, finding random horse themed things and immediately drops what she's doing to run over to Vanessa with it like "LOOK WHAT I FOUND!!!" cause Vanessa also likes horsies and is the reason Roxy likes them so much in the first place.

Like it starts with a prop horseshoe or something. Then she's finding plushies and building a little collection of them, making sure to give Vanessa one every time she finds a new one. Then she finds a random ass saddle or a bunch of prop hay bales or something. A bridle. Some bit pieces. A harness for a wagon. The wagon itself. Horse action figures. Whatever else. She's been excited about every single thing she's found so far and wonders how much more there is to find...

Opens a new storage room door and she finds actual fucking horses. Deactivated, dusty as hell, animatronic horsies.

Fucking grabs Vanessa and takes off running into areas Vanessa is absolutely not allowed to be in at all to show her all the horsies sndjjd like "VANESSAA!!! THERE'S HORSES!!!! NESSA HORSES ARE REAL!!! THEY REALLY EXIST NESSA LOOOOK!!!!"

#there's so much fun with these horsies #listen she's got a special interest that makes her super happy #all tail wags and tippy taps while her four minis get so excited for her #biggest enablers of the special interest jdjdnid #oh and for the record vanessa does NOT have a special interest here. she was a horse kid growing up and still likes them #but she's nowhere near as interested anymore #Roxy just shows up and drops a horse plushie on her so excited about it and vanessa is... #well she's shocked cause where the fuck did that come from but also what do you MEAN it's hers?? #this is the thing with roxy. her dog programming makes strong emotions really hard to contain #so she HAS to show her the horsies and she HAS to run loops around her to do it #when she's excited enough about something sitting still feels like a death sentence she's actually going to EXPLODE #she's a little bean!!! cute and adorable and a good bit overwhelming to the unprepared!!! #the downside is that thus carries over to sadness anger frustration and every other emotion she can feel #she can't contain shit. she can kind of mask with overconfidence but only if she's had time to calm down first #she's just so dog like that #fnaf security breach #roxanne wolf #plex history: horses #they have an official tag now because i love them #fnaf vanessa #yeah sure fuck it I'll tag them both shjdj #i just have this mental image of roxy running in at the end of nessa's shift to give her a pony plushie #but the day guard is there to swap with her so he bares witness to excited puppy roxy and is so fucking confused #she gets super embarrassed when she notices him but poppet and tippy are like 'hey... hes probably jealous' #and she fucking shoots off to go get him one too. fucking blasts the door down when she gets back to hand him a horsie #'tippy said you'd be jealous so i got you one too.' and he's so fucking confused cause who the FUCK is tippy??? #Vanessa behind Roxy just nodding and gesturing to go with it and when he does she's both surprised and overjoyed he likes the horsies too #still embarrassed but HORSIES!!! #'where did you even get these??' 'found em!' 'yeah be where?' 'oh ya know... around.' '?????' #vanessa just tells him to drop it cause she doesn't have a clue either and that's obviously not about to change ever lmao

[rosicheeks]

😴

#ok ok sleepy baby got up #started another load of laundry #annnnnnd wrote out a packing list for my overnight dogsitting this week #I know I know I need to *actually* pack #but kinda need to wait until my laundry is done ya know #might be a lil of an excuse #but also I feel like it’ll get too confusing #sooooooooo #I’m laying down #I could go out and smoke a lil bit and relax #but it’s hot outside #lol I left a candle out in my car and I’m going to see if it’ll melt from the heat 😂 #so I ended up laying down instead #also don’t want to pack a bowl and all that #I’m in such a baby mood today #can someone baby me pls #shut up rosie

[avvocarlo]

god I hate asshole 4wd owners

#i was in this little subdivision where you can grab some lunch or go to the iga/chemist etc #I'mwith a client walking back to the car #then i hear this bloke's voice like HEY HEY!!! HEY! #so I'm looking around at the sound a bit confused but figured maybe there was a parking or give way type issue with the cars #i then see this bloke walk up to a qml car (pathology organisation with the cars usually doing the in home samples) #taps on their window and is all OH so you like to be in a rush huh?? with that I'm smiling but seething and ready to attack you kind of tone #he's this sorta wiry 30s bloke with the cropped beard and dickhead hair #you know the type that there's a million of here and a good amount are total pricks. he looked short too. Manlet rage #and it's a lady in the car who looks pretty small idk what age but she'd obviously be feeling uncomfortable #I'm looking at what is happening and he's yelling at me WHAT ARE YA LOOKING AT #i go 🤨 he yells it again louder so i just give him the finger and keep walking #idk what he said but it was the all OH Yeah OF COURSE kinda vibe. like everyone against me I'm always right type etc #not sure what he did after that but the QML lady went to the qml office and i saw sorta saw him pacing around angrily #like for all i know there's a reason behind all of this but nahhhh there's so many dipshit blokes like that here #rage filled 4wd owning tradie types that think people owe them the world #anyway i hope he didn't persue the lady or someone else after i left

[keeps-ache]

wrists are funky things, huh?

#just me hi #i've started wearing jewelry (this developed earlier this year somehow lol) and bracelets are Still killin me hfvhs #i can wear them for a bit but then the tightness or the loose rubbing on my wrists starts to Really bother me. hmn! #i wear a ring all the time and it took me some months to get used to it lol #i can't even wear necklaces/chains/anything round my neck without clothing being between me and the entire encirclement of neck #or it's Not Fun! #anyway i got this really neat bracelet that has little beads for the 9 planets. and i Am going to wear it #i just break time loll :) #//Also i think we should have a word for 'earlier this year' #there probably already is. but i just made a typo and i think it should be 'yearlier' :3 #yearlier than i thought it would... #you see what i'm sayin yah? #yater for yater. or later this year :) #i don't like the word Later (it's a T that sounds like a D and it trips up my tongue sometimes Hbvfh) so i think this is Great ! #we'll do it yater. cuz we already did it yearlier. ya know ? #//also i was thinking about something earlier and it was Super Neat but i forgot what is was again loll #i think it was black ? but also i could be getting that confused with the clothing i was wearing. so hmmmmm #/brains are so confusing hfbhsj #i like mine pretty well though. we're good friends ! #usually! friends have spats. and we're cage-fighting every wednesday #//i've been kinda brain-tired too so : ' #<- everyday my little emoties get less distinguishable hvfhhs #but yea i dunno! #//it's super nice out #it's really cold inside for some reason though. which is really silly when you think about it for longer than 3 seconds #like we built the box to Not have to be as uncomfortable as we usually are outside. why am i wearing a blanket when it's So Nice outsideLol #'go outside' i would but also. [walks away]

[atsu-i]

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#i feel weird and confused lol #like....why cant just ppl..do smth out of their good will instead...of...like...ending up kinda wanting or expecting smth in return? #i mean you do someone a favor sure #you agreed to it #and she gives you a bit of what you need in return #it might not be enough for all the effort you put but there is smth #also the other person doesnt have the right to be an ass just coz she is giving smth too ya know #but my point is that.......why does it seem like...you are expected to give smth back? like a big one #and the thing is...they expect you to know that? that you have to give more besides what you are already giving because am doing it kinda #thing #and if it doesnt happen...you end up talking behind that someones back? why not just tell them then? #when I said that to someone they said 'it should be obvious and it shouldnt be said' its like automatic ya know? #and in my head am like is it supposed to be that way? also why cant they just say it then instead of talking shit? #sometimes a lot of this shit happens if only ppl could talk...maturely though #idk...am just...so...i get ther point but am also thinking is it supposed to be that way all the time? #lololololol am just rambling tbh #and thinking #personal #like..i feel weird of that you have to automatically give someone in return thing...i get it...but to expect smth that is equivalent your- #effort? yeah ig but how do you even repay that in cash though or material things? is it supposed to be that way all the time when you do #someone a favor?????????? #ugh whatevr #its early for this kind of shit girl

[nomaishuttle]

NEWRLY FORGOT 2 UODATE UNGUYS. NOTTTT TO BRAG BUT I TOTALLY ACED THAT SHIT

#now my beautiful wife is gonna be kate for work bc traffics AWFUL rn #but its ok well its not but i DID ace the jntervuew #she literally walked me through the onbiardjng process #and then went Oh but um. i do have 2 other interviews . So who knows.. But youre probably gonna hear back #bc i said i cn do full time np 👍👍 itll hurt but literally worth it for money LMAO #and ill get used to it eventually.. #im sort of confused bc i on the call she was like So itll rpetty much judt be filljng in shifts but then she was like so 5 days a week 8 #hour day fully time all benefits 401k. ajd i was like ok SLAYEDDD #AND she eas understanding abt me still finishing up hs 😏😏 #hut yas. and also she said Youd be a really great asset to the company :]]] #and she was so nice. the whole 0lace was SO fancy #i overheard one of the residents ordering dinner and it was like. roasted pheasant and shit. Insane #bougie as hell retirement home. so im excited :] #ill admit i was so worried bc the email said Casual bit oresentable.ajd then i get there and its so so fancy.. #but i even did s couple little jokes during the interview (RISKY) but they landed and sheliked them #immliterally going to get a good grade in hireability

[lululawrence]

I love those boys, and no one wants them back together more than I do believe me. But if 1D has taught me anything since they stormed into my life in 2011, it's that they lie. Like all the time. Niall is promoting a new album and tour, of course he is going to give lip service during promo. I love Liam, but we know he will also just say things. I won't believe it until it actually happens 😞

I get it, I totally do haha because there have been soooo many times they’ve said things that just never happened so like. VALID. But I’m also a bit confused.

Like. They all say things, but what Niall has done doesn’t seem any different from anything that Harry or Louis have said or done so far either? Since you mentioned Niall and Liam specifically I assume Harry and Louis are who you’re comparing them to. From what I’ve seen, Niall has mentioned a group chat and that the current one is more active than previous versions, but that doesn’t really tell us anything other than they’re feeling more chatty with each other than they used to lol you know? We knew they had a group chat before, I think Harry was the first to confirm that one actually, but yeah i think he only said anything because he was asked about the other guys, wasn’t he?

Is that what you’re referring to or is it something else I missed? Cause if it’s that, then I think we can all stand to be a little kinder to both Niall and Liam regarding their mentions of the band. Harry and Louis also do it, though by nature of the ways all of their careers have gone and developed as well as other factors it can and often does look different from one of them to the next, and without one direction none of them would have had anything close to the same level to jump from into their solo careers nor would they have the kind of fan base already there to work with. It’s natural for them to mention the band and I read and hear a lot of people who seem to be a bit hard on Niall and Liam whenever they talk about their band mates. I guess I don’t understand it. They put in the same five+ years in the band as the others did and therefore deserve to talk about the band and band mates as much as they want to. I don’t want it to overshadow their current work and the music they’re releasing on their own because they also deserve better than that, but if they want to talk about it then I say go for it! Celebrate that success and claim it still because why not, you know?

But maybe that’s just me ¯\__(ツ)__/¯

#sorry if that’s harsh or a bit of a ramble #I’ve got so many things going on around me and I’m having a hard time concentrating #but I wanted to try to get my thoughts down before I lost the ask to time #anyway I wasn’t trying to attack or anything I just was confused why it was spoken as a negative thing #when I personally don’t see it as one at all #if anything it’s negative to the people who won’t stop asking them about the band #or the other band members #rather than focusing on their solo stuff ya know? #that’s all I’m done for real this time #asks #anonymous

[mxgyver]

tw/cw: negative body talk? (let me know if i need to add) this post will be deleted eventually anyways i just needed to get this out

shopping as plus-sized/mid-sized/larger woman is lowkey a nightmare. i just want to look cute and try to feel cute because I don't always like how my body looks!!! yet all the options we have are dresses that are kinda cute, but the silhouette isn't flattering or the patterns are just... not it. like I'm trying to do a little online black friday shopping as a Treat™️ and although I love ASOS the dresses are a little disappointing :( that or the clothing items are waaay more expensive than the "straight sizes" and it's like??? these are literally the same style and article of clothing why tf are you charging an arm and a leg more for a little extra fabric and time??? it's fucking stupid. that or I'll see something that I think is really cute, but the sizes cut off right before mine 🤪 size-inclusive my ass. anywho, if anyone has some decent suggestions, hit your girl up!

#anywho this is why i stick to just wearing tshirts all of the time :-) #it's the only thing i feel comfortable in especially w/ how large my chest it #i'm still in the process of finding a plastic surgeon for a reduction but i got discouraged the last time i checked because #they said you needed to be under a certain bmi (fucking stupid imo) in order to get it done #and that just... hit me at a low point #like yes because trying to lose weight is going to magically make my tig ole bitties that i've had since high school #when i was like 20 pounds lighter... any smaller 🙄 #like yes i've definitely gained weight and sometimes that fucks with my psyche a little #but it's just a number & i'm not trying to let it run my life and how i feel?? #anywho i hope y'all are having a good friday 💗 #i'll feel fine in a little bit i'm going to go watch youtube or browse more clothing stores #sierra speaks #tbd #side note: i'm feeling fine mentally right now!! just super frustrated with the relationship between fashion & being larger than the “norm” #honestly looking at myself in the mirror half-naked from all angles before getting dressed is kinda nice #sometimes i'll be like damn my butt looks good or sheesh watch out for the curves!! #it's confusing & frustrating going back and forth from feeling pretty good about my body #to feeling like i just don't want to even give my body a single thought ya know #but hey! progress is not a linear thing! #i debated on whether or not to post this bc as i started typing more tags i was like hmmm i'm feeling okay about this #but whatever i guess lmaooo #enough rambling in the tags though #i'll catch y'all out there

[unpopularly-opinionated]

I always knew how shitty Apple’s App Store was, but I never knew quite how shitty it was until I realized that quite a few of the apps I paid for over a decade ago are simply no longer available to download. Like, I’m aware that the firmware on modern iOS devices is miles ahead of where it used to be back in 2010, but the actual basic functionality of the system has remained consistent over the years, so it’s a little baffling to me that these games aren’t available anymore.

Like I really wanted to play the Infinity Blade games again, but I can’t because Epic pulled them from the store because they didn’t want to put in the effort to keep them updated. Which, in theory is a ding against Epic, but in reality it’s because Apple keeps needlessly over-complicating their firmware updates which forces anyone with an app to either consistently update the app so it doesn’t ‘break’, or pull it from the store altogether.

This is the first time I’ve ever really been impacted by the glaring flaw in the digital marketplace. It doesn’t matter that I bought and paid for these games, those games can be taken from me at any moment for any reason at all and I can’t do shit about it.

#random rant #Apple #Epic Games #Infinity Blade #bring it back ya losers #I’m blaming Apple for this mostly #but I know Epic took it down so they could focus on Fortnite back when Fortnite was still a baby game #not to be confused with the fact that it’s a game for babies #but now that it’s no longer a new game #and they have all of that Fortnite money #toss a little bit of it to AT LEAST update the Infinity Blade trilogy and throw it back up on the App Store #don’t even need to update graphics or add any new content #just update the game and let me play it damnit

[squinko-moved]

need someone to tell me theyre proud of me rn 🔫

#home!!!! #the teachers training me said they absolutely love me and that im doing rlly good already #all the kids loved me too!!! #was rlly good #a little overwhelmed with everything #bc they keep track of Every little thing in an app and its a bit confusing #but. that was my first day! they dont expect me to know it all already!! #feel good. kind of proud of myself #it’s nearly Impossible for me to be proud of myself so ya #met a couple parents too. not too many but a few #rainy talks

[writingworda]

While I was writing 'Tellings of the Sky' I wrote a series of Short Scary Stories, aptly names SSS.

In these stories, Mi dies a lot. In a lot of gruesome ways.

There was something to do with the occult and demons or smthn but eh, who cares.

#could you tell I was suicidal at this time? #as well as religiously struggling? #or was I just really into creepy pastas? #idk #but the aim of these stories was to address those scary impulsive thoughts everyone has #because I started having them #and I was super confused and not ok with that #so I decided to write them down with Mi as the victim #and ya know what? #that did help me not have those violent impulsive thoughts anymore #now I just have impulsive thoughts of idk #loneliness? idk most of my impulsive thoughts are just manic now with a little bit of silly goose disease #there are a lot of lonely impulsive thoughts tho #FUCK why am I venting pathetically in fucking tumblr tags #fuck this man

[fawningoveradream]

idk if its cause rounds of posts of pictured frame kim kitsuragi have been popping up on my screen. But I just wanna say that its real delightful and funny. And I like to mentioned how in comparison that seeing the disco elysium painting/icon pic of him is like...framing a picture of a catholic saint to me lol. Or like a framed painting of a holy angel.

#sometimes im tempted to print out my own kim kitsuragi and just frame it up on my bedroom wall #and like look to it for spiritual guidance #ya know for the bit? #maybe also confuse my dad cause he's an ordained presbyterian pastor