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poisonous-lemonade · 10 months

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HEY POOKIEEEEEE BEAR SO IM A MASSIVE FUCKING SIMP FOR LIKE QUACKITY COULD YOU LIKE DO ME A SOLID AND WRITE AND ANGSTY FIC??? ILL GIVE YOU STORYLINE AND NOTHING MORE:

QUACKITY BECAME OUR LIKE ROOMMATE FOR WHATEVER REASON AND LIKE STREAM KNOWS THAT BUT DONT SAY ANYTHING- ONE DAY ON STREAM WE COME IN A JUST SMOOCH HIS CHEEK AND LIKE STREAM FOES WILD- THEY FIND OUT WE’VE BEEN DATING AND SHIT HAPPENS (YOU GET TO DEVIDE WHAT TYPE OF SHIT)

THANKS POOKIE BEAR 🥺🥺🥺

(ALSO MAKE MY DREAM COME TRUE AND MAKE IT MALE READER PLEASE??? PLEASEEEEE)

A/N: AHHHHHHH yes yes I can (Relatively short) 💛💛

Roommates.

Quackity was a relevant streamer and didn’t spend a lot of his free time away from the camera that was until he needed to get a roommate. He was going to spend some time in Europe, doing more IRL streaming with his friends and other streamers. But then there came to issue of getting a roommate.

Now he really didn’t want one, nor did he think he had to but he wanted to spend less money for a decent apartment so he would have more spending money and if he needed to have a roommate for that to happen. He’ll get a roommate.

Well…he didn’t get a roommate, he became the roommate.

At first, the apartment was great. It was clean, the kitchen was beautiful, and his room, which was the wide open door, had enough room for some streaming equipment. This was all going a bit too well for him. So of course when he just finished his set-up and was ready to stream away to his heart’s content. You walk through the front door. Carrying bags of groceries and just setting them on the table, not noticing the presence of Quackity standing in his doorway.

“Uh…hi?” The boy nods in acknowledgement, focusing on the task at hand. “You must be my roommate, huh?” He hummed, organising the food already in the fridge before rummaging through the bag. “Yeah, umm, my name’s Quackity.”

The boy playfully scoffed slightly. “Quackity?” He looked up at the boy with an amused smile. “That’s your name?”

“You got a problem with my name?”

The boy shook his head with a shrug. “No, no of course not. I just wasn’t expecting it.” He rolled his eyes.

“Y/N, it’s Y/N.” He smiled.

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“No! Chat! Chat! I’m telling you! That didn’t count!” e yelled, watching the chat flood with chants of, ‘You laughed!’ and ‘pog face’ which cause the boy to groan. “No Chat that just doesn’t count! I laughed about something off-screen. Doesn’t count!” He screamed, fixing up his beanie with a frustrated sigh. “Y’know what, fuck you Chat. Fuck you.”

“Don’t talk to Chat like that.” A voice said off camera, swinging in from the side just enough to see the other guy’s arm. “You need to get a break, anyways, here’s dinner.” He placed a plate down next to him.

“Oh…uh, thank you,” Quackity said, looking up at the boy with a smile. He had been his roommate for almost 2 months and it seemed like both boys were getting along nicely to their new lives as roommates. “I owe you one.”

“You owe me 2, next movie night, I’m picking the movie and the snacks.” He said with a laugh and Quackity roll his eyes.

“Whatever man. Get out of here.” He chuckled at the shorter boy’s comment, leaning down to kiss his cheek before walking, Quackity wiping at his face like he was disguised and the chat went wild.

Ducklover: OMG SPOILER ALERT DrDaddy: WOOOOOOO Tubbo: wtf man PinkLemon: WHATTTTTTTTT Oak-Tree: AHHHHHH Bi-chy: QUACKITY GAY 👀

“Chat. Chat shut the fuck up.”

#fanfiction #writing #imagines #dsmp x reader #dsmp quackity #dsmp fanfic #dsmp x male reader #Toxic_Lemon.original

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merakimagic · 1 year

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Ummm… if you have every wondered what it’s like to have ADHD, Autism (Lvl 1), Anxiety and Depression but also have an overwhelming sense that you need to be strong and perfect then here’s a message I just sent to my friend because I needed to let someone in and didn’t know who else to say it to.

It seems to give a pretty clear explanation in my view.

I don’t know why I feel so annoyed and frustrated with myself for saying I have ADHD and Autism. I have those things and I’m not ashamed of them but why do I always need to tell people… so they understand why I’m different. I mean everyone’s different and have different ways of doing things, it’s not like I’m special nor does anyone care. It’s not an excuse! I should be completely cable of keeping that part of myself in and not feeling like I have to tell people.

Does the way I explain it to people make it sound like I’m trying to get attention? Does saying that I’m proud of it and love how it makes me more curious about things and how it has made me good at art, music, languages, school, mythology, sports, pretty much a lot of things because I enjoy knowing them make it sound like I’m arrogant or trying to brag or just put a label on things.

I have anxiety, Autism level 1, ADHD, Depression, have experienced an eating disorder and still at times do, I’m a red head with blue eyes, I’m bi/pan, anemic, have asthma and ahhhhhh. Does all of this when I contribute to a conversation and say something about one of them just make people think that I have a need to be special?

Im sure I don’t feel that way. I think the only reason some of my reactions to things like how I may have a panic attack need stimming and stuff like that only happen know because I know there’s a reason for it but what if I’m just making a big deal out of nothing.

I really need to learn to shut up at times I think, I don’t think people really care about my long spills nor do they really want to know what’s going on with me. Why are relationships so fucking difficult?!

Why can’t I just understand them and the way they work? Can’t they just be simple? Why if your dating someone does there have to be this whole thing of you have to do this with them and you can’t do this with other people? Why do I need sounds to go away when I get overwhelmed, the worlds loud! It shouldn’t matter? Why do I feel like it’s okay to be flaws but I need to be flawless all at the same time? Why am I afraid of not being perfect? Why if I felt like I told my parents about this they would just get angry at me and tell me it’s all in my head? Why am I crying? These are thoughts are dealing with on a daily basis why are they bothering me now? Why can’t I just keep it to myself? I’ve been handling shit on my own my entire life it’s nothing new? Why do I know that tomorrow I’m gonna be fine and this is just a moment where my walls have fallen down?

Why am I so confident sometimes and then the rest I’m just completely fucked up? Why do I always need to restrain myself? Why can’t I just scream and then get back to it all? Why do I have to feel ashamed? Why should I have to feel like my mum doesn’t want to admit I have Autism?

Why do I care if I have Autism or ADHD so much? They have always been apart of me? It doesn’t mean anything? They’re just caused by a genetic mutation and makes you neurotypical why does it even matter? They’re just labels, who even gives a damn? You could have neither one and act the same way as me and people might just call you weird? Why do I care so much about this shit? No one else fucking does, maybe I should just shut up for a while. It’s clear that when I make a joke that it’s taken offensively, it’s clear that no one wants to hear about my problems, it’s clear that no one wants to here my rants, it’s clear that no one wants to here about my hobbies or opinions, it’s clear that I don’t get how to properly interact with others. Maybe I should just shut up, but if I did then my parents would just go on about how somethings wrong and get angry at me for not talking to them about it and we would just end up in a fight where they are telling me to just get over it and if I turn it back on them for how they have made me feel this way then they would just get even more angry and deny it.

Dad brought up a post that said about how a guys son used to sing and never stop talking and now they will be in the same room and his son will have his headphones on not say a word and that his son doesn’t know how much is dad misses him. And dad said that reminded him of me. Doesn’t he get that they’re part of the reason I don’t talk all the time. Because evertime I did I got told to calm down or my joke was offensive or that they don’t need the elephant. Don’t they get I like my phone because it has my hyperfixations and ever since I was little have loved cartoons and looking at fanart because they were what got me through the hard days at school and my parents fighting. Don’t they get I used them to cope because everything was solved in 22minutes and that’s the world I like to escape to when I day dream.

Why the fuck does all this even matter, why the fuck am I just being so overly emotional? Why can’t this just be all there is going through my brain right now?

Obviously there’s more.

There’s the voice telling me to just let myself cry and the voice telling me to suck it up and another one telling me to get ready for work and another one telling me to stop messaging and another one saying don’t put this on them and another one asking why I’m shaking and another if one saying I’ve done well to hold back the tears and another one saying I wonder when this message thing will cut me off and I’ll have to send two seperate messages? And another one asking is this just what my head is like? Is this what everyone’s head is like? Is this just because of my mental health shit? Am I just weak? Am I really this pathetic that I can’t pull myself together? I don’t want anyone to feel bad for me so why do I need to let anyone in? Why do I want to so badly to talk about this but also say nothing at all?

What the fuck is wrong with me, why can’t I just get the hell over it and move on, people deal with way worse stuff then this and here I am complaining because my low self esteem and hyper active over thinking head is just having a bad day and pulling me into it and won’t fucking leave me alone… what a pathetic excuse. You can’t use excuses in life. No one cares and no one has time for them, no one’s gonna help you so stop making excuses and just get on with it.

Put on your uniform, pack your bag and go to work and put on a happy cheerful face and just go take care of other people so that you don’t have to think about this. Just get on with it, there a bigger things then yourself and you just gotta get over what’s going on in your head

I’m Okay… I’m okay now.

If you’ve every felt this way, please let me know.

I don’t want to feel so alone anymore, nor do I want others to feel alone either.

I just felt these were necessary to make the whole thing a little less sad and full on serious and honestly feel like these characters would get it. Also this is not my art💫

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grimmcheems · 4 months

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I love them😫🩵

I wish a fandom existed for Ballroom e Youkoso🥲😭I freak out all by myself when there’s a new chapter and am shaking wanting to buy the 12th Vol when it comes out this yr. It feels like literally no one knows this anime/manga and it frustrates me ahHhHhH. I have so much to talk about it but since no one else reads it I feel like I’m just yelling into a void, which makes me want to make a video essay on it so it gets more attention, but I don’t know shit about making videos or essays or editing💀👩🏽‍🦯

I also might’ve accidentally made a vampire!Mako AU?!?! I wanted to draw her doing something violent bc she’s such a cinnamon roll but ended up with her as a Vamp oop. Btw Chinatsu is defending my best boi Tatara against evils(Shizuku💀) imma be honest and say I don’t like her, for several reasons but I won’t get into them🗿 also I absolutely loved Kugimiya’s backstory and design(he has a dump truck in this but it’s the baggy pants I swear😭). Idk what it is but both him and Tatara rly connect to me in a way other characters haven’t been able to. I also love the fact that Kugimiya and Tamie were paired as partners when they are so different from each other, I wish her hair wasn’t so layered and I bet it’s so much harder for her to style it bc of that💀Mako is best girl and Gaju is so stinky for doing her dirty with the whole Shizuku situation😒 if you see this and don’t have any idea who they are then please IM BEGGING YOU TO WATCH THE ANIME. I’m starving out here.

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blackfangedreaper · 2 years

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Uh hello UwU. I'd like to request a Law x Fem reader fluff! Basically I'd like a situation where reader's been pestering Law for attention but he ignores her cuz he's busy. Reader finally leaves upset and decides to hang out with Penguin and Sacchin instead. Law is eventually done with his work and waits for reader but after a few hours without her, he gets restless and goes to look for her. Thank you soo much!

Hehe im loving this suggestion ok ill try my best to satisfy you.✧*｡٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و✧*｡

ABSENT

Pairings: Trafalgar Law x Fem!reader

Warning: curse words, grammatical errors (maybe, i was too lazy to triple check) and fluff😍✨

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Today of all days you decide to be clingy, why won't you just leave him alone, you definitely see him working but it seems that doesn't matter as you continue to pester him and whine for his attention.

You can tell he's getting irritated, you could see the irk mark forming right beside his forehead but unfortunately for him, you really didn't care, he's been ignoring you for a while now and its really pissing you off.

"C'mon you could do this later, just lay with me please!" you sigh.

Law turns seeing you laying on one of the many vacant hospital beds, he sighs massaging his temples with his index and middle finger. "Im busy, if it wasn't obvious the last four times i told you!"

"I know, plus you look tired i'm not telling you to neglect your work just rest a little with me!" you said pouting.

"My answer remains the same!" he said frustrated from your continuous pestering.

"Law look-"

"Your giving me a headache, please leave"

"What? Law-"

"Fuck, leave Y/N-ya." He hissed.

"Well fine, i hope you choke on BREAD!!" you said storming out and slamming the door with a resounding 'bang'.

"Stupid law, who the fuck does he think he is." You grumbled all the way to the living area of the submarine which seemed to be preoccupied by shachi and penguin.

They both seemed to be heavily invested in whatever they were doing that they didn't notice you, well that was until they felt your looming figure behing them.

"AHHHhhh" they both let out girlish screams until they saw it was you.

"Oh my gosh, you scared me Y/N!" Shachi said putting his hand on his chest while regulating his breathing.

"I swear i almost pissed myself" penguin gasped clutching onto a piece of paper

"...that's too much information bro" shachi said disgusted.

"So what are you guys doing!" You asked peering into the sheet of paper penguin was holding in curiosity.

"Animal, name, place or thing!" Shachi exclaimed.

"Yeah, it's fun wanna join?" penguin suggested.

"Sure!" You agreed forgetting about the law incident.

"So how do we play?" You asked

"First you need to write down all alphabets starting from A down to Z then you write down the animal, name, place or thing that has the first letter of the alphabet which is chosen by a player in each round." Shachi explained.

"And each player gets twenty seconds to complete the row of the letter chosen." Penguin said.

"Yeah, for example S, snake, shachi, saobody archipelago and ship" shachi explained.

As shachi and penguin explained more of the game, you being the bad bitch you were understood quite fast, or maybe the game wasn't that complex to understand.

"Ok let's start, penguin you go!" Shachi suggested.

"I choose W." Penguin exclaimed.

As the letter was called you searched your brain for answers, getting an idea you jotted down quickly as time was almost up.

"Time's up!" Penguin said as he gave his paper to you while you gave yours to shachi, who gave his to penguin.

Silence filled the living area as you all marked each others answers, that was until shachi bursted out laughing.

"Aha haha, what the fuck Y/N, whitebeard's ship isn't a place" shachi said choking on his laugh.

"No way she wrote that?!" Penguin asked in disbelief and leaned over to check.

"Hey HEY! It is!" You argued now looking at the laughing penguin and shachi.

"No it isn't!!" They argued back.

"Uh... It actually is though" ikkaku said passing by.

"HA! Thanks babe!" You exclaimed thanking her.

"We girls have to stick together" she said winking at you, then going towards the direction of the kitchen.

"Ugh fine fine, you win this one." Shachi said scowling then proceeded to give you a total of five points.

You all switched back your papers before checking your scores.

You seemed to be having fun, you haven't actually been spending much time with shachi and penguin and actually made you realize how much you missed your closest friends maybe law sending you out was a good thing.

"Ha, i love this let's play some more." You said beaming.

"Yes!" Shachi and penguin exclaimed.

Meanwhile a certain doctor was starting to feel your absence.

After he sent you out, he actually got some work done but why did he feel like he was missing something.

'oh well' shrugging the feeling off as he continued filling out patient applications and checking on crewmates who had not yet come for their monthly check up.

Pressure started to weigh down on his chest, was it worry or guilt. 'where were you? maybe he shouldn't have sent you out'. He thought tapping his fingers on his desk anxiously, but he managed to push it all down and finish his work.

Now that he was finally done he waited for you to come back.

An hour passed which turned to two, three then finally four hours which seemed longer as he kept glancing at the clock and it seemed to be mocking him.

He's never gone that long without you pestering him, his eyebrow twitched as he became impatient, he stood up hanging his labcoat on the coat rack before heading towards the exit of the clinic. I guess he's gonna have to get you himself.

He passed the several rooms of his crewmembers, as he headed towards the kitchen which seemed to be occupied by some of his crewmembers.

"Oh hey cap'n looking for sum'n?" ikkaku asked smirking, she knew what or rather who he was looking for.

"Where is she?" He asked rolling his eyes at her smug face.

"Living area with shachi and penguin." She answered.

"Hm." He left hastily but not before giving her a nod as thanks.

The echos of laughter and chatter met his ears as he walked towards the living area, he was soon met with a rolling penguin and wheezing you.

"W-Wait, it was a mistake! I swear" shachi said pleading.

"Nah, bro it looked intentional to me!" Penguin said cackling.

"Oh, yo-you should h-have seen his f-face omg, what the hell shachi!" You said tearing up, you were getting breathless from all this laughing.

"Look i panicked ok, so i just picked whatever i touched, it wasn't on purpose please!" Shachi begged trying to reason with you both.

Rewinding back to four hours ago you all seemed to finish the first game with shachi in first place, you in second and penguin in last place, deciding to spend more time with each other you played several then settled with playing truth or dare.

And it seemed that shachi got himself in trouble, i mean sneaking into your captain's room? How brave of you.

"Please don't tell captain, i'll do anything i swear" shachi swore.

"Don't tell me what?" Law's voiced bounced around the walls creating an echo effect causing shachi and penguin to turn pale after realising their captain may have heard them.

"U-Uh hey uh captain" they stuttered while you rolled your eyes and crossed your arms refusing to acknowledge him.

"I asked a question." He raised an eyebrow demanding an answer.

"Nothing i swear!" Shachi exclaimed, making penguin wince, they're fucked aren't they.

"It doesn't seem like it!" Law pressured.

It almost worked as penguin was about to spill due to being pressured and shachi looked like he was about to burst out crying, but you stepped in before any of that could happened "As they said before its nothing."

"..." His eyebrow twitched as he turned to look at you "Y/N-ya where have you been?" He tapped his feet waiting for an answer.

'Who died and made him king?! Where have you been? To hell with that your not telling him shit!'. You thought frustrated as your brow twitched.

"Hmph." You said turning away from him.

"Why you!" He walked towards you forgetting about your two companions, oh now he was fixated on you and noone else.

"Kya!!" You exclaimed as your vision turned upside down, the only thing in your sight is his back.

"Hey Hey!! Put me down!" You demanded hitting his back with your fists.

He ignored you, gave your two friends a warning glare and then proceeded to walk away with you on his shoulder.

Arriving at the door of your shared room, he opens the door, walks towards of your bed and lays you there, before you could protest he lays on top of blocking all routes of escape.

"Hey! Get off!" You say trying to wiggle free.

"No." He says his breathe brushing against your neck.

You gasp feeling a pleasant shiver down your spine causing you to desperately wiggle free.

"Hey! Stop squirming!" He lifts his head to glance at you, you turn to scowl at him.

"Get off then." She suggested smiling insincerely.

"No." He repeated, before dropping his head against your chest while encircling your body with his arms.

You sigh and decided to give up, silence fills the room as you feel his breathing slow down, 'i-is he sleeping right now?!' You sweatdropped, looking down to check only to see a pair of grey eyes staring right back at you.

"Ah!" You exclaimed startled while looking away, you feel heat start to crawl up your (s/c) face.

You hear his chuckle which turns to laughter and you can't just help but laugh too.

"Haha, im sorry!" He said, his laughter dying down.

"Eh, its ok i guess it was kinda funny." you said smiling.

"No, not about that- well that to but ha- im apologising for the rude behaviour i displayed earlier today." He said diverting his eyes somewhere else in guilt.

"Oh-" he rose his hand to stop you, wanting to finish first before hearing your take on it.

"I know, i shouldn't have sent you out and i was so worried when you didn't come back after a while and then i see you with them after waiting four hours for you to come back-" He sighed not knowing how to tell you he was jealous.

"-and It didn't just sit well with me." He looked up at you then looked away, only to look back when he heard your laughter.

"Oh my gosh, haha i get you were guilty but the jealous part? Oh gosh law ahahaha" you were wheezing you didn't even think he was one to get jealous.

"Hey, stop laughing at me!" He demanded.

You could see his face and ears heating up and couldn't help but pinch his cheeks "aww you look so red."

He pulls off your hands from his face and holds then in his hands, stroking them softly with the pad of his thumbs. "So?"

"So?" You ask confused.

"Am i forgiven?" He asked.

"On one condition!" You said.

"That would be?" He asked expecting a high demand.

"Take breaks ok? I know you work really hard and im proud really proud of you, but i'm gonna need you to rest once in a while, ok?" You said caressing his face.

"I-I'll try my best." He said leaning into your warm hands.

"Yosh! your forgiven, now i demand cuddles" you demanded.

He chuckles pulling close with your head laying on his chest, he sighs feeling your warmth engulfing him as he kisses your forehead bidding you a good sleep. "Anything for you, Y/N-ya."

You smiling feeling his lips brushing against your forehead before you drift off enjoying the warmth your lover provided you.

I guess it's calm before the storm because somewhere in the submarine shachi and penguin are racking their heads trying to figure out how to return their captain's white boxer with meat prints to him, it seemed to be given to him by everyone's favourite strawhat wearer, theirs screams echoing in the submarine are gonna be astronomical!.

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Wrists aching, eyes heavy and brian strained but still maintaining beauty cause there's no rest for the wicked.✧⁺⸜(●˙▾˙●)⸝⁺✧

I hope you like it, to be honest this is way longer than i expected, but hopefully this satisfys you.

Ugh im going to bed😭.

Thank you for reading!❤✨

#one piece x reader #one piece fanfiction #fem reader #tralfagar law #law x reader #heart pirates #law x y/n

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alicethepiper · 1 day

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hello im back on my bullshit again after a day? a two day break?? idk i wish the weekend would never end all i want to do is play this damn game

so im in the castle with ashley and i hate the foutain chamber shit water room it was so frustrating on my first playthrough - i think that it will be fine this time because keebie and mouse aiming is so much nicer and also ive done it before i can do it again it'll be fine...

so i am trying to kill sometime and i didnt want to finish the castle part because i didn't want it to take too long so i fucked around on mercenaries, and then i started playing as ada A LOT. and now... now i've started separate ways and i'm actually so excited i've never played this before and i'm very excited. i love playing as ada. i love her hair it is so floofy and moves around so nice.

but here are some photos to catch up

here is some more heather ashley - i think this is the newer mod for this costume she is so cute i love her

she is so cute i love the the left photo makes it seem like she is looking directly up at moushley hahaha

SHE JUST LOOKS SO GOOD

okay HERE IS THE NEW MOD

I LITERALLY WENT THROUGH EVERY MOD FOR THIS GIRL AND FOUND THIS ONE. I LOVE IT. I LOVE THAT HER TOP IS ORANGE TOO THAT IS SO CUTE.

although seeing ashley with like gear and whatnot makes me feel like she should be helping me out lol

it also reminds me of co op resident evil games and that's so fun i have hope for re5 and re6 remake pls do it good capcom

ahHHHHH she is so cute look at her outfit it looks so GOOOOD

LOOK AT HER LITTLE SMIRK

haha lil hands on their hips haha

also the way he died was so funny

OKAY NOW SEPARATE WAYS

I LOVE THIS MAN. THIS INTRO IS ACTUALLY SO AMAZING. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. CAN CAPCOM DO EVERYTHING GOOD PLEASE.

okay i am little two minutes in, so im gonna get back to it because i'm actually so excited also LOOK AT HER HAIR AND THE WAY IT MOVES (i don't have photos just go play or look it up her hair moves so nicely it's amazing)

mods used: Luis Classic Color Theme - TrieuPham Ada Wong - Resident Evil 6 Outfit -xBaebsae Leon Long Sleeves - pakjuaan Ashley- Cute Ponytail Hair - xBaebsae Heather Mason Outfit For Ashley - AmanoSomething Sheva Alomar - Ashley Graham - Glitch (Glitch5970) Moushley Graham - Ratatouille Mod - cathroon Punisher Color Collection Four Types - CrossingFN9 AKA HANAREIKO okay i think that's it im gonna go play separate ways im so excited ehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

#resident evil #resident evil 4 #re4 #resident evil 4 remake #re4r #separate ways #re4make #ada wong #moushley

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s1renidae · 10 months

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does anyone else (specifically any other autistic ppl) really really struggle with art in terms of like. getting yourself to actually do it or learn how

I dont rly know how to articulate it but like. I have tried, I have BEEN trying for years to find joy in creating art but I CANT, because creating anything just feels like an unwinnable battle against myself. it's not exactly art block because I have so so many things I want to draw and i can envision them perfectly but then when it comes time to actually do it just. can't. I freeze up. I feel like I dont know how to do/make what I want to and I know that you have to make bad art in order to learn how to make good art but my problem is that if I can't do exactly what I want to do or if I don't know exactly step by step how to get where I want to go my brain just Won't Let Me. reaching the limit of what I'm familiar and comfortable with feels like hitting the limit of a map in a game like I just. hit a wall and can't go any further

and I've had the thought that maybe with the way my brain works I am just simply not meant to be an artist but I HATE that, because I love drawing I really do and I'm 100% more miserable being stuck with all the images in my head than I am when I actually do make something and i really really dont want to let my stupid autism/adhd/whateverthefuck stop me from doing something that i actually am passionate about but I just. can't do itfor some reason !! it's so frustrating and I've tried so many ways to get past it I've gotten so much advice from artists in my life and none of it has worked and I want to fucking cry because I refuse to accept that I just can't do what I want to do but I don't know how to move forward

I'll get to a certain point in a piece (usually I'll finish a sketch/lineart and MAYBE add flat colors) but then I think about what to do next and even if I know the process I just get overwhelmed and then I quit because that's easier and I dont know how to make myself not quit that's how I've been with everything I've tried my whole life and I'm about ready to just give up on doing or being anything that I want to because it seems like I'm just completely incapable of holding myself to anything

I really want to feel the joy/relaxation that I see other ppl get from drawing/painting and I used to feel that when I was a kid and it comes back in phases sometimes as long as I stick to just sketching but I just. can't I know im saying that a lot and it doesn't rly mean anything but that's rly all it is I Simply Cant. I struggle and then I give up because I'm such a perfectionist that I circle back around to not being able to do anything at all because I know I can't meet my own standards and I can't muster up enough dedication to learn and practice and ahhhhhh idk

I know this has become more of a vent post than anything but like please someone tell me I'm not alone or that there's some way around this shit because it's starting to feel really hopeless and I don't want to completely give up on the only hobby I've ever been this passionate about wanting to focus on

#.txt #vent #artists on tumblr #<<< summoning #art advice

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bellysoupset · 7 months

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HIII

OKAY IM BACK AND THIS WILL BE ME FAN(GORL/BOI?)ING ABOUT YOUR LATEST TWO FICS BECAUSE????? THEY'RE AMAZING + THE WENDY CONTENT IS SO TOP TIER AND SO VERY MUCH APPRECIATED <3

okay so starting with the wendy/vin food poisoning fic AHHHHHH oh my GOODNESS, THE ANGST!?!?! literally obsessed. it actually was a little to real (i literally sat and stared at the wall for a full hour)(im not exaggerating). it was so angsty and painful in the best way ever omg 😭 first off the sickfic part was CHEFFS KISS and I LOVED IT SM like how sudden and messy and miserable it was + vin being so sweet AGH <3333 and then the angsty part hit a lil TOO close like idek how to explain it but it was just so REAL? & thats why the ending was so painful- sometimes your partner can be the sweetest thing ever and create this super safe space and say all the right things to comfort you and the fact that sometimes that's NOT ENOUGH to help you believe it and fully accept the love is so painfully real??? and the way you portrayed that was so perfect UGH 😭 and i know (been there done that) it's so frustrating on BOTH ends and it's SO HARD to work through, but the patience and reassurance can literally heal so much with time and GOSH i felt so seen by this fic (and also horny lmaoooo <3333) and idk what to say other than GODDAMN IM OBSESSED WITH YOUR WRITING AND YOUR OCs AND AGH YOU'RE SO FREAKING TALENTED SOUP!!!

then as for the leo+wendy fic AHHHHH i'm pretty sure i was the other anon who requested this a while back (before i started the lil otter signature xd) and IM SO GLAD YOU WROTE IT AYEEEE <333333 i LOOOOVE that leo is finally warming up to wendy and wanting to get to know her and being softer but also i love the constant/continuous banter AHHHH omg and the way she realises when he's getting upset and feeling sicker and immediately goes soft and gentle and helps him while also not making it weird :') and GOSH the way they were having this SUPER NECESSARY convo in the midst of ✨the action✨ was such great writing!! and also the way you made them both softer while keeping them 100% on character is such a slay WAH this was so good omfg

ANYWAYS that's all my rambling so sorry it's SO long lmao i just LOVE these characters so much and i love your work and wanted to express my admiration (again) hehe 🤭🫡

KEEP SLAYING <333333

-🦦

Otter!!!

I never wanna publish your asks, just entering tumblr and going in my askbox gives me INSANE amounts of serotonin

IDEK what to say to all this other than i'll be printing and pasting it in my little scrapbook. I really LOVE that you're a Wendy fan, it makes writing for her soooo much fun 💛💛💛 And yeah, the first angst def hit a little too close to home here too, especially the frustrating part where it really doesn't matter what anyone else says, if you're not convinced of it.

I'm looking forward to writing more for them!

#🦦 anon #peace and love in planet earth lol #lovely correspondence

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primojade · 1 year

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SCARAMOUCHE TRAILER IS OUT

https://youtu.be/AR2n2TsJuNE

Hello, please do scroll down if u dont want to see Jade's pathetic crying, frustrating screeching, stupidly simping. You have been warned :3

SJSKSHWKWHUS STARLY U DONT KNOW HOW MANY MINITES IVE BEEN LOITERING IN THE OFFICIAL TWT ACCIUNT JUST FOE THIS AND OMG SJAMAHAKAHS AHHHHHH HES SO FINE I LOVE HIM SM HOLY SHIT I WAS LOSING MY MIND WATCHING HIS TRAILER I DIDNT REALISED I WAS EATING MY LUNCH AT THE SAME TIME AKABWKANHAKSHWIN I WANT TO KITH HIM HUG HIM GIVE HIM ALL MY PRIMOS AND MAIN HIM RN (im so sorry albedo im so sure this is just a phase im promise im always loyal to u my love) HSKAHSIS I AS ASCENDING—

ALSO HAVE U SEENT HE CHARACTER DETAILS IM CRYING AND LAUGJING SO HARD AT HIS VOICE LINES LMAOOOOK

LIKE OMG HE HAS SUCH A NICE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT SJAKWHIWHWB it was like....he still retains his arsehole attitude but its kind of mild now??? And HE LEARNS HOW TO JOKE WITH US NOW??? ALTHO IT LOOKS LIKE ITS THREATENING US IT MEANS HES COMFORTABLE ENUFF TO JOKE AROUBD US??????? UEKWVWKWGWIWJHA

Also, did he just imply and call us hoomans...animals? I mean biologically speaking, he's not wrong BUT ITS SO FUNNY JFC 🤡🤡🤡🤡

OHHH I WILL DEF ASKS HIM TO MARRY ME—/plak

AND HES FUCKING CUTE LMAOOO LOOK AT THE ADORABLE SMILE BUT THE INSIDE IS LIKE SAYING..."YUCK..." LMAOOOOOOO i want to print this and paste it on my wall next to my bed so i could see him everytime i wake up ueueue

bonus:

ITS SLAYING HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

#letters for jade—!#signed by: stxrgxzxr #signed by: ✨ anon #dear comrade: starly—!

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insulationsun · 2 years

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marcy overall got a bit sidelined, hence the lack of marcanne... S3 felt more like it was about the calamity duo and an extra (marcy) than the calamity "trio" lqskeulgqeyuf

FKDSFJKDSF DAMNN...OWWWWW ANON yeah eyah youre right though. the way they set up marcy really seemed like she'd like. do something More important or be more important than she really was? the build-up to her reveal, the promise w anne, true colors....like

and i was hesitant to be like "oh not enough marcy focus" or "theyre gonna get to it, we need to see the whole thing" so thats kinda what i did i wanted to see it through to the end before i make any judgements dsjfsd

but now yeah i think i can confidently say they couldve done more with marcy, but i know she was something they hadnt figured out till s2 got greenlit?( i believe) so. it makes sense that her arc didnt rly come full circle towards the end

and im not one to be like ohh they glossed over true colors! but in the grand scheme of things there was a LOT of setup about marcy that just ultimately didnt go anywhere,

and like... similar to oscar pine in RWBY i feel like when youre putting characters(esp child characters) through a lot of hell you gotta like . Justify the inclusion of these scenes, yknow with some payoff? they gotta react to the event or something or idk its gotta come up or be something reoccuring..but like. and i dont doubt that there was Some meddling there since they fought so hard to get that scene there in the first place; but it was still a decision that had to be made

like, do we want to have this Grand and dramatic death scene but sacrifice being able to Talk about it or give it a real payoff or not have it at all?? and i guess . that happened idk

but its more than just true colors like yeah everything in season 2, just ..yeah she got sidelined shdfsd. no two ways abt it, i think.... i also think that marcy shouldve gotten more scenes just. like By herself??? i love what we got in All in but it still felt...idk.

but i dont wanan feel bad for having expectations when they're the ones that built her up, i guess? not impossible expectations bt yknow a bit more... especially in her perspective. bc in the end we still lacked a lot of marcy perspective episodes, not even olivia and yunan is in her perspective, yknow?

the most introspection we got from her was like projection sequence and all in?? and i guess a bit of the finale (and yeah, that sidelining is obvious with how short her goodbye scene to andrias was) sooo sjnfds

ahhhhhh. so many things. it is a bit frustrating ! !!! but i guess since the story didnt rly start based around the Trio it had to be worked in and then. well. once we get to s3.......skfdslf.

so it makes sense but oghe. [ lays on the ground... ]

#asks #LAYS DOWN...#YEAHA.................#im aware the show isnt meant to rly focus on the girls also but.#with how everything was presented......how realistically written the trio are #it is little wonder people got attached to them #but i hope this doesnt sound like i think the show revolves around the trio djfsdjfs #cos i dont think its meant to BUUUUT theyre still a big part of the story regardless #and thats not me . saying that like theyre all Catalysts for things in amphibia and like #prophecy says they gotta save amphibia right?#so theyre important #it just kinda sucks with how nicely sasha and annes arcs kinda come full circle and how marcys really . didnt #couldve benefitted from an entire ep in the mindscape- and i think there were quite a few eps that couldve been sacrificed #JUST ME THOUGh #bt yeah i dont think it was unreasonable for some ppl to have some of the expectations they did abt marcy #lotsa set up #amphibia spoilers

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