#ALL OF HIS EXPRESSIONS THROUGHOUT

[dropthedemiurge]

"You should have beat this wildness out of him once you learned his name." "I couldn't," was the weary response. "Everyone who has tried to tame him has failed."

Aka the phrase that goes so WELL with the fact that Neil has a wild creepy smile ("Wesninski in truth, if not in name") and enough Unhinged Beast vibes that he casually started eating a takeout food in the middle of FBI INTERROGATION (!!) like it was nothing.

Also my first time drawing Neil! I've read AFTG books long time ago but never drew fanarts. Somehow. I consider that a crime. Now I'm so happy to join the community xD

// My Jean Moreau fanart //

#that's why i drew him in his customized foxy andreil tshirt #because i never got to draw him in the uniform before so forgive me this #it was a lot of fun getting that exact face expression as I envisioned he had sometimes throughout the books xD #neil josten #all for the game #the sunshine court #aftg #tsc #aftg neil #my works #art #dropthefanart #dropthefanart aftg

[haunted-xander]

The scene w the twins held hostage in Tertium is probably one of my favorite scenes in the entire game (which says a LOT). It's a very good portrayal of their characters and their dynamic to each other.

The scene starts with Alisaie trying to kick the door open, despite knowing she's better off staying put until we get them out. Point 1: Alisaie is reactive. Alphinaud then responds to this by explaining that, while he also hates this situation, they're better off staying put like we told them to. Point 2: Alphinaud internalizes.

Alisaie walks to sit by the wall like he is, and then kinda shyly scoots closer to him after realizing she's sitting too far away and he's not moving any closer, and puts her head on his shoulder. Point 3: Alisaie displays affection more freely (if a bit embarassed by it sometimes lol) while Alphinaud is a bit more reserved with it, typically waiting for others to initiate.

Alisaie starts to vent about her frustration regarding both the current situation in Garlemald and with Fourchenault(and the Forum as a whole), while also understanding where it all comes from. Alphinaud responds by looking at the people in questions views and feelings on the circumstances, while still agreeing that yeah, it sucks. Point 4: Alisaie is openly emotional (frustration being her typical form of expression) and tends to personally involve herself with most things, while Alphinaud takes things from a more distanced and factual point of view (while still expressing his own thoughts in a polite and professional manner).

After this they start to discuss the focal points of their respective characrer developments. Alisaie remarks that one's will and wants should be their own and not an extention of anothers, in the same way her character arc revolves around her finding her own reason for wanting to help the people of Eorzea, which she later admits that she has found. Alphinaud talks about how Varis' ideal of a single, united nation bereft of dividing factors was similar to his own ideals in the beginning, which he now admits is pure ignorance and will solve nothing but doom everyone to misery.

They make affirmations of their shared conviction and such, but the part that really hits this whole things home, is Alisaie asserting that she will stand by Alphinaud as he takes the lead. Because she has her role as an activist, she is the one who acts on what needs to be done and does it, whereas Alphinaud's role is as a leader and politician, to make it so that what needs to be done can be done. Alphinaud is a bit unsure if he can do it, because he's already failed so many times, but he won't give up and neither will Alisaie let him. She states as much with her typical dose of gently scolding love sprinkled in there.

The scene packs in so many details of them in such a nice way. Alisaie is outwardly emotional, typically unleashing her feelings in the moment and then calms down afterwards, while Alphinaud internalizes everything, holding on to his feelings for a long time and let them simmer down to a more managable level. When Alphinaud expresses his feelings more clearly, Alisaie is typically the more collected one(this is shown a lot in stb, like when we first meet Hacock and Alphinaud is instantly defensive, while Alisaie is the one to suggest at least hearing him out) and vice versa.

#they are actually very similar at the core but the way they react to things and express themselves are pretty opposite #one thing ive also noticed throughout the game #is that alisaie talks to wol with strong familiarity whereas alphinaud tends to be more professional about it #which isnt to say he doesnt show his affection or anything he does! #but hes like. extremely polite about it. as he is all things #techniaclly theyre like that with basically everyone #but i find it particulatly notable with wol due to how close they both are with them #i love them a lot #alisaie leveilleur #alphinaud leveilleur #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles

[good-beans]

I know most of our focus goes (rightfully) to the trial songs, but I genuinely believe Baptism of Fire is equally a masterpiece of meaningful writing and intense vocal acting

Incoming tag rant because I need to yell about this, feel free to yell back

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #like the other vds have good writing about the character and whatever social issue their crime focuses on #but this one is very pointedly about YOU #its about the audience. its about the milgram project. its about self reflection. its about self-appointed roles. its about you #even if you didnt vote t1 or anything the whole things is calling on you to reflect on your own judgements of others #how you treat people who come off rougher. how you treat people who have made a (bad but) common mistake. #do you also find entertainment in seeing people dragged down and suffering because it would 'serve them right?' #but es always remains in control of the situation. the drama doesnt end with 'and fuuta was right - you guys suck!' #its clarified that situations are different and have nuance. we are reminded to look at things with nuance. #then we are smoothly re-immersed in the story #and then!! the acting itself!!! #arthur lounsbery put his whole fussy into that performance (<- fuuta pussy) and i am in his debt every day for it #in both his vds hes just super expressive and fun to listen to #i dont understand japanese but he packs so much interesting intonation and emotion into every word -- im obsessed listening to him #he nails all the subtle emotions fuuta has: the pouts and outrage as well as underlying fear grief insecurity and immaturity #and then baptism of fire hes just... Wailing #like mahiru has her innocent and pathetic cries of pain in her sweet voice that works for her character but fuutas pain feels much more raw #the way hes practically sobbing at the end -- his voice cracking and screeching throughout -- the whimper of pain #its so unbearably intense!! it hurts!! and its supposed to!! but hes just so raw with it #and dont even get me started on his pained hysteric laughter omg.... #its just. a masterpiece. #i always appreciate the vds but i dont think ive enjoyed/relistened to one as much as this one #okay WAIT im back to add one more thing because im obsessed with ths idea of intentions #specifically in milgram i think the intention behind the murders are very important to consider #so i love love love the huge focus on 'i didnt expect/mean for this to happen' #plus as a general theme in fiction i think its sooo juicy when good intentions get fucked up #so i loved the repetition of that #fuuta is such a special case because he genuinely had no desire or expectation for his victim to die #(maybe kazui too? but he doesn't say so in his vd like fuuta does)

[sysig]

Anime good :) (Patreon)

#Doodles #MP100 #Shigeo Kagayama #Reigen Arataka #Ritsu Kageyama #Forgive the anglicized name order lol #MP100 was another one of my breakfast anime! Admittedly I did not Just watch it during breakfast tho lol #It was too good ahhhh I kept finding my thoughts returning to it throughout the day! #I probably ended up watching an additional episode or so per day over however long it took haha - drastically cut down the number of days! #The lead ups to the finales especially got me - there was no way I could for the whole next day to see them through! #Plus getting to see those beautiful EPs gosh <3 What could be better than some absolutely stunning animation ♥ #I was quite impressed the whole way through :D The cast was great and the animation was beautiful and fluid and impressive #And the technical ability that went into the painted animation! Gosh!! #But most of all - of course - it's just a good solid story <3 Of course it's beautifully expressed but it's just - good down to its bones #I love a story like that :) Mob is such a wonderful character and he's surrounded by good people ♥ It made my heart happy to see #He's loved and he loves <3 That's my very favourite! #Unsurprisingly to me I was most enamoured by the brother relationship who could've seen that coming lol me? Siblings? Pfsh ♪ #Ritsu's a sweet boy as well <3 I cried at him crying from Mob not even considering forgiving him because there was never anything to forgive #Not me shorter older sibling feeling exactly the same way hhghghh I'm fine ;; #Reigen is such a fun deadbeat supportive adoptive dad haha ♪ He's hard to pin down! Loved his redemption arc(s) :) #Flawed individuals my beloved <3 #Such an enjoyable cast and set of circumstances! I might actually have to give OPM a proper go sometime soon if this is the writing quality

[betterthanfakemouthstatic]

about to start writing an essay on ‘family’/healing workplaces and toxic masculinity in american tv shows (think the bear, ted lasso) and i am very much considering throwing a tommy kinard reference in there

#just his growth throughout the begins episodes is so interesting #and then to decontextualise that and him as someone OUTSIDE the family of the 118 #which he explicitly expresses jealousy of in the latest ep #and him as a white straight presenting man who begins to benefit from chim but especially hen as a strong queer woman of colour #but then leaving before that family dynamic became solidified #coming back as an older queer man in contrast to buck #i’m rambling #it’s just so interesting and i love it #something something the invisible string of it all #(by it all i mean buck and tommy eventually coming together) #thoughts #911 abc #tommy kinard

[bee-does-things]

So like I know the scene with Astarion where he reveals he’s a vampire and bites you is supposed to be hot and all. But my Tav just looked like he was dissociating the entire time and incredibly uncomfortable. Like he was instantly regretting his choice to let it happen but was like “well I mean I already said yes so what can I do?” I feel kinda bad for him not gonna lie.

#like he was all very 🫨😬🙁😐😶🫥🫥🫥 #dude did not want to be where he was experiencing what he was experiencing #he looked so fucking uncomfortable and sad throughout the scene and now I feel bad for letting that happen #I know there wasn’t supposed to be an undercurrent of SA to that scene. but yeah with the expressions my dude was making #that’s how I read it not gonna lie #doesn’t help that my Tav is based on my dnd character #who has a lot of themes of exploitation and being used in his backstory #his mom essentially groomed him to fit a destiny decided by her mother and then kept him in the dark about everything #his ex-husband told him he was only using him for sex and didn’t actually love him #an old friend of his turned out to just be using him to help him accomplish his own goals and didn’t actually care about him at all. #dude has been through a lot and I’m not gonna lie #I don’t think he’d handle being used as a living caprisun and being emotionally manipulated by a vampire very well #baldurs gate gale #baldur’s gate 3 #astarion #my tav

[gregoftom]

awful, just awful

#succession #tomgreg #biting my pillow like that dog meme #where do i even begin with this TOM IS LIKE A SCHOOLBOY WITH GREG ITS ACTUALLY INSANE #he reverts to like 20 years younger from his emotional swings to his obvious crush #and his EXPRESSIONS THROUGHOUT THIS SCENE BY TALOS MY STOMACH IS IN MY ASS. MATTHEW!!!!! #his hurt at the thought that greg might somehow be trying to blackmail him again to just sadness because of greg's fear of going to jail #his downcast eyes as he says ''yeah'' SHUT the up #like yeah maybe he's reflecting on his own hurt and pain at the fact that he's going to jail and shiv handed him another rejection #just before. or maybe. he doesn't like hearing greg suffer like this. i mean. from what i know about later #that tom is fully prepared to go to jail and ''throw it all out for love'' or whatever tf for greg's sake #it's just. it's plausible is all i'll say. it's very plausible when we think about that future scene. #idk i just think that people refuse to hear when anyone would say tom is absolutely GASPING to love somebody. like yeah he's got issues #but who tf is well adjusted in this economy LMAOOO even in these rich fucks' worlds nobody is #so i know. i'm not stupid i know he can be nasty. but so can all of them. GREG WAS PREPARED TO SUE GREENPEACE AJDLAKDAD #i mean idk if he will. but my point is if tom wasn't like that he wouldn't be such a good character imo. if he was just a straight up #asshole. who would care if something bad happened to him? i wouldn't. something that makes him so compelling to me #is that he can be SO WRATHFUL AND MANIACAL #but he can be so. so fucking soft and vulnerable at the same time. and matthew plays him so organically i just wanna fuckin WEEP #and then GREG here. he wasn't even thinking about using a connection of any way to get ahead he just wants to be saved. he's still early 20s #i believe anyway. and tom has taken care of him. looked after him #protected him. he always listens to him. he's learned that tom is there for him so ofc he's gonna plead for help but like. not directly #''just asking for advice'' = i'm fucking terrified how do i make it stop help me #hoe but keep it fashion #SORRY GOD I KEEP DOING NOVELS IN THE TAGS BUT GODDDDDD THIS IS SO MUCH evyerhting is sos oafujfdmwkqfd #ok i'm stopping now but anyway. they're important to me. sorry. sorry bye

[midnightdemonhunter]

I totally agree that Art Is Dead is a Jupe song but what about All Eyes On Me ... get on out of your seats ... we're going to go where everybody knows ... get inside ... aaaaa 🛸

fuck dude it sure is!!!

#nope movie #ricky jupe park #nope 2022 #nope #midnight draws #midnight speaks #horror stuff #this ask has sat here for a while but i want you to know you are SO Correct and ive just been waiting till i had time to properly draw \ #cause MAN. the whole This Joke Isnt Funny vibe that bo burnham has is so perfect for Jupe #Do you Wanna hear a funny story....The Funniest Thing happened.....severe panic attacks on stage.... #the ominous anticipation for SOMETHING....YOU SAY THE WHOLE WORLDS ENDING HONEY IT ALREADY DID #are you feeling nervous??? are you having fun??? the expressions he makes throughout his final scenes....an almost smile.... #also of course all the lyrics you mentioned too. MAN this song fits #while we're talking about heartbreakingly good jupe songs. #Earth by Sleeping at last and Sometimes by Nick Lutsko........christ. #ANYWAY THANKS FOR THIS. IM NORMAL.

[nerdish-nostalgia-revived]

"You know, in the theatre we have to examine the internal logic of all our actions."

Sir Charles Cartwright playing detective.

#sir charles cartwright #martin shaw #three act tragedy #my gifs #I could watch him do this all day #he is so animated and enthusiastic about his skills #I just love the way he moves #and so many scenes - not only in this part but throughout his performance in this episode #aren't even talking parts but just him 'talking' with his face - and it's just so damn good and captivating #he is so expressive - and it doesn't hurt that his face is so beautiful and makes it a joy to watch! #he shouldn't be that ridiculously cute at his age #and I want to touch his hair so bad! it's so glossy and looks so soft! #the lighting in this scene was really complicated and made things grainy #also I slowed down the pace and he STILL turned around too fast in that writing gif #but that was a moment I wanted to gif for a long time #so now I have - and I'm willing to share too #I only wish Egg could have been there to see her loved one perform #she probably would have been just as smitten as myself

[herestoburiedsecrets]

Thinking a lot about Mary moving on…

I love how it was handled, for although while the ghosts talked about it a fair bit, I didn’t actually think the show would go there, and I think it was portrayed really well. It makes sense for Mary’s character development, especially given that she mentions in 2x4 that she ‘dreamed of the day when [she] would be sucked off’ which makes this a happy ending for her, but it still hurts so much, and I don’t think i have even fully accepted it yet.

I am a bit unsure as to whether her moving on was something that almost randomly occurred or whether it was due to the fact that she was healing from her trauma in a ‘unfinished business’ type way. I am leaning more towards the former just because of the actual timing of her moving on, although it did happen quite shortly after some huge character growth and development within the season.

I do love the thought that her healing and sharing her trauma and finding her voice led to her moving on, but the implications of that are very hard to accept, because it means that any growth or development of the characters could lead to their eventual sucking off, and that is so hard to think about. It implies that the Captain learning to let go and express his emotions and accept his sexuality will mean that he will move on, or Kitty coming to terms and accepting how her sister actually treated her and finding a new family in the ghosts leading to her moving on, and that is so overwhelming to think about because I really don’t want any more of the ghosts to move on. I know it is an inevitability with the actual rules set within the show, but I really love these characters and I would hate for them to not exist anymore.

If moving on is a more random process, which I am inferring it is given how it just *happens*, then it means that none of the ghosts will necessarily move on if they change and grow and develop, which is comforting because I really want to see them all learn and develop without the knowledge that all this change is bringing them closer to not-existing, because I feel like that means I can’t enjoy their character development as much, or appreciate how they are all growing as people. I want each ghost to personally grow, but also to be able to sit and exist with the growth without it meaning that they have to leave the world behind for good.

Mary was, in my opinion, the perfect character to move on, not only because of her amazing recent character development but also because of Annie, because Annie was her best friend in a way that none of the other ghosts were, and so in a way it felt right for Mary to go with Annie. Also while I am sure a lot of ghosts would like to move on (probably Robin especially, definitely not Thomas tho), Mary has explicitly stated her desire to move on, which makes me happy for her since she got her desire, even though it is terribly painful to watch. Being a ghost is it’s own specific form of torturous existence, but it also allows the ghosts another shot, and they have become a family together, and I really don’t want to see anyone else move on.

#i am feeling a lot of very complicated feelings about just the concept of moving on and i wrote this post to help me make sense of them a #bit so sorry if it doesn’t really make sense #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #bbc ghosts season 4 #like I completely understand that moving on is probably what many of the ghosts want but it is so scary to think about #especially with my favourite characters - like Cap has had so much development and growth over the seasons and I really don’t want that to #mean that after he comes out he will move on because to me that cheapens the development if that makes sense #i would love for Cap to be able to talk openly about his sexuality and express himself fully #but not at the expense of his existence as a ghost #and that is applicable to all of the ghosts but I am thinking about Cap a lot because he has a lot of huge character development throughout #the show and has a clear path of development that we as the audience can see because he has three main issues that have been clearly defined #throughout the show (which are all interlinked to some degree) - 1. his inability to express and fully accept his own sexuality 2. his #difficulty letting go of the war and extracting himself from his role in the war and 3. his general repression of all emotions #i do think that there is enough evidence within the show for me to say that the actual moving on is fairly random because yeah mary moved on #after she was able to share her story and find her voice and all that but she actually got sucked off on a random morning and so did Annie #anyway yeah just thinking about it a lot because i have seen a lot of people talk about it

[lisbonsteresa]

going unbelievably insane over this

#tm #i i'm like i'm short circuiting #the way - when they both carry so much pain and trauma with them; where they deal with death and the worst of people every day; #when they've lost so much; lost each other more than once - #one of the most pervasive themes in their story; woven throughout it from the very beginning is happiness #wanting to give whatever happiness they can to others - #comforting families and getting justice for victims and jane's gifts and pranks and lisbon's supportive leadership and understanding - #wanting to be happy themselves; and maybe most importantly wanting the other to be happy #like just off the top of my head (and i'm so tempted to go right back and rewatch and actually write down every one) there's so much of it #and it makes me crazy because of how it's expressed on both sides #lisbon doesn't SAY it much - most of the 'i want you to be happy' kind of lines are jane's - but she SHOWS it #from the day they met and she helped him up off the floor she's there in support of him; #her quiet comfort when he's low; her eye rolls and indulging grins when he's pulling a silly trick on the team; #her soft smiles in the background when someone genuinely thanks him and he doesn't know what to do #with the pain she has in her past; in growing up; with the tough skin she's wrapped herself in to get through what she has #she appreciates the quieter moments; the moments where her big bombastic partner lets down his guard and #stops putting on so much of a show and she can see the joy he can still find in the little things even with all the darkness he carries #it's jane that has the big loud moments - the confessions and the spoken words - where he states outright (and repeatedly) #how much he wants her to be happy; how important it is to him and that makes so much sense because that's who he is #(not always of course but more often than not and that's how he presents himself) #he's dramatic and he's bold and his grief is the same; this giant unavoidable yoke that's never going to completely fall off his shoulders #and idk there's just something so beautiful to me about this man with the more obvious burden of pain being so doggedly - and vocally - #committed to the happiness of this woman who tries to hide her pain and shies away from comfort more than she's able to accept it #and that through everything they've been together the ways both of them approach happiness and each other have also come together #where he can say something like this and not only can she be happy for him but she can know just how much of that is because of her #'for the first time in YOU know how long' and she does #they just make me crazy

[odd-kid-42]

Listening to the post-s1 Talking Dads, and I swear Brennan Lee Mulligan needs to come into contact with Anthony Burch. They need to both be waiting on a crosswalk and Anthony can sigh wistfully about how he never asks players what they imagine as the long-term arcs for characters because he 'is actively playing against them'. I whole-heartedly think Brennan "I believe in railroading players to allow characters to grow in the directions I as DM and the player see fit while keeping the game interesting" Lee Mulligan could advise on the kayfabe.

It is just so obvious that they are operating off a false understanding/self-imposed rule about how D&D is supposed to work that doesn't actually help storytelling and DM-player satisfaction. Like, idk guys! I feel like you can talk about intentions without ruining anything. It's not like Dimension 20 is suffering under Brennan's approach to storytelling. He has a whole podcast about it.

#dndads #dndads critical #the disclaimer that Brennan owes no one anything #I just listen to his interviews and wonder what would happen if Anthony and he spoke #I know Freddie knows/is acquaintances w Brennan and has discussed dnd with him #I just feel like Anthony and co were operating under a self-imposed rule that left Anthony at minimum unhappy #bc Anthony explicitly was saying how unhappy he was with s1's ending #and Matt was going 'Darryl had no arc haha but that's dnd :).' #like no it's not #where are you getting that from? no it's not #not listening to s2 + don't care to discuss s2 #but based on Anthony's self-flaggelation it doesn't have to be this way dude #you can cool off and talk to your friends about what they want #you can feel like you are making narrative progress in a productive way as the backbone #and let them goof throughout wo getting frustrated at yourself #also Anthony get your bpd treated the suicide jokes aren't great expressions of those feelings okay? #I don't need to be unintentionally finding the /public reddit posts/ about how you feel + s2 listening friends commenting on the s2 #DMing doesn't have to be agony dude you haven't done anything horrible enough to justify these feelings #least of all in public with teenagers listening jesus #got distracted but anyway

[gojoest]

this episode was insane 😭

#— ai rambles #perhaps one of the best ones so far #toji vs megu and the moment it finally it toji that this might be his son #it finally hit * #the flashback! #his facial expression upon realizing it? brilliant 😭 #idk how to go about the sukuna & jogo fight i am so speechless #it all just made me realize once again how overwhelmingly powerful sukuna is #like when i look back and compare jogo’s attitude when he was up against satoru and his behavior throughout the entire fight with sukuna??? #you see it too don’t you 😭 like 😭 it’s on another level #he fuxking cried in the end bc he was praised by Him #😭 #THIS EP WAS SO SICK #thank you mappa for your amazing work

[nerdie-faerie]

I do think it's funny that the Salvatores are the ones with all the information this season because it's usually the opposite. Despite being around for a century and half they don't actually seem to know anything about the supernatural world

They didn't know werewolves existed, they didn't know about the Originals until Rose (despite their sire being on the run from them), they didn't know about sire lines, they didn't know about the sun and moon curse (this is particularly funny because wolves who'd been around for less time than the Salvatores knew about this), they didn't know about doppelgangers and honestly they don't seem to know a whole lot about Katherine full stop. Damon knew her real name and Stefan knew her birthday but other than that they seem to be missing out on key details about their sire. Stefan didn't even know he was a ripper until Lexi showed up despite Mystic Falls being home to 20+ vampires before this and they don't seem to know much about witches either despite knowing Emily and Damon protecting her bloodline

But this season? Damon is the one that knows about Shane and the Pastor's shady relationship, that Shane also knew Haley, that Shane convinced him to blow up the council, that a Bennett witch was needed to raise Silas and despite sirebonds being rare Damon has past knowledge of those too. Stefan knows about the origin of the five and the daggers. They both learn about expression being worse than dark magic to the point it's not even considered magic and is powered by mass murder, they know about the hunter's curse and potentials and they don't share any of it with the relevant parties!

Like I know the reason that they don't know things is for plot reasons so that they learn as we the audience learns but instead it just comes across as them having been entirely oblivious for the last century and a half. Which is particularly funny when they're the two vampires left in charge of teaching the baby vampires. They don't know shit! Nobody taught them by the sounds of it. Katherine and the MF vampires had otherwise disappeared, Lexi seems to come and go as is relevant to plot and Sage despite being at least 900 years old sticks around for one day to teach them to indulge in the feed before disappearing without further information like damn

#TVD #tvd lb #series 4 #Damon Salvatore #Stefan Salvatore #Salvatore brothers #The Mikaelsons #Katherine Pierce #like generally they dont seem to know anything and yet this season they have all the cards and dont share them with anyone #damon knows shane is manipulating bonnie and even when Shane says 'who do you think shes more likely to trust?' damons response is to say #to bonnie that 'the witch that loses her powers gets left out of the important conversations' further proving shanes point that bonnie cant #trust him instead of coming clean to her and creating that doubt in shane before she learnt about the massacres and was already dependant #on Shane for his help and keeping control. also at that point he knows shes getting her magic back? like i know its cus plec did bonnies #character dirty and constantly kept her out of the narrative despite being pivotal to the story but it doesnt even make sense #i know stefan couldnt tell in the beginning but once its out there theres really no reason for him not to come clean about everything #including express the sirebond and the massacres Stefan admittedly doesnt have quite the monopoly on info that Damon does particularly as #damon doesnt even bother to share what matt learnt about the pastor and Shane despite he himself being accused of causing the explosion #but still the lack of communication as a running theme throughout the show irritates me especially when it regards bonnie as shes the one #that has to pull through to fix everything in the end anyway so she needs that information to do so #but yeah they really are the donna nobles of tvdu in that they seem to have been unaware of everything going on in the supernatural world #for the century and half that theyve been alive

[adammilligan]

no but the way michael had to have known that giving the winchesters the spell would anger god. the way admits at the beginning of inherit the earth that he's hiding from god because he knows he'll kill him. the way he was so dark and cold and sad in inherit the earth. the way he looked and sounded so, so resigned when he faced god and told him it has always been his destiny to serve him. the way even when he pleads with god and tells him that helping the winchesters was a lapse of judgement he sounds so half-hearted when we all know he can sound so much more animated than that. the way adam's death fucking destroyed him so badly that michael just stood there and let himself be killed.

#michael just sounds so fucking dead throughout the entirety of 15x19 #and yes there IS a certain quality in michael's voice when he talks to god because he's still seeing his father after millennia without him #but his expression is just so fucking tired. so fucking dead #a bit similar to how au!michael seemed happy to see gabriel and then killed him anyway #it's just. michael just seemed like he was in such a fucked up state of mind throughout that whole episode #which the winchesters very obviously took advantage of to use in their plan #but i do wonder if michael noticed it and played into it anyway. if he knew that it would end with god killing him and let it happen anyway #because he was NOT like this in 15x08. and the difference is that adam's dead. and that made ALL the difference #if i'm going to get really into this i think michael let god kill him without a fight because he couldn't do it himself. #because he was still wearing adam's body and he couldn't bring himself to harm it. #michael's death is batshit insane tbh. he pleads with god for his life but it doesn't even sound like he means it. he already sounds dead. #azure rambles #michael #we came to an agreement

[tardis--dreams]

I think it says nothing about me that 98% of my favorite characters are the ones who absolutely do not trust anyone, always consider how bad people can be, rather than how good they can be. The ones who cannot read social cues well, and for whom intimacy, trust, and being comfortable around people is a foreign concept. The ones with childhood trauma who learned to adapt to a world where nothing could be considered to be save and no one could be considered to be trustworthy. The ones who never show their true emotions but if they do they do so violently breaking down. The ones who get treated as outcasts and have accepted this role.

But like i said. That says nothing about me as a person

#not all my faves combine all of these characteristics. but it's a theme. i relate to them. and i love them‚ which is funny #because i really don't like myself at all. #but it explains why i got imprinted on juwon and not dongsik. because i find myself in him #(do Not understand this as 'i like juwon more than dongsik'. i would die for dongsik. it's not about liking him more or anything #can't quite explain it) #and it explains why kang yohan is so very dear to me. despite me really not liking him the first few episodes the first time i watched #how he puts on a show in public and gets awkward around the people he loves and how he expresses his love by letting people hate him #(i love how we have a similar dynamic between gaon and yohan and juwon and dongsik but vice versa. but that's a different topic) #that's why i so very dearly love do hyun soo who got demonized so much throughout his youth he started to believe he wasn't capable of love #who put so much effort into trying to seem normal without realizing he Actually felt So much love the entire time #lee ji-an who doesn't even try to act friendly. who thinks she's a terrible person and cries when told she's actually good #mijeong who feels uncomfortable all the time who doesn't like anyone completely who's exhausted all the time #i have more but I'll leave it at this. i really want to point out every single thing i love about all of them (especially juwon and yohan #) #my heart beats a little faster whenever someone shows interest in me or implies/actively expresses they like me somehow #despite my very obvious lack of social skills. and i feel like I'm tricking them even though i don't usually approach people #but I'm not myself when I'm around people. I've recently started to try to be more me but i know i wouldn't be very likeable #(yeah idk where this is supposed to be going so i better stop. i just. Love these kinds of characters So much okay?!) #shut up amy