#ALSO the way theyre both so adamant they want to die single at the beginning and how quickly that gets turned on a head

[transasahi]

ahem.

much ado about nothing lawlight au

#went to see this play w friends tonight and could only think about this the entire goddamn time #EDIT: sorry im still thinking about this lol #but aside from how Absolutely hilarious it would be to see the task force and watari and the yagamis try to set L and light up #beatrice just has some raw fucking lines that scream light to me #also some very funny lines that Also scream light to me #like when shes mad and says 'would that i were a man i'd eat his heart in the marketplace' ???? #idk realistically light would never Say that bc he's got a performance to maintain #BUT HE'S THINKING IT #also the way that beatrice and benedick make fun of each other even after both of them have confessed their feelings?? #its so lawlight #ALSO the way theyre both so adamant they want to die single at the beginning and how quickly that gets turned on a head #its lawlight #'i love you more than anything. believe me not though i lie not. i confess nothing yet deny nothing' #ITS SO LIGHT #also benedicks line like 'suffer love? an accurate epithet. i love you against my will' #UGH #CMON ITS THEM #wow anyway #keith speaks

[shotbyafool]

ok so people always rec a little life as a modern gay book and its like how come the only stories that are popular are about gay people who die that book was so depressing and then we just get Nothing at the end like I suffered and for what???? disappointing and its long as hell

i think my main problem w/ it, which I realized quite a bit too late (~600 pages in) is that a lot of the suffering feels gratuitous or perhaps unrealistic to me, like why must Jude suffer and suffer and suffer! it mostly felt reasonable until Caleb and then the conclusion with Willem, because those feel like things out of Jude’s control. why is this man made to be in pain, constantly! and I suppose the novel seeks to claim that people who have bad beginnings struggle to accept goodness later in life, but these two points do not feel connected to that thesis because those situations are so frustratingly random. like even learning about Jude’s past I just cannot help but think: why did everyone in his childhood who met him hate him or want him to be in pain? what is the likelihood of that? what are the chances that the one person who cares for him in his youth dies, too? like all these illnesses and accidents and single mistakes pile up which makes me hesitant to suspend my disbelief. i cannot suspend for this long!

on your point, like... i was so happy with the beginning of their relationship because as a reader i am sitting there being like: are these two people going to do something about that unspoken tension in their friendship? (i thought i had hallucinated it at the beginning, but then i was vindicated). i guess i got a little disappointed by the whole “he’s not actually gay, he just loves Jude” situation so i like... like YES here we have gay representation but these characters kind of refuse to accept their identity as gay 

(I understand for Jude it’s more complex than Willem but o what I would’ve done for Willem to just insist that he is at least not heterosexual. i quite liked how he refused to take up the title as some “gay actor”, refused to speak at events as an LGBT speaker and all that, but his narrative seems to even scoff at the idea that he might actually be gay which feels... feels... well i don’t know, not right?)

i guess overall i am ok with SUFFERING but not suffering that feels like it has no reason. but mostly to your point i am confused as to why people would recommend this as a gay book, frankly, because the two men are ADAMANT that they are not gay and while their relationship so so touching and sweet and Willem Listening to Jude Tell a Story is really doing something to me right now, it’s not really... not really gay representation at all? it’s so peculiar because that feels weird to say but like, i did not pick up this book expecting gay representation (in fact i DID NOT THINK anything would happen there and was so pleasantly surprised to see that it did). i do not think anyone should pick up this book expecting gay representation. like there are two people... who end up in a relationship... and theyre both men... but... idk, this book doesn’t try to be representation and it feels false to claim that it is? and also why would you WANT to claim it as representation it’s so dreadful—not the relationship itself but the whole situation. 

i also do not kno anything about this book tho. like its perception and whatnot. i guess i am shocked that people talk about this book that way because to me it feels more like... i’m not sure... a hopeless odyssey sort of thing? like The Goldfinch but more dreadful and longer and of a whole life, not just some of it?

also... poor JB and Harold :(

#like i cried. i cried a lot. i cried post-death onwards #god her prose is too lovely though like only for that could i keep on going #JB and Malcolm were robbed though dont even talk to me... those boys : ( #especially JB to be honest. during his brief section i could not help but feel mad at Willem and Jude too!!!! #anonymous #ask