#ALSO tomorrow i am Not working on my tablet so i can draw more of my dragons :eyes;

[dragonanon]

If you told me a year ago that I would get into makeup and then obsess over it to the point where I legit document in the notes app on my phone, the different color and product combinations I’ve used along with which clothes they look the best with, I would’ve asked if you were high. 🙃😅

#and now here i am…furiously typing away in my notes app about different makeup combinations and which scrubs they look the best with #this is primarily because my dumbass can never fully remember what colors/products i used to achieve a certain look #so i’m writing this shit down now so it’s easier to choose which makeup to use for the day #what i’ve discovered since getting into makeup is i like to use colorful make just as much as i like to wear colorful scrubs #and what’s more is i ALSO like coordinating my makeup colors to MATCH my scrubs #so if i’m wearing blue scrubs i want to use blue eyeshadow and blue lipstick so it all matches #i think part of why i’ve been enjoying this so much is that coordinating the colors like this makes it all feel like art #it’s like i’m drawing and coloring but instead of my tablet or a piece of paper i’m doing it on my face #makeup really IS an art form and i can’t believe it’s taken me this long to fully realize it and how much fun it can actually be #not me rocking up to work in bright sparkly green eyeshadow and light blue lipstick to match me Toy Story pizza alien scrubs #thankfully no one has given me any crap for my choice of makeup colors so far #and i would like to think that it’s because i really try to match all the colors i use with my scrubs #so it at least all looks good together #but more than likely it’s because i’m not hurting anyone by doing this and my face is still recognizable #it’s not like i’m over here painting my face to look like pennywise or some shit #the most ‘extreme’ thing about my makeup is just the colors #i’m not doing any crazy designs or anything #just using colors you probably wouldn’t wear on a day to day basis #such as bright green eyeshadow and light blue lipstick #the way i see it is if i’m allowed to wear colorful scrubs and it’s not an issue then why would colorful makeup be an issue? #tomorrow i’m going to wear blue-purple eyeshadow and purple lipstick with my dark blue scrubs #because i think it will look neat #will update on how it turns out

[hwaightme]

GUY.exe

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✏️ pairing: yunho x gn!reader ✏️ genre: fluff, crack, friends? to lovers, drawing? to lover ✏️ summary: you never expected for the character you designed for the newest dating simulator to be quite as realistic as this ✏️ wordcount: 5.0k ✏️ warnings/tags: questionable editing, unhinged crack galore, fever dream, digital artist / designer reader, shy boy best friend yunho, lowkey referencing the song the fic is named after (GUY.exe by SUP3RFRUIT) ✏️ taglist: at the bottom of the fic~ ✏️ a/n: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE MY NADIA @justhere4kpop !!! you are the kindest, funniest, sweetest person ever, i love you so so much and i am so grateful for every day because it means i can spend it with you <3 wishing you the best day, all the most amazing things, experiences, achievements and more!!

Another hour more, and you were going to scream. Hunched over your drawing tablet with bloodshot eyes and a cramping hand, you had been drawing and redrawing what seemed to be the same thing over and over again. But nothing gave you that magical feeling of completion and rightness when the abstract lines and shapes and shadows and doodles all came together on a page to form one whole. What you were experiencing was, in fact, very much the opposite. All because of these damn dumb brown doe eyes that you had decided to give to the character. Of course. What other eyes could the golden retriever type have, right? What other kinds of eyes would your boss approve of for the established archetype, the persona that you had ideated, storyboarded and proposed not only in front of your immediate team but also to senior management? That was right. None. No other. Only these doe eyes that you had been staring at and cursing profusely for the last four hours after having promised yourself that you would try to get to bed at ten in the evening instead of the less-than encouraging past midnight madness. But who were you kidding? 

Setting down the pen, you leaned back to stretch, hearing random joints crack and echo around your body, making you wonder if you have even been moving at all for the past few weeks. Having the opportunity to work from home during fast-paced sprints was, of course, a big benefit, but all too often for you, it also meant only ever walking from your home office to your kitchen and back, with the occasional bathroom break and a flop onto the armchair you had dragged into your office for designated social media scrolling time. Gone from the world, with your friends having nicknamed you an e-hermit in not one, but two separate chats. Zoned out and barely hanging onto the words spewed by your superiors, much like the rest of your fellow designers working on this same project, be it other characters, setting, clothing customisation options, accessories, or special items… as the main project lead, boss of the bosses had said: ‘whatever the user wishes for, should be there’. Who knew that a dating simulator could be that intense and demanding? 

Your drawing tablet was glaring at you, and so were the eyes on its screen, doubled onto your monitor watching your every movement like a painting at a museum would. They were meant to be kind and loving, crafted to complete the sunshine that this character was supposed to be, but the slightest misses in the lines were throwing the image off-kilter, and you could not pinpoint what was wrong. Reaching out for the now lukewarm cup of coffee off to the side of your desk, narrowly avoiding the clutter of sketches and notes you had made, you heaved a sigh, pondering if it would be the wisest to simply resign yourself to abandoning the task for today, and pick it up at work tomorrow. It was not like you would be punished for having the eyes be slightly off during an update meeting, after all, this was an ongoing process. But the perfectionist part of you was not letting go. You had managed to ideally depict everything else - the toned, tall physique with the stunning waist, torso and broad shoulders, the cheeks that made you feel a strong cute aggression, the tousled locks that could then be customised by a player’s colour preference, every other feature of the face that screamed ‘handsome’ and ‘appealing’... you did it all, and you would not be yourself if you could not overcome this little blip.

“One more try…” you whispered to yourself and searched for the file on your computer that contained a user story and profile of the character you had been agonising over. 

One click, another, and the document was up on the screen, revealing an initial concept sketch that you had made when you first proposed the man as a possible love interest for the main character in the simulator, as well as any facts about him, now being even further developed by the story-writers. Page after page, update after update the character in some ways felt more real than you, especially in your current deflated state. A gentleman, a sentimental soul, with what your colleague had called ‘four-dimensional’ traits and overall a funny, adorable sweetheart who at the click of a finger can turn into the sexiest man alive. There was nothing you did not like - aside from some details here and there that you were not sure who added but they had been approved so you had to deal with it, and that was problematic for your work since it meant that you were in the permanent state of wanting to do the character justice. You scrolled back up, starting at the brief, staring at the name as if it wasn’t already imprinted in your mind. Jeong Yunho. 

The dance instructor and choreographer. The talented and hardworking man who the main character would meet third, on her eighth day in Seoul. Born on the twenty-third of March nineteen ninety-nine in the city of Gwangju, moving to Seoul to chase his dreams and fight for them. Special talents… skills… favourite phrases… preferences… key memories… you read on, re-absorbing the details and rearranging them on imaginary shelves, trying to make sense of the information in the context of character design. How were you going to depict all of this in a pair of eyes? A part of you was confident that you were overthinking - actually, you definitely were. Not a single other designer was on Yunho's creation, and developers were going to look at him not as a persona, as a representation of a being that had become real in your mind, but as a task to execute, lines of code to make him move in predetermined ways, make him talks in predetermined ways, smile… yes, you were excited to see him be just that bit more alive, but at the same time, you were afraid of that moment - it would be right then that the world you had subconsciously built for you and him alone would be shattered, and your daydreams dispelled, maybe even crushed. So, getting the eyes perfect right now was the least you could do. At least your Yunho would be perfect.

Swearing under your breath, you picked up the pen once more and twirled it once around your fingers. His personality was fresh on your mind, heart racing, you could almost imagine him in front of you. With a final nod of encouragement, you dived back in, with more vigour and motivation than before, determined to get Yunho right, and to depict him how he truly was, how you knew he should be. The time ticked past, and so did the layers of doubt. Erasing themselves along with strokes of the digital brushes that dissatisfied you, you were unveiling the true character, and with a light heart, a smile on your face and a saved file, leaned onto your desk and rested your head on your crossed arms, just for a quick break to relish in the fact that you finally achieved the look that you had been searching for…

“Hey, good morning you worker bee, what did I tell you about sleeping at your desk?”

You never thought you could yell, right after waking up, as loud as you did at that moment. Jolting up from your seat, forgetting all the papers, equipment and stationery that was strewn about on the table on which you had been dozing, you bolted away from the source of the voice. It had resounded far too close to you for comfort, belonged to no one whom you knew, and was dangerously sweet and slightly lower-set. Pleasant. But who the hell was in your apartment and how did they break in when you almost always double-locked your door? After building up a bit of distance, you finally looked up and rubbed the last bits of sleep from your eyes. The figure was lean, toned, considerably tall, perhaps even very tall, definitely a man, with dark hair and a face that was a bit too similar to-

Jeong Yunho. Jaw-dropping, you darted back to your tablet and computer, practically shaking the mouse, forcing the entire digital system to begrudgingly awaken at your command. You searched everywhere. The open file, others, older versions… nothing. No luck in finding what you had been working on. It was as if the Yunho you had been spending weeks developing had never existed, and all that you were left with and were staring at was a blank page, and the character, no, a whole man, right in front of you, supposedly living, breathing and in your room. You stood up straight, giving the not-quite-a-stranger but still a stranger a once over, while he, confused, had an eyebrow raised and a sheepish smile on his face. He looked adorable that way. Abashed to the point of cuteness - you recalled a game developer on your team describing the planned emotional response functionality in that way; it had been a hit, and now you were seeing, in person, why. 

“Y-Yunho?” you whispered in disbelief, a hand hovering over your mouth while you were wondering whether you should officially report yourself to your boss for having succumbed to the delusions. Relief flashed over the beautiful man’s features when you mentioned his name, timidly, yes, but still, it was his name that you uttered.

“Yes, Y/N, that’s me, hey, don’t worry.”

“Y/N?” He knew your name. This was too real - a shriek erupted from what felt like the depths of your soul, and you shut your eyes, only to open them again and to see the same picture, but a little more zoomed in. He was approaching you. Code red, alert, alert, hot man of your dreams who you had been drawing all the time and were effectively being paid to thirst over was approaching you.

“Do you not remember me or something, are you okay? See I keep telling you to not sleep so late, it’s bad for you-”

“Look who’s talking, mister ‘time to text at two in the morning’,” It was a shot in the dark, a random recollection of facts that had been noted about Yunho, but that was true, since he stopped immediately, a dazzling smile on his face.

“Alright, alright, you got me. But hey, you answer me so we are in this together, right?” he countered, and winked. 

“Yeah… and I should stop drinking coffee that late, it gives me some cursed… abilities…” you concluded cryptically, though Yunho did not seem to care much about the wording, taking it as your account of how easily you had been spooked by him.

After the initial wave of ‘stranger danger’ had subsided, instead being replaced by the odd conviction that the man before you truly was just the representation of the character for the simulator, you crossed your arms and regarded him more slowly, calmly while he approached the book cabinet that was filled to the brim with manga, manhwa, figurines, dolls, action figures… effectively the best representation of what had inspired you and continued to drive you to do what you were doing in your life now. He was dressed casually, in a zip-up grey hoodie and dark grey jeans. He had taken off his shoes and was in black socks that he stuffed into a pair of slippers - so in this reality, Yunho clearly was a regular guest. Scratching the back of your head, you wondered if this was a storyline that had been updated and you were unknowingly hallucinating.

“Well, uh, if you… if you want me to come by another time I don’t mind. Whatever works best for you…”

Oh. It finally clicked in your head, and your heart fluttered. The moment was stark and aching in your mind, and you were barely able to contain yourself, the subconscious fangirl in you fully awakening. The light flush of pink on his cheeks, those damn doe eyes that were so perfect, and were now looking right at you as if you were Yunho’s entire world, it was all a telltale sign for what was to happen later, and the past disappointment at having been woken up and having no more documents to present evaporated. This was another life, it had to be. One where you did not have to worry about the endless story points, bi-weekly sprints and one deliverable after another. Only a very precious Yunho who, while toying with the sleeve of his hoodie was pondering if he was even welcome.

“Hey! No, we were planning to hang out and we are going to. Sorry, you know how work is and it got to me this time. What shall we do then? Go out, stay in?” you amplified your sociability, putting the fantastical aspect of the circumstances on the back burner for future pondering.

Laying down the pen that you had absent-mindedly grabbed for self-defence, you stepped around the desk and towards Yunho, never once breaking the visual exchange, except when his gaze darted to the floor under your intensity. You had the advantage after all, of knowledge. You could sense, and could confirm by your universe, what exactly was going to happen. He was pretending to not be affected by your closeness, looking at the cabinet again, though the tone in which he spoke was vulnerable, every bit the dream guy you were imagining all this time. You could barely resist the urge to pinch his cheek - in fact, you made a mental note to yourself to check if that was a playable option in the game or not.

“Can we… stay in?”

“Take out?” if there was something you would not quite let him do, it would be to give him full power over the kitchen. Perhaps another time, but not when the dream was so magnificent.

“You bet! I’m buying this time-”

“Yun, c’mon.”

“Technically I am still the guest.”

“You are much more than a guest-” a pause, a blur within which Yunho was attempting to pick out the meaning behind the words which you had purposefully left to be ambiguous, just to mess with him a little bit. It was too sweet, “I mean, you practically live here at this point,” he groaned and playfully rolled his eyes while continuing to tap in the order to what was for sure meant to be your favourite restaurant in the neighbourhood.

You followed him into your living room. Everything was just as you had left it. Even Yunho’s presence was beginning to feel natural, probably because it had already been pretty much just as constant as him now physically falling onto the couch and leaning back to stretch an arm out over the back of it. Hell, you had even spent some evenings sketching him in this same room. As you settled beside him, while still keeping a little bit of distance - just as friends who were feeling not quite platonic would do, you realised that indeed, you were that close. You did know him ‘since forever’, and whatever this fever dream was, you had every right to enjoy it. So upon pulling your legs onto the couch and under you, you settled in and with a soft sigh began to set up the movie you were going to watch. Just like you and Yunho would do had he been an actual interest of yours.

As the food arrived and was promptly devoured, and you were midway through the film, you found Yunho slowly but surely gravitating towards you. First, it was with an outstretched hand when he was trying to imitate a character on the screen, then with him sitting ever so slightly closer when there was supposedly a ‘spooky moment’ even though you knew full well that out of the two of you, you were the one who would not dare enter a haunted house again, and finally, under the pretence of ‘wanting to show you a funny meme on his phone’ he sat right next to you, thighs flush against each other, arm resting on the sofa right behind your head. You could not help but lean into the warmth, attracted to it, comforted. You knew Yunho inside and out, and if there was anyone who you would trust like this, it would be him. He had seen you at your worst - crying in the office bathrooms when during your early days at the company you had been humiliated by your old boss (who, thankfully, had been promptly fired), and had seen you at your best - your award-winning presentation and proof of concept for an innovative life simulation game, selected as a showpiece for the company at a major global conference. He was always there. Be it on your phone, in a sketchbook, or on your laptop - he was always there, cheering you on. There was no difference between then and now, except that now you could allow your head to rest against his broad chest, hearing the soothing beating of his heart behind the cotton fabrics, feeling how his hand dropped to trace random, intricate shapes on your shoulder while his eyes stayed glued to the television screen. 

You could sense that he was afraid to look at you, or at least of what he would think or do if he were to do so. He was warm. Very warm. Maybe too warm. You looked up, noting the adorable redness of his ears that appeared only in particular instances: either he just woke up from deep sleep which was not the case, or he had violently shaken his head and rubbed his ears - another no, or he was embarrassed and shy. Bingo. There it was. You nuzzled against him and swore you could feel his entire body stiffen. Just like when a cat makes a person ‘ the chosen one’ by lying on their lap and said person almost forgets to breathe, you nearly knocked consciousness out of Yunho, it seemed.

“What’s up?” you mumbled, noting that Yunho straightened his back, sitting in an unnatural position.

“I, uh, nothing, it’s nothing,” he responded, clearing his throat, still not daring to look to the side to face you. 

A pause. That was his character - you nodded to yourself. He had always been like this. Sympathy through the roof but when it came to his openness - he far from often strayed into that field. It would take quite a bit of coaxing, or, somehow easier, waiting for the right moment. So wait you did, comfortably resting against Yunho, insistent that he return to his previously unwinded state. Before you could snake your hand around him to pull his hood up, your friend suddenly shot up, mumbling something about it being too stuffy, or too hot, and tugged the article of clothing off.

All would be fine and dandy if he was not built how he was - and you knew it better than anyone, however strange it was to admit. After all, you had been the one to pick and sketch out his physique, knowing every muscle, curve and edge. As he fumbled with the sleeves, you took in his form, mouth agape as you saw what you had only perceived two-dimensionally, now in live action, and somehow being the one case of where the transition was impeccable if not better. If he were to turn at any moment, he would bear witness to your disturbingly dedicated scrutiny. But at the same time, what could a digital artist and designer do when a handsome man was right before them? Exactly. It was practically a duty to perceive; if not for personal interests (which you would be a liar if you were to say you did not have them), then at least for science. He looked too good in the dark grey graphic t-shirt, which, despite it being slightly oversize, did its beautiful work by revealing his perfectly toned arms. When you noticed him being in the process of turning back, you peeled your gaze away and back to the movie, not sure where in the storyline you even were, nor what the actors were saying. Patting the space next to you, you beckoned Yunho back. This time, he was calmer in his demeanour, falling back and letting you fall into him, with him, for him - and he was right there to catch you. 

Action scene after action scene turned into a blur, dialogue was static that you were not bothered to discern while you focused on Yunho’s breathing. Shallower than before, but still comforting. Who would have thought that you would be cuddling with your dream man when a mere few hours ago you were holed up behind your desk, with a cramped and stiff neck, an exhausted hand and equally tired eyes? Eyelids grew heavier, and you wondered if it would be long before you would fall asleep again, and wake up alone, as usual; a bitter smile settled on your lips when the realisation hit you, earning you a perplexed glance from Yunho and a poke in your side.

“What are you thinking about?”

“Oh, nothing.”

“Definitely something, he turned to you, studying your every movement. The action led him to detangle himself from you, leading you to shiver a little from the lack of his body heat, “ah wait are you cold now? I- wait, here, hoodie?”

“Thanks.”

Him. In every thread. The scent of clean laundry, cotton, and fabric softener. There was something so magical in it, soothing. You wanted to float in the aroma and this moment forever. Pulling the hoodie tighter around you, you pretended to not notice the adoration that was blatantly obvious in Yunho’s expression. He watched as you pushed up the sleeves a little bit, crossed your legs and looked back at him.  Your friend, your muse and subject was nervous, and it did not need a trained professional to figure it out. The tale was climbing to a peak, and the main characters had to face it together. You waited for him, mellowness across your features as you played with one of the hoodie’s drawstrings.

Yunho looked at you, and something about the purity, and hopefulness within him made you think of the very first drawings you had made on post-its in the middle of a conference. Bored out of your mind, your mind wandered back to pondering the new project you had been assigned - the dating simulator. Idea after idea had been proposed for the characters, but not a single one stuck. Everyone was at a standstill until he came along. A breathtaking blessing, just like he was now. Silence settled like snow, only to be broken by a short hum, and Yunho taking the risk you had been wishing for.

“I… I know it has only been a few months but… I really don’t think I can be friends with you anymore, Y/N,” you tilted your head as he put his hands on his lap, fingers repeatedly messing with the material of his sweatpants - his attempt to soothe himself. You, on the other hand, were oddly calm. Simply waiting for the events to unfold and for you to embrace them with the fullest heart. While he was searching for the right words to say, you placed a hand over his, waking him from rumination. A weak smile was replaced by determination, truth spilling from his soul.

“I like you too much. Really. I would not be able to keep my distance even if I tried.”

“Well I think you are a bit too far away right now, Yun,” with a wave of boldness having washed over you, you acted on instinct, leaning towards the beautiful, infinitely precious man until he could not look away, captivated by your proximity, your glimmering eyes, your acceptance.

“Huh?” the sound was barely audible, an echo lost to the tension. You ran a finger over his jawline, instantly seeing his expression darken with another reverberating, deep sensation.

“We should seal the deal, shouldn’t we?” remaining cryptic, you inched closer and closer until you could pick apart the flicks of lighter mahogany in those stunning irises - you wanted to shake your hand for having persevered to finish them in the drawing. Truly, one of a kind.

“What-”

“Oh just kiss me already-”

That phrase you did not need to tell Yunho twice. Finally catching on, he was the first to destroy the distance between you, capturing your lips with his and letting his hand find purchase in your hair, digits running through it, caressing you, guiding you into a shared rhythm. He was as sweet as vanilla with a hint of cinnamon. An intoxicating, ecstatically overwhelming daze that consumed you whole. You saw the sketches flash before you, burning one by one to fuel the desire building for Yunho, for you, for the two of you together. It felt right, it felt real. Arms over his shoulders, you allowed him to pull you into his lap, embrace you and pepper the softest kisses on your cheeks, and your neck, finding the path back to your lips. You felt more alive than ever with the electricity coursing through your newfound intimacy. Nothing existed. This universe was Yunho, and you could not be happier. Better than in any story that you or your co-workers could develop, better than in any fairytale, the oddity transformed into eternity. This was a dream you wanted to remain in for as long as you-

Saying it was hard to wake up was an understatement. Your entire body had been aching from having fallen asleep in an awkward position over your drawing tablet, you had slept past your alarms and as such had only fifteen minutes to cram getting ready and leaving for the office, and upon checking your schedule you had the ‘pleasure’ of having three more meetings being crammed into it, reducing your lunch break to what was a near null. With a sigh, you moved away from your space, dragging your tired body to your first official interaction of the day after having sat at your desk for a couple of hours, already dreading it. The new CEO - whoever they were, was the ‘I want to know all the details and be one with the teams’ type, how joyful, you wondered how long that would last. 

It was hard to find the motivation, especially after a dream such as yours. It kept on revolving in your head, pressing down on you, making you reminisce the gentle caresses, the sweet words and actions, the delightful kiss that you had managed to just have the time to experience with Yunho. You were seeing your character in an entirely new light, already having reworked some ideas for the possible special event outfits and spammed your close colleagues who were working on the storyline with some ideas about how Yunho could have even better depth and as such, engagement from prospective users. Perhaps for this meeting with authority you just needed to tap into your delusions and it would be good enough - at least they were productive for once. 

While you were setting up the presentation, the rest of your immediate team began to file in, giving you excited waves that you returned with an unprecedented warmth. Pleasant chatter, discussion of possibility, mention of just how special it was that this dating simulator game project was the one the CEO had chosen to see today… you were feeling confident. Whoever this person was going to be, you were going to give your best and-

The door opened. Heads turned. Greetings, bows - all forms of politeness that could be expressed being delivered. People standing up, while you stood up taller by the board, the title slide behind you. You raised your head, only for time to slow down and freeze entirely. Your hold on the clicker tightened, and the only person aside from you who existed at that moment was the newcomer. The CEO. Greeting others with a smile and with equally as elegant bows. Every bit the gentleman in his tailored suit, hair swept back and impeccably styled. Jeong Yunho.

This had to be some kind of joke, right? Was this a dream? The stinging remaining after you pinched your arm slapped you back into reality. No. This Yunho was definitely real. But who was the one you-... the one you started dating? The one who you were way more than colleagues or friends with? Before your mind could accelerate into panicked rumination, his gaze stopped at you, and you could sense everyone else’s attention drift to you too. You were under his spotlight. Melting under what was nothing but kindness in his eyes.

“L/N Y/N, right? I heard a lot about you,” his grin was making you dizzy, memories of his taste resurfacing and sending heat to your cheeks, giving them a light dusting of pink.

“Good things, I hope?” you managed, he chuckled, and sent you a wink before sitting down on his chair.

“The best. I am really looking forward to this,” a playful tease.

“Glad to know this.”

“I heard you made quite a few new developments, how did that happen?” you knew what he was getting at, and that made you feel secure. So it was the same Yunho. That precious Yunho who had confessed to you, the one who had come to life and was now part of yours, by some odd twist of fate had appeared in your company, and was now right in front of you, eager and in love. You smirked while twisting to check the slide one last time, well aware that his only focus ever would be you.

“Came to me in a dream.”

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[spockandawe]

Okay! I'm rapidly reaching the point of needing some creative self-care, or I'm going to crash even more viciously than I'm already starting to. Bad things: work is about to be SO fucking intense for the rest of the month, and while my home is unpacked, it is Comically unorganized. Good things: being unable to walk to work leaves me with more free time and less exhaustion per day, and I've recently refreshed myself on what supplies i have. I also am all set to start figuring out how to paint a house as soon as I can test my samples and clear a room. This will scratch the novelty itch, so i can be responsible and avoid buying new things. But i also can't lose focus on the organizing or I'll Adjust and never finish 😂

Let me see

Crochet in general: crochet is what I've been patching the mounting anxiety with, and i DO want to use up yarn, but it's hard on my wrist already, I can't afford to get too deep.

Baby blanket: almost done, could probably finish tomorrow in meetings, but because it was pretty bland, it won't be that fulfilling

Big Boi blanket: god, it's been years, I want to finish, but i WILL need to buy some yarn

Rocky horror lips: tedious single crochet, fun concept, but need to avoid wrist fuckery

Cross-stitch starscream: yes! I want to do this!! But this will be the opposite of quick gratification

Art........?: ALSO YES, goddammit, i want to figure out the stupid tablet! But good LORD, it's hard to decide what to do. And I'm in one of those phases where I'm not FAST, and I'm not vibing with what i make. The solution is just to draw more often, i know. But fuck.

Hc/mq: had a conceptual breakthrough, maybe? But i still don't know how it will proceed, so idk whether to commit the energy

Bwx/xl: this is half done already, AND outlined, I don't know why I can't do it. If i make myself, maybe i can find my groove

Lqg fic: it'll be long and intimidating 😭

Bingge lite: it's been 84 years...... But i really really really really love it and want to be able to share it. But the scope will be Horrendous, it may need percolation and warmer weather

Raksura core: i, uh, um 🫥 (i want to finish it! I really do! I can't focus worth SHIT)

Quilting: that would be good! Use up stuff! I want to be better! But god, the PREP WORK

Addendum: can i think of a fandom quilt i could pull off? Even if it was. Idk. Bingqiu colors. That might help me focus. But i also need to use up my stash :T

Long furby: would be good. I've had the materials for-fucking-ever

Pyrography: ooh, maybe. Especially if I can find art i dont have to compose. But if i set off the smoke alarm while it's this gross outside ill Die

BOOKS: heavy lifts and decision paralysis all around. Could be star wars (long, not for me, have to match existing volume), cnovel (several wips, but each is so much work to format, good god), ofic (not for me, also have to revamp formatting), ilcbt latest edition (needs the luxury treatment, which requires brain), pof latest edition (needs the luxury treatment, which requires brain), and all of the most appealing projects need a lot of materials, and I'm still in debt, lmao

Peerless fic: I've had the concept locked down for years, but i need to refresh on more of their late-stage characterization before feeling confident

Fourteenth year of chenghua fic: i also have the concept locked down! But i want to see the final evolution of wang zhi's relationship to the other two first

2ha fic: I ALSO HAVE THE CONCEPT LOCKED DOWN. but i still haven't...... finisheddddddddd, and this is going to need to be a fairly lengthy fic to wrangle xue meng in a believable way

#UGHHHHHH and I've wasted another day doing nothingggggg #that's not true i crocheted during meetings #and had meetings until 7:30 #but it's not the SAME #i think a crochet pattern needs to be a CHALLENGE to really vibe with this emotional need #long post/

[the---hermit]

12|07|2022

23/30 days of self care

Today I continued working on the first set of documents I took pictures of at the archive, and believe it or not I am basically done with this first group of photos. I will conclude it tomorrow morning, and then start on the second set of pictures, which I feel like I could manage to be done with by the end of the week. I also heard from the professor, who asked me to have a meeting to discuss the first chapter of my thesis. So at the end of the week I'll have that, and it was perfect timing because I was already planning to take that day off to go out with my mom. I have been given some money to spend on books for my birthday so I cannot wait for it. Aside from this I did again quite a bit of reading, I have picked up House Of Leaves by M.Z. Danielewski again after almost a month of having it on hold. I think I've finally hit the pont of the book in which I am really interested to know how things will develop. I am more or less half way into it, and the more ambitious part of me would like to finish it by the end of the week. I am not sure if I can do it, but I surely can try. In the afternoon I have also practiced Irish on duolingo. Self care things I did today:

read first thing in the morning (and a lot during my study breaks)

took some time to draw (after such a long time I was really in the mood to do some drawing and I started a big illustration in my bullet journal for August)

tranquilstudy's studying challenge // day 27

Take some pictures studying outside in the sun!

The stuff I am working on at the moment is all on my tablet, so it is impossible for me to study outside, which is a nightmare, because I love studying in my garden. I am lucky because I do get a lot of natural light in my study, but the feeling of studying around my plants is unbeatable.

#studyblr #studyinspo #tranquilsummerbuddies #30 days of self care #uniblr #university #book #notebook #notes #handwritten nites #study space #desk #journal #studying #journaling #myhoneststudyblr #serendistudy #productivity #motivation #mine #the---hermit

[megustacat]

Here she is !

At least so far :D

Finally I can reveal what I am working on. Meet Macy, my very first OC that I will be illustrating myself. Currently she is my fave OC so I put her into Touchstarved and she fit there perfectly. Since it is my first time ever drawing a human I am really really struggling a lot and it also very unfamiliar to draw with colours.

I only have drawn little creatures or animals before in black and white or with a pencil, so this is very new and exciting.

Here are other pictures of her steady progress over the last couple days:

It's not much, but it's honest work.

Sadly I won't be able to finish her soon since my Dad needs his tablet back tomorrow and this is as far as I as able to progress with her. I am sure other talented people reach that point in a few hours but from concept until now it was around 5 days for me now. But I also got a full time job and stuff to do so it wasn't 5 actual days of work :D

I hope so far you like her and find her interesting. My friend said they will coach me as soon as I get the iPad back to finish drawing Macy and they wanted to help me with her face - the thing I am very most afraid of.

Shading, details, even the hair do not seem remotely as stressful as drawing her face, it is just really scary to mess it up and get super frustrated with not being able to convey what I am imagining, so huge kudos to all artist, I came to appreciate this kind of visual art even more over the last few days ❤️

#touchstarved #touchstarved game #oc #Macy Dubois #may draws #i love macy so much #and macy loves Leander #she loves her big himbo man a lot #they are such a power couple #both completely nuts and very in love #i hope you guys will like her as much as i do 🥹 #touchstarved Leander #Leander

[bvannn]

Weekly Update June 16, 2023

I did a lot this week. Got a bunch of life stuff together and did a good amount of art projects too.

TRGA is going well. Finished up lipsynching the second batch of audio today, and am planning on grabbing the third and final batch before bed tonight. The third batch would be the shortest, meaning it’ll likely only be 4 shots or less. Once those are done I’ll doll up the puppets again and get going on character animation. I do have a new job that will likely wear me out, but character animation can be done without my art tablet so I can still get a few good keyframes in each day. Will aim to finish off storyboards by next week.

Artfight prep has been the main thing I’ve made progress on this week. I’ve actually started poking the website and bookmarking characters and stuff, although chances are friends and mutuals will take priority once the event starts (any of y’all feel free to plug yourself in the notes so I can find you). I finished the thumbnails and refsheets for Unit 624, who I will be posting one at a time, once a day to the website (and I’ll queue the new art here too), so now all that’s left is Anastasia’s thumbnail and refsheets for the O’Malley kids. If I’m in a good mood tomorrow and not working on TRGA for some reason I’ll try to throw those together then.

Work has a long lunch period so I’ll try to get in the habit of bringing my sketchbook so I can draw during break, or maybe I’ll even bring my laptop to work on animation or writing projects. I want to be really productive this summer. I’m hoping I can keep up the energy I’ve had this week, although I’ve finally been given the okay to start selling my blood again so that’ll probably make me more tired (although it’ll also make me money so still a win).

#weekly update

[pbandjesse]

I had a really excellent day off. I was chill. I was productive. I did so much lounging. It was great.

I slept okay last night. I had some wild dreams again. I actually read the other day that melatonin can cause wild and intense dreams. So maybe that's why I am the way I am.

I woke up enough to say goodbye to James. And slept until 930.

When I woke up I knew I was going to wash my hair. But I wasn't in a rush. I had nowhere to be and no where to go. So I stayed in bed until 10 watching stuff on my phone. And then got up for my day time shower.

I washed my hair really good. And I let my hair mostly air dry. I put on some very comfy clothes. It was the perfect temperature in here and I was never uncomfortable. It was great.

I had the rest of my egg salad for breakfast. And shared a little with Sweetp. It was a nice morning.

I wasn't exactly sure what I wanted to do. Not much. My hair was still wet. So I would just lay on the couch with my hair fanned out behind me and played on my phone for a while. Eventually my hair was a little more cry. I did hit it with the hair dryer just a bit at my roots. And then got into making my wishlist of supplies for camp. Which would take a while. Mostly because my laptop struggles. But I got through all my projects and made great choices in my opinion. I'm excited for this summer.

I did some more vacuuming and I made more jello. But the big project for the afternoon was my market table.

I want to redesign it around the idea of food and picnic. So I am using our suitcase picnic table. Which also has the benefit of having built in seats which can be used for different levels. I want to have different things this year. Including stickers and pins. I figured out what size pin could go in my candy machine. And then spent the next hour sculpting little clay bears (4 kinds for variety) and baking them. The plan is to make a mold and cast them in resin. Tomorrow me and James are going to go pick some mold making materials up tomorrow. I think they are going to be so cute when they are done. Much like my gummy bear pin that the kids always want to take from me. But a little weirder and closer to my stuffed friends.

Once that was done I laid down again on the couch. Cut up a mango for a snack. And just enjoyed hanging out.

Eventually I would go do some organizing of my stuffed friends. Figuring out which ones need repair and putting them to the side. I am almost all out of fluffy bears. So I will have to make more of those soon. I also decided to try to make some loom knit pieces but the machine I have is just. Not working properly. I want to get a better one. Maybe that is what I'll use with the birthday money my parents gave me. I think that would be a really good use for it.

I would chill in bed working on my smaller hand loom for the next hour or so. James would get home in that time. I was really happy to see them. We decided on pizza and salad for dinner. So about an hour after they got home they headed out again. To get gas and pick up dinner. And while they were gone I got out plates and things.

We had dinner in the living room. And then I decided to do some more tablet drawing.

I designed a few more stickers. I want some funny ones. And so I did a shopping bag. And a farmer and a cup of hot chocolate where the bears are marshmallows. And then Jess suggested a farmer. And I thought a gamer neck beard would be funny. And I just drew and drew for a few hours and was having the best time. I want to make a bunch of these. I am really pleased with my ideas and like I usually say I don't draw because I don't have good 2D ideas but these have been a blast so far.

My dad called and we chatted for a while. We talked about how the new fleshtoned leg he got upset him. And I don't blame him. It's to uncanny. I have heard something very similar with people with missing eyes. And that having stranger prosthetics actually makes them feel better. He also asked if I could help with fixing his pants to be easier over the leg. So I will try to solve this problem!

Me and James cuddled on the couch for a while. Until my allergies went a little crazy. And I had to leave the couch and take something and wash my face. I am still pretty uncomfortable right now but it's getting better.

We are in bed now. And I am pretty tired. I feel happy though.

Me and James are going to camp tomorrow to do filming and I hope it is a good day. I hope you all have a good sleep and take care of each other. Goodnight everyone!!

[bugznews]

Friday, April 5, 2024

Dear Journal,

I feel like today I have so much to do. There seems to be a never-ending list of chores that need to be done. I must get them all done before tomorrow.  That is when my church conference starts. I mean I know that it is broadcasted on TV. At the same time, I don’t want to miss any of it.

This is an example of putting too much pressure on myself to be perfect. But to be honest I need this weekend. This is where I get the spiritual food that I need. I will admit that I don’t always get to church every week. So, with my mom’s crazy work schedule, this must last me for another six months. Her job has started to rule our lives.

I will be taking careful notes on my tablet so I can look back over them in times of need. This will remind me of what I have learned. The reason I am putting my notes on my tablet is because it is very hard for me to write with the shakes that I have. So, when I can I try to use my computer or tablet to take notes. Or even my phone sometimes.

I am so glad that my mom is getting the sleep that she so desperately needs. The cat is on top of her making sure that she doesn’t move a muscle. Chores can wait. Besides we have all day to get them done. Another problem that I have been having is that my knees are just aching. It is all this wet weather that we are getting in Montana. My knees even have a pillow under them. This is how bad it gets sometimes. If it gets much worse, I will have to start using my cane again. I don’t want it to get that bad. So, I am doing a lot of rest. Trying not to push myself more than I need to. I am also trying to do as much as I can sitting down. I will be the first to admit that I had to be on my feet to put groceries away this morning.

My mom does all our shopping on her way home from work. I get up about that time so I can unload that car. It isn’t that hard, especially after carrying Tubas around for the band. That is mainly how I spent my high school years until I dropped out to get my GED. I did much better with that than with a traditional school setting.

Now that I have my diploma from college a whole new world is opening to me. I know that my blog is part of that world. I am just not sure how to make it all come together. That was mainly me thinking out loud. It hasn’t hit me yet that I am a college graduate. I never thought that I would see the end of the tunnel in that one.

Now I just must figure out how best to use my education. Now, I am just waiting for everything to sink in. I am the first person in my family to finish and receive a college education. I feel like my grandpa would be so proud of me.

Now if I had given up like I wanted to. he would have kicked my butt. So quitting was never an option for me. Once I started on a project I had to keep going.

At first, I wasn’t getting followers on this blog, and it discouraged me. But I kept trying. I tried different styles of writing and things of that nature. I also learned that I couldn’t do this blog 7 days a week. I needed time for myself. Once I started taking the time I needed to take care of myself it was a huge difference. So, since I have a church conference this weekend I will not be back until Monday. So, everyone please stay safe and support each other. I will miss you but at the same time, I do need to take care of my spiritual self. I hope that you all have a higher power to turn to when things get bad. Or every day just to have someone to talk to. I say prayers both morning and night. Sometimes every minute of every day. I just do occasional ones where I only give thanks for all the blessings that he has bestowed upon me. If you don’t have a higher power find a place where you can feel at peace. That is all that matters. It doesn’t matter if you go to church every week. I hardly ever make it because my mom is always so tired from work. I do have to go in for a blood draw tomorrow so wish me luck. Have a great day.

#mental health awareness #spiritual health #the church of jesus christ of latter day saints

[siennasstore]

Day 1 Intro And Very Short Term Plan

Day 1 (January 23, 2024)

To be honest I don't know if anyone will read this but I've decided to start this lil blog to document my journey or trying to start my own business. Maybe (hopefully) one day I'll look back on this from my big top floor office and smile at how far I've come. 

For a short intro- my name is Sienna Rosales, I'm a junior in high school and am enrolled in my city's vocational school for esthetics, my birthday is January 13, I  hope to go to college and get my cosmetic science degree and one day become a practicing medical doctor of Dermatology. 

Back to the business tho. I would like to create an "all things beauty" type store. More than likely starting with makeup and skincare and then later branching out into hair, teeth, glasses, fashion, ect. Really just anything you can think of when it comes to appearance. I don't mean to sound vain but seeing how someone's mood can change when they think they look good is really why I want to do this. I want everyone to be able to use/ find a product that works for them in my store no matter their background or anything. I also think it would be cool to have a brick and motor shop one day that doubles as a safe space- and a cafe. 

My parent's are supportive (tho it seems one more so than the other tho that's neither here nor there because they love me and I love them) and my older brother agreed to talk to a friend of his who he models for that runs their own business, I will be sure to nag him about that. I have lots of concept ideas on my tablet: I suppose I may have got tired of just concepting and keeping them to myself and hence we ended up here. I have some money saved up from when I was able to work although I suspect it is not enough. 

I have no clue where to start. At the moment I am signing up for free versions of website builders (Wordpress, Wix, Shopify, and Squarespace) to try and catch the vibes of them. Either later tonight when I am undoubtably up even tho I should be sleeping-shh don't tell my momma- I will start looking up how to start a business, what you need to start a cosmetic business, ect ect. I will try to update tomorrow/ whenever I work on this new big project of mine. I feel like this is something to big for me to do (especially mostly on my own) but the thought of having this come to fruition brings an excitement to my heart that I have truthfully not felt in years. If someone is reading this I would really appreciate any advice you can give. Maybe one day I'll even post some of my concept drawings here. 

-Thanks, Sienna R.  

(there's also a google blog version of this also under Sienna's Store)

❤️

#cosmetics #entrepreneur #makeup #skincare #help wanted #small business

[bishiglomper]

I dont know if I'm just feeling more hopeful today or what but. I was thinking about bro wanting me to do the night shift. I asked my sister and I dont even have to do the yard report, which involved driving around the lot recording trucks. I dont drive. 👀💧

But it sounds like i just gotta sit in a guard shack all night. Possibly intake a trucker or two. Bro makes it sound like they're friendly. Biggest barrier would be language and/or accents..

Theres no Wi-Fi but sissy says bro would probably let me use his hotspot. He used to take his PS4 and everything. 😗 I could take my drawing tablet.

Bro isnt good being left with his thoughts but I thrive in silent solitude. 🤣

Also its all SITTING and SUPER MINIMAL SOCIAL INTERACTION I'd be stupid to pass it up, honestly. Even if I AM in pain. I can sit at home in pain too, so. Might as well make a few bucks from it, right? 😂 I think its shitty pay, bro got promoted and the niece working at KFC still makes an additional 1/3 of what he does but. Better than nothing.

I think this is all my morning coffee talking. Dopamine is lovely.

Its not my body feeling better because holy crap I'm still sore. 😅 every time I sit my body does this decompression release of pain. Is very unpleasant. My knotty back has improved though. Arm feels alright but.. its function has degraded. ._.

I missed PT today. We went dumpster diving for boxes and lost track of time. Going tomorrow.

#personal #rambling

[bucksmmorg]

Nemetschek allplan schulung

#Nemetschek allplan schulung drivers

#Nemetschek allplan schulung windows

One of my many :-) presents to myself was one of the new Wacom Intuos 3 tabletsapart from looking really cool, they have addressed the problem of not having a scroll wheel on a pen by introducing a slide strip and buttons on both sides of the tablet. except Allplan.!īirthday - Well, it has been a week of celebrations for my 50th Birthday (2/10). Wouldn't it be nice if they finally updated the leader line tool so that it had an arrow at the end - but I bet they won't! To be able to create leader lines with a little arrow at the end to point notes at locations on the drawing is one of the fundamental time-savers in all CAD systems. A completely revised Dimension module, modernised text editor and a generally more 'Windows' look to everything are being mentioned but we will have to wait for an English 'What's new in v2005' to appear sometime in the New Year to be certain what is included. in fact it worked better in v2003! It also looks as though cills might be available to window openings. At present in v2004.0b4 this is not working properly. returns in cavity walls as they are known here in the UK). While still in beta testing the official 'What's new' should be out in January (the German version anyway).Īs usual with Nemetschek it's a steady development rather than a spectacular jump but some good news is that it sounds as though they have finally fixed the wall reveals creation and editing in multi-Layer walls (i.e.

#Nemetschek allplan schulung drivers

Nice to see that there are recent certified Allplan drivers for the Nvidia Quadro range of cards on the Nvidia driver download site.Īllplan v2005 - Some details are emerging of the likely new features in Allplan v2005. (The FX4000 is just out but is too expensive to justify even for 3D CAD use at the moment). Incidentally I am using a PNY Quadro FX2000 graphics card with dual DVI outputs to drive the 2 monitors.Īnother bargain at the moment is the FX3000 card from Andy Hankins at - that arrives tomorrow and should be even faster than the FX2000. It works extremely well, but for day-to-day use it is more comfortable to just use the Cintiq on it's own - you can pull it off the desk and onto your lap :-) You then need to recalibrate the Wacom and so the pen only works within the tablet screen and you must use the mouse to access the top screen. You can then save the window layout in Allplan.

#Nemetschek allplan schulung windows

To do this with Allplan you need to stretch the top of the main window up into the 'upper' monitor - here I put the animation window and created some elevation and plan windows on the Cintiq. Just for fun I set it up in a dual monitor configuration. Running Plandesign on it is nice, but using it with Allplan is fantastic - so natural to be looking down at your work. In the meantime I was lucky to find a Wacom dealer in London (brilliant service btw) who still has a couple of these fantastic electronic 'drawing boards' at less than the original price. There is a new model coming out in February 2005 from Wacom I am told, but no-one has any information on the specification. Wacom Cintiq 18sx - Wacom have apparently discontinued the 18sx monitor/tablet (which I think is the same device that Nemetschek have been selling as the D-board along with their elegant Plandesign software).

#Nemetschek allplan schulung

[esor-ogramira]

The Digitalized Mock-up Poster/Book Cover

My executive dysfunction has been horrible lately, and I can’t get an increased dose of my ADHD meds for another few weeks because I have several psych evaluations tomorrow and next Wednesday! Which includes a new autism eval, a full psych eval, and an adaptive assessment. I don’t know which ones they’re gonna do first and which ones they’re gonna do next week, but tomorrow, I have to go for the majority of a day without my psychiatric meds.

Yaaaaaaay. /sarc

ANYHOW, that is why I have taken so long to upload this fine behemoth of an artwork! I decided to make Luternai’s wings red/dark red so that you folks can read the working title of the overall series a bit more easily! Took me about 3-4 days to complete this entire poster!

My XP-Pen Artist 12 2nd Gen graphics tablet is really great! The only issue I have with it is how quickly the nibs for the stylus wear down. I don’t know whether it’s because of the protective film that’s meant to make drawing on the tablet feel more like paper or not.

EITHER WAY, I have completed this behemoth!

I made a timelapse of the process using CSP EX’s timelapse feature, but for some reason, Tumblr refuses to let me upload mp4 files. I guess Tumblr really hates video files!

Once I’m able to write a script relating to The Fenrathae Series that is five minutes long or less than five minutes long, I’ll be recording myself reading that script, and make the timelapse a narrated timelapse. Then I’ll upload it to YouTube! I can’t record more than five minutes of audio because I’m not very active on YouTube AND I only have two subscribers to my channel. Which sucks, because my first script (intros for all the characters in the above poster) was seven minutes long. I am also very verbose and descriptive with my writing in general, which is a big disadvantage when it comes to making videos that are up to five minutes long and no more than five minutes long.

#digital illustration #Esora Ogramira's art #digital art #digital artist #original character #The Fenrathae Series #The Fenrathae Series: Of Teal Eyes and Orange Lightning #Of Teal Eyes and Orange Lightning #original story #original series #deities #demigods #demigod oc #deity oc #Esora Ogramira

[calamarispiderart]

o shit!!!

#hlvrai #bubby #hlvrai gordos feetman #hlvrai dragon au #my art #fire tw #dragon #i spent. WAY longer on this than i expected to helllpppppp #i drew this all w my tablet if i had been using what i usually work with this wouldve been done a lot faster :pensive: #aaaaaa my shoulder hurts real bad now hsbshsbd #please reblog this is you like it please im. hsbshsbsb #i have ideas for stuff that isnt redraws in the future i just wanted to draw this one rn #i was going to draw it on stream but then some stuff happened so i couldnt :pensive: #ALSO tomorrow i am Not working on my tablet so i can draw more of my dragons :eyes; #i would draw them on the tablet but it. urgh. i still need to get used to it #ALSO im gonna draw a mothrey dragon sometime soon so :eyes: #just need to figure out a good balance between dragon and moth and benr/ey #aughbfhb its three am nowwww #i spent Multiple hours on this #if you see any mistakes no u didnt :hearts: /lh #im not fixing anything rn if theres anything that needs to be fixed im doing it tomorrow #NOT right now #i have a headache alsohsbshsbsh #btw idk how easy it is to tell but bubbys meant to have patterning like a lab coat!

[bvannn]

Weekly Update October 13, 2023

This week had a bunch of ups and downs. It’s been busy but I’ve been trying to do what I can on the side.

I’m definitely falling behind on my inktober prompt sets, partially because of exhaustion but also partially because of time and social obligations. I was able to bring my sketchbook to dnd tonight and start inking everything up to yesterday’s prompt, although I need to go over it all with the bottle and brush before they’re finished. I do unfortunately need to sleep early tonight so I don’t think I’ll be able to do any more digital art tonight but I do have a sketch done for the next goretober prompt. I am very limited on time tomorrow (and this weekend in general) but once I get my comms done I can get to that and start sketching some more.

Animation hasn’t been too slowed by my busy schedule since I can work on it during lecture, but I am unfortunately still exhausted, so it is much slower than it was in early September. I’m almost back on pace, though. Jon’s animation for shot 1-4 is done except for his face and some cleanup work (Jon in particular has shoulders that like to fall apart). The sketchy assets for Emile are almost all exported, and reimporting them can also be done during lecture to save time. I’m not sure if I’ll begin animation on 1-4 for Emile or Tim once Jon is done, because Emile looks like more fun but Tim would give me an excuse to get some prop assets done that I’ve been meaning to. Prop assets take time from other drawings since k need my tablet for them so actually now that I think about it I’ll do Emile next to buy myself time to catch up on prompts.

I’m in a weird spot with music stuff, I’m finally getting an idea of what I want to do and how to do it, but then komplete kontrol decided to have a big ugly update that deleted a bunch of samples I was going to look at. If anyone knows how to relocate/reinstall/return the samples under the ‘loops’ tab of komplete kontrol (that is, the tab labeled loops, not any loops saved to the controller. My controller is not affiliated with Native Instruments and is not affected by the update), please please please let me know. I can try workarounds or other plugins, but my computer is a bit tight on storage space and I don’t know if I’d have room for another plugin. Looking into getting a new computer since I’m about at that point anyway but it wouldn’t be for a while yet. Idk I might try to work around it if I find time but that seems unlikely to happen until probably next Thursday.

I’ve been on and off thinking about OC story planning as well. I drew Vaughn the other day and people really seem to like him, plus I realized he could fit in pretty nicely into another underdeveloped story (the one with Parsley and Julie), but I’d need a basic structure for that before I can really do anything with it. I have a plasma appointment tomorrow morning so I’ll have time to think on it, although I’ll probably dedicate the time instead to music planning and shenanigans.

Lot going on, also a fair amount of homework stuff for uni as well, but I’m managing. Worst of this week is a lab report I’m not sure I’ll have time for but in the absolute worst case I can sacrifice my sleep on Monday or Wednesday night. I’d rather not but you gotta do what you gotta do. I’ll try to get going on the rest of the prompt set drawings but sometimes other things take priority.

#weekly update

[croren]

hey, cro! how are ya?

Ooooo duck.

Eh, not too good, thanks for asking though! I can always count on you to be sweet and lift my spirits. :)

I have finals starting tomorrow, causing me to go mad from the start of this month to now. So that kinda sucks. I also have the lack of motivation to draw and have been a bit down for the past few weeks. Also, can I just say that my eczema is being a little b lately. Like please, can I just have a break for a sec 😭? Luckily break is actually coming up and I'll be able to spend some time with family. Another upside is that I'll be getting an ipad pro as a gift for Christmas with the help of my lovely mother (thank you mom :0), so I'll be able to do more quality work (my last tablet was pretty old so big upgrade.) I can't wait to test out procreate :) Also, those things are pricey as hell, like geez,. Like you don't get enough money as it is Double P. Mom, you get all the cookie points after this, I am at your service.

Honestly, the only thing that's getting me through are Druig fics. I want to lay down and cuddle him, is that too much to ask? :")

I know I rambled a bit, but I don't like talking to other people about my problems, so I just come on here and vent 😭. It's better than talking to myself and looking like a lunatic.

Anyways, how are you Aniqua? I hope you are doing swell and looking and feeling lovely as usual. 🖤 (Sorry for answering so late, I was busy procrastinating studying for my finals.)

𝒒𝒖𝒂𝒄𝒌.