When Basim said to Roshan “You let me struggle alone”, when Basim let his past define him entirely by fear of loneliness, when Basim was terrified of ending up alone because he experienced total loss in his earlier life. When Roshan said to Basim “I am the daughter of no one”, when Roshan denies her past to define herself as an individual with no bound, when Roshan ends up leaving Basim behind despite loving him so much she almost gets killed trying to prevent him from losing himself. When Hytham said “Everyone is worthy of our love” to Eivor, when Hytham defines his life entirely on the Hidden Ones' creed and on Basim's teaching after losing his mother, when Hytham is left behind by Basim even though he was like a son to him. Roshan going on her own, leaving the Hidden Ones. Basim going through the ages, leaving everyone. Hytham staying in Ravensthorpe with a new family, never getting closure.
When Roshan taught Basim the leap of faith, when Basim taught Hytham the leap of faith, when Hytham taught Eivor the leap of faith. Roshan's “embrace the fear”, Basim's “you simply need to have faith”, Hytham's “my faith proved stronger than my fear”. Do you get it.
no but im never going to be normal again. LOOK at this. look. IMMEDIATELY before this he gave a whole miserable speech at the graveyard about how much he misses the kids and how he wants them to come home. He was grieving so hard it started to rain. He cried while he sang to them. It was the perfect end to 5 days of grieving- and then he does this.
and the rain isnt about grief anymore- the thunder isnt a peaceful background to a heartbreaking scene. It is rage. the whole context changes. The storm raged on while he grieved like he raged during the Everything Else that happened (“there are a lot of federation workers on today. I need to interrogate them about some things” he said while he was following forever ALONE to distract him. he knew forever was fucked up and about to put more marriage pressure on him and for anyone else that would have been Terrifying. how could you focus on anything but that? but. bad was thinking about tormenting more federation workers)
i just!!!! its so good. its SO good its so scary its so good. bad hasnt accepted the loss of his children but he has accepted how far he will go to get them back. (he will do anything)
im so silly! hahahahaha hahahahaha ha hahaha ha haahhahahahaha h haha aa hahahahahahah haha hahahhahahahahahahahahaha haa hahaaha ha a hahahahahahahaha hahaahahahahah hhhhh hahahaahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaahhahahahaha h haha hah hahahahahahahahahaah hahaha ha hh hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahha ha ha hha hahaha haha hhhhh hahahaha ahahahaha hhhhh haahahahahaahhahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Apparently I really do have some unhealthy parasocial relationship with Seventeen because since I saw the news of Scoups being exempted from military service due to his injury, I have been so worried for him and the reaction of the public.
Like I literally want to call svt and ask if he is okay, don't let him be on social media too much, everything will be alright, he is so so loved, most people understand, please make sure he takes care of his injury, give him a hug, be strong all of you.
charlie's daddy issues atm are my favoriteworst thing ever. the charlastor potential makes me nuts but also LUCIFER WHEN I GET YOU LUCIFER WHEN I GET YOU