#AND HE COULDNT TEXT ME BACK

[hannibal-is-my-comfort-show]

#they have this convosation atleast once a week #some couples go on dates #they go into denial #<3 #also the idea of them texting eachother is so unreasonably funny to me #like if i saw a roadman start sending letters via pigeon?? #I think hannibal would see emails as stooping #texts? #only beacause Will started texting him when he gave him his number and ifc he couldnt just NOT text back #oh god i know this man knows nothing about texting culture #and i KNOW he signs each one off with his full name like Holt from b99 #anywayyssss #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal nbc #netflix #hannibal netflix #will graham #hannibal lecter #hannigram #renew hannibal #revive hannibal #hannibal crack #hannibal incorrect quotes

[immensity-to-dream]

au where claw, not yet seeking world domination, is in the business of ousting and punishing fake psychics. suzuki sends serizawa to figure out if reigen's a fraud, but he forgets to factor in the power of gay tendencies. and also its the 1970s.

#in this au mob and reigen and co are also like. more organized and aware of claw #anyways serizawa is like okay ill pretend to be a client but before he reaches the office he bumps into reigen on his smoke break #reigen assumes hes there for the cafe. reigen flirts. serizawa clarifies hes here for spiritual consultation. #reigen has a crisis trying to switch from cool gay persona to salesman persona. #it is so so obvious he is not a psychic but serizawa goes to suzuki like um couldnt figure it out today! guess ill have to. go back! #serirei #reigen #serizawa #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #id in alt text #<- but they might suck tbh. #this is mostly a chance for me to try and digitally color my pencil drawings in a way i dont hate

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[rohirric-hunter]

I love when LotRO uses your class in casual conversation like this because it basically always makes sense for Hunters. Like, aside from the fact that that's an actual job with actually quite a lot of integration into the lore, it just tends to flow well in whatever context the game decides to whip it out in. A bit uncreative, but a reasonable name for a bounty-hunter, right.

How on earth am I supposed to take myself seriously when I come back and replay these quests on a Beorning? Especially since this is supposed to be a disguise. "Well, you see, my grandfather was named --"

#lotro #spoilers of umbar #and then when they're just like 'oh i see you are a <class> of some skill' #a marvelous complement! this npc is impressed with me! unless im playing a burglar #'oh i see youre a thief. and good at it. good for you.' how tf am i supposed to interpret that #back to the beorning example quick question how does isildur know what a beorning is #i mean sure ill accept that they had them back in the day #but how does he know what theyre called these days. beorn wasnt alive during the last alliance #was that like the one thing gulthava told him #edit: i actually went and double checked the quest text on the wiki and apparently SOMETIMES they have isildur beat around the bush about it #but sometimes he just says it #also they couldnt have had them back then #because doesnt lotro take the stance thst beornings learned to change from radagast #and he wouldnt have arrived yet #so no they didnt have beornings back then

[sebek-zigbolt]

sebek shimeji is kinda doneeee I think I keep finding things to add sahyasgs

#I think hes v well made if i may pat my own back for a second there #worrieddd abt uploading #bcause he will b lost in the internet forever #but i must b brave #i mayyy try to add extra animations but i couldnt figure out the code for EXTRA stuff so far :/ #so propably not bcause ive crashed it like 11 times by adding more stuff dygsugygdasasd #tho i still wanna try #i wanted to add an extra language too but Hnn also cant find a way to implement it #also u can pet his head now which is the best thing ever omg like YAYY #text #nvm hes NOT done i wanna try code edits now #I want to make a silver one too but i will reuse the code me thinks #and SOME assets since they share clothes #even tho most r......... useless...... bcause too sebeky hes too energetic

[summerlycoris]

Guess whos potentially working a triple tomorrow?????????

Im going to transform into my final form if this shit keeps up i swear to god.

#summerly talks #im just. gonna have to tell my boss that. effective immediately. i cant work the weekend anymore #sad because its good money #but this is becoming a fucking pattern and if it does i may actually dive into a fission reactor while singing meltdown ;_; #like. i was okay with the double? my coworker called in because her baby was sick #and she promised me if i couldnt get anyone to cover for my am shift tomorrow she would take it #then at like 9pm i get a text saying. she cant. her baby wont let her leave #and i feel selfish because. she has a baby. but i have cats and luckily i was able to drop by today to pick up my sleepover kit #and also make sure minty had food. (fieldie has an auto feeder so hes okay) #and i just. want to go home #the reality is i cant. i cant go. not unless one of the people i texted gets back to me saying theyll come in #and no one has yet. its 11pm. no one will at this point. #im tired im tired im tired #i dont want to end up like i did at my ladt job. giving away entirely too much of me and destroying myself #ive already lost most if not all of my passion for this job #and when i was younger i dreamt of working with disabled people. i burnt too quick and now im a shell of what i was #but this is the only thing im trained for that would allow me to like. keep my home #maybe if or when i move to brisbane i can look into a different job. do an it course idk. something where there's less people skills needed #i better try to get some sleep orz tonights gonna be a bitch of a thing

[oscar-piastri]

my sister and i’s relationship went from: ‘i wanna kill you’ (and actually trying to when we were kids) to ‘do u wanna help for my wedding’

#march 2021 being where our relationship evolved a lot and we got way closer through grief #bc nobody could understand her better than me and i made it possible for her to move on more easily #and she had my back when i was out of quarantine just to attend funerals because she and her bf were the ones holding my hands and hugging- #-me while i cried bc i couldnt say goodbye #for context my grandpa was dying and my parents didnt wanna tell my sister. told them to tell her and let her go to the hospital to say- #-goodbye while i wasnt able to go bc of covid #as soon as my parents told her she texted me thank you. sadly he passed away before she got there #but she got my crush to text me to cheer me up and she texted me to reassure me #and then she had my back for the funerals and im forever grateful #cassy is speaking #*

[butcharyastark]

thinking once again about how painful but necessary the desire for revenge against hector is to isaac's arc, bc the thing is that it is unfair and it does hurt to see them pitted against each other, but that's part of the point. isaac doesn't really hate hector, he just hates what he represents, and to isaac hector represents a bucking of the security that gives isaac the only purpose he's found, the only morality that makes sense to him anymore. he starts out wanting revenge against hector bc he thinks he's betrayed them, which means betraying dracula, which means breaking down the only thing isaac has left anymore bc the thing is that dracula's presence and goals are both pillars of stability to isaac who doesn't believe in the goodness of people anymore, and so hector presumably unimaginably rejecting that is the necessary broken link in the chain that gets isaac on his road to genuine self-agency and recovery and believing in kindness again

bc the thing is that hector's betrayal (and dracula's following selfless compassion but not the focus of this post) is the first thing that spurs isaac into something he wants. it's him that's angry at the injustice and the fact his last haven of stability is gone. it sets him on the path to exploring and discovering goals of his own, nobody else's, bc before he was relying on dracula's support and plans as a coping mechanism and substitute for having control of his own life bc he had lost hope that there was any point at all to even trying to care about himself or what he might have wanted. and once that first domino tips, and the other players enter the board when isaac finally begins to interact with other ppl again (talking to the captain, that old woman, the demons) instead of shutting himself off, it can only end up one place from there: isaac realizing that he has a choice.

he wants revenge against hector and wants something for himself and realizes he has power to obtain it and makes an effort to care abt something new and he starts to realize that maybe what he really hated was himself bc maybe he never thought he was worth forgiveness either and maybe he thought humanity was hopeless bc he was hopeless and he starts to notice through recognition of the other that both starts and ends with hector that maybe, just maybe, if other people can be kind, if other humans can be worth trying for, if the world can be good--maybe they had never really been pitted against each other at all, maybe they had always been the same and had been trying their best to survive despite the horrors. maybe hector deserves compassion and kindness and tenderness and forgiveness... because realizes he deserves those things too.

#if this is incoherent im sorry its 4am and im in my isaac feelings #this is just basic reading of the text ik but im always so insane that isaacs entire arc is recognition of the self thru the other #in the form of realizing that the world is not hopeless despite the cruelty it has #and he is not undeserving of love despite the cruelty hes experienced #and the way he breaks that cycle himself on PURPOSE bc he wants to be good and kind bc ppl are worth being good and kind to #and he only knows it bc for the first time in his life other ppl have been unconditionally good and kind to him first #and what started as a journey for vengeance becomes a final of righteousness and kindness #hector was not his enemy. he /was/ his friend. and the world (at least the world isaac was living in) wanted them to be against each other #bc there was no room for softness & sweetness & friendship & love bc no one had let him know before now that the world was not just pain #and like he needed that he needed to be angry at hector first bc he needed to realize he was capable of having his own desires and emotions #and wants and he needed to find out for himself that he never really hated hector or the world or humans. he just hated himself. #he needed compassion too. he deserved it too. so he gives it back at the end to hector. the first person who treated him like a friend #im sorry im just. AUGH. #my post #castlevania #once again i am not a castlevania blog i just love isaac #@besties: if u see this post of me isaacposting at 4am tomorrow its bc my discord was down and i couldnt message yall

[0tul1ss]

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#mannn i literally assumed he ghosted-- why on earth would he text me after so long???? #i was fully like 'ok the last msg i sent literally makes me cringe a bit to read but its been months so ig im never opening the convo again #it was simpler before when there felt like there was nothing else to do and easier to move on. i even had a little crush on someone else ! #now i have a whole wheel of decisions to choose from #and idek what i truly want from this guy anymore bc even just platonically he kinda fucked it up like. idk #or rather i want a lot of different things and idk what to choose #i want my friend back. i want to never see him again. i want him to know every truth of what ive felt and i want him to know none of it #i want him to miss me or maybe wonder about me sometimes down the line. i want him to not spare me another thought for the rest of his life #i want to reply only 'go fuck yourself' and i want to write him a letter and i want to ghost him better than he ghosted me #i want to tell him i love him and i want to tell him i hate him and i want to say nothing at all #i want the closure i was denied. i want to protect the closure i now have #<-going insane #anyway its soooo stupid like i already grieved for this shit bro. i accepted the end of this years long close friendship #anyway idk why im doing so much processing of this in a vent post nor do i know why i always feel compelled to post these when i do #good thing i keep a small presence on here lol. but yea uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh send post #ok wait i saved this as a draft and went to go look for what i had been tagging vent posts with #[couldnt find one i had been using consistently even tho the whole point is so ppl can blacklist it if they want whoops!!] #and i saw another vent from another time he just kinda disappeared on me #and while this time was a lot worse for a lot of reasons i think its important to say this-- #that the last thing that i want is to go back to square one of this stupid awful cycle #vent

[skitskatdacat63]

Time to go be designated driver for my brother and friends, this should be fun...as always...

#i have been pavloved into hating drunk people 🫢 #such annoying phone calls #like ues i will pick you up jfc #stop trying to call 😭 just text me the address #god two of the times i had to pick him up were so treacherous #the one time it was so freezing and i had to wait like 15 mins for my car to stop being covered in ice #and the other it was literally torrential downpour #like absolutely horrible conditions to drive in #and this mf couldnt stop calling me #im like dude do you want me to crash before i even pick you up #and then had the gall to get pissy w me when he went outside to wait before i told him to shkfkf #it was such a scary drive #and on the way back this asshole tractor trailer splashed water all oevr the car #it was like a tsunami eave i thought i was gonna die 😭😭 #well anyways. should be fine tonight #except he sounds so drunk and i dont wanna deal w that #and i have to pick up his friend and his friends gf too 🙄🙄 #what am i a chauffeur 🙄🙄 #(i do want him to be confirmed safe tho so i dont mind that much) #catie.rambling.txt

[squicksquak]

never feel bad about having an attitude with annoying men they need their egos brought down a little, they don't feel bad about being a bitch so why should you?

#“rant in the tags srry” #texting me at 11.30pm asking me to come over to a party when i told him two days b4 i couldnt make it #'im tired' 'we have energisers' get the fuck out of here i said no #im not gonna leave my house at this hour to go spend time with a bunch of guys i don't like to watch fucking anime #esp when this guy texting likes me like #i do not need you trying to get with me girl i know where you keep your cutlery #i have a shit ton to say ab this guy but im tired of typing anyway #if u think im gonna miss on sleep to go watch anime with a bunch of annoying 17-19yr olds youre fucking crazy #i think he thinks i like him back even tho ive told him a million times i dont see him like that #need this man to shut the fuck up for real #n the emojis he sends are so fucking cringe gtfo of here i send a rolling eye emo and he goes 😬 #like yeah you should be 😬 - ing i told you i cant come and here u are texting me at ELEVEN THIRTY #asking me to come over #fuck off

[thequeenoffishburrito]

Me at 2 am struggling to understand basic grammar terms

"Mom what's a verb, preposition, and noun?"

"GO TO SLEEP"

#bad jokes #textpost #text post #if this joke doesn't make sense/is incorrect then i didnt do the right research #i wish i was kidding when i say i had to research this to make this joke. the thought came to me in the shower cuz i want to make a funny #comic for my dnd/pathfinder character whos the household dumbass amongst his noble intelligent family. i had the punchline of go to sleep #and i knew he needed to ask a grammar related question but i realised/remembered i still struggle with understanding basic grammar/srs/ #i learned all this shit in a french elementary and even though back then my french was better as a kid everything that was said to me was #a confusing mess/mash up of words that went over my head so i never really understood-understood shit. i only knew things because it felt #right or wrong(i cant describe it) but if asked to define things i couldnt explain it in words. #blame the tism #so yeah while i've gotten better now to this day i still occasionally need to look up the defintion of a noun or verb when doing madlibs :')

[noosesurroundsme]

I want to cry and I want to die

#my heart is racing #I'm really anxious #he doesn't fucking understand #he doesnt ffffucking understand how he makes me feel #dont text me saying some passive aggressive crap about me not talking to you at work #when i see you i see you and feel you touching me again #i cant get it out of my head no matter how hard i fucking try #i want to bury it under a rock and forget it but i fucking cant #i will never feel okay and he keeps thinking im just going to all be all normal #he just fucking texted me again and said that all it was was a back rub and when my boss and I said to stop that he did #he was had his body up against my back and was in my pants and up my shirt #i feel like im a crazy person and im making it up #i know what you fucking did to me and quit playing your fucking mind games #why do i keep feeling like its all my fault and i should be sorry but i just sat here on the stool paralyzed and couldnt make it stop

[fruitshake]

if you ever feel bad about breaking a social rule in public, one time i was at a cabaret show and this guy made a joke that made me laugh uncontrollably, even after the bit was over and he was trying to talk about his past experiences with cancer

#jochem meijer i am so sorry #thank god i was very at the back so he probably couldnt hear but the guy in front of us kept turning around #me and my sister were both just unstoppable #looks away #my text #social rules

[tomwaterbabies]

when i was at disneyland the first ride we went on was pinocchio’s daring journey and i started crying

#text #the ending just got to me. u see the wishing star sparkling above. and The Song is playing. and its after everything he goes thru. and #and. and then hes with his papa again. oghgghgghgggggggggggggh #also in the ride version he's brought back to life by the blue fairy but he's still a puppet. based. legit #a real boy no matter what #if you COULDNT tell. i have hyper empathy and cry real fuckin easily #AND. and. it was right after meeting pinocchio

[sunjoys]

i dont have attachment issues (my tax credits are fucked up because i still havent manually removed my previous job from my tax info)

#my last shift was february 2023 #i wasnt fired i jsut had like a month where i couldnt work my usual day bc of college #and then when i COULD work my boss was like hm i dont need u this week or next or or or or and so on #so i got a new job #told my boss abt it and he was like OK! I dont need you this summer #and then he texted me in september asking if i could work like no dude i got a job lol #he was like “oh okay let me know”.. #like yeah theres no way im going back bc i Have a job...... but. i wasnt fired and i didnt quit. so #attachment issues