#AND RIGHT BEFORE WE GO TO BED TOO

[todayisafridaynight]

hunting daigo 101

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 3 #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #snap sketches #this is so mid but ive wanted to draw this for a while and i just want it out of my brain finally #i WAS going to draw this more accurate to the rggo scene but i scribbled this right before bed and i was too lazy to redo it #this can just be Another time daigo goes missing we can believe that

[toastsnaffler]

after I've worked thru my current library stack I think im gonna reread tlt for the millionth time. bc I deserve it <3

#i just wanna feel smth... ive been suppressing the hyperfixation too long I need to get rly annoying abt it again. and make so much fanart #fortifying the defences before the seasonal depression properly hits..!! #my flatmate was saying it would probably help to have a project or smth and shes right its just difficult for me to start things atm #so it might be easier to go back to smth familiar but interact with it a new way. i want to annotate more and draw a tonnnn #and dredge up the half finished art I drew 2 years ago when I first read gtn..... #I definitely have a list of personal projects id like to work on somewhere but maybe this can work as an on ramp to that. we shall see #anyway going to bed early bc i have parkour tomorrow morning and also i wanna read a few chapters of smth before i sleep.. byeeee #.diaries

[jomiddlemarch]

THANK YOU, KANSAS!

#abortion is healthcare #us politics #we won't go back #incredible turnout #I admit I was too scared to check the news last night #my husband told me before we went to bed #because the margin was so decisive #kansans doing the right thing

[k66-official]

Greetings, Pekoponians, and welcome to the official web log of the Keroro Platoon, yessir! I'm the amazing and awesome Sergeant Keroro, and I'm sure I could do a better job introducing myself, but I'm just so, so excited to meet you all that I just couldn't wait to open up shop! As your friendly neighborhood alien invaders, we've opened up our "ask box" so you can communicate with your future overlords, yessir! So, please, drop by and say hello, yes, yes!

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #keropost #kerrooo i'm so excited!!! #we'll try to post pictures if we can! don't you want to see our fearsome yet adorable faces? #don't lie i know you do kero :) #me and tamama are excited anyway #i haven't told the others yet but i'm sure they'll have fun too yessir! #thank you tamama for helping me with this social media stuff btw #couldn't have done it without you private <3 #-k66 #and now a word from our host: #hi guess who it is :) #thats right its gem! from neardaily frogposting! yippee! #ive never run an askblog before so im jus. im doing my best here #i tried to run one once before for my fantroll it never went anywhere #but keroro is an existing character and literally me so i should get at least a little more out of this yippee #im too adhd to organize this properly from the start which is why keroro is the perfect host heehee #anyway im going to bed goodnight. keroro hopes he will have fun asks to answer in the morning :) #sorry i didnt really give you much to work with. just go nuts in the askbox doesnt matter if its silly or simple #uhh okay signing off

[genekies]

screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now. #the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS. #all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much. #i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat. #im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

[brainjuicey]

my mind is so funny for making me relive my worst nightmares and memories everytime I go to sleep

#my uncle is threatening to harm me and my family again but especially me this time for some reason but this time we're making a case #and if it goes to trial ill have to testify even though he hasnt come up to the house and ive never seen the text messages #and i have all my end of year assignments due rn and im dying from stress #and i still havent passed my drivers license its all so #overwhelming #and then i have to go and dream about the christmas i went to visit my bff and ex in germany #and crashing at my bffs house he got drunk and assaulted me over and over and in my sleep as well #and then i went to my exs and we stayed w her family for xmas eve and they were horrible to me and then we broke up that night #and she just cried forever and said i deserved better and i just sat there in bed like how did i even get here totally detached #you invite me to xmas with my family in another country only to realise that you'll never be mentally stable enough to move and be with me #and its been like 7 months since i made that decision and you could've told me something before? but you didn't? #life was good when i was the one making all the sacrifices. right. #life was good when i did all the work. but as soon as you have to enforce your own boundaries its too hard. #do you ever believe someone when they say theyre getting better? and then look like a fool? #every now and then i remember something about that relationship that makes me fucking angry #its all very. art installation i just cant help myself

[isa-ah]

been having some creepy stuff happen lately and who knows if it's paranormal or PTSD related ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#while i was showering a few weeks back i glanced up and saw someones head peeking over the curtain like 7ft up #no face just hair. long and tawny #that night when we laid down to sleep we said our goodnights and a moment later i heard from the head of the bed #'i love you.' #but it sounded way yoo feminine and young yo be my husband so i asked what he just said and he was like ??? literally nothing #he didnt hear it at all even though it was perfectly audible to me #a few nights ago i woke up paralyzed by the absolute self assured KNOWLEDGE that a girl was standing in our bathroom doorway #except her feet were on the ceiling instead of the floor #i was 100% too scared to look bc out of a dead sleep i was so so so sure #i pushed my face into my husbands back and staid there bc i was ckncinced if i rolled back her hair would tickle my face #which yeah ok ive gotten paranoid delusions and hallucinations before bc my ptsd is. severe lol #but not like this really #this morning my dream was interrupted much how it is when an alarm starts going off and you hear it in your dream #its dismebodied and you can consciously recognize it was real life without necessarily realizing youre dreaming #i had that except whispering? moving around our bedroom coming towards me #and the more i focused on it the more i could hear the cricket ambience i was playing irl while we slept #and i had the thought thats weird. whos walking around my room whispering? #til it happened pressed right up against my ear and i JUMPED out of my skin instantly wide awake in bed #i have no clue if its real!!!! but man. what the fuck lol

[plushie-lovey]

Looking to order a new plushie in honor of my birthday today

#obviously the plush wont be here in time cause again my birthday is literally right now right this second #but this is a gift I wanna get myself #especially because Im sad today. its been a very mid bday #my fam took me out to lunch but my sis took part of my food cause we always trade some #but it ended up being half ofmy portion so I didn't get to eat a lot of the main course #amd other than that I've done literally everything else I do daily today #like I went to look around the nearby mall which Im at literally every day cause its close to work/is my bus stop #and then went home after an hour because I've already seen literally everything there #and now I get to sit at home on the corner of my bed on my phone. ir maybe draw on my pc #like I do every day of my life #amd Im sure some people will be like “why didn't you do smth different” couldn't because I have tp bus everywhere #amd nobody wanted to wake up or get dressed to go out until 2 #then we went to eat. amd by the time we were done it was 4 #so too late to travel by bus anywhere interesting cause it'd take an hour n a half/2 hours to arrive at wherever #caus by time we get there we gotta get the bus in an hour or 2 before it stops running for the day #and maybe I should just be grateful fpr a normal day and that I got to spend it with family #but my family sucks but I am appreciative #but this is a milestone birthday #idk if it's selfish t want a little more than the norm or not because of it. my mind is leaning towards yes #but anyways. plushies #idk whatIm getting yet #I want something colorful I think #I'll show pics when I choose/order #viti shoosh

[sluttyten]

I still have 5 hours left in my shift 😭😭😭

#I just…. #really wanna go home today #not having a good day. I started my period this morning and then I got to work and found out only me and one other opener were there but our #opening manager wasn’t here yet so she was late and we spent the next 20 minutes rushing to get everything set up before we opened #and then we immediately started getting customers and it’s just been busy and I’m tired and just don’t feel good bc of my period #and then so far I’ve had 2 of my least favorite customers come through the drive thru where I’m working #one is this dude who’s just fucking annoying another is the guy that asked for my number a few months ago who I haven’t seen since I turned #him down so I took his order and then made someone else deal with him at the window #and then it got busy with everyone ordering drinks like hot coffees which meant I had to walk from our drive thru out to the lobby bc my #coffees were out bc everyone wants coffee today but when I would do that I would still have to be taking orders #and then someone cleared a few specialty coffees off the barista screen without making them while the person was sitting in the drive thru #so I had to make those while doing other stuff too and people were asking me questions #and I was just getting very overstimulated and annoyed plus I’m hungry #and I just want to leave and go home and sleep but it’s my best friend’s birthday so she’s probably gonna want to do something later but I #just don’t feel up to it and I know she’s probably ready to hang out because she’s been off for 10 days with Covid so she’s well rested now #for her birthday but 😭😭😭 I just want to crash into my bed so hard and not wake up until noon tomorrow #also the coworker I work with every day and don’t like is here today unfortunately #and also all of the speakers we use to play music in the back are dead right now and I just want to play music #first world problems but I have so little patience today

[autistickfigure]

AHHH i wish i could remember exactly when i made these guys cuz i cant remember if it was in elementary school or middle school. but i think it was middle school. (they didnt have tails or floating limbs before this is a NOW art. if it wasnt obvious. it would be scary if i were drawing like this on a computer in middle school) ANYWAY its funny to see how similar some of these guys are to future (and now current) ocs riffing on the same thing. nature is beautiful

#i dont want to change their designs too much but i at least want them to be.. interesting. or more than they were before. exaggerated stay #ed the most the same because she is perfect but everyone else can go to hell #flowers arts #the shapes #<- im not ever going to post about them again but aww. aw #not memory being sentimental 🤣🤣🤣 #OH YAH that blue guy wasnt an animal thingy before either but thats probably obvious #i think he can stay mostly the same too BUT the red guys gotta freaking get something! #he has a pet too. its an mp3 player YOU KNOW WHAT im just going to put the old picture i have of them in the post too #(the one on the right) #i think they all had pets IDK #IN UNIVERSE they were from a game that chell made (if you know him) #and i dont remember anything else except maybe it had space in an intro sequence and they were in a white void #(which was not manifested in physical way by me but whatever) #im sad cuz there was a lot of art and stuff in a server but everyone left it and the last guy who did named it storage and i was like I don #t know what that means and i deleted it... NAUR!!!!! all my old art and ocs and everything! #well its ok.. i guess kicks pebble.... #if discord had a thing for like We will bring back your server it wouild be so joyous.. #if only the way back machine worked like that with discord. aww.. #ok im done typing up a storm i gotta go to bed! BAIII good night and ect :3

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#midnight thoughts before going to bed (feel free to ignore) #but today i realized two major things about myself and my mental illness #1. i was reminded that when you have an anxiety disorder your body has a hard time telling the difference between anxiety and excitement #and suddenly my whole life made sense lol #the amount of times i didn't do something that i really wanted to do because it caused me MAJOR anxiety #and it was probably excitement actually but my body went into full fight or flight mode #and 2. i realized that my masking is actually causing me physical pain #like this is of course of i am actually autistic. i still feel like i can't say i am cause i have no right you know? #but objectively i'm like 98% sure i have autism #ANYWAYS masking is usually just forcing eye contact or not stiming in public (as much) #but today i realized that when i hear loud noises or too many at the same time my instinct is to cover my ears #but i don't because that's ''weird'' or will make people ask questions that i don't really know how to answer #so i don't cover my ears i just sit through it in actual pain and hope for the best #and the worst part of this is that when i say ''masking in public'' i mean in my own damn home #because of my mom and the fact that she doesn't believe i have issues #i think it's my fault tho i shouldn't have mentioned my self diagnosis while we were watcing the good doctor (and later attorney woo) #because those two are her only reference for what autism is/looks like and i'm not like that #i mean for the most part... the good doctor was the reason i realize i might be autistic #and woo's struggle with revolving doors hit a bit too close to my heart lol #but anyways... #i need to deal with my out of control anxiety #and i'm pretty sure i am autistic... #those are the conclusions of this post lol #angel talks #personal

[shayberri789]

I cannot believe it's fucking December and I STILL spent all day in leggings and a long sleeve. Summer was meant to have arrived two months ago. What the fuck

#like sure i like winter a loy #but i also have a lot of pretty clothes i want to wear! that it is currently too cold for! #this time last year and the year before i had a fan on full blast at me all night as i slept under a single blanket #right now i am tucked into bed under not only my duvet but ALSO a warm blanket #the fan hasnt seen the light of day since i put it away back in februry #we have had like 8 months of cold weather this is getting a bit ridiculous #i am so fucking tired of rain and clouds #i know i never go outside anyway but ID LIKE TO SEE THE SUN #okay rant over goodnight folks #shay posts #actually no last statement: #i have NEVER had a season overlap with europeans or americans #and yet we are still experiencing our winter weather as they begin to get snowed in #wild #im mad

[toastsnaffler]

istg one of these days.......

#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game #one of my fave posts ever in the world #anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me #its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭 #ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭 #like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay #bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS #anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!! #its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought #so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy #but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr #itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST #i wouldnt do that to him god forbid #buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am #this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night #need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:| #its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves #i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good #ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone #muah all round #.diaries

[whsprings]

hhgsssss

#friend from undergrad is in town so i saw her and some others #had way too much food + also had alcohol #i can just compensate tomorrow though so its fine #right??? #sigh. i should have lied and said i had dinner before going #also now i am convinced that she hates me + am sad/angry at her for leaving me last year #so the obvious answer to that is sh. #we shall see if i actully do it or not bc i kinda just want to go to bed #i hate that this is my life. again. #cw// ed #cw// sh

[notveryshrugemoji]

Hello here’s a photo dump

#this is basically what I’m doing right now #but also crippling anxiety too lol #considering taking an Ativan and going to bed #from top to bottom tho: #Min loves it outside #she also loves it on the couch (we’ve established the blue blanket as *her spot* and hoping to cut down cat hair from that lmao #that beaver canoe hoodie has been with me through EVERY THING #I got it a year before I met geoff lmao #Minnow and Merlin’s version of a good night #merly is getting more brave but barely lol #meanwhile minnow is fully trying to get into my neighbours house hahahaha #polymer clay octopus #i can’t decide if I hate it or not #i painted it with graphite paint and I’m going to copper plate it omg #i feel like I may come around on it #i also made tiny mushrooms today lol just bc we had a meeting and I was bored #cats + space docs am I right??? #this version of purple has been my favourite

[wabblebees]

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#i have a sneaking suspicion that in addition to all the other weird bullshit going on with my body #that at the moment my healing/recovery time is taking WAY longer than usual #and that im like. excessively affected by temperatures+/temp changes right now too #bc yeah while everyone else in my dorm house agrees that it really sucks the school hasnt turned the heat on and its kinda cold #its messing with me fucking HARD right now. like. to the point where today i went out and bought myself a pair of sturdy-ass gloves to wear #While I Am In My Bed Under My Blankets. bc its so bad that ((even bundled up top to tip!!)) if i dont get up every once and a while to run #my hands under hot water they get ICY and start turning fucking PURPLE. so uhhh. my temperature regulatory system has never been Great #but i think this is. much worse than usual #and when we were getting my bloodwork done before i left for school the docs never said anything abt like a zinc deficiency or anything #but??? unless its smth ELSE that ALSO didnt show up on the screenings they did... ughhgh. fuck. idk man #just. hOUGH. i wanna be wARMB and i wanna be CUDDLED and... idk man. i just want to be well. but i dont think thats happening anytime soon. #🙃🙃 #time to hop outta bed to warm my hands again bc my phone is starting to not react to my fingers trying to type anymore. wahoo. #bee speaks