#AND THEN I'D MELT AGAIN

[an-au-blog]

Oh, your love is sunlight

Happy (late) Valentine's Day (version without text ↓ +description in tags)

#east blue asylum wing au #zosan #zoro x sanji #zs #first off if its bad quality - it's a huge canvas and it's more pixelated if i try to export the picture than if I screenshot so... :/ #I sometimes like assigning songs to different dynamics and or characters I play around with and I've been recently listening to #a lot of Hozier again and I'd like to think that Sunlight is how Zoro sees Sanji - he is Icarus flying to the sun and he is willing to get #burned if only to reach the sunlight - it's a deathtrap... because of course it is... all attachments are but Sanji's love is the death tra #that he welcomes like a moth to a flame because even Icarus felt the bliss and freedom before his wax melted #I haven't depicted it here but Sanji's Hozier song for Zoro would probably be NFWMB because in his eyes Zoro is this untouchable force #that would watch the world go up in flames and when the time Sanji wouldn't mind being a tree just to fuel his fire (im well aware how #cheesy that sounds just bare with me... or better yet listen to the song its really good trust me ok?) #the world starts and ends with him and where they lay #and their shared Hozier song is Francesca because if anything in this au zosan are two lovers stuck in Dante's inferno and sprinting back i #only for the chance to get back to their lover and if that meant going back into hell to look for each other then so be it #there's a part of the song that goes “My life was a storm / Since I was born / How could I fear any hurricane?” which is pretty fitting imo #op #fan art #my art

[hungharrington]

“and what if i said come talk steve to me 🤲”

i would say here i am! 😌 i love talking steve (especially with you) so i’m coming in hot! all that’s been on my mind today is how soft and sweet steve is?? i’m talking everything from making you dinner when you’ve been busy to doing little things for you to make you feel better…but i’m also talking steve begging you to let him make you feel good…maybe you’re all tense and in your head and he’s there, rubbing your thighs and whispering “let me make it go away, honey. come on, let me take care of you.” and also hot take but if you weren’t particularly enjoying a part of sex you know damn well he’s stopping to check in and see what you’d like better all “oh i’m so sorry, baby.” while he kisses your whole face, “didn’t like that, i know, i could tell honey. let’s try something else, yeah?”

anyway…sorry for this..steve and i love you, jay <33

autumn!!! oh thank heavens ur here and you've brought... soft and sweet steve? baby, you spoil me :)

we already know he basically invented boyfriendism, that's like, the most steve thing around— like brings you flowers to surprise you, will offer to swap plates if you don't like your food, will always always give you a kiss, even if he's a little bit mad at you, kind of boyfriend <3 and that 100% includes him wanting to make any of your bad days a little bit better, to take care of you :( especially if that includes getting his mouth between your thighs- it's a shower of affection, always, a dozen kisses on each thigh and never any teasing— just bright eyes drinking in every reaction, murmuring praise into your skin, "that's it, that's a good girl, you just let yourself feel good, hm?" his free hands just soothing up and down the outside of your thighs, thumb just swiping comfortingly on your hipbone as he builds you up to an orgasm and god nothing makes him more lovey-dovey than when you start mewling out his name, chest panting, and your hand searches out for his so you can hold it when you cum— steve is always waiting, always intertwines your fingers together and squeezes your hand, cooing as you fall apart beneath him, "oh, so pretty when you cum, sweetheart,"

your hot take is delicious and i raise you: steve sometimes notices before even you do— it'll just be like a new position you've never tried before and you can't figure out why you can't relax- it feels strangely too exposed and it takes about thirty seconds of it before steve is pausing, hands brushing your hair back as concern pinches his brows, "oh, don't like this one, huh? that's okay baby, me neither," and is readjusting you both before you even realise that he clocked you so fast and is already moving to make you comfortable <3 if it's something he does, a new way to fuck you with his fingers that's too different, the moment there's even an inkling of a wince or frown, steve's noticing it and switching it up, “oh i’m so sorry, baby.” while he kisses your whole face, thumb tracing over your cheekbone softly, “didn’t like that, i know, i could tell honey. let’s try something else, yeah?” and you don’t even get a moment to think about it because steve knows what you love, his thumb slipping up to rub your clit so perfectly that any thought just melts away as he works you perfectly <3

#the casual dominance of the 'didn't like this i know i could tell honey' #BRAIN GOING BRRRRRRRRRR #GOING INSANE A BIT #god i think i'd cream my pants if someone cared to know me that well #like to know your body and every reaction... to use his love to take care of you in every single way #GIMME #once again autumn's big genius brain is melting mine #jay writes #i love u too autumn <333 #steve harrington #steve x reader #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x reader smut #steve harrington smut

[cerise-on-top]

HELOOOOOOO IM BACKKK

can we get some Valeria Garza headcanons? :p

LOVE UR WORK AS ALWAYS DRINK WATER BYEBYEEE

-☁️

Hello! Welcome back :> I wasn't sure if you wanted general HCs or romantic ones, so I did both! I hope they're enjoyable! In regards to these HCs, there's one mention of drugs, but the HCs are about Valeria, so that's to be expected!

Also, to anyone reading this: Merry Christmas and/or happy holidays! I'm saying this today because in my country we celebrate Christmas today and not on the 25th! I'm wishing you all a few lovely days ahead :-)

General:

Playing games of any kind with her is actually infuriating and almost unfair. You’d think games like Monopoly would be fair since it’s based on luck for the most part, but no. I can assure you Valeria could set a world record on beating someone at Monopoly. But it’s not just that game either. You wanna poker with her? Tycoon? Sixty-Six? Granted, they require some skill as well, but she uses her nogging on a daily basis, so it’s not like she doesn’t know what she’s doing. And even if you only explained the rules to her once, she’ll beat you soon enough. Might also be prone to cheating, but you’ll only ever accuse her of doing so whenever she actually wasn’t. It’s not illegal or forbidden if no one ever finds out. The stakes can be pretty high, she’s not afraid to play for money either. But I advise you to maybe play over gummy bears or lollipops or something. She won’t be happy, she will complain, but it beats losing all your money to a businesswoman of her caliber.

When she was a kid she actually didn’t mind Christmas all that much, she quite liked it. It was colorful, it was bright, it was nice. Her parents may not have been the richest people, but she usually got what she wanted for Christmas as well, so it wasn’t a particularly sad time for her back then. Even now her cartel is doing well during that time since people like to fill the gaping holes within their hearts with drugs so they won’t have to think about being alone and freezing during such a festive time. She doesn’t get jolly like she used to, she won’t even wear a Christmas hat, but she can appreciate Christmas, if just for her earning a bit more money than she normally would. You can even give her gifts during this time. Depending on who they’re from and what it is, she might just throw them away, but if it’s something nice from someone she’s close with then she might just keep it for a little while longer. Although Valeria would never admit it, she does like cookies quite a lot. She can’t bake particularly well, not that she has the time for that either, but that won’t stop her from eating a few whenever she receives some from a trustworthy source. There is an elderly lady in Las Almas who she likes to buy them from occasionally. That lady is a real sweetheart, so Valeria is sure the cookies aren’t poisoned.

No one ever gets to enjoy it anymore these days, but Valeria can cook pretty well. She learned how to very early on so she could relieve her mother a bit from her burdens, but it stuck with her. She has a real knack for how much spice you put in which dish. Yes, she’s a bit rusty since she hasn’t cooked for herself in quite a while, but if you’re her s/o and you’re sick, you might just receive some birria or carne guisada. It’ll be unlike anything you’ve ever tasted. Her food is a bit spicy, so if you’re not used to spicy food it can and will leave you teary eyed, but it’s really good. Naturally, her specialties include, for the most part, Mexican dishes only. But, in theory, you could give her any recipe and it would turn out just fine. Except for anything sweet. Sweets she cannot do at all, they’ll always turn out terrible. It used to get to her when she was young, but these days she couldn’t care less. She isn’t anyone’s housewife, so why should she care? Back in the day when she still had time for dating someone properly, a telltale sign she was mad at you would be her cooking for you, but making it unbearably spicy. Valeria could always eat it, she can eat any spicy pepper as a snack just like that and not be bothered at all.

Romantic:

It doesn’t matter who you are, Valeria will always be the dominant person among the two of you. Her personality alone won’t allow for much else, but there are also other circumstances as well. Besides, she’s been in the military and she can tell you from experience that the people there don’t think too highly of women. Ergo she wants to prove herself to be above those morons, especially Alejandro. While she might not be affectionate at all in public, it’s the small things in private that really show you who’s in control. Beckoning you closer with her finger, telling you how much of a good thing you are for her, moving you a bit so she can get to something she needs. Granted, it’s nothing big, she won’t put a collar on you, but she will do what she can to make you feel smaller than you actually are. It doesn’t matter if you’re 1,50m or 2m tall, whether you’re looking up at her or down on her, you will treat her with utmost respect. While she might seem degrading or mocking very often, she does take your feelings into account as well. If her being mean to you genuinely hurts you then she will do what she can to tone it down a bit. She won’t stop entirely, but she’ll better herself. You’re welcome to sass her back a bit, though. If it’s just some light joking around she won’t mind. Sass her back too hard and you will be put into place, though.

Going off of one of the previous points I made: Once Valeria loves you, she is completely and entirely committed to you. It doesn’t matter what you want, you’ll get it within days. You want someone’s head? Absolutely, no questions asked. Even something smaller, such as some clothing, jewelry, a video game console, a plushie. You name it, you’ll get it. You’re her everything in this rotten world, of course she’ll do what she can to keep you happy. And if one of those goons from the army ever tries to hurt you, then even the ninth layer of hell will seem like the greatest mercy the heavens and hell could muster. She’s fiercely protective over you. While she won’t kidnap you, she wants to keep you happy, after all, she will try to convince you to live with her. Somewhere in a place no one knows about, where it’s only you and her without a worry for those two pests, Alejandro and Rodolfo. If you ever were to meet those two then I can assure you, you’ll never see Valeria this angry again. She loathes those two men with her entire being. Not that she has a very high opinion of men to begin with. If one ever decides to lay his grubby, disgusting hands on you, regardless of whether it’s some guy from the streets or the president of the United States, he can say goodbye to his head.

As I said before, she’s a really good cook. In fact, she’s good at just about anything you can think of. Well, almost. Either way, she’d love it if you could cook well. In fact, having someone who’s willing to be a housespouse is a dream come true. She won’t always be able to come home to you immediately, but if she finds you having cooked her a delicious, hearty meal, she’ll be on cloud nine. But even if your food isn’t anything noteworthy she’ll still eat it because it’s from you. She may be a cruel woman at times, but Valeria does care about you and tries not to hurt your feelings too much. At best, not at all. If she comes home to your shared home being well taken care of by you, with you having cleaned all the rooms as well as all the clothes that needed washing, you’ll have earned something nice from her. If you aren’t able to do so, no worries, she can always just hire some personnel to take care of it. But if it was you, then just name what you want from her. You want some cuddles or a kiss? Naturally. Some tres leches or churros? She won’t make them herself, but you can bet she’ll get you some regardless. If she’s especially tired some sweet words might be exchanged as well, but don’t expect her to be like that every time. Sometimes she does want to be a bit sweeter than usual, tell you how grateful she is to have you, but she’s afraid you might think of her a bit less than before, even if it wouldn’t happen. So, while she may not be someone who enjoys giving words of affirmation unless she needs to, you can count on her showing you affection through gift giving and quality time.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #getting to write about my favorite characters today is a gift in and of itself in all honesty #plus I got my jacket today that looks like 09 ghost's and I couldn't be happier :D #I also got a bag and a one piece shirt and I'm so happy about that! I love one piece and I've been in need of a bag again! #either way these hcs aren't particularly christmassy since I thought I was supposed to go for something general #but I hope they're enjoyable nonetheless! #thank you for sending in a request for lovely Valeria! #the things I'd give to have her call me something nice are unreal #I'd melt like butter if she ever said something to me in spanish even if she just called me pendejo #either way my christmas was well spent in that I got to write about a girl today so I'm happy! #Happy holidays! Merry christmas! #Happy new year too if I don't post by then (which is unlikely!)

[thetardisisnotourdivision]

Ok I just read something that reminded me that Cat Noir in one episode says that he's lactose intolerant.

And I know that the evidence would suggest that this is JUST when he's Cat Noir, but I couldn't help but immediately think of this exact scenario:

(and also I memed it with a Doctor Who screencap, you're welcome)

#miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #nathalie sancoeur #cat noir #plagg #Plagg is a cheese gremlin which proves to be a problem when his holder turns out to be allergic to the stuff #This would explain why Plagg's worst nightmare is dairy free camembert #Bc I have tried that shit and it is NASTY #felt like eating melted plastic #TASTED like eaten melted plastic #Honestly I'D rather die than ever try it again so you know it's fair enough #Where was I going with this #Oh and I used a screenshot from Doctor Who because!!!!!!! Combining my special interests!!!!!!! Is a passion of mine!!!!!!!!!!!!

[b4kuch1n]

what if I stream tonite. for dragon business

#bakuspeech #taking one (1) day break from comm bc my brain was starting to melt outta my ears #and try to figure out some lunar new year stuff instead #it is now a new year and the red envelope duty has come around once again #second year. I drew cats for the niblings last year. its dragons this time around #and since its like 20 red envelopes I can Probably fix up and assemble the myself #I dont. like the idea of buying red envelopes. esp since there will be like A Doller inside lmao #I'd rather use the card envelopes with something scribbled on top rather than buy red envelopes. idk Im a weirdo abt this #but yeah. dragons first. and then I'll see if the shrink film I have is printable #if not I'll do stickers. I still have sticker paper #thats the plan. I'll probs bring up all the shit that happened to or around me in 2023 on stream lmao #and see if my friends are good to hang out on stream with me #okay. alright. uhhh probs I'll try and be live at 8pm (in 3hrs)? been a slow day Ive done nothing but walking very slowly around the house #mmm. have a good day guys. perhaps see u on stream. lets have fun

[wikiangela]

not a day goes by that I don't think about the Nick and Jess first kiss

literally no other TV kiss I've seen compares

#just saw that scene pop up on tiktok and omg it's like I saw it for the first time again #no other kiss makes me feel the way this kiss does #if I was Jess I'd just melt on the spot fr #nick and jess #new girl #jessica day #nick miller

[unsat-and-strange]

it's so stupid late and I just got off watch but I have a duty I take more seriously than my actual money paying job: sharing the doodles I did on watch

assorted notes including a potential drawing series maybe??? I'm sorry but the war trio is so deep in my skull

ivy got used to having short hair when she was a mouse and so post curse she cut it (raphaella approves)

creature jonny sitting on things he shouldn't

Brian wandering the castle (please mama I put PANTS on for this)

lyf making berties crutch (plus aftermath)

Tim gets cool scars on his eyes because I said so.

maid bertie @blazeismyname YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF

ivy and raph cause I like them :) raph still cuts up cheese for ivy

idea for an animatic????? @rocksanddeadflowers may I humbly suggest passerine by the oh hellos for tim and Bertie please the second verse is so burning down your armies camp and running into the wasteland in hopes of a better place coded

#MY PALMS AND FINGERS STILL REEK OF GASOLINE #FROM THROWING FUEL TO THE FIRE OF THAT GRECO ROMAN DREAM #PURIFY THE HOLY ROCK TO MELT THE GUILDED SEAMS #IT DONT BRING ME RELIEF NO IT DONT BRING ME NOTHING #CAUSE you were the song that I'd always sing... you were the light that the fire would bring #cause I can't shake this feeling that I was only pushing the spear into your side again #please tell me y'all see my vision it is so them they are besties and wracked by guilt and I need to learn animation #good GOD I NEED TO GO TO BED #3 and a half hours of sleep let's goooooo #ebb rambles #ebb draws stuff #the consequences of creation and love #the mechanisms

[pa-pa-plasma]

i feel like a lot of people ignore the fact that in a lot of places, bicycling just. cannot be done for half the year, & that's why public transport being good is important. i cannot bike in 5 feet of snow & ice or in 40c heat. i can't even walk in that, unless i have the energy to snowshoe or a bucket of ice water to chug.

"but I can do it!" good for you. unfortunately i live in Berk (snowing for 9 months of the year & hailing the other 3) & cannot unless i want to die. also disabled people exist. & children. & people who live in a place where everything is no closer than 30 minutes away, & 30 minutes in -30c can kill you if you can't afford a good pair of boots & a good coat. i may have bike paths but the river floods past them every year. what do i do then? bike on the highway?? just let me take the train

#people who live in places where the weather is always nice (aka not trying to kill you 75% of the time): you are an outlier #where i live the temperatures range from -30c to +35c give or take. snow hail thunderstorms tornadoes all that shit too #''biking is so fun! even when it's raining!'' dude ima be real with you. it is ice raining. i do not want to be coated in wet ice #do you know what snowmelt is? it's where all the snow melts in the spring & then fucking floods everything #it's freezing dirty water & it kills people because people always underestimate The River #i am not riding my bike through that. it's always colder & deeper than you think & there is always a current even if you can't see it #''but it's not like it's the ocean'' dude. water aint fucking around salt or no #you may look at The River & think ''that's just a lake. seems calm & nice'' but you'd be wrong & you would die from your foolishness #this shit is connected to the Great Lakes. those fuckers are fresh water seas. i do not fuck with that #it's great you live in a place where biking all year round is feasible. but i cannot do that even if i wanted to #''but what if the weather's been nice lately'' then you'd be falling for fool's spring #where it looks like it's getting warmer & then the temperature drops & it snows a whole bunch again #& then it warms up & then it snows again. repeat until like May #we just want good public transport okay i get that exercise is good but i'd rather not risk my extremities for it thank you

[jade-of-mourning]

this crying to living ratio isn't looking too good for me

#lychee's brain trash #it's so fucking over </3333 #of Course it's always mb and percussion of course it is #of course it's got nothing to do with having to think about becoming a real human person no #(that's a crippling crisis for tomorrow i guess) #im literally melting into the floor incessantly i need to reset #i thought i'd last longer but ig the pressure is too much lmfao #please send help i'm so bad at emotionally responding to anything ever #update: i talked to my friend who just graduated who i miss a lot #and i miss him so much and i hhhhh :( #how tf am i supposed to cope with existence again?

[selfshipping-haven]

hello mr fictional other i could be your sickly prince that you need to kiss so the curse is lifted

#not feeling well again today #i think if i was called prince then i'd melt #even though i'm far from it #not prestigeous in the slightest #don't have any responsibilities but get better #not very princely....

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: April 23

"Lion's Den" by Jhameel

#song of the day #there's unfortunate interpersonal politics in the on-campus office! how exciting! I don't want them! #I spent the day constantly being asked to prove that I was working and not doing anything suspect on my computer #and since tumblr is quite a suspect thing I could not do it at all #worked on the idiot project. decided I was going to turn into a hermit crab and live in my orange soda can. ate bread. reconsidered. #came home and found a cat on our porch! a lovely tortoiseshell #nobody we've ever seen around the neighborhood before. very polite moderately friendly moderately clean. probably an outdoor pet? #if it were more feasible I'd have brought her inside but alas #she ate an enormous amount of kibbles and indicated great contempt for my bowl of water and eventually melted into the bushes #I'll check for her again tomorrow #tomorrow morning I'm going to have a meeting with someone who will both validate my disdain for the idiot project /and/ help with it #it's going to be so good for me #anyway this song is amazing. one of the few I reliably play loudly #excellent chorus. builds on itself wonderfully #'I don't wanna lose myself / I don't even know how to not be my own enemy #I don't wanna lose my health / I don't even know where to run from my own memories'

[jizzlords]

@madefate asked: A very small & very excited Charlie practically leaps into her uncle's arms, hanging onto them and clambering up so she's more or less in range of eye level. And, of course, she has absolutely no filter. ❝ Uncle Ozzie !! Dad said I shouldn't ask you to do too much today because you're tired from work but he wouln't say what you do for work - is it like Dad? Does Dad have a club too ?? - I got a new book, do you want to read it together ?? ❞ / unprompted ask — always accepting.

He could hear those little footsteps from about a mile away and yet she still manages to pull a fast one on him. ❝ What's happening, babycakes? ❞ Ozzie asks, laughing as he purposefully fumbles the Princess and flips her before helping her as she scrambles up his arm. Perched there on his shoulder, just how she likes.

❝ HA!! Well, that's awfully considerate of your daddy to say but for starters, I'm never too tired for you. And SECONDLY, your daddy doesn't know how to have nearly as much fun as I do! ❞

She always comes up with some of the most out-of-pocket things to say. It's one of the best things about Charlie! Sometimes, she even has Ozzie on his toes for answers that she'd be satisfied with. ❝ Ooh! ♪ Baby, your daddy definitely couldn't run a club, much less one like my own. Get outta here. ❞

He was turning on his heel, reaching up to snatch the little hell spawn in arms and plop his hat atop her head since he knows it's coming up. ❝ Didn't you get a new book last week? That last book was thicker than my— ... own books. ❞ Turning into the kitchen, he's plopping her down on the counter. ❝ We're reading it together or am I reading it to you and you're listening? ... You want some juice, baby? ❞ Since he's fixing himself a drink.

#madefate #LITTLE CHARLIE FOREVER OUR KRYPTONITE..... #'hel when did i send this?' yes. #you see i'd read it ... then melt. then read it again. then melt. #── ♡ ❝ incumming message! — inbox. #⸻ ♡ ❝ show me some lust! ( in character ) #ozzie dodging her question for what exactly he does for work lol #HE DOES A LOT OF THINGS BABY.

[morsobaby]

Back to me having extremely frightening to experience, batshit wild dreams with major surreal and horror streaks

#my thoughts #Like how do I. Process this holy shit #I'm sure if it's something I'd found as a niche dark comic online I'd probably think it's the realest shit ever #Do I make art about it. Do I make it into a story. Holy shiiitttt #Two cats who initially seem like wc ocs live in an eternal mall. Specifically in the library of it #And often they're bombarded with extremely vivid visions of horrible things where the environment itself changes and warps #And throws them around the building #And through these horrific world melting visions we slowly start untangling the history of their so called clan #Or if they're even cats at all. #It's a mother and son duo which is highly relevant to the story bc it's implied the mother didn't choose to have the child #Fucking. Hello. What. What. My brain just juices itself on me every night and I gotta just wake up and exist again

[aewrie]

.

#think i'd want a second opinion on a fic's rating but also not something i wan to just dump on anyone #could just go with not rated but im. not sure #wegh #yourebabblingjulle #also its snowing again and ground is white that better melt come morning

[caracello]

^ these are the only times onni smiles. most of these are from the church scene in the comic, and one is from a game that was never finished. i would have given anything to see a full open smile from onni. just once...

#he's in roughly 600 panels (not an exact count just an estimate) and he only smiles four times ...... )+. #then again if he did smile like that i would almost certainly /die/ instantly. #but still.... aaggh. imagine. some joke makes him bark out a laugh and no was was expecting it.. i'd melt. i'd meltt. #gush:{🦉}

[quirkle2]

i demand for you to elaborate more on qpr things with wars and ledge. especially on how they deal with each others trauma with their own adventures <33 (also hi !!! how are you i hope youre doing well <33)

HII REI i am vibin . a solid 6/10 rn <3 i hope ur doin well too!!!!

WOOOOOOOO you've come to the right place i am going to talk ur ear off

(warnings in the tags)

at the start of the journey when they didn't know each other super well but were friends, it was much harder to comfort each other. wars' go-to when comforting others is touch—that's just how he does things and it's what he's most confident and versed in—but legend, back then, had a weird relationship w that w the whole touch-starved, touch-adverse thing. at the beginning, it kinda seemed like they were just very different people and weren't super compatible

they're very different in terms of how they like to receive/give affection and reassurance. but i think the important thing w them is that Both of them were willing to compromise and adapt to each other. without crossing boundaries, they have a system in place where they Communicate and Ask Permission for shit.

^ wars never touches ledge without asking either verbally or w a silent raised arm and a questioning look that says hug? and he never makes a face or gets upset when ledge says no. conversely, ledge never pushes and prods too hard when wars shuts down on him and won't talk about anything, instead sitting w him and simply keeping him company

i think one of the biggest problems that ledge faces w this stuff is that he's so emotionally constipated that he genuinely has no idea where to even begin, both with speaking about his own trauma, and reassuring wars w his

he never knows what to say, how to say it, what movements to make, whether physical touch is even appropriate here,, he doesn't know. he often finds himself completely out of his depth. he usually gets by w the things he does know how to do, but sometimes he ends up in hard situations where he has no idea what path to take or how to make somebody feel better

during nights where the vibes r quiet and everybody is asleep but him and wars, they talk and laugh and giggle, and sometimes it strays into deeper territory where they share stories from their adventures to get them off their chests. wars usually doesn't like talking about the more gruesome memories too much, but it sometimes even gets too heavy for him and he needs to let it out when he feels comfortable enough. and ledge?

ledge wants to. he never used to want to, but now he feels safe enough and loved enough to share these vulnerable things w wars and yet when he opens his mouth everything's just,,, stuck. like there's a physical barrier he cannot get past, to let these words out. he barely knows how to form such complicated emotions into words in his mind, much less mold it all into a coherent sentence

and wars is good at People, like i've mentioned. somewhere along the line, he realizes that ledge isn't uncomfortable w sharing (not,, fully anyway). no, it's that ledge doesn't know how. either he was simply never taught adequately (given his young age when his uncle died, it's possible), had trouble grasping it from the start, or it's trauma making him fear vulnerability to the point of being nonverbal, wars doesn't know; what he Does know is that he can see legend wants to get past it

so during one of those sleepover-vibe nights where they spill their guts to each other, wars decides to lead the conversation instead of going quiet and letting legend have the floor, like he'd been doing before. he asks questions instead, guides legend through it with subtle little nudges, and watches in delight as legend responds much better to that than just,,, silence and the expectations of him to make his emotions make sense to others

questions give him a template. they give him a sentence structure to mimic, an underlying logic to follow, and even when legend feels too overwhelmed to answer those, wars switches to simple yes-or-no ones (legend loves him. he loves him with all of his heart). eventually he's able to roll around the usual questions warriors asks in his head and sorta reverse engineer them to come up w ways to say things for himself; picks out the patterns in them, says them to himself next time they share things and he answers them aloud, like a script he's memorized

it's probably not how most people usually do it, and sometimes ledge feels a bit silly abt it, but it does a rly good job of teaching him how to say things in ways other people might understand—it allows him to hear these things in a way he can understand. it finally gives him an outlet to let it all out, and even though sometimes it's exhausting, he always feels lighter afterward

i do wanna talk abt the dynamic of legend having a lot of trauma abt knights and his best friend also being a knight. when they first met, legend didn't trust him one fucking bit. legend was afraid of him. he always avoided him wherever he could, let the others talk instead of risking getting stuck in a conversation w the guy—it was bad.

and sure, that was unfair to wars bc he'd rly done absolutely nothing wrong to ledge. but all legend could ever see when he looked at him was the shiny armor and the sharp blade on his back; the bow over his shoulders; the perfect stance; and the death-like, mindless stare of every other brainwashed soldier he'd ever met. legend would hear his armor clink and he'd flinch. wars would unsheath his sword to sharpen it and legend's hand would dart to his own, ready to fight

but eventually they started talking. legend stopped trying to outright avoid him and instead sorta,,, let himself exist in the same space vaguely uneasily. that turned into goofing off together, that turned into smiles and laughter and Uh Oh he realizes this guy is pretty fuckin sick. Uh Oh He's Becoming My Acquaintance,,, Uh Oh He's Becoming My Friend,, Uh Oh He's Becoming My Bes—

and i think it's just . rly rly nice that ledge eventually got over that hurdle. he's not scared of wars, not even a little anymore. and the strength behind each and every thing wars does for him ?? hugs him and kisses his knuckles and rings, says he loves him like several times a day, sleeps wrapped around him in a protective little hold, kisses the scars that were caused by other knights. that's just ,, ougoh /pos

in a way it sorta,,, softens the blows from his past i suppose. it doesn't completely reverse his trauma from other knights, of Course not, but it most certainly does help in a way i can't rly explain, and in a way that legend most definitely never will be able to either

beyond the war and the trauma that comes w that, wars also struggles w some self-doubt. i mentioned it before, but he's not super confident like common depictions of him, and due to :sparkle: circumstances :sparkle: of things in his past, he often feels like he's only kept around because he's useful, not because he's loved. couldn't be further from the truth, but sometimes he gets in these awful mindsets where he feels he has to justify the space he takes up

legend helps him a lot in that regard simply w time (the,, concept, not the man). it takes time for wars to believe it when ledge says he loves him—near the beginning when ledge didn't say it back bc it felt like Too Much to him at the time, that unknowingly set wars' belief in stone that maybe ledge doesn't return the sentiment. they figure it out in the end, and they Know they love each other very much now, but wars' fragile self-worth mixed w that,, didn't go over so well

but the little things legend does for him constantly pile up into this big heap of I Love You, Idiot, and eventually it even gets through wars' thick, self-doubt filled skull. little things like going out of his way to sit next to him and collapse in his lap, bringing him drinks when he's noticed wars hasn't had a break in a while, coming up to him all excited and feeling comfortable enough to infodump abt shit to him. eventually, the point reaches through

a bigger thing is that sometimes wars will end up,, shutting down. if he's too stressed or too overwhelmed, and then one little extra thing sets him off, he'll kinda dissociate i guess?? a bit similar to wild's memories deal. he'll be,, Somewhere Else in his head—often times reliving memories/emotions he doesn't want to—and he'll go on auto-pilot and just kinda go through the motions until he gets to a point where he can take a break

sometimes it happens after a battle, sometimes it happens seemingly randomly even if everything's calm. there's been times when wars isn't even totally sure what set it off, and there's been times where wars slowly blinks out of the trance and ends up not even remembering most of it. he'll hear a fire crackle in just the right way and suddenly be back on the field w flames burning his troops; he'll see a certain type of flower and remember being dragged across a clearing of them by enemy forces

it's hard to see him like that, staring off into space w a haunted look in his gaze, so it always worries legend to death. he'll usually sit w him and try to talk to him, tell him whatever he's seeing is not happening again and that he's safe. he doesn't touch him unless wars is aware enough to approve of it, but when he falls out of the trance and starts coming back to himself, legend will usually hug him and hold him, do his best to keep him calm. they usually sit there for a good while afterward, just listening to each other breathe

legend is terrified of lightning storms and wars always stays up late into the night w him just to keep him company, holds him until he falls asleep. when they're in wars' era, he's fully aware that ledge is afraid of the other knights that Cover castle town, so he holds legend's hand the entire way to let him know he's Safe

wars has a huge phobia of any fire that's not contained in a pit and rly any enemy that is able to shoot fire at Him; if legend notices he's dealing w one on the field they'll quickly trade places and let wars handle whatever ledge was fighting. wars is also terribly claustrophobic—it is hard to get wars inside a cave of any kind—and legend typically walks him through the panic he feels after a trigger, gentle as all hell. when wars gets injured, legend Knows he sometimes jumps to conclusions that the chain might leave him, so an i've got you, i'm not leaving you comes out to calm him

legend has chronic pain from a,,, multitude of things, but some of the worst stuff is usually joint pain. heat often helps w it; if it's bad enough, wars will set the fire rod by him so he can warm his hands up, but if that's not needed, wars will simply hold his hands and massage the knots out and he's so so incredibly gentle abt it

legend also loves physical pressure on him, and a Lot of the time the chain can find wars just,, lying on top of him. ledge always looks so content when he does that

they both have these, but wars gets some pretty bad phantom pains from the burns along his face and shoulder—half of his right ear is straight up burnt off, and it causes some Problems sometimes

occasionally it'll feel like he has an infection there, in lots of pain and really nauseated, and the ringing that's usually there gets much worse. he's usually MIA on those days, too dizzy to do much of anything but lie still, and legend will always keep him company, playing w his hair and talking abt random stuff to keep wars occupied

nightmares....................dear god VGEAIYG ledge has a lot of nightmares abt koholint. usually they're pretty tame, thankfully—just little snippets that jerk him awake and, while he usually stays up the rest of the night, they don't make him panic too much

but sometimes they are Bad and he wakes up sobbing, gets back into that horrible box of it was my fault, is This real, is the chain even real, and wars holds him so gently and repeatedly tells him it's all real and does his best to ground him w every single technique wars knows. sometimes he brings him back to the present pretty quickly, sometimes it takes all night, but either way, wars is there the entire time, never leaving him once

wars has a lot of nightmares from the war, but he also tends to have a lot about losing legend and the others, and those affect him terribly. he wakes up screaming sometimes, hyperventilating and whipping around to count heads around camp to make sure they're all there and alright

legend is always there to hold him—tells him that it wasn't real, that they're all safe and okay, hugs him so so tight, and when wars' sobbing has dwindled to little hiccups, they'll lie back down in the blankets and wars will cling to him like both of their lives depend on it. legend will let him rest his head over his chest, ear right up against his heart so that he can hear it beating, alive and well. sometimes it even calms him enough for him to drift back to sleep

and lastly, sometimes u just,, feel off and don't know why. sometimes they know Something is wrong, but everything seems to be in its place in their heads and there's only smth slightly to the left that's teetering everything off the edge. sometimes one of them has an off day where they act differently, they're stuck in their head, they're sensitive, they're unusually quiet,,

and the other is always there to ask if they want company, or if they wanna be alone. no matter what they chose, the other will respect it. if they wanna be alone, if they wanna talk, if they wanna sit w the other in silence, they're always willing. they're always so understanding w each other and always so Willing to help each other, even when the solution isn't obvious and even when it seems rly hard to get there

#tw trauma #tw death mention #tw dissociation #tw derealization #qktalks #soul-of-rei #qpr wars and ledge #this is longer than my other ask abt wars. jesus christ VGAEIYVU #i won't apologize . the urge to apologize 16938561936 times is STRONG but i am resisting . #tysm for enabling me i think i'd kill for u btw #i love nothing more than talking abt them. they r perfect #they love each other............................. ... ........... . ... ..... ..................... #BIIIIG sucker for wars kissing the scars ledge got from other knights. holyfucking shit #ohmy god. jesuscrhsit jesusfucki gn god holy sh #that'sso nice. that's so fucking good #he'sso affectionate he's so gentle #makes ledge MELT. 100% #''quit that mushy shit (do it again.)''