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#AND ZHONGLIS SMILE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE
scaramew · 1 year
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BEST PART. multi
you took the best part of me, when you left. you took my heart with you. ( or, the aftermath of a breakup. )
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ft. diluc, albedo, childe, xiao, zhongli, kazuha x genderneutral reader
warnings : angst with a capital A !!! Angst !! post-breakup, lovers to exes to HMM?? HUH???, ooc characters HUHU, THIS IS SUPER LONG, i haven't written in awhile hihi sorry
sticky note : i got a lot of inspiration from quotes !! i cant link every quote i got inspiration from but please just send me an ask for a specific character like "whats ur inspo for zhongli?" and i will happily try and find it !! ALSO I HAD SONGS IN MIND FOR EACH CHARACTER PLEAAASEE ASK ME ABOUT THEM
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DILUC RAGNVINDR. noctua
the day things fell apart was the day diluc lost every bit of light in his life — every bit of you. the day you left was the same day diluc realized how big the house truly was. pictures of you and him line the walls, and no matter how much it hurts to look at them, diluc can't bring himself to take any of them down. diluc can't bring himself to even come home. can't even stand to be in such an empty house.
the day the burning embers had gotten out of control, the flames enough to swallow him whole, diluc realized you weren't there to snuff them out anymore. to soothe the burn, to wash everything away.
you see him and speak of fire as if it's the softest thing in the world. speak of fire as if it hadn't burned you before, as if you could start fires with the feelings you have.
like a candle that has been lit for far too long, his love burns quietly, yet it burns all the same. his love for you was quiet, but yours? your love was loud. brighter than any flame he's created from the vision that dangles along his waist. your love lit suns into his heart and diluc ragnvindr fears that he will never be able to repay it.
he stands in the doorway of his room, silently watching as you slip through his grasp, as you pack your things and despite how much he wants to stop you, he makes no move to do so. he isn't good for you, and despite how endlessly he will miss your presence, your laugh, your smile, the habits he's worked his daily life around just so he could have more of you in it, if it meant he could save you from himself — diluc is willing to burn alone.
you were leaving and there was nothing else he could do. diluc ragnvindr could do nothing but sit in the silence, his house—his world was too quiet without you in it. diluc ragnvindr thought he was fluent in silence, until he locked eyes with you and his throat runs dry. until he's run out of things to say with you, of all people. you were leaving and everything diluc wants to say remains. you leave some of your things behind and you leave him behind too.
restless in his own bed, diluc would rather sleep on the floor than have to inhale another whiff of your cologne. he says he can't rest because of his work, but the truth is diluc ragnvindr can't — won't rest until he has you next to him. he knows better than to ask you to sleep next to him just so he knows he isn't alone, so instead he compromises with the fact he will never rest.
even now, as pieces and remnants of you and the history you both share litter his house, diluc is restless, yet he leaves it all alone. he leaves everything right where you left it, too scared to move it, lest he breaks what you left behind, what reminds him it was all real. he refuses to get rid of it, despite adelinde's countless offers of handling it for him, he can't. he can't bring himself to, because then, you'd really be gone from diluc's life. and he refuses to fill in the space you left, he refuses to take up the space in this house that's way too big for him, just as he refuses to fill in the gaping hole in his heart with anyone else. with anyone but you.
diluc finds you again when the burns start to heal, when all that's left is a scar on his heart. diluc finds you again holding the things he couldn't keep, the things he knew you'd need. you see him and, pained and still in love, still so in love, he sees you.
"i haven't forgotten about you — if that's what you were thinking. i am never . . . not thinking about you." he sighs, "i didn't say it then, but . . i love you."
"did you mean loved?"
"love. i still love you. i think . . . i always will."
ALBEDO. princeps cretaceous
in your absence, you'd taken albedo's comfort in the stars. the everlasting winter of dragonspine does not falter, albedo does not falter, and on the surface, it seems like everything is okay. if it were anybody else, everything would seem just fine. but you're not everybody else, and he hates it. albedo hates how the absence of a single person could affect him so deeply. he hates how often you run through his mind, sketches that were supposed to be rough diagrams turning into portraits of you, accidentally ending sentences in your name because that's all he can think about.
to the rest of the world, there is nothing wrong with the chief alchemist, but to him? — he feels sick. there must be something wrong with him, to see pieces of you in everything he does, in everything he reads, in every breath of life — in every star in the sky.
your eyes were so bright, he thinks, your smile even brighter, looking at the stars, at every constellation you remember. he didn't even notice, or maybe he just didn't care when you get the names wrong. it felt surreal, then. breathtaking, to look at the stars he sees every night. nothing in the sky had changed, but to have you next to him — it felt magical. you made everything feel magical. albedo can't even remember if he was looking at the stars or if he was just looking at you.
that's why it feels so wrong, to look at the stars without you next to him. it's unexplainable, the feeling of being without you. the feeling of having someone fade out of your life and having no way to stop it. having to wonder if anything was real, because if it was real it shouldn't have been so easy to drift apart. after all, the only stars you see in the night sky are the ones that've already died, their light the only sign that they were real, once. they were alive and they were burning so bright . . . were we real?
maybe it just wasn't meant to work, maybe there was nothing you both could've done. albedo had convinced himself that he was just never fit for the relationship he craved so dearly, he knew that. even if it hurt to know. even if it was one of the most painful things he's had to learn. he wasn't fit for human relationships, but at the same time, it felt—it feels like loving you was the only thing he was ever made for.
so even as he watches you walk away, even as he feels the ache in his mind and his chest that he could never quite explain grow stronger — albedo isn't sure of anything. of the time you've spent together — if any of this was worth the pain.
albedo isn't sure of anything, and yet there is one thing he'll always be sure of. until every last star dies, he will always, always, love you the exact same.
CHILDE. monoceros caeli
childe had lost the bits of peace that remained in war when he left. his breath is warm against your shoulder, hushed sobs as the strongest person you knew fell apart in your arms. the days leading up to his departure filled with the grief of losing someone who was right in front of you — childe had lost the peace in your embrace when he started counting down the hours. when he started thinking of when he would have to leave. when childe — ajax, your ajax, was torn from the times he was allowed to be more than destruction, more than a weapon, when he was allowed to just be yours. when you were allowed to be his.
it was night when he left, the sky so dark he hoped his family couldn't see how how red his eyes and cheeks had become. he had to be strong, he always had to be strong. if not for himself, for them, for his family, for you. it was night when you childe kissed you for the first time, when you both had to pretend nothing happened so it wouldn't hurt as much when he left, his pinky tucked under yours, you'd made a promise. you had to wait — please, wait for him.
his visits home were few and far between, there were times you'd rarely see him, but he made sure. he always made sure to come home to you. even when his body would nearly collapse out of sheer exhaustion, childe would always try to come home with a smile on his face.
no matter how tired he was, childe made sure to fill every memory he had with you with sheer happiness.he wouldn't be able to handle it — if the few times he'd get to see you were filled with the emotions that came with missing you.
so he'd come home and say his hellos that sounded too much like early goodbyes. he'd come home and crawl into your arms with the exhaustion of someone with the world on his shoulders, just to hide from that very world in your embrace — even if just for a day or two. childe will come home not to a house, but to a person, and he will try desperately to ignore the way everything's changed. he's not a teenager anymore, and neither are you. but while he can, childe will pretend you're both just kids, and he will take the few days of peace in your arms before he is forced to face the world outside.
XIAO. alatus nemeseos
you have changed the meaning of "forever" the moment you stepped into xiao's life, and the moment he decided it was too much to stay. the word had little significance to the yaksha, forever just another word stuck in the back of his mind, forever just another empty promise. for no one could promise forever and truly mean it. it was warm the day you first said it, warm being almost all he could remember about that day. how warm it was to have your hand resting atop his, how warm it was to bask in sunlight and you — how warm it could feel to be wanted.
you changed forever on days where xiao would find himself staring down from the roof of wangshu inn, expecting your footsteps, expecting you — he has to slap himself before it becomes too much. you changed forever the day xiao asked why someone like you would ever stay with someone like him. why someone so perfect in his eyes would want anything to do with the mess he is. what did he do to deserve it?
your touch was so gentle on his skin. so gentle it was terrifying. your arms would wrap around his torso and he'd never hug you back because he destroys everything he touches and he wouldn't know what to do if he ruined one of the greatest things he's known in this lifetime.
xiao had always wondered what it felt like, love. he'd never admit it, but it's always lingered in his mind. and if anyone ever asked, it would be your name on his mind. because if anything, if anyone was love then it had to be you. it had to be you. it had to be you and he hated it, because for the first time, he wishes he'd never known. xiao wishes he'd never known the answer to that question, if it meant he'd never have to say it; "i love you."
and maybe forever started to change when he met you, maybe forever changed when he had to utter words he didn't even believe himself, when xiao had to rid himself of what he thinks is the one good thing in his life. when he cut you out and desperately tried not to make you cry because he'd take it all back if you did and he couldn't. he couldn't take any of it back — that's exactly why he was saying goodbye in the first place. "i can't have you in my life." when all he really wants to say is he shouldn't have you. when you could have so much more.
and he prays that there will come a day where forever won't have to mean the life you both could've had, where forever won't mean something lost. where forever won't be filled with longing for something unattainable. where forever is nothing but the promise of finding eachother. in this lifetime. in every lifetime.
if it meant sorry, goodbye, i love you, everything he wishes he could say — every doubt, every regret he could ever have, he's not sure. "i don't regret it." his voice comes out choked, barely above a whisper. you stare at him and he keeps going even though he so desperately wants to stop talking. "meeting you, it was — "
"it was everything. you . . . were everything."
ZHONGLI. lapis dei
the day you parted ways was the day zhongli knew he would always, always remember you. the day you left you'd taken his peace of mind with you. countless nights spent wondering, because to wonder is to set your soul free, but to wonder and to never find out is prison. a prison zhongli has willingly trapped himself in for years, a prison he will continue to trap himself in for thousands of years to come.
zhongli isn't one to lie to himself, so when he passes you in the street, when he locks eyes with you in the crowds of people, when he sees you again, not as a god, but as a mortal man, zhongli makes no move to lie and say that he's fallen out of love with you.
memories will flood back with every stolen glance, memories of love and of loss. for that's all these memories really felt like; loss. but even then, zhongli didn't have it in himself to think of your memories as just loss — when he knew there was so much more to the memories you shared.
he had a new life now — you did too. and maybe that's why it felt so different. maybe that's why he felt so stiff saying hello. maybe that's why he had to catch himself before he stared into your eyes for too long. you always respected his decisions, he had to respect yours. even if he ached to hold your hand as you walked next to him for the first time in a thousand years.
you'd done this all before, lifetimes ago. when it felt like the two of you were on top of the world, when it felt like time was on your side, when you hadn't known the feeling of loss yet. zhongli just wasn't sure if you were willing to do it all again. if he was willing to do it all again.
he doesn't ask, so neither do you.
so as he sits next to you in the theater, exchanging simple pleasantries in the dark, for once, he lets the play fade into the background, stories he's heard a million times all of a sudden brand new as he watches you stare in amazement. a million questions playing on his lips as the play comes to a close. he wants to ask how you're doing, what you've been up to, if you even remember — he wants to ask if you've fallen in love. but as the two of you get up to leave, the only thing he can say is "take care of yourself." because he no longer has the right to ask these questions. he no longer has the right to know about you — to know you. and with that, he no longer has the right to peace of mind.
KAEDEHARA KAZUHA. acer palmatum
it feels as if you took the color from kaedehara kazuha's life the moment he walked away, the moment he left and you didn't chase after him. the moment he left and you didn't beg him to stay. you couldn't, not when he needed to leave, so you stay in the same place. you stay right there, smiling through the tears, and kazuha can feel his breath catching in his throat as he steps on that ship.
at times, he finds that his mind wanders to you everytime he sees the breathtaking scenery, the leaves that rush through the wind, the skies right before sunset, because archons, it cannot compare to the sight that is you. soft flowers fall from the branches as red as his puffy eyes and, despite the overwhelming amounts of color that paint the landscapes, he sighs at how dull, how colorless—lifeless his world seems when you're not in it.
ink stains the sides of his hand, poems he didn't even intend to write about you always tying back to you anyway. it makes him feel seasick, at times, the ache in his gut at the thought of how he left.
kazuha's heart weighs on him like an anchor, tides crashing against it as he is forced to stand still; lest he drift away into the depths of his emotions. blood stains his clothes, it stains the bandages that wrap around his body, the bandages that do nothing to mend his heart.
kazuha runs his fingers across the paper, the indentations of words on paper for letters he knows he will never send. the words aren't romantic, or as poetic as he wanted, instead filled with the guilt, the unresolved grief of being the one to leave — there is so much he wants to say. there is so much he wants to tell you and none of it can come out in words. pages littered with ellipses and crossed out sentences because there is absolutely nothing poetic or romantic he can write about missing you.
the ink smudges on his finger and he can't bring himself to rewrite the same letter again — so he doesn't. he packs everything he wishes he could say into a single envelope, and amongst the smudged ink he can only hope you can't make out the last sentence. i wish you were here to kiss my scars.
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jkloserdazai · 1 year
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-♡Zhongli x male reader(SFW, ANGST, A/B/O, MODERN AU ?)
-♡A/N: we need sad stuff on this blog ok !? Also i suck ass at angst. And kinda like a remix of @reallyromealone 's baby bonten fic ?
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Zhongli had been paceing in the hallway chewing on his fingernails, his forehead dripping in slight sweat of worry.
You were giving birth. He hasn't left the outside of the room you were in for some time. Hasn't eaten, hasn't spoken to anyone. Just in that same spot as he was since yesterday.
He's been in worry ever since, they wouldn't let him see you, he needed to see you, to know if you were alright.
His world was filled with darkness at this moment, like a ringing soundwas in his ears. He was ready to be a father, but he didn't know how.
He wasn't an idiot he knew this day would come soon. And he would never regret it. Not till his death.
He perked up, the sound of a childs crying in his ears. His paceing comes to a stop, taking his fingernail from his teeth.
He was rushing to the door, about to open it till one of the nurses came out keeping him from coming in.
"Whats wrong ? Why won't you let me in ?" He tried to get past her, failing as she kept her arm in front of him, spine him being a but bigger than her.
"Mr. Zhongli...please listen to me..he...your husband.." The nurse gagged, not being able to get the sentance out, but oh...oh did Zhongli know.
That ringing came back. That ringing sound sound his ears. He saw the nurses mouth moving..he didn't understand her. He knew she was talking but he heard nothing but ringing.
Without knowing, he walked pass the nurse, sliding the door open. Your body looking so peacful. The baby in the nurses arms. Zhongli continuing to walk over to you. Your lifeless body was giving him guilt, he couldn't take it, he didn't want to believe that someone so dear to him was gone...just like that.
His hand coming in contact with your cheek. The dry tears stains visible on your cheek. His thumb caressing your face, as his face started showing visible sadness.
No tears yet though. He couldn't get them to come out.
"(m/n)...please..please I'm sorry..dont leave me.." He whispered. Some of the nurses and doctors keeping they're distance, even some of them silently crying.
Zhongli would miss you so dear. Not only that, but he'd need to deal with your body, give it a proper burial.
He was giving you a look, like the look of a puppy who's owner left him, hoping for them to come back.
To come back through that door.
And see them again..
But sometimes that wouldn't happen.
What if..what if the owner left that puppy forever.
And never returned.
Then what ?
Would the puppy stay waiting ?
Or would the puppy just give up.
Give up just like his owner.
Zhongli sighs, a tear going down his face but for some reason even that one tears showed all the pain he was going through.
Slipping his hand off you kissing your forehead, heading to the nurse with the child in hand.
"Did he name him before his death ?" The nurse shoot her head no, you could even see how red her eyes were, strands of her hair stuck out. Of course she was down about it. Everyone was.
"No...naming the child is up to you.." She said, handing the baby over to Zhongli. He held the child close..giving a kiss to they're cheek slightly smiling.
He lived the child so dear.
He just hated that he wouldn't be able to grow up with you.
"What will you name him sir ?" The nurse asked, she didn't want to rush him but he to wanted to know.
"Yuchen...that's what I'll name them..Yuchen." The nurse nods, agreeing the name really was beatiful.
"Universe with sun and moon." Is what It ment.
Turning back to you, and your sleep like form he almost burst out crying. He would- he wanted to. He wanted to hold you so close, for all three of you to be so happy together.
But he cant do that anymore.
He had to take care of this child, and he would do it well, he would make suryou'd have a proper burial, and he'll make sure Yuchen is the happiest baby he can make them.
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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year
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I have so many ideas but none of them can be put into words, all I can do is just wheeze as they come along🤣
Also remember how wordy and flowery Teyvat speech/dialogue is? ADD THAT TO THE FACT THAT TEYVAT HAS ITS OWN LANGUAGE---
Reader can understand the basic speech which is why they are so blunt (I love this idea so much 🤣) and can piece together an idea what the person is talking about.
*insert random person talking about a commission with a long ass backstory*
Traveller & Co.: *understands completely and making plans to retrieve said commission*
C!Reader: (They said they had a cart.... a bunch of hilichurls appeared... dancing?.... they want us to dance fight the hilichurls???? Dance off???)
Actual story->The person's cart got ambushed by a group of hilichurls and taunted them by dancing around it.
....... it doesnt always translate well
Also imagine Reader heaeing random names and overthinks it as a word instead of a name.
Example: Pantalone means pants in Philippine English (sorry not sorry Pantalone)
Tsaritsa??? Oh do they speak russian there??? - reader
Capitano -> captain in some countries
(I once mistake Sandrone as Sandalone and I just went "... ehh??? Standalone? Sandalone as in Sand Alone???? Sandal (Flip flops)????
Oh wait its Sandrone" ".... as in Sand and Drone??--)
-Vine Boom
VINE BOOM ANON MY BELOVED 💖❤🧡💛💚💙💜✨️✨️
Gif is me writing u anything ever:
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AHFLALA FERRRALLL I STG I ALSO THOUGHT ABT THIS!! WHY U COULD ALSO BE BLUNT BC U ONLY GOT THE BASICS 💀 RIP
Man theyre written language looks so scary to learn, kinda like when I looked into trying to learn Mandarin/Japanese (and even Korean), the letters r just inherently so different i was so intimidated
And u dont even read it like left -> right like English
Omg i tried to reply to a arabic comment on my art post once, and i felt so acommplished when i finally was able to type "اشكرك (thanks)" but like, i had to put it on the OTHER SIDE OF THE TEXT BOX, LIKE ALIGN IT TO THE RIGHT INSTEAD OF HOW U KNOW ENGLISH IS INHERENTLY ALIGNED LEFT, IT WAS SO TRIPPY-
Going thru genshin life only understanding minimal words of anything anyone says is honestly how i feel like ive been playing Genshin LMAO
Those analysis videos/lore are saving a bitch's life out here
PANTALONE IS ALSO RLLY CLOSE TO SPANISH FOR PANTS I KNOW WHAT U MEANNN LOL
UR ENDLESS CONFUSION FOR SANDRONE PLEASE ANON U DIDNT EVEN GET IT RIGHT THE FIRST CORRECTION IT JUST KEPT GETTING WORSEEE 😂😭 SAME THO
That would literally be you in genshin tho, like i could easily see it being like, back to back misunderstandings 😭😭
Like u think u got it right (Oh so his name is Rex Lapis, wait what? Morax? Ok his name is Morax...?? What??? Zhongli??? WHO IS THIS MAN-)
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JFC first they gotta have a whole different language (like u saw in game)
And ON TOP OF THAT THEY CAN TALK FOR 10 MIN STRAIGHT ABT THE WEATHER OR SOME SHIT??
No... just, no.
U quickly decide u like what little bits of language u could pick up so far, which just results in,
U guessed it, simple speech and short fragmented sentences (or broken Teyvatian)
U cant even bring urself to care when u give half the characters a heart attack and send the rest into laughing fits
No fucks given, they wanna make this extra hard on u by being wordy on top of a new language,
Yeah u dont care what comes out of ur mouth anymore
Also, since everybody is raised in Teyvat very few ppl dont know the language, which once again brings us back to ancient/older deities/creatures who have a more simplistic version/outdated version of modern language
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Omg getting stuff mistranslated bc u cant understand it all/only keywords sounds like hell but also rlly funny
Traveler/Paimon: "Alright, yes, all is well. We will accept this comission, and depart soon."
You: "...they want us to?? Dance fight?? Hilichurls...???"
Traveler just stares at u half in pity, half trying to hide their amused smile, Paimon is giggling
The commissioner is shook bc a supposed ancient creature?? Just accepted?? Their simple commission?? And u think they want u to dance battle???
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PLEASE U MISTRANSLATE THE HARBINGERS NAMES RIGHT TO THEIR FACES
Signora: "You shall rue the day you crossed the Fatui mortals!"
You: "Lady we don't care, just fight us."
(Signora just means 'Lady')
Signora: *offended gasp*
Traveler/Paimon trying to stifle laughter
Raiden Shogun jaw dropped a little
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Pantalone: "What a pleasure to finally meet you traveler, and thine wonderful companions!" *little bastard smile*
You: "And it was awful to meet you, Pants."
Pantalone: 😶😧😡 "Pants?! HOW DARE YOU NOT EVEN GIVE ME THE MOST BASE RESPECT, AFTER I GREETED THEE SO KINDLY-"
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Oh its so funny, everytime you talk about Childe you always phrase it like he's an actual child bc u thought everyone was just calling him a little kid for some reason (u dont know how Teyvat ages work, he could be for all you know!)
Not very long, but Vine Boom anon your brain >>>>
Ur ideas r so on point, i love them sm
That makes perfect sense why u could be talking blunt too, like an in world explanation really
For you, all the desserts🥰 🤲🍪🍨🍰🍮🧋🍦🍡
Cheers,
🌒🌊🌧Aquarius♒️🌌🌘
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qssy · 2 years
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Finally i have you
warnings: zhongli x gn!reader, fingering, nipple play, zhongli kinda ooc(?), idk what to warn anymore, (had double check so many times but I'm sorry if theres any error) anywhere
summary: reader finally have zhongli. after losing to his rerun banner 2 times, finally they have him. they cant contain their excitement when their eyes meets with the gold one.
“finally i have you, zhongli“ you smiled to the guy that is laying on the bed. under you. yes, you and him only in this well decorated room in your teapot house. the room have this wedding night theme just for him. your zhongli. your own one.
you leaned your head to his chest. “i just cant believe, zhongli..” your ears on his covered pecs, hearing his heart beating. gosh thats is so hot. you lifted your head to see his reaction but he just turned away. you can see his ears are red. this make you wanna see more if him. 
you bring your body up and placed your bottom on his crotch. he surprised by your action by looking at his crocth as youre sitting on his lap. on his crotch. fuck, he is hard. “(name)..” he muttered, his right hand covered his mouth eventho he is blushing mess right now but he is still looks serious with his eyebrow furrowed in frustation. you grind your ass between his clothed member and he hissed. you cant help from smirking to yourself for this. the almighty geo archon, blushing mess under you. this make you horny in this heated moment. 
“zhongli do you like this?“ you bring your hand on his clothed member, palming it. his cursed under his breath and immediately grab your wrist. his golden orbs looking yours. his eyes looking so serious when he look at yours. 
you retreated your body from him. “(name)?” he called. looking so desperate. “dont worry zhongli, i just want to take off my clothes so we can continue further” you noticed his erection go up. this horny ass archon.
before he can replied, you hovered over him and start to kiss him. your kissing moments turned into heated make out session. sucking each other face like its your last meal together. you pulled away for air. we are looking into each other then my head fall onto his pecs. “are you okay?” he got worried while stroking your hair. you giggled. “im fine, zhongli but..” you stared at him. 
“zhongli, you need to make up for it“ you pouted. his eyes staring straight to yours. “what do you mean?“ his voiced out “of course its about you not coming home for two times! you dont know how sad i am(since im a f2p)” he just stay quite.
“when i lose on your banner to diluc, i was so sad for weeks.. but thanks for diluc for comforting me and carried me- “ before you can finished your words, zhongli hovered on you and he is now on top of your body. make you completely vulnerable, compare to his well built body with yours, make you feel like a prey, under his fiery gold eyes. 
“dont complete that senteces“ he said. “what? do i- A-aahh!~“ zhongli sucked on your neck, leaving hickeys. he continued to bite and sucking your skin while youre blabbering mess.
“dont bring up another man other than me, (name)..“ he paused just to strip himself, leaving only his clothed hard erection before to continue to ravish you like youre the only meal in this world. his head slide down to your chest, your nipples are visible. he first giving it kitten licks on your right nipple then continue to sucked it like milk will came out. you cant help but moaned and his other hand is playing and tugging on your left one. “Hhngg~ z-zhongli! “ he is so good at this. youre gonna cum only him playing with your nipple. 
after some moments, he stop sucking it. finally, you can breathe properly.. you can feel his cold hands sliding in your inner thighs. his fingers in front of your entrance “z-zhongli! w-wait a moment!” he enter his middle finger without a warning. you screamed in pleasure. his long finger hitting your sweet spot. he start to fingered his long digits before adding two more. his grunts and your moans mixed in this room. “z-zhongli!- zhongli..!” youre calling him like crazy when he add one more of his finger inside you, now he is four finger inside. hitting that spot. over and over again and your mind went blank.
“im sorry that i dont come home early..“ he said between his ragged breath. still thrusting his long slender finger inside you. youre holding onto his shoulder blades. muffled moans onto his neck.youre close.
“z-zhongli aah! i-im cumming!“ you whined. “a-again.. im sorry i dont come home..twice..” he suddenly thrusting his finger faster. your faces is a complete mess with your watery eyes, saliva coming out and your redded face. “... i cant control your luck- but now im here, so dont worry about losing me again-” as he finished his statement, you came on his finger as he came on the bedsheet. 
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heartsforkazuha · 2 years
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when you get injured !! *ೃ༄ 🔖
headcanons on how theyd react if u got hurt <3
kazuha and zhongli x reader (separate !!) genre : fluff
sticky note : hihi sorry im too lazy to finish prince roleplay kazuha
take this instead + bandoris taking all my free time..💌
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you were sitting under the tree at you and kazuhas usual meeting place.
there was a bandage on your face and a few bruises,
you encountered some treasure hoarders on the way.
kazuha was walking torwards you, chuckling when he sees your figure.
sitting down next to you, he noticed the bandage.
“what happened? why is there a..” he sighs.
“sorry, kazuha.. sorry for letting you notice.”
“dont be, come closer. let me see how bad it is.”
he comes closer to you, hands cupping your cheeks, inspecting your face.
“are you hurt? does it feel painful?” he asks.
“n..no.” he chuckles at your response with a soft smile.
yea since my lazy ass cant think of romantic shit anymore you lie your head on his
shoulder as he plays with ur hair and hums u to sleep
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he tried to run as fast as he can to bubu pharmacy when he heard you got in a fight.
there it was, baizhu patching you up and qiqi sitting next to you.
“[name]. what happened?”
your eyes widen at zhonglis figure, blushing when you find out he came all the way just for you.
he walks closer to you, trying to take a look at your injured face (use ur imagination ig😭)
“im sorry zhongli, i, I didnt mean to make you come all the way here, im sorry the fight was just
so sudden and..l” you try your best to explain the situation.
he sighs and closes his eyes.
he hugged you as an attempt to calm you down.
his tall body colliding with yours, arms around your shoulder.
you hugged him back, looking behind you seeing a chuckling baizhu and a
empty expressioned blushing qiqi.
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hi thank u for reading !! sorry it was rlly short but if u guys want me to do
the school play thing with prince kazuha and scara lmk I fucking love zhongli
and zuha sm 💌 thank u for all the support on all my posts !!
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FUCK U XIAO FOR NOT COMING HOME DONT BE SURPRISED IF I RANDOMLY POST XIAO ANGST OK?
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lodish · 4 months
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i dont know if its really my place to say anything?? but just in case it helps. idk.
my ex and i were together for a year and a half and best friends for four, and its been a good 4-5 years now since then. to this day they're one of the only people i've been actually, genuinely vulnerable with in ways that feel almost impossible around others. once in a blue moon i still have dreams where we start talking again and become best friends again and that trust and care and love is back no matter what we choose to call it.
the first probably almost half a year? was really hard. but i kept close with other friends and reminded myself over and over to stay anchored in the present and sooner than i realized it felt less like an open wound and more like an empty garden. and the life around it crept it and grew and grew and the memory and the grief is still there but it is so, SO much easier to remember what i do have, and to focus on that instead of what ive lost. i cant promise it'll ever truly hurt less but i can promise it gets better, and easier, even when better feels impossible to reach.
hope youre doing okay :((
sorry for keeping this so long in my inbox.. ive been rereading it over and over because it makes comfort seep into my mind. thank u aly it really means a lot :’-) to have such a heartfelt message and genuine care from you is something i really appreciate
for me, me and my ex were friends for about half a year before we got together. we were together for two years. they broke up with me just after the two year mark had passed. they broke up with me almost 5 months ago now. ive never loved someone like that before to be honest. they were my first everything. sometimes i have nightmares where they kiss my forehead and brush my hair back from my eyes. we have a stardew valley save file with something like 90 hours on it… i still remember how their cheeks puff out when they smile and i still remember what their voice sounds like when theyve just gotten out of bed. i feel like their ghost still lives in parts of my life. hehe, did you know i accidentally pulled 2 copies of childe on his recent rerun? i was pulling for freminet and the reason i didnt pull on zhonglis banner instead was because it makes me think of when we would play genshin together. theyd use xiao and zhongli, and id use venti and barbara. i always spoke to them about how i wanted to get elegy for my venti one day. i finally have it for him, but i never got to show them
these days i think im doing better. i dont know… sometimes it feels just as bad as it did when they broke up with me at night, and i sobbed and begged them to sleep on call with me one last time. its really embarrassing.
i dont love them romantically anymore. but i love them, still, as my best friend. and i will for a long time
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gunnhildred · 1 year
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"It's a new year Jean." He starts. Sipping his tea with a polite smile. "And you keep neglecting yourself in many ways. But I do have to ask... When do you plan on asking that fine young gentleman who runs Angels Share? You can only watch from the distance for so long before someone else snatches him up." And he's arching a brow. Getting ready to tease. "Like me for example."
SHE WAS ONLY THERE TO deliver his birthday gift. To mark the occasion (albeit a good day late) with something sweet and sentimental to congratulate him on enduring another year. So how was it, exactly, that her own act of generosity had been twisted to spite her? Why did her life need to come into it? Why did he feel so painstakingly determined to deflect? 
If truth be told, she’d expected some teasing at least, as was the custom whenever she made her annual pilgrimage to bestow upon him valberry cookies and a fresh batch of dandelion tea. But this year he had excelled himself with a twist of the knife, mild mannered teasing cutting far harsher and deeper than even Jean was willing to admit. 
❝I’m not neglecting myself.❞ There’s an air of defensive petulance to the way she snaps back, eyes wide and startled like a deer caught in headlights. Why was her lovelife or lack thereof suddenly on trial? She hadn’t gone delving into his unrepentant pining for a certain ginger Harbinger had she? So why did he have to come prying into hers? 
It’s only a joke but she isn’t laughing. If anything there’s pain there in the weight of the question, fingers curling inwards until her nails cleave crescent moons into the palm of her hands. It was a valid thing to ask wasn’t it? Why hadn’t she asked him? The truth was fairly simple, the knight, for all her fearless adventures into the unknown, was scared of what it might do. ❝…and it’s complicated.❞
In twenty years Diluc had never given her any indication he saw her as anything other than a friend. Had never given rise to anything deeper rooted or more meaningful in the lopsided cant of his smile or the twinkle of mischief in his eyes. Why risk the tentative peace they had, when she’d only just gotten him back in her life? Why risk the inevitable rejection and the loss of the one person she cared about most, because she couldn’t set aside the quiet ache that nestled itself deep within her ribs? 
For that reason, the knight steels herself in the wake of Zhongli’s teasing, blood speckling beneath her nails as she concedes to the game she doesn’t want to play anymore. ❝If you think you can make him happy, maybe you should.❞ She’s overthinking it. It’s just a joke. Just a tease. It doesn’t have to mean anything. And yet to her, it means everything. ❝Although you might want to have a word with your Snezhnayan friend first and see how he feels about sharing. ❞
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t4rt4gl14 · 2 years
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#.you’re a v1rg1n?!
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!! featuring : kaeya. zhongli. childe.
?! warnings : mndi !! dark content ahead. fem!reader. v1rg1n!reader. + soft!dom + overstim + edging + pounding + praise + degradation + teasing + temperature play + size kink !! + [ i think thats it? lmk if i missed anything !! ]
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KAEYA.
-> kaeya is a bit too happy when he finds out your a virgin. but ofc incredibly turned on, the mere thought of taking your virginity makes him feral- but since it’s your first time he won’t be rough. kaeya isn’t a virgin himself- he hasn’t been in past relationships, just had one night stands 💀
-> a lot of teasing and foreplay !! he enjoys watching you squirm and beg for his cock. he’ll often degrade you, “my little slut..so impatient.” his long fingers prodding at your sweet spot again and again, using his vision to cool your warm insides to see your flushed face. the face you make when he makes you cum on his fingers twice- he relishes in how your eyes roll back and your tongue falls out- moaning his name into the night air.
-> when it comes to actually taking his cock inside- he’ll be extremely slow, he’s not even trying to tease he just wants to make sure that you’re not in any pain. kaeyas length is well around 7.9 inches with hella girth. one hand of his will rub comforting circles on your hips whilst the other circles your clit, hoping that the burning stretch would be eased out by the extra stimulation.
“ a-anghh k-kaeya-!~”, you moan, bottoming out on his cock, his cold yet smooth thumb circles your clit in figure 8’s, “shhh s’okay just relax bby- it’ll feel so good in a min m’kay?”, you whine with a nod as he slowly guides your hips- and later on you’re bouncing on him like a cheap whore, chasing your own orgasm as your vision is blinded with pleasure. “c-cumming m’gonna cum!!”. kaeya only chuckles with a moan as he cums right after you do. he’s been edging himself for a while but the tightness of your gummy cunt was too much to bear.
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ZHONGLI.
-> yh im sry guys this man isn’t a virgin 💀. he’s 6000+ years old it’s understandable tbh, but the good thing is, he hasn’t loved somebody for a very long time until you came along ofc. he wasn’t even that surprised when you’d told him you’re a virgin, but he did wanna make you feel the best you could for your first time so expect him to be in between your thighs for a while.
-> zhongli will eat you out like it’s as if he’s starving !! and to get you extra sensitive, he’ll edge you- kissing your clit just before you cum. he’ll often gaze at you and smile, reassuring you that he means no harm and that it’s just for preparation. kissing your inner thighs whilst holding them open as you whine and thrash from your orgasm escaping. zhongli will edge you for around 20 mins- until he’s feel as though you’ve had enough and that you’re ready.
-> he’s 8.5 inches- long and thick so he defo has a size kink, enjoys watching your whine and claim that you can’t take anymore even tho he’s barely half way. how the bulge becomes almost evident with each harsh thrust of his. he’ll start of soft at first but he’ll destroy your insides towards the end.
“aahhh!! s’too big z-zhongli u-uwah!”, your tongue lolls out as he rails you into the mattress. the tip kissing your cervix with every thrust, “b-bear with me love n-ngh m’almost gonna cum..”, he cant. he’s so close, you’re suffocating his dick with how your clamping down on his cock, you claw at his back as he marks you one last time. “unghhh! c-cumming !!~ m’fucking cumming!~”, you cry as he releases his thick load deep inside you whilst convulse around him.
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CHILDE.
-> where do i even start with this man? 1st off- he alr somehow knew you’re a virgin. he says that you give you off ‘huge virgin vibezzz’, whatever tf that means 🤨. isn’t a virgin but he’s only slept with one other and he done it whilst he was drunk so 💀. he’s happy that your first time will be with him, but he’s just slightly sad because he regrets sleeping with someone else. now you won’t be the first person who got his dick wet 🥺.
-> mans got noooo self-restraint. he’ll tease you, edge you then make you dumb on his cock. fucking you over and over till you cum for the entire night- he just won’t stop, he enjoys stretching you, he wonders what that feelings like. but god does he enjoy seeing your fucked out expression, when you squirt on his dick.
-> will only be gentle when putting it in- be in for a ride for the rest of the night- childe has an incredible amount of stamina so he won’t ever stop. you’ll be deadass fucking for so long- you’ll be sore the next night but it’s okay, a night with ajax in the sheets is worth it ♡
“ah ah ahnnnnn!! ajax g-gentle pleasesss unhhh-!~”, he only moans into your ear, “fuck baby you’re so tight- m’gonna fuck you for the entire night m’kay?”, you shake your head, claiming that you can’t take anymore and that you’re gonna cum again but he only muffles your moans by kissing you deeply, dumping another load of his cum inside you. he slows to a stop and you thought you were finally over until he just kisses his teeth, “no wanna feel you cum again, you can do that right baby?”, and at this point you’re too dumb for words.
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senpiecakes · 2 years
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sooo.. is it possible to make the men suffer more with a p2 for “im sorry, i cant look at you anymore”?
(its /j unless ur down too lol)
I’m Sorry, I Can’t Look at You Anymore Aftermath
Notes: I'm sorry this took so long anon :(
Summary: The aftermath of the fallout.
Warning/s: Mentions of death on Kazuha and Scaramouche's part
Theme/s: Angst no comfort, breakup, closure, haunting.
Character/s: Zhongli, Xiao, Kazuha, Scaramouche
Parts: I'm Sorry, I Can't Look at You Anymore Drabble
Zhongli
Ever since you broke off your relationship with Zhongli, you caught him staring at you more than he ever has in your relationship together. His golden-amber eyes always find their way back to you; whether it be while you’re walking down the street to when he passes by you while you’re sitting down for a cup of tea, Zhongli’s eyes always linger. You found it unsettling but you didn’t have the heart, nor the care, to ever confront him about it. Zhongli was somewhat thankful about that. He always thought you could never notice him, and so he relished in your blissful ignorance and basked in the sight of you that he lost before. For the first time, Zhongli perceived you to the fullest. He noticed everything about you that even you couldn’t know about yourself: your tiny mannerisms, the way in which your expressions changed, from the way your eyes glimmered under the sunset, to the way you’d change your hairstyle thinking nobody would notice. Zhongli kept it all in his memories.
You felt as though you couldn’t move on properly with how often this happens. Zhongli’s presence doesn’t only limit to staring- it seems that he’s always where you are. You two would bump into each other in the small streets of Liyue, in the same tea house, even buying the same groceries. You tried your best to avoid Zhongli’s piercing stare and never-leaving presence in your life. He always treated you with the same gentlemanly disposition even after you broke it off. However, Zhongli became more comfortable with you. When crowds would get too thick, you’d feel his hands on the small of your back when he excuses himself to move past you; when you would drop something, he would be the one to pick it up for you without saying a word. Each time, his eyes searched for something in yours, but you never found yourself wanting to give it.
“Zhongli.” You said, dry and civil when you coincidentally met with each other while buying from Wanmin Restaurant. You looked up at him and he at you, trying your best to remain calm. It was the first time you’ve said his name, nor acknowledged him ever since Lantern Rite. You found him staring at you for a while, surprised, longing and somewhat sad until he snapped back and nodded at you. You saw the faintest smile creep up on his lips.
“Y/N.” Zhongli said flatly. Ever since then, Zhongli couldn’t bear to look you in the eye now that you’ve noticed him. You two never had a full conversation since the incident, it felt too painful for the both of you. It’s always these formal greetings that never amounted to anything. Sometimes, you’d catch a slip up of Zhongli’s tone- your name in his voice a sound of wistful yearning, regretful and most of all wishing for this bitter cordialness to go away- to be replaced with the once comfortable relationship you two had. He could never ask how you’re doing- he never wants to know if you’ve moved on. But you’d already established your worth. You were already moving forward and you didn’t want to be seen as somebody else other than yourself. You just wish that Zhongli would be able to see it that way for his future lovers as well, but Zhongli wishes he could see you again in a new light. To see you, feel you and be with you to start over the relationship you two once had.
Xiao
Day and night you still wait. By the edge of a small cliff, on the base of Jueyun Karst, to the little balcony of Wangshu Inn, you wait for Xiao to appear. You call his name in the faintest of whispers carried by the winds and yell out to him in the echoes of the mountains. As much as you call, Xiao does not respond. You always wondered what drove him away from you. Maybe you finally pestered him to the point he couldn’t take it anymore, maybe he found someone new or that he just decided to never show himself to any mortal. Whatever it was, it pained you to think that Xiao would leave you without notice, without a semblance of a goodbye. The least he could do was to bid you farewell. Even that he was too afraid of doing.
Unbeknownst to you, Xiao sometimes watches you from afar. In the distance would he see you, staring out into the horizon, venturing deep into the outskirts of Liyue, in hopes that you may see him again. Xiao doesn’t know that you go on these travels because of him, and you always wonder why no monster or creature ever dared to attack you while you’re in the open fields. He watches you worry, fear, be happy and be sad. Xiao watches you live your life while you don’t know where else in the world he could be.
It’s for the best, he thinks, leaving before you could get the chance to feel his presence. The closest moments Xiao allows himself to be with you, are times when your guard is down in the safety of your one home. Only then would Xiao let himself be near you- enough to see you again.
Xiao reaches for you, in the dark vastness of the night, you not noticing his fingers tentatively inching towards your standing frame. You’re so near, yet so far. If you glanced and stirred, if you saw him once more, what would you do? Would you reprimand him? Label him a freak, pull away and ask him to leave? Seeing his inky black form looming beside you like a threatening shadow? Xiao doesn’t want to know- so he steers clear from you to fulfill his own promise. His heart is always heavy with something; agony, karma, guilt and you. But Xiao feels odd. There was something else that rivaled the weight of his pain- something worse. It was love, adoration, a sense of desperate want that he would never admit to. You never do any of the things he fears, convinces, you would do. How you would berate him, cast him aside, call him a demon. You were never the type of person to do that, especially if it’s towards him. Xiao craves and waits for the day you may return his feelings- but he made it clear that you keep your distance and you followed, regrettably for Xiao as he could only watch you from afar; yearning for the day you may see him again.
He wishes he could be unafraid to love you.
Kazuha
You often wonder how Kazuha deals with such grief that came with the death of his companion. You hold no malice against the wandering samurai, understanding that he may still be in denial, always hoping to find a semblance, a piece, of his friend still alive in the world. It had been so difficult for him to deal with loss that you tried to be there for him to the best of your ability. You just wished it hadn’t been you he so carelessly put the responsibility of being a rebound unto. You know your own heartache cannot compare to the grief that Kazuha may be feeling, but you can’t help but think that he used your own vulnerability for his ploy to ‘bring back’ his friend. And so, you have some form of resentment towards him. Always fleeing past his gaze and attention, swearing you’ll never be tricked like that again.
Little did you know that Kazuha felt guilty for putting you up to that. You were friendly and kind, an individual he saw he could get along with, and he decided to throw your feelings away because ‘you’re not the one I’m looking for.’ Sometimes, Kazuha waits for you at the deck of the Alcor, wanting to apologize and maybe start over. But you always seemed to avoid him, never again wanting to put your trust in him if you felt like he might break it again. You had good reason to. As much as you wanted to try again, you couldn’t bring yourself to be discarded like that. Kazuha watches as you strike up conversations with other crew members, walk on the other side of the deck and straight up ignore his ‘hello’s’ when you two would pass by each other or when you would catch him presumably waiting for you. Kazuha’s chest aches when he sees you speed by him and avert your gaze from his. You were one of the first people he found himself wanting to open up to. He sometimes regrets ever seeing his old companion in you; sure, you both carried the same fervor, passion and strength, but you were your own person. Kazuha wishes he could have seen that sooner.
When you did try to pursue another friendship with Kazuha, he felt that there was still some restraint from you- that you tried your best not to get too close. He felt, well knew, that it was his fault that you were this way towards him. If he hadn't broken your trust from before, you two would have been so close by now. He can’t do anything about it. Kazuha doesn’t want to push past your boundaries any more now than he has. The least he could do was to respect you, and you to stay by his side as civil as you two could go. Kazuha thought he had already had nothing else to lose, but it seems that he doesn’t want to lose another friend he had found in you.
Scaramouche
You are an ever present torment, a husk, a spirit, looming over Scaramouche on his day to day basis to forever remind him of his own undoing. Even if you weren’t there, even if he had already killed you, your memory and influence still cut deep and haunt Scaramouche endlessly. Sometimes, he tricks himself into seeing shadowy figures in the corners of his eyes, creeping behind him, in your shape, in your manner. He’d hear your voice brush against his ear or the faintest touch of your fingers on his skin. Scaramouche thought he was going mad when he’d find himself alone with his own thoughts.
They’re dead. He’d tell himself. I’ve killed them.
You’d mock him, berate him in a way he did to you, never leaving his side as he has done with you. All without being there, because Scaramouche had done this to himself.
At first, Scaramouche didn’t mind; he was always in the presence of others and thought that maybe one of his fatui agents are light on their feet- but on times when he’s alone would the ghost of you be relentless. He’d see your face in the darkest of corners, your entire being in front of him with the weariest expression, still carrying the scar he had inflicted upon you. Your eyes are hollow and empty, once bright and full of life now replaced by the sullen kiss of death. Scaramouche never felt fear, only panic and anger as he tried his best to fight off this ever present threat of emotions and guilt.
“Leave me alone!” Scaramouche yells to nobody, tearing at his hair, destroying everything in his wake in hopes to ease his mind, to get rid of you once and for all. But you had been the same as Katsuragi. A person so near and dear to him, but he had been the one to kill you. Your spirit can never be appeased, but you yourself have moved on from the mortal realm- it looks as if that Scaramouche was the one who couldn’t get past you. Even if you had died by Scaramouche’s doing, a part of him wishes that you would pity him, that your spirit be so forgiving as you ease his pain and suffering.
Maybe this was your way of serving justice- to haunt Scaramouche with your memory till the day's end, to forever remind him that your blood was on his hands. You were innocent, you did no wrong, and you died all because you had shown the Balladeer the same kindness of those before you. You are a memory preserved in his mind, never leaving for eternity. He wishes he could modify his own mind, but you are the justice of those he has slain before. A torment.
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zhonglilittlepet · 2 years
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Totally my first post.
Sugar daddy!zhongli imagines <3
~you want that gucci bag? Sure no problem he will get it.
~want that pretty dress?sure.
~but if u act very bratty he would definitely cut off your allowance and watch you cry or whine about it
~and would also spank you aswell
~he makes you beg to get your allowance back
~oh wait not only just begging :(( you also need to do some more stuff for him too :( its so mean but you deserved it for being such a brat <33
~whats the other "stuff"? Well hehe
~he would shove a vibrator and tells you not to cum :(
~if you do.... No allowance no shopping no fancy dress or anything :((
~if u dont well suprise suprise <3 you know what your getting? Kisses and praises <3 you think its gonna be easy by getting your allowance back? Oh no no ur truly mistaken >:(
~next one make him cum.
~pretty ez right?ehehe n o.
~ this man probably has a monster cock,now how is his thick fat cock gonna fit? Try then if you want that allowance back then do what your told :)
~tears falls out from your eyes as you try take his whole cock
~"whats wrong? Cant take my cock is it? U can stop if u like but that doesnt mean u will get ur allowance back"
~you looked at him and he smirks you shut your eyes and continue take his whole cock in you
~after taking his monster cock you start bobbing your head up and down and zhongli grunts and pats your head and praises you
~man finally cums into your mouth,you rolled your head and moaned as he spills his cum into your mouth
~oh u think ur getting allowance back after making him cum??? Hmm no..wait did u really think your gonna get your allowance back in 1 day..?
~ahaha your wrong,zhongli would cut off your allowance for3 months but if u want it back u gotta do something for him for 2 weeks so he will get it back
~you made 16% progress now u need 84% more to go and get your allowance back. Good luck dear <3
~he would also probably make you not wear panties and a skirt that will almost expose your pretty lil cunt<3
~if he is in a good mood.... he'll let you wear your panties! But you also need to have a vibrator inside your tight little cunt too <3
~would also tell you cockwarm him while he is doing work i guess
~if you move or do anything he will make you wait more weeks to get your allowance back
~you can only kiss him if he tells you to,but if you are needy he'll probably just carry you to the bed shove a vibrator in your cunt and continue his work.
~would also eat you out aswell,if you try kick him or push him away
~he'll take it as you dont want your allowance back anymore :(( so you are gonna have to behave and let him eat you out wether u like it or not >;'(
~defitnetly would take some pictures of you so if you dont behave he will send it to your family or anyone you know <3 hes so mean but ugh hes your sugar daddy afterall.
~oh yeahhhh he would tell you to ride him but you would whine and say
"S'too big! It wont fit!i dont like this! Too tired being on top!"
~he would give u a sad expression
"You dont want your allowance back darling? I'll give you more allowance if u ride me"
~your eyes shook and look at him and nodded he smiles and pats your head
~its all for your allowance right? :(
Alright! Thats all for zhongli imagines thanks for reading :') i hope u enjoy it
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evelxtus · 2 years
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Helloo omg I love ur writings sm!! especially the fluffy reunions one it's so cutee <33 may I ask for a part two of it with zhongli, xiao and venti please? ^^ Take ur time and thank you in advance !!
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❛ — ᴡᴇʟᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ! [2] ♡
pairing. . . . . . zhongli, xiao, venti x gn! reader.
genre. . . . . . . fluff.
a/n. . . . . . . . . wii woo wii woo!! super soft xiao content ahead!! shdhs oww my hands are so cold i cant even move my fingers helpppp. ty for your words and requesting btw <333
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⩩ ZHONGLI.
everyone thinks that Zhongli has been waiting patiently for your return, but it's not quite like that. he is a man who knows how to wait for a long time, yeah, but not when you're the one he's waiting for.
whenever he left the city to walk in the mountains of liyue, watching how the sun hid, the only thing that ran through his mind was you, your image and your warmth. the warmth that he wanted so much to feel again as soon as possible.
so when he finally sees you again after such a long time, the first thing he does after giving you a warm smile is to open his arms, as a sign that he wants, no, needs, to feel closer to you again. to remember your essence.
so when he finally has you held in a soft hug in his arms, he will rest his head against yours and close his eyes, capturing all of you once more. oh how he missed you.
in this position it's easy for him to speak to you in a whisper. “i've missed you every hour of the day. but i always knew you were coming back, for me. and if something separates us again, i will be the one who will go in your search.”
he won't allow distance to take over your lives again, that's for sure. for him, the time that he's without you is a wasted time!
⩩ XIAO.
you have been away for a long, long time, and this boy has waited every day and night for one of those days when he missed you so much you will call out his name. but it didn't happen.
he seemed indifferent, or so he wanted to believe, because inside he was a mess of insecurities. what if you had left, never to return? what if you were in danger and he wasn't there to protect you?
it's for this reason that the day you finally called out his name, his heart fluttered in his chest like never before, a mixture of joy and relief mixed causing xiao teary eyes.
in front of you, the only thing he could do was look at your face carefully again for a few long seconds. it was the first time you saw that expression on him, that sparkle in his eyes...
he didn't dare to approach you or make any move in your direction. his hand rested on his chest, grasping the fabric of his clothing as if that would stop one of the tears that fell down his cheek. this is not how an adepti should act!
is when you couldn't resist anymore, and you threw yourself into his arms to give him an affectionate hug. his breathing stopped for a moment, reacting slow due to shock. he just stood there, motionless. he didn't seem to respond to your action, until he inclined his head, allowing himself to be carried away by your warmth, hiding his face against the crock of your neck.
“i thought something happened to you, i... don't... don't go away anymore. i don't want to lose you again. i couldn't bear it.”
of course not, when the only thing that helps him alleviate his pain is you and your mere presence.
⩩ VENTI.
with this boy it's so much more evident to know that he misses you and is anxious to see you again. his way of waiting for you is to let the days go by, get drunk and sometimes say out loud the days that he has been without you.
“today is the 287th day since y/n left. or was it 286...?” the only thing he gets in return with this is that his drinking companions look at him with pity, thinking that you will never return. “hey, don't look at me like that... y/n is coming back... is going to come back... right?” he tries to convince himself, although his voice is sounding more and more off everytime.
is when he finally feels a strange sensation in the wind that he knows something has happened. this feeling makes him head to the windrise tree, where he finds you under the branches of the great tree, waiting for him with a smile.
“is alcohol still affecting me? because it seems to me i'm seeing an angel.”
you can't help but laugh at his words. you've missed him terribly too, and he knows it. he responds with a giggle, jumping into your arms, his cute face accompanied by a pink hue on his cheeks, and on his lips a smile that nobody's gonna be able to remove in days.
“you're going to tell me everything you've done, right? and i want all the details. come on, sit down with me!”
this is simply a synonym for “i want to hear your voice again until either of us falls asleep. although i would never get tired of it.” you are a blessing to him, and he will listen carefully to everything you have to say, and you cannot blame him if his attention is ever directed to your face, leaving your words and every sound in the background.
all venti can think is that you're not gonna leave again if you're not taking him with you.
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ganyuslily · 3 years
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you leave them | genshin headcanons
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characters: childe, zhongli, xiao
category/extra notes: angst, alcohol consumption
a little summary: how would they react if you left them?
a/n: now...... one might ask... “knives, why did you do that?” and well..... the simple answer is that i just can<3
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zhongli
“oh, i see” is his response when you tell him you wish to part ways. hes stoic and collected, but on the inside hes breaking down
he tries to pull himself together so desperatly after you leave, but he cant
you were his everything. he doesnt understand why you left
was he not good enough? was he perhaps too boring? was he not showing he loves you enough?
in the end he becomes numb
“ive lived on this earth for over 6000 years, its doesnt hurt anymore”
oh, but it does. it does so bad that he wants to crumble everytime hes reminded of your smile or your laugh
he meets up with childe every night to drink to forget about you but it just seems to have the opposite effect
the harbinger looks at him with pity; he doesnt say anything though. he just keeps him company
when he finally accepts it, he becomes more tired
he already lost so many. he really thought you were the one to stay
childe
a part of him wants to believe its a cruel joke
but when u dont laugh it off and just stare at him in silence, awaiting his answer, the only thing he can muster up is “i wish you a good life”
for the first time in his life, tartaglia doesnt fight. if it surprises you, you dont show it. you silently take your stuff and leave
hes not really surprised, but it still hurts so badly — he doesnt blame you for not wanting to stay. being involved with the fatui was never a good thing to begin it, especially with a harbinger
he becomes more closed off. he doesnt joke around that much anymore, his signature smile not on his face anymore
he solely focuses on his job; he overworks himself to the point of exhaustion, but he doesnt stop. youre not here to tell him to take a break and he wonders if that was one of the reasons you left
he wonders how youre doing. he truly did mean it when he wished you a good life. he hopes youll find someone that will be able to give you a relationship that you want and need
maybe in another life hell find you again and treat you the way you deserved
xiao
he doesnt say anything. he just nods and disappears
when he comes back to wangshu inn a couple of hours later, a part of him longs to see you on the balcony, but youre not there
you really left
he becomes lost; he doesnt know what to do or how to act
he just wanders through liyue in the hopes of seeing you
he never does
after months of your absence, he finally comes to the terms youre not coming back. that moment, his eyes tear up but no tears spill from them
he becomes even more silent than he used to be, even more closed off
verr goldet notices that. she doesnt say anything and even though she wishes for him to recover from the heartbreak, she knows he wont. youll stay in his mind forever. hell love you forever, no matter what
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Do you do Yandere x Reader? If so, can you do Tartaglia? I look forward to it! —TotallyNotZhongli
Note : Of course! I hope you like my first Yandere!Childe and enjoy it! Also,thanks for the request! I really appreciate it! Warning : Yandere,mention of blood
My Sweet Love [Yandere!Childe x gn!reader]
Knock Knock
You turned to look over your shoulder to see familiar ginger man leaning against the wall,facing you with his arms folded on his chest. Your eyes scanning his leaning figure with a tilted head, wondering what he's doing here. You just enjoying the view of the night Liyue after a tiring day alone with the wind washing away any worry thoughts. "Enjoying the view, are we?" his voice calmly asking as he now standing next to you, watching the beautiful view in front of him. But,in his eyes, there's only one person that able to take his breath away easily. "Liyue's pretty in nights," you stated softly, tucking you hair behind your ear to keep it out of your face while Childe noticed a beautiful earring on your ear. He never gave you any earring.Who dare to touch his lov-
"Childe? Something's wrong?" you asked looking at his unreadable expression. He quickly flashes his usual playful smile and leaning on the wooden railing carefully. "Nothing,I just noticed that beautiful earring you got there," he stated while a little smile. You touched the accessory and smiled. "Mr.Zhongli got it for me.I insisted for him to keep but he looked sincere.."you answered,remembered the heartwarming scene that made a smile also crept into your lips.
Childe's fist tighten on his side when heard another man's name coming out from your lips. Thoughts of the Consultant making your heart beats faster than him making sick thoughts creeping into his head. He met you a while back but with his heart, he knew you are the one for him.The one that he will live together with,the one that will be the mother on his children and the one that will be wrapped around his arms when sleeping in the nights. No one else. Only him. He don't care if you like it or not- "Goodnight,Childe.I will see you tomorrow," you smiled at him and left a soft peck on his lips shyly before walking back into the building. He watched your figure in silence before wandering his gaze around before spotted Mr.Zhongli himself,walking home alone.
"Does anyone ever tell you not to touch other people's property"
"Childe acting out of place lately.." you muttered under your breath while sitting behind the counter of your family shop. There wasn't any customers right now and you checked the clock. You planned to meet with Zhongli for lunch so you prepared to visit him. You told your other worker to take care of the shop before walking out to breath fresh air of Liyue. You fixed your qipao before walking towards Zhongli's house since he told you that he taking a day off. You still wondering what's happened to Childe. Since the night at the balcony, he rarely showing up to see you at your shop at usual anymore. You did miss his charming smile on his handsome face everytime he walked in your shop. 'Probably he just busy with his works' you muttered to yourself,convincing yourself. You still remember the spontaneous kiss few nights and your cheeks flushed in warmth.
"Maybe I should tell him about it.."
After walking for a while, you arrived at the front door and knocked but realized the door was left unlocked. You excused yourself and step in the typical Chinese house that decorated with beautiful decorations. Weirdly, no one was in the house and there's no sign of Zhongli. "[y/n]?" called a familiar voice that stopped you in your tracks before turning around. Childe came out from Zhongli's bedroom made you gasped. "Childe? What are you doing in here?" you asked him before facing him with nervous gaze. What did he do to Zhongli? hurt him? Is this why he never visit you at shop again? A gloved hand caressing your cheek gently while his other hand closing the locking the front door. You looked up to look at him,hoping that all these just little fun pranks since Childe and Zhongli are good friends.
But all you saw was.. dull and possessiveness in his ocean blue eyes that sent cold shivers down your spine.
"You look as beautiful as always.." he praised your his voice now next to your ear and he suddenly forcefully pulled down to take off the single earring made you almost scream in pain but his other free hand covering your mouth quickly. "Shh~ Don't make too much noise~" he purred softly as you sobbing quietly when felt the blood trails down from your injured ear onto your shoulder.
"W-why.."
"Because I love you so much..You are made to be loved by me and no one else.. No one can touch and look at you the same as I do,dear.."
Your knees weakening under his drunk in love gaze on you that putting you trembling. Before you could react, you fist landed straight to his nose that made him stumbled few steps back with a groan. You ran into the front door but he caught your wrist and pinned you against the wall with him hovering behind you. Your heart pounding loudly in your ears in fear of the worst outcomes.
"Let me go,Childe..."
"Nope.You already in my arms, I'm not gonna let you go easily.. I couldn't bring myself to see you talking to others when I'm the one who deserve to be next to you!"
You flinched when his fist collided with the wall next to your head. You kept the tears inside,fear he might hurt you.
"Say,[y/n]..I will give you anything you desire;money,power,..happiness.." he whispered into your ear with heavy breaths. "We will live together in loving life..No disturbance..No other people..No Zhongli.." he continued before you heard he threw the earring onto the floor loudly. You just gulped down in fear when he asked "So,what do you say?"
"N-No..Let me go.."
He let out a heavy sigh. "Listen.." his hand landed onto your hips gently. "I will give you everything. Everything you ever desire..Anything for my sweet [y/n]..And all you have to do is stay by my side,that's all.You don't have to work hard, you just need to be home when I'm home..Not much..And your love must be full,only for me"
You love Childe but not this Childe. You want to live with him but not in a forced way. You closed your eyes and shaking your head,rejecting his offer. The pain from your bleeding ear now throbbing,making you dizzy.
"Such a stubborn one."
He turned you around to face him before his hand brought your chin to look at him.
"i love you.I love you so much. So much that I will defeat the Gods just for you to look at me with those pretty eyes of yours. You love me,right? You always waiting for me,right? You will always look at me in loving gaze,right?"
"I love you but..."
"But?"
"I love you but not this kind of love,Tartaglia.."
He closed his mouth while staring at you,speechless. Do you fear of him now? Do you not want to have a family with him after this? Or.. your heart already belong to that damn Zhongli..
"I love you,[y/n].."
That was his last words before his lips crashing onto yours,forcing you to kiss him like your life depend on it. Tears dripping down from your eyes but you nervously kisses him back just to satisfied him. After a while of his rough yet lovable make out, he broke the kiss and whispered.
"Good,good~"
You fell into unconscious after a hit landed onto your neck. You felt a pair of arms catching you from hitting the floor and you cant imagine what will happen next..
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crimsonophelia · 3 years
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hi! could i request for an imagine involving childe and a gn reader? the reader is childe’s longtime childhood friend who’s more or less been in love with him since they were young—and they document the extent of their feelings in a diary (complete with embarrassingly detailed paragraphs planning out theirs and childe’s wedding, gushing over every little thing about him, incidents where they felt petty and jealous over childe showing interest in someone else, etc etc.) that they accidentally end up mailing to childe in liyue thinking it was the book they bought him as a gift.
when they realize the mix-up, they try to make a run for the post office to stop it from being sent to him, but it’s no use—it’s already been shipped out and sent off. how childe ends up responding, doing, or reacting is completely up to you! (i apologize if this request was a little long aha; i hope you have a wonderful day!)
featuring: childe x gn!reader
warnings: none
published: april 22 2021
form: imagine
a/n: thank you for requesting!! this is so cute~~ i love wholesome, bashful childe www
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you couldn’t believe it. oh my god, you were such a huge, fucking idiot. how could you have gotten the letters mixed up with the bank documents??? the whole point of keeping your ridiculously embarrassing letters to tartaglia separate from the rest of your documents was just so something like THIS could never happen! 
the eleventh fatui harbinger had requested a few copies of official documents from northland bank to help zhongli with some funeral parlor legal paperwork, and you happily obliged, jumping at the opportunity to be of help to the boy you’ve admired for so long.
but for some reason, you were feeling particularly airheaded today. the night before, you had written yet another “letter” to tartaglia in your diary, much like the countless other sheets of paper clipped together, filled with endless words of yearning that will never be read by their intended recipient. you wrote:
“my dearest ajax,
i hope life as a harbinger is going well. i quite miss when we were back in snezhnaya as children, but i suppose i should thank celestia that fate brought us back together in liyue. i still cant help but to miss you each and every day, though. it feels like its been so long since we last got together and talked. i remember last time we had an actual conversation was at wangshu inn— was it three, no, four months ago? i cant quite recall. you looked so lovely, as usual. your smile never fails to make me laugh, especially with that one crooked tooth. i still love to bully you about that, you know. hopefully we can meet again soon, sincerely. im tired of being just friends, tartaglia. not when you look at me like that, and not when you always love to put your arm around my shoulder and pull me in to you every time we meet. i dont know how you feel about me—sometimes it appears as if you might feel the same, though i can never be sure. but i digress. life is rather lonely without you, and yet i manage to get by, somehow.
always yours,
[y/n]”
you tucked the letter amidst the stack of all the others, confident that they would never see the light of day. but somehow, somehow, your foolish, sleep-deprived brain mixed the letters in between the documents from the bank, and now tartaglia would know everything. all your foolish musings over the years, fawning over his rogueish charm like a child, yearning for your friend with such humiliating naïveté. this cannot happen. you have to get to him before the mail can, somehow. he was currently staying at an inn nearby the funeral parlor—there’s gotta be a way to be quicker than the mail deliverer.
you hurried out of your office and hailed the first rickshaw you see lined up on the street, and ordered him to drive you to the inn, as soon as humanly possible.
upon arrival, you leapt out of the seat, tossing an indiscriminately large fare at the driver before stumbling onto the sidewalk, almost dropping your things. slamming open the door to the inn, you reach the front counter. asking breathlessly, “which room is mr. tartaglia staying in?”, you hurry to the room the doorman indicates to be the fatui’s residence.
but before you get the chance to even look for the room, you turn the corner and slam into a taller body. to your dismay, you look up and see the face of a shocked tartaglia looking down at you, a stack of papers tucked under his arm. shit.
shit shit shit. this cannot be happening right now. maybe he hasn’t read the letters yet? slim chance, though—he’s always been nosy.
“[y/n]...” Childe looked at you with a pained glint in his eyes. he reached out for your arm with his free hand.
ah. so he knew.
you tried to jerk away, feeling your cheeks heat up with embarassment and the pressure that always comes before tears. things are never going to be the same again. all because of my stupidity.
you felt yourself colliding with the wall of tartaglia’s chest again, as he abruptly dropped all he was holding. a pair of arms wrapped themselves assuredly around your waist, so familiar, yet so foreign. not able to hold yourself together for any longer, you let yourself go, crying into tartaglia’s chest, your voice racked with harsh, humiliating, childish sobs.
“why did you hide it from me for so long?” you felt tartaglia whisper into your hair, his breath grazing your scalp. his warmth was so delicious, something youve been craving for so long finally being satiated.
looking up, his usual charming smirk was much more sad, almost guilt-ridden. “i care about you so much [y/n]. you know you can tell me anything, right?”
gasping for air, you felt so ashamed for making such a scene in front of him. “i was so scared, ajax. scared that i would drag you down, or scared you would leave me behind.” you couldn’t bear to meet the pained gaze of the boy yoy so hopelessly fell in love with.
his rough hand smoothed over your hair, comforting you like he used to, back when you two were children in snezhnaya. drawing you effortlessly closer towards him, until you felt his lips plant a chaste kiss upon your forehead.
“you know i love you, [y/n], don’t you? i always have and i always will.”
you clung on to him tighter, fearing what the world might return to if you ever let go. you couldn’t let him slip through your fingers, not again.
“i don’t want you to suffer because of me anymore, my dear.”
a/n: to clarify YES THIS IS A HAPPY ENDING READER AND CHILDE GET TOGETHER i just didnt wanna go any further and do a complete 180 on the tone lolol i hope this is okay!!
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heartsforkazuha · 2 years
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thank you, miss cupid !! ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥
you were sent to help them with their crush, but what if they fall in love
with you instead ??
( sticky note : hi guys !! sorry I haven’t been posting anything
for a while I ran out of ideas for zhongli…anyways enjoy !! ) part 3 / you can check my
page for the other parts !! ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥
zhongli x reader (angst to fluff , happy ending !!)
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“y/n, I have a new mission for you, his name is zhongli.”
“he’s in liyue right now, as always, your goal is to help him get a lover.”
then you were sent to teyvat, but there’s one thing she didnt tell you about.
who was he supposed to fall in love with?
you were exploring liyue harbor, in hopes of finding zhongli so you could complete your mission.
you see a tall, handsome man sipping his tea while closing his eyes.
he was charming, really.
you slowly walked closer to his table, trying your best not to disturb him.
“excuse me..? are you.. zhongli?”
“ah.? yes.. and you?”
“im y/n. sorry for the sudden ask.”
and then you two had a lovely conversation. he was indirectly flirting with you
and always complimenting you.
“haha, well.. there is something i do need help with..”
“I’ve been struggling with this for a while..”
he says.
“there’s this lady i have interest in..but I am not sure how I can confess to her.”
days and days went by, you two would always have conversations, and his sweet
words always had a way to give you butterflies.
then , when zhongli was walking next to her while you were looking from above,
your smile couldn’t help it. It disappeared.
you didnt even know her, she was always smiling around him and everything about her was..
pretty.
you thought that he wasnt meant for you. you thought you got sent here to assist him.
and when you found out they got together..
your happy mood was gone. but still, he had always tried to find a way to
try cheer you up. he didnt ever make you feel left out but..
what hurt the most was how he went to your usual meeting place,
always talking about her so passionately without even knowing he was just ruining your health
by mentioning her, you thought it was wrong to feel this way, but you cant help it.
but zhongli, he loved you too.
ever since you two started talking, he felt a comforting presence around you.
but he did not notice you had feelings for him..well until..
“zhongli. lets end things here, I only used you for the popularity.”
he was heartbroken from those words, the first thing he did was come to you.
you comforted him, you couldn’t stand him when he was like this, he deserved better.
that night, while you two were walking each other home, he was different.
he kept giving you these warm comforting looks in his eyes.
“well, goodbye y/n. thank you for comforting me today.” he smiled.
you waved goodbye.
abut you were tired, its already time you tell him.
you couldn’t hold it in anymore. (Not shitting btw)
you immediately ran to get your phone.
calling him right away.
he picked up.
“zhongli, I.. I.. im sorry! please let me speak to you..”
“uhm..[name]? is something the matter ?”
“I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU OKAY???”
he hung up. you were devastated from his response.
quickly running to your bed to cry, you thought it would end like this.
the next morning, you woke up next to him, while he wiped your tears.
“zhong..li?”
“mhm.. im sorry for giving you that response.”
he chuckles, “ I love you too.”
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xiaaoluvr · 3 years
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unforgettable
warnings : none
sfw, angst?? & fluff (idk)
hospital au ? (something like that)
word count : 1k
zhongli x gn! reader
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your fingers intertwined with his– as you sit and wait beside the hospital bed. a few seconds later, zhongli hesitantly opens his eyes groaning. he looks around the room, then at you, then at your intertwined hands.
"zhongli! youre up!" you cry, scooting closer to him. you kiss his hand, tears filling your eyes. he's unresponsive. he doesnt move much, but you dont expect him too. "are you okay?"
he remains quiet. he looks around the room again, and then you once more. "zhongli? how are you feeling?"
"i-i feel like fine.." he croaks, untangling his hand from yours. you stretches a bit before looking at the time. 10:12pm.
the nurse enters the room with a glass of water and hands it zhongli. he sips it quietly, not saying anymore. which is unusual, because he is rather talkative. especially with you. "babe, are you sure youre okay?" you ask, placing your hand on his shoulder.
he glances at the hand on his shoulder and sets the glass of water on little table beside the bed. "forgive me but, im feeling a little uncomfortable." he tells you brushing your hand of your shoulder. you feel a little offended, slightly embarrassed— but it's understandable. "are you sure youre okay? i know its because you're in the hospital, but cmon dont act like that." you awkward joke.
he just stares at you confused. "now that i think about it... i dont know your name.." he starts. "i dont even think i know who you could be."
you laugh a little. but hes not laughing. "youre joking right?" you laugh again. he stares at you blankly. "whats funny?"
your heart stops and your mind goes blank. you cant think. you dont wanna think. you dont wanna think what's actually happening right now. the nurse had told you earlier it was a possibility for this to happen, but it was unlikely. it was unlikely for the worst to happen. it was unlikely for him to get amnesia.
your senses came back to you when you felt hot tears streaming down your face. your throat felt heavy and your hands were shaking. you look over to zhongli, who is unreadable. "dont cry." he says sternly, trying to comfort you. you smile a bit, but that wont fix the pain youre feeling.
"im actually... youre significant other." you say quietly, standing beside the bed. you show him your left hand with the ring on your finger. he looks down at his hands again and nodds when he sees the ring on his own finger. "explains why that ring is there."
he pats down on the bed for you to take a seat, which you do so. he doesnt know how to exactly comfort you but he placed a hand on yours. "i dont, really remember anything... but i can tell what we had is something special– i assume." he says.
tears continue to stream down your face as he comforts you. he wipes your tears aways and reassures you everything is okay. but you know its not. nothing will be the same.
"so how long have we been married? or together rather?" he asks. you smile. "we've been married for about four years but we've been together.... for as long as i can remember." you chuckle.
you both continue to talk among yourselves, while he continuously asked you questions about your relationship, his life, his like and dislikes, and all sorts of things. he knows he has amnesia now but doesnt really seem to ask about that. you'd rather not tell him how he ended up like this anyways.
"my life was pretty interesting, huh." you nod in response, closing your eyes. it felt so good bring up old memories. you feel zhongli wrap his arms around you, pulling you closer. feeling the warmth of his body against yours felt nice.
"you really seem unforgettable y/n." zhongli tells you before pulling away. "but it will take me awhile to fall inlove with you again, i apologize."
"i understand." you say, forcing a smile. the thought of this being your fault, filled your head. you really believed it was your fault that he ended up with amnesia.
it had all started with an argument. a stupid argument. you were feeling jealous and insecure, which was dumb because zhongli treated you so good. no flaws in your marriage at all, but you couldnt help feeling so furious seeing them together. they'd often spend time together, a little more than zhongli would spend time with you. you told him you thought you were better off alone and to forget all about you— to forget all about this relationship. you'd even took off your ring and threw it at him. he was as hurt and angry as you but stormed out the house, driving off. hours later, you seemed to realize how rude you had been. you were worried when he didnt return home. but that worry you felt only grew when you got a call informing you zhongli had been hospitalized.
you feel so lost. you never meant for this to happen. you only told him to forgot because it was in the heat of the moment. this was your punishment. this is what you get. you dont even feel bad for yourself– you feel bad for him. all you want to do is save him. he doesn't deserve it.
"im sorry... for everything. this is all my fault." you tell him. he looks confused, he obviously doesnt know what youre talking about, but he nods his head. "dont feel like that y/n. its not your fault." he tries to reassure you. but thats wrong.. you look into his golden eyes, tears filling your own. "im gonna protect you this time, so next time... you won't forget us. you wont forget me." you say shakily before he pulls you into a hug again.
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