#Amabilis Writes

[themeatpit37]

Stardew Valley Headcanons: How Elliott would handle a Cordycep Amabilis infection (Part 1 of infection series)

Cordycep Amabilis basics: Parasitic mushrooms that give you Yandere disease, slowly altering and deteriorates the mind.

General content warning: Yandere, obsessive behavior, death to the farmer (optional read), death, murder, suicide mention, depictions of death/violence, Willing-ish farmer (Optional read), forced infection,

I tried my best. I am a decent writer but am still learning :) Plus I was running out of creative juice around the end.

Elliott got infected from the mushrooms growing in his cabin due to the moist, humid environment. Seeing these mushrooms sparks him with artistic inspiration and he ends up spending a whole month cooped up in his cabin. What he didn’t know was that this wasn’t inspiration, but a sign of infection.

He ended up writing a novel about a forbidden romance between an obsessive stalker and their clueless neighbor. Issue was he could never figure out the perfect ending for it.

This caused him to wander out of his cabin just to see you for “Artistic inspiration”. In reality, he would copy the behavior of the main character and stalk you relentlessly. No matter where you went, he followed. To him, this was a romantic gesture that showed he was dedicated to his beloved.

It didn’t stop there though. He kept editing his story and soon it was less of a story and more of a journal about how he wanted to hunt you down. The main character was a self insert at this point and the neighbor was just you but with a different name. He wrote in detail all the ways he’d dispose of the people you called your “friends” of the gruesome ways the main character would kill off the people in the neighbor’s life and he even started to buy supplies “For inspiration”.

It all went downhill on one dark night in cindersap forest. He was excusing himself in his own mind by saying “I’m just here for Leah, but if the farmer’s home is nearby then it wouldn’t hurt to check on them”. That’s when he say you sitting on the dock with Shane and that alone made his blood boil. Spore buildup leaked from his mouth and eyes, the thick pink fluid oozing onto the ground as he watched helplessly.

He only walked away to go to his cabin. This wouldn’t do, he’d have to convince you Shane was unstable and unsuitable to be your partner.

The next day, he was surprised by you crying at his door. When he asked you what happened, all you did was fling yourself into his arms as you cried out

“It’s Shane! He’s dead!”

Elliott, bring a gentleman, guided you inside and had you sit down on his bed and explain everything. Turns out Shane hung himself last night, but Elliott already knew that and even had to stop himself from chuckling wide the small drops of spore buildup that tried to escape from his mouth.

He actually remembers the night before, but only in small chunks as he was blinded by his own rage. He remembers wrapping the rope around Shane’s neck, strangling him and watching as Shane flailed frantically. He remembered the desperate gasps for air and how his face changed from red to blue. In fact, he made sure to write it down for his novel.

This did temporarily satisfy his need to have you to himself as he got to hold you close and whisper sweet nothings into your ear, but you still left. You still ended up going to others who comforted you. This angered him. He should be the only one allowed to comfort you! He should be the only person who gets to see you in such a vulnerable state! Seeing you with others make his skin crawl… But that might just be the mushrooms that started to grow on his skin. Naturally he decided that everyone else needed to go.

His second target was Emily since she had the audacity to kiss you. Yes he knows it was because of the quest from Clint, he watched you accept it but that didn’t matter. What mattered was that way he decided to get rid of her.

The next day, Clint was detained. He was charged with first degree murder after killing Emily. The motive was said to be that Clint got overly jealous of Emily hanging out with others and killed her in a fit of rage with one of the swords he’d been working on.

Of course the real culprit was Elliott, who staged the whole event. It was quite easy too as he always overheard Clint trying desperately to admit his feeling to her and knew that a story of obsession was just as easy to tell in real life as it is in fiction.

He wasn’t satisfied though, as you were off hanging out with Sam for comfort. That was an even easier fix than before, he just had to go to Jojamart and push one of the heavy shelves on top of Sam while he was mopping. The most satisfying part was the sound of bones crunching mixed with his rehearsed scream of shock and terror.

Yet despite three deaths happening so soon… You always seemed to run to someone else. He needed you to himself, so he took more inspiration from his book and broke into your house.

“You really must invest in a lock for your home, my dear.”

Those were the last words you heard before you felt something hard hit the back of your head.

Next thing you know, you wake up tied to a chair in Elliott’s cabin. You think you’re alone until a figure emerges from the shadows.

Mushrooms with spotted heads in various shades of pink and red grew in patches on his skin. Some grew on his head with strands of hair weaving through them, while others tore through fabric and rested on shoulders.

“My love! You’re finally awake!”

Elliott says to you with a smile, teeth coated in a thick pink fluid that you cannot identify. His eyes were wide and staring straight at you in the same way a starving wolf stares at a weak rabbit. You felt strong hands grab onto your shoulders as Elliott leaned closer to your face.

“My beloved, I’ve been waiting for this moment for so long! I couldn’t stop thinking about you! I just had to take you for myself but you understand, right?”

Before you can even get a word in, he interrupts you with his rambling.

“Of course you do! You’ve always been understanding, even to people who don’t deserve it… People like Shane…”

You were pissed at this, but he interrupted you again.

“You know to me, his death was… Cathartic for me. It was soothing to watch the life leave his eyes as I strangled him, his squirming and struggling a display of how the animalistic mind will always fight to survive.”

It wasn’t a suicide. It was never a suicide. That alone helped you connect the dots; Every death was Elliott’s fault. Three people died because of him. But before you could fully process your emotions, Elliott leaned in closer with a smile and spoke once more.

“Now you have a choice to make; Will you be good and accept my love, live the rest of your life as my beloved spouse and stay with me forever? Or will I have to make you…”

If you choose to accept

With tears in your eyes, you nod and tell him that you’ll stay.

“Wise choice. Now, I’ll prepare our wedding after I finish up writing these last pages! We can move to your farm and start our new life there! But first…”

He stuck his fingers down his throat with a gag before pulling them back out; Finger coated in a thick pink fluid that had a gooey, sticky consistency to them.

“We have to become a bonded pair. You’ll be infected by me and in turn, we’ll be inseparable! This is just spores, don’t worry my love!”

You could feel one hand force your mouth open as wide as it could go. His slick fingers rubbed your throat and mouth with the spores with care, causing you to gag and cough. He only pulled away once all the fluid was off of his fingers and down your throat.

“There we go! Now we’re inseparable!”

If you choose to decline

You scream at him that he’s a monster and that you’d never date someone as terrible as him, thrashing against your restraints frantically. As you do this, he takes off a book from his desk and opens it up to the last few pages.

“Oh my beloved, do you see this? These are the blank pages meant for my latest novel. It was inspired by us my dear! I could never figure out the best ending to give us…”

You could see his smile turn into a grimace as he continues,

“But you ruined it. We could’ve had a happy ending where we lived together as a happy couple, gotten married, and maybe had a kind of two if you wanted… But you had to choose the wrong answer…”

Elliott started to make his way over to you, footsteps echoing throughout the small cabin before he stopped in front of you.

“But I’m not doing that. I’m not accepting this answer.”

As he said this, you watched him pull out a switchblade out from his pocket and a sharp pain went through your stomach. Blood gushed from the wound, only gushing more and more as he dragged the knife upward and allowed your organs to spill out without a care to the mess it made.

“I’ll just make you comply! You’ll just have to sit there and look pretty for me… Right?”

You could feel your eyelids grow heavy, sudden sharp pains from Elliott hollowing out your body being one of the few things reminding you that you’re not dead yet. But that was cut short as you felt blood drain out of you and your vital organs being yanked out carelessly. This would be the day you die.

—————

Elliott hummed to himself as he messed with the sewing kit he took that was hidden away in the farmer’s home, blood still staining his hands as he sewed up the large cut that laid on the corpse’s abdomen. He’d never been good at sewing but that didn’t matter to him.

“Just a few more stitches and… There! All better!”

He gave a crooked smile as he stared at the farmer’s corpse with wide eyes, pink fluid from the spore buildup leaking out of his eyes and down his cheeks.

“You look good as new! Perfect!”

The corpse looked nothing like the farmer he loved. It was covered in the fungus that infected him and the attempt to stitched up wounds only made the injuries look worse. But Elliott barely noticed this, as the fungi were messing with his brain to the point where he couldn’t tell the difference.

This was his happy ending. This was the perfect ending for them. He was happy.

He was happy.

#stardew valley #stardew valley headcanons #sdv headcanons #elliott stardew valley #Elliott sdv

[lycanlovingvampyre]

MAG 166 Relisten

Activity on my first listen: cutting the Kolkwitzia amabilis in my garden.

MARTIN: "What happened back there? What you did to Sa–" [HE CUTS HIMSELF OFF.] [A PAUSE.] JON: "Go on. Say it." Oh no. Oh god, does Jon think that Martin thinks it was his fault that Sasha died?

HELEN: "Oh, goodness. You see what you’ve done to the poor boy, John? He’s coming to me for clear answers." Oh Helen really knows how to get under one's skin.

HELEN: (giggle) "It’s very satisfying though, isn’t it? Teasing out vague information? You see why Elias got a kick out of it." Oh fuuuck, and now she's comparing him to Elias? Jon really is straight up not having a good time..

TMA usually is super vague, but I'm actually happy we got an explanation how the smiting works. Does sound plausible, I’d say. But also, this explanation about there only being watcher and watched should have got Martin's gears to turn. They are not victims of a domain. So they have to be watchers.

MARTIN: "Sure. Okay, that’s – I mean, that’s really not that complicated, John; I don’t see why you were being so coy about it –" JON: (overlapping) "Because I’m ashamed, Martin." [SLIGHT PAUSE.] MARTIN: "Ashamed?!" JON: "Yes! Ashamed of the fact that I just – destroyed the world and have been rewarded for it, the fact that – I can walk safe through all this horror I’ve created like a… fucking tourist, destroying whoever I please. The fact that I… enjoyed it, and… the fact that there are so many others that I want to revenge myself on!" Why does everything in TMA feel so natural!! There is so much bad and boring writing out there, every time something very logical happens it makes me super excited xD  So yap. It's super understandable that he's ashamed of all of this. Especially since we know how he actually feels about this revenging stuff. His anger says “do it!”, but his logic says “It’s not gonna do anything”..

MARTIN: "…No; No, I actually think you’re good on that front." JON: "What?" MARTIN: "Yeah, I, I, I think we should go for it, get our murder on!" Martin, when he only remotely tastes power xD

MARTIN: "f you want to stop them and have the power to, then – then, then yeah, let’s do it, let’s go full Kill Bill!" JON: "I – I, I haven’t seen it." Laughed so hard at this xD Of course he is deflecting.

HELEN: "Oh, Martin, I am so proud of you. Can I come?" JON & MARTIN: (in unison) "No." HELEN: "So that’s a strong “maybe” then?" Asgdsdfjkdf, Helen can also be so funny! One of those characters I hate and love!

MARTIN: "Do you need anything?" [JON EXHALES.] JON: "No." Love that Martin checks in with him there. He has been a bit dismissive of Jon's feelings about this whole situation.

Yeah, that statement does nothing to me, neither terror nor excitement. As far as I understand it, it's more about the financial part of the Buried. About the pressure of the society we live in, ever trapped in bullshit jobs with only ever a glint of the prospect of escape and there is no use in fighting others like us (that second worm part) cause if we win against them, we’re stuck exactly where we were before.

"The rains fall here as they do so many places in this new world. Thick and oily drops that taste of bitter salt, torrential tears plummeting from the watching sky, thumping and squelching onto the thirsty soil in which the worms writhe painfully towards a surface that does not want them." That is a gross image!

"How do you fight, when you cannot move beyond the slowest inching crawl, without limbs or weapons or the kinetic force of violence? You do it slowly, pressing, biting, tearing gradually through each other until at the very end, one of you is still." There is a very horrifying animatic of this part of the statement, it's called "The Worms (Magnus Archives Fan Animation)”.

JON: "God, I hate the Buried." Mh, he was there once...

That phone's got to be a Nokia 3310, right? XD It is the Nokia ringtone after all!

ANNABELLE: "He’s more powerful here than he’s ever been, isn’t he? And you’re not sure what that means for you." [THE BRIEFEST OF PAUSES. MARTIN INHALES SHAKILY.] MARTIN: "I’m hanging up now." ANNABELLE: "Does he even need you at all?" That part about "you're not sure what that means for you" is actually something I could relate to. Especially in a relationship this young and under extremely high stress levels. Shared trauma and being in the same life-threatening situation can create incredibly strong bonds. Being in that same boat. But how life-threatening is it actually for them? Aside from his guilt and post trauma, Jon is very much fine in this new world. Still, not sure what Annabelle wanted to achieve with this, she does mention it to have been "clumsy", so yeah.

[THE PREVIOUSLY-HOWLING THINGS IN THE BURIED – LIKELY THE WORMS FAR BELOW – HOWL AGAIN, INSISTENTLY.] MARTIN: "I know, right?" Adflkdhfs, this episode has some great comedy!

@a-mag-a-day

#a-mag-a-day #mag 166 #tma #tma spoilers

[firstlightanthology]

【GUEST INTRO】

With spicy works such as 'i wish you didn't have to lie' and 'ut ameris, amabilis esto' joining us to write some good food, please welcome Valen!

Applications end on March 9th Artist Application: [here] Writer Application: [here]

#丹穹 #dancae #dan heng #caelus #hsr #zine #anthology

[cosmic-expressions]

tags 𓆩♡𓆪

꒰ the way you look at me as if you fall in love tonight...

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@ cosmic-expressions / zarazmnie-cos, 2024

#varius

[saints-prayer]

Hey, it’s mun over here (do we still use that term?). I know I haven’t been using this account for a long time, but I’m still alive. For the last couple of years, a lot of things happened in my personal life such as, moving out, going through my transitioning, focusing on my mental health, ect. Not only that, but my interest drifted from Dragon Quest to Saint Seiya. Don’t get me wrong, I still love Cristo and DQ IV, however, I spend a lot of time making Seiya/Shiryu fan content now.

That being said, I don’t plan on deactivating this account. This account was really important to me because it allowed me to express my love for a character that barely gets any attention outside of Japanese Fandom spaces. Also, my experience with RPing as Cristo helped me improved my writing by a lot. I enjoyed my time writing with Rpers, and answering Rp asked as Cristo. I do feel pretty sad that the RP community on Tumblr has become obsolete. I didn’t really picked up Rping on Twitter because a lot of that community centres around Lewd Rping... Which is the kind of Rping that I’m not interested in (neither is Cristo, lmao). 

I might Sign-In to re blog some Cristo related stuff, and I might write some in-character blog posts if I get the motivation for it. If any of you want to see any of my other content or want to connect, here are my socials:

Art Tumblr: https://amabilis-art.tumblr.com/

Fanfiction (they’re some Cristo fics if you want to read them): https://archiveofourown.org/users/Mx_Amabilis/pseuds/Mx_Amabilis

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@amabilis1687/videos

Twitter: https://twitter.com/Mx_Amabilis

Discord:  Amabilis#4867

If you have any questions, just send an ask, and I’ll try my best to respond.

I hope you folks have a nice day, stay safe and look after yourself!

Mun Amabilis.

#((Mun Talks))

[amabilis-art]

The Search For Paradise 

After the war of Poseidon, the Saints finally return to a life of peace. However, Shiryu cannot relax as memories of the recent battles are still fresh on his mind. Seiya tries to help cheer Shiryu up by offering him a new hairstyle. However, such a simple gesture leads them to share their deepest emotions.

Read more on AO3 or Fanfiction.net.

Source of Mood board’s Template.

#Saint Seiya #Seiya #Shiryu #Pegasus Seiya #Dragon Shiryu #Seiya x Shiryu #Amabilis Writes #Fanfiction #My Mood Boards #Mood Boards #Hurt and Comfort #Fluff #cw: Death Mention #cw: Blood

[mosswolf]

just know that every time i bring up a plant in passing in a fic, i got distracted for at least ten minutes deciding exactly what plant it is down the species and made the very tough decision that the info was not relevant enough to put in the actual fic

#the conifers mentioned in all this and love too are abies amabilis or pacific silver fur #the magnolia mentioned in among the roses red is magnolia grandiflora or evergreen magnolia #but i know the characters povs im writing would not know so i never get to mention it gjskfhdh

[gwens-fiction]

Hello! My name is Zac, I've been trying to be more active in the writeblr community as of late and I came across your blog through my "interact if you're a writeblr" post! It's nice to meet you 😊

I read your intro post and was really interested in the Hidden Earth Chronicles! Could you go into more detail about it? How far are you in the writing process? What other characters are in the story? What themes are going to be in it? Anything you'd like to share!

Hello! I'm Gwen, nice to meet you too ^^

I can indeed! First of all, I do have a separate side blog associated to it alone @hidden-earth where I'll reblog anything related to HEC or musings to do with it.

I've honestly been working on Hidden Earth for about 6 years now even though I don't have a lot to physically show for it. There were 6 chapters I wrote back in high school a few years ago, but they have been scrapped because I discorded a MAJOR plot hole that ended up requiring me to separate one character to her own story (tbt) and refocus on one of the others for the story. The old 6 chapters can still be seen on my wattpad and fictionpress though. I also have written several little oneshots as I was testing things out though not all of those I would call fully canon now and just practice or experiments. Those are only on wattpad though I've posted a few here as well.

So as for my current position in the process, I am starting the draft over from the beginning in a way that makes sense to Vasco's character and doesn't have that plot hole anymore.

Important Characters include:

-Bertramus (Vasco) Cahill: the protagonist, dorky neurodivergent necromancer who really loves his wife. He's got both depression and anxiety from his rough backstory. He might be autistic coded as well (mainly due to how much of myself I have put into him).

-Calandra (Estella) Cahill: Vasco's wife and best friend, a delicanter (they're naturally very charming and figuratively silver tongued). She was kidnapped and is being controlled.

-Amabilis (Felix): Estella's older brother and Vasco's brother-in-law and close friend. He's also a delicanter. He accompanies Vasco on his quest to find out what happened with Estella and rescue her. He and Vasco enjoy pestering each other but they have each other's backs. Felix knows Vasco has some quirks he needs extra help with on occasion that Estella usually helps him with but with her missing, he steps up.

-Machioneel - a toxicancer (corrosions and poisoning) who has kidnapped Estella for both personal and political reasons. I won't spoil much here.

There are many other characters that will likely pop up as well as some species I have invented myself. Heck, all the wizards are of the Avindiae species (inspired by the wizard race from Lord of the Rings with a touch of shape shifter and birds). There are also so far the Iguanamente and the Amuri species so far too that'll come up.

Themes, there's probably a few different ones that could be seen around. Individual vs society, facing prejudice (Vasco faces a lot of this as a necromancer which is often seen as evil and hated in their society), betrayal & manipulation, being stronger after everything others have done to you.

Not sure if later in the book or in a book 2, I also have ideas for Vasco's birth family too but I'll also keep that pretty vague for now hehe.

#hidden earth chronicles (a fantasy)

[scriptexecution]

Inspiration #2

“Arthur Schopenhauer on the Relationship Between Genius and Madness and How Memory Mediates the Blurry Line Between Sanity and Insanity,” by Maria in Brainpickings at https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/07/19/schopenhauer-genius-madness/   

“I don’t believe insanity is either a requirement or a guarantee for brilliance,” cosmologist Janna Levin wrote in her elegant inquiry into madness and genius. And yet the cooccurrence of the two has long permeated our cultural mythology of creativity.Nearly two centuries before modern psychologists came to study the complex relationship between creativity and mental illness, the great German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer (February 22, 1788–September 21, 1860) dedicated to it a lengthy passage in The World as Will and Representation (public library) — the 1818 masterwork that also gave us Schopenhauer on the crucial difference between genius and talent.Schopenhauer writes:

“It has often been remarked that there is a side at which genius and madness touch, and even pass over into each other, and indeed poetical inspiration has been called a kind of madness: amabilis insania, Horace calls it.

[…]

This cannot be ascribed to chance, for on the one hand the number of mad persons is relatively very small, and on the other hand a person of genius is a phenomenon which is rare beyond all ordinary estimation, and only appears in nature as the greatest exception… It might seem from this that every advance of intellect beyond the ordinary measure, as an abnormal development, disposes to madness.”

And yet however enticing the myth of the mad genius might be, Schopenhauer points out that what makes it problematic is the nebulous nature of madness itself and the blurry line between sanity and insanity. In a passage that presages what scientists have since discovered about how memory disorders illuminate the workings of the mind, he writes:

“A clear and complete insight into the nature of madness, a correct and distinct conception of what constitutes the difference between the sane and the insane, has, as far as I know, not as yet been found. Neither reason nor understanding can be denied to madmen, for they talk and understand, and often draw very accurate conclusions; they also, as a rule, perceive what is present quite correctly, and apprehend the connection between cause and effect… For the most part, madmen do not err in the knowledge of what is immediately present; their raving always relates to what is absent and past, and only through these to their connection with what is present. Therefore it seems to me that their malady specially concerns the memory; not indeed that memory fails them entirely, for many of them know a great deal by heart, and sometimes recognize persons whom they have not seen for a long time; but rather that the thread of memory is broken, the continuity of its connection destroyed, and no uniformly connected recollection of the past is possible. Particular scenes of the past are known correctly, just like the particular present; but there are gaps in their recollection which they fill up with fictions, and these are either always the same, in which case they become fixed ideas, and the madness that results is called monomania or melancholy; or they are always different, momentary fancies, and then it is called folly, fatuitas.”

The World as Will and Representation remains an indispensable read. Complement this particular portion with Joni Mitchell on therapy and the creative mind, then revisit Schopenhauer on what makes a genius and the intellectual rewards of boredom.

#Inspiration #arthur schopenhauer #sanity #Insanity #madness #memory #genius #the world as will and representation

[reality-warp]

Couple Moodboard: Eleanor & Legolas (Rávamë’s Bane Trilogy)

“It is true, you are not demure, passive, or submissive by any stretch of the imagination. But I have no need nor desire for a demure, passive women at my side. Pray the day never comes, but if I were ever to assume rule in my father’s stead, I would need more than just a loving wife and friend. I’d need one who I both love and trust to share in my burdens and responsibilities, as well as trust with my heart. One who knows me, both the good and the bad, and will not shy away from either. And one who I can rely on to tell me bluntly when I am being an insufferably, prideful fool.”

“You might find yourself eating those words someday.”

“I will take my chances, mîr nín.”

I decided to put this together because I’m in a quotey, mushy mood, and also because I feel kinda bad for dragging their slow burn romance out for so long. It’ll be worth it in the end, guys, I promise! <3

#I was having a soppy moment ok! #i love these two probably more than I should #but dammit #they're relationship turned out miles better than I expected it to #my writing #fanfic #fanfiction #lotr fanfic #Rávamë's Bane #Rávamë's Bane Trilogy #Lapsus Memoriae #Compos Mentis #Amabilis Insania #Eleanor Dace #Legolas #Legolas Thranduilion #RealityWarp #Legonor #eleanorxlegolas #mine #moodboards

[septembersung]

So @bee-friend suggested that I do a homeschool resources/curriculum post. I don’t need lots of encouragement because I love talking about all this stuff. The trouble these days is not that there’s a paucity of resources, but actually that there’s too many. You can easily drown in a sea of options and contradictory methods. It’s kind of overwhelming if you don’t have some perspective from which to start cataloguing and evaluating.

I am not claiming to be an expert. My oldest is only in first grade so I can’t give a user experience on a wide range of curricula. What I do have going for me as a “guide” of sorts is that I am a compulsive researcher and plan-far-ahead-into-the-future person, because I want to already be aware of our options and be able to recognize methods, problems, and solutions for the problems, when I encounter them. In short, I’ve been reading about this for years, have been compiling our own curriculum from the get-go, and am always absorbing insight and recommendations from more experienced homeschooling families, so I have at least a passing acquaintance with a variety of methods and options. So please don’t read this as the gospel of an infallible all-knowing guide, but rather as a friend who’s living it talking to another friend who might be interested.

Personally, my approach was to begin by exhaustively reading about methods (classical? Charlotte Mason? What about the big boxed curriculum names like Seton?) so I could recognize them and evaluate their prospective merits, and then begin feeling out what works for me as a teacher and my kids as students. And then, within that framework, to read every booklist available - literally, if there’s a booklist from a reliable source for a needed subject or our age group, I will give it a once-over - and then put my money (when I have any) into building a home library. (If you have a good local library, use it! ...We don’t.) It’s worked great so far; my kids are bright, inquisitive, and, in terms of content-acquisition, consistently working above grade level.

I’m not up for a “comprehensive” post, so this is not an intro to everything that is out there or even necessarily every resource I’ve ever drawn on. (Unless it actually works for us and becomes a regular feature, I don’t keep track of links super well.) What I would like to do is share some Catholic (or adaptable-to-Catholic-needs) resources for the grammar level (broadly, K-2nd) that I’ve found useful: 

Mother of Divine Grace (MODG). My go-to guide. Classical education, i.e., emphasis on truth and beauty with learning divided into the stages of the trivium according to where, developmentally, the child is at. If you register with them, they literally teach you how to teach your child.

Little Schoolhouse in the Suburbs is a free MODG-guide and how-to, particularly helpful for first-time teachers and if you have to adapt, like for a learning disability. Her math drill breakdowns got us through half of Kindergarten math when I couldn’t afford to buy the textbook (we eventually received it as a gift.)

Ambleside Online and Mater Amabilis. Both are free Charlotte Mason (CM) curricula; Mater Amabilis is the Catholic version. CM is not classical education, but there’s overlap between CM and classical. Lots of classical homeschoolers use/have CM influences (including us.)

Build Your Library. Found this site through this article on what are living books and how to use them (a CM concept.) I haven’t really explored the site as a whole but I found the level 1 (1st grade) ancient history booklist and free sample syllabus extremely useful this summer as we launch into ancient Mesopotamia and Egypt. 

Note that Story of the World is a Protestant history and notably deficient in the Reformation era, and I’ve read other Catholic complaints. I do know Catholic families who adapt it, and also others who don’t bother because there’s now a Catholic version, The Story of Civilization, which I have the first book of and plan to try out later this year. And of course there are other Catholic (and secular) history programs.

RCHistory. It does stand for “Roman Catholic” history. It’s the only place I found that still has Kid’s Bible Timelines in stock from the “great adventure” program. Introduced me to the Gilgamesh trilogy, which my kids are in the middle of and really love. Here’s RCH’s ancient history options. 

Two guides to classical education and home education in general:

You can’t really do a homeschool guide without mentioning Susan Wise Bauer’s The Well-Trained Mind. The Bauers write from a Protestant perspective (they’re the source of Story of the World) but this book is invaluable for the broad perspective on classical education. 

Ditto Laura Berquist’s Designing Your Own Classical Curriculum, which is Catholic (she’s the source of MODG.)

I have older editions of both these books; I assume the newer editions have even more going for them, in terms of updated resources. 

 Preschool Math at Home. As a certified math failure and a product of public school, I was legitimately terrified to start teaching math to my preschooler. The two most important things that changed that were:

1) reading in Rebecca Frech’s book Teaching in Your Tiara, and I paraphrase: Look at this evidence of how terribly public schools are doing teaching math. And such a school  did after all produce you, who is scared of teaching your child 1 + 1. Can you do worse than that? You really can’t. 

There are a ton of Catholic-mom-homeschooling resources out there that focus on questions like “what resources are available” and “I think this is a good option but I’m afraid of x y and z.” A brief search brings up a bunch.

And 2) Preschool Math at Home, which explains in clear and logical fashion how beginning math skills build on each other and what you should be encouraging your child to do at each developmental stage. Once you understand a) what the early skills are and b) see they build on each other, the fear goes away. Then you just have to know your child, monitor what they can do, and respond to that. Which is just motherhood in a nutshell anyway. 

And finally: don’t ever underestimate what you can learn from homeschooling-mom blogs. Every August/September there’s a flurry of posts about curricula and lots of moms post regularly about what they’re reading, how they handle challenges, and what their methods are. Many of the big-name blogs that I started following from even before I was married are less active or defunct now, but a little internet searching and clicking around will start opening up what is in fact a very large and busy world. A good place to start finding these blogs is an annual linkup from SimpleHomeschool.net where bloggers share day-in-the-life posts. 

And an aside: if you don’t hate reading on screens (I do) there are a million books available for free online in various formats. Ambleside Online happens to have a convenient list of sites because they recommend free stuff whenever possible. 

Similarly, you might be amazed at how many and how varied the free online/printable worksheets, games, and “supplemental” resources are. The key here is to have looked at enough quality resources that you can judge the source and/or see when a given worksheet/activity is worth it or not.

If you’re interested in homeschooling, I hope this is helpful to you.

#my homeschooling tag

[themeatpit37]

So since it’s the season, I wanted to write more about the Cordycep Amabilis infection but I wanted to do a poll to see who I should do next?

For context, Cordycep Amabilis is a parasitic mushroom that infects the brain and feeds off of any dopamine produced by the host. It tends to force the host to become obsessed with a victim and chase after the high they receive from falling in love (Basically Yandere disease). I already did Elliott as a full length post, so who should be next? Or should I just do everyone but with more general headcanons?

#stardew valley #stardew #sdv #yandere stardew valley

[lycanlovingvampyre]

MAG 161 Relisten

Activity on my first listen: cutting the Kolkwitzia amabilis (also know as beauty bush?? apparently?) in my garden.

I think it was the right move to keep the story as they envisioned it. Covid was a massive event that nobody could have foreseen in this detail (like, we knew there's the danger of more zoonotic diseases due to humans and animals living so close to each other on such a grand scale, but like not when and how exactly it would be). It was very unfortunate to be timed so close, but as they said: writing and some of the production happened before the pandemic. There was no way they could have taken this into consideration during production. And as far as I know, a lot of people found TMA during the pandemic and it kept them company during lockdowns.

ALEX: "We will of course continue to provide content warnings in the show notes for every episode, and we advise everyone to check these even if customarily you don't." Me, being like "I don't need content warnings! I've walked through 30 years of my life with a few horrible things and I never needed content warnings for any of the 450+ horror movies I’ve seen, and that number doesn’t even include horror TV shows or short stories". Also me, after the show "Uhhhh, maybe there is something to content warnings..." Don’t be me, check the content warnings, take your time.

The new logo looks really cool, but I miss the old one in the YouTube videos. That smoke effect just doesn't work that well with the new logo. Also I think the logo was a bit of a spoiler, as I immediately suspected the tapes might be Web.

MARTIN: "Sorry, sorry; Tim wanted to surprise you, and –" TIM: "Snitch." Oh god, this is harmful to Martin on two levels... Number one: Jon still "hated" him back then. Jon didn't seem too happy about the surprise. So Martin's alarm bells go off and he tries to protect himself from potential angry Jon fallout. And then number two, Tim as well "attacks" him (even if he only meant it teasingly, it did sounds a bit on the annoyed side). But you know that's the thing with some situations like this, social anxiety, bullying... You start to get hyper-vigilant and hyper-reactive to the emotions of others as a defense mechanism. Recognize danger before or when it's already rising to keep yourself safe.

MARTIN: (hmph) "Well – I preferred going out for ice cream anyway." I talked about this before in discussions about Jon's and Martin's age and I think Martin's birthday is sometime between May and early September. That's at least the ice cream season in Central Europe. Of course they cooould have gone to a dedicated ice cream saloon at any time of the year (how are those doing financially in winter? I've always wondered about that...), buuuut let's look at the timeline. I still think Gertrude died in March and not in May and that thing in MAG 25 was an error and at first done to give the statement even more fuckery. So our Archives team started in Spring 2015 (maaaybe early Summer, if you want to keep May a possibility). Martin has already had his birthday before they celebrated Jon's here. Jon's birthday is sometime between Summer 2015 and Spring 2016 (cause then they're been working in the Archives for a year). And on July 29th 2016 the Archive was attacked by Prentiss and Sasha died. That would also kind of mean that Martin is older than Jon and I love that idea because I think Jon hated that XD (Aside from him already thinking Martin's older than him because Martin also cheated with his age...)

SASHA: "Yes, you were there!" MARTIN: "You had – rum and raisin, and taught us all about emulsifiers." Also part of the defense mechanism of hyper-vigilance. Trying to remember everything. Also rum and raisin? Jon really tried to push the I'm old-image.

ELIAS: "Knock knock." Who is it, Mr. Spider. It's Mr. Bluebottle. And he's brought you a cake.

ELIAS: "He didn’t have to. Nothing escapes my notice, and I like to keep an eye out for this sort of thing." I had a boss like this once xD Whenever someone brought pastries, he was immediately there! He has unintentionally built himself a small reputation around the office. He once told me, he of course knows about that, but one time he did not immediately jump at the chance and then there was nothing left for him. So he will keep up with being known as the sweet-tooth who's always the first, otherwise he might miss out xD

ELIAS: "So, how old is the birthday boy?" JON: "Uh – thirty-eight." SASHA: "Liar." And by assuming he just made himself 10 years older, we have his actual age!

EVERYONE: "Happy birthday, dear –" TIM, SASHA, MARTIN: "– Jo-on." ELIAS: (simultaneous) "– Archivist." Smug, disgusting, grooming bastard...

JON: "If I wish for you all to go away, do you think it’ll work?" T__________T

JON: "You know that there’s a lot of tannin in tea as well?" In black and green tea, yes, but only after letting it steep for more than 2 minutes.

JON: "Hang on, have you been recording this?" [CLOTHING RUSTLING.] TIM: "Oh! Yeah! I – just thought it might be nice, you know, something to look back on when we’re all old and sick of each other." T__________T Especially that coming from Tim... Also Tim doing the hidden tape recorder thing here...

MARTIN: (gentle) "Hey." JON: ""Hi." So the breathing sounds and these two words were the first thing I heard of them after MAG 160. And I was so relieved to hear that Jon's still Jon.

MARTIN: "I don’t know. It’s not like there are days to count, anymore, (sigh) all the clocks are stopped, and…" Glad it came up here again, cause that's vital information and I wouldn't have caught that the first time around cause I didn't listen to the trailers.

MARTIN: "Well, just as well I don’t remember my dream." JON: "I do." MARTIN: "What?" It's pretty dark, but it's humor, I’ll take it!

MARTIN: (trying) "Bit of a hideaway?" JON: "Or a prison." MARTIN: "..Yes. Still, better than outside." More of the Martin-tries-to-salvage-the-situation-at-least-a-little-bit and Jon-is-unable-to-see-any-hope-or-other-positive-views-whatsoever... It does make so much sense for both characters.

JON: "Y-Yes. It – It doesn’t want to harm me." MARTIN: "And me?" JON: "I won’t let it." Hell yeah! Also a bit of a first glimpse of Jon-being-a-demigod

MARTIN: "Jon, it’s not your fault." JON: (sharp) "Martin, can we not do this again?" T__________T God, this episode...

JON: "I’m just – I’m mourning a world I killed –" MARTIN: (overlapping, placating) "I know –" JON: (increasingly fervent) "and we’re all trapped in its rotting corpse!–" MARTIN: (strict, end of discussion) "Enough, Jon." Oh god, Jon sounds as if he's about to cry any second after that "rotting corpse" and Martin is losing his patience a bit there. I get it, he doesn't want Jon hurting and it’s frustrating.

That is such a twisting-the-knife move to actually have a tape wherein Gertrude warns about... everything! I mean, we see how much is destroys Jon.

GERTRUDE: "They do not rule our world, but they do exercise considerable power, which they generally manifest in the form of monstrous beings that spread further fear – or, incarnations, those humans who have willingly, though not always knowingly, chosen to take on the power of these entities." God I LOVE how the music picks up at "or, incarnations"! I think it’s the same track as in MAG 9, when the Lightless Beast knocks on the door! Cause that part of the music picking up also really got me in MAG 9.  Ahhh, I miss the S1 tracks...

GERTRUDE: "I’ve managed to keep the Archives in a state of chaos for decades, as I believe his plan would benefit from their organization. But I leave that to your judgement." Come to think of, is this actually the first time we hear that it was not neglect, but fully intentional to keep the Archives in such chaos?

GERTRUDE: "A place… (she sighs) A place that will often demand a high price from you." That sigh and that pause. So it did nag a bit on her? Sacrificing so many people?

GERTRUDE: (overlapping) "Do you know the gas main, a little way out in the tunnel?" LEITNER: "I do." GERTRUDE: "I need you to move it." Ah yes, more foreshadowing! We already heard about that gas main in MAG 68. And about Gertrude using gas mains to blow up places of Beholding in MAG 53.

GERTRUDE: "If my guess is right, the Church’s ritual should be collapsing any time now, so – immediately." Hmm, so that is probably the second to last recording of Gertrude. I wonder why she didn't talk about her theory of the single-entity-rituals might be doomed to fail anyway.

JON: "Can you imagine? If we’d had this?" MARTIN: "But we didn’t, did we." JON: "No –" MARTIN: "So there’s no point in dwelling. (heavy breath) John, I – This isn’t healthy." Aw man, there are times I've been so much like Jon. And there's no way around it, you just can't help it in that moment.

JON: "Healthy? I am an Avatar of voyeuristic terror, who unquestioned craving for knowledge has condemned the entire world to an eternity of torment; healthy i-isn’t – i,it’s not –" First of all: Theater kid... Second, I think it was totally necessary for us as audience that Jon spoke out loud how exactly he thinks that this was all his fault.

MARTIN: "It just – It hurts me to see you wallowing like this." JON: (snapping) "Well, some of us weren’t able to cut ourselves off from the world before it ended." Hmmm, it is so hurtful, but also feels so real. Jon saw it as... an accusation? Like, and now Martin says, he's feeling bad because of me because of course everything is my fault, but maybe if Martin had been there just a little bit before all of this, maybe it wouldn't have happened! (Dwelling again...)

MARTIN: "That’s not fair." JON: "No, it’s not; I’m – I’m sorry, I just – (large shaky breath) It hurts." Martin having a quite reasonable approach. He knows it's not Jon's fault. He knows, the general period with Peter wasn't what caused this (Cause later we hear he very well feels conflicted about his choice in the panopticon). There is no one else at fault but Jonah Magnus.

MARTIN: "A way to stop this, a way to turn the world back!" JON: (softer) "Do you really think there is one?" MARTIN: "Well, if there is, it’s not in here, is it?" Hmmm, Martin's definitely right there... But I can also understand Jon's wish to stay at the cabin. Even without that supernatural cabin-makes-them-want-to-stay-because-it-seems-safe...

JON: "No, it’s – (sigh) I love you, I just – (inhale) I need more time." AAAAAAAAAh <3

MARTIN: "Hey – Hey, when did you start recording?" JON: (confusion) "I – didn’t. I only brought one, and I’ve been using it to play the tapes." MARTIN: "Oh. (sigh) That’s not a great sign." JON: "No. No, it’s not." A bit in conflict with the trailer because Jon addresses the recorder about exactly that... Oh hang on, I guuuuuuess we could possibly see the trailer as happening after this? There is nothing that would contradict it, is there? Especially Martin's "You still… (sigh) Feeling it, seeing everything?" could be seen as reference to the conversation in MAG 161. Earlier, in the first scene of Jon and Martin it sounds like Jon describes his "seeing all the terror outside" as if he's laying that out for Martin for the first time. I wooould say it could possibly be due to the nature of Martin being a bit bewitched by the cabin (like not noticing tea is not!tea), buuuuut this doesn't work with Jon's confused reaction right here in MAG 161. (Also, I'd say it’s not necessarily a bad sign, as it indicated that there is indeed something that it still wants to hear!)

@a-mag-a-day

#a-mag-a-day #mag 161 #tma #tma spoilers

[allstoriescomefromsomwhere]

Prompt Fill #1

Write about the war in Rome from the perspective of a civillian on the opposing side.

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“Oh, at ease, sir Barbro,” Amabilis said mockingly, walking past Barbro to get to the well. Barbro was leaning on the wall overlooking the valley in the hills, knuckles white from clenching the bricks. His blue eyes narrowed, staring intensely into the distance. It was 146 B.C. Two years after the Punic Wars started. Two years after the Romans had started fighting the Carthaginians in order to conquer Sicily. The Greeks had sided with the Carthaginians out of fear of the Romans. What a shame.

“You know looks can’t actually kill, right?” Amabilis walked over next to him, two full water buckets in his hands. Barbro loosened his grip on the stones, turning slightly to face his companion.

“The Romans are only about 700 leagues from here, fighting a battle that they’ll surely win,” he said, walking toward the stairs. “And we’re waiting for a play to start.” Amabilis snorted.

“And aren’t you just the optimist.”

“Optimism doesn’t change the facts.” Barbro strode down the stairs and exited the building, coming out into a crowded market. Amabilis followed close behind, struggling not to drop the water in the bustling mass of people.

“Relax, Barbro,” he panted. “The Carthaginians will hold out. The Romans will give up. Have some faith, will you?”

“The Romans are ruthless.” He maneuvered his way through the mob, steps becoming larger. “The defense will never stand.”

They finally got to the end of the crowd, where the market opened up into a clear area. The sky was clear, only the faintest bar of grey staining the perfect horizon.

Smoke.

Barbro kept walking, his strides getting longer, until he was practically sprinting on the stone ground, his toga fluttering against his legs. Amabilis shouted something behind him, but he was falling further and further behind as Barbro ran faster and faster. The air was hitting him in the face and the stone was beating at his feet, but he kept running. He kept going until he reached the walls of the Acrocorinth, getting a better view of the land. The grey was incredibly faint, but if he squinted, he could see the the faint outline of the fumes.

It was impossible. After all, Carthage was 760 leagues away, across a stretch of seawater as well. Maybe he was just imagining it.

“What was that?” Amabilis gasped, coming up beside him. The buckets were half empty.

“Amabilis,” Barbro asked carefully, “have any messengers come from Marsala?”

Amabilis huffed, annoyed. “Yes, they’re in the agora now. Wh—” But Barbro was running again, back the way he came. Amabilis was left shouting curses behind him, but Barbro wasn’t listening.

There was already a crowd around the cursus publicus, everyone anxious to hear the news. The last that was heard, the Carthaginians were still holding out, but the lines were faltering.

Another ten days passed without any news. Barbro paced around impatiently for the whole week.

“Come on, Barbro, this play is a classic.” Amabilis took a seat next to him. They were in a theatre, waiting for the chorus to begin.

“The courier should come today.” Barbro looked around, his leg bouncing on the bench. Amabilis let out a sound of protest, making Barbro look up at him, confused.

“You’re constantly thinking about the battle nowadays,” he grumbled, sitting down next to him. “We’re at one of the most famous plays in all of Greece, and all you’re thinking about is the Romans.”

Barbro’s eyebrows knit together. “Do you not care about the war?”

Amabilis looked away. “I do.” He started fidgeting with the cloth of his toga. “But I care about you, too. We barely talk anymore. And you’re directing all your energy toward the stupid war.”

Eyes softening, Barbro raised his hand, softly touching Amabilis’ face. Their eyes met. He opened his mouth to say something, but Amabilis suddenly tensed up.

“Amabilis, what—” He looked down in horror. An arrow was protruding from his partner’s abdomen. Red fluid dripped from the tip, slowly staining Amabilis’ tunic. Amabilis looked back up at Barbro, snapping him out of the slow motion.

“Medic!” He screamed. “We need a medic! Where—” The room burst into chaos. Barbro looked up. Roman warriors in full battle armour stood in the entrance of the theatre, some armed with bows, some carrying swords. Some of them strode toward the stage while others took it upon themselves to increase the number of Greek corpses in the hall.

“Barbro.” He looked back down at Amabilis, who had collapsed into his lap. His eyes were looking up, facing the sky. He concentrated hard and forced them to meet Barbro’s. “I—” He coughed a few times. Unable to form words, he just smiled. He lifted his hand, running his knuckles along Barbro’s cheek gingerly. Barbro grasped it and held it there, refusing to let go.

“Amabilis, you can’t leave me. We’re going to see another play next week. You have to—” He broke off in a choked sob.

Amabilis just locked his gaze with his friend. They sat like that for a moment that stretched out for what seemed like an eternity; Barbro with tears streaming down his face and Amabilis’ hand clutched to his face. Then Amabilis’ eyes unfocused, the life leaving them. His body went limp, only his hand being supported by Barbro.

“No,” he whispered. “No, no, no.” He was sobbing uncontrollably now. “No!” He let out a guttural scream, standing up. He was running. A Roman soldier stood in his way. Without thinking, he unstrapped the dagger he kept in his toga and stabbed him. One stab. That was all it took for the man to die. One stab every time. Ten Roman soldiers lay dead in the theatre, courtesy of Barbro. He was a storm, destroying everything in his path, screaming the whole time. Only once the sun set did the Romans finally capture him for execution.

And so he knelt in the centre of the agora, bloody and bruised. It wasn’t his blood mostly, but it was hard to tell what was. A soldier behind him force his head down unto a block, raising his sword.

The commander of the legion paced in front of him. Bending down to his ear, he said:

“Carthage has burned. And now so shall you.” Straightening up, he raised his voice for everyone to hear. “Let this be an example to those who even dare think of defying Rome.” He turned back to Barbro. “Any last words?”

Barbro simply raised his eyes. Where there used to be sky blue was an image of broken ocean waves, filled with only grief and rage. Glaring at the general, he only spat two words:

“Ave Greece.”

And the sword came down.

#prompt fill #ancient rome #carthage #original #original character #death tw #blood tw #mild angst #history #mild ​historical inaccuracy

[the-nerdy-alpaca]

The Bonds We Make: Chapter One Update

@flamboyant-prince

The Bonds We Make (TBWM): Chapter One Update:

The chapter is taking much longer than usual and this is because I am behind in my courses. I have many essays due, five in fact, 10 to 15 pages each, so RIP me.

However by the end of May the chapter should be completed. The chapter was completed until all my files on my flash drive got corrupted, I cried for a day because of this. So I had my backup flash drive which I forgot to update on so it has the first 1/6 (3 pages) of the chapter.

For the update I made on Amabilis, I would do it by character but there are so many characters in it that it is impossible for me to do that. They are so entangled that it is also hard for me to write a summary on them without spoiling.

It will be easier next chapter for me to do this as I can make posts like this at the beginning until mid-way where I will give updates on where I am such as 1/2 done to basically done and I am at the editing stage.

#The Bonds We Make #TBWM #chapter update #story update #my stories

[thedaughterofkings]

Lessa’s end of the year fic round up

I did this last year, and thought I’d do it again this year - list which fics I’ve written this year!

(For the sake of this list I’m excluding old fics that were posted on ao3 this year beta-read and prettified, but not actually written and/or posted for the first time this year.)

January

untitled (Harry Potter, Marauder’s Era, gen or James/Sirius/Remus if you squint a little, 846 words)

May

through this life and into the next (this is a marriage of equals) (Merlin, Merthur, 23.524 words)

July

Five times the pack tried to help Stiles’ love life and one time they did (Teen Wolf, Stackson, 3.973 words)

August

Sunscreen, sand, and salt (Star Trek, McKirk, 1.385 words)

September

Baby in the Buck’? (Merlin, Merthur, 950 words)

to live happily ever after (a tale of sparks and wolves) (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 19.094 words)

October

regret nothing (Teen Wolf, Laura Hale-centric, Sterek, 2.093 words)

amabilis - loveable (Teen Wolf, Laura Hale-centric, with hints of Laurallison and Sterek, 490 words)

watching, watching, watching (Teen Wolf, Laura Hale-centric, Sterek, 750 words)

ceo of matchmaking (Teen Wolf, Laura Hale-centric, Sterek, 1.906 words)

Favours (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 1.425 words)

out of this world (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 2.361 words)

pink and golden and red (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 449 words)

the one I want (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 2.111 words)

December

Fully grown (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 36.035 words)

untitled (Star Trek, McKirk, 979 words)

never too late (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 1.665 words)

untitled (Star Trek, McKirk, 516 words)

Fireworks (Teen Wolf, Sterek, 1.208 words)

All in all, that’s 101.760 words in 19 fics across four fandoms and six ships!

Technically I only wrote around 11k of the 36k of fully grown this year, but I also wrote 15k for the yet unfinished and thus unpublished Resurrection fic, so in total I still end up at around 91k of words written this year! Considering that for most of the year I felt like a pretty bad, because not writing, writer, I’m actually quite happily surprised by how many words and fics I’ve written :D

As always, my goal for next year is to write more - more words, more fics, more words for more fics, and also to participate in fandom events more! I wrote through this life and into the next (this is a marriage of equals) for the Merlin Reverse Bang this year and had an awesome time! I’d love to participate in that fest again next year and possibly also the Sterek Reverse Bang! Depending on how quickly the Resurrection fic progresses I might try submitting that for the Big Bang even!

My immediate goals are to write some Stackson, possibly rewrite/finish Stormy waters, finish the Resurrection fic, and get started on the sequels to Pigtails and Fully Grown!

A very happy New Year to you all and here’s to many more words and fics in 2018!

#lessa says #lessa talks writing #end of the year fic round up #my fic in 2017