#And bitterness in me towards her

[agentc0rn]

Oh? Looks like Ogerpon wants to give you a flower! Will you accept?

>Yes

>No (you'd better not click this)

#ogerpon my beloved #ogerpon #the teal mask #pokemon dlc #pokemon dlc spoilers #pokemon sv #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv dlc #kitakami #teal mask #apparently she's a girl?!?! #though it kinda saddens me about her being scared towards Kieran (maybe she read his uh obsession?). Though we did spent more time with her #Maybe we reminded her of her old partner #I also like how she’s choosing to be kind and happy and not bitter #she still visits the festival. #pokemon fanart #Also btw sunflower symbolize friendship #And a YouTube comment said that Ogerpon likes us because we are strangers to this land so we clicked which makes sense #my art

[diamondseaside]

i’m so glad taylor’s having this moment in her career where her heart/talent/impact is being recognized on such a large scale but i will always be bitter about people who only went to eras bc it’s cool and trendy and viral material

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

my experience with maxing out the twins' friendship is just-

Hawke: So, Carver, my dear baby brother who I love and adore, I only need +10 more points to max out your friendship. I've done the grind; through gritted teeth I've kissed templar ass so that we don't raise suspicion. I've supported and defended you and let you take the lead whenever I could. You're my favorite warrior. I took you to the Deep Roads with me because you desperately wanted to go and then made you a warden and you found a place, a purpose. I've practically written my own guide on how to earn as much friendship with you because I love you and it's totally worth it so can I please please have the last +10...? Carver: Hawke: Carver please I'm begging you Carver: Carver: +5 Friendship Hawke: AAUUGGGHHLKSAJDLKAJSDLK-

Hawke: So, Bethany, my dear sis- Bethany: +50 Friendship Hawke: Bethany: :)

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #da2 #bethany hawke #carver hawke #i love them both they're my favorites #but oh my god the grind of maxing out carver's friendship because it's absolutely worth it and then playing another run with bethany #where i blinked and suddenly her friendship was maxed out was a wild experience sksksk #and it's interesting to think about how carver is 'difficult' when it comes to getting friendship whereas bethany already starts with +50 #so it's easier to max her out just by being kind to her and doing her quests early #but after act 1 carver becomes so much softer when your friendship is high with him BUT bethany? i'm leaning more toward making her a warde #and i know she's going to be so resentful of me for it despite having maxed friendship like that's so fascinating?? #how the twins start off on such opposite ends with different attitudes toward hawke?? and how after act 1 they switch?? #well for the warden routes anyway... i refuse to let carver join the templars and i really REALLY don't want bethany to go to the circle #she won't be happier there no one can convince me she's happier as a circle mage... 'accepting your place' isn't the same as being happy #carver can find a place he's content with whereas bethany is screwed over either way since her magic isn't something she can just let go of #like yes both twins are bitter that they didn't survive the deep roads but carver's always worn his bitterness on his sleeve #whereas bethany felt she had to hide hers because she felt she had to be grateful for the sacrifices her family made for her #and now they are both trapped and free at the same time... carver just happens to thrive but bethany feels she traded one cage for another #ugh the hawke twins THE HAWKE TWINS Y'ALL #I just want them to be happy and loved and alive... why is that too much to ask for??

[sovonight]

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#still thinking abt that scene in the underdark where xan is (force) propositioned by that drow lady #and while his first response is shock/apprehension ('*me*??') #radri loses regulation over the volume of her voice going 'what?! no!!' louder than anyone's ever really heard her before #when challenged though she can't come up with a drow-valid reason why hunrae *can't* just take xan #(yes i just now remembered her name lmao) #the thoughts 'bc consent??' 'he'd hate that' '*he's mine he promised*' keep getting translated into an ineffective verbal 'you just cant' #so xan saves himself and falls into a worse mood after it and radri falls into an equally poor mood at how she couldnt do anything/she can #never really do anything can she #oh but there's a kind of equivalent/reversal moment when radri's offered a 'night with one of with phaere's males' as a reward #and xan is just silently panicking/trying to reassure himself with 'she wouldn't' 'she'd hate that' 'she loves me... right?' #radri honestly has an easier time with the excuse this time bc she's not feeling as much panic/pressure as earlier #but the excuse that comes out is along the lines of 'uh monogamy is custom in my city and i already have a male--' #'NO no not one of these guys in my party!! (don't look too closely at them!)' #'i prefer not to travel with him! to make the reunions sweeter...??' #xan's mind catches on 'i prefer not to travel with him' and he gets in a bitter mood bc that might as well be true-- #bc really what use is he when he can't even do anything to help/save/protect her despite being right by her side #the underdark has them both on an internal monologue of 'i hate this' but while xan's is mainly towards their surroundings #radri's is almost entirely inward & so isnt eased the moment they reach the surface like xan's is

[icantspellthings]

Hmm

#i would genuinely rather barry date some weird gym rat personal trainer girl than a pop star who is a taylor groupie #like I pointedly dislike t*ylor sw*ft and anyone who is buddies buddies with her #have a pr relationship if you want but god pick a better match pls... #and we all fucking know the twt stans are so mean towards him bcs he's dating their precious pop girly or whatever the fuck #i wish he wasn't so mainstream now #like get the bag king but also can the normies pls not perceive him? #all the pictures comming out is making me bitter lmfao #gnawing on wood crawling on the floor r #he's probably flying on their private jets too lmao go queen kill the earth! #“hiding” it in the tags bcs im a pussy lol #sabr*na is probably a nice girl but ugh #anyways I just needed to get this out of my system lol #mouthy mint #🫤

[spocksgotemotions]

I know Im too young to be bitter about missed chances and stuff but it is my right and boy am I exercising it

#captain’s own #dumb bitch hours #personal logs #it is not entirely fair to be bitter towards my mom about staying home #it was my decision as an adult to live with her after my dad died #but the fact that the past year and a half I have been treated poorly by her #when I moved away from most of my support system (who stayed in New England post grad) #when I gave up the opportunity of a lifetime #and she still thinks I just moved home to save money and I don’t actually care about her #like she doesn’t know and I won’t tell her cause it will upset her too much but I was scouted by a talent agency #they wanted me but I told them I wasn’t planning on going back to NY for at least a year #if I was as selfish and shitty as she thinks I am #I’d be in NY with my friends #Doing extra work and seeing above average improv once a month #okay just needed to rant

[sweatermuppet]

feel so stupid crying abt my ex!!!! but i am!!!!!

#i wish i could just. oh wrench some sense into my stupid stupid heart #because she hurt me! she used me! & i think abt her & all i act on is this ridiculous softness #there's so much anger when i position the scene rationally! but no. as soon as i consider her... think of being near her #my will just evaporates & i guess that hurts me more. knowing how goddamn doggedly soft i am #& always goddamn will be?? thought maybe id have a better hold by now #i deserve better. i do. but my heart fuckin quails & weeps & flips toward her. resolve boiled to nothing #bitter bitter feelings washed over by this achingly tender front that i can never pry out!! #okay im normal again

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

okay so let's talk about brooke and jenna and chloe. i have had thoughts about them since forever and i think it's time i shared them.

jenna is always teetering on the edge of the Popular Kids' clique- her motivation for wanting to be a part of their group isn't popularity but visibility. she's lonely. she doesn't belong anywhere. nobody ever notices her. and the easiest way to get attention is by invoking negative reactions from people. and by god, chloe is an easy source for that. she's so quick to anger and she lets everyone know it. that's why chloe is practically jenna's only bridge to the Popular Kids- the others won't let her get involved so easily. oh, but what about brooke? she's nice, wouldn't she be willing to be friends with jenna? well, not with chloe in the picture. chloe is deeply obsessed with brooke. (i would say infatuated honestly. she was totally in love with brooke. i could write an essay on this.) she couldn't care less about anyone else- sometimes she doesn't even care about brooke herself. and that is where things get complicated between jenna and brooke.

i'm not sure what the fandom's general take on their relationship is but i believe they never got along. they couldn't have. 'bonding over chloe mistreating them' is impossible because of chloe's nature- chloe can never be a positive influence. she destroys relationships whether they're her own or not. she has to have all the attention to her at all times- brooke is careful not to get on chloe's nerves, she always has to be on chloe's side, chloe wants brooke all to herself. brooke can never really get close to jenna. jenna, on the other hand, is always trying to get chloe's attention and never brooke's. what's the point? it's not like brooke will interact with her anyway. it's a vicious cycle of brooke ignoring jenna and jenna ignoring brooke in return and although it wasn't their intention in the beginning, the gap between them eventually grows deeper and further until they're alienated from each other. there is unspoken tension and dislike between them despite knowing neither had malicious intent toward the other. they know it's irrational and stupid and that it's really chloe who's at fault but they don't know how to fix it. it's simply been that way for too long.

only after halloween- when the tangled mess that was the Popular Kids' relationship is completely shattered- do they have a chance to start over.

#bmc #be more chill #jenna rolan #chloe valentine #brooke lohst #jenna's involvement with the Popular Kids is interesting because she's certainly not a part of them but she affects their dynamic so much #i have a vivid image of a scene where brooke is crying in the school bathroom and jenna walks in #and brooke scowls at jenna telling her to go away and jenna snaps 'you can't tell me what to do' #jenna's leaning against the wall while brooke fixes herself in the mirror #when brooke makes her way toward the door jenna says 'why do you let her walk all over you anyway?' #partly out of concern partly out of genuine astonishment partly out of spite and bitterness and hoping it gets to brooke maybe #and brooke freezes and takes a deep breath and walks out without so much as acknowledging jenna #but she understands everything jenna meant by that

[clarabowmp3]

in other words its my ex-bsf's birthday today and I am in no mood to wish her and idc how petty or immature that makes me

#i feel like 2 years is a long enough time to dwell on it and honestly #if she's not interested in keeping in touch/patching things up fine #but im not going to make myself into some idiot and try to do it myself #besides i feel like ive rmb her birthday more than she has mine #and sometimes i think she only rmbs mine cuz its a few days after hers #and also we have a mutual friend who she is still in touch with so maybe she just doesnt want to stay in touch with me #which is fine #this is so bitter and so mean to say but 2 years ago one of us graduated w a perfect score so #like im too busy excelling and moving towards better things in life and having way better friends to be hung up on her #and this kind of makes me feel like im pretty close to getting over her entirely but part of me feels like its not the healthiest way #rn my coping mechanisms are very 'IM the best thing at this party' coded but its fine #anyway ill be girlrotting to i miss you im sorry for the rest of the day :))) lovesick all over my bed indeed

[fragmentedblade]

Insane that Blade during Todd's quest did basically the same thing Dan Heng was doing during this last video

#Fragments and scraps #I talk too much #I had just finished Todd's quest and I had so many questions and hypotheses and then the video dropped #And goodness it gave me even more things to ponder but I also think it kind of cleared things up when it came to what was Blade mourning #I also wondered whether this came after Kafka's companion mission but now I'm pretty sure it comes before it? I think it makes sense #Seeing confirmation of Yingxing being old looking was so hard to watch whilst compared to how young Jing Yuan sounds in Chinese #And when seeing him alongside Jingliu and Baiheng‚ who were both mature women when he was a little kid #No wonder he is so prideful of his craft. He deserves it. I really adore how they implemented a lot of details in the worldbuilding #and sidequests that throw light towards the characterisation and story of some of the main characters #Specifically I can't stop thinking about Yingxing in the context of how we see shortlife humans are regarded by some people on the Xianzhou #and especially in the context of the sidequest about the master and the apprentice. Everything it implies #Anyway... This video broke me. The confrontation between Dan Heng and Dan Feng was hard enough #(guy leave the boy alone‚ *he* has nothing to repent of) as well as beautiful. Some shots were gorgeous and full of symbolism #But seeing the five friends... goodness. Yingxing's bitter smile carries a weight that I think goes beyond him losing to Jingliu #given his age and how young his friends look. The way Jing Yuan reacts as if having the braincell but also teasing them was so him #The way his voice broke later on while reading Imbibitor Lunae's punishment took me out #Baiheng reminded me a bit of March 7th in this video. It may be due to how March reacts to Dan Heng's melancholic air towards the end #And how Baiheng reacts to Imbibitor Lunae's and Yingxing's at the beginning. I don't know if the parallelism was purposeful but I loved it #They all felt actually a lot closer than I expected. Mainly Jingliu. I expected her to be close only to Baiheng given what Jing Yuan says #The images that flash over the sentence were so good and so heartbreaking #Yingxing looking at the figure over the moon‚ his chest being pierced by the sword Blade now wields‚ #Jingliu blindfolded slicing something‚ someone suspended in chains‚... #And the heavy absence in those images of Jing Yuan‚ whose breaking voice hovers over them all #Truly brought back to mind Blade's line about him. How he knew better than anyone but he did or said nothing #And how he is not one of those who must pay #Everything was so charged I wanted to scream or jump off a cliff. The way the faces of Dan Heng and Dan Feng superimpose ugh #Truly everything was so good #I have so many thoughts about it I can't stop thinking hahaha #But I better shut up already. I should sleep a bit #I want to scream though. The Dan Heng/Blade parallelism makes me want to drown a sea‚ ontological barriers be damned haha

[rosepompadour]

graven with diamonds | anne boleyn & thomas wyatt you've got me in your pocket, i'll keep you in my locket

"You are destined for the kind of legendary love you only hear about in ballads. We don't need the court or your family or the king. It will just be you and me. Just the two of us. Together. If I asked you to come with me - to give up the admiration of a thousand people for the love of just one - what would you do, Anne?" "I would..." Love you. He looks at me steadily. Doesn't say a word. Waits a beat. "I love you. I can't make things any different from the way they are. All I can do is love you. And you love me," he says, so quietly my heart lurches forward as if reaching for him. "I know you do." Thomas closes the gap between us and kisses me. Hard. His mouth forms lyrics that expose my soul. This kiss is eloquent and alive. This kiss is a song played only once. And forever. It breaks me open. I want this man. I want him so badly I feel like glass on the verge of shattering. I want to kiss him again. To run away with him. - Tarnish, Katherine Longshore

#perioddramaedit #anneboleynedit #anne boleyn #thomas wyatt #historyedit #music box #* #this turned into an epic mish-mash of historic fact/historic speculation/playlist for tarnish #i don't know what happened! #tbh i don't know how much of this is me actually shipping them versus wyatt just being anne's best option #who else did she have? #percy was a known asshole who was so abusive towards his wife (even by tudor standards) that people were like 'RED FLAG RED FLAG!' #and not only did henry literally SLICE HER IN TWO #(to quote dewey cox: 'this is a particularly bad case of someone being cut in half!') #but he oversaw the design of her scaffold himself #c'était un connard absolu as anne would say #the slightly bitter lovestruck poet is looking pretty good by comparison #i will take anything that gives her a happy (or even just a SLIGHTLY happier) ending

[catboyrichardkarinsky]

for the record you might think I'm a hypocrite when i say all the characters in merrily we roll along are meant to be unlikeable when i lovepost about Mary every day but to be fair. I'm aware of her flaws. and i love her regardless. have you considered that.

#like i knowwww she's codependent she's increasingly more bitter towards the beginning of show/end of story #and she enables Frank's and Charley's worst qualities #and is unable to call Frank out on his bullshit #also the alcoholism. obviously. very unhealthy coping mechanism #THERE. I'm aware of my wife's flaws. now let me love her unconditionally #half of this is also Frank's fault though

[eyes1nthewoods]

watched nimona. it was ok.

#(i'm very mean in the tags sorry :() #i havent seen the comic so my criticism is purely of the movie. #idk just kind of a mid kids movie. balister is very cute i liked him. #nimona......i want to like her but idk. i think her backstory should've had more attention put towards it. more hints about it #instead of the really abrupt scene near the end that explains everything. that was stupid. #(honestly better yet don't show anything have a big heartfelt outburst where she half explains what happens #(gross crying optional but preferred) #and leaves the rest to the audiences imagination. maybe a scene with voiceover that doesn't quite reveal everything) #the setting is pretty cool. story didn't make much sense to me. #''the wall is there to protect us against monsters!!'' but there's literally only one monster and it's nimona. #which could have been ok if the movie had been...better written i guess?? #like do the guards just sit around doing nothing. is it a police state?? i mean obviously they're cops but. they don't do anything. #they aren't even shown to be especially bad or anything just incredibly incompetent #uhhh the romance is cute. it's nice. i wish it was more fraught and bitter. #the passage of time isn't clear it seems like it happens over the course of like a day??? #balister learning to accept nimona was clumsy and rushed #the message of the film is nice. would be better if the movie was good. #i think the movie could've been longer and it would've fixed most of these things #i REALLY liked the animation though. the eyes being permanantly dilated was ehhh but forgivable on account of balister being very cute.

[xamaxenta]

It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way

This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow

but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month

None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion

#like i should be doing more #im very sorry for complaining so much online #i just dont really have any other way to express myself #i know some of you have generously and kindly reached out to me to offer an ear #but my fatal flaw is i cant talk to anyone about my problems i just idk it was beaten into me that none of it matter #matters or my problems arent a big deal and i know ots healthy to think actuallt my problems are worth talking about or a big deal #but its hard to change a behaviour that was kinda literally beaten jnto you that talking about stuff likw this is a waste of time #i guess i just feel bad that i could do more and i dont because i dont want to #but i also want to if that makes any sense at all #i suppose it also doesnt help that alot of the work im doing right now i actually sorta hate like none of it is good to me personally #i want to stop being toxic towards myself #i just wanna stop hating me and who i am and what i do every step of the way #but that mean little voice inside me is like ahh. it wont shut up #I always say i need a break or more time but what am i gonna do with it #doing nothing at all isnt fulfilling #it sounds. sad like what teenager me did and i dont want to be or feel like that ever again but its fuckjng hard #this is so woe is me #im a liar bc i say the main text doesnt bother me but it bothers me alot im very envious of her speed prolificness and drive to create #and i have none like thats so unfair #this makes me sound ultra bitter god fucking damn it #i want to go to sleep and genuinely never fucking wake up again #please im done i just dont want to

[rhynehoward]

#aliyah boston #indiana fever #wnba #she's SO GOOD right and i like her enough right but it's so hard to not let her fans let me effect how i feel about her lmao #like they are so annoying it's making me bitter towards her and other sc players?? but it's not their fault lol #abedits #wnbaedits

[moonsandstar-s]

one of the aspects that i love most about the confession scene is that blake & yang both already know the big truth they haven’t dropped on each other. blake knows yang is thinking ‘i love you’ and yang realizes that blake is thinking it too as the clouds go gold behind her, even though she immediately questions it with the dropping of her gaze and the uncertainty on her face - for them, it’s a matter of being brave enough to speak it into existence rather than revealing previously-unknown feelings to each other. my question is, when do you guys think blake and yang first became aware of how they, themselves, were feeling? 

#though i love the thought of them having crushes on each other at beacon i think it's more of a curiosity than anything #like the precursor to a crush or even feelings #i wouldn't put my money on burning the candle either - i think yang was interested and blake still had a lot she was processing at the time #but that neither of them really thought concretely in that way about one another #at least not for the duration of v1-first three quarters of v3 #once beacon started falling i think their worry for each other spiked - you see blake and yang's faces during their call to each other #as beacon is under attack and then obviously everything that happens w adam after that #but of course #i think yang first started to realize her feelings were more than just 'like' sometime immediately after blake left after the fall of beacon #she realizes her frustration/hurt/bitterness/grief is more than just 'someone i trust and care about left me behind' because underneath that #there is a very raw and real ache of missing blake more than anything and wishing she were there #and that's when it starts to become apparent to us too #AS FOR BLAKE #again love the thought of her choosing yang in the emerald forest and being interested from day 1 #tho i do think she was drawn to yang in v1 and felt an affinity towards her i wouldn't say it developed into 'realized' love til later #she had love for yang which adam obviously took note of - especially the similarities between the two of them - #but do i think blake realized she loved yang until adam was threatening to take her away? nope #honestly i think she squashed it down after v3c11 when she ran away - compartmentalized and told herself that 'yang deserves better' etc and #didn't let herself think about it at all bc what was the point? she just focused on everything else going on and didn't acknowledge #then when they saw each other at the end of v5 - imo that was the turning point #that was it #their feelings rushed to the surface - broke through all the anger and suppression and grief #and they've been falling for each other even through all the issues they worked out from v6 onward #the end that's my theory and i want to hear all of yours too #RWBY #Bumbleby #RWBY 9 #RWBY Volume 9 #Blake x Yang #Blake Belladonna