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#Antabuse
nugothrhythms · 10 months
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"Antabuse" by Los Angeles, California-based synthpop and darkwave one-man-band Casket Cassette off of 2023 EP Chainless
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drrestlesshate · 3 months
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Sunday, 13th of November
Part of me really wants to stop taking my Antabuse medication so I can drink again in at least two weeks time without getting really sick. I’m trying to stay on the write path but just getting that out there and acknowledging that there is a part of me that wants to give in.
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oliviawebsite · 1 year
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in the realm of Positive Liv News its worth noting i havent drank at all since february 1. not my longest sober streak but i’ve resisted the urge to spiral out into a bender so far which considering my track record is very incredible and i should be proud of myself actually
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padawansuggest · 2 years
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bucknastysbabe · 2 months
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hii, could you write smt abt aegon ii? 🥹 like kinda perv and loser stepbrother!aegon
YES I CAN! Hope you enjoy, getting back into my Aegon ways a bit! Xoxo
Just like that video! - Aegon II
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Rating: Explicit
Tags: Loser perv step-bro Aegon, TW: alcohol abuse, underage (17) sexual moment, cocaine use, fat shaming, modern au, Aeg’s a shit but means well, Lannister reader, and they were step-siblings, lots of banter, pnv!sex, chubby!aeg, begging, family interactions, pseudo Incest and they get off on it, the panties were allowed to be kept
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You had no choice but to come home for college this summer, being a lame freshman. Next year you planned on getting a place off-campus with some of your tennis teammates. You would go back to the mansion this summer, reluctantly.
The stupid mansion your family had inherited over generations. Casterly Rock. Now it was infested with your stepmother's weird fucking offspring, minus Daeron. You liked Daeron. Regardless, the youngest sibling could not protect you from the advances of Alicent's eldest son Aegon.
He was harmless, really. He currently was in a 'gap year' between his junior and senior years. The term gap year was a nice overcoat of gloss. You knew he had a bad coke and alcohol problem and needed to get straightened out. You hadn't seen the fucker since he was absent for most of the holidays in a sober-living program.
You had been home for about three hours now, isolating in your room, watching Hulu, bored as fuck. You had spoken to your father and Alicent while the servants brought up your belongings. Alicent asked politely, "How was nationals? You know we would have come but Daeron was graduating."
"We got our ass kicked, I wish I was there to see Daeron too. Where's his highness?"
Jason grumbled, "Eating the house."
Alicent's face soured slightly at the mention of Aegon. She hummed, "He's just working his program and staying sober until he can finish up school. Mainly mopes around, it'll be good for him to have you here." You nodded, holding your tongue. Jason snorted and said, "Make him get the hell off his ass or something, play tennis, who knows. Dinner's at eight."
It would be a boring summer. Maybe you could call up the Reyne or Tarbeck boys for some fun. You didn't particularly want to hang around your peaked and washed-up fratboy loser of a stepbrother. You remember from when you were younger and excited, your father was marrying into the royal family!
You were met with a toddling Daeron, shy and dreamy Helaena, intense Aemond, and Aegon. Who promptly pointed at your chest and scoffed, "Totally not like the porno huh? That's lame." You stood in abject Lannister horror, planning on his immediate downfall.
Instead, you grew up under the shadows of your strange siblings. Aegon was 4 years your elder and acted like he was still in middle school. He ignored or made fun of his 'stuck-up stepsister.' You had a strange interaction when he was home on a holiday You had just turned seventeen and Aegon was a junior. He was pretty bad off when he first came in with Criston, the guard holding him up.
Aegon was rail-thin, drunk as fuck, and a crying mess. You exchanged a look with Aemond, the other brother making a face of disgust. He whispered to you, "Dumbass is about to get kicked out of school, he's on academic probation right now. Or might I mention his raging alcoholism and cocaine addiction?"
The pair of you watched him get dragged off to your parent's room. You mustered a weak reply, "I knew he was a drunk but not that damn bad." Alicent had put him on Antabuse when he was in high school and then deemed him alright to go to college.
That night you'd gone out with the Westerlings to Lannisport, you had a fake ID yourself. Coming back you managed to score Aegon some blow and a bottle. You don't know why you did. Maybe it was that desire to gain his pointless approval. You did it anyhow, smuggling it into your purse. Criston didn't bat an eye, he thought you were the golden child, soon-to-be salutatorian, and a tennis scholarship to a good school in Oldtown.
You crept down the hall, Aegon had the big room on the corner of the second floor. Knocking on the door, a haggard Aegon moaned, "What? I feel like shit! Fuck off, Cole! Jason! Whoever you are!"
You yell-whispered back, "No dumbass it's me, I have something."
The door opened to a much sicker Aeg, eyes red-rimmed, skinny body trembling under a thick blanket. You gasped "What the fuck is wrong with you? Do you have a virus?"
"No. Withdrawals. What did you bring me?" His violet eyes leered at your bodycon dress, making your cheeks heat up. He was handsome, stepbrother or fiend or whatever. You looked around and handed him the baggie and bottle. Aegon's eyes lit up and his smile brightened. He dragged you into his room, smelling of sweat and alcohol.
"Thank fuck, I needed this so bad, gods you are an angel."
You shrugged, standing there as he chugged some of the liquor, sighing in audible relief. He eyed you and asked, "You got a credit card?" Nodding in slight fear you rifled more in the purse and handed him the card. Aegon locked his door and got busy chopping up the coke. You pulled out your wine bottle and sat down, watching him drinking and shakily chopping up the white powder.
You ended up drunk as a skunk, Aegon absolutely cooked and giddy. He was making you laugh, chatting like you were a friend. Going so far as to inquire about your boring life. He seemed at ease, the dark cloud that would hang over Aegon had melted. The blonde looked at you with glassy eyes and hummed, "M'sorry for being a prick, you're not half bad."
"Sure, you're just happy I fueled your problem. Stuck up Lannister isn't that boring."
He laughed a bit, pretty teeth shining. Aegon asked, "Wanna watch this stupid movie? M'wired up right now." You gestured to the remnants of the coke and giggled, "I'd imagine, yeah come on then." You'd drunkenly climbed onto his huge bed, Aegon plopping on the other side, typing the movie into the big ass television.
It was funny, but somewhere along the way, Aegon had inched his way toward you. You had moved closer to him, snuggling into his side. The voice of reason was screeching in your head. Your stepbrother turned his face to yours, murmuring, "You're so fucking pretty you know that? I don't care how fucked up that is, I am fucked up."
You surged forward to meet his plump lips, Aegon's hand holding your cheek as he kissed you. He laughed darkly, nipping at your lip and sliding in a tongue. As the liplock grew more heated- spit-slick lips and tongues sliding against each other, Aegon rolled his frame atop yours, settling between your spread legs. Your dress rucked up to your panties from the movement, drawing a helpless whine from your throat.
This was disgusting, wrong, awful.
You arched into his touches on your hips, groaning into his mouth as you sensually kissed him, growing messier by the second. Aegon rutted a bit against your pussy, softly moaning and squeezing your waist. He murmured in your ear, "Mm, I know you're all wet for me, stepsis." Skinny fingers crawled to the edge of your underwear.
A deep pang of fear struck you, suddenly withdrawing and backing out of Aegon's amorous embrace. You shook your head, heart beating too fast, shame and guilt pounding your head in. The platinum-haired man stared in confusion, stuttering, "W-What the fuck? Are you okay? Hey!"
You shook your head, chest too tight to speak. grabbing the remnants of your debauchery you skittered out of his room, silent tears running down your face. You felt weird, you drew a line in the sand that would not wash away. With fucking Aegon. You could hit yourself.
The rest of the days he was icy. Icy all the way until he was going into rehab and further treatment. You didn't dwell on the experience until now, eyes darting towards his room. You would have to see him eventually. Passing by his door all you could hear was video game noises.
You locked the door to your room, a bit of anxiety peeping through. For the seven's sake, you were an adult now! You would be a polite sibling, Aegon was obviously sick at the time and trying to get well. He'd written you an apology from his sober living place and you wrote back a brief acceptance and gave well wishes. So it couldn't be that bad?
You'd take a nap and deal with your insane family later.
Sitting down at the dinner table, the normal-sized one, you chatted with your mother and Criston about tennis. Jason prepped some sort of penne dish with a salad. The sound of a chair being scooted back alerted everyone to another presence. It was Aegon. He murmured a quiet, "Hey. Nice to see you sis, sorry 'bout nationals."
"Thanks Aegon, how are you doing? Super proud of you."
You tried not to stare at your stepbrother but he had...changed. His hair had grown out to shoulder length and he'd put on weight. Nothing terrible, but it had to range somewhere in 50 pounds (23kg). The big sweatshirt and too-small joggers didn't quite help his case either.
"Yeah, it's not bad, ready to get back to school or do something before I go crazy."
Jason snarked, "A job is always a good idea huh?"
The awkward silence was permeated by an excited Daeron hugging you, still sweaty from soccer practice. You mock gagged and smiled at the little brother, batting him away. Criston hummed, "Dare's already started practicing at King's Landing U." You grinned, "Hell yeah! I'll come boo you when you play Oldtown!"
Things fell into a familiar rhythm besides Aegon scarfing his food up and excusing himself. Alicent called after him, "Where are you going, honey? Come visit with us." Aegon sighed, "I have a headache, sorry."
Your dad shook his dark blonde hair, rolling green eyes. He scoffed, "All Aegon does is eat and play video games. He'll be a fucking cow sooner or later."
You found yourself speaking up, "Would you rather have him chubby and sober or skinny and tweaked out Dad?"
Jason forked some pasta in his mouth, shaking his head. Criston broke the next stage of awkward silence. "Hey, he's almost at a year now. I'd never think I would see the day." Daeron nodded along. Dinner resumed to normal.
You had helped your father clean up, the conversation stunted and awkward. Lannister men had a tendency to never understand a woman, just a family thing. Some of your friends had fathers who didn't suck. Alicent tried and Criston was the occasionally cool uncle. Even if he wasn't related to any of you, just something that came along with being royal.
You spent some more time playing smash bros with Daeron, laughing and catching up after much needed time. It was late and you glanced at your phone. Marq Tarbeck had texted you back. You ignored it, yawning, "Alright Dare, I think it's time to hit the sack." His sleepy purple eyes seemed to agree as he got up, muttering about 'getting his nasty ass in the shower.'
Daeron split ways with you, going to his room nearby, and you up and across the mansion. Your room was also on the second floor- there was no way but to pass Aegon's room. Part of you wanted to check on him, it seemed like your father was hard on him. The other half said fuck it, he doesn't need to be babied. Still, you paused at his door, listening to the vague background noise of the television.
"F-fucking, god, baby," he groaned, muffled.
Your eyes widened in shock. A drawn out moan of your name made you freeze. Aegon rambled, "Knew you'd be so cute taking my dick stepsis. Gods!" His deep voice made you tremble slightly. Your imagination painted an image of Aeg spread out, fisting his cock, thickened thighs flexing. His plump lips would be extra swollen, those cute chubby cheeks blotchy.
Oh Gods. You couldn't. He was having a private moment and you stood outside his door like a weirdo. Then your phone began to ring. A loud buzzing as you frantically switched it off, fucking Tarbeck! With a pitiful whine you tried to book it away to your room.
"Get your ass back here!" came Aegon's whisper-yell.
You paused, hand over your mouth. Fucking fuck, you thought.
"C'mon, get over here, I heard you."
You dramatically groaned and shuffled to Aegon's doorway, eyes downcast, blushing heavily. A finger tilted your chin up, you reluctantly looking at his smug face. Aegon hummed, "Did you want a look-see or just to listen? You're just slumming it now huh? No Reynes or Tarbecks?"
You gritted out, "I was going to check on you, but then I heard my name. Of course I'd be curious to why you were moaning it."
Aegon rolled his eyes, scoffing, "So. Jig's up. I stole your pretty little lace panties to fuck too. Since I'm a man of honesty now."
Arousal laced up your stomach, pussy throbbing at the actual desperation this fucker was giving off. You panted a bit, shouldering him aside. Your panties were indeed on the bed, thoroughly used. Gaping at Aegon he shrugged, basking in the debauchery. Guess being sober didn't change him from being a little pervert.
You muttered, "I can't believe you."
"I tried to fuck you did I not? I remember how eager you were."
Glancing at his lidded eyes and frankly punchable face you kissed the man, gripping at his oversized sweatshirt. Aegon seemed surprised, inhaling sharply before grabbing your ass and returning the kiss with vigor. He murmured, "You aren't running away- hah- this time." He squeezed your ass hard, lips intense against yours.
Pressing yourself to his soft belly he stiffened a bit, apoligizing, "M'not very in shape, too many sweets, cock's the same." You shrugged, pulling his heavier frame atop your own, a thick thigh slotted between your sinewy legs. He groaned softly, hands pulling at your shirt impatiently.
He grunted while shucking off his sweatshirt, elbow about to take you out. You yelped and ducked, Aegon guffawing. "Sorry?" He chuckled. Shaking your head you pulled on his longer hair and resumed the earlier attentions. The blondie rudely unsnapped your bra, shoving you up the bed at the same time.
Pulling away with a snarl you exclaimed "Fucking hell are you going to manhandle me around the bed or kiss me?"
Aegon deadpanned, "Wanna see you naked. Going to do that for me this time? Nice tits by the way, I can say it's like the porno now."
You growled and shoved down your shorts and underwear, somehow turned on by his shithead attitude and stupid grin. Pointing at him you hissed, "Your turn. Those briefs looking a little tight anyways." Aegon snorted, laughing at you again while shimmying his ill-fitting briefs off. His violet eyes greedily roved over you, the shameless perv.
"Happy Lady Lannister?" He asked while gesturing to his hard cock.
"Much better, get over here."
Aegon pulled you by the legs, thick waist keeping your thighs spread, fat cock rudely shoved flush against your embarrasingly wet pussy. He pressed teasing little kisses across your throat, grasping hands all over your tits and ass. You mewled- rutting a bit against him, utterly pinned by his heavier weight.
"Gods- Aegon, you- gods!" you wheedled, shaky hands digging into his shoulders, slipping down to his plush hips and squeezing. He moaned and began to slide against your slit, eyes rolling erotically. Aegon rasped, "Been so fucking long- know you're tighter than I ever dreamed of. Little cocktease."
He took your mouth again, a possessive hand grabbing your chin, lips and tongue domineering and invasive. You were quickly becoming a puddle, whining as you tried to keep up, unable to focus as the bulbous tip of Aegon's thick cock jerked against your needy clit. Your stepbrother groaned raggedly, "Lion? Mewling kitten huh baby sis?" You whined again, jerking against him to claw at his shoulder.
"That's it, lemme see you try."
You huffed in frustration, nipping Aegon's puffy lips, trying to rut back against him. He laughed into your mouth, rough hands planting on your tits, thumbs swiping across your peaked nipples. You cried out into his warm mouth, shivering as Aegon alternated between dizzying little circles with the pad of his thumb or pinching and pulling roughly.
"Ah, mmm, fuck, fuck you, get- get a condom- oh my gods!"
Aegon groaned in annoyance. "We're literally rich, just go get a plan B."
"Get your lazy ass up and grab it!"
"Sound just like your father, gonna call me fat next?"
You stared at him, waiting. Aegon made a whole deal about heaving himself up and ungainly rolling to his side table, rifling through. "You're not even fat, sure are acting like it though, huffing about nothing," you replied. The prince returned with a condom, tearing the packet with his teeth. As he rolled it on the buffoon asked "Is it that bad? Be honest. The weight, I mean."
Alicent had made some weird fucking kids. You glanced around Aegon's body. He looked better than the last time you fooled around, actually healthy in appearence. The man took the brunt around his midsection, wide striped hips and a soft pooch. It appeared there was a slim layer of softness around his thighs, arms, and face. He seemed nervous now, that creeping insecurity.
"You look good. Healthier than being a skeleton. I don't see an issue. Maybe dress a bit snappier?"
He smirked, blushing and cursing, "Oh fuck off, I guess if you deem it alright. Let's fuck, yeah?"
You nodded with a grin, sealing your lips onto his own, wrapping your thighs around him tight. Both of you moaned as he slipped in, stretching your tight pussy out. Gods it felt good, the girth dragging against your sensitive spots. His hips stuttered a bit, hands clamping on your hips as he swore. You goaded Aeg on, digging your heels into his ass and whining his name.
Aegon pecked your mouth one more time, tucking his face into your neck, thighs heavily smacking your hips as he fucked. You yelped at the sudden movements, shivering in delight. Aegon grunted on every thrust, gasping against your neck before sinking his teeth in to grace your delicate skin.
You could do nothing but take his relentless bullying of your sensitive hole, thick tip drilling your sweet spot as he changed angles with a sharp inhale. Goosebumps littered your skin, sweat building between the pair of you. Your whines and his groans made a lurid cacophony, the slapping of flesh and the squelch of your own cunt.
Aegon panted, "Such a tight fuckin' pussy, made for me, s'good."
You arched feebly into his soft stomach, tits rubbing against his own. All you could manage was crying Aegon's name, tightening around him. You begged "Please, Aeg, touch me, touch me please, m'gonna cummm!" He growled in reflex, hips jerking particularly rough into the soft roof of your pussy.
"Yeah baby? Need your clit rubbed so you can come all over my dick? Beg some more, want you to mean it."
He slapped your thigh, smirking with lust blown pupils. Your eyebrows had knit together, the burning coil of ecstasy tightening into a ball. You just really really really needed Aegon to play with your clit. In the most embarrassing mewl you begged again. "Aeeegon, please! It fucking hurts, m'so swollen for you, please stepbrother, lemme cum, it-it'll feel so good!"
You sobbed in frustration, Aegon rumbling, "Mhm, I gotcha, needy little slut for a step sister. Fuck, you're gonna make me blow." His thumb and forefinger pinched and rubbed your flushed bundle of nerves, your stepbrother slapping a hand down on your wailing mouth. His hips stuttered, eyes rolled again as you clamped down on his twitching cock.
He babbled something, frantically swiping your nub until you released in a gush of slick, shivering from head to toe. Aegon made a gutted noise, his full weight baring down as he sloppily fucked himself out, groaning in near agony. He stiffened and whimpered your name, lips hanging agape as his cock emptied into the condom. Your pussy throbbed and twitched as you stared at the ceiling, hand in Aegon's platinum hair.
He groaned softly, "Ffffucking hell Lannister, you little demon."
Aegon groaned and slid out, laying on his back, pudgy belly heaving as he gathered some breath. You were just as limp, trying to formulate a sentence. Aegon tied off the condom and haphazardly threw it into a trash bin. You wrinkled your nose but managed to make the sluggish movements into his soft side. He was much more cuddly with the extra weight and post-orgasm haze.
Aegon wrapped a lazy arm around you, lips slightly curled up. He hummed, "You aren't going to run this time are you?"
"No. I don't think I will. We can tell Dad we're getting you lots of exercise now huh?"
"Just like the porno."
"Shut up."
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bearofohu · 2 months
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the walten files makes me so depressed man. fuck everything. starting a new au where felix is says no to taking the kids, opens up to jack & rose abt his alcohol issues, they get his white ass on that antabuse, and then he and charles bond over being divorced and fall in love. jack has to pretend to be surprised when felix comes out as a pitiful gay man. susan takes one look at him and charles and decides she has a slur to say. edd grows up to be a software engineer and molly becomes a fujoshi. sophie starts a lets play channel. bon still eventually gets possessed by some random fuckass demon and just starts killing ppl bc hes blue and fucked up and shit. nothing martin will write will ever be better than my au btw
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what happens when you eat Coprinus comatus or Coprinus atramentarius with alcohol?
Although it is said that coprinus comatus has the same effect as coprinus atramentarius (and I've actually said that here myself), I've recently read that coprine isn't found in coprinus comatus mushrooms, and it's possible that the intoxication has happened because of mistake - both comatus and atramentarius grow in the same type of environment and often closely together, some atramentarius specimens can be pale and resemble comatus.
Anyways, ingestion of these mushrooms in combination with ethanol may result in a typical Antabuse syndrome. This risk will last for almost a week post-ingestion.
Symptoms mimic those of an ethanol—disulfiram reaction (“Antabuse syndrome”): flushing, sweating, nausea, headache, tachycardia, anxiety, and circulatory disturbances.
(source about symptoms)
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distress · 11 months
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told my boyfriend at 1 pm tomorrow, with him, i will take my first antabuse. which is basically force you to go cold turkey meds, and even after you stop taking it it can affect you for 2-3 weeks if you drink any alcohol. womp. i knew i would need this to stop but i hate it and i feel so ashamed. im glad he doesnt hate me for it. and im lucky he is here to hold me accountable. as long as i can hide it ive been the only one to be disappointed in myself but i cant handle disappointing him or anyone else. im doing this because the last thing i want is for my family to know that yeah, me too. youd think everyone else in your family having to get sober would make it feel better but ive always been the "healthy" one. i dont need my moms disappointed judgment . sighs
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coldcrypt · 11 months
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we were talking about certain meds for alcohol abstinence today in pre detox group and antabuse came up. Apparently it makes you violently sick for days if you drink alcohol after taking, potentially even needing to go to the hospital. How great does that sound!!!!! imagine how much weight you could lose. Also they said we can get naltrexone. Naltrexone is great for preventing binges, its even prescribed for binge eating disorder so how cool would that be.....
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manicbeans · 10 months
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Have you ever thought about getting an Antabuse prescription as a deterrent towards drinking? This is not judgmental or anything btw I just used to follow someone who did that before as a way to deter themselves
I've never heard of that! Honestly if drinking is fucking up my meds that should be enough of a deterrant but if not I'll ask my doctor about other options. Thanks!
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wh1tetrash1ng · 1 year
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6 days sober, antabuse is my girlfriend
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oh-yes-i-did-not · 1 year
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I want to encourage people to mask up and to do their best to protect other people
but...
Well, I’m a recovering alcholic. And I can’t use most disinfectants, including hand sanitizers. Some alcoholics can, but those of us who are on Antabuse medication really can’t. We become sensitive to alcohol to an extent where even a deodorant can make us feel sick bc the medication is just that strong. It can’t target alcohol ingested vs alcohol at all.
So if possible, do offer soap and water as an option. Most of us already know how to wash our hands properly, all we need is the option to do it. Which is where the issue comes. Since many people/places seem to think that hand sanitizer can replace soap and water. It can’t. Not for alcoholics but also, not for non-alcoholics. Washing your hands with soap is always, ALWAYS better than using hand sanitizer.
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Strange Myths About Drugs
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phonakins-blog · 2 months
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Three Years Sober
Three years ago I have a week or so gap in my photo backups from when I was on ward after a 6 or so week relapse and trying to take myself out with meds. So yeah, haven’t had a drink since about this time 3 years ago. Been back on antabuse all that time, and not drinking and yeah, go me and all that. It’s been a weird week, went to Sydney for Kflay on wednesday. Been waiting and anticipating for…
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fillejondrette · 3 months
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literally spent 10 minutes standing outside the store and wandering around the store trying to decide whether to buy alcohol or not. but instead of buying my standard 1.5 liter bottle of riesling i got sparkling grapefruit juice and ice cream and i'm gonna get as high as possible so i can't leave the house again 👍
it's just exhausting bc i know im gonna go through the same thing again tomorrow and the next day ad infinitum and it makes me think maybe it's better to just binge drink freely on the weekends so i'm not tempted during the week. i was looking into medications you can take for alcoholism and i feel like the only thing that would really work for me is antabuse, bc it actually makes you sick if you drink alcohol on it. naltrexone is just supposed to make drinking less pleasurable. but i guess i should at least try that first.
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