the higher sapphistry + christianity
- Jeanette Winterson, Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit
(screencap of gifs by @userscream)
- Gentleman Jack
- emily m. danforth, The Miseducation of Cameron Post
(screencap of gifs by @abrilstevens)
- Teenage Bounty Hunters
- Emily Horner, A Love Story Starring My Dead Best Friend
- The Wilds
April is shook and so am I
can we just talk about this scene for a minute?? so i went into this show with absolutely no idea that these two would get together at some point, so when April locked the door and turned around and that bass music started bumpin, i was understandably SHOOK.
bc wow, not only did they give a romantic storyline to one character who started the season losing her virginity to her long time boyfriend and another character who’s in a straight-straight alliance...
but i was also shook bc of APRIL’S FACE.
do you see the desperate longing and yearning on this child’s face, in her EYES?? someone sedate me i’m
this look doesn’t just come out of nowhere.
April’s been quite possibly waiting for this moment (believing full well it would never come) since the 5th fucking grade, when Sterling not so subtly gave her away. skip ahead 5 or 6 years, and Sterling finally wants her back. and not just back, but BACK.
Sterling is one of April’s Adeles who come back from Arizona!
but instead of feeling threatened by April’s intensity—like the actual Adele—Sterling always returned that same intensity head on (and is now returning it to the point where it matches April’s), so not only am i shook, April’s shook.
and by April’s own words, she is intense, and so she buried that shit so deep (not her sexuality but her feelings for Sterling) that the moment her feelings are reciprocated, like that VERY moment, April’s like “it’s on,” proceeds to lock the world out, and jumps Sterling’s bones, quite literally crashing their faces together without a moment’s hesitation.
i mean, she barely put any thought to it, leading me to believe she’s definitely imagined kissing Sterling countless times before.
Sterling—the girl who was supposed to be her, quote, mortal enemy, like, less than a week ago. Sterling—the girl who ditched her in elementary school when she got her first bf. Sterling—the girl she always seemed to compare her wins (and losses) to, even when Sterling had no idea.
Sterling, Sterling, Sterling.
April had been competing against Sterling for years to be the best, when in actuality, all she really wanted was to be seen by Sterling as the best.
but the poor baby gay had been suppressing those feelings for Sterling for so long that she confused a complicated crush with “i must crush her,” only for a kiss from said crush to wake her the hell up.*
like c’mon, look at these last two stills—if that’s not enlightenment, idk what is
*our gay modern day sleeping beauty, what did we do to deserve
And, in case you’re wondering, no, I do not believe that God is going to smite me for being a lesbian.
[Caption: gifs from Teenage Bounty Hunters. Sterling and April are on a date on an arcade, playing skee-ball. April tells the story of how in second grade Adele Meisner, her best friend, told her she was moving to Arizona, and April “ugly cried and swore [she] was run away from home and track her down”. This made both of their mothers got involved because Adele felt “threatened”, as April says she was pretty intense back then. Stepril jokes, ironically saying that obviously April is “superchill” now, and says she gets that April was sad her friend was leaving. April confesses there have been many Adeles over the years, that she crushes hard on girls and only girls, so her orientation is “a fait accompli”. A bit nervous, Stepril asks if she’s ever acted on it with any of those girls before the two of them. April solemnly admits that Stepril is the first, rendering her speechless as she smiles and takes a deep breath.]