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Always an Angel, Never a God (the playlist)

I made a playlist for the fic Always an Angel, Never a God by @butcherbacterium. B is my number one cheerleader/enabler and I am so, so lucky that she is my friend! Always An Angel is such an iconic and beautiful fic, and I wanted to pay it tribute in the only way I know how — through music. This one's for you, B. ❤️

1. Family Tree // Ethel Cain (Sirius) These crosses all over my body Remind me of who I used to be Give myself up to him in offering Let him make a woman out of me ... So take me down to the river and bathe me clean Put me on the back of your white horse to ride All the way to the chapel, let you wash all over me

2. Faster, Faster // Bree Sharp (Sirius) The dusty road that's ahead will Be my board and my bed till What I am looking for is found … And yesterday is right behind me like a loaded gun So I'm racing toward the horizon ... I met a sucker on Sunday I took his wallet on Monday Then I was out on the road again

3. Acts 9:3 // Sluice (Sirius) Yeah I'm walking towards Damascus My body’s weary and my heart is too Ive had no revelations in the wilderness ... Jesus finally came to me at a crossing ... He smiled, gun on his hip Offered me an oxycodone and he split

4. Abbey // Mitski (Remus) I am hungry I have been hungry I was born hungry What do I need? I am something I have been something I was born something What could I be? There is a light that I can see But only, it seems, when there's darkness in me There is a dream that I sometimes see That only appears in the dark of sleep I am waiting I have been waiting

5. Lone Wolf // Eels (Remus) I am a lone wolf I always was and will be I feel fine, I am resigned to this I am a lone wolf ... It blows my mind That people want to try to get inside my tired head ... I am a lone wolf Nobody needs to get too close to me

6. Drunk Kid Catholic // Bright Eyes (Both) The drunk kids, the catholics They're all about the same They're waiting for something Hoping to be saved ... And every night I think I certainly won't ever sleep sober or alone And then suddenly it occurs to me I've slept alone before you And so I pour myself the stiffest drink my stomach can stand And convince myself to lay back down again

7. I Am the Antichrist to You // Kishi Bashi (Both) Who are you? Who am I to you? I am the antichrist to you Fallen from the sky with grace Into your arms race Lucid lovers me and you A deal of matchless value I was always quick to admit defeat Empty statements of bones and meat And my heart it shook with fear I'm a coward behind a shield and spear

8. Glory // Liz Phair (Both) You are (you are), you are (you are) shining some glory You are (you are), you are (you are) shining some glory On me, on me

9. God In Jeans // Ryan Beatty (Sirius) God is real, he was sleeping in my bed last night We were naked with the radio on Played him favorite song ... I pray to the open sky This is the one I wanted This is everything Give me more, I'll be all your love I believe in heaven above Come and give me life Show me what it's like to fall into your arms

10. Flower // Liz Phair (Both) Every time I see your face I think of things unpure, unchaste I want to fuck you like a dog I'll take you home and make you like it Everything you ever wanted Everything you ever thought of Is everything I'll do to you ... Everything you ever wanted Everything you ever thought of Is everything I'll do to you I'll fuck you till your dick is blue Every time

11. Sacrilege // Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Remus) Fallen for a guy, fell down from the sky Halo round his head Feathers in a bed In our bed, in our bed It's sacrilege, sacrilege, sacrilege, you say ... And I plead and I pray

12. I Wanna Be Yours // Arctic Monkeys (Both) I wanna be your vacuum cleaner Breathing in your dust I wanna be your Ford Cortina I will never rust If you like your coffee hot Let me be your coffee pot You call the shots, babe I just wanna be yours Secrets I have held in my heart Are harder to hide than I thought Maybe I just wanna be yours I wanna be yours

13. Take Me To Church // Hozier (Remus) Every Sunday's getting more bleak A fresh poison each week "We were born sick", you heard them say it My church offers no absolutes She tells me, "Worship in the bedroom" The only Heaven I'll be sent to Is when I'm alone with you I was born sick, but I love it Command me to be well A-, Amen, Amen, Amen Take me to church I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife Offer me that deathless death Good God, let me give you my life Take me to church

14. Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want // Deftones (Remus) Good times for a change See, the luck I've had Can make a good man Turn bad So please, please, please Let me, let me, let me Let me get what I want This time Haven't had a dream in a long time See, the life I've had Can make a good man bad So for once in my life Let me get what I want Lord knows, it would be the first time

15. Good Days // Sza (Sirius) Tell me I'm not my fears, my limitations I disappear, if you let me Feeling like (on your own) Feeling like Jericho Feeling like Job when he lost his shit Gotta hold my own, my cross to bear alone, I Ooh, paid a deal, way to kill the mood Know you like that shit, yeah, groovy baby, baby Heavy on my empty mind shit I gotta keep from losin' the rest of me (losin' the rest of me) Still worry that I wasted the best of me on you, babe You don't care

16. Prayer // Leith Ross (Remus) Last night, I wrote a prayer To the water in my head Read the book my mother read See, I don't believe in God At least not one that's not as human as me and anyone that ever was ... See, I have to believe there's some kind of deity In broken bones and skin that bleeds I can't count upon heaven or hell or law When I'm scared and lonely Amen, amen, amen, amen

17. Real Pain // Indigo De Souza (Remus) When pain is real, you cannot run You can cover, but come undone And love might go, but is not gone I still know you, I still know you ... I wanna kick, wanna scream, I wanna know it's not my fault I wanna know it's not my fault, I didn't mean it

18. Checkout Blues // Eels (Remus) I've got something Maybe I should tell you I may check out At any given time Things won't get better Until they get much worse Is the curse stronger than me Or am I stronger than the curse Everyone is scared of me And I'm scared of me too Never know just what I'm gonna do

19. Way down We Go // KALEO (Both) Oh, Father tell me, do we get what we deserve? Whoa, we get what we deserve And way down we go Way down we go Say way down we go Way down we go

20. God's Silence // Eels (Sirius) (Instrumental)

21. Fallen // Bree Sharp (Sirius) Little girl, little girl questioning me She says, "Why doesn't everyone have what they need? Where are the angels, angels, angels? Where are the angels, angels, angels?" I cannot tell you my little darling All my faith has fallen, fallen, fallen

22. Sleep Talking // Indigo De Souza (Sirius) Nothing left but a feeling in there somewhere Nothing left but a feeling in my toes When I get home, I'm gonna love you so well Please get me out, out of the depths of hell When I get home, I'm gonna sell you my soul When I get home, when I get home, when I get home I'll break your bones with all the love I carry

23. Jesus Christ // Brand New (Remus) Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face The kind you'd find on someone that could save If they don't put me away Well, it'll be a miracle Do you believe you're missing out? That everything good is happening somewhere else But with nobody in your bed The night's hard to get through And I will die all alone And when I arrive I won't know anyone Jesus Christ, I'm alone again So what did you do those three days you were dead? 'Cause this problem is gonna last More than the weekend ... Do I divide and fall apart? 'Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark ... I know you're coming in the night like a thief But I've had some time alone to hone my lying technique I know you think that I'm someone you can trust But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up (everyone now)

24. Francis Forever // Mitski (Sirius) I don't know what to do without you I don't know where to put my hands I've been trying to lay my head down But I'm writing this at three AM I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me

25. Into My Arms // Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds (Remus) I don't believe in an interventionist God But I know, darling, that you do But if I did I would kneel down and ask Him Not to intervene when it came to you Oh, not to touch a hair on your head Leave you as you are And if He felt He had to direct you Then direct you into my arms

26. Tender // Blur (Both) Tender is the night lying by your side Tender is the touch of someone that you love too much Tender is the day the demons go away Lord, I need to find someone who can heal my mind Come on, come on, come on Get through it Come on, come on, come on Love's the greatest thing

27. Not Strong Enough // Boygenius (Both) Black hole opened in the kitchen Every clock's a different time It would only take the energy to fix it I don't know why I am The way I am Not strong enough to be your man I tried, I can't Stop staring at the ceiling fan and Spinning out about things that haven't happened Breathing in and out ... Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god Always an angel, never a god

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