#BACK AND FORTH BACK AND FORTH

[courtjestersanonymous]

I have been trying for over two days to get my script filled for my antipsychotic the American healthcare system kills 🤪✌️

#laurelcore #I’ve made so many calls #back and forth back and forth #I just want to take the meds I am legally prescribed by my doctor

[daydadahlias]

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#isn’t it fucking crazy how sometimes you look at the mirror and you’re like #who is this person #how do I know them #have we ever met before?? #and there’s that part of u that feels like… yeah yes #you recognize them #that’s someone you know #but it’s also someone else and I #it’s so hard to explain #yeah basically blah blah blah #I want to write something #I never want to share anything with anyone #you know how it goes #back and forth back and forth #so on and so on

[fruitless-vain]

In one moment the stress overrides the anxiety. I can make 30 phone calls, manage the stressed out family members, calm the nervous patient, all while feeling in control, stoic, strong. I manage the chaos effortlessly.

A second later the stress feeds the anxiety and I collapse.

#it’s a whirlwind #back and forth back and forth #strong for everybody else #except myself #mmmmmmmmm

[bonesandthebees]

one of the most infuriating things about becoming an adult is when you realize that it actually is 10x easier to solve problems by making a phone call vs literally any other communication method

#I was forced to get over my hatred of making phone calls bc of this #one 15 minute phone call is the equivalent of 5 back and forth emails #also if you don't know exactly what you need help with you can just ask and you can get real help #instead of just desperately clawing at faqs on websites #it's infuriating that it works so well #ramblings

[ladiablesse]

idk to me it’s just like,,,black people coined the phrases say her name and rest in power for a reason and im gonna focus specifically on say her name because it was black women who wanted to call attention to the systemic violences that we have faced that have resulted in the deaths of so many of us which were left unrecognized. it was specifically addressing an issue within the black community wherein black femicides (particularly at the hands of the police/intimate partners) were not given the same spotlight as the murders of black men. we are always forgotten in life and in death and that is part of why the violence against us has been permitted to continue to the point that we are at a significantly higher risk of homicide than any other race. and the statistics are even more grim for black transwomen and femmes. for every nonblack victim of transphobic violence that gets recognition in their horrific death, there are 10 black victims whose names we never know. like that is the whole point of the phrase this shit is life or death for us and we know that the moment race is decontextualized from the nature of the phrase then that is when we are once again forgotten. but yall are acting like we’re trying to start genz tiktok lingo/aave co-opting discourse.

#it’s the fact that this didn’t even need to be a whole back and forth for the past week #like sometimes you just gotta take blk ppls word for shit and keep it pushing #just an ‘oh okay got it’ and move on

[captainadwen]

One thing that I'm going to give ffxv a solid 7/10 is on organic exploring / i.e. making its pseudo open worls map an interesting place where you want to wander around, which it does well approximately 50% of the time (I admit tho I am only in ch4)

When it does it well my favorite activity in game is, tbh, is jumping on a chocobo and running around. I just discovered a castle dungeon + old royal tomb that are a pair (i.e. the sword in the tomb got robbed and is now in the dungeon) and I'm super curious to check it out despite probably being underleveled. I love finding little lakes. I love the weird creatures that are not enemies. I like when they leave little treasures in hard to reach areas

The rest of the time tho it just feels like a whole lot of nothing meant only for admiring from the car, and if you do go out there nothing in particular changes that impression

#adwen plays ffxv #i also think they made night time too dark #yeah ueah survival suspense etc #its too dark #wheres the joy in exploring when you cant even see treasures on the ground #i am leveling up before starting ch 4 because i am a weenie #also the order youre meant to do sidequests is so whack #you get sent around the whole map repeatedly #back and forth back and forth

[wingsmadeforflying]

Why does autism rocking feel so good- it's so nice.

#back and forth back and forth #i love the repetition and soothing of it

[when-they-meow]

i could cough and a transmisogynist would be like "that makes me uncomfortable. did you see her coughing? it was a very masculine cough. trans women are always making me feel unsafe in queer spaces like this." and at the exact same time some rando would go "can you cough in my mouth next mommy"

#the constant back and forth between demonisation and fetishisation is TIRING

[mathematicallybrunette]

I think I hate writing bc I’m not willing to just turn on the faucet unless I know perfection will pour out. Which ofc it won’t.

#a creative writing teacher once told me I keep my ideas in my head too long #she’s right not just about for writing but most other things #i like to sit on an idea #ideas make great rocking chairs #back and forth back and forth

[bbbbbbbbatman]

Here’s how I want robin in the next battinson movie:

The very first scene is Bruce and tiny Dick Grayson sitting across from each other at the dining table, staring each other down in silence, both clearly grumpy about it. Alfred is in the background watching them with concern. The silence lasts about 20 seconds before Dick speaks.

“Let me fight crime.” (said with all the petulance of a pouty 10 year old)

Bruce replies immediately. “No.” (this is clearly an ongoing argument)

Immediately cut to the next scene where Dick, wearing the iconic Robin suit, is having the time of his life swinging across the city while Bruce frantically tries to keep up with him while yelling at him to be careful like an anxious mother

#just a whole movie of bruce being bullied by this small child he just adopted #being forced to take on a ‘if you’re going to drink then id rather you do it with me’ style of parenting #just back and forth between falling in love with his new son and going ‘why tf did I adopt a child?!’ #batman #robin #battinson #bruce wayne #dick grayson #dc #dc comics #mine

[scithemodestmermaid]

been having my students watch cyberchase.  havent watched it myself in years but i remembered it helping me understand math.  but what is with this lore.

>internet is an alternate dimension ruled by a benevolent ai goddess >one day she builds herself a cyborg helper man >he rebels against her >one day he builds himself a robot helper >he rebels against him >ai goddess reforms (maybe reformats) the cyborg helper’s robot helper >this guy proves himself so loyal to her that everyone is okay with him and he will even play double agent with no concerns of converting back to the cyborg’s side for real >eventually the cyborg hacks the ai goddess and screws her brain over >the situation is so dire that humans from the real world must come in and protect her and the internet from the bad guy >with 5th grade math >and the formerly-evil robot helper is the blank-minded one who stands in for the audience as the math concepts are explained to him

they didn’t have to go so hard with this edutainment show’s lore, its a 90s cyberpunk romp that also happens to visualize math concepts very well.

also when i was a kid i had a crush on delete, there i said it.

#io getting a whoabot #somehow digiit's backstory is exactly the kind of backstory i like to see in a robot #just never realized it until i was old and cranky #whats really fun is watching my students get mad at the show #WHY ARENT YOU KIDS FIGHTING THE ROBOTS JUST PUSH THEM OVER!!! #or even better #BLANK PLUS TWO EQUALS FIVE PLUS ONE THE BLANK MUST BE TWO #NO ITS FOUR NO ITS TWO #back and forth back and forth #for the record it is four

[thatpunnyperson]

According to NBC here in the US, the missing titanic sub has been found. As debris. Off the bow of the Titanic wreckage.

And it looks like the sub suffered what we all suspected, and what was undoubtedly the more merciful of the two options: a catastrophic implosion from the pressure.

Also, more info has come to light about the fishing trawler with the hundreds of migrants that sank cataclysmically off the coast of Greece, indicating that the greek coast guard knew about the vessel AND how much trouble the vessel was in, and were towing it at a speed that made it capsize, at which point they unhooked the tow line and watched the trawler sink without helping the passengers to safety. Despite a bunch of other ships trying to help as well throughout the whole ordeal.

So a lot of people are dead, all because of regulations (and the lack thereof) regarding sea-faring vessels and rescue protocols. People shouldnt be allowed to make a business charging a ton of money for a ride on an uncertified, unsafe, un-seaworthy ship going deep into the ocean with no distress beacon or tether to the mothership. People also shouldnt be allowed to enact laws that criminalize the ferrying of refugees, which then force the refugees to hitch rides on fishing trawlers, and which also prevent people from helping those fishing trawlers full of refugees due to fear of legal consequences.

Hopefully BOTH of these events spark changes on an international scale in terms of what is legally allowed to be sailed, who is legally allowed to be the passengers, and what the rescue protocols are in the event of disaster for any seafaring vessel, illegal or not. It shouldnt be just the global 1% who get 24/7 search parties and remote-operated submersibles helping rescue them.

#the question of 'what do we owe to each other' can be answered simply with 'the dignity of retrieving our remains when we die' #another answer is 'the dignity of thinking about each other fellow humans with similar motivations and feelings' #also 'stopping someones potentially self-destructive behaviors just because theyre rich and want to feel special' #also i feel like humans have been sailing the seas long enough that it should be guaranteed that people will survive sea voyages #im very mad about specifically mediterranean maritime disasters because we have ancient writing saying they made it safe #sailing from Egypt to Greece was so old hat and safe that people legit took the ancient equivalent of cruises back and forth #cleopatra habitually sailed from alexandria to rome with a ton of ships and was fine #Nero tried to have his mother drowned at sea by orchestrating a dramatic shipwreck while she was our sailing AND SHE SURVIVED #and then swam to shore got back to rome and whooped his ass #fuckin pliny the elder tried to evacuate people from pompeii and the surrounding coast villages when vesuvius erupted #and he actually WAS able to rescue people #but he himself had an asthma attack from the fumes which led to a heart attack and he died on the beach #there is legit no excuse for that trawler of migrant refugees to have wrecked #negligence all around #anyway #oceangate

[thepriceofsurvival]

Current WIP

#keep going back and forth on the injuries #kinda already feel like I’ve traumatized myself enough #kinda wanna completely cover jeans face in blood #all for the game #jean moreau #aftg #the sunshine court #the foxhole court #fanart #riko moriyama #tetsuji moriyama #the ravens #edgar allan ravens #the nest #my fanart

[souvenir116]

The way he couldn't take his eyes off Max, not even for a second...

#so much to unpack #the double check #not even Pierre distracted him enough #back and forth glances... #%0 subtlety #charles leclerc #max verstappen #lestappen #formula 1 #f1 #singapore gp 2022

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

the first chunk of loveless got me feeling sooo anxious and repelled because I ALMOST FUCKING DID THAT. not with a long term best friend, but with a newer friend I was like okay look I just need to ask her on a date maybe, I’m only feeling anxious because i’m not good with people and also! i have an anxiety disorder! this is the closest i’ve felt to a proper crush i think i just need to take the jump surely! AND LITERALLY THE MAIN REASON WHY I DIDN’T END UP DOING THAT WAS BECAUSE SHE STARTED DATING SOMEONE ELSE. THAT’S IT. PURE MIRACLE STOPPING ME FROM BEING IN THAT BOAT.

i don’t know if i’m aroace, i know i’m ace but the aro is a little more blurry for me which is why I like to go by queer and not stress things. I DO HOWEVER KNOW ON REFLECTION THAT WOULD’VE BEEN A TERRIBLE IDEA, AND THANK FUCK I JUST LET MYSELF BE MYSELF AND FEEL HOW I FELT AND HOW I FELT WAS THAT I SHOULDN’T DO THAT THAT IT MADE ME FEEL ILL THAT I DEEP DOWN HATED IT. georgia going that step further than me...fuuuuck i had to keep putting down the book i got too emotionally into it and felt ill

i adored the book though. it was lovely. i relate! i feel how you feel! i cried. absolutely brilliant

#loveless #look i spent years as a teen going i think i'm aro...but i seem to be having soem FUCKING GAY THOUGHTS FOR THAT #back and forth back and forth #is this just a reaction from the bad relationship i had as a young teen? am i just scared? is it not that and i'm aro? do i feel- #literally YEARS of stressing myself the FUCK out over this #well fuck that. i'm queer. that's that. i sleep peacefully at night and never sweat over it #i will continue living my life how i feel is right #i'm gonna keep having my little gay thoughts and i'm gonna not engage in relationships unless it feels right and that is a-okay #i don't feel the need to nail down every inch of my sexuality. i'm happy as is. i can have my little 'crushes' and feel what i feel #and be q u e e r. a lovely open label that is me. and that's that

[mothcpu]

There's no point in trying if the end result will be the same anyway.

#ULTRAKILL #mirage #mirage ultrakill #happy 3 year anniversary of 2-S :) dect anniversary is coming up soon too on the 29th damn #visually inspired by the MV for halved halved halved by hundotte vs frums (from NOISZ STARLIVHT which happens to be a great rhythm game) #had to export this so many times while moving it back and forth from krita to gimp OTL