#BC THERE'S NOTHING TO PROVE THEM! THERE'S NO. THERE'S NO HARD EVIDENCE! WHAT IF I'M MISREMEMBERING WHAT IF I'M WRONG!

[imrllytootiredforthis]

You know whats cool? Subby men

You know whats better? Yandere subby men

you know whats even better? Two yandere competitive subby men who are equally desperate for your attention that they have contests against eachother to prove to their mommy/mistress that they are so much better than the other and they deserve all your attention >:)

😦

idk why but i'm imagining hannie and hyunjin with this (maybe bc they're the most needy boys in my head😔)

them constantly trying to one up each other, trying to pick out the prettier lingerie, make themselves look better, tease you to the point where you'd fuck them but not punish them, trying to get with you while the other's out.

even going maliciously as far as to steal the other's phone and block your number, send your calls to voicemail. sabotaging the other with slashed tires so they'd miss their date with you, spill food or drinks on the other's clothing and ruin it.

though they'd never go as far as to hurt each other-they know that you'd be so sad and disappointed and they would hate that more than anything in the world

so in short, they'd be desperate and oh so pathetic in the fight for your attention.

seeing who can do the most romantic (?) gesture (in order to get railed by you)

hyunjin leaving out filthy little drawings he's made of just you and him, books with certain (naughty) pages dog-eared, little notes between paragraphs and sentences annotating as a way of describing the things he wants you to do to him, circling positions and highlighting sentences of dirty dialougue.

hannie leaving you small gifts in the form of sex toys and others of the type, he has enough money and is determined to spend it on buttplugs and cockrings, pretty outfits for either you or him to wear. pictures as well, of himself in compromising positions, urging you to go wherever he is to show him how much you appreciate them.

they delight in getting fucked when the other isn't-in fact they've agreed that they don't want to do shared scenes together entirely for that reason-begging you to take photos or videos of the entire lewd thing and send it to the other.

or even better, getting you to fuck them when the other is out and for them to walk in in the very middle:

hyunjin bent over the cold surface of the kitchen counter. having teased you with wearing absolutely nothing under his apron while making a romantic dinner for you and him to enjoy during date night (the food is burnt and pretty much inedible at this point but that doesn't matter bc he's getting his back blown out). it hadn't helped that he was playing his music, swaying along to the beat, singing along to the words as you sat at the kitchen table, fondly (and hornily) watching him before your patience finally snapped.

he's long gone, crying out your name and covered in evidence your love by the time hannie comes in after a long day of playing video games with felix and lee know, walking in on the entire scene:

hyunjin moaning so loud he could hear it from the front door. his hands gripping uselessly at the countertop while your fingers are threaded through his hair, pulling on it so hard his scalp burns but it's okay because he loves it. doing it all so you can lift his head up and whisper filth into his ear. thrusting into him so hard he swears he can see stars...and see when han walks in, giving him a triumphant smirk before you give an even harder thrust and his eyes roll back.

or,

coming home with a drunk and handsy han-you being equally drunk and handsy after a long night at the bar. he'd been teasing you all night long with a skirt and some thigh-highs, acting on his very best behaviour. that of course meaning that once he's had a single sip of any kind of drink his hands are never leaving your skin and his lips are even looser from the alcohol. he spends all night whispering (which isn't really whispering) dirty scenarios all night long, pleading with you to take him to the bathroom and use him-"quickly-so, so quickly mommy," he pants "jus-just in and out, i'll cum so fast for you, i'll be so so so so good~"

and god forbid that poor uber driver that took you home at the end of the night, having to listen to all of his drunken fantasies and sinful imagery (turns out he's pretty poetic when he's drunk).

coming in and disturbing hyunjin who sits on the couch reading his book by your body pressing han against the wall facing him, kissing and biting anywhere your lips can find purchase. the boy moaning loudly into your ear as his legs wrap around your hips, begging to have your cock/strap buried inside of him, telling you how much he needs to be filled up, he needs it so so so bad. and lastly, before you carry him over, disappearing into his room, han seeming to sober up just enough to smirk at hyunjin.

#inbox💌 #pikachu pizza sauce★ #hard thoughts #dom reader #stray kids smut #sub stray kids #stray kids x reader #sub skz #sub!kpop #sub kpop #sub!stray kids #sub!idol #sub!skz #sub hyunjin #sub!hyunjin #hyunjin smut #hyunjin x reader #jisung x reader #jisung smut #sub jisung #han jisung smut #han jisung x reader #sub han #sub han jisung #stray kids hard thoughts

[chemzee]

Homies being homies

Just a silly, quick doodle

Sudden updated lore drop! Still marinating, still under reconstruction. So it's a bit foggy and I'm not sure if many stuff but here, since I got an opportunity ✨

Now that I've rewritten my own version of hpma story to follow my theory about how Daniel will bertray Elliot and will rat out NOTME, here's how it now goes:

Because Elliot suggested Daniel to join him, rather than NOTME in general, I believe Elliot isn't content with how things are in NOTME even though he seemingly holds a higher position there, if the Chinese first anniversary event is anything to judge by.

And with that, the rest of NOTME aren't exactly content of him either, especially the more loyal members and the actual leader. Elliot prefers to do things his way but he needed a partner in crime, which he found in Daniel. He perhaps often visits Hogwarts or Hogsmeade, even after graduation, so he could team up with Daniel when he needed him. So, he becomes less present/active in NOTME, which raises suspicions in the group. Some even suspect that he indeed has a new team or partner now, but without much evidence. One of the members, however, figures he could see if that's the case.

Daniel, on the other hand, agreed solely to get closer to NOTME and gather evidence against them. All of them, to rat every single one of them, this way, proving his mom has nothing to do with the organization. And while he didn't really get as close to NOTME as he wished (as in. not at all) he still managed to collect some evidence, but it wasn't enough, not until he meets at least one other member.

And the member showed up.

This part is bit blurry and needs to marinate but essentially, Daniel gets to meet Morgan (well, more so the other way around) and Daniel is aware that Morgan is part of NOTME, the same way Morgan knows Daniel is Elliot's new partner in crime. But the two, so far, don't rat each other out, Daniel because he wants to collect more evidence on other NOTME members and doesn't want to rat them out one by one but rather in groups/all together (bc if he didn't the group would sorta panic) and Morgan just doesn't see what benefits he could gain by telling other NOTME members about his being Elliot's helper, as he's primarily focused on his own gain in the group, not having much attachment/trust/respect for them.

While starting out tense,on Daniel's part mostly, the two end up, accidentally and surprisingly, striking a bit of a friendship, hanging out with other often until the two got rather close.

Which backfires against Daniel's original plan: rat NOTME out. Because before, he didn't care for any of the members. Now he does. He does care for one of them and he struggles to chose what to do, because he knows he can't just hide Morgan's identity and rat out the rest without him being revealed too at some point, no matter what he does, but neither is he willing to give up his revenge plan against NOTME, it's a lose-lose situation for him, a hard choice he struggles to make.

A part of me also believes Morgan, being a rather sharp individual with pretty good detective skills, has figured out Daniel's intentions and he knows that there's a possibility Daniel might rat him out, betraying him. And he... Doesn't know how to feel about it. On one hand, he doesn't want to go to Azkaban, obviously, especially not with his health. But on the other, he too, cares for Daniel a lot and he knows of the case about his mother, so he knows he's doing it for her and as someone who himself lost his family... He just wishes Daniel luck in reuniting with his mother and making things right, he genuinely wished Daniel happiness. He's just...not yet sure if he's willing to do so at his own expense. And he too, can't make a choice of whenever or not stopping him or letting him rat him out too.

So um. Here's that. Haha 🤪

#hpma oc #hpma daniel #my art #doodle #morgan grimmes

[goldenfharry]

"Last thing, those fans who went to Tay’s play wearing Pleasing merch and asking her if they're actually together are so embarrassing"

To the anon who brought that up, btw she was never asked that! Someone lied just to stir some shit up, but the harries who went to the play, one had a Pleasing shirt that got allegedly complimented by Taylor R but no question about Harry was brought up to her.

Also on the matter, what I find annoying with ppl trying to figure out whether or not they're a thing is the invasiveness of the fans which makes the whole situation very uncomfortable for both parties! I'm pretty sure Harry has warned TR of what would happen being seen together and she is aware of it but still, I can't imagine how uncomfy this must be to see ppl trying to theorise everything and affirming things based on just sighting of you walking! What makes the whole thing even more odd is to see how his own fans keeps sexualising him everytime he is seen with an attractive person as if the man can't have attractive friends platonically but has to fuck all of them everytime and if this is getting me tired, I can't even imagine what it must be like for Harry. For now I see a lot of projections and speculations which pmo tbh bc as a black woman myself, I see a lot of bipoc harries wanting them to date so they can use it as a "gotcha" towards white harries and also project thru Taylor and have this idea that Harry could be attracted to them... Another aspect that gets on my nerves is ppl wanted those two to date so it brings "diversity" to Harry dating life and all of these are so fucked up, bc Taylor is not an object to push projections onto nor a trophy to prove Harry anti-racism! I mean white ppl dating bipoc does not make them automatically anti-racist plus Harry has proven time and time again his anti-racism by uplifting bipoc, donating to charities, making a safe space for bipoc fans/collaborators, etc!

Sorry a long one but it's been annoying me bc this has gotten out of hands and ppl are pushing this for the wrong reason imo (projections/diversity) and I feel like we should not care about his dating life so much, we should stop viewing him or any attractive woman around him as uniquely sex objects that can't refrain from their impulses bc it's making the situation so uncomfy for Harry and the person he's seen with bc imagine having millions of strangers speculating on lives when they don't know you. Some ppl are comparing it to the situation w OW but with OW they were holding hands at a private wedding like it was obvious something was happening here it's not the case in this situation so we really dunno anything and high chances are that they're friends and/or collaborators for a project (manifesting Harry for Loewe real hard!!!). Either way, we shouldn't be over analysing them like that, I know ppl in the fandom are jealous and parasocially infatuated with Harry but still it's weird esp when ppl are affirming things they dunno (saying Taylor R and Harry are dating) when they don't know shit and are just projecting with little evidence concretely proving they're dating!

I have an opinion about that topic, but for now I don’t feel the need to expose it. Like I’ve said before, I don’t think that what we had access to is enough to make this a huge discussion topic. I have an opinion because I’m a curious human being so I do like to talk with my own buttons and just navigate on stuff, not because I’m actually that interested 😅 tbh, overall, this is just too much and we shouldn’t even think about it.

I still think that going to her workplace with a pleasing hoodie is weird. Sorry, I’m happy that there were no questions made but it’s still odd… anyways, I absolutely agree that this has gotten out of hands and that whatever is going on, there’s nothing to analyze deeply :)

[edalynn]

Hiii Cat this is one of your moots but I’m anon bc last time I sent an ask about Hunt//low off anon I got an angry message LOL

Anyways i really think people need to realize that you personally can dislike a ship and have reasons with evidence why you dislike it but it literally. does not affect them at all! use the block button if youre so pressed about someone having reasons to dislike it jfc. my best friend loves the ship bc as a chubby girl it makes her happy, i personally dont like it and we just. meet at a common ground to not debate it, why is this so hard for these anons to understand lol

HI mystery moot, I am so sorry my chaos got you sent angry messages kjahskfKJHFASF

FOR REAL! I have genuine reasons, both show content wise and personal and that literally has NOTHING to do with them and it never will lmao. I think it's just so hard for h/ls to see someone with real, well thought out and explained reasons to dislike it/to call it a bad ship. They just want it to be this unquestionable morally pure ship without having to prove why it's a good ship lmao. I can 100% understand on a surface level liking a ship including a chubby character and the attractive white boy character for representation. It's when you get into their personalities and interactions that it's not great :/ But seriously. That's what well-rounded, self assured people do. They agree to disagree and not discuss it. Even my partner and I have certain topics that we know will cause an argument, so we just. Don't talk about them. It's really not that hard. It's not like I'm personally messaging them and arguing, I'm tagging my posts so they can filter them, and they by all means should block me if it upsets them that much, too. But using our brain here to understand that sometimes people dislike things for their own real reasons is too hard.

#taako talks #asks #anons #toh #the owl house #huntl0w negative

[iwasbored777]

People who praise Felix for being "sMaRt" or "the only one with brains" are going to tell you that all those times Marinette solved a problem, it was dumb luck or favouritism. Felix is the one who's lucky, he found out his uncle's Shadowmoth and he uses it for his benefit. Like all that happened with switching places with Adrien and Ladybug looking for a teammate wasn't even his own doing. He didn't even try hard enough to steal the yo-yo, Ladybug just happened also to trust his cousin a lot.

Yeah I don't get it how they never rank Marinette as the smartest character, you know, that Marinette who's the only character who can outsmart anyone else. Nathalie comes up with great plans and Ladybug is the only one who can outsmart her but Nathalie is praised for her cleverness and Ladybug almost never, actually they hate her because she "always saves the day" lol. But I already wrote it that what happened in Strikeback was nothing more than Marinette paying for Félix's and Gabriel's selfish actions. Someone had to bc they got away. And yes, I also discussed that, Félix had more luck than anyone else in Strikeback. Adrien switching with him be he was desperate, Ladybug trusting him because she thought it was Adrien and not hiding anything from him, Gabriel's desperation to give him peacock for every other miraculous... The opportunity was perfectly set up and all he had to do was use it.

I think the reason why people think Félix is the smartest is bc he is the first one to actually figure out Gabriel is Hawk Moth, but the only reason why Marinette gave up on that theory is because she and Master Fu think Hawk Moth can't akumatize himself. Félix already knew he was a sentimonster and he knew stuff about his family. Marinette didn't know anything. It's all about misinformation. She eliminated Gabriel from her list of suspects and now even when she gets more evidence she will brush it off because according to every previous butterfly miraculous holder, Hawk Moth can't akumatize himself. Marinette was actually the first one to come up with that theory and she and Master Fu both through that's him until he proved them "wrong". So Gabriel is just another Hawk Moth's victim to them, who has no connection to Hawk Moth.

A character who proved that he's intelligent in one episode is apparently smarter than a character who already proved that in every episode. Félix is intelligent, I'm not denying it, but there is a reason why Chat Noir and all of Paris knows that if there is one person who can pull them out of the mud, that's one and only Ladybug.

#miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #ladybug #félix graham de vanily #ml strikeback #Ml ask #ask and answer

[askaborderline]

Hello. I had a friend for about three years who split on me out of nowhere and has ghosted me… I was wondering if you had any advice on how to handle someone splitting on you.

On the opposite note, ive been feeling myself split on one of my fp’s because they have been giving me minimal replies and talking to me less and less. I know it’s probably a lost cause for the friendship but I was wondering if you had advice on splitting on others as well?

And last, related to the other, do you have advice for coping with friend’s becoming distant? It seems like it happens no matter what I do, and I feel like theres no hope for long lasting friendships for me… I feel like im only there to be a hyper fixation or a fad, and then they get bored with me…

I am scared of lashing out when upset and cutting the friendships off altogether. Thankfully ive been using the BPD skills from your blog to control my actions, but its still hard to handle when it’s something that happens repeatedly…

Honestly, it sucks to hear and it sucks even more that it's true, but the truth is that even "normal", neurotypical people lose most of the friends they make. It just takes the right combination of people to stay together for basically their whole lives, one that's pretty rare, and a lot of these things don't last, and that's fine. The problem is that with BPD, it gets really hard to see it as anything other than evidence you're unloveable or whatever, and it's even harder to keep permanent friends bc people are scared away by "freaky disorder", but you will find some if you keep looking.

You're doing good by focusing on BPD skills! I'm sure that is helping a lot.

When someone is splitting on you, I've found it's often good to give them space. This applies to you splitting on people well. Usually some distance from the situation proves really illuminating, and it helps stop either party from saying pretty regrettable things. Also keep in mind that splitting is often temporary, so try to leave room for your friend to come back - they may not, so do not build it up as a certainty, but leave them the opportunity if you want them in your life still. Splitting is not always permanent, especially if the reason is not too huge.

As for your distancing friend, I would honestly just directly ask them about it. It may have nothing to do with you - they may just have less energy than before, they might be busier, they might be buried under work, etc. There could be a large number of reasons, and it's better to just ask instead of trying to mull over the possibilities with their input. I will say that most relationships tend to "calm down" a bit after the initial buzz of meeting - the "honeymoon phase" things applies with friendships too, and just because everything isn't as energetic as before doesn't mean you're a mere hyperfixation or they're going to abandon you. You've just become part of their routine, instead of being an unusual thing, and that's actually good I think :)

I hope everything gets better for you.

#mod jane #aab

[nyxopenjournal]

I really wonder sometimes how long it would take people to forget me. And I find myself wanting to ask how I can be better so that maybe someone will find me worth being around one day. And I wonder what people do to be normal and make others feel like they're worth being around? I don't know how to get people to like me. In the past I've just been lucky I guess so now when I try and it goes nowhere I can't help but think that's why everyone does end up leaving. I know I'm not interesting or good at anything or have anything to offer so it's rare that I even try in the first place bc who wants to be around someone with nothing? And I know I have nothing. I see everyone around me and even online. Even if they don't have it all put together, they have ppl there to support them and help them through it and encourage them to keep going and just hang around in a non serious way to just be a friend. I just wonder why I'm not capable of having that? Why I'm not worthy enough to get it or keep it when I was able to have it. Why isn't anyone willing to bear my cross with me? I'm self loathing rn, I'm aware lol. It is what it is. And like I'm not unreasonable. I know it's no one's job to do or be anything for me. Logically I understand that and that's why I try to cope with it. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I break. I can't lie about that. But that's no one's problem. I have to deal. I try to just acknowledge and understand my place in someone's life and move accordingly. I can't expect anyone to do anything they don't want to do. That's unfair. They just end up overwhelmed and I'm hurt. Nobody wins. So I just make myself scarce and leave it be. It's better. I try hard not to do too much or say too much or ask for anything. Bc I know I'm a lot to deal with, especially if I get scared. So I just try not to get to that point. But getting there with no one means I can't build any connections. And it's hard to cope with every fiber of Your being telling you that you desperately need companionship when you know that no one wants you around. There's a huge disconnect. Like that part of me refuses to believe it's not possible despite me running through the years of evidence I have proving no one wants me around. It's just like well fuck. I can't have a single friend? Not one? Just *one*? then why not? I want to sit everyone down & ask them "what's so wrong with me that you left?" Just so I can know what I need to change. I know I'm not perfect but I can't change if I don't know my issue. Why doesn't anyone see me and want to stay and be there and help? I just wonder. Everyday.

[noah-inthemood]

So came a day when an idol I've been following got accused of a scandal.

Never have i seen it coming though. I mean what? I wanted to be a casual listener but ended up liking 1us including rv but what did i see last night? An accusion of him 2-timing with girls, having s*x by force (at first night), talking shits about ex gf, gold-digged op and all? I cannot list everything bc it's so messed up fgs. Anw that sounds sus bc up until now the acccusion and evidences dont really say a lot, but the thing that stood out was his voice recorded (ltr sounds like him) and the fact cya unfled him on SoundCloud...

I really have no words to say bc there has been no offical statement from RV nor rbvv regarding this. But the feelings are torturing me rn bcuz I always knew I could never trust an idol 100%, but i still developed some love and hope for him (and 1us all in all) anw. I dont mean that it's not worth it, i meant that i really made a hard choice to start stanning another group other than my first ones (yes, 1us is my second group to stan) and if anything of this is proved right, my choice would be turn out soooo ridiculous. I was so careful at 1st, and then let my walls down and let the boys with their amazing music in. I started to learn about their personalities and stuff, and it's inevitable to not believe in what i'm shown. Anw it all started and went so well until last night, so i hope for nothing but the fact that he's not that way. I still want to cherish his efforts and contribution to music, i still want to think that 1us means ot6 and they have nothing to hide, i still wait for the happier things to come to them bc their career has just turned the page literally.

But if not, will i be able to get over him and continue supporting the other boys?

The truth really tells a lot about rv's own sides, AND 1us' situation as well as other artists involved. Therefore hoping for a positive response from rv and rbvv is like the last thread that will save my pov. Jaebal, dont disappoint me

[bisexualmaedhros]

i am constantly trying to figure out whether i am autistic or if my adhd and ocd just interact with each other in a very specific way that makes me relate to certain autistic things

#i am SO FRUSTRATED!!! #i talked to my therapist about it and her answer was vague as FUCK #but i hate bringing that stuff up bc i feel like the adults in my life just think i'm doing it for attention #i sent info to my parents and said i related a lot to many things (esp lesser talked about symptoms like hyperempathy) #but they were like ''idk it doesn't rlly sound like u to us but ofc u know urself best :-)'' #but like NO!!! I DON'T!!! I DON'T KNOW EHO I AM I CAN'T TRUST MY OWN BRAIN TO BE ACCURATE THERE'S SO MUCH ROOM FOR BIAS! #BUT ALSO I DON'T FUCKING TALK TO MY PARENTS ABOUT HOW I /ACTUALLY/ SEE THINGS BC I FORGET THEY DON'T KNOW. SO THEY END UP NOT KNOWING! #but then i have no external record of Me and i have a terrible memory esp wrt emotions #BC THERE'S NOTHING TO PROVE THEM! THERE'S NO. THERE'S NO HARD EVIDENCE! WHAT IF I'M MISREMEMBERING WHAT IF I'M WRONG! #and it's a huge hassle to set up a dr appointment and i bet the wait is even longer than usual rn AND i've heard ppl saying a professional #autism dx can be really expensive but idk how to check how much it would be for me and i don't want to waste my parents' money and AAARGH #all the autism tests i've taken online i've scored pretty high but again that could just be Other Shit and ik those tests aren't very #accurate anyway! i mean one of those is how i decided to seek out my adhd dx #and i DEFINITELY have adhd lmao #but i just. ghrrg i hate this so much i just want something i can LOOK AT and see for SURE that i am something or i'm not i just want #something solid can people please stop telling me i know myself best i don't know jack shit #anyways #finielspeaks #sorry folks hdgdv

[milfnearyou]

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“So you just woke up one day and decided you loved me?!” 

Your voice was painfully shrill, bouncing against the metal walls and echoing through the elevator shaft. If you hadn't been so furious, you would've cringed at the way you sounded. Considering your behaviour to be completely out of character and rather petty. But it was impossible to think straight. With all the sirens in your mind screaming 'Alert!' causing you to grow defensive. You saw everything as red, wrapped in a series of warning signs. Eager to protect yourself you grew aggressive, fury coursing through your veins and laced with disgust. 

The disbelief was evident in your tone, accompanied by the extremely annoyed look plastered on your face. Your eyebrows were contorted together, lightly creasing your forehead as you anxiously chewed on your bottom lip. Your hands were balled into tight fists trembling at your sides as you fought the urge to beat the living crap out of him. 

"Fucking answer me Sehun!" You exclaim, throwing your hands in the air. You didn't understand him, not taking any of his bullshit words seriously as a result. Had he been telling the truth, had he truly meant every word he said. Sehun wouldn't have just stood there in front of you with nothing to say. The silence he offered simply adding more fuel to the fire that raged inside of you. 

"So now you're silent? You weren't this fucking quiet back when you were professing your so-called love to me?! What's gotten into you now?"

Again, nothing but silence. The tall man simply stands there in front of you with his hands shoved into the pockets of his pants as the elevator continues to rise higher and higher. With every floor, the elevator cabinet passed, the angrier you got and it didn't help that you lived in a high rise apartment. If he continued to act this way you'd be fuming, steam emitting from your body by the time you'd reach your floor.

“Do you even know what it means to love someone? Or do you just throw yourself in any direction that proves beneficial to your selfish well being?” The questions flew past your lips one after another. You weren’t going to hold back either. Pushing yourself towards him, forcing him to explain himself. 

You didn't deserve the silence. You deserved proper answers, ones that were absent from the immature man in front of you. 

"Answer me right now or I swear to god I'm cutting you off forever," Warning him, you take a step forward to face him closer. Invading his personal space as you stare at him, craning your neck upwards with your arms crossed. 

Watching him like a hawk, you attentively wait. Noticing how he seems to take a slight step back, his broad chest heaving up and down slowly. He seems to be nervous or perhaps, flustered? It was hard for you to believe that with all the ways he could've handled the situation this was what he opted for.

Step by step, you get closer and closer towards Sehun until he's got his back pressed against the metal walls of the elevator. It was hard to believe that someone who looked dominant most of the time could be so cowardly. 

"I'm not asking again," You state, pressing your index finger roughly against his chest. Physically pushing him around until he's finally had enough. His large hands pressing against your shoulders as he shoves you back, regaining his confidence. Finally, he refutes, silence no longer being an option for him.

“Fuck off! Do you want an answer? Fine, but you don't have to act like such an invasive bitch about things!" 

Stunned your eyes widen. You can't tell if you should be offended or impressed with just how much you pushed him but you let him speak. Not saying anything even though he had just called you a bitch. 

"No, I didn’t just wake up one morning and decide that I’d fall in love with you! It took me countless days and nights, essentially adding up into months of thinking about nothing except you! Do you know how painful it felt for me? Do you not understand how guilty I felt?!” The tone in his voice is dangerously low as he narrows his eyes at you. It's his turn to match your attitude, fixing his posture and standing tall. 

"Oh really? So you only thought about how you felt and not how I would feel knowing about your feelings for me? Sehun, how selfish can you be? You aren't the only person on this godforsaken planet!" 

"You don't think I knew that? I know you wouldn't be happy with this but you have to understand that had I kept everything to myself and continued to hang out around you; it would've been both disrespectful to you but also incredibly torturous to me. It was worth gambling my feelings and confessing with the consequence of potentially losing a friend instead of hiding it."  

Taken aback, you feel yourself pause and you hate yourself for it. Sehun has a point, he's valid for being upfront about things but there was just one thing that didn't sit right with you. Despite wanting an answer and getting it you curse yourself for falling silent. The hypocrisy of your silence hitting you square in the face but you're not done. You still have one more thing to say.

"What about the fact that you're still dating my best friend? Did you think about how much this would hurt her? No, let me guess, I bet you haven't even mentioned anything to her," Bringing your best friend up seemed to be the major thing standing in between both of you.

Sehun stares at you like he's been frozen in time. His features completely poised and monotone as your eyes scan his face for any sign of emotion. It was still much too hard to accept his words, to trust them and understand that it came from the bottom of his heart. Your anger was now replaced with complete confusion, perhaps even denial as you scoff at him. He was crazy to think you'd ditch your best friend for a man like him.

Sehun only stood there with his shoulders pushed back, his posture relaxed. His orange tufts of hair making him look like a complete clown. His current demeanour was very different in comparison to how defensive he was earlier.

How could he be so hot and cold? None of it made sense with his face being completely unreadable, everything felt bland like a black and white movie. Sehun could scream as much as he wanted but his words would never get through, bouncing behind the screen, staying unheard from the crowd. All these things made it impossible to find the sincerity he had in his words represented in his body language. 

The elevator came to a stop with a rather loud ding notifying you that it had arrived on your floor. You take one last look at Sehun battling with yourself on whether or not someone as selfish as him was worth entangling yourself with. But no matter how you thought of it you couldn't accept him. With Sehun came consequences, ones that you weren't willing to risk getting into and that being losing your best friend. Someone who was there for you through thick and thin could never be replaced with a man you'd only known for roughly a year.

He didn't mean anything to you and he wasn't allowed to have any meaning in your life, it just wasn't okay. Betrayal had a greater impact than love, you would be foolish to accept the latter. 

Leaving him behind, you step outside of the elevator. Realizing just how much more breathable the air outside the shaft was in comparison to being back inside holed up with your worst nightmare. Your moment of freedom is cut short when you feel his lean arms wrap around your waist pulling you back inside.

He's clinging onto you like a child refusing to let go as he rests his head next to your shoulder. His hot breath brushing against your neck, making you uncomfortable for many reasons that were quite obvious. He just wasn't single nor available and you couldn't let yourself be the other girl. 

“Please just—take a chance. I'm willing to cross oceans for you, tear apart anything that stands in my way because I love you. I'll break up with her, she's nothing like you. Why can't you see that I love you?” He rambles, his voice falling soft. Sehun sounds like he's about to fall apart as he speaks into the crook of your neck. 

His voice vibrating against your skin, echoing through your mind. Despite his tone being no louder than a whisper, his message came loud and clear. Slowly his plump, soft lips make contact with your skin as you freeze in place watching as the elevator doors slam shut. Moving downwards again you feel like you're slowly descending to hell. 

His actions gave you goosebumps as he peppered kisses against your neck. Using one hand to grasp your waist, holding you close to him. While the other cupped your cheek, tilting your head slightly so he could gain better access to your body, his kisses moving down south and landing onto your shoulder. Pushing your shirt slightly aside before gently biting down on your skin causing you to gasp. 

Sehun's touch was electrifying and almost hypnotizing, you felt yourself growing dizzy and out of touch with your surrounding. As he continued using his lips to convey how much you meant to him against your screaming mind that yelled at you not to do this to your best friend. But like a fool, you melt into his touch. Lips falling apart, as your chest heaves up and down. The air feels intoxicating as he rotates your head towards him. His lips crashing against yours as you feel like you're about to pass out. 

You can't give in, you can't betray your best friend and yet, you feel yourself kissing him back. Your tongue tangling with his, exchanging dirty, secretive kisses. Turning around to face him better you fall into all the places you knew weren't right and that was right into the arms of Sehun's. Intertwining your fingers with his, holding onto him tightly as if the only chance you'd have with him would be taken away. 

Now you knew what it meant to be selfish and just how delicious it tasted. 

The elevator is filled with the lewd, smacking of the shared kisses between you both. His body grinding into yours as you feel yourself growing heavy. Developing a strong heartbeat where your filthy desires lay. You felt yourself growing wet, shifting your thighs uncomfortably together. Feeling his hand snake down towards the waistline of your skirt, tugging on them. 

"You just have to say the word and I'm dropping everything and everyone for you," He says in between kisses as you tilt your head back in pleasure when you feel his fingers slipping past your skirt. Hovering dangerously over your soaked heat. "Do you want to run away with me?" He asks. 

You want to say yes. Your body having a mind of its own would rather speak for you but you just can't bring yourself to go through with it. The image of your best friend is hung up in your mind and even though the damage has already been done, you still don't think it's too late to stop. 

“I can’t and you know I won’t,” You reply, wincing at how your voice cracks. You didn’t want to seem weak in front of him, you needed to show him you had control over how you felt. That you were sure you didn't want him but it was all a lie. A lie you told yourself and in return had the truth spoken out loud by the actions of your body. 

Sehun knew of this and yet, his peppered kisses come to a halt. The grip he's got around you loosening as his hand slips out of your skirt. You step out of his grasp feeling ashamed, not daring to look at him. Turning around and staring at the doors instead. Fixing your shirt you crane your neck from side to side trying your best to calm down. Bringing a shaky hand towards the elevator buttons and clicking for your floor. 

You can feel Sehun's gaze boring holes into the back of your head. 

"I don't understand. Why can't you just let me love you? It's not that hard to just give me a shot. I can give you the world, give you all the happiness and security you need in life."

"--Let me be the man that protects you, that cherishes you. I know it's hard because of her but...don't we deserve to be happy?" He pleads, his voice wavering. If you had turned around to face him you'd see his lips quivering. His dark, brown eyes are glossy with tears threatening to escape from the tiny apertures of his tear ducts. 

But currently, it's your turn to fall silent. All because you know that despite him falling at the seams, begging you to love him you know that he'll only go back to being the same once he's got you twirling around his dainty fingers. His norm being the same silent person as always, emotionally unavailable and confusing as always. Plus, who's to say he won't just ditch you like he's doing to your best friend? 

"It's your turn to answer me," He pleads but you ignore him. Thanking the timing of the elevator for opening right at the end of his sentence. 

Quickly stepping off you pray that he doesn't snake himself around you again because if he does, you don't know if you had the power inside to fight him off again and thankfully he doesn't. Sehun leaves you alone watching you get out of his view, the sound of your Chelsea boots clicking against the hallway floors until suddenly you're just gone. A wave of heartbreak washing over his feelings as he realizes that he just can't sit here and do nothing. 

He won't go back to your best friend, he doesn't love her and in fact, he never did. It wasn't his choice to hurt her like this but he couldn't help but fall in love with the wrong person. So he chases you, chases the love of his life eager to satisfy his selfishness and have you by his side. 

The consequence of dealing with your best friend could come later but first, he needed to convince you once and for all that he was the only good thing in his life. Your best friend was to be replaced. 

   𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐃: 𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐅𝐍𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐔©︎

#this was ass: not proofread properly. #oh sehun x reader #sehun angst #sehun x reader #oh sehun angst #oh sehun suggestive #oh sehun smut #exo angst #exo fanfic #exo x reader #i don't know tags: bye! #lmk what you think. #solange is in the mountains: queue! #sehun smut #sehun suggestive

[princess-from-another-galaxy]

hiii, i really don’t know who to go to for expressing on how i feel about lucas's scandal on here & since i saw you first on here about his scandal, i really hope you don’t mind reading on me ranting/expressing! i would appreciate it sm plsss <3

ok well firstly, i do wanna say that at first it was so hard to believe about all of these rumors, accusations or whatnot about lucas - even tho he & sm apologized about it which had me thinking that this might be true sadly :( but tbh i am having so many mixed feelings on this - confused, hurt, disappointed, sad, betrayed & many more i can't express enough!! :( </3

i've been a lumi for quite awhile now & stan him sm & i genuinely do like, adore & admire him due to his caring nature he gives to us lumis & others. lucas really do seem like a genuine person - just by interacting with him on bubble (lysn) & watching his videos & everything. he's always the type to show & give love to others & interacted with us fans so genuinely & truly. his character is just so lovely imo & after hearing his scandal, i just thought how? how is this true? that boy wouldn't even hurt a bug to be doing this? he doesn't seem like the type who would manipulate & use someone for the sake of his own pleasure. the reason i'm saying this is bc the way he interact with fans & his members, staffs etc. & their honest thoughts/opinions on him, it was all good thoughts/opinions of him. nothing negative or bad.... :/

also i do want to add & say that i do not know lucas personally nor know how he is as a person but based on my own observations from what i said above, it's really hard to even believe that lucas, who is such a soft & caring guy, would do all this to the girls :( like whuut..?

like half of me is telling me this may be true and the other half of me is saying no, this might also be fake & even if he really did do this, there has to be a reason behind it all right!? i'm really the type to believe that anyone who chooses to do such things has to have a valid reason regardless on how bad or good of a person they are. ig i'm the type to not jump into conclusions or assume right away or believe anything so easily. i always want to hear from the person directly out first & then analyze the whole situation after before coming to a final conclusion that oh, whatever they're just an a**hole. forget it but what else am i to say.. lucas apologized publicly so.. *cries*

we never really know what happened behind closed doors between lucas & those girls & knowing how strict the kpop industry is, we don’t know what orders or whatnot that kpop idols have to go thru whenever a scandal comes up

anyways, about everything.. i am truly heartbroken & devastated. also, why do i have a feeling that maybe lucas was going thru a hard time at the time & probably felt overwhelmed by everything & needed someone to comfort him?? idk for sure but let me wear his shoes..... the fact that he chose to be with these girls, who use to be a fan of him from what the scandal says, maybe he trusted them at first then things escalated into something more which probably made them all uncomfortable? IDK i do not want to come off as if i was there & knew what happened fr like I AM JUST TRYING TO PUT MYSELF IN HIS SHOES (don't come @ me pls) ;(

but then again, it's reality & that maybe all of this could be true unless they do gather more evidence & investigate further more that it's not. (which idk if it will happen..) i really do feel bad & sad for him... c-fans are wanting him out of NCT/WAYV & tbh it will never be the same without him if he does get out or leave.. it hurts to see these comments/posts that he does not belong in the group & that he deserve to rot & calling him names etc. it's painful to read it honestly.. pls stop

lastly, whatever it is that lucas is going thru rn, i hope he comes out of this dark place & take all his past experiences/mistakes & learn from it to better himself toward his future. i wish for all the good things to come to him bc i truly believe in him that he will have a better & brighter future & life ahead waiting for him. hate me or whatnot & call me stupid or delusional but i forgive lucas & his past experiences. he was just young at the time, probably lost & confused & didn't know how to control himself. i will continue to stan/support him regardless of his past that just surfaced just now. he deserves a second chance & i believe in giving ppl second chances no matter what <3 spread love, not hate. life is short to hold onto past grudges so i rather forgive & move on & forward. with love, i wish him (& ofc everyone else reading this) a stable & happy life ahead. things probably suck now but they really do get better over time. 💞

ok, that's all. thnx for reading! ❤❤❤ (brb crying, i am getting emotional all of a sudden AHHHH) :'(

Bestie, your message was so long I thought you were the one that was going to come at me lol 😅

I feel everything you said!! It's true that we don't know him, but we do have critical thinking skills, and everything the girls (and now a guy!) have been saying sound clearly fake (and many have been proven to be fake), so we have the right to be skeptical.

And personally unless an investigation proves them to be true, I don't really believe them.

Idk if you've seen the new rumor of a man claiming to be Lucas ex (saying he's bisexual and that Lucas was "proud to have lost his virginity at 13"), saying that he believes the girls. This entire story keeps becoming more and more messy, like a bad season of a tv show, and I'm not really buying any of it....

(sidenote: if he really is bisexual, I'll be really proud of him and super supportive, but if it's true it makes me so sad that he was outed like that)

Don't cry!! I'm here if you need anything!! Stay strong!! And if you need stay off the internet for your mental healths sake 💜💜

#kpop #nct #wayv #superm #lucas wong #xuxi #yukhei #sm town #sm entertainment #label v #bisexual

[blessedarethebinarybreakers]

Hi this may not be new to everyone but I was recently introduced to the concept of questioning God. I was raised with the idea that you do not question Them bc who do we think we are to question God, and to question Them is to lack faith. I'm still trying to wrap my head round this new idea so sorry if this sounds really silly and naive but why would we want to question God? And is questioning God=lack of faith? Sorry if this was messily worded

Hey there, anon! When you’ve been raised never to question God, the idea of questioning them can be kind of scary -- but hopefully you will find it to be freeing and empowering and enriching, too! 

Now, I think most Christians would ascribe to some sort of “who are we to question God?” type mindset, as you name. I think I probably do, insofar as that means I tend to understand God as omniscient; I do believe that God’s answers and God’s will are Right and Just, are Correct, and that I don’t really have any hope of “proving God wrong.” But even so, it’s not a failure of faith to question anyway! As this post will assert, questioning is a healthy and powerful part of faith. 

For in questioning God, in going on a journey of reflection and asking God what the heck is up, I will learn and grow -- I will discover what God’s will truly is, and just why it is Right and Just. And I will grow deeper in relationship with God on the way. 

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(Before expounding on all of that, I want to add that there may well be some Christians who do believe that God might could be proven wrong -- or at least that God is open to learning and changing God’s mind! Diversity of faith and interpretation is valuable and worthy of respect. 

After all, there are stories in scripture where God changes Hir mind -- Xe is convinced by Abraham not to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah if even just 10 righteous people live there; and by Moses to spare the people of Israel. 

And then there is one of my favorite stories from the life of Jesus, i.e. God Incarnate, where he seems to get schooled by a Canaanite or Syrophoenician woman. I’ve got a sermon on this very story and what it might mean about God’s relationship with us as one open to give-and-take, growth and change! 

If I’m not mistaken, a faith that makes room for the possibility of God changing God’s mind is more similar to most Jewish persons’ beliefs about God than a “God is always right. period.” type mentality. Anyway, back to the main point of this post!)

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Questioning God does not = a lack of faith. After all, countless faithful figures in scripture asked questions of God, from Moses to Habakkuk, from the psalmist to Jesus himself. See this post for examples!

In fact, many say that questioning God is actually evidence of a deep and vibrant faith. (Again, this idea is a Big Deal for our Jewish neighbors.) 

If you dare to question, if you spend time and energy pondering hard topics and you engage with God as you do so, that’s a sign that you care. That you want to know what is true about God, what is true about God’s will for us. You’re not willing to swallow lies or submit to easy answers. That’s powerful faith. As Rachel Held Evans puts it in her book Inspired,

“If I’ve learned anything from thirty-five years of doubt and belief, it’s that faith is not passive intellectual assent to a set of propositions. It’s a rough-and-tumble, no-holds-barred, all-night-long struggle, and sometimes you have to demand your blessing rather than wait around for it.”

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Now, saying all this stuff about faith probably requires a redefining of faith. If you’ve grown up being told that faith is as simple as believing in God, as not doubting God’s existence or God’s will, all of this stuff about faith being a struggle or a conversation with God or any of that doesn’t make much sense. So here are some quotes + places you can go to explore new meanings of just what faith is:

“The opposite of faith is not doubt, it’s certainty -- because what need do the certain have for faith?” - Science Mike, The Liturgists. 

"The opposite of faith is not doubt, but certainty. Certainty is missing the point entirely. Faith includes noticing the mess, the emptiness and discomfort, and letting it be there until some light returns." - Anne Lamott, Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith

It can also be helpful to understand faith not as an achievement, but as a gift -- not something we earn, but are given freely. See this post. 

The idea of faith being a journey with ups and downs, and doubt not being faith’s enemy but a healthy part of it, can be explored in this posts + the posts linked in that one.

I find Barbara Brown Taylor’s discussions of a full solar faith vs. a lunar faith in her book Learning to Walk in the Dark very helpful when discussing a relationship with God that allows us to bring Her all our questions and doubts and messy emotions. I described her idea of the perils of a full-solar faith in which we cannot question God and must act happy & thankful all the time in this older post.

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Okay. Let’s get to the part of asking questions of God that excites me the most -- using our questions as a way to enrich our relationships with God!

God longs for real, mutual relationships with us -- and that can’t happen if we are unquestioningly obedient, right? A relationship cannot be one-sided; it cannot be unbalanced; it must involve a willingness on both sides to hear the other out. It must allow for vulnerability, for confusion, for communication. 

In asking questions of God, we can grow in relationship with Them. And we will be following in a long tradition of good and faithful people who have done the same! 

Here’s a quote on how sharing our questions and frustrations with God can actually deepen our relationship with them:

"My favorite Quaker example of this willingness to confront God is a story told by a woman who was so frustrated with her life she began berating God. For nearly an hour, she told God how pissed off she was with Him. Finally, her anger subsided and she heard a “still, small voice” whisper to her: “Finally, we can have an honest relationship.”"

- Anthony Manousos

And another quote about how letting God in on our anger or frustration towards Them is an important part of being honest and connecting with Them:

“Is it ever acceptable to be angry at God? I would suggest that it is not only acceptable, it may be one of the hallmarks of a truly religious person. It puts honesty ahead of flattery.” - Harold S. Kushner

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An additional reason we would want to question God is because sometimes, what we are really questioning is whether a certain thing we have been told is actually of God is or not. Often, when we question God what we’re really questioning is the ideas of God that have been fed to us by other human beings. 

For instance, if we have been told that the Bible holds nothing but God’s direct word and will, and then find passages that seem to promote harmful things like genocide or slavery, it is right and good and human to question whether such things are actually promoted by God! 

“Accepting the Bible’s war stories without objection threatened to erase my humanity. ‘We don’t become more spiritual by becoming less human,’ Eugene Peterson said. How could I love God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength while disengaging those very faculties every time I read the Bible?” - Rachel Held Evans, Inspired

Or if we’ve been told that LGBT relationships are not God’s will, but then we see such relationships bearing good fruit while the repression of an LGBT identity bears bad fruit, it’s sensible and good to question what God’s will in this matter really is.

"If same-sex relationships are really sinful, then why do they so often produce good fruit—loving families, open homes, self-sacrifice, commitment, faithfulness, joy? And if conservative Christians are really right in their response to same-sex relationships, then why does that response often produce bad fruit—secrets, shame, depression, loneliness, broken families, and fear?" - Rachel Held Evans

For more on this element of questioning God that is more about questioning scripture or certain church teachings / leaders, see my “Framework for Interpreting Scripture” page on my website. 

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I’ll close by commending to you my #wrestling God tag. There you will see many examples of faithful people asking God questions, bringing their difficult emotions and their doubts to God, and even getting snarky with God! For instance, a post with verses expressing anger or confusion towards God.

Finally, if you dive into what it means to ask questions of God, things might get overwhelming for a while -- some people find that taking these steps causes them to feel like everything they thought they know about God has changed. If that happens to you, I’ve got a post that aims to guide you through some steps to getting to know God again. 

Best of luck to you, anon, as you continue your faith journey! Please let me know if you have any more questions as you go! 

#wrestling God #questioning God #faith tag #doubt tag #Anonymous #essays

[yuzukult]

omg okay I just finished ur jk "after midnight" fic and !!!!!!!!!!! i hope I'm not Bothering u with the mini rant that I'm about to go on my My God 😭😭

I just love the way you wrote the dynamic between jk and oc!! the doubts that the oc had of jk were so understandable and reasonable, which made me (alongside w her) sometimes doubt Jungkook's true intentions... but aside from that, I love how in the end, despite all the doubts and misunderstandings, jk was able to prove just how dedicated he was and how much he rlly cared about the reader

The way jk's admiration slowly progressed through each chapter was soooooo ???? idek what to say I'm just madly in love w the way u write.... And the fact that u were able to do all that nd convey so many emotions with less than 10k words each chapter??? witchcraft, methinks

i love love love the way jk likes oc for who she truly is. it isn't uncommon for writers to do that (obvi since its yk... romance) but I just love the way u were able to show that that at the end of the day, jk DOES like her for her and not just.... her pussy 😭😭 I feel like it would be very hard to transition from a purely sexual relationship to one of true love (at least for me, it would be), but you wrote it in such a believable way that made it seem like it is easy for people to do that, as long as they truly love each other!

ur just soooo........ I sound like a broken record but I love love love the way u write ur so talented! I hope u know that I (and everyone else tbh) truly appreciate all the effort you put into every single one of ur stories, whether they took one hour to write or 8 months, I love what you do and the way u do it!! Ahhh I'll shut up now but i hope I didn't bother u too much! Have a lovely day/afternoon/night <3

ugh don’t even ask, youre ALWAAAAYYYYSYSS invited to rant about my fics in my ask!!! ✋☹️ probably the nicest thing anyone has done equivalent to leaving comments on every fic chapter i just appreciate every time you guys leave a message for me!!

!!! i’m so glad you say that bc i am not a fan of fics where a character fucks up a lot and the love interest accepts them back with open arms :( like it’s not… realistic?? like fics are fics and generally aren’t realistic anyways but that kind of behavior should not be rewarded !!!

STAHP!!! you’re being too nice i can’t !!! i’m bad with compliments!!! LOL i honestly wanted to write like 10k per chapter but that proved to be too difficult for me evidently ☹️ but im so glad that it still got my point across enough with the wc i have!! im trying to accept that it doesn’t matter what the wc is as long you’re story is told the way you want it to be!!

:D heh you’re so lovely. i’m so glad you enjoyed it, i love nothing more than hearing people like my works as much as i had the pleasure to write it!! i write for myself, but let’s be frank, i post on a public website which means i want love on my fics from readers as well!! :( i really do appreciate you expressing this in my messages, it just warms me inside bc i made you RANT bc i got you feeling so many emotions HEH <3

#replies #fic: after midnight

[vanaera]

Hi!! I was wondering if you had any basic writing tips. I honestly NEVER through I would write anything but one day I just did casually because I loved reading fics so much and now I'm in way too deep and became way too attached to whatever I'm creating rn. I love THH and your style and you blog in general so I was just wondering if you had any basic tips to offer. ok thank you luv you Bye

Hi hon! I'm happy you enjoyed The Heart Holiday and had a great time in my blog! But I am happier that you are enjoying writing. It's going to be a wonderful adventure! 😊😊😊

I don't really know much how to make a cohesive writing advice post bc my thoughts are just scattered around when it comes to the how-to's of writing (I'm a mess, I'm sorry). However, these are some tips that really helped me to write (Idk if they're basic but these are the fundamentals I always consider when I write).

*Contains spoilers for movies Minority Report and Whiplash

Define your character's wants/needs

So you've got your character. You know how they look like. You know what are their likes and dislikes. But the wants/needs will help them become more substantial. More interesting to follow bc your readers are going to be hooked as to whether your character will be able to achieve or not their goals. A character's want is what they desire. It's usually evident at the very start of the story. Most often, it is the premise, itself. (Ex: Minority Report's John Anderton wants to prove his innocence to a future-predetermining system). Meanwhile character's need is what they have to become to fully achieve their goal. Unlike the first, this needs more unearthing in the story. The character usually don't know their needs at the start. The conflicts in the stories pushes them to realize their needs eventually (Ex: John Anderton realizes he needs to let go of his belief in pre-determined futures bc the system has great faults and they are already ruining his life). It's like this: wants = the temporary goal; needs = the real goal. And both of them project character development, for better or worse or to stay the same way despite the challenges (hello flat character arcs). The needs especially show this. This is one of the factors that make your story interesting to follow. Your readers are going to want to know how your characters are going to realize their needs, how they will change to become what they needed to be.

Define the conflict

Conflict is the one that creates the drama. It orevents your character from achieving their goals. It is the obstacles your character must overcome to reach their wants/needs. Conflicts propel the story further. It also makes it more interesting, especially when they layer upon each other (ex: Christopher Nolan's The Dark Knight). But conflicts also define characters. The decisions your character makes in face of a conflict says a lot of things about them. (Ex: In Whiplash, Andrew is faced with the decision to sue Fletcher for his extreme teaching style. Or to endure it and become the great musician Fletcher claims he can create. Andrew chooses the former but soon feels empty. When he meets Fletcher again, he gets enthusiastic and even agrees to play for him, despite knowing Fletcher's extreme methods. So in here, we see Andrew is driven by his need to be a great musician, no matter what it takes). Bc of this, your reader gets to know more about your character in a deeper level. It also helps them sympathize more with them.

Establish your story world

This is something I really want to emphasize. The story world plays a large part in defining your characters. It consists of the things that will help your character grow stronger, as well as the conflicts and limitations that will challenge your character to realize their needs. Not only that, a fleshed-out story world sucks the readers into your story (I think this is the reason why Harry Potter and Avatar: The Last Airbender are so fun to read/watch; it feels like you're going onto a vacation in another place whenever you indulge in them). This tip tho doesn't only apply to fantasy genres. Slice of life stories also need a stable story world to work on so your story can be as realistic as you want it to be (Ex: In 3 Idiots, we see how much education is greatly valued, at the same time, how much the students are letting their grades affect their lives. Much more in a prestigious unibersity for Engineering. Readers, especially those who are studying Engineering like the protagonists, will be able to empathize more with the struggles of the characters).

Lengths of sentences

This is something I'm still struggling to learn. Okay, so now you've got your story world, characters, and conflict. You now have to execute your story. Different lengths of sentences will help you that. Sentence lengths help the flow of reading. It creates the tempo and the beat of your story. If the scene is fast-paced, you can opt for shorter sentences bc it creates wuick beats. If you want your readers to stay for a while, say for example, you're describing a place, long sentences are great for defining those details. But make sure you must have a combination of both bc you may lose your reader in the story if you wrote long sentences upon long sentences. While keeping everything short will make your story sound robot-like. Chsnging it up also makes the tone of your story not monotonous. You can better keep the attention of your reader that way bc a non-stagnant flow helps in seamless reading. I tend to write long sentences before and I realized this is true when I tried reading my past works. I then learned how to change things up and then I saw how interesting and enjoying to read my stories now have become.

Find your own style

This is a lesson I learned the hard way. When I was just beginning to write, I followed the footsteps of a lot of reknowned writers. Only to end up writing in a way I'm not happy about. End up writing something that doesn't feel truly myself. I made a lot of mistakes until I learned that no matter how many people say "don't write this way, but this way," or how much you get pressured with thoughts like "Oh, I have to write this way bc this is the trend, this is what most readers will like," nothing feels better but to write how YOU want to write. It's your story. How to write it should be totally up to you, because no one will be able to write your story, but only you. Find and do your own style. It may not feel rewarding sometimes. But trust me on this, there are people who will like what you and how you write and they are going to look for you and anticipate your upcoming works. You know why? Because only you can write that story/that way. So don't lose hope, and just keep writing.

These are just some I follow to help me write my stories more effectively. If you wanna learn more, you can search the tag #writing tips in my blog. I reblog writing advices and encouragement posts for writers there.

Also go to amazing blogs like @theliteraryarchitect and @yourlocalwriterblog . They give the most helpful advices here when it comes to writing in general- writing, editing, publishing, and even screenplays, you name it.

You can also go to nerdwriter1, justwrite, and Lessons From The Screenplay on YouTube. These channels have helped me a lot in writing my stories. Though they usually talk about films and screenplays, their tips are very hepful in writing in general. I always go to them whenever I feel lost and need guidance in writing some certain parts.

Sorry this got so long. I just lobe love writing so much, I don't know how to shut up about it. I hope I was able to help you, hon. Good luck in your writing and if you finally posted it and want me to see it, just feel free to hit me up 😊😊😊

#aers blushes #the heart holiday feedback #the heart holiday #reviews #writing tips #aera writes #sorry for the typos #and how this may look messy #i tried my best hehe #aera gives tips #this is my first time writing a writing tip #and my brain is fried #im still trying to learn how to group these tips in cohesive topics #bc srsly im planning to write How To Bullshit Your Papers 102 #101* #for college graduates #cus I wanna also share the tips that heloped me in writing papers #I have no clue to nail at all #or even finish for that matter lmao

[sometimesrosy]

I just found out that there would be no Spacekru flashbacks in season 6 and I'm quite bummed. Not that I like BE (I don't) but it would have been cool to understand how they went from Bellamy trying to kill her to "we found each other in a cage". It's hard to get invested in a ship with little to no development, even more so when you already ship BC. I don't know if it's a deliberate choice and we're not supposed to care about BE or they had to cut those scenes for budget reasons but it sucks.

We found that out months ago. The no spacekru flashbacks. So this doesn’t count as a spoiler.

It doesn’t bother me at all. Why you guys think we’re supposed to be invested in a relationship that the narrative has spent no time on is beyond me.

I have heard so many people say JR FAILED to get us invested in B/E, as if that was some sort of ERROR or accident, when he commits ALL this screen time to Bellarke and the Bellarke reunion and the Blake siblings, and their falling out, and then y’all are like, but he wants us to be invested in B/E so he failed to do that.

And I’m just like.

WHERE?

Where does he want us to be invested? In that intro to B/E contrasted with 30 minutes of Clarke suffering alone and LONGING for Bellamy to come back, and then 1 minute of b/e and Echo immediately questioning if they were going to last on the ground?

Or was it their love scene, which was, honestly, HALF a love scene, with a direct fade to CLARKE, again feeling alone and wanting to leave. And THEN we see her grief and sadness at seeing them together before E leaves and they team up again to save Madi and everyone?

Oh was our supposed investment in B/E supposed to happen when they separated and he barely mentioned her again more than as family and a dependable spy??? 

I suppose our investment was supposed to come when Bellamy poisoned his sister after she mocked him for loving both Clarke and Echo? Even though he didn’t mention saving Echo, only saving Clarke when he did it.

Is our investment supposed to come when Echo confronts Clarke about not caring for Bellamy, Clarke says she always cared, and then the back from the dead L tells her not to sacrifice her true love the way she did, and Clarke immediately gives up her antagonism, and basically GIVES Bellamy to Echo telling her to go save him. Something I just noticed? Lxa might very well have betrayed Clarke because Bellamy WAS in the mountain, and he DID do what he promised and PROVED himself to be a hero and worthy of her care and trust, and was IMPLIED to be part of the reason why Clarke rejected lxa in her overtures. AKA, Lxa might have taken her enemy’s offer because she was freaking jealous of Bellamy, while Clarke, relinquishes her hold on Bellamy because she loves him more than she believe she deserves his love. She’d rather have him alive and victorious in the arms of someone else. Oh but you know, that Clarke and Echo’s moment about Bellamy opens up much wider and reflects upon all sorts of narrative points really means that ITS ABOUT B/E and that’s who they want us to care about.

Maybe our investment was supposed to come when they reunited, awkwardly in the rover with octavia? Or with the hug that was pretty close to how he hugged Harper? So romantic! So touching! What a connection— not. 

Oh our investment should be when the three of them finally interact, and Clarke looks at him with heart eyes for saving Eligius, and he looks guiltily at Echo as if he’s done something wrong. That’s definitely a sign that B/E is endgame. When just existing with his soulmate makes him feel like he’s cheating although he’s done NOTHING wrong. 

There is actually NO EVIDENCE that the writers want us to be invested in B/E. I think you’re making that up. I think you’re listening to antis, who don’t care what happens in the story, because all they care about is that Bellarke is blocked and their ship is alive. They never seem to notice if it is being built up as strong and endgame in the narrative, if they make the characters better, or what/who the narrative is about.

If you are taking evidence from people who think the hero is NOT Clarke and/or Bellamy, then you are taking evidence from people who are misreading the canon. CAN you imagine a story from Echo or Lxa’s pov? You sure can. Is that the story being told on screen? It sure isn’t.

They are telling the story of Clarke, of Bellamy and of BELLARKE. Also of the Blake siblings. And there is not one b/e scene that is not ALSO telling the story of Bellarke or the Blake siblings. OR is completely a spacekru scene and depicts them as family. ALL romantic scenes between B/E are Blake or Bellarke related.

HOWEVER. Not all Blake or Bellarke scenes have a thing to do with B/E. In fact, almost none of the Bellarke scenes have to do with B/E and about idk 10% of the Blake scenes have to do with B/E. 

What part of that tells you that JR wants us to be invested in B/E? 

WHY do you think they’re just failing to get you invested, instead of setting B/E up as a conflict for the MAIN relationships of Bellarke and the Blakes? I mean. She is LITERALLY the character that is in the way of both of Bellamy’s most meaningful relationships?

I don’t understand why you think it’s NOT a deliberate choice when it’s actually in the damn dialogue as well as the narrative and cinematography and editing. How many people do you think are ACCIDENTALLY focusing on Clarke and Octavia INSTEAD of B/E? 

Here’s what I think is the problem. Fandom tells us that shippers understand the story better than the professionals writing the story and the writers are “doing it wrong,” because it doesn’t conform to our theories, headcanons and fanon. Fandom has convinced us that fandom’s hot takes are more true than canon. Canon tells you Bellarke is the center of the story. But shippers tell you B/E is. 

Dude. The shippers are wrong. 

This story is ABOUT Bellarke, not B/E. We saw 30 minutes of Clarke alone and NO minutes of B/E development because the story is about Clarke being separated from everyone ESPECIALLY Bellamy. And the season was about reuniting Bellarke, not being invested in b/e.

They HAD time. If thy wanted to invest us in B/E they had 30 minutes of a dead girl’s story to erase. If it was about how much Bellamy had grown to love Echo instead of how Clarke was lonely and lost and talking to Bellamy every day, WE WOULD HAVE SEEN B/E. We did not. 

Because THAT IS NOT THE STORY.

Sorry if I’m ranting. I’ve heard this from the beginning of s5. “If he wants us to be invested in  B/E and Echo he failed.” Somehow people translate this into “He wants us to love B/E and he failed, he’s a bad writer,” instead of the other possibility in that statement. “He DIDN’T want us to be invested in B/E and Echo and he succeeded.” 

Like, y’all would rather believe that the people who wrote this story/characters you love are completely incompetent rather than them telling a different story than your first impression led you to believe. 

#the 100 #c/b/e #bellarke #b/e #love triangle #romantic obstacle #the blakes #jr didn't fail to get you invested you took the wrong intention from the story #stop saying he wants you invested. he OBVIOUSLY does not. it's ABOUT bellarke and the blakes

[thelazyeye]

"Shipping in whatever form it exists usually has nothing to do with gay coding and everything to do with wanting characters to get together, thinking they’re nice together" erm, I think it veers dangerously into fetishizing fujoshi behavior to prefer shipping the two explicitly straight white boys because they're cute together or whatever and leave the actual coded queer character or canon queer character aside. I've been guilty of the same thing so hopefully it doesn't sound like I'm coming at-

you, but I do think it's worth examining that most antis tend to ship Richie with every other straight boy (or Mike), even disturbing ones like Georgie and Patrick or Henry, except Eddie and rarely ever care about shipping Eddie, the second closest thing we have to LGBT rep, with others. Imo, it says that the fandom doesn't care about mlm representation or the possibility of a mlm relationship becoming canon, it just wants cute boys to make out with their preferred character

Dude I genuinely have no idea how this relates to what we were talking about. Who said I’m only shipping boys? Who said I’m fetishizing MLM? How did that even come up? I also have no idea why you’re bringing race into this. Is this because of the white twinks comment? Because they’re literally white. I have tons of Mike ships (and Stan BC lets not forget Judaism is an ethnicity I know I made a joke about stan being a white twink in the last ask I STG if you bring that up I’m going to smash my head into the keyboard). Its not my fault they’re the only POC in canon. Also, I’m not an anti? How many times do I have to say that. I write primarily for reddie. 90% of my fics/drabbles are Reddie. I’m not anti Reddie. I’m not anti shipping Eddie with other characters. I’m not anti Eddie at all. I have said over and over again that I 100% support Eddie’s queer coding and that that is astounding evidence for Reddie in all forms of IT (novel, 1990, and 2017). 

And I stand by my statement! Shipping in whatever form it exists usually has nothing to do with gay coding and everything to do with wanting characters to get together, thinking they’re nice together! I was not exclusively talking about shipping boys! I mean everyone! Shipping in whatever form has to do with wanting characters to date! I ship Benverly so hard! I ship Emery from that shitty MTV Scream show! I ship Jade and Rose from Homestuck! I ship those two lesbian gems from SU! I ship Harvey and Sabrina from CAOS! I ship Bev and Richie! Sometimes shipping has literally nothing to do with queer coding and everything to do with “Hmmm this is a nice concept.” 

And I’m sorry to be the one to break this to you, but Reddie will never be truly canon. The book is written, the movie isn’t going to put them together. Its just not gonna happen. Reddie is coded within the story but its not true canon and its never going to be. This whole “discussion” has nothing to do with canon and everything to do with “I want these characters to make out” I’m allowed to have a favorite character and want them to make out with another character. Even if it isn’t canon.  

For the last fucking time, we were talking about radical shippers. Not the fucking ship itself. 

Also. I’m gonna say this right here and right now. You are doing exactly what that post I reblogged talked about. I talked about my love for other ships and you came into my inbox to fight with me about it and then shove Reddie down my throat with “canon bullshit” and then straight up just told me I’m veering close to fetishizing MLM by ignoring a queer coded relationship by even looking at anything other than Reddie. Buddy. You literally proved the other post right.

#discourse #Anonymous #Em Answers