#BUNKSUN

[bunksun]

Can't post to twitter again

You can't opt-out, and there's no excuse for you to break the law or hurt people. If anything, that's what you should take away from this. Life is a commitment. Instead of imposing yourself on others, ask yourself if you're making everyone feel welcome. 

If you don't have sympathy for me I wouldn't believe that and it would be senseless. You don't have a right to use me to validate bad people. I don't accept your messed up priorities. Somebody needs to put themselves out there in a good way.

#aaronboy100 #bunksun #savedbythegirl

[bunksun]

#instagram #social justice #human rights #kimbra #savedbythegirl #bunksun

[bunksun]

Not a “Sympathizer”

I don’t know how else to say this - this is actually about movies, but let me get to the real point and say that I’m not fascist, I’m not racist - if I what I say sounds extreme, it’s because of how our government and systems/institutions in the wrong hands have oppressed us. Believe it or not, it’s a lot of responsibility to do the right thing for so many people - and behind every entity there are people making choices, and some people don’t know right from wrong, some people ignore it, some people just can’t handle the responsibility.

I am so upset about the terrorism that’s been happening around the globe. I feel personally implicated which is unavoidable. I’m not sure if they have my intelligence, if they’re responsible for what’s happening to me, or what exactly is going on. It’s extremely disturbing - I’m not even capable of processing the technicalities. I hope you can understand and will advocate for peace and equality. Prejudice is the source of all violence. People are only human and you can’t keep asking them to leave, nobody’s going to just go away, just because we can’t see everyone, doesn’t mean there aren’t people all over the world living successes and tragedies alike. Life lasts a lifetime! Everyone is valuable. Not just foreigners, but gay people and people of different skin colors and people of different haircuts, just around the corner in America. It’s a cliché for a reason, you can’t let go of those golden rules. 

What I actually made this post for was to say I can’t sympathize with these references made to me in films, and I’m still really concerned about this “trend” and just an FYI I think it’s totally inappropriate and unacceptable and I won’t want to laugh about it or normalize it, it’s probably not going to be something that I would ever accept. I hope it goes away forever. I hope people apologize to me. I hope that we see better films and shows. (I hope they quit.) This kind of parallels the entire contradiction of offending people you respect; because I’m dealing with so much of a burden - it’s actually a betrayal to myself to do what’s best for me. That shouldn’t ever be true. I don’t even know these people. That doesn’t mean my human rights shouldn’t translate. And binge-watching a stupid movie would probably not change my life so how rude and what a waste of effort!

P.S. I think I’m being held hostage by the federal government, probably like the FBI or military intelligence, honestly. But that doesn’t explain why Yahoo, Apple, Spotify and all of these random businesses know who I am. I don’t know why anyone would have agreed to this and I’m not going to be able to work this out with Zach or my friends if they are just expecting me to shoulder the weight of this violence my entire life. That just wouldn’t be possible. It’s honestly like I was taken by ISIS and my friends just let me go because I was depressed. They were like: “makes sense.” Why would they have this technology though? Trans right are human rights. Oh, okay. I’ve just been pitted against myself and society this entire time, I have no idea why anyone would think this was going to be a personal experience. I have standards, I have no idea how this is happening or why it exists. This is the kind of trash logic that shouldn’t be happening. Nobody should have this power over another human being. I just don’t understand anyone’s choices but I’m not overseas and I’ve been advocating for myself this entire time.

I mean, I don’t think that the U.S. military should even exist anymore, at least not be deployed anymore, and maybe that’s where this is headed. I can’t say it’s not justified but it’s also kind of like murder. I’m a socialist and a pacifist and I still think that we’re really far away from any ideal that would make sense. Or that’s what they’re constantly saying. So here’s the worst-case-scenario: (or maybe even the 2nd worst) I think that basically dumb men in power are just gravitating towards what’s more accessible because they’re uneducated and sex criminals - so, like, they don’t care about long-term solutions. We need to do these things because we’re good people and things should be easier for us. What if they’re making it look like things are changing but it’s just moving money around? That’s messed up. It might not actually be Donald Trump, but he should still go to prison forever. I don’t know, somebody cares about trans rights. And... I’m still not a prostitute. And... that’s not even fair or relevant.

The logic is that if things will be hard, then, when I’m struggling, I could say - but I’ve known it to be worse - but it’s getting so bad that I don’t feel like I can still cope effectively, and that’s really scary, and I’m trying to defend myself and keep people informed, instead of kill myself, so fuck off.

Trump should be impeached because the entire government and law enforcement is corrupt and needs dramatic (real, immediate, noticeable and effective) improvement. No one should have to run against a nazi sympathizer and a criminal. They’re lazy perverts. They’re criminals and we can’t trust them to educate anyone, ever, because they’re setting a bad example. This should be in the history books as a tragedy, not impenetrable fact. Prejudice, discrimination and crime is a crime and is BAD.

I still think my identity should be taking precedent over everything but somehow it’s not and that just doesn’t make sense. I know I’m being discriminated against. That’s the problem. Why aren’t people advocating for me? I also still feel ignored and like people are misrepresenting me and there’s nothing wrong with feeling that way. I don’t see how comparing this to anything else is helpful. I’m just going to start to panic again. I just need to know it’s going to be over.

#impeach trump #social justice #queer activism #human rights #bunksun #savedbythegirl #trans lives matter #gay wicca #boy witch

[bunksun]

I can't wait to do art again because I can barely draw anymore. I'm like, really good at drawing.

#bunksun

[bunksun]

Questions About Zach

Why would I want someone I liked to hate me? So by extension why don’t I have any information other than random details I disagree with?

Everything I know about him lately is offensive.

He’s so fake. Like, I’m supposed to have no idea who he is? No - it’s too late for that, I was a kid once. No, he chose this and he’s a liar.

Is he getting protected or something? And is he even gay? (Sorry, Miles.)

Why/has he been stalking me? Is this true?

I can’t protect him, he has to do the right thing. I don’t want to be with a rapist. If he loved me he wouldn’t be in trouble.

I already love him but this feels like a trap. It’s not like it’s up to me to follow him into oblivion, he needs to say something I want to hear. He can’t expect me to commit when I’m uncomfortable and scared. That’s not my personality, it’s not like that’s a consenting relationship.

I feel like I could say anything at this point, it’s just recognition for him. I don’t know if there’s any point to the choices he’s making, he’s just a cheater.

I haven’t even had a boyfriend before, how could he be this disgusting.

I liked him for reasons that weren’t misogynist-related??? So it’s like he’s punishing me by publicly disrespecting me and he wants it to look sexist but I’m trans and I’m too young to consent to some kind of weird relationship. I have no idea what he’s implying. If it wasn’t weird then it wouldn’t be weird. The other thing is that coincidence or not, doesn’t he kind of owe me and everyone an apology? Why is he making an exception of himself for everything while I’m struggling? He’s totally separating himself from me - there’s no evidence that he cares but I have nothing else to believe. I think he’s making a selfish decision to exploit me because he’s confused and alone. I don’t respect his choice to use a kid for “connections,” like, the guy looks like a fucking scum bag.

Chloe is an idiot and not only was that movie offensive and awful she should quit because she doesn’t even have an education and she doesn’t represent any real human being or feminism. I don’t know what this has to do with Zach at all unless these other movies/shows are about me too and that just sucks butt and shouldn’t of happened and needs to be addressed. I never would have heard about either of them. They are the worst activists in the universe. That shit sucks if these people can’t even be accountable to their work and answer simple questions. These people are creeps, what the hell. I doubt they’re Christian unless they’re homophobic fakes, and in that case they should go to prison and I’m not obligated to associate with them once they explain their theft. Like are they just getting off on this? No, that’s not allowed. Stop feeling sorry for yourselves. You’re not even a real person, just quit. Jesus Christ.

I guess they didn’t know if/what I would see of these productions, but give me a break, this is so fucked up, I’m not sure why I had to be subjected to this and nobody else really gets it.

I’m not obsessed with old people, I just like Zach and I’ve liked him since middle school, and it’s only okay because my parents were horrible people and I’m trans AND gay AND an artist AND a writer.

I will talk to Zach about everything but if he’s weird then I will feed him to a black bear. I’m literally not weird and if Zach keeps being complicated and arrogant I’m going to barf because it’s not right.

This is just really gross and a desperate situation. I don’t know what you know that made you think this was okay but you should have told me so I felt like this was going somewhere. I’m not a criminal. There was no incentive for me to live like this at all, it’s been completely degrading and dehumanizing and that’s your fault. Why? I didn’t deserve this and I’m not an idiot. I don’t want to live with constant neglect, ignorance and mistreatment. You don’t even know who I am, I have a lot of goals, I don’t want to turn my brain off and throw my life away.

Like, I don’t understand it enough to defend myself? Is that really safe? I’m not stupid.

#bunksun #activism #social justice #human rights #savedbythegirl

[bunksun]

Am Out Of The Closet

I can’t continue punching empty air. I’ve fought so many dead-end arguments/battles in these situation where I’m cornered by someone who is just relentlessly hurting me and avoiding my reality. That is narcissism and it’s actually so pathological it makes your existence criminal. If you want to get better, that’s fine, but you shouldn’t be a familiar face or an authority to anyone. I guarantee you’re not welcome in those situations where people feel helpless. I guarantee it’s actually totally unnecessary for you to have control over other people for any reason.

I’m not working for your future after you’ve betrayed me. This is not all that I am! That being said, words are important. If you don’t know how to do the right thing, you should be listening to what other people have to say about it. We don’t have rules, this is America. If you’re breaking the rules you’re literally just a sociopath. 

#activism #equality #social justice #human rights #bunksun #savedbythegirl

[bunksun]

I don’t know why every blog I followed would harass me. I don’t know why everyone is sexually harassing me. You might have people in your lives that you’re angry at, but my life is my own and I don’t want to fix them or take responsibility for your laziness. You did something wrong and you need to take responsibility for yourself. I can’t discuss the dismal emotional support I’ve had - not because it’s a dependency issue, but because it’s actually just an opportunity for me to talk to myself about what I’m going through and it’s the only “private” sphere of living I have and that doesn’t really exist either. I think it’s gross that you want me to kill myself; this stalking is unacceptable and no matter what you committed a violent crime against me and this is not an opportunity for you to discriminate just because I’ve judged your choices like I had to. I should have been able to call the police and they should have handled it but they were already informed and they’re making it impossible for me to report anything that happens to me, that doesn’t mean that they are doing the right thing. Everyone around me, every professional entity or public figure seems to be harassing me and they have no choice but to take responsibility for their crimes because we have to move forward as a human race that I’m a part of. Blaming them does not compensate for their guilt and they know that and I expect them to make necessary changes, apologize to me, everything. Some I will take to court and hopefully some will quit and not be seen again. (And I still might take them to court.)

#activism #trans lives matter #gender is real #feminism exists #bunksun #savedbythegirl #human rights #social justice #black lives matter

[bunksun]

I’m an artist, not PR for gross public entities that want to be ignorant of rape and patriarchy. 

#human rights #bunksun #saved by the girl

[bunksun]

This kind of writing is not the activism that I’m capable of, it doesn’t represent me as a person, it’s about self defense. Nobody understands this- This is traumatic. I’m not going to discuss what I’m going through like it’s a community event. These people are guilty of stalking. They are stalkers. I’m not advocating for the rights of my abusers.

I never consented to this. This is an invasion of privacy. I want my life back. 

#human rights #bunksun #saved by the girl

[bunksun]

They're forcing me to make a scene of myself. This isn't even who I am. I'm sick of being desperate. This is insane. I don't want to live with a bunch of perverts, why will no one help me.I'm just a kid, 3 years of my life have been lost to human torture. Why would they do this to me? I've never hurt anybody. I'm an innocent person. I want the stalking and harassment to stop.

I can’t even comment on Instagram anymore. It’s like they have a comments-limit for me. Even these websites and businesses, they are sexually harassing me by changing the rules and stuff, they’re trying to molest me with these weird limitations like I’m supposed to feel like I’m less than human or something as if getting off is going to help me at all. I don’t want to live like this. I’m a good person, I’ve never done anything wrong. This is insane abuse of an innocent person. My face would never be recognized as a criminal’s. They are trying to force me to live in purgatory. All of these people are disgusted with me for no reason. I’m a great person and a great artist. They have to take responsibility for their crimes. There is nothing else I can do with my life besides being an activist. I can’t live with this on my conscience.

I want my blog back, that writing can’t be replaced. It’s the only thoughtful record of my thoughts and feelings that exists over the last year. I’ve tried to draw and journal but it wasn’t even possible, I can’t even read. I was living in absolute filth. Self harm is a threat every day and everyone is harassing me because they refuse to help me just because I’m speaking out and they can’t believe I’m still alive. They think it’s fake, even after everything I’ve written and accomplished through advocacy. I don’t have anywhere else to stay, I was in a homeless shelter and I was being abused, it’s literally so important to me (the blog), it’s everything about me and what I’ve learned and the essential things I’ve had to say. I should be able to call the cops. This town is disgusting. I can think of more than a few people who should be in prison. 

#tumblr #instagram #activism #bunksun #savedbythegirl #human rights #social justice

[bunksun]

#pinterest #aesthetic #pride #trans lives matter #art