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inkskinned · 1 year

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i had a dream last night that i had been born the right way, that i had no trouble listening and made friends easily and straightened my hair and dated only ben from highschool until i got married to him. that our ring was gold even though silver is my color and i don't support diamonds

i had a dream that i hadn't ever been ugly or weird, that we'd had enough money to actually afford the clothes everyone was wearing and in eighth grade i actually twisted my ankle in ugg boots. that all my memories were now diagonally drawn across the river i should have been raised from -

we walked down boston in the chill and i kept talking about how lucky i was to have a wonderful husband and how my father's love poured over our relationship in evergreen gin - i swear sometimes i think he prefers ben - and all the girls that bullied me were now my beautiful friends with husbands and lives of their own, spun out in gold and rhinestones

i had a dream that i hadn't been made wrong, that god had treated me gently, that the hole that opened in me hadn't seeped into everything, staining all of my fingers in chaos and lightning. i had a dream i didn't know secrets about sharp things or how deep the hole goes or how hard someone can hit rock bottom, the snap of the bone.

i had a dream i kept twisting the ring and turning to my oldest friend, who was frowning. barely looking at me. i had a dream i got straight a's and went to a different college but it meant we lost touch after it. she wasn't the same here - strange, unloving, chilly. something is wrong, i kept saying. we were just out for boba tea. my hair was long and pretty and i'd never dyed it enough to turn it frizzy. something is wrong and i think it's with me.

in this world, i still went to church. in this world, i had never been abandoned. in this world, i had never disappointed my parents. in this world, neither she nor i ever kissed girls and meant it. she hadn't met her wife. in this world, nothing ever needed fixing. i didn't ruin things compulsively.

is it worth it? she said, watching me. is it worth it, everything that's missing?

#i don't know what this is #i woke up like #????????#bc im like #yeah kind of #but also no #but also YEAH KIND OF ???#but also... ben ????????????????????????????? my dream said #'' it would have been BEN' ??????????????????????????#the most comp het person i could FIND?#ew!!!!!!!!!!!!#no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

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acourtofwhatthefuck · 6 months

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Imagine if I!!! Spent as much time writing as I spend choosing a font to write in!!! Imagine that!!!

#but also no #the font is important #writing #jasmine is blabbering

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belltaviasbff · 1 year

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gale vs katniss (0-1)

#if you know you know #😭😭😭#apologise in advance #but also no #im laughing #thg #hunger games #the hunger games #everlark #katniss #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #gale hawthorne #everthorne #memes #funny #textposts

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hawkeykirsah · 4 months

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Okay.

I think my Matchmaker Goose AU is DONE.

It just needs a) probably a beta and b) a good edit and c) a title though I have an option or two for that BUT the first complete draft is finished.

#icemav #matchmaker goose au #top gun #fanfiction #I don't quite know what to do with myself rn #I mean /yes/ I could probably start editing #but also NO

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y-rhywbeth2 · 4 months

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Got the "was I sweet once" line for this playthrough. While it doesn't really hit me the way it apparently landed for others, it did remind me of something!

This isn't the full thing, but it's snippets of a prophecy you get in BG2:ToB regarding the Bhaalspawn, which had some... interesting lines:

"Armies march and cities burn; The rivers froth with tainted blood. The corpses of those born not innocent Feed the inferno of boiling hate." [...] "The Children of Bhaal bring death to the land, They slaughter each other and feed their father. Death and betrayal walk together; A river of tainted blood doth not cleanse."

There we go, in the words of fate itself; all Bhaalspawn are born damned and tainted and do not cleanse. No sweetness for you.

Which... yeah, with maybe one or two exceptions (literally one or two) they're all spending eternity in a hell dimension right now. Even if they held barely a scrap of Bhaal's essence causing them to possess practically no urges, hurt nobody and lived lives of utter virtue? Hell.

Durge is born damned, save for perhaps if Jergal feels like breaking divine cosmology for them (or more likely for himself and his millennia old schemes what are up to this time, old man??). The universe is charming, really.

#“Was I sweet once?” Maybe #But also no #If anybody's still holding out over here for not Dark Urge content I promise I remember the lore project; but I am too blegh to focus on it #right now #bg2 spoilers #durge #babbling

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shen-shixiong · 10 months

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Shen Yuan and Bingjie <3

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wibblyowzah · 17 days

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I need a new ship in my life like Villaneve, Clexa or Siuaraine, something that will ruin my sanity once again

#i need a new ship to hyper fixate on #but also no #i don’t because then they literally consume all my thoughts #lmao #clexa #siuaraine #villaneve

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starrynightsxo · 2 months

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""Perhaps you could just allow yourself to be rescued," Cardan says. "For once.""

- Cardan Greenbriar, The Queen of Nothing

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musicfeedsmysoul12 · 2 years

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ShinDeku Soulmate AU with Writing on Oneself Appearing on the other person ?

You know Deku’s Quirkless right?

The words appeared on Hitoshi’s skin and he frowned at them. His grandma caught him staring, clearing her throat.

“Hitoshi?” Chiyo asked her grandson.

“My soulmate wrote this to me,” Hitoshi offered his arm. “But it doesn’t look like him.” Chiyo took his arm and studied it before a scowl overtook her face.

“That’s not your soulmate then, that’s a nasty bully.” Chiyo told her grandson. Hitoshi scowled. “Your soulmate is Quirkless, most likely, and they’re being very cruel.”

“Oh.” Hitoshi huffed and grabbed a marker. He began writing.

-0-

Izuku whimpered as Kacchan forced his head up, making him look at his arm as the other kids laughed. They all were betting on if Izuku’s soulmate would say he never wanted to see Izuku or would just not reply.

“Look! He’s writing!” Cackled one of the guys and Izuku closed his eyes but they were forced open, making him look.

Says the bully writing this. If you forced this on him your breaking the Soulmate Protection law. So guess what? You’re a villain breaking a law!

Izuku’s mouth dropped open as the group all gasped, taking steps back. He… he never thought of that. Kacchan was breaking a law doing this!

“What the fuck?!” Kacchan demanded, letting god of Izuku. Never one to waste an opportunity Izuku ran as fast as he could. He heard Kacchan shout about getting him again but other kids were refusing.

Izuku glanced at his arm, and a warmth filled him.

I don’t care he’s Quirkless so leave him alone!

He liked his soulmate. He liked them a lot.

#bnha #bnha au #shindeku #shinsou hitoshi #midoriya izuku #soulmate friday #let's be real #this would happen #but also no #bakugou isn't a villain #it's a scare tactic

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significant-ace-nnoyance · 2 years

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how do the duffers SLEEP at night knowing they are successfully straightbaiting millions of homophobes

#like personally i would not be able to NOT immediately brag to everyone in my vicinity its just TOO COOL #it must be SO FUNNY to them though when they see the actors avoid questions in interviews #or make everything as obvious as possible without giving it away and the ga still does NOT get it #like RIP to yall the cast and duffers are prob laughing their asses off at you #oh to be a cishet white man in positions of power #but also no #good for them though ig even if they have destroyed my mental stability with their gay shenanigans #byler #byler endgame #straightbait

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azhamdrety · 8 months

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