#BUT ANYWAY. THAT'S MY OC RAMBLINGS FOR THE NIGHT.

[corntort]

doodles from last night before my migraine killed me instantly

paste belongs to @roposhipin and snowdrift yall already know belings to @icedcheetah

#THERES A MOURNING DOVE RIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW HIIII <3 #i think thats a mourning dove its call sounds a little different from the ooohooo hoooo hoooo hoooo hoooo #totally derailed from my thoughts i heard the call and went HIE OMG! #miiirart #doodle #stej #other ocs #vegas (my oc) #thea (my oc) #anyway i had found out literally only last night abt paste's existence and one look at him i was like ohhhhhh #him and acton sharing a similar space in my brain. acton my number 1 forever but theyre both so wet napkin #and both fucked up Big Time #both scrawny and white. paste literally so. you get me #<- the tags i was Going to ramble before totally derailed by pretty birdsong

[employee052]

me in the day thinking abt tsp: hehe funny british man get mad n pissy, buckets and average man

me at 2am: narry do you ever wonder if my worries of designing you in an original way are, in a sense, dramatic irony when considering the fact that its very much related to the topics of ultra deluxe, where both of us got stuck in the cycle of feeling anxious over changing ourselves for the sake of pleasing others and of fear of driving them away, only to realise that in giving external reviews of our art power and desperately trying to appeal to all of them do we end up losing the original joy of the art? do you think its fucked up how through this experience, ive ended up with a skip button ending of my own where ive been forcing myself to make the content i think others would love instead of the ones i love personally. would a redesign even feel fitting? should i forgo the whole originality aspect and just let you be yourself, like how i should let myself make the art i want to make, and let you speak and be heard rather than skipped over?

the narrator, tired: For fucks sake, go tO BED-

#ozzy vent #(??? kinda?) #these have been my thoughts recently abt my narrys design #truth be told i have so many ideas for tsp thst i never do bc it never seems to get a lot of notes #i have since been working to distance from depending on likes and reblogs but its hard sjfjsjf #i love my narry i love my virgil my old man #but by god this is the first design/oc/interpretation of a character thats grown alongside me #however with the new year i hope to work on healing this weird state i am with tsp #i love it dearly #the game the community (though at times things get rough) and the characters themselves #but next year i want to make the tsp content i wanted to make this year #ill be replaying the game more n trying to form my own thoughts on certain endings and aspects #and... ill be enjoying it hopefully #not worrying about trends or overarching rp n stories #but on the stuff that makes me happy #anyways sorry for the lack of posts recently ajdjjaf #ill be back soon i hope #in the meantime it is now 3am #ozzies tsp rambles #good night

[ashendalia]

Come to think of it, I'm really only selfshipping with one character

The rest are really just OC x Canon ships that I love figuring out details and lore for and care very much about both

#fate rambles #friend post last night about their own thoughts made me think about my own and yeah #i do need to make a new carrd soon anyways #but this really is just my fuck all main blog and i just happen to like fictional characters and oc x canon shipping a bunch

[finelyageddragons]

Currently in love with the relationship between the Grey Wardens and being doomed by the narrative, especially with how the HOF subverts that relationship so here's a 3am rant about it. Enjoy! The wardens are ghosts. They are born by letting go of everything you had before and drinking poison to bind your fate to the darkspawn and promise that your life and perhaps more importantly, your death belongs to them. The whole joining is a terrifying experience, you're drinking the blood of monsters and seeing a corrupt god in your mind and waking up to see those who died around you and being told you'll meet the same fate soon enough you've just been given more time to get there because to sacrifice, to die is a warden's purpose. Even if you survive becoming a warden, your best case scenario is sacrificing yourself to end the blight but it's far more likely you'll die fighting darkspawn or even more likely lose your mind and have to go to the deep roads to be lost and have your death be your last act of defiance in the face of this overwhelming wave of evil waiting to rise again. The best thing that can happen to a warden is to die in a meaningful way because you gave away your life the moment you drank that blood. All you are now is a soldier waiting to die in war and hopefully take the enemy down with you. It is tragic and haunting and noble and so full of grief. Grief for the live you gave behind and for the one you'll never have. Every warden spends every day of their life hoping not for a future or any life for themselves but simply to make their death mean something which is an incredibly interesting mental state and I could go on about how that effects individuals and messes with their values so that corruption is rife but what started this whole thing is Fereldan.

A wonderful post by @sapphim (which I don't know how to cite but I wanna give credit so if there's a way please tell me) discussed how beneficial it was for the wardens that the fifth blight occured in Fereldan and how much they lost by it being solved so soon. To put it simply, they wanted to sacrifice Fereldan as a lost cause and use it as an example of why they wardens shouldn't be neglected. They wanted it to be known of how much of a sacrifice they make an how important their duty by letting the country of Fereldan be an example of what happens when no one is there to do it and that the narrative has doomed everyone, that the world's crimes will be paid for unless someone is willing to be selfless and bear the burden to give the world another chance. Andraste would have been a great warden I'm sure. In the eyes of the warden, Fereldan is tainted just like their blood, it is promised to the darkspawn just like they are, willingly or not it bears the duty that all wardens do and must make the sacrifice they do too. For the greater good. To stop the darkspawn. It's better you having a death that matters than a life that lasts. This is the psychology of the wardens and they are applying those same beliefs to all of Fereldan. Why must they be the only ones doomed by the narrative? There is no surviving this story and there is saving the world there is only killing the darkspawn before it kills you. Thedas is at war with the archdemons and until they're all dead, there is no peace, there is only preparing for the next battle. There is no building a life, no building a country, there is nothing to protect because it is all doomed.

The way duty and sacrifice and the promise of the Grey Wardens must alter their values and perspective on life is fascinating and there is so much to explore here but what's important for this post is that the foundation of their entire order is that they are already dead.

This then brings us to the HOF and cheating death. Duncan is like the grim reaper in Origins the way he comes and snatches your soul at the end of each origin which I honestly love and it ties in so well to the idea that wardens are ghosts given you die in every other version of the story without him but that's the story of all wardens. They all die a symbolic death at the joining so that's okay but then Ostogar happens. Flemeth happens. You should have died. Fereldan should have been lost. Remember, the duty of the wardens is dying not surviving but you did survive, snatched away by a god. Every other warden has died thinking their paying the price for an absent god yet this goddess not only favours you, she changed fate for you. Every other warden throughout history has paid the price but not you. Not Fereldan. You get to cheat the fate while it dooms everyone else. Can you imagine how that must have felt for the other wardens? How much they must hate the hero for stealing the martyr Fereldan was set to be and making all their losses naught but a tragedy when it could have been so much more? Not only did you escape your own death but you stole the value of theirs. You survived which goes against everything the wardens are made for.

Going even further than that, you have the dark ritual where you can actively choose to cheat death again. When every other warden has had to give their life, had to sacrifice and lose and grieve and poison their humanity as they did their bodies, you get to escape it all. Wardens have struggled for decades to have a foothold in Fereldan but you'll go so far as to choose their ruler for them without any consultation. You have been a warden less than a year, ended a battle that they prepared for over hundreds of years and sacrificed more hundreds of years fighting in the past and not only have you defied everything they defined themselves by, you have made them look like fools and decided their fate for them. You have stolen the meaning of the death of every warden, you have stolen their martyrs and the justifications for their actions and by keeping your own life and humanity, by resisting their poison you have made them all look like monsters.

The hero was doomed by the narrative as all wardens are but they rewrote fate, they stole their life back so many times and by surviving, they created a whole new narrative that ruined everything the wardens were built upon. The wardens were made to be ghosts, not heroes. They're meant to die and be remembered nobly so they can be redeemed for they had to do to get there but not you hero. You get to shame us all, don't you?

#I have work in like 5 hours but it is my duty to share my madness with you all #UGH I need to make more warden OCs #I can't fix him but I can become equally corrupt by his side #There are so many ideas in here I can't wait to elaborate on over the next few days/weeks/lifetime #Anyway good night y'all #Also hi Saph it was me thank you for encouraging this #Got a good grade in anon something both normal to want and possible to achieve #GOODNIGHT #dragon age origins #dragon age #ramblings #grey wardens #doomed by the narrative #idk how to tag things but I hope people see this I want to hear ideas #Rubbing my hands together and giggling like a goblin thinking of all the potential warden content #I'M GOING TO BED NOW BYE BYE

[misc-obeyme]

Me, sitting down to write: Okay, I'm just gonna write a simple little love story about my OC, nothing crazy.

Me, several days later after going all out and creating four new OCs in the process: Oops. Sorry, guys.

#who am I apologizing to? #myself? #my OCs? #my readers? #all of the above? #yeah probably that last one #anyway #only two of them are actually in my OC's story #the others were just me getting ideas lol #late night nonsense posting #misc rambles

[takethistoyourstardust]

Mage Ranks the JD2023E Map… Locked Out of Heaven

IT’S BLORBO TIME BITCHES. Um, I mean, we’re getting a bit dramatic now in our story line, as we meet Jack Rose, the flamboyant superstar son of our main villain!

MAP: Locked Out of Heaven - Bruno Mars DIFFICULTY: Medium EFFORT: Moderate JD+ NEEDED?: No SEASON: Base game/Enter the dancerverses playlist

Category Seven Autism Event inbound under the cut! Seriously, though, this one is long, ramble-y, and overall just a big excuse for me to infodump the fuck out of this map. It might not make a lot of sense, but putting it all down made me happy, so I hope it makes you happy to read it :)!

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I don’t need to tell you this song is good, right? It’s Bruno fuckin’ Mars, of COURSE it’s good! This song was actually pre-Uptown Funk, and it’s honestly one of his best songs from that time. I actually hated a lot of early Bruno Mars stuff (Grenade my beloathed), but now he’s probably one of my favorite vocalists. So yeah, I don’t need to tell you the song fucks! You already know that!

However, it’s the way that this song is used that fascinates me. The original context of the song is just “wanting to spend the night at someone’s house because they’re real good in the sack”, and the JD team saw that and went “But What If It’s About Parental Neglect” and ran with it. During the second verse, Night Swan’s face keeps taking over the background, that’s supposed to just be reflections of Jack dancing. And during that final chorus, after the first gold move where Jack is on his knees, and Night Swan Tower reveals itself, the jumbotrons that had Jack’s face on it are replaced by the tower’s visage, as the chorus sings “I’ve been locked out of heaven/for too long/for too long” and it fades back to his room, right where we started. Hell, even before that, he’s pointing to the audience during the lines “Can I just stay here?/Spend the rest of my days here?”, telling us in pretty fucking clear terms that his passion isn’t what he’s supposed to do, but what he wants to do - perform. He’s been locked out of heaven for too long, he’s been kept away from the love a mother should express for her child. And now he’s trying to find that happiness in his performance.

Speaking of, the routine! It’s fucking great! I think it’s ranked pretty fairly in terms of difficulty and effort, but if I can be honest, I found this routine shockingly easy. It’s not the easiest thing in the world, but after the technical nightmare that was Rather Be, and the (slight spoilers) upcoming technical nightmare that is Majesty, I would consider LOoH as almost a breather level. Almost, I say, if it wasn’t for the FIFTEEN SPINS you have to land. Seriously, between the one leg spin-hop, the full circle he makes during the chorus, and even the spin you have to do before the final Gold Move, there’s a reason a lot of people were joking that this song should’ve been called “Spinned Out of Heaven”. But maybe it’s the theater kid in me (it’s probably the theater kid in me), I didn’t find the spins all that difficult or demanding. And both the Gold Moves in this routine are fairly easy, with one being the jump you have to do at the start of the final chorus, and the other being the final move in the entire song, the hand raise that you started with. If I had to complain about one thing, I would say that I wish they had you “holding” the microphone in your right hand more. It’s easy for me to imagine holding the mic while doing certain moves, the bridge of the song being the most obvious, but most of the time it’s “in” your left hand when the game only tracks your right hand. It’s just a bit of a dissonance in my head, where it goes “wait, but i AM holding something in the right hand, why are you saying there’s something in my left?!”. But at that point, that’s just a nitpick.

The whole choreography tells us so much about Jack as a dancer. He’s flamboyant, he’s a showman, he lives for the dramatics. He knows how to work a crowd! His stage presence is amazing.

Speaking of! Jack Rose! The blorbo that has ruined my fucking life!!!

Quick note before I get into this... I’m not crazy when I say his name, Jack Rose, probably comes from the two main characters from Titanic, Jack and Rose, right?! No one else has pointed this out, not even the wiki, and I feel like I’m going fucking crazy. Like I know “Jack” is a very common guy’s name and “Rose” ties into the face his main color is red, but together? That’s a Titanic reference, baby! I’m not the only one who saw that, right?????

Anyways! Look at this man in his red suit, his stupid (affectionate) feather boa shoulder piece, his lipstick matching his hair, his gold glove, his stupid little microphone!!! All of this combined makes for one hell of a memorable character, at least for me. I love love love love LOVE monochrome character palettes, I love the mix of reds and blacks, I love it when random strappy things are on a character, I love a little pop of fur...

... wait a god damn second. Those are all the elements my ultimate blorbo of all time has!!!

(pictured: my ultimate blorbo of all time, aka my warrior of light in final fantasy xiv, ahrora, in her current outfit. note the reds, blacks, strappy things, and pop of fur. no matter what, she’s always gonna be my absolute favorite just because she’s my oc i poured so much into. don’t worry rora, you’re not getting replaced, you never could be <3) (it doesn’t help that her main class is quite literally dancer ALDFSKJAS;DFLKJASLD)

Okay, that’s a bit of a stretch, but I do adore red-coded characters, and honestly with the feathers it’s reminding me of one of my top 5 favorite characters of all time, Yamato Kazakiri from Animal Sentai Zyuohger, mostly because they’re both red and both give off Bird Vibes and not much else. But Yamato could sometimes serve this type of cunt. But now we’re getting twenty miles off from the topic so let’s get back the fuck on track.

Okay I’m sorry this is so much longer and more disjointed than the other reviews but this map makes me scream cry and throw up.

The map starts with Jack as a kid, dancing alone in his room. His mother, Night Swan, looks on, and motions in a way that says she’s disapproving of her son’s actions.

How it’s supposed to come off: Night Swan disapproves because Jack is supposed to be training to be the leader of her army, and shouldn’t have time for frivolous shit like “his own happiness”.

How it comes off to a lot of people: Night Swan disapproves because Jack is expressing his interest in a traditionally “feminine” hobby.

I’m not sure how many people related to that second interpretation, but I did see a LOT of people say that’s how they felt when they saw this cutscene for the first time. Personally, my interpretation was more like the first one; Jack wasn’t being absolutely perfect, and she thinks that if he’s not, he shouldn’t even bother. Of course, a bit of parental neglect never stopped anyone! It just traumatizes and yassifies you!

Honest to god, when I first saw this transition from his child self to his adult self, it made me gasp a bit, Even after his mother has expressed disapproval, he’s still going forward with being a performer. Sure, he is the main leader of her assimilated army, but he just wants to perform in front of people! And he loves it! And the audience loves him too!

But at the end of the day, the one person who he just wants to get some form of approval from won’t give it to him. He’s not good enough.

No, not good. She doesn’t care much for good.

He’s not perfect enough.

God, the love of performance and heartbreak over still not getting any love from his mother after all this time is portrayed so well by his dancer. Makes me feel extremely insane.

I think a question that’s fair to ask is “well if she wants Jack to follow all her orders, why not assimilate him, too?”. And I think the answer is twofold. One, she needs someone who’s able to make snap decisions outside of her own brain to lead her army successfully. If you’re left to your own devices, you may end up making a huge mistake you didn’t foresee. And secondly, no matter how much parental neglect she’s shown Jack, on some level she can’t bring herself to assimilate him because he is her son. She doesn’t care about his happiness, but she doesn’t want to lose someone who may potentially be the final tie to her life before Night Swan, since the dad seems to be M.I.A. And her disapproval of Jack being a performer might stem from her own insecurities of being a failed ballerina; she’s already gone through the pain and humiliation of trying to be a performer and failing, and she doesn’t want Jack to go through the same. Of course, there might be an element of jealousy there too. He IS a successful performer. He’s performing in front of an arena of people, for god’s sake! She’s seeing him live out a dream she couldn’t have, and wants to shut that down for him.

Many thoughts, head full, blorbo living in there.

Of course, by the end of the map, the Just Dancers make it through to where he’s staying...

But for now, that’s where our story must stop.

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GENERAL RATING: THUMBS UP!!!!!!!!

SPECIFIC RATING: 10/10

Holy shit this is my favorite map in the whole game. I don’t give a shit. The choreography is fun and easy for a theater kid like me to grasp while still being genuinely challenging in a fair sense, the story of the map is told so well in less than five minutes, Jack Rose is just an iconic coach, everything about him just rattles my fucking brain like a cup of dice. Does he know how much I care about him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And to top it all off, he gets a song that already fucked hard and gets it recontextualized to be about an emotionally distant, neglectful mother, and how he just wants that closeness with somebody, anybody, and that he just wants to perform!

He just wants someone close to him to care about it, too!

... Is that really too much to ask?

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THANK YOU for reading, especially if you actually DID read my absolute fucking brain rot on a page and didn’t just scroll down to the end. No shame if you did, I would do the same LMFAO. Next time, we’re looking at the penultimate song in the playlist, Majesty! There’s no obligation to follow me (especially not after the absolute thesis i just wrote), but if you wanna see my rankings of all the other JD2023 maps, please stick around! I promise they won’t be as long/disjointed/nonsensical as this one ended up being! Have a good day!

~ Mage <3

#just dance #just dance 2023 #jd2023 #jack rose #jack rose just dance #mage's rankings of just dance 2023 maps #danceverses rankings #i need a just dance tag #SORRY FOR THE WORD VOMIT IN ADVANCE. THIS DOESN'T MAKE ANY GOD DAMN SENSE. #the Mage rambles #i have a lot of thoughts about this man and i cannot succinctly word it to save my life #so you will have to be subjected to a glorified stream of thought #a lil behind the scenes here but i write these rankings late at night #it's almost 3 am on sunday and my brain is fucking BUZZING like crazy #also! cameo appearance from my most beloved oc ever! say hello to her or i will blow you up! #ANYWAYS THANKS FOR READING. I AM GONNA SCREAM MORE NOW <3

[the-halfling-prince]

Had this vision in my head, had to draw it. Idk what the context is but here's another teen Zephyr drawing but this time one of my ocs is there too

#I imagine this would be like if the 'we have to dress formal to sneak into this fancy event for a mission' trope was fantasy viking-ified #(yes I know rtte sorta already did that in last auction hero leave me alone) #my posts #my art #Zephyr doesn't know how to sit it dresses. Gay MF doesn't know how to sit outside of dresses. Girl can't sit. #RJ (the OC) is the definition of 'cleans up well' #I did mess up on RJ's hair I put her bangs in the wrong side but y'all wouldn't know that so idk why I'm saying it #Zephyr doesn't clean up well she doesn't even know what that means. She dragged that skirt through the mud. #Putting zeph in all green felt like a betrayal to my color system I accidentally put in place for the main five. #Zephyr's red. Nuffink is blue. Spike is green Eric is orange and RJ is purple. (Madder is yellow but she's sorta a later addition #to the team. Also Hatchet and Spade are neutrals) #Hmm out of all of these characters I've only drawn Hatchet and Spade's dragon. That hideous zippleback I drew a while ago you know #Anyway I'm done rambling #Have a nice night #dragon riders second generation #<btw that's the tag I'm using for all of my teen zephyr and her friends stuff so if it's annoying then there's the tag to block #And if you want more. Well. There's the tag to search on my blog. I've put everything there. #Ugh I hate how embarrassed I get everytime I talk about these guys. 'oh it's so cringe-' bitch shut up #I'll look at other people's httyd OCs and go 'oooh cool I love that' but then the second I go to post mine I'm like 'ugh cringe-' #Cringe culture is dead post the damn drawing write the damn fic. #Honestly at this point I treat Zephyr like an OC. Dreamworks lost their rights to her she's mine now /hj #Like I used the personality Dreamworks gave her as like a baseline and then made her (and Nuffink) better #And I gave them friends.

[pikbro]

what if we kissed in freddy fazbears mega pizzaplex

#flora not being a glamrock is retconned bc whenever i imagine her interacting with anyone the setting is the pizzaplex so. boowomp #im not really into glamrock fronnie but ill make it work #anyways idk if flora and ivory would be 100% serious gfs but they definitely do like eachother and kiss sometimes #realistically i cant even make them canon bc ivory dies in 2007 and security breach takes place in like. 2060 or some bullshit #but if we disregard that theyre totally in love or whatever #btw flora is lesbian and ivory is unlabeled/sapphic. she doesnt know exactly what she is but she knows she likes girls LOL! #her parents and glamrock freddy r very supportive of them #anyways rambling over sorry for posting this at like almost 3 am #fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #security breach #fnac #five nights at candys #fnaf oc #☆ my art #☆ my ocs

[ittybittybumblebee]

NEW GUY REF! (And also Goopy) Messin around with a story idea bc I'm being told that they'd be good for a comic or smthn and i agree bc i think i would really really like to try to do that... attempt it at least 😁😊

#even before i was kinda thinkin id wanna do a project with them #yknow if i could discipline myself a little trying to stick with attempting a comic might be good for me bc i want to do bigger projects... #i need to work on my attention span with an idea lol #need to find somethign i can stick to and work on if i ever wanna do anything more later... #anyway me rambling again #my head is mush rn so i dont even knoe if it makes sense im so sleepy #going to bed now aftee postin this ok good night #my art #ittybittydraws #new guy #my ocs #goopy

[doodlboy]

How mc el actually is

- Known arsonist

- A bit bloodthirsty and vengeful [see: immediately tried to rip belphie's head off on sight with his bare hands after he murdered them & they got revived bc time bs]

- Traumatized & wary of belphie for at least half a year bc of prev note

- Impulsive and will just do the wildest shit bc he feels like [thought he was dead for the first month or 2 in the devildom hell]

- Would eat human if he was presented with it at a demon restaurant [he'd fuckin ask for it out of curiosity tbh]

- Has killed at least 1 man in cold blood [may provide context someday/if someone asks]

How I draw him/talk abt him on here

-✨️🥺✨️

- Resting bitch face or :D with little in-between even tho a lot of his expressions r micro expressions bc 'tsm

- Cute model moment ✨️

- Apathetic [when he's the kinda person who cares too much]

- Crybaby

#i am apparently not immune 2 woobifying my own oc #he is still the things i draw him as but like #y'all have to know he's not just babygirl #he'd just straight up kill you if you got to far on his nerves #anyway #obey me #obey me mc #mc elliot #elliot oc #elliot rambles #note #el spent their recovery period from their murder with mammon. did not leave his room for a while at first #and often woke the whole house screaming in the middle of the night bc nightmares #he also used 2 tear at his neck in said nightmares bc bel choked him and mammon would have 2 patch him up a lot #which is why he wears chokers all the time✨️ lore tieback 2 that post i rbed a bit ago

[preggomancer]

abahhwbdajsb im crying! that Alan and Tulip story was so cute!! Alan deserves every ounce of gender euphoria and more!!

hehehe im glad you liked it!! ive had some variation of that bit in my head for a long time, I'm glad I finally wrote it out. I've never stated this before but in my head Alan comes from a pretty toxic family and lived in a less than progressive town growing up, so in order to get any respect as a guy he had to confine himself to very restrictive masculinity. Which was better than trying to be a girl, but still, he's fat and trans and curvy and passing as a cis guy just wasn't possible, and the pressure to have that as a goal was constant and grating. i just really love the idea of pregnancy being the thing that finally makes him realize he doesn't owe anyone a gender performance. Especially because pregnancy as a transmasc could be such a scary and dysphoric thing, I just take so much joy in framing it as a gender-affirming thing. Alan's more of a man than most cis dudes tbh and he knows it.

#also i could write an essay about toxic femininity now #to be clear. femininity is not toxic. but there is toxic femininity in addition to toxic masculinity #anyway! fun fact: alan is cool and hot and loves his girlfriend! #he is also my only actually male OC Dave is nb and Elio is like. kind of a guy but also he's pretty sure gender is a hoax #ok im rambling. bye have a good night be trans do crimes etc

[artdumpss]

Text Me⭐️

⭐️Call Me

I Just wanna Talk with You⭐️

#cats art #cats ocs #original character #ocs #artists on tumblr #I like how it turned out but it still feels like it's missing smthn #or maybe i did too much? #i worked a whole night on this so im not going back to it but stil..cant put my finger on why i feel this way #it's cute tho i will say!!! im happy with it..sorta #I wanna get into coloring more and doing full pieces like this #like...i wanna make prints for myself! or stickers! #I dunno yet but i do know that i want to draw more. improve more #ALSO wanna get back into my girly aesthetic with my drawings #PINK #CUTE #nice to look at #SOFT!! #that kinda thing #anyways i love the tag system cuz i can ramble all i want

[ashendalia]

Feelings about Higuruma are so completely different when it comes to comparing my OC Ada and me

Because with Ada it's basically 'i am full of bottled up grief and trauma and so are you, so you wanna bang or something before one or both of us dies' kind of rebound after Nanami dying

Whereas if you're just talking to me, I'm just like 'he just like me fr, can I please marry him and live in an apartment with him or something with a cat or three please'

#fate rambles #i rarely ever put just myself into a selfship bc i love making ocs and developing them #so most of my selfships are oc x canon abd i project through the oc bc they are at least partially me #anyways have my jjk ship thought of the night

[brine-in-my-eyes]

enby scott mccoolsvile fem presenting with long hair. who said that

#oc tag #it was eventually gonna happen #now the mcrebs ship of mine will not only be yaoi yuri but t4t yaoi yuri because theyre both boys with themes that also do fuck all #dont interpret that as nsft or else uhmmm *sldiing whistle to indicate falling anvil* #anyways #mccoolsvile probably had longer hair in college like below shoulder length at least #but when he had t owork in the tvog it became kind of messy to manage so he... *sniffle* cut it 💔💔💔💔💔💔 heart brocken #i think mccoolsvile's pronouns would be like they/he like meeeeee :3 and kind of acts like a ken but also sooo annoying to rebelivin lmaooo #rebelivin wants to bite this mans head off and is so so smithen by him #they are so in love #<- mental illness showing at the lateness of the night #ill draw that later when im done writing more for my paper and what not #oc x canon for my soul but the canon has been scrunched up so much by my personal au that its basically oc x oc #and that i can live with and enjoy so lalallalalaaaa #rambles

[tvrningout]

i wanna write more j.jk things but in general fandoms have me a lil scared to reach out lately but!!! we’re trying to get past that by interacting with mutuals first and foremost :’ )

#i’m feeling very shy and unsure towards fandoms lately and not trying to enter the tags #has eliminated a good deal of anxiety tbh #i just? don’t trust people to give my oc’s a fair chance as of late which sounds bad #but my experiences lately haven’t been great aside from my very lovely mutuals who indulge me #so i’m just!! playing it safe and sticking to the people who i feel comfy with uvu #anyway i hope this day was kind to you 💜 #i dunno why i’m rambling about this rn but i gotta get to bed oof #i don’t wanna go to work lemme tell ya but!! oh well :’ )) #good night friends 💜💜💜 #get ready to ramble | ooc

[telffiin]

no i am NOT deleting my old cringy fanfics!!! why should i? because i'm embarrassed??? grow up whore!!!

#pep talk to myself #anyway i have been wanting to write Stuff all year #have i actually written anything? yeah like 700 words about my ocs last month #and like that's it 💀 #oh wait actually i wrote a little about my ocs in summer too #but the problem is that i have no isnpiration or ideas #or when i have one i Do Not have the skills to actually. wrote it #*write #i am not retyping that are you kidding me #writing #i am cringe but i am free #<- i am not free it keeps me up at night #but i also don't care #the duality of man #man i love rambling in the tags