#BUT I'M BACK STRONGER THAN EVER

[clouvu]

Save me french yuri... Save me

#genshin impact #arledrone #sandrone #arlecchino #haha remember when we all thought that sandrone and arlecchino would both show up in fontaine and be gay together? #good times.... good times #jk i'm ready to end it all actually #I KNOW WE HAVE LIKE ONE LAST MAJOR FRENCH PATCH BEFORE NATLAN BUT IVE JUST ABOUT LOST ALL HOPE #the way that literally every wlw arle pairing got fed so well following arle's drip marketing EXCEPT for arledrn... hate it here so bad #anyways shipping aside HOW is it possible that the frenchiest of french harbingers with heavy ties to machinery #and like two major world quests tied to specifically to her lore and is even MENTIONED of being present in fontaine #also being one of the first harbingers ever mentioned dating back all the way to the description of chode's teaser trailer #just???? doesnt show up?????? #Sandy enjoyers are stronger than any us marine because my GOD are we struggling out here #anyways ignore the fact that I completely forgot to draw sandy's wind up key it was hard drawing through the tears #(actually it was cause i half-assed this doodle but we dont talk about that)

[samijey]

not cody trying not to laugh the second jey gets asked about sami 😭

#jey uso #sami zayn #samijey #cody rhodes #wwe #wweedit #only times i'll gif cody are when he's getting wrecked or serving samijey propaganda <3333 #they all know bro i'm convinced #stuff i made #like he knows jey about to say some gay sh*t #(and he did. god bless) #the ally cody agenda is back and stronger than ever bby

[torgawl]

LET'S FUCKING GO!!!!

#I KNEW WE WOULD SEE YUUJI FIGHTING SUKUNA IM SO EXCITED #higuruma looks so cool this is gonna be such an iconic fight yuuji and his duos are always top tier #I CAN'T WAIT #also yuuji's hand?!!!! #annihilate that motherfucker son you can do it i believe in you #i honestly love the themes that jjk has been focusing on #jjk is about love and curses and how love can be a curse but how it's worth it and yet sukuna is the perfect antagonist for that story #for sukuna love is worth nothing #and it's so so so fun that he's getting fought by the most loving boy ever who is stronger with others than alone #like!!!!! #yuuji and yuuta as jjk protagonists being the perfect representation of stronger together is so cool #and it's cool that one is 'just a boy' and the other is one of the strongest yet the conclusion is the same #watch yuuji save the day not because he is the strongest but because he has people to rely on #and by save the day i hope that means bringing megumi back #it would also be funny if sukuna got immediately nerfed into a skinny boys body again right after he transformed #and i'm here for the laughs i hope he gets humiliated and dragged across the floor #get raid sprayed!!!! #manifesting everything well for best boy yuuji if sukuna hurts him i'm taking matters into my own hands #jjk leaks

[humblemooncat]

Brotherhood

Seemed a fitting title and shot for the end of the SB Monk quests.

I gotta say, I really love the PGL/MNK quests. Being able to see Hamon and the lalas again was the best. I missed those nerds.

Now to turn our attention to liberation, and every bit between.

Expect more of Lohi's journey in the coming days. <3

#U'lohi #Moon replays MSQ #I'm excited to see how they end this out after ShB #I hope the Fist is stronger than ever by the time he gets back from the First

[greentrickster]

So, AO3 is apparently gonna be down for awhile, huh? Then I guess... there’s probably going to be no excuse to keep putting it off, is there?

I’m gonna have to finally catch up on my anime watching.

#my life #ao3 #I'm upset this is happening but I refuse to let these bastards ruin my fun #I will simply use this time to add MORE fandoms to my list #and return STRONGER THAN EVER when the site goes back up properly! #my deepest sympathies to everyone who updated a fic today #may you get your word count in reviews when this all gets fixed

[loving-jack-kelly]

i'm using jetblackcode to go through all of my posts tagged jack kelly and it's so funny how big of a gap there is during my daredevil phase lmao. i post at least weekly for most of this blog's history and then from august 2020 to October of 2021 I only made like four jack kelly posts and one of them was commenting on the surface level similarities between jack and matt murdock. lmao.

#i abandoned my boy but i'm back now stronger than ever

[pixelette-cc]

me, two weeks into owning plants: wow this is such a fun hobby! my plants look great! i don’t get why people say houseplants are hard? :)

me, now: *room full of fungus gnats, one plant dead, two calatheas getting crunchy, aloe vera got freeze damage, maranta leaves looking ugly as shit* .....................nevermind

#so far only the two stromanthe plants and the pink princess are doing good lmao #the aglaonema is oficially dead but i managed to save the roots and part of the stem so i still have hope lol #they all went downhill very fast in a matter of weeks 🙃 #i'm trying diatomaceous earth next for the FUCKING FUNGUS GNATS bc they came back stronger than ever #they are EVERYWHERE #thanks to the (now dead) overwatered aglaonema lol rip

[nateriverswife]

oh I don't like this, I feel like I'm getting out of my death note phase lmao

#it's been almost 9 months since it has started so it makes sense #but it's still not good #I'm already starting to interact less and less with my moots and with this app in general #and I've several dn fanfics to write #maybe I need a break to come back stronger than ever? idk #maybe it's because I'm focusing more on my uni exams? #who knows #probably it's also because I got to enjoy more genshin with the new area so I'm spending a lot of my energy on that

[erraticroses]

...........

#tw eating disorder #like a massive tw #like an i personally wouldn't read this because it would trigger me massive tw #after some events in my life happened i started working out to feel like i have agency over my own body and to not fall back into my ed #but #when does working out stops sucking mentally? like i feel both great and bad at the same time and #i know it's because exercise was a big part of my ed and now i ser my body changing and i know i can make it change a lot more #in a way i kinda want it to. is like having a charged gun at all times but the metaphor falls short when i realize some thoughts are..there #like not there *there* but there. tangible. every time my body changes #and it makes me sick because i want to be normal i want to recover i want to have healthy goals and want to experience #having specific body goals as a normal person and i just... can't. because i always take it a little bit too far. #i want to be able to focus on the healthy goals i have like having more stamina. being faster. being stronger. feeling like my body is mine. #and to not focus on that part of ne that tells me i should look like a walking corpse and it's so frustrating. #because im technically closer to feeling good in my own skin than I've ever been (without the risk of dying i mean) #technically the healthiest I've been since the lowest point of anorexia. and there's still a part of me that tells me #i should send all that progress down the rain and get the results i subconsciously never stopped wanting #and it's sick. fucked up. i hate that mental illness and how it just won't fucking go and at the same time i feel like #if fully recovered i would lose a big part of me. and that's fucked up. because i shouldn't want that. I'm doing better now. #why do i still crave bones and dizziness and lightheadedness and crying in winter because it's too cold #why do i still crave being in pain because sitting hurts and no energy to leave the car and my losing more years in that hellhole #it's sick. fucked up. twisted. i don't want to be ill anymore but i relapsed and saw triggering content today and realized #it was never impossibly thin bodies what did it for me. never the look of a magazine model. it was bones. always have to take it too far #fucking sick and twisted. i know i have to continue to choose recovery and being happier. but damn how much i hate anorexia #what it did to me and what it still does to my mind

[fabcreature]

you know, over the summer i had a big crying session roughly every two weeks, bc i was rly stressed out about starting school and feeling like i'm not good enough and i'm gonna fail spectacularly. and i was like "damn, i've been crying a lot lately". but while the fear and self hatred were very much real, a small, more rational part of me did think "it's gonna get better once i start school, i'll realize i've been freaking out over nothing, it's gonna be fine really".

now i've been going to school a little over a month and um. now i cry like. every day? i either cry in the car after school or at night in bed, or both. once i did already on my way to school. every day i feel either tired, sad, or angry, or two of the above, or all or the above. never none of the above though. the hating of myself and feeling like i'm going to fail has not gone away. if anything i'd say it's a little stronger now? i'm just constantly stressed about everything all the time. there's too much going on all at once. while our school has lots of great aspects and great things, i really do feel like i hate my school, the bits that are bad are just so fucking. so fucking bad. so i'm just annoyed and stressed and sad. genuinely good days are a very rare occurence now.

i was just about to cry myself to sleep but had to stop and get up cus i started seriously hyperventilating.

funny how life turns out huh

#sorry for ranting about my misery except i'm not sorry because this is my blog and i do whatever the fuck i want #the slapping Myself In The Face When I'm Frustrated habit has come back stronger than ever 👍 #i was raised to never quit stuff and like. hold onto stuff you've commited to. so like #whatever it is in life i'm used to just always pushing through no matter what #i'm wondering if this one's gonna be my breaking point #am i finally gonna reach the point. where i just. can't anymore #if i can just power through this that will be really impressive #because i am just #so tired #i am so tired all the time #i'm just so desperate to not be at school. and yet i have signed up to a thing that will have me spending more time at school #it's important to me and i don't wanna skip out on it but #by god i'm just tired #and i'm sad and #angry and #god i wish i knew how to scream #god i wish i could go outside at night and both be and feel safe #god i wish i could stop time #i am not doing good #i am not doing good at all #fuck #eg posts

[slippery-minghus]

thinking about joining a local jiu jitsu class.... i'm SO not athletic and have always had a pretty negative relationship with sports, ambivalent at best, but i WANT TO feel good in my body and maybe even learn how to use it a little better? maybe even get a little stronger?

there's a free "see if it's for you" class i can do tomorrow and the guy was super nice.... so maybe. just maybe an autistic fat queer like myself can go out in the world and get a hobby that involves moving my body. maybe

#i'm excited in the way that comes with things i never follow through on #because fuck what if i don't like it? what if it's hard to integrate into my limited routine even if i do? so i never ever try #but it's a new year and i'm going to be fucking 30 in a month...... and i'm BORED #i'm BORED AS HELL with my life right now!!! #i want to get out and DO THINGS but how the hell do i find things? where do i go? what do i do? #i'm walking distance from this gym (and the bros i've seen leaving are always super nice) #which is a major factor in accessibility for me - i never go to gyms i have to drive to #and it's kinda expensive but.... i can afford it?? #i'd been doing electrolysis for months last year and THAT was definitely more per month than this and i always made ends meet anyway #and i'll have my new HSA for the year that can pay for the first few sessions when i pick back up with it in march #fuck #i'm just so tired of not having enough energy to do the things i want #and there's a good chance making my body stronger will fucking help with that?? #and if these people are even halfway nice enough and i can get in the groove of a routine.... well. maybe i CAN make a change #fucking hell #i need to remind myself a lot that a big part of unmasking and being authentically me is choosing to live and act by my values #and i VALUE being brave and trying new things- not bc i'm forced to. and now that i'm an adult i'll be allowed to quit if i don't like it #my parents aren't forcing me into this. and i'm old enough to make my own choices and stop running from things that remind me of theirs #my strategy has always been Avoid Things My Parents Would've Made Me Do but they're not fucking here?? and trying a physical activity isn't #saying that they were right to push me like that as a kid. i'm old enough to try it on my own terms now. #and that it's a sport doesn't mean its to punish me for having the body and mind that i have. NO it's to grow them. #and i can try and maybe even enjoy and keep with this new thing and not have it become a jail sentence for daring to express interest in it #i can try something else if i don't like it (not a jail sentence) and i can stick with it if i DO like it (also not a jail sentence!!!) #this is not basketball-softball-swimming-gymnastics-band-choir—all of the things i was curious to try as a kid and was forced to keep at #for years as 'punishment' for having expressed curiousity and then finding out it wasn't for me #(and SO much of it wasn't for me bc i was treated exactly the same as i was everywhere else as a kid: shamed and ignored! #NEVER welcomed and taught!!!) well it's DIFFERENT NOW. bc i'm fucking almost 30 DAMMIT #and i'm not in that shithole town anymore where every single person had a chip on their shoulder. like. there's something WRONG in that town #real people are so much nicer. #narrating my life

[branches-of-time]

the version of me that writes down these rough drafts is very blunt. and frankly, probably a lot funnier than the version of me that edits them into something i’ll actually post

#venti #venti x reader #genshin impact #Seven’s Genshin Commentary #hello am alive #i'm sure all 30something of u have just been on the edge of ur seats #waiting for me to update this #/lh /sarc #just. look at me. look in me eyes. listen- #don’t look at the fact that it’s been over two months since i wrote the draft #i just. i uh. my fixation on the fuckign Daycare Attendant from FNaF came back stronger than ever #and they’re all i can think about these days. they kicked Venti out of my brain #also i have been. not doing very Great in general #but i'm doing better! i have a consistent sleep schedule that i'm happy with!!! #REGARDLESS i want to get back to writing for this blog i just. only have so much RAM in my brain #Venti’s a long-running and ever-returning fixation for me don’t u worry #i will write more and that is a promise #the moment i get my shit together- #AND the moment i get Sun and Moon out of the spotlight of my mind. it’s over for u all #anyways. sighs and makes another sideblog for silly robot clowns #i’ll be back soon with part 2 i swear #where You are still kissing Venti but you’re in the kitchen this time!!! wow amazing i know

[its-actually-minicika]

I’m so sorry if I’m bothering you, i absolutely adore your fics! I was just wondering if you had gotten around to my previous requests? It’s totally okay if you haven’t I just figured I’d ask

Omg hello!!

I did get your request, and it's been sitting in my drafts for ages :"(( I'm so sorry for not getting around it sooner, but IRL life took a turn and I've been very busy as of late

BUT

I promise everyone that I'm doing my best to complete all the requests that you guys entrusted me with <3

Thank you so much for your patience, and for the nice words 🫶💗🥹

#mina's asks #requests and other fun stuff #I'M SO SORRY FOR MY ABSENCE YOU GUYS #i'll be back this weekend - stronger than ever

[noxtivagus]

ffxv makes me so emotional oh my god 🥹🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxv. ] #i love love love final fantasy so much like. video games in general i cld rlly ramble abt each of my interests for hours like i'm #v much ffxv mood rn. god esp that one story two years back i've mentioned it so much here atp but IT REALLY IS SO PERSONAL N #CRINGE???? IDK IT MAKES ME EMBARRASSED A BIT but like embarrassed /pos like. it's me. younger me. n i'm still v fond of it. #..still makes me shy though but even more i finished writing that uh oneshot back then w noctis #childhood friends to lovers uhuh secretly in love but both think it's unrequited uhuh #why has that always been among my fav tropes.. I DON'T EVEN RLLY HAVE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS? there's nothing irl that inspired it at all. #but then ^ that's also w my uhhhh original characters n then my wol too in ffxiv honestly n #even with other characters.. a v similar sentiment w claude n like lancelot or lucifer. ffxv / fe3h / gbf were my top 3 back in 2020 #botw hades octopath acnh & other ff were games that i rlly rmb then too. but ever since ffxiv i haven't been able to play much other vgs 😭 #the witcher 3. nier automata demo. code vein demo. genshin. hzd. rdr2. ac odyssey n lots more but god i've barely finished any #OH I NEARLY FORGOT.. I'M SO SORRY must be bcs i was listening to it earlier so i thought i already wrote it but kh3 yes #AAAA WAIT I'M RAMBLING AGAIN I WAS GNA WORK ON SOME STUFF BEFORE I SLEEP 🥹 sleep by 3 for more hours or by 4 so i can uh #get some stuff done before tmrrw? i will. do my best this week as quickly as i can so i can.. rest? my mind rlly needs a rest i think >< #yk what i can always write n do more the next day yeah i'll sleep no later than 3:30 #i think i'm going back more to my old self again but i'll do my best to not isolate or distance myself too much i don't want to destroy #things even more like. in that. dream n. in the past when. i thought i was over it but i think those wounds r reopening #but i'm stronger than them n. fuck. it's the same as before n that's why i'm crying that's why i'm so afraid that's why it hurts so much #but i've written too much here. it hurts so much but even if it feels too similar to.. back then it's. not the same it's not the same #i've improved i've gone this far i've made friends i've made so much memories. but i'm so afraid that i'll fuck up again n #i think i'm like this bcs. oh ffs my dream told me basically that i really do think i already fucked up. i'm sorry. i'm so sorry #the past.. present. the future. too fast too much n it's just like before n that's. why i'm helpless to it. i can do better but this #i forgave them but maybe i haven't forgiven myself. entirely at least. so. the familiarity of this rn is keeping me frozen in place? #n then other stuff r so overwhelming too n fuck i don't want to think about this anymore i'll be fine i'm fine i can do this on my own #..no. i can't do that again. fuck i'm crying so much why does this feel the same as two years back #i'm sorry please don't forget me please don't leave me please tell me i didn't fuck up please don't tell me i did it again #i'm sorry i was doing better i was healing but i'm back to this again i know better but i can't do any more rn n i'm sorry i'm so sorry #fuck it i'll wipe away these tears. it feels so empty inside but i'll feel better somehow by the morrow. i don't want to be a burden nymore #i know it's bad n i don't want all my progress to be for naught but.. no i can't fuck this up again but i feel i alrdy have. i'm sorry. gn

[girlscience]

i like to say that i am over everything i was taught as a child and other times i realize i have been having periodic breakdowns about sexual dimorphism since i was 10 and whatever caused that is very much still alive and well in the recesses of my mind

#(sorry for coming back just to dump this depressing ass post but i am not having a good time) #i know there are people outside and between the categories of strictly male/female in regards to like hormones and phenotype and such #however i am very much not. i fall very obviously directly into stereotypical average female #and sometimes it makes me want to kill people and myself #before i could get angry and yell at god for this but i don't believe in god so now it just turns into directionless hatred and anger and r #*rage #i know. I KNOW. physical strength is not the only thing that matters in a person! I KNOW THAT #ON THE OTHER HAND #the fact no matter what i do there will always be a man stronger than me makes me want to commit horrifically violent acts #and like. men that don't even have to try hard. not just that somewhere out there there is a Extreme bodybuilder who is stronger than me #no it's like. i will always work with men stronger than me. there will always be men stronger than me in my family #just regular average dudes who have denser bones and longer arms and better muscles #just because they got male fucking puberty #and it makes me unimaginably angry #and has since i was a very small child #and it's not like anger at not being the strongest person in the world or that generally there are people out there stronger than me #its specifically that male bodies got something i wanted so so desperately and i can't ever have it #and then on top of that my brain assigns a higher value to that thing i can't have #so because i don't have it i am automatically lesser for something i have absolutely zero control of #and it's not even something that really affects my life???? like i'm not competitive i'm not in sports #it's extremely unlikely i will ever be in a fist fight with a man #it's not like i can't do all the things like build a cabin and learn to wield swords or climb trees or run a farm #but some stupid fucking piece of my brain just does not give a single shit about any of that and i hate it and it makes me hate myself #and then i get angry because ive never actually studied this so maybe im wrong and i just drank the fundie christianity/terf koolaid #and im have just been ripping myself to shreds over fucking nothing for over a decade #but i dont KNOW and im too scared to look into it because what if they are right? what then? what do i do about that? #like i dont want to off myself and just leave a note that's like 'sorry my bones werent dense enough so i had to die. love yall' #like fuck that #but i don't know how to GET OVER THIS and it is awful

[silenthillrn]

Lmaoooo

#fix her shit #i love how people think i cant tell when theyre intentionally trying to set me off like as if i hadnt seen all the #deliberate provocations and sabotage efforts #and lack of respect by telling intimate personal details of my life ans my boyfriend's life to your friends as a joke like #im not blind and im not stupid and in the end its funny how it blew up after trying to turn me against my best friend #like we both saw the intentional mentioning of sensitive subjects to rile us up #but its not ok if we do oke thing but ok qhen you do it #im done w adults who act like children #like i know you think I'm stupid and dont respect all the shit i did for you YEARS ago #and eventually clocked out when my depression got too bad #and you tried to ruin my other friendship and it didn't work because we are all stronger than ever and i love mg group #im posting here bc it will never be read by them and if it does i know this asshole is just gonna tell everything to his friends bc #theres nothing going on w them so they feel better by putting others down #i did you solids for years and you forgot that and i feel like i was taken advantage of #i also know you were back in town when i had a fucking crisis and i kept my mouth shut but im not stupid #i didnt give a shit tho bc i coukd tell you started to resent me #and that shit back in January where you ruined the fun evening in thr group by being aggressive towards my boyfriend who was just teachin #us how to play the game and never apologizing for anything ever and meaning it because you just say what you can without #owning up to it and say whatever to get people off your back #because youre too prideful and egotistical and call women your moms name when you get mad at them like a fucking child and weirdo #good luck functioning as an adult because you need anger management and proper guidance #you never did shit when your friends told me to kill mysekf as a joke and tell people i dont know intimate details about my life but would #be mad if i told others all your intimate details and shit i know about you #im done w hypocrites and this is the year of me getting rid of toxic people #also saying my friend need to in regards to her PTSD honestly reeks of words from someone who hasnt dealt with shit #and is insensitive as fuck #saying someone with PTSD needs to fix their shit is insensitive and you just got mad because we called you out on shit and actually stopped #biting our tongues for the first time #trting to impress your friends by talking shit about other people to them while theyre there #youre a fucking joke and we are all laughing at you rn