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glitt3r-litt3r · 2 years

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Scotty Doesn’t Know

Pairing: Eddie Munson x reader

Summary: When date night with your real boyfriend clashes with your secret one, things get a little messy

Warnings: messy Eddie, maybe some violence, ANGST toward the end, a little suggestive right at the very beginning, whole gang is here I’m talking the queer 4 show up to the hideout to support Edster.

Based off the song Scotty Doesn’t Know so let’s pretend it wasn’t made in 2004 k byeeee!!!

“See you Tuesday, right?” Eddie asked as he pulled up your underwear and pushed your skirt back into place.

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world.” You replied smiling down at him.

The air in the trailer was foggy and thick, What started as a normal smoke session ended how it always did, with Eddie between your legs and those puppy dog eyes staring right through you.

He smiles back fondly before rolling over unto his stomach. You give yourself a moment to stare. His hair thrown messily around his head as you watch his shoulders rise and fall with each breath. His lanky figure almost too long to fit on the bed, the light coming in through the window causing a fuzzy glow to surround him. He doesn’t move and neither do you. You wanted nothing more than to lay down with him, cuddle in close and nap. It was still early and you didn’t have to be anywhere for another 3 hours.

You feel a tug at your heart when you remember the no loitering rule. No one stays more than ten minutes after, and no sleeping in each others beds. That way you can keep it casual. That way no one gets hurt. What a load of bullshit.

Turning, you make a fast exit not waiting for any other goodbye.

Eddie finally rolls over after you leave, pout prominent on his lips. He covers his face in his hands and shouts loudly before sitting up and going about his day. He shakes his head every so often as he tries to forget the way you looked at him. The way your eyes would light up at the sight of him, even if it was just for a second in the cafeteria. Deep aching pain sprouted in his chest every time you left him, knowing that you’d be with your boyfriend. The one you weren’t embarrassed of. The one you could show off at every school party and event. Not that he cared what those bozo’s thought but a sliver of him wanted that kind of love. The kind of love you don’t have to worry about. Bitter jealousy pricks his mouth and before he can stop himself he’s writing new lyrics for a song.

You on the other hand walked over to your bike, walk man in hand trying to convince yourself you weren’t absolutely, head over heels, in love with your fuck buddy and town freak Eddie Munson. It was not going well.

You bike as fast as you can blaring your Guns N’ Roses favorites mixtape. Each turn of the wheel you felt yourself physically starting to miss him. Miss his smell, even if it was a mix of smoke and greasy hair with a hint of cheap cologne. you miss the feeling of his loose curls cascading over your thighs tickling gently as he rests his head. You miss the way he looks at you with fluttering lashes and that little smirk. You picked up speed and decided to stop thinking. There was nothing to think about but the road in front of you.

The weather was perfect today, sunny but not hot and the wind was picking up as you gained speed down a particularly large hill toward your house. This feeling, this fleeting moment lost in a moment of a million others was everything you needed to clear your head. As you hopped off your bike and parked in the garage you swore you could still feel the wind on your face and in your hair.

That feeling ends the moment you step foot into your family room. The T.V is on in the background of your mother and fathers conversation. As you step in their conversation stops.

“You better have a good excuse as to why you weren’t at Church young lady” your dad says. You really did not want to deal with this right now.

“I told you, I wasn’t feeling good. I went for a bike ride to clear my head.” You replied trying to move past them toward the stairs.

“Well maybe you would’ve felt better if you showed up honey. It’s not like you had other things going on you dropped Cheerleading, student government, and now Scott’s parents called saying you blew off his last date.” Your mother chides in a singsong voice.

“How many times do I have to tell you Cheerleading is a popularity contest and student government never listened to my ideas so what’s your point?” Not bringing up Scott because that was another argument waiting to happen. You were growing more annoyed by the second with this conversation.

“My point is, how does it look now that you’re not in Church with your family. We have friends and reputations to uphold which you don’t seem to understand. All you care about is yourself, I’m sick of this selfish attitude!”

Your father replies slamming the paper down on the table. You stand for a moment feeling the shame inch up your spine slowly. It makes you fidget from foot to foot as you feel it bubble up into your throat.

“Whatever.” is all you can say as you finally move past them. They shout at you as you move up the stairs slamming your door when you reach your room.

They never listen, you could be screaming in pain and they’d still call you dramatic. Not to mention the crushing expectations, keeping up appearances and the act they they’ve never once told you they were proud of you. Not when you made the squad, not when you were on the honor roll at school, or had perfect attendance all of middle school. They never once looked at you and said that you were good enough, that you were doing everything right.

So what? What does it matter. You stare in your bathroom mirror with tears overflowing as you took off your jewelry and clothes.

“So fucking what” you muttered turning the hot water on and stepping into the scolding spray attempting to wash off the day. Tears mixed well with the pressure of the water on your skin. You scrubbed until there was nothing left of today on or in you. No Eddie, no disappointing parental glares, no guilt over the face that you haven’t thought about Scott since you went to sleep last night, everything went right down the drain.

When Tuesday comes around you can’t help but be excited. You’ve seen Eddie play before, but every single time it still fills you full of giddy nervousness. He looks so happy on stage it melts you every single time. You make sure to dress up a little more, add a little more black eyeliner even if Scott hates it. By the time you reach school you’re pumped and its only 8 in the morning.

Walking through the front doors you say hi to a couple people before you see Scott standing at your locker along with a couple members of the basketball team. His face brightens as he sees you approaching and you manage a smile in return.

“Hello gorgeous. I didn’t hear from you all weekend” he says reaching out for you.

“I’m sorry. I was busy...studying and working out” I reply giving him a peck on the lips. His face was just another reminder of the ways your parents controlled you. They set you up on your first date and since then there have been countless outings as a family with his parents. You turned around and let his arms cage you in as he spoke into your shoulder about his weekend. You nodded along trying to sound interested.

Just then the school doors burst open. In walks Eddie and his gaggle of nerdy freshman all yelling about something. He wore his favorite shirt today and definitely just washed his hair. He was practically glowing with excitement. Tuesdays were the best days for him, even if the only people who came to his shows were you and a couple of friends. His eyes caught yours in the busy halls, he was the first to break contact shaking his head with a huge grin.

“Here comes the freakshow” Scott says loudly. His friends ooo in response and they all laugh. You roll your eyes and turn to defend them when you see Eddies smile drop. Scotts hands were on your waist, his lips ghosting over your neck. You feel irritation crawling up your arms. You remove his hands from your waist roughly.

“I’ll see you at lunch” You say turning to walk away. He grabs your wrist roughly before pulling you back. His friends start whispering amongst themselves hoping to catch you guys in an argument.

“Aw don’t be mad, I know you’re all about free love and whatever but he asks for it acting like that” he justifies

“That’s not what free love means...whatever it doesn’t matter its fine. I’ll see you later.”

He lets me go this time. But as I walk away he yells, “And don’t forget about our date tonight!” Everyone looks around and sees one of the star couples showing one of their many displays of affection. A couple girls smile and giggle, a lot of them glare at you with jealousy. You were dating Scott, you had the looks, the charisma, the grades the style. Who wouldn’t want to be you? Well for starters, you.

Eddie hears, of course he does because Scott doesn’t understand the meaning of subtlety. His eyes cast downward as he he turns and practically runs out of the main hallway.

So much for that excited feeling you had 10 minutes ago.

The rest of the day drags on. You spend lunch next to Scott like always, trying to tune out whatever he’s saying. You already cancelled on him for tonight making up some excuse about having to study. He’s pissed but he’ll get over it. No that you even really care. Eddie’s spot in the lunch room is empty, all of his friends are still in their seats but without their ecstatic leader the table seems a little lost. Silently you hope he knows you’re still coming. You meant it when you said you wouldn’t miss his show for the world.

When you finally make it home, Scott insisted on driving you and stopping for food on the way. And then walking you up to your room, and then helping set up your books, and getting you a snack from downstairs even though you had just eaten less than an hour ago. He was oddly attentive, it made you nervous because usually he wouldn’t notice if your head was hanging off your shoulders unless you told him.

“I’m fine Scott and I really need to study. I’ll see you tomorrow at school.” You say turning your chair toward your desk pretending to flip a couple pages.

You feel his hand gripping your shoulder as he leans in to give you a kiss on the cheek. His shadow darkens the page in front of you making it hard to fake read the words.

“See you tomorrow baby” He says. He releases your shoulder and slams the door on the way out. He’s pissed. You wait to hear his car pull off before you stand and decide to change. Shaking off his invisible grip on your shoulder you strip down to your matching set before flipping through your closet.

After finding the perfect outfit you revamp your makeup and finish it off with a couple sprays of cologne you had stolen from Eddie. He loved when you smelled like yourself of course but something about you smelling like him drove him absolutely crazy. You packed an extra pair of panties into your bag before slowly walking downstairs. Thank god your parents were at the country club tonight or you’d be toast.

Steve’s car pulls up right on schedule hauling Robin and an unnamed girl he probably picked up at work.

“Ow! Ow!” Robin howled out of the window. Her praise making you blush a bit as you enter the car.

“Oh stop” you reply opening the door and sliding in next to her.

“Hi Stevie! And who might this pretty lady be?” You ask shifting your gaze between Steve and the passenger.

“This is Lucy. We met at work.” He say with an awkward smile. What a charmer.

“Nice to meet you Lucy. Hope you like drunk men and heavy metal” You say before starting to bitch to Robin about your parents. Once everyone’s ready to go Steve pulls off blasting Tears for Fears and singing louder than everyone in the car combined.

Pulling up to the Hideout he turns the music down before turning to face Lucy.

“She wasn’t lying about the drunks so just stick with me and you should be fine” He smiles.

Robin rolls her eyes as you fake shoving your fingers down your throat. As Lucy gets out Steve turns to you and glares before getting out himself. You and Robin are still giggling as you make your way inside. Although they’re technically a bar they never card anyone, that’s how Eddie get’s to play here.

The bar is lowly lit and it smells of cigarettes and beer, home sweet home. There's actually a crowd today, still not huge but it's more than the average which you're sure is making Eddie both nervous and excited to put on a good show.

You were a couple minutes late to his set so he was already in the the middle of a song when you walk in. Luckily you knew this song and could sing along lowly. Due to the spotlight he couldn't really see into the crowd.

"This next song is new and I just wrote it but hopefully it strikes one of you in your cold drunk hearts"

One of the guys from the bar yells out and Eddie points in that direction with a subtle head nod. He looks so hot up there, like a real rockstar.

You stand at the bar waiting for drinks as Robin, Steve, and Lucy find a table up front. Eddie must see them because he starts laughing in that direction probably at Steve's choice of a date.

The new song starts heavy on guitar and it sounds like they've rehearsed it a lot which is good.

"Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me

Do it in my van every Sunday

She tells him she's in church but she doesn't go

Still she's on her knees and Scotty doesn't know"

You whip around from your position at the bar with the drink in hand to meet eyes with Steve. Abandoning all of the other drinks you run over as Eddie continues to play his song.

"Holy shit" Steve screams over the music. you nod with your mouth still open.

Your stomach is in your mouth and there's a burning sensation behind your eyes. Shame courses through your body pricking you over and over like a million tiny needles. As he sings his guitar gets messy and he's screaming. Cheeks flushed and kicking shit over on stage.

"'Cause Scotty doesn't know

Scotty doesn't know!

So don't tell Scotty!

Scotty doesn't know"

He finally see you when he looks back over to Steve's table. You figure he'll cut the song short now that he knows you're in the crowd but it's the opposite he starts singing directly to you.

"I can't believe he's so trusting

While I'm right behind you thrusting

Fiona's got him on the phone

And she's trying not to moan

It's a three-way call and he knows nothing, nothing"

Tears start brimming over your eyes as you try to make an escape plan. You want to yell at him and maybe cry some more but right now you just want to leave.

"Holyshitholyshitholyshit" Robin pulls your hand toward her and you break eye contact with Eddie.

She pulls you into a seat at point across the bar. Scott stands at the doorway searching for something. You turn and try to hide but he recognizes Steve's hair and then he's marching right over to the table.

"You had to study huh?" He tries to pull you up from the seat roughly while yelling in your face.

Steve stands up and so does Robin causing more of a scene. You can feel everyone starting to stare at you instead of the stage. People love a good show.

"hey dude come on, don't grab her like that" Steve removes Scott's hand on your arm.

"Don't tell me what to do Harrington! She's my fucking girlfriend I'll do what I want. And you," he turns to you pointing his finger to say something else but gets cut off as Eddie starts screaming on stage.

"Scotty will know

Scotty doesn't know

Scotty's gotta know

I'm gonna tell Scotty

Gonna tell him myself

Scotty doesn't know

Scotty has to

Scotty has to go"

You want to crawl out of your own skin as Scott turns to Eddie and listens to the song he's so graciously playing. Robin takes this time to pull you beside her as all of you stare in anticipation at the stage.

Scott turns to you, shaking his head beginning to laugh a bit.

"I'm gonna kill him" is all he says before he's jumping onto the stage.

You pull yourself out of Robins grasp but Steve pulls you back again.

"Stay here!" he shouts before following behind Scott.

Eddie still hasn't stopped the song. He's just laughing as Scott approaches him and you can see the shake in scotts shoulder as he chuckles along like they're old pals. You think you might vomit all over the floor any moment. He sings quietly the last lines of the song.

"Scotty doesn't know

Scotty doesn't know

(So don't tell Scotty)"

He says the final line, he looks you dead in the eye and with tears brimming his own, before Scott punches him to the ground.

Three things happen at once. The music stops completely, the owner starts yelling, and Steve catches up and punches Scott in the mouth.

You rush over to the side of the stage where Eddie is. He's laying there breathing raggedly as the lights illuminate his chestnut hair.

"Eddie?"

He sits up quickly wiping his eyes. His hair hangs over most of his face but you can tell he's pissed at you. You try to reach for his arm to help him up but he shoves you off.

"Don't. Go check on your boyfriend" he laughs bitterly packing up his guitar.

"I am" you say quietly hoping he'll come back to you.

"Last time I checked boyfriends and girlfriends don't have to sneak around cause someone's embarrassed. I knew what I was getting into with you, 's my fault. Don't bother coming over tomorrow or the day after that."

And with that he stands and walks out. You watch him all the way even after the door slams shut. People are still staring but they've turned on the radio.

You look over to Scott who's holding his jaw in one hand.

"We're done. Hope that freak was worth it."

You feel both relief and guilt as he says those words. Thank god you'll never have to endure being with him again, no more sweaty hand holding or boring make out sessions on your couch.

You wish you could feel more for Scott but he'll be able to go home and make you out to be the bad guy. And you are, you've ruined your parents 20 year friendship for someone who can't look you in the eye right now. He'll curse your name and send you to walk the plank when you've already got yourself hung on a rope of false promises.

It's only been seconds since Eddie left and you already miss him. You want to run after him and hold him and tell him you're sorry and that it's only ever been him. He's the one you want to hold hands with in the halls. He's the one you want to kiss at lunch and after school and before he falls asleep next to you. It's him and him and him over and again and you feel stupid not choosing him sooner.

You sob on the bar floor sticky with spilled beer and sweat and smoke. You may have just lost the only thing you've ever wanted and it's all your fault.

(Let me know if you want a part two!!!)

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gay-little-bitch · 1 year

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Personal Lies pt4

pt1 pt2 pt3 Pt5

Gareths pov:

"Hey, Jeff. Eddie is gonna be dressing a little differently today. Don't ask why. Okay byeeee!" His words were quick and abrupt. Gareth is glad that the phone went to voicemail and he didn't have to get asked questions about their whore of a friend. Corroded Coffin has a gig today at the biggest venue in town and Gareth invited Robin... and Steve.

All he's trying to do is get Steve and Eddie to go backstage after the concert and become friends and then possibly more. Robin has been a good wingman for Steve but Gareth also had to do his part for Eddie. So his mind was filled with thoughts of 'what if I made Eddie more of a slut to impress Steve?' All Gareth has to do is tell Eddie that he would look good in something slutty and Eddie would go right for it... Right?

"Hey, Eddie!" Gareth walks into his apartment to find his best friend visibly shaking with excitement. "Gare bear! You edited for tonight?" Eddie can't contain his energy. "Yeah man of course. Um, so I was thinking that you would look great in fishnets... you should totally wear them tonight." The thought was abrupt and just tumbled out of his mouth.

Eddie is clearly confused by the random request thrown his way. "Um yeah, I guess. Maybe along with that, I should wear a fucking mesh shirt and body glitter." Apparently, Gareth sucks at sensing sarcasm because he responds with a big smile and a few nods. "Gareth I was joking! I'm not looking to get harassed today. Absolutely not." Eddie puts his hands up in a frustrated sigh and walks to his room, slamming the door closed.

"Damn it."

Eddies pov:

"How the fuck did he convince me to do this?!" Eddie scans his eyes over his body in the mirror. He is wearing mesh, fishnets, a thigh garter, and a small speedo. He looks away, from the fear of backing out due to embarrassment. His wandering eyes land on his old bloody Halloween mask from his shitty doctor costume from 5 years ago. As he picks it up he notices how bare it is. It needs chains and safety pins. So that's exactly what he does.

When he puts the mask on after the renovation he notices how fuckable he looks. The dark mesh shirt is brightened by his body shimmer and the deep black leather of his tight-fitting speedo showing the outline of his dick. The amount of skin he's showing is way too much for his liking so he throws on his leather jacket and walks over to the mirror to do his makeup.

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Eddie walks over the the Edge of Curtain to stare at the right side of the crowd. There is nobody in the audience who looks like they have intentions of trying to fuck him... at least that hes aware of, so why else would Gareth try to get him the dress like this? "Hey man! You read- damn Ed's you look hot." Eddie nods sharply to Gareth as their ear pieces start counting down from 10.

"10"

What if he gets made fun of for his outfit?

"9"

What if no matter how hard he tries people still see him as a dumb kid who couldn't graduate?

"8"

What if he gets booed off stage for dressing like this?

"7"

What if his voice cracks?

"6"

What if he fucks up the lyrics?

"5"

Gareth, Jeff, and Nathan walk onto stage.

"4"

The boys introduce themselves.

"3"

What if he can't do this?

"2"

What if his jacket ruins the outfit and fucks it all up?

"1"

Fuck it. He strips off his jacket and throws it on the nearest chair.

"0"

Eddie walks out on stage as confident as he can for someone who feels like their gonna shit themselves. The huge crowd cheers as he gets to the microphone. He moves his hair out of his face and peals off the mask revealing himself. He looks around the crowd with a smile on his face as he looks right in front of him.

As he lets his head lower to the front row he spots... Steve Harrington! He's wearing the most beautiful eyeliner, a bundle of silver necklaces, a cropped Black Sabbath shirt, and his hair of course looks better then ever. Eddie lets his mouth fall open out of shock from a sweaty star struck Steve fucking Harrington staring right at him.

They held eye contact for what seemed to be a long time but was probably only a few seconds. They both refuse to peal their eyes away from each other until Eddie feels a hand on his shoulder. It's Gareth. "Eddie. Take your eyes away from the boy and start the god damn song or i'm gonna do it myself."

Eddies eyes reluctantly drag away from the beautiful creature in front of him, and he begins to slowly move his finger across his guitar to start the first song. The concert moves slower then most. Each song feels like it's in slow motion.

On the rare occasion that Eddie is able to move his eyes over to Steve, they boy is already looking at him with the look of a shocked little teddy bear. No matter what, Eddie looks away again.

The concert slowly comes to a stop but right before he leaves he takes the mesh he's wearing on his torso and throws it into the crowd. He doesn't know where it went but at least Gareth can't convince him to wear it anymore and embarrass himself.

As everybody steps off stage he grabs Gareth's arm and drags him into the nearest room. "What the fuck were you thinking?! Why did you decide to make me dress like a fucking whore and then invite Steveeee?!" Gareth walks over to the chair in the corner of the room and sits. "Well first I invited Buckley and of course she invited Steve. I genuinely had no idea he was coming until Robin texted me an hour before the show. I just thought it would be cool if you guys could come back stage and fu-"

Before he can finish his sentence Robin bursts through the door and quickly walks over to Gareth with a shy looking Steve following behind. "Gareth. We need to talk. Right now... please." Not even giving him a chance to protest the grabs his arm and pulls him out of the room leaving just Eddie and Steve.

Steve looks incredible. His hair is as Lucious as ever and his tight pants that hug his thighs just right. Eddie notices himself staring at Steve and looks back up to find Steve also checking him out.

The awkwardness is heavy in the air. Eddie starts pushing up and down on the balls of his feet. "So..." Steve is the first one to talk. "Yeah. So." For some reason the space between their faces seems to shrink. Did they get closer or was he just imagining it?

Steve's lips part and he leans in closer and closer, leaving little to no room in between them. Steve's voice is soft and sweet as he speaks and leans into Eddies space.

"Hi."

"Hey."

Notes: I fucking hate this chapter but to be fair I wrote this at like 1am in one day so..... Punctuation also isn't my strong suit so just go with it. Tell me of you wanna be tagged

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bts-trans · 2 years

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220526 Weverse Translations

RM's Comment 💬 on ARMY's Post ❇️

💜: 항상 잘 헤내고 있는건 아는데,, 그래도 걱정이 된다,, 아프지 말고..! 다치지 말고..! 항상 무리하지 않기!! RM: 걱정 마십쇼 그대 (https://weverse.io/bts/feed/1693259350378442)

💜: I know that you always do your best and accomplish things but,, I still worry,, Stay healthy..! Don't get hurt..! And always remember to not overwork yourself too much!!

RM: Don't worry my dear*

(T/N: *The word Namjoon used is often used in poetry or song lyrics as a way of referring to someone with love.)

RM's Post ❇️ with RM's and J-Hope's Comments 💬

어.. 그렇게 됐습니다. 살다보니 별 일 다 생기는데 좋은 일로 다녀오는 거니까 잘 다녀오겠습니다. 저번에 미국여행할 때 먼발치에서 보고만 왔는데 음 들어가보게 되었네요 항상은 아니지만 여러분들이 해주시는 말들 다 알고 있고 또 듣고 보고 있으니 너무 걱정 마시라는 말씀 드리고 싶어요 그게 뭐가 됐든간에 .. 잘 다녀오고 6월에 웃으며 뵙도록 하겠습니다 안녀엉 ㅡ~~ ps. 지금 지민이 만나러가는중.. ㅎㅎ; RM: 여러분 덕분에 다녀오는 거니까 여러분의 것이기도 하답니다. 많이 응원해주십시오 ㅎㅎ JH: 어 !!! 나는 진형 봤는데 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ JH: 잘 다녀오자구요!!! 우리 💜👍 (https://weverse.io/bts/artist/1693259699526115)

Uh.. So that's happening. Life has truly gone in so many unexpected ways but well, we're going to do something good, so we'll have a good trip and come back safely. When I was travelling in the US that other time, I'd just looked at it from far away but um, now I'll actually be able to go inside. This isn't always the case, but I hear all of your words for us This time too, since I'm listening, I wanted to tell you not to worry. I don't know how things will go but.. We'll have a good trip and we'll see you, with smiles, in June. Byeeee-~~

ps. I'm on my way to see Jiminie right now.. hehe;

RM: We're going thanks to you, so this is also something that's yours. Please show us lots of support hehe

JH: Oh !! And I met Jin hyung hahahahaha

JH: Let's have a good trip!!! All of us 💜👍

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warmaidensrevenge · 1 year

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Always seen you.

Pairings: Eddie x Insecure! Plus size reader x friend!Elio x friend!Billy

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A/N: Ok y'all. Be prepared. Because I cried writing this. If you don't want to be sad tonight, I suggest you wait to read this. Because hunnies it's going to hurt. I was inspired by the song Changes by xxxtentacion. It has very little repetitive lyrics. But man does it make me cry. Special thanks goes out to @salenorona23 for her help in this part. I hope it came out good. Anyways, thanks for reading. As always feedback is greatly appreciated and asks and comments are always welcomed. Kay love you byeeee.

Warnings: 18+ language, angst, hurt, hurt, and more hurt, mentions of eating disorder, smut, heartache, slow burn. Not proof read and no word count.

Summary: You finally got your guy. But something always gets in the way. Does true love conquer all?

Part 19

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Thanksgiving came and you finally got to go home for a week. When you got off the plane you heard your name being called. You scanned the sea of people and locked eyes with Matthew. You pushed through the crowd and ran into his arms.

He embraced you tightly and lifted you up. Spinning you around.

" Damn good to see ya kiddo."

You started to tear up. " I missed you so much."

He put you down and held you at arms length.

" You look good. Are you losing weight?"

You laughed. " I don't think so."

" Hmmm well you looked good. "

" So do you." You gave him another big hug. " Where's Beth?"

" She's at home making dinner. She said she wanted to have it ready when you came."

" That's sweet."

" That's my girl. She's as sweet as sugar."

You laughed. " Common, I want to go home."

Matthew grabbed your luggage and led you to the car.

When you guys pulled up to the trailer. Everything looked the same. Like time froze.

" Christmas lights already?" You asked.

" Uhh yeah. You know Beth loves decorating early."

" Dude if there's a Christmas tree up already. I'm staying at the Munson's."

Matthew chuckled. " No tree yet. But probably after Thanksgiving. We can decorate it together."

You smiled. " Yeah. I'll allow it. Just can't forget about Thanksgiving."

" What?! Never! It's my favorite holiday."

" Mine too."

" Mmm. All the food. Sweet potatos with the little marshmallows, the stuffing and ham. Awww man and that strawberry rhubarb pie."

" Eww. Okay you had me until the pie."

Matthew laughed again. " That's why I love it. No one but me likes it so I don't have to share."

A little laugh left you. " Common. I want to see Beth."

He nodded.

When you walked in the yummy smell filled your nostrils. The warm air hugged you.

Your eyes found Bethany's.

" Sweetie!"

You grinned. " Beth!"

You dropped your stuff and went to her. Giving her a big hug.

" Look at you! You look so good."

You pulled away and looked her up and down. " So do you!"

" Are you losing weight?"

" Hey, I said the same thing." Matthew said bring in your stuff.

" No you guys just haven't seen me in a while."

" No. You definitely did."

You shook your head and hugged her again. This time when you pulled away you saw an engagement ring on her manicured finger.

" Oh my God! Is that what I think it is?"

Bethany smiled. " Yes. Matthew finally asked me."

You looked at your brother. " Finally!"

You gave her another hug. " Congratulations!"

" Thank you."

You let her go and gave Matthew a hug too. " It's about time you made an honest woman out of her."

Matthew chuckled. " It was always the plan, kiddo. Just waiting for the time."

" Why don't you get washed up and we'll tell you how he proposed." Bethany said.

You nodded and grabbed your bags. When you walked away Matthew held Bethany.

" She's home."

" Yeah she is Mattie."

After an amazing meal you were so happy. You took out the trash and looked over to the Munson's trailer. Wayne was home. You went back inside and started making him a plate.

" I'm gonna head over to the Munson's. I'll be back."

Bethany and Matthew nodded.

"Oh if he asked what he should bring for Thanksgiving. Tell him we got it covered." Bethany said.

" Okay."

When you knocked on the door you could hear the TV going. When the door opened you were hit with the smell of cigarettes.

" Darlin'?"

" Hello Mr. Munson. I brought you dinner."

He opened the screen door with a huge smile on his face.

" C'mon in. It's too cold for you to be out here."

You nodded and went in. Everything was just like you remember. With a few more mugs on the wall. You and Eddie sent him a few since you two have been gone.

You put the plate down and gave him a long hug.

" Darlin' I've missed you."

" I missed you too Mr Munson."

" C'mon tell me about school." He said gesturing towards the couch.

You guys talked for hours. You learned that he started seeing someone and he got a promotion at work. He seemed to being doing really good.

" Have you talked to my nephew?"

" Not today. He's on the road."

" Well when you do, tell him to give his old man a call."

" I will."

You looked towards Eddie's room.

Wayne looked at you and noticed you looked thinner. Was it happening again? Were you not eating like before?

" You can stay the night if you want."

You hung your head. " Thank you. But I think I should go home."

You stood up and went for the door.

" Are you okay darlin'?"

You wanted to say no. You wanted to tell him that you wished Eddie was here too. That it hurt you too much to think about him missing another holiday with you. But you didn't. You just smiled.

" Yes. I'm fine. Happy to be home."

Wayne caught that sadness in your eyes. He got up and went to hug you.

" If you need to talk. I'm always here."

" Thank you Mr Munson."

" Anytime."

…

Eddie could hear laughing coming from your trailer. It had just started to snow when the cab pulled up to the trailer park. He was carrying his duffle bag and a bouquet of flowers. By some miracle they had a show cancellation due to weather in Minnesota. So he decided to come home for the holiday.

It was just about dinner time when he came. He knew everyone would be at your place and he was happy to hear you guys laughing and chatting away.

" I'm home." He said to himself

He made his way up the steps and knocked. When the door opened he was met with a very surprised Matthew.

" Hey! Shit. I didn't know you were coming."

Eddie smiled as Matthew grabbed his arm and dragged him inside.

Everyone looked at him. While he said his hellos, he looked for you but you weren't there.

" Good to see you son. Can't pick up a phone and call me?" Wayne said, giving him a hug.

" I'm sorry. I'll get better at that."

Eddie looked to your brother. " Where's my girl?"

" She's in her room. Tell her dinners ready."

Eddie nodded and walked down the hall. Your door was cracked open a little and he saw you sitting at your small desk drawing.

He heard you sniffle looking out the window to his trailer and say something.

" Happy Thanksgiving Eds."

His heart hurt hearing that. He slowly opened the door and moved silently into the room. He quietly put down his bag.

" Hey Angel."

You gasped and turned around.

" Eds?"

" Hi baby."

You wiped your tears and got up. Throwing yourself into his arms. You buried your face in his chest and cried.

" How?"

" The universe was looking out for us. Saying we needed to be together tonight."

You pulled away and wiped your face. " I…I…I can't believe you're here. I was just wishing for you."

Eddie looked you over. You looked different than he remembered. Your face was different. Your eyes were different.

" Well your wish came true. I'm here."

A small smile found your lips. " Umm I-"

Matthew came." Guys. Food done."

You nodded looking at him. And Eddie watched you wiped your mascara that stained your cheeks away.

" Baby? Are-are you okay?"

You went to him and gave him a kiss on the cheek. " Much better now. You came home."

Your smile was genuine. But, that pain you were gonna feel when he left again was creeping around the corner.

He held out the flowers." These are for you."

You smelled them and hummed.

" Thank you Eds. I love them."

"Let's go Angel. I want to hear all about the award."

You grabbed his hand and he led you to the living room. Eddie took off his coat and watched you put the flowers in a vase. Something was wrong. He knew it. He just didn't know what.

Everyone was asking him questions throughout dinner. He didn't even get a chance to talk about your award. But you didn't seem to mind. You just sat there smiling and laughing with the others. Eddie held your hand the entire time. Bringing it to his lips every now and again.

There was a moment when you got up to use the restroom when he noticed you barely touched your food. He eyed the bathroom worried that you were getting sick or something.

" So how long are you staying?" Wayne asked, pounding a beer.

" A few days."

" Good." Wayne leaned in so that he could whisper to Eddie. " She needs you. I think she might be getting bad again."

Now Eddie was definitely worried. The last time he wasn't here to see how you were. But you told him about your depression. Was it coming back? Why? Did he do something to bring that on?

When you came back you gave him a kiss on the cheek and took your plate away. Putting foil on it and placing it in the fridge.

You poured yourself some water and stood in the kitchen watching your family. Your eyes met Eddie's and you felt better. Holidays were always rough on you. Even more so knowing that you would have to leave your family in a few days.

Lately your depression was kicking your ass. Though you were happy to be home and even happier now that Eddie was there. It just was a little too much too fast.

The last couple of months were a blur. School and work was all you really did. Sure you hung out with Billy and Elio. But you never felt whole. You missed your family, you missed Wayne, and you really missed Eddie. You felt like a zombie. Just roaming the days, waiting for the day you saw everyone to feel alive again.

School was good and all the extra curricular activities were time wasters. Which kept you occupied. But like always there was something missing.

That something was staring you right in the eyes.

Bethany came over and hugged you.

" I'm so happy you're home. I've been dying to hear about everything."

You hugged her back. Not knowing how much you needed a hug from her right now.

Tears fell down your face as you let her go.

" Don't cry sweetie."

" I'm s-sorry… I just missed this. I missed you…all of you."

She hugged you again. Much tighter this time.

" We missed you too sweetie. I can't wait for tomorrow."

You pulled away again. " What's tomorrow?"

" You and I are having a girl's day."

You smiled and nodded. " I would like that."

" Good. Because we're gonna get our hair done. And our nails. Then we're gonna get lunch at Benny's. Then go shopping."

You laughed. " Okay. Sounds like a plan."

Eddie watched that interaction and felt a little better. You started looking like you again. Then you came back to sit with him and snuggled up against him. He put his arm around your waist and pulled you closer kissiyyour forehead.

After a little bit Matthew and Wayne went to watch the game as you and Bethany started putting the food away.

Eddie was making calls.

When it was time for pie you and Bethany started to serve everyone.

" So I did something."

You looked at Eddie and he was grinning.

" After you guys have your girls day. Do you want to go to the school and play D&D with the kids?"

Your eyes lit up. " Yes! That would be so fun."

Eddie chuckled. " Perfect. It's all set up."

" Are you gonna be dungeon master?"

" Unfortunately no. Dustin is writing a campaign as we speak."

" Oh. This should be interesting."

Eddie got up and went around the counter to hold you.

" There you are baby. Had me worried there for a second."

Later that night you and Eddie got ready for bed.

" Angel?"

" Hmmm?"

Are you sure you're okay?"

You climbed into bed. " Yeah. I'm okay."

Your words didn't convince him. He got into bed too and pulled you into his arms.

" You would tell me if anything's wrong right?"

You nodded.

" Baby, something's going on. I can tell."

You sighed. You never could hide things from him.

" I…I've been…out of it lately."

" Have you stopped taking care of yourself?"

" What do you mean? Like showering?"

" Baby you know what I'm talking about."

You sighed again. You did know what he was talking about.

" I…I just lose my appetite sometimes."

" I can see that. Everyone can."

" I'm sorry."

Eddie made you look at him. " How long?"

You didn't want to answer that. You didn't want to worry him. But you needed to be honest.

" Since…since you left."

Eddie shook his head and held you tighter.

" You can't do that. You can't keep doing that everytime I leave."

" I know."

" Baby, I need you to be healthy. Most of all I need you to be happy. "

" Eds it's hard. I know I shouldn't have you be my only source of happiness. But, your absence is the only reason why I'm unhappy."

Eddie hung his head. " What do you want me to do? What should I do? Do you need me to stop coming? Do you want me to leave you alone? Or do you want me to stay? I will stay if that's what you want. Because I need you to be okay. I need you to know that I would do anything for you. I would do absolutely anything to make sure you are happy."

" Eddie, I never needed anyone. But I need you. I don't want you to go. But you can't stay."

" Then move in with me."

" What?"

" Move to California. Move in with us. And then you know no matter what. I will always come home to you."

" I-I. School?"

" Transfer. They're not MIT but you could go to Stanford or Berkeley."

" Eds MIT is my dream school."

" I know that. But baby please. You need to be with me. I need you to be with me."

You shook your head. " I can't afford to go to them."

" I'll pay for it."

" No." You shook your head again and moved from his arms. "I can't."

" Don't you want to be with me?"

" Yes, Eds. I do."

" Then we can do this." He moved to sit on his knees between your legs. " Come home with me."

You looked at him with tears in your eyes. Because you knew that no matter what excuse you could come up with. You would choose him. Even if that meant sacrificing your future.

" Don't….don't ask me this."

He cupped your face." Why not?"

You were shaking and it was getting hard to breathe.

" Because you know me…you know I would give up everything for you."

" I know." He kissed you. " I know you would." He kissed you again. " That's why I'm asking. Because I want you to be with me…I-I can't do these visits anymore."

He kissed both of your cheeks. Then his lips moved to your chin down to your neck. One of his hands went to the small of your back pulling you closer.

" I want you to be with me. To be in my bed when I come home. I want to hold you every night. I want to wake up with you."

He kissed across your collarbone and stopped at your clavicle. Resting his forehead there.

" Let's be together. Please…Please."

You lifted his face and kissed him deeply. His hands went for your shirt. Revealing your bare chest. You took off his and laid down.

He pulled off your bottoms and pulled down his. He continued kissing all over your chest as he aligned himself to your aching core.

" Say it…please say yes." He begged.

Your hands mapped his back up to his hair.

" Please baby. Please. I need you to say it."

" Eds."

" Baby?"

" Yes. I will-"

You gasped as Eddie thrusted into you. Your whole body tingled. With shaky breath you said it again.

" Yes….yes."

Eddie's lips found yours.

" Thank you…Mmm thank you." He whimpered.

You covered your mouth to silence your moans. And Eddie buried his face in your neck. The sound of his hips snapping against yours filled the room.

You felt that familiar knot in your stomach before you came.

Eddie groaned as he felt your slick surrounding him. He came long and hard. And as he started to slow you begged him not to.

" Please. Don't stop."

And he didn't. He whined at the sensitivity. And it hurt. It hurt so good.

You came again with him doing it for the second time.

He never did that before. He didn't think he could. But with you. He could do anything.

Once you guys came down from the incredible high he kissed you with so much love that he had you seeing stars.

He looked deep into your eyes after and stroked you hair.

" I know you said it. But I need to know you meant it…move in with me."

You moved his bangs so you could see that beautiful face.

"Yes, Eds. I'll move in with you."

…

The next day felt weird. Last night you made a decision that you couldn't back out of. Not that you wanted to. If Eddie asked you that in any lifetime. You would always say yes. But, you needed to figure out how to do it.

You need to figure out how to tell Matthew. You knew he would be against it. He would tell you it was stupid to throw away your free education like that. And though he would be right. It didn't matter to you. All that mattered was Eddie.

Sure you knew that you were now dependent on him. And it wasn't a good way to be. But at the same time. It was Eddie Munson. The only person you ever loved. The only being who knew you like the back of his hand. The only person in the world you wanted to be with.

When you went to the salon with Bethany you thought maybe she could help.

" I…sweetie I don't know what to say."

You sighed. " I know it's a rash decision. But I want to be with him."

" I know honey. But he's asking for too much."

" It's not a lot when we love each other."

She sighed. " That's true. But you guys are still so young. And you have a whole life ahead of you. There's no reason to rush this."

" We've always rushed things. And I know that it's not ideal. But I'm nothing if I'm not with him. You know what it's like to be utterly and completely in love with someone. You've been seeing Matthew since highschool. And you guys went through a hard time. But in the end. You guys are still growing strong. Why can't Eddie and I be like that."

Bethany was quiet for a moment. " Sweetie, I'm not saying not to do it. What I'm saying is. Are you doing it because it's best for you? Or are you doing it because it's hard to be apart for so long? I know when the relationship started it was you two all the time. And you got used to the idea of him always being around. Now that he's gone. It's like you're not you anymore. You barely call us. And when you do you're always crying. I get that you miss him. But what I don't like about this. Is that you're losing yourself to this. You have changed so much that I don't even recognize you anymore. You were once this person who looked forward to what the day was going to bring. You had this light in you that shined so bright. Now I can barely see it. And I know that it's not Eddie doing that to you. Because when I see you with him. You are at your brightest. But you need to be able to do that again. Without him. You need to be your own person. Learn to be happy on your own. And the same goes for Eddie. He's lost himself too. He used to be confident and so chatty. But he's not like that anymore. It's like he only lives for you. And please. Please don't get me wrong. That's a beautiful thing. To find someone who would burn this whole world down just to see you happy. But both of you need to find what makes you happy and content. Without the other being the others. So that you can come together and share that with one another."

You stood quiet. All this conversation was doing was making you doubt your feelings for Eddie.

" Okay. Answer me this. If you could change one thing about your relationship, what would that be?"

You answered immediately. " The distance."

" Why?"

"I- because it's breaking me. It's breaking my spirit. Everything I do. All the things I experience are pointless if I can't share it with him."

Bethany grabbed your hand after you wiped away your tears.

" Well then. You have to do what you have to do. If Eddie is worth it. If the love is worth holding onto. Then go…go be with him. I'll support you no matter what you choose to do. And if the day comes where you feel like you made a mistake. God forbid, you will always have a home with us…just please find that girl again. I miss her. "

You wiped your face again. " Thank you."

The sadness of that conversation stayed with you most of the day. You felt your heart breaking. You knew that being young had issues of its own. Everything felt like life or death. But you knew deep down that you might be making a mistake. It didn't matter though. If you fell. You knew Eddie would always be there to catch you.

…

Eddie was waiting for you to come home. He was really excited about you saying you would move with him. But a small part of him still worried about you. He didn't like the idea he had that having you move in would cure your depression. It wasn't an exact cure. But it was something that should be talked about and have time to go over. And last night he really didn't give you much of a choice. Yes it was what he'd been wanting since you visited him. But the thought of giving up your education had him in doubt. He never wanted to ask you to do that. He never wanted to get in the way of your future. All he wanted was to be a part of it.

Still, he needed this as much as you did.

He was better with you. He was himself again. He had his passion for things back. He had his reason for being. His inspiration.

Eddie had a hard time when he left after your anniversary. Again, he found himself in an uphill battle with his anxiety and depression.

He really wanted to drink his feelings away. But he knew that you would be disappointed in him if he did. So he threw himself into work. But something was off. He tried writing new songs. But all he ever came up with was heartbreaking ones. Then he got to talk to you or see you. And the words started to flow.

Even now. Seeing you getting out of the car, looking like a rose blooming when you saw him.

The instant you locked eyes with Eddie all your worries went away. You lit up like a Christmas tree. Eddie jogged to the car and opened the door for you.

" M'lady" he said, holding out his hand.

You giggled while taking it.

Bethany watched you guys hug each other and just knew. You have found your person. Your other half. And though she had her doubts. Eddie was the one for you. Now all she had to do was help convince Matthew that what you needed was to be with him.

Later that night you found yourself in quite the predicament.

You sat there looking over your character sheet with Eddie whispering in your ear.

" Go for it."

" I don't think I can roll enough for a kill shot."

" Well there's no shame in running."

You looked at your very handsome boyfriend. " I have a plan."

Eddie gave you his perfect smirk.

" Dustin. I would like to use my speed to touch my party."

Dustin narrowed his eyes over his copy of Advanced Dungeons & Dragons screen.

" Roll for initiative."

You did and got a nat 20.

Eddie sighed. " That would have been enough."

" It was a gamble. But trust me."

" Always."

You bit your lip and let out a little laugh.

" What's your next move?"

" As I touch each and everyone of my fellow companions I say use a resurrection spell."

Eddie's mouth dropped.

Dustin nodded. " Roll for success or failure."

" Common baby. Roll more than a 7."

You picked up the dice again. " Blow on this yeah?"

Eddie grinned and blew on the dice.

As you threw it you watched and prayed. Your eyes widened and Eddie got up and shouted.

" YES! THERE IT IS! That's 11 Henderson.

He grabbed your face and planted a big smooch on your lips.

Dustin sat back and shook his head. " Alright, the party is at full power. Eddie, it's your go."

He sat back down and gave Dustin a shit eating grin. " I want to attack."

…

The campaign ended with a victory. You sat there watching your friends laughing and clapping.

Just like old times.

You felt like your old self again. And Eddie looked like his. He was still that big nerd under that rock star persona he had on.

While you helped clean up you saw Eddie wrestling with Dustin.

" It's good to see you guys." Mike said, picking up the dice and putting them in a little velvet bag.

" Yeah. It was a well needed visit. You guys are growing up so fast. I'm so happy to see you guys still do this."

Mike smiled. " Oh we're nerds for life."

You laughed. " Glad to hear it."

" Anytime you guys come back. There will always be a seat for you and Eddie."

You looked over to Eddie. He looked like he was on cloud nine.

" Thanks bud. I'll have to tell Eddie he should host a game or two when he gets back to LA."

" He's not doing that already?"

You looked back to Mike. " He's busy. Always working."

Mike furrowed his brow. " That sucks. He loves D&D. "

" Yeah he does."

" Well, maybe when he has time again. All of you can get together and work something out."

You smiled. " Yeah definitely."

When everything was cleaned up and chairs put away, you sat down in Eddie's old throne. Well now it was Dustin's. You closed your eyes and grinned to yourself. This was all you wanted. To feel normal again. To get back to the you who had hobbies. The you that enjoyed the little things.

" Hey Angel."

You opened your eyes and were met with Eddie's big beautiful brown eyes.

" Not tired already?"

You shook your head. " No. Just enjoying this. It feels good to be back here."

Eddie squatted in front of you, putting his hands on your knees. " It really does. Almost feels like we never left."

" I think a part of us never did. Our younger selves are still here. Still roaming these halls."

" And we now get to remember what it's like to have nothing to worry about. No job to go to. No care in the world."

" Being adult sucks."

Eddie chuckled. " That it does…but you know what adults can do when the kids are gone?"

Eddie's hands ran up and down your thighs.

You leaned forward and stopped only inches away from his face.

" Are you saying we get to play a game of our own?"

" Mrs Munson." Eddie raised a brow. " Is my Angel thinking what I'm thinking?"

You bit your lip. " Where do you want me Eds? Here on the throne. Or on the table."

Eddie's voice went deep and it was filled with lust. " I want you on both."

You leaned back into the throne. " Hmmm. I always picture you taking me in here."

" You have?"

You nodded.

Eddie got up and started taking off his clothes. Once he was down to his red plaid boxers he went for your bottoms.

When they were off he got to his knees and pulled at your hips. He grabbed one leg and draped it over his shoulder. While you hooked the other on the arm of the chair.

" Oh look at my girl." He took a big whiff and groaned.

He started to lap through your folds. Tasting your sweetness. Your fingers wrapped in his curls while your head fell back.

" Such a good fucking pussy. So wet and perfect."

You sighed at his words and moaned at the feeling of him flicking his tongue against your hardened nub.

" So good. Mmm you taste so damn good."

You felt his finger slide into you throbbing hole. Mewling in the process.

You felt your release coming. And your legs quivered as you gave in.

Eddie moved away and pulled you to your feet. Kissing you in the heat of passion. Making you taste yourself.

You whimpered against his lips as he moved you to the table.

Once your bottom hit the edge you broke the kiss by turning around.

Eddie pressed his hardened length against your ass while his hands went under your shirt. You lifted your arms as he slid it off.

You put your hands flat on the table.

Eddie kissed your shoulder, unlatching your bra.

You let the straps fall down. Pushing the garment to the side.

" You want it? You want this cock?"

" Y-yes pl-please."

" Fuck. That's my girl…such a good fucking girl."

Eddie pushed himself into your sopping cunt.

" Yes. Yes. Jesus H...Yes."

His grip on your hips grew firmer as he fucked up into you.

You dropped down to your elbows and threw your head back.

Eddie gave you ass a hard smack. Making you moan so loud that it echoed through the room.

" Like that? You like that baby?"

" Fu-fuck. Yes-yes."

He smacked you on the other cheek.

" God Eddie!"

" Ugh. Shit. You…fuck…this pussy"

Eddie could complete a thought let alone a sentence. His large callused hand slid down your back and he slumped over you His long digits curled around your throat. Tugging you up so that your back was flushed with his chest.

" Good girl. You're doing so fucking good....Taking my cock so damn well."

" E-Eddieee." You whined.

" Shit. You gonna cum?"

" Close…so close."

" Not yet, baby. Not yet."

Eddie let you rest back down on the table. This time he held your head down. You screwed your eyes closed trying hard not to come. But Eddie was going so hard and so deep that he had your eyes rolled back.

" Yes. Fuck! This is mine. This perfect little pussy is mine. "

His hand moved back to your hips and he pulled at them while he rammed into you. Going even deeper. His tip smashed your sweet spot like a button on an arcade game.

Your hands gripped the edges of the table.

" Eddie please….god please let me cum."

Eddie smacked your ass again. This time, it was harder than the ones before it.

" Cum baby. Fucking cum for me."

With that said you let go.

" Ooohhhh fuuuck. That's it. That's it. That's my girl. Fuckin' soak my cock."

Your core shook uncontrollably. Your legs felt like jelly.

And as you finished Eddie pulled out and came on your bottom. Shooting thick white ribbons coated your back. The heat from it made you quiver.

Eddie was breathless " Oh. Mmmm. Yeah. "

He bent over and kissed your bottom where he hit. Soothing the pain he knew he caused.

" Stay right there. I'm gonna get something to clean you up."

" Oh-okay." You sighed.

Not like you were gonna move anytime soon.

Eddie came back quick and started wiping off his cum. He helped you up after and pulled you towards the throne to sit on his lap.

While resting your head on the slope of his neck he stroked your back.

" Are you okay? Did I get too rough?"

" N-no." You swallowed. " That was so good. You've been holding out on me."

Eddie chuckled and kissed your forehead.

" I didn't know I could get that way with you."

" I'm not made of glass. I can take a pounding."

Eddie let his head fall back and let out a throaty laugh.

" Good to know."

You stayed like that for a while until you yawned.

" Common Angel. Let's go home.

The rest of the time was spent with family and friends. You started finding yourself again. But as soon as it started you had to leave. And so did Eddie. You both sat in the airport hanging onto each other.

" So tell me the plan again."

You kissed his cheek. " Okay. So I'm gonna finish the year. Then I'm gonna transfer to Berkeley in the fall. That gives us the summer to do whatever you want."

" And are you sure this is what you want?"

" I want you. And you're there. So I'm coming. But…you have to talk to Jeff and Gareth first."

" Already did. They said they can't wait."

You giggled and kissed his cheek again. " Well then it's settled. I'm moving to California."

Eddie smiled that big beautiful smile that showed all his laugh lines.

" Finally!"

…

You had a seriously long day. You were burnt out from all the midterms. Christmas was just around the corner and you really needed some family time. But what you were really in need of was Eddie. You were supposed to meet him tomorrow and finally get to see them perform.

A few weeks after you came back things were hectic. Elio and Billy weren't too happy with your plans to leave. But eventually they got used to the idea of you moving. So instead of dwelling on it. They spent all their free time with you. Secretly planning to get you to not leave.

It was Friday afternoon and you had planned on staying in and packing. But Elio and Billy wanted to go to the movies and catch Three Amigos. So you got ready and waited outside for your friends.

You heard a familiar screeching from around the corner.

Billy was blasting Van Halen when he pulled up. He turned down the music and jumped out. You watched as he ran to the passenger door and opened it for you. Giving you a big smile while holding out a flower for you.

" Hey there sweets. It looks like it's just me and you."

You scoffed. " E ditched us again?"

" Yup. But you always have a good time with me right?" He smirked.

You rolled your eyes and went to him. Before you got in his car you took the flower and grinned.

" Yes William. I have a great time with you."

" Hey! Only my grandmother calls me William."

You laughed and looked up at him. " Now I do too, William."

Billy licked his lips and chuckled while closing the door.

When you guys got to the theater you went up to the ticket booth to pay. But Billy gently tugged you back.

" Two for Little Shop of Horrors." He said to the attendant.

" Wait what?"

Billy smiled at you. " You wanted to see that one right?"

" I did. But we don't-"

" We're gonna watch that one sweets."

You grinned, shaking your head.

When you guys went inside you went to the snack bar.

" Umm want to share popcorn William?"

He pulled you back again.

" Hey?!"

" I got this sweets."

" You paid for the movie. Let me pay for the snacks."

He didn't look at you. " Don't worry. I said I got it."

You sighed.

Billy chuckled. " Uhh can we get a large popcorn and two cokes?"

You were about to tell him that you wanted a cherry coke but he held up his finger.

" Sorry. Make that one regular and one cherry."

You laughed a little looking down.

How did he know that?

Once you guys got your order you went to the theater.

" So excited for tomorrow?"

" Yes! I can't wait for you guys to meet Eds."

" Me too. I looked for some of their stuff but it's hard to find them."

" Actually. I made a tape. I can't believe I haven't shown you yet. Dude, you're gonna love them."

You both smiled at each. You were extremely happy. Your new friends could meet your old friends. And you could be in Eddie's arms again.

It hurt when the tour was extended for another month. Eddie had planned on staying in town until they needed him for whatever. But as usual plans changed. But you figured since you've waited three long months and been hurt a few times during. That all of it was going to be worth it. You would be able to see Eddie soon. And eventually move in together. You guys were gonna spend Christmas with your family and on New Year's he was gonna fly you out to LA.

While you watched the opening credits you bobbed your head to the song making Billy chuckled.

You looked over to him and gave him that beautiful smile. He really wanted to pull you closer and kiss you. But he made a promise to himself that he wouldn't try anything out of respect for Eddie. You were gonna leave in a few short months so he wanted as much time with you as he could.

So he sat there watching you more than the movie.

About half way through. You leaned over and thanked him for picking the movie. When you sat back out of instinct, Billy put his arm behind you on the head rest.

When you saw that you sat up straight.

" Umm I'll be right back." You whispered and left.

Billy watched you rush away and palmed his forehead.

" Shit man! Now you scared her away." He told himself.

You went straight to the bathroom.

What the hell was that?

You looked at yourself in the mirror and shook your head.

Why would he do that? He knows I'm with Eddie.

" Is this a date?" You said out loud.

No. We're friends.

You tried to get your thoughts together. Every time Elio flaked on you guys. Billy always paid for everything. Even though you tried to fight him on it. He never said anything to make you think that he liked liked you. But you would catch him looking at you sometimes.

There were so many unanswered questions running through your head. But you were quickly distracted when a few girls came in. You turned on the faucet and started washing your hands.

Had you been that oblivious again? Were you doing stuff that gave him the wrong idea?

Shit! What is Eddie gonna say?

" Oh my God! I'm so excited to see them tomorrow." One said

" I know right! I hope that I can get the drummer's number." Another said.

You grabbed paper towels and dried your hands as the girls fixed their makeup.

" Did you see that article about Eddie and Ava?" One said, popping her lips to spread the lipstick.

You froze when you heard that.

" No. What did it say?"

" Oh that they're a hot new couple."

UHHH WHAT?!

" NO WAY! I thought maybe I had a chance."

" Right! There's even a picture of them kissing."

Your heart fell.

No. That can't be true.

One of them gasped. " Don't say that."

" No really. Here, look."

You saw one take out a magazine from her purse and flipped it open. Showing the other what she's talking about.

" Damnit! Awww they look so cute together."

You cleared your throat and took a step towards them.

" Umm are you guys talking about Eddie from Corroded Coffin?"

They looked at you and smiled.

"Yeah. Are you a fan?" One said.

" Ummm. Yeah. I umm went to school with them."

" Oh My God No Way!" The other practically yelled. " Are they sweet? I just know they are. We're going to their concert tomorrow. Are you going too? They're going to be so good. We've seen them four times already. That cover of "Separate Ways" is so good."

The girl kept going on and on. That you barely got a word in.

" Can I see that?" You asked, pointing at the magazine.

The one holding it handed it to you while they kept talking to each other.

You took it and sure enough there was a picture of Eddie and Ava sharing a kiss. You looked at the day it was taken. It was taken last week.

The feeling in your heart was unbearable. You handed the magazine back and ran out.

You felt like you couldn't breathe. So you went outside. You walked a few feet away when you grabbed your chest and sobbed. After a minute you went to the convenience store across the street and bought the same magazine. You found your way to the curb and sat down after.

You opened to the picture again.

Why Eddie? You promised.

You closed the magazine not wanting to see it any more and sat there with your face in your hands. What were you supposed to do? That happened last week and Eddie didn't even mention it. How were you going to face him tomorrow? What would he say? Would he keep lying to you? How could he do this after you agreed to move in? There was no way in hell all your questions were gonna wait.

…

Billy started to worry about you when you didn't come back. After about 10 minutes he got up to look for you. He walked around and went to the ladies room and called out to you from the door. But you didn't answer.

Shit! He thought.

Did he make you run away when he did that?

He kept looking for you. Finally going outside he saw you sitting on the curb with your head in your arms, leaning on your knees.

He jogged to you and kneeled in front of you.

" Sweets. I'm sorry. I didn't mean-"

You looked up at him. When he saw your eyes all puffy with a waterfall of tears coming down. He knew you weren't upset about that. The only person he saw you cry for was that guy of yours.

" What happened?"

You shook your head looking away. " Can you take me home please?"

Billy's heart broke for you. And all he wanted to do was hold you until you felt better. But he didn't. Instead he held out his hand and helped you up.

When he pulled up to your building, he was going to get off and open your door. But you were out of his car before he could get his seatbelt off.

He heard you say thank you before closing the door and took off.

Billy knew something awful happened. But he just didn't know what. Until he saw you left the magazine on the seat.

He picked it up and flipped through the pages until he saw tear stains on one. When he saw it, he looked at the building's door. He could beat the shit out of Eddie right now. And a part of him wanted to drive to New York right now and confront him about it. But he couldn't leave you.

So he parked the car and waited until he saw Elio come home.

Billy jumped out and ran to him.

" E."

Elio turned around. " Hey the movie's over already?"

" No man. Something happened."

Billy handed the magazine to him and Elio gasped.

" Where is she?!"

" She's upstairs."

Elio took off with Billy on his tail.

When Elio opened the door he saw you sitting on the edge of the bed with a picture in your hand. You weren't looking at it. Instead you were looking out the window.

" Hun?"

Elio got closer while Billy closed the door behind him.

When Elio saw the picture, his heart broke for you. It was your funny prom picture. He sat down next to you and waited.

"I…I have to go to New York…today." You said just above a whisper. Still not looking at them.

Elio and Billy exchanged looks.

" I'll drive." Billy said.

"Let's go now. We can make it just after they get there." Elio suggested.

You looked at the picture and ran your fingers over Eddie's face.

You sniffled and stood up. Putting the picture back where it was.

" Okay. Let's go." You said as you went to the door.

…

During the 3 and a half hour drive, Billy kept looking in the rearview to check if you were okay. But you didn't even look like you anymore. You looked like you were gonna be sick.

Elio tried to hold your hand but you just kept your eyes fixed out the window. Sometimes letting tears fall.

Billy turned on the radio thinking it would help you feel better.

A few songs later the disk jockey started talking.

" This is Scary Terry at WJRR 101.1. Where we play rock and roll 25 hours a day, 8 days a week. I'm coming at you low lives with a…Get this… A cover! These two bands worked their magic and created something special. Their songs are quickly climbing the charts. And I am happy to announce both bands will be performing tomorrow night to a sold out arena. So here they are for the first time on the sound waves. Corroded Coffin and Bad Decisions singing Separate Ways."

You looked at the radio when the intro played. Elio was going to turn it off but you stopped him.

" NO! This…this is the first time they're on the radio."

Elio gave you a look but you shook your head and said it was okay.

Your gaze went down to your lap. You smiled to yourself hearing Eddie's voice.

You made it Eds…I knew you could do it.

…

When you guys got there you saw the tour bus right away. Billy parked the car and turned around.

" Sweets. Are you sure you want to do this?"

" Yeah. I think you need more time to think Hun."

You looked at your friends and nodded.

" I need to do this…I need to know why."

You got out of the car with the guys following. You went to Eddie's room and knocked. Your hands were shaking and your heart just kept falling. You knocked again and he didn't answer.

When no one came to the door you went to Gareth's and Jeff room.

" Hey! Oh my God!" Jeff said when he opened the door.

He pulled you into a hug.

" Hey"

Jeff let you go. " I thought you weren't coming until tomorrow?"

" Y-yeah. Came early….where's Eddie?"

" Oh umm he and Gareth went to find a meeting. They should be back soon."

You looked at Elio and he frowned.

Jeff knew something was wrong.

" Hey. What's up?"

" Can…can we come in."

" Yeah-yeah."

You explained everything. And Jeff had no clue what you were talking about. Elio showed him the picture and Jeff left for a minute. When he came back Jan was with him.

" Y/n?"

" Hi Jan." You went and gave her a hug. " Do you know about this?"

She took the magazine and sighed.

She went on to explain that after a show everyone went out for a celebratory drink. Eddie just had one until a few fans started giving him shots. He first said no thank you. But then they begged. A few shots later and he was hammered.

Ava took advantage of the situation. When Jan went to the bathroom she saw Ava leading Eddie out the back entrance. She followed them and saw Ava kiss him. Even though he was out of it he still pushed her away.

Jan intervened and took Eddie back to the tour bus. She had no idea someone took a picture or that it ended up in a tabloid.

The next morning Eddie didn't remember a thing. All he knew was that he needed to find an AA meeting. And since then wherever they were he would find one.

" So you didn't tell him what happened?" You asked.

Jan shook her head. " I'm really sorry."

You wanted to be mad at her. But you were so overwhelmed with heartache that you couldn't.

All of a sudden Ava came into the room.

" Hey are you guys ready for-"

When she saw you she froze.

You were so fast that no one could stop you while you tackled her to the ground.

Jan stopped Jeff from pulling you off of her.

" No. She deserves it. Let y/n get a few licks."

The next thing you knew Billy was pulling you off of her. Ava was screaming her head off as she crawled backwards.

Out of breath you shouted.

" I TOLD YOU! I TOLD YOU WE WERE GONNA HAVE A PROBLEM IF YOU TRIED ANYTHING."

" YOU KNOCKED OUT MY TOOTH YOU BITCH!" Ava shouted back, getting to her feet.

You tried to pull out of Billy's arms.

" YOU'RE LUCKY THAT'S ALL I DID YOU FUCKING CUNT!"

Ava took a step back and spit up blood. " You two deserve each other!"

Jan went to Ava. " Let's go. You've done enough."

She pulled her arm and left.

Elio came to you and cupped your face.

" Hun calm down. I need you to calm down."

Your eyes went back and forth between his. Billy felt you finally relax a little and his hold on you loosened.

Elio let you go and Billy turned you around to look at your hands

Billy looked at Jeff. " Hey man. Do you have any ice?"

Jeff nodded and went to get some.

Billy led you to the couch and started cleaning up your hand.

" Damn sweets. You really did some damage."

When you didn't say anything he looked at you and you had this distant look in your eyes.

When Jeff came back Elio took the ice and wrapped it in a towel. Bringing it to you after.

No one said anything for a while. The guys didn't know what to say or do. But suddenly they heard banging and shouting.

" YOU FUCKING BITCH! WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO?!"

Eddie's voice brought you back. You looked at the door and waited for him.

…

Eddie's day started off so good. He was happy about playing a sold out show. But what had him in a world of joy was that you were coming to see him. Sure it was only for the night. But he was ecstatic anyway. It's been too long since you guys were together. Since Thanksgiving he had been missing everything. His uncle, his trailer, his girl.

After that day in the airport he found a jewelry store and bought you an engagement ring. It wasn't anything huge or glamorous. But the simple white gold band with a .50 carat diamond was screaming your name.

The plan was on Christmas Eve to ask Matthew for your hand. Then on Christmas day, he was going to tell you that he didn't want to spend another Christmas without you either. He was going to explain that even though you guys still had a long way to go. That you guys could wait until you graduate to do it.

He was going to get down on one knee in front of all your shared loved ones and ask you to spend the rest of this life with him. And if God would let him into heaven. He was going to be with you there too.

However, his whole world was going to come crashing down.

When he and Gareth got out of the meeting they were waiting for a cab, when some fans saw them and asked them for autographs. And of course they obliged. But there was one fan who asked him to sign a magazine that shocked Eddie.

When he looked at the picture he had no fucking idea when that happened. Then it dawned on him and he was livid.

He apologized to the fans and grabbed Gareth. Pulling him towards a taxi.

When they got to the hotel Eddie b lined it to Ava's room. He pounded and pounded on the door. Cursing and yelling. Then when she didn't come to the door, Eddie started to punch it.

" Munson!"

Eddie turned and saw Jeff heading towards him.

Eddie ignored him and started yelling again. This time Jeff and Gareth pulled him away so that he wouldn't break the door down.

" Stop it! She's not here. Jan took her to the dentist."

"Let me go! What dentist!?"

" Eddie listen to me…y/ns here…and she's upset."

Eddie stopped fighting him and calmed down.

The guys let him go and stepped back.

" She-she's here? Where?"

Jeff nudged his head towards his room.

Eddie sighed and went to you. He didn't know when you saw it. But he knew that you saw the picture too.

When Eddie walked in you were on the couch with Elio and Billy. The moment your eyes met his he knew you were gone.

" I…can we have a minute?" He asked.

Elio and Billy nodded.

You looked away from Eddie trying to stop the tears from coming.

" If you need me. I'll be right outside." Billy whispered.

You gave him a barely noticeable nod.

Everyone went outside leaving you to Eddie.

Eddie stood just a few feet away from you having no clue what to say other than he was sorry. But he remembered what you said about that word. That he said it too much.

" I umm I heard you on the radio on the way here." You said still looking at the ground.

Eddie wanted to smile. He wanted to go to you and hug you. And be happy like he was this morning. But he knew you were hurt and you were trying to cover it.

Eddie stepped closer to you. " Angel i-"

You held up your hand.

"I guess you know why I'm here early."

He got closer " Baby I don't remember-"

" I know…and I understand. It was her."

Eddie finally got close enough that he could sit next to you.

" Baby please look at me."

When you didn't he grabbed your hand.

" Y/n?"

You sighed. "Eddie… I don't want this anymore."

" W-what?"

" I don't want to be in this relationship anymore."

" N-no. Y-you can't."

You finally met his eyes.

"Eddie, I just can't do this. It hurts too much….I can't do the distance anymore. I can't handle you being around her."

" N-no. You're moving in. And-and I'm done. Done with her. Done with this damn life."

You cupped his cheek. " No. Your dream is finally coming true."

" Well I don't want it without you so no. You're not doing this."

" Please Eddie, just listen to me."

You moved your hand away and looked down at his hands. They were getting bruised like yours were.

" Ever since we started talking it's been tough. And we got through it together. But now when things get hard, I find myself waiting for the next time something bad happens. Because when we're apart. Bad things keep happening. Or there's always something or someone getting in the way."

Eddie got up and moved to kneel in front of you. He grabbed your hands and kissed each one.

" Ava could never get between us. Baby I love you. And I'm going to fight for us. But I need you to not give up. I know this is difficult. And I guarantee that it's not always going to be sunshine and rainbows. But we have a plan. Please don't change your mind on me now."

" I know that. But it's not working for me. I care about you. I do. I just can't do another 6 months like this. Even you have problems with being apart. You started drinking more because of it. And I'm always so depressed when you leave me. Sure when we're with each other it's good. God Eddie it's so good. But then you leave and it hurts so much more. And you know I'm not going to let you quit your career for this relationship. And I…I can't leave MIT."

" I thought it was getting better? I thought you were happy. I thought we were going to do this."

" I was. But I'm not now. And don't get me wrong. I came here for a different reason. But in the end I think it was always going to end this way."

" No! We're supposed to be together. Please. We can figure this out. I'll make you happy again."

" It's not your responsibility to make me happy. It's mine….Eddie I don't even know who I am anymore without you."

" You're my girl. You're y/n. You're my other half."

You shook your head. " I need to be my own person. I need to find myself again. I need to be that girl I was before. Because I don't even recognize myself. I see my reflection in the mirror and I don't know who's looking back."

Eddie sniffled" Then we'll find her...together."

Tears filled your eyes seeing Eddie beg and cry.

" I'm sorry Eddie…I think I should go." You said just above a whisper.

You stood up and started for the door. Eddie got up and pulled you into his arms.

" No. Please. Don't ask me to live without you. I can't imagine my life without you." He cried." I-I-I can't live a life without your smile. Without hearing your laugh."

He kissed your cheek. " I can't imagine not holding you or kissing you."

He gave you a small kiss on the lips.

" Eddie-"

"Please. I can't...I can't-"

Eddie hung his head and held you tighter. " Don't leave me. I-I love you."

With tears streaming down your face you pushed him away.

"I have to go."

" No you don't. Please let me fix this. I can fix this."

Eddie dropped down to his knees and hugged your waist. " I'll fix this."

He let go and started patting his pockets. Your eyes widened and you gasped when he pulled out a little velvet black box.

" Eddie no." You started to walk backwards.

" I'm not going to ask you to marry me like this. But I want you to see that I already have the ring for you. This is our future. Y/n you are my future."

Your heart broke all over again. This was a disaster. You couldn't say you still wanted him. That you guys just needed some time apart. That the picture actually broke you and you needed time to put yourself back together. But instead of doing the smart thing and be honest with Eddie. You lied.

" Eds I…I have feelings for someone else."

You didn't know how. But his eyes got even sadder. He shook his head and put the box back in his pocket.

" You're lying."

" N-no. I-"

" Yes. You're lying. I know you y/n. And I know when you're a telling a lie."

" Eds I'm-i'm not."

He stood up and wiped his nose on the sleeve of his jacket.

" Tell me the truth….just tell me you don't love me anymore. That you fell out of love with me…I can live with that. I can handle that. But don't lie to me. Don't say that I lost you to another guy."

Fresh tears fell from your eyes as you remained quiet.

Eddie bridged the gap between you and him.

" Tell me you don't love me anymore. Tell me that because I missed all the important stuff, you fell out of love with me."

He got so close that his chest was touching yours.

" Tell me…please. And…and I'll let you go."

All you could do was hang your head. Those words were just something you couldn't say. Because it wasn't true. He was the love of your life.

" I'm sorry Eddie. I…I'm so sorry."

You turned around and walked out the door.

Eddie stood there for a second. He tried to find something, anything to get you to stay. But he couldn't find the right words. So he thought he should just show you. To give you a long deep kiss. Hoping beyond hope that it would change your mind. And he could get you to come back and talk this out.

So he ran after you. When he opened the door, Gareth and Jeff tried to grab him but he quickly pulled out of their hands.

" Y/N!" Eddie called out.

He could hear you sobbing and knew the relationship wasn't over.

He called your name again. And when he got to the elevator Elio stopped him before he could get on.

" Stop it Eddie!"

" E, If you don't move, I will move you." Eddie growled.

Elio stepped out of the elevator and Eddie watched the door close. With you in Billy's arms on the other side.

" Eddie. You have to let her go."

Eddie was smashing the down button on the wall to call the elevator back. But when it didn't open up right away, he went for the stairs.

Elio got to the door first.

" ELIO MOVE!"

" NO! I will NOT let her hurt anymore today…just let her go!"

" That is the love of my life down there! And I won't let her go."

Eddie pulled at the door but Elio closed it again.

" I know she is. But she needs time. I have never seen her so broken. And that's because of Ava. So what you need to do is finish this. Get rid of Ava and get your shit together. And give y/n time to heal. She deserves that much….you guys are not ready for this type of relationship….but I know you two love each other. So when you're finally ready for her, she might be ready too. But so help me if you don't let her walk away right now. I will kick the living shit out of you. "

Eddie looked away from him. He wanted to fight and get you back. He would have taken on an army for you. But what Elio said was true. Eddie had never seen you so sad or hurt either. And it was he and his drinking to blame.

His voice broke." But I love her."

Elio's heart broke for Eddie too. But you were his friend first and he had to protect you.

" I'm sorry. It's just better this way."

Eddie sniffled looking at Elio. " Please take care of my girl. I'm gonna get my head on straight and I'm coming back for her."

Elio gave him a hug and went to find you and Billy.

When Billy saw Elio he tossed him the keys.

" You're driving. I'm gonna sit with her."

Elio nodded and got in.

Billy climbed in the back with you, pulling you into his arms while you sobbed in his chest. He rubbed your back and kissed the top of your head.

" It's okay sweets. Let out."

…

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weimarblues · 17 days

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was tagged by @loureedpiss

the NO-SKIP albums: a tag game

rules: share the albums that you can listen to nonstop. those lightning in a bottle-albums that scratch ur brain just right. every single track, an absolute banger. u could not skip one if u tried. no notes. stunning, show-stopping, immaculate. ur no-skip albums.

, bonus & optional (but imo, v fun) rules:1) add a track rec for us to listen to! AND2) share ur favorite line(s) from that track!

blood on the tracks - bob dylan

fav track - idiot wind

fav lyric - basically the whole album so I'll throw one out at random (I like your smile and your fingertips/I like the way that you move your hips/I like the cool way you look at me/Everything about you is bringing me misery)

swoon - prefab sprout

fav track - cue fanfare

fav lyric - (But I don't know how to describe the modern rose / when I can't refer to her shape against her clothes/ with the fever of purple prose)

hunky dory - david bowie

fav song - quicksand

fav lyric - (im tethered to the logic of homo sapien/can't take my eyes from the great salvation of bullshit faith)

the smiths - the smiths

fav song - suffer little children

fav lyric - (I don't want a lover I just want to be tied / to the back of your car)

sgt pepper's lonely hearts club band - the beatles

fav track - a day in the life

fav lyric - (what do you see when you turn out the light?/i can't tell you but i know it's mine)

the velvet underground and nico - tvu

fav track - venus in furs

fav lyric - (watch out, the world's behind you)

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jacktoria4ever · 1 year

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Tornado Warnings. Part one???

Rafe Cameron x kook!!fem!!reader

A/n:I wasn't really sure the lyrics of this Sabrena Carpenter song in the first place but I did some research and I'm so glad one of recommended this. Thank you!!! And if you want more just tell me

And I do not proofread so I'm sorry in advance about the grammar and yes English is my first language but I'm just lazy.

Warnings: fluff, Rafe being cute and drunk at the same time, nice Rafe 🥵🥵, swearing. not much more💙💙💙

Staring off into space wondering what you should say sucks sometimes because you want to tell your therapist about the last time you saw him but...you don't instead of telling the truth and saying "We might have kissed." You say "I haven't seen him since the break up." Still wondering if you should say his name knowing if his name is brought up by either of you you would start crying your eyes out.

"Are you sure?" Your therapist says definitely not believing your last statement.

"What is that supposed to mean?" You say getting defensive at the question. Of course you don't want to tell your therapist that you hooked up with your ex who you've said you hated since you broke up.

She raises her eyebrow at the statement not knowing what to say next because she knows for a fact you will deny every accusation directed toward you. "Y/n, you're going to need to put Rafe in the past soon."

Y/n, getting ready to fake cry to make it seem like she cares but knows that she could just stop talking and leave anytime. "I-I don't know if I'm ready for that." You say completely faking but your therapist certainly can't tell and you can see that from her attentive look you are still trying to read because she makes this face so much amd you still don't know what I actually means after 4 years of weekly therapy.

You sit in uncomfortable silence for a while until her alarm goes off telling her that your appointment is over and it's time go get ready and go home. You've never stayed that late but today felt different. You leave the building and climb in your car and the first thing you do is check your phone and as always there is a text from Rafe saying "when do you get home? I want you."

You drive away smiling at the message when your phone dings again. This time it's a text from your best friend JJ Maybank saying "I just saw Rafe at the Club are you okay if I tell you what he said?" Looking at it wondering "what the hell?" But you can't respond because you're driving you decide to call JJ instead. "Hello?" JJ says in his goofy voice he uses when he talks to you. "Hi...?" You say unsure as to why you really HAD to call him.

"So do you want me to tell you what he said?"JJ asked truly curious.

"Uhh...I guess?"You say still confused. "You better hurry up. I'm almost home and I'm having some people over for dinner" you come up with quickly not knowing if he believes it you're still proud of yourself.

Oh okay...anyways he said and I QUOTE drunk off his ass "I miss y/n" Like What the actual hell does that mean? Right?" He says in disbelief.

You just having to go along with it say "yeah that is really weird" dragging your words for a little bit before you get to your front soon and start grabbing your keys from your backpack. "Okay I have to go guest's will be here soon and I still need to clean up a little bit byeeee"

Okay. I love you by-" he says as he gets cut off by the beep telling him you hung up in a rush.

As soon as you hang up you text rafe to hurry up because you're finally home amd he quickly jumps in his truck and speeds across the two block between your houses wondering why he didn't just run he knocks on your door and as he waits impatiently for you to open the door he starts yelling at your camera you have by your front door "Hurry up! I need to touch you!" He says with his words slurred and stumbling just a bit. And as you open the door you see him almost fall on top of you.

"What the hell, Rafe?" You say truly worried.

"Heyyy babyyyy! How wass youur dayyyy? Sluring every other word unknowingly. You sit him down on the bottom step of your stairs in the foyer to your house.

"Hey, hey, hey. What happened handsome?" You say absolutely confused but also happy that JJ knew exactly what happened.

Rafe shocked you called him handsome looks at you in complete adoration and love "HI Beautiful...nothing happened I just had.......a lot of tequila." He says while counting on his fingers and raising all of them to show you he doesn't know how many.

"Babe! You can't do shit like this to me and forget to mention it." you say sternly so he knows you're talking to him.

"I'm sorry baby! I just wanted to say I loved you." He says trying to sober up a little bit so he can smile without the influence of alcohol.

You laugh at his attempt at charming you. "It's okay. Hey, let's get you washed up and in bed. Okay?" You say softly knowing how bad of a headache he'll have in the morning.

"Okay." He says already drifting off to sleep.

"Nope! Come on Big Boy! You need a shower first and then we can cuddle and watch movies all day tomorrow." You say knowing neither of you have work or school tomorrow.

He smiles and nods his head in response because he is wayyy too tired to answer as of right now.

The next morning you wake up to an empty bed. You get up and slowly and quietly walk down the stairs, turn into the kitchen and lean on the doorway to the attached dining room just staring at the bare back facing toward you.

You can't help but just stare for a few minutes blacking out shortly after and you come to your senses with Rafe standing in front of you with his arms wrapped around your waist. "Good morning, Beautiful." He says with a sleepy smile.

"Hello. Why are you up so early?" You say with a quizzical look on your face.

"Sweetheart, it's 2pm." He says wondering how long you were awake last night.

"Oh, well, Good Morning to you too." She says with a small still half asleep smile. "What are you making for breakfast?" You say needing answers as to why your ex boyfriend/little hookup is snooping around your kitchen cooking you breakfast after he came to your house drunk last night.

"I wanted to be nice. Is that so bad Pretty Girl?" He asks truly curious. You stare off not knowing what to say.

"Sorry, I know your trying to get better but why were you so drunk last night?" You ask wanting to know what happened for him to leave his 2 months of sobriety for a whole night of drinking just to be happy the next day and act as if nothing happened.

"I don't know. I think it was about you not answering my text last night, maybe." He says ashamed at his prior actions.

"Babe, I was at therapy and didn't see your text until I was home. Okay?" You say with a tad of empathy in your eyes but then again he is a legal adult and should know better.

"Oh, sorry." He says asking himself why he did it mumbling to himself so fast not even an auctioneer could tell what the hell he just said. You walk over to the cabinet above your dishwasher to grab a few plates from the top shelf and when you seem to struggle you feel a large set of hands on your waist lift you and place you about a foot away from the cabinet. He reaches up and grabs the plates. And slowly inches you toward the dining room so you still don't know what's for breakfast.

He brings in a large stack of Chocolate chip pancakes and a bottle of syrup. When he sets everything down he walks away back to the kitchen doing this all while being completely silent and when he walks back in he's holding a large bowl full of your favorite mix of fruit (you can tell me which fruit you want and I'll eventually make a little run down of EVERYTHING about y/n if you just dm me or send me an ask about it I will do all of it if I see yours first like favorite color fruit etc.) When he sats down the bowl in front of you he places a slight peck to your forehead and you act like you pass out to cover the fact that you're blushing at the action.

"Princess, Are you okay?" He says truly worried about your head being stuck down because you refuse to look up at him.

"Fuck!" You say looking up terribly red. He just smiles at you realizing why you're bright red.

"I'm sorry, Beautiful. I didn't realize that's why you suddenly became so shy." He says attentatively toward you.

"It's okay I just wasn't expecting that kiss. Thank you for breakfast by the way." You say genuinely grateful.

"Brunch, Beautiful. It's brunch." Rafe says Matter-of-factly. You look at him and roll your eyes sarcastically.

"Fine! Brunch!" You say enunciating oddly.

"That's better. How was therapy yesterday?

You look at him with an awkward smile "it was..." You stop wondering what the hell to tell him "It was therapy for sure." You look at him after saying that with the most uncomfortable, disappointed 'why did you ask' kind of stare.

"Babe...what does that face mean?" He asks genuinely curious not knowing what to say next.

"I...I don't know, honestly." You say absolutely positive you DO know.

"Okay...hurry up and eat. I want to watch a movie." He says urgently.

"Which movie?" You say really scared as to what movie he has chosen to make you watch.

"Mmm" He says to think for a little bit longer not expecting such a fast response to his statement.

"Mmm what? What is happening in that odd brain of yours?" You say quietly after a few seconds of comfortable silence.

"I know what movie we're going to watch." He says suddenly. Acting weirder rhan normal.

"Okay...?" You say after wondering what kind of weird-ass stuff he's doing.

Sorry it's a little bit everywhere didn't really know what to do bc this was my first story so...yeah! If you enjoyed please let me know and do the same if you want more too. I was kinda throwing this together over the span of like...4 days? Idk. Hope you liked it bye<333

#rafe x y/n #Adorable rafe #rafe fanfiction #rafe fluff #rafe cameron x you #rafe cameron

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ilovemyselfalot · 1 year

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TRUST- ethan landry, as ghostface.

Y/n sat near her window, scrolling on her phone. It got boring after a while, only seeing thirst traps and song lyrics.

She then got up from her seat and decided to make some popcorn. (she js like casey fr fr)

She grabbed a packet from the pantry and threw it in the microwave to cook.

Just as she turned around to retrieve her phone, she caught of the infamous mask that belonged to the serial killer known greatly to woodsboro, ghostface.

Her breath was stuck in her throat and her face was pale. She looked as if she had just seen a ghost.

Y/n grasped her phone in her hand and tears welled in her eyes. What if ghostface had already gotten to ethan? He had went back to his apartment and she hadn't heard from him since.

She tapped the 'FaceTime button and saw her reflection looking back at her, frightened.

"Oh my god, ethan, pick uppp!" She gritted her teeth and snuck into the closet to hide from her fate.

She sighed happily when he eventually answered. He also had a worried look on his face and he had messy hair with sweat beads making their way down his forehead. He was wearing something black; you couldn't see much because it was night and he was outside.

"What's wrong?" Ethan asked, out of breath.

"ISAWGHOSTFACE!" you spat.

"I'm on my way. I'll be 2 minutes." He hung up and you backed up into the wall.

The doorbell rang, and you came out from your hiding place to greet ethan, only to be met with ghostface.

They waved their hand at you and titled their head. They were holding a knife in their hand and were about to plunge it deep into your chest until you got the hint and ran up the stairs.

You were panting heavily and running as fast as you could to your room.

There were a limited number of weapons, and most of them couldn't do much damage.

A trophy caught your eye.

"I'm so lucky I was in beauty pageants when I was younger" you grabbed the trophy and held it tight in your hands.

Ghostface soon barged into the room and you whacked their head with the trophy.

They flew into the hallway and down the stairs. You found a chair and threw it down the stairs, hitting them and knocking them out for at least a while.

You unmasked the killer and saw ethan, your boyfriend's face.

You put your hand over your mouth and felt sick to your stomach. How was the boy who you felt safe and comfortable with, who you loved, a murderer? How could he almost kill you?

Ok so like, first fanfic and ofc it's about ethan cz we love himmm

Bye byeeee

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heartdaichi · 1 year

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hi luna < 3 i am here to enter your collab !!! i would love 2 join under HQ—character being tsukishima kei pleaseeee :3 —i think it said you pick the song, yeah? if not lmk and i’ll look over the listings again ! but yes !!!! i also rb’d + shared the link to your collab w a few friends if that is okay >_< i just wanted to make sure your bday collab is the best !! ilyilyily okayyy BYEEEE !! hehe

LINA HELLO !!! i’m so glad you decided to join :,) you’re officially the first person- ALSO THANKS FOR SHARING AROUND THE LINK YOU ARE A LIFESAVER

kei is an interesting choice ,,, i had to do a bit of thinking yk but i finally chose a song !!

listen to the song and take a look at the lyrics too !! i hope you find some inspo + and i’m looking forward to what you write <3

#wasteland collab #❲ new voicemail : trafaligar ❳

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coralsgrimes · 2 years

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I love Benny’s OHHHHH a year of my shitty music 🧚🏻‍♀️💓🦁

The almost 10 million streams across ALL platforms? Well over 7M comes from spotify alone AND almost half of the total number (a lil bit short of 5M) of streams comes from only one song on spotify - 11:11 aka the twin flames anthem!

Ye don’t have to believe but it’s true lol, his ep flopped to the ground so hard that imma surprised we ain’t blaming the extinction events on it like x.x

11:11 is couple of weeks short from 5M while other songs from the ep can’t pass 1M and it’s been a year x.x one is as low as measly 300K !!!LAUGHABLE!!!

Ye know what Imma about to say.... Overeager fans streaming one song close to obsession, well here’s the post I made last year for spotify wrapped! But here are the parts I wanna remind everyone about.

And here is the biggest BOOOOOOO if them songs are so popular apparently!!! that they are streamed like it’s hot... why no one cares? Like no one picked them up, literally no one. No big publication, no actual interest in his music, outside the small group in his fandom. There's no actual reviews for the ep, just couple of OH LOOK the Narnia actor (anyone remembers that?) is also making music now articles. Except them two critics who called it bland turtleneck music and Michael Bublé knock off on twitter 💓💓

It’s sad, it’s laughable... will say it's cuz Benny ain't the hot shite he thinks he is, and also cuz his singing voice could use a lot of professional work, and cuz he can't sell himself cuz nothing he does is interesting or original, and mostly cuz the lyrics are so bad and cringe and schoolgirl diary level. Lover of words he calls himself, a logophile...

And now for good measure! Lemme remind everyone that the ep is mainly a failed cash grab but the fangirls ain't buying as much as boy hoped for :c all the merch stuck in his garage :ccc And since it's the ANNIVERSARY boy just dropped new exclusive slave labour made songs for you tracksuits in pink! Remember to use me affiliate code BBOOTYCALL at the checkout to get an exclusive 11% deal on yer order!

Annnnd another lil bit! So boy's insta followers... So he still loosing followers, like quite weirdly lol if he won't get some more interest after cabinet of curiosities imma afraid he will have to delete that 2M poem he wrote. Which will be a happy day for many!

AND NOW IF YE STILL HERE, AND YE BETTER BE!! JUST A REMINDER!! Sorry for making this long scammy post just to trick ye into clicking the link down here

There's the magic link on top of me blog or ye can click right there if ye wanna help Ukrainians. Said it so many times already but ye really do be making a difference

And now byeeee love ye all muffins and see ye some other time 😘

#or are they pink cuz it's October which is breast cancer awareness month????#he an activist after all #if he could he would spill more soup on van Gogh paintings #sadly neither Heinz nor the Getty's family are paying him soooo #T-Mobile ain't in the environmental activism business yet

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diamondwind99 · 2 years

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Seen some "Sanders Sides as Six the musical queens" posts floating around lately, so I thought I'd just put in my take :)

Logan/Aragon: This was actually the first association I thought of. Logan has always been standing by Thomas from the beginning, always been ready and willing to help however he can, bringing all of those scientific sources and other points of view, always trying to help Thomas logically solve his problem. And when he did, it was a fleeting moment of recognition before it was basically forgotten. And he did so no matter how many times Thomas and the other sides brushed him off, hit the skip button, yanked him offscreen with a cane… put up with all of their sh*t for years while Thomas was going around in circles with the other sides, until he eventually finally lost it. That's when he's adamant that he will not be replaced, he's one of the original sides, even if Thomas doesn't want him there, there is no getting rid of Logic.

I also wanna see him rap that one part of No Way.

Remus/Boleyn: Because obviously. Sorry not sorry about what he said, he's just trying to have some fun! He's here to cause chaos and loving every minute. Don't Lose Ur Head, it's just Remus doing his thing. They're even the same COLOR-

Patton/Seymour: I see this as Patton struggling with Janus's appearance meaning morality is a bit more complicated now that Thomas has grown. The "son" in the song could refer to Patton's feelings about the pressure of needing to be the final word on morality for Thomas, and needing to make the right decisions always. But despite the chaos that Janus's appearance and CLBG, SVS, and POF brought, Patton will always remain by Thomas's side through it. He'll struggle, bend, but never break. Also, the soft but strong aesthetic for Patton.

Janus/Cleves: Alright, this one was totally self-indulgent. The lyrics "you said that I tricked ya… cuz I didn't look like my profile picture" just seemed to fit right in with Janus impersonating Patton and Logan. I also felt like "I'm the Queen of the castle" is the kind of thing that might antagonize Roman, which could be funny. All of the sass in that song is just something I see Janus enjoying.

Roman/Howard: Roman is trying so hard to please everyone, the other sides, Thomas. He wants nothing more than to be the hero, to be needed, wanted, loved. And no matter how hard he tries, always changing course, trying to please Thomas, Patton, and Janus… he keeps getting slapped in the face. He keeps failing. And it's taking a toll on him. And now the rug has finally been fully pulled out from under him after POF, he has no idea what's going on, no one to turn to. His last hope is the relationship with Nico, but let's be real that's probably going to fail (because plot). And that's going to break Roman. But despite that he keeps trying, keeps giving ideas, keeps trying to impress Thomas and the other sides, trying to be a hero again. It's just that… he thought this time was different. And oh, how wrong he was.

Also, I like that both of the twins are "beheaded". If you've seen the musical and how Boleyn and Howard act together (especially Pauly and Macasaet), you'll get it lol.

Virgil/Parr: At first this just seemed like this was "well this i the only one left", but I think it fits. It sounds a lot like Virgil's complicated relationship with the "dark sides" and how he came to join the "light sides" and meet Thomas, and become a part of them. Virgil's trying to define himself as who he is, not just as a part of the light sides or dark sides. Just himself, not "one of six". Also… one of the only sides to have not as much drama around him. Gold star for Cathy Parr.

And what if Orange was the band :)

Anyway that's all thanks byeeee

#sanders sides #roman sanders #logan sanders #remus sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #thomas sanders #janus sanders

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cbrosa-archived · 3 years

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you're so dark by arctic monkeys will always remind me of ville valo.

#i said what i said #ville valo #h.i.m.#BYEEEE just look @ the lyrics #him #his infernal majesty

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bluewinnerangel · 2 years

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Did you do a predictions list for lt2?? Do i need to scroll down a bit? I loved reading your list for hs3 haha

Didn't yet but now I've slowly been adding to this list. Again I'm just having some fun here and none of this is very serious, but here it is, my LT2 predictions:

Still a lack of pronouns

But loads from a "we"/"us" perspective

Insecurities. Not necessarily about him being insecure, but a song processing and looking at insecurities and uncertainties in a broader sense, very DLIBYH-like.

Return of the (little) black dress

A diss track. Things or people being fake, but not like Fearless, more.. punk? More punk.

“Moon”

Just having a pint with the lads

hella obvious queer anthem. And I mean obvious level: ripped off some pride flyer.

Some fking hippie ass flowery love and peace man dude just relaaaaxxx everything's gonna be fiiineeee bro peace on earth song, which he'll be trying to mask it with some heavier sounds but yeah no lyrics are what they are and they're not hiding from us man we see your make love, not war bs babe keep going

Something about not being seen. Easily applicable to covid isolation times.

"Darling", "love".

One song of which none of his fans, no matter what we think we know about what he's like, what his life is like, what he's about, etc, can figure out. I mean, not even the subject. No clue. Many wildly different interpretations follow and somewhat of a common consensus will arise per corner of his fandom followed by a bunch of "unpopular opinions" and "no but I figured it out"'s and none of them will be right and this mfer will just be crackling in a corner somewhere.

Still being a kid at heart (there's Change already so is that even a prediction I guess not)

Ok fine one sappy love song. Romantic lil shit settled ridiculous us against the world kinda forever we're a team everyone else can fuck off you and me you and me baby you and me byeeee.

Water splashy sound goes splash splash

"love is a drug" analogies, or at the very least a bunch of lines that seem pro substance use.

I think he's still gonna play it safe but lemme dream so much more raw sounds. Unpolished all the way.

And combining the previous 2: something that sounds a LOT like The Beatles' Tomorrow Never Knows.

And another one like George Harrison's What Is Life (both lyrically and sonically but with a ✨modern twist✨)

Ok third gamble add Paolo Nutini's Iron Sky as well.

Oh look up at the stars my boy they shine

"This is who we are and together we stand strong" and like idk if is this about your relationship, artists fighting for their rights, the LGBTQ community, your fanbase, or your football club, but imma take it with both hands and cherish it.

ANGER. Just gimme the damn anger Louis pour it out into music please god just. do it.

One that's just fucking clownmusic istg just straight out of Yellow Submarine

Clear continuation of a song on LT1 by reusing a line or a play on it from that song in a new one, that will have the same theme and vibe.

One or more songs that are obviously not a direct response to any songs on FL nope nah most definitely not.

But also one song that responds to NIL bro deadass cut the cameras

"Faith In The Future" will be a line in one of his songs, one that may or may not entirely parallel John Lennon's Mind Games.

something that can be translated to we’re both just little shits really (yeah LT2 can have some of that as well)

"Reflect(ions)", "Mirror"

you're my baby such a good girl/boy. Let's just say it's for Clifford and move on.

H O M E. Always home, away from home, finally never home, home again, home is whenever I'm with you, always in my homey heart. So many options.

Official or alternate album cover (like special edition vinyl or whatever) being the most cryptic ass illuminatispiracy looking assholery? Just? wtf am I looking at? What even is that??? Just get out? Go away? fuck off louis but keep going

And/or some black and white album art / promo shoot / etc.. you know what happened with one of the pieces of fan art used as Spotify backgrounds on the 1yr anniversary of walls, where the art had a rainbow on it but it showed up in black and white on his Spotify? That.

A very fucking beautiful, lovely, honest, smart, perfect punch in the feels album imma cry to forever.

HS3 predictions

#lt2 #lt2 predictions #long post

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k3lynn · 3 years

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Haikyuu Boys As Songs ||

oikawa, suna, tendou

cw: FUCKBOY OIKAWA AND SUNA, swearing, mention of sex, drugs, etc, the good stuff, also sort of angsty for some pieces

a/n: I’ve seen lot’s of people do this so I figured it was sort of a trend, seemed really fun so I wanted to hop on board- if you know who did it first please pm me so I can credit and tag them <3 oh yeah! I finally finished working on my masterlist- please check it out if you like <3

this is all non-canon, and I ABSOLUTELY do not actually think actual oikawa, suna, and tendou do some these things/believe some of these things, just fun and gives me their overall vibes, I’m just writing a story with it lmao- I really should have titled this “fuckboy oikawa and Suna ft. baby Tendou” because DAMNN lol- NOT PROOF READ this is more of a f! reader type of thing but I could always do a male, non-binary, gender fluid, etc. reader with no problem if requested!

OIKAWA- (fuckboy- /hj)

Don’t Tell Em- Jeremih

my reasoning for this is the fact that oikawa’s ex girlfriend was only ever mentioned once, and just by his nephew (when they had just broken up)

there could have been conversations off screen/panel or something- but I have a really big hunch oikawa just barely talked/interacted with her in public

MAYBE people knew he had a girlfriend (although obviously by the sheer amount of people in his fan base they don’t care)

or MAYBE he kept her a secret- reasoning with himself that it was to “protect their image” and that’s why he said he didn’t know what he did wrong

ANYWAYS HEADCANON OIKAWA FUCKBOY STARTS HERE- will probably make this into a full fic

would probably want to keep your relationship a secret for 2 reasons

1) his fanbase and image

2) he’s not looking for anything other than someone he can go to when he’s “bored” iykyk

type who will promise you things and try and convince you to not leave him because it’s “what’s the best” for you two

“Why would you? Just keep the rythym” would be him asking why your relationship even has to be public in the first place- when he thinks you guys are perfectly ok how you are right now

The Hills- The Weeknd

do I even have to say anything

oikawa may use you as a crutch to fall back on when he’s so broken from volleyball

“When I’m fucked up, that’s the real me”

He keeps this image of the most ideal guy in front of almost everyone every day, he must get tired

he knows you know he doesn’t actually want you-

that’s why he doesn’t feel bad when he breaks your heart

he never promised you anything

“I only love it when you touch me, not feel me”

self explanatory- sex not feelings please

I Was All Over Her- Salvia Palth

lyric by lyric LETS GO!

“We didn’t make out, or do anything. I just remembered, I was lonely.”

Oikawa gets all over people- not sexually or romantically, but in a way to distract himself from the fact that they may not like him for who he truly is

he’s lonely

“It’s not a problem”

it doesn’t bother him- he’s so used to the perfect setter boy image, he refuses to show the same part of him that is actually breaking

“Every stranger makes me feel safer, and every person seems more beautiful”

Iwa mentioned Oikawa rarely ever smiles with actual joy behind it

The strangers (fanbase) around him make him smile all the time, not because he’s happy, but because it won’t hurt to disappoint the people he doesn’t try and know

He doesn’t want to care what you think

SUNA- (fuckboy- /hj)

Swang- Rae Sremmurd

sis stop it right now he’s going to make you cry

There’s not some deep hidden meaning behind it, he just doesn’t seem like the person to care if you hate him or not

Canonly more expressive with his thoughts-

I quote “wishing he could find a reason to poke fun at Kita or make snarky remarks against Tsukishima and Tanaka.”

so when he has the chance to make fun of you- COUNT HIM IN

secretly thinks you hang out with all of them because you want to get in all their pants

“she want the whole crew, shawty brave”

Fast- Sueco The Child

again- he thinks you’re dumb girl that just wants his dick and his clout

(Ik damn well he uses the word clout)

he doesn’t think his personally is all that special (nor does he care) so you’re obviously just wanting to fuck around

THOT!- Tokyo’s Revenge

“You’ll probably fuck the team if someone slide you a lil’ bean hoe.

BYEEEE BAHAHA WONT EVEN EXPLAIN

“She gon' suck the skin off the dick, love me not”

He’ll keep you around in case he wants to fwy a little BAHA-

TENDOU-

Faucet Failure-Ski Mask The Slump God

Take a listen and tell me it isn’t Tendou

it’s because it’s not- ITS THE FACT HE WOULD BE YELLING OUT THE SONG IN THE HALLWAYS BYE-

chaotic energy that is perfect for him

watch him just point at himself during a game and belt out “WHO’S THIS HE SHOULD BE IN COCKPIT”

Walking On A Dream- Empire of The Sun

He cares about Ushi so much- they’re complete opposites and yet fit eachother so well

Tendou understands Ushijima’s stoicness, just like Ushi understands Tendou’s “oddness”

He’s odd. He knows that- and has come to love it (as he should)

“Don't stop, just keep going on. I'm your shoulder, lean upon”

*Timeskip Spoiler* they still keep in touch all the time 🥺 Tendou is so proud to be able to watch him on TV and say “that’s my best friend”

So when Ushi needed someone to talk to, he was there

The song itself is about the writers strong friendship with his bandmate-

And just like that, it’s perfect in describing Tendou and Ushi

Tendou appreciates him so much, he has filled a huge, special, and emotional role in his life

“Two people become one.”

Peaches- Milk and Bone

“Don’t give a fuck about what they say, I turn around and ask ‘Hey is my hair okay?’”

No matter how much we work on our confidence, there will be moments where we all slip and get a feeling of insecurity again.

It’s perfectly normal. Don’t beat yourself over it.

“We paint our faces like you've never seen- Yeah I know, it's not even Halloween”

I find this representing of the fact that Tendou does not care if people see him as creepy or a monster anymore

You’ve never seen someone like him before

It’s fun, it’s crazy, it’s like you’re going 80 mph and hit a speed bump

It’s perfectly Tendou

BACK TO HAIKYUU MASTERLIST

(Reblogging/sharing through Tumblr is okay 💕)

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silverrstarrr · 3 years

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Normal girl (2)

Note: i just edit this chapter a bit and added more dialog. Someone messaged me and helped me out with a few things, thank you!

Chapter 2:

Walking side by side down the stairs, you took a sip of your coffee and place your herd of keys the side of your book bag. yume was scrolling through her phone on tik tok, drinking from her coconut Carmel ice coffee. You didn't understand why she was drinking ice coffee in mid February, it was cold. It was surprising their wasn't any snow.

Grinning like an idiot, she shaked your shoulder, positioning her phone in front of you–you both watched the tik tok. You didn't laugh at first only smiling, yume kept gesturing you to keep watching, waiting for the punchline. Finally it came up and you both started laughing, you slowly shaked your head placing your hand over your mouth.

"NOOO, nooo. That was so wrong, yall are going to hellll" you whined out.

Yume wiped the tears from her face and continued down the last step. She opened up the door and slid out, you trialing behind her. You both proceeded to walk down the street, where all the park cars were out.

"We riding in rich today girlie, jump in," she lifted up her arm that held her drink, her other reached into her purse and grabbed her car keys.

"I thought we were gonna walk there? It's only 10 minutes." You headed towards her car as she unlocked it and sat in the driver's seat. She had a 2018 dark Grey Nissan altima. You remember her having this ever since junior year, you recalled her talking about getting a newer model since this one was old. Like girl what? Old your ass, if the car still functioning there ain't no problem. White people shit, man.

"Well, it's the first day of sweet college life," she dragged out the last few words, adding a sarcastic tone. Yume tossed her bag in the backseat through the open space from the front, She dropped her drink in the little cup holder as well. Catching up with her, you open the backseat's door and chucked your bag in there–immediately closing it after. You pull the passengers door open and sat down, closing it behind you. Yume did the same–letting out a large sigh as she used her long sleeve to rub her legs, which were freezing.

"Bruh, you were just cold. Shouldn't have wore that skirt knowing it was this cold. Your mother would be disappointed," you moved your head side ways, pretending to be disappointed. You dropped your dunkin' drink in the other cup holder next to hers.

"Y/n, shut upp." Rolling her eyes jokingly, She grabbed the buckled next to her seat and puts it on. You placed your seat belt on too. Automatically, her phone connected to the car, you check over at the screen in the middle. It had the time, the degrees outside and all that other fancy things.

"Wanna play something?" she inserted the keys into the ignition and started the car.

"Yeah, I'll type it in,"

You grabbed her phone, showing the screen to her to unlock it, automatically recognizing her face– the lock screen slid up, revealing all her apps. You went to spotify and played "C U Girl" by Steve lacy.

"OKAAYYY, MS. INDIE TIK TOKER." Yume said nodding her, jamming to song. It was only going to be a 5 minute drive, or 7 if you guys couldn't find parking. She swerved to the left, leaving her parking space and pulling off. You whipped out your phone and paused your music, rapidly switching to snapchat–you heard yume's loud singing.

"I WANNA SEE YOU GUURRLL, I WANNA PLEASE YOU GIRL....GO AHEAD AND BE YOUR GIRL," This girl was jamming her out heart out, steve lacy was her favorite along with Brent faiyaz and many others.

In response, you started cackling as you hit the record button—swiftly turning over it to the driver. Her black ponytail moving as she sang and motioning her head in all different directions. Eyeing towards your direction she sees the phone and leans towards the camera flashing a smile, moving her head side to side—still singing through the lyrics. Yume returned back to the road as she lightly taps the steering, avoiding the horn of course.

Once the quick little vid was done, you added a caption,

"I swear if we crash😭😭💕"

Your thumb jolted between posting it on your private or public. You decided to post on the public story because why not? The song was over pretty quickly as the next one played.

"Who knew white people had rhythm?!" It was obviously sarcasm. You knew she was half Asian but it was fun always calling out her white side.

"Naaahh, white people don't have any rhythm. What you saw there was my miki matsubara pop out". She eases down her breaks– the traffic light turns red. Miki Matsubara? Oh yeah, it's that woman who sung "stay with me". It was a good song, you were obsessed with the chorus mostly.

You giggled a bit at her remark, you checked your socials once again.

"If this light doesn-" Yume sentence was cut off by the light turning green. She pressed her foot on the gas and carried on with attending class.

~~~

Pulling up to the parking lot, yume leaned towards her wheel, searching for a place to park. She slowly went down each isle searching for a vacant lot she could snag. You had your drink in between your lips, you took the last sip and shook the plastic cup trying to get a little more. All you heard was ice rattling against one another, dropping the cup back in the holder. You peer out the window looking at the campus, there were a ton of kids, like a lot. Anxiety began spiking up through your veins, this really is the college life, huh? Maria University. It was a school for literally anything, it was one of the biggest universities in the country as well being highly diverse. Yume would be allll the way on the other side of campus while you're slightly in the middle.

"Uggghhh! I regret not leaving earlier, I don't see any open slots." She whined. This was her 2nd time driving around the parking lot looking for a space.

"I said we should walk but nahhh, you wanted to be lazy and take the car." You rolled your eyes as yume, exaggerating, throwing your hands in the air. But you weren't going to be late on the first day. As the generous queen you are, you aided your roomie with looking a space to park. After analyzing for a few moments, you spotted a space and immediately tapped at the window, pointing towards it. Yume car swerved to the left, sliding right into the parking. Taking her keys out the hole, she grabbed her drink and headed out.

"No leaving trash in my car, miss L/n!"

You grabbed your plastic cup and opened the passenger door.

"Yes ma'am," you opened the backseat and grabbed the two bags and closed the door. Beep yume locked her car. She was sipping her coffee but gave a bitter expression when her sweet drink was watered down because of the ice. You looked at your phone, checking the time:

8:38 am

Monday, February 18th

38m ago

Kittykiller27, prettygirlnene liked your photo

45m ago

[Andyhas]: CRONA BECK started following you and 48 others.

Your phone was blowing up from insta notifications. It was time for class and you weren't sure how long it'll even take you to find your classroom. Slinging the bag over your shoulder, you handed yume her own, which she grabbed. You both were speed walking, despite her coffee being ruined she still continued to drink it. It was for the caffeine you guessed. Reaching the sidewalks, it was time to part ways. Yume turned her face towards yours pouting.

"We're leaving each other nooww," she stuck out her bottom lip staring at you. You grabbed her arm, pulling her closer to you. Her arms slithered around your waist, resting her chin on your shoulder–giving you a warm hug. You returned the hug by grunting and holding her tightly.

She started giggling and patted your back a few times, you released your grip and she started to jog in the other direction while looking back, waving at you. You waved back hollering a "BYEEEE!" A trash can was next to you so you dumped your empty dunkin' there.

It was now time for your own adventure, to find this damn classroom. You click the play button on your phone's lock screen, "baby powder by Jenevieve began playing. (Play the song whores👩🏾‍💻)

Walking downwards to the left side of campus, you searched for a pair of doors to go inside of. At this moment, you regretted not going to orientation. That day you were busy setting up your website for your makeup line. You haven't released any products yet, but you had plentiful of ideas and themes you wanted to do. Since it was black history month, maybe you'll drop something as simple as a face cream to help clear and brighten up the skin. But you discarded that thought because you weren't anywhere near ready to start your own small business. Plus, you had bigger things to worry about.

Standing in front of double doors, you grab the handles and pulled it back, you stepped inside while students behind you did the same. You came in slowly, admiring the interior. It was hella spacy with paintings and photos hanging along the walls. Students were roaming the hallways going back and forth from classrooms. Most of the students seemed to be in some sort of costume, or they were dressed fairly well like they were models. You didn't know the directions to your designated class, so you took up the courage to ask someone. You turned to search for someone who didn't seem busy, since most people were rushing to class. Finally you laid eyes on q girl leaning against the wall, typing on her phone. She had long pink acrylic nails, her blonde hair tied into a low ponytail, which complimented her pale skin tone. She had a gold nose piercing on the right nostril.

She seemed nice enough, so you decided to approach her.

"Um excuse me, do you know where Mr. Fargo's class is at?"

The blonde girl averted her eyes from her phone, now focusing on you.

"I'm not really sure—um, I believe it's down that way." She pointed to the right of her.

"Mr. Fargo, he's teaches cosmetic right?"

"Yeah," you replied

"Then I think it should be down there." She scrunched her face in a confusing manner, meaning not to take her word for granted. But you couldn't care less, it was worth a try.

"Ight, thank you." You bid her goodbye. Oop. You accidentally switched your lingo. You were used to speaking in AAVE but you knew how to change your tone and wordplay around others who weren't African American. The girl didn't seen to notice so you just continued down the hall.

"Down... here right..? Yeah this is the way," you murmured to yourself while you strut down the hall. Then turned left as the lady told you. You were now at a hall with multiple doors. Out of all them, you forget the most important, class started in five minutes. You looked to the left as your braids swayed with your movement, then searched to the right. You walked down the hallway, stopping at the fifth door on the left. You were hesitant with grabbing the door, you didn't want to make a fool of yourself walking into the wrong room as all eyes are on you. You pulled out your phone and texted yume.

(I did a different message format just in the previous was confusing)

colonizer but times 2🧑🏻‍🦲

I'm so lost, this is embarrassing.

Lost? What happened

Idk where my class is

& its starting in a few

You don't know where?? Bruh

Ask someone, im sure they'll help you

I did...but she didn't tell me

which class it was😭 all.

she said was "down the hall"

BYEE LMAOO

Uhh

Just open the door you think it is😋

UH- HUH🧏🏾‍♀️ YOU SETTING ME

UP FOR FAILURE.

Imagine going into the wrong class and

all you see are eyes 👁👁

Girl, half of the people won't even see you again on campus👩🏻‍🏫

If you don't recognize the teacher, try to ask a student close to the door for direction

Okay, im blaming you if I make a fool.

outta myself 😟

Read at 8:43 am

(Play quicksand by SZA rq 👩🏾‍💻)

You decided to take your roomie's advice and pick a class, which you already did.

You dropped your phone back into your jacket pocket and swung open the door–you were prepared for the stares. The classroom was vacant, not even a teacher in sight. Just a bunch of stools and white pull down screens. You saw a few cameras standing in front of these screens. "Was this the photography class or sum?" You mumbled to yourself.

And well, eyes were on you but it wasn't a herd as you expected, just one. Sitting on one of the stools in front of the door, was pale skin boy with long brown hair. It rested at his shoulders, some of it covering his face even. He seemed around 6ft, or 6 ft 2? You couldn't really tell since he was sitting.

He had on some black jeans with a black long sleeve sweatshirt as well with a beige greenish short sleeve unbutton shirt rested on top of it– a long golden key necklace dangled from his chest. His hands were sitting between his lap, you noticed sliver rings on them.(his outfit for people who need help visualizing) The teal eyed boy was also rocking black & white air Jordan 1 retro, literally the same as you.

You screamed internally at how fine this man looked and he had shoe gang? Uggghh. Class been started and you were going to be late on your first because this OBVIOUSLY wasn't your class. You decided to break the awkward silence and speak,

"Hey, um, is this Mr. Fargos class?" You stepped more into the classroom for the brunette male to hear you.

"Wrong one, babe. His class is in a totally different building." A different building?! You wanted to die right there and then, especially after hearing him laugh after his statement. Not just the wrong class but the wrong building? Bye–you're so stupid. His eyes scanned your body, his eyes lingered a bit longer at your shoes–it seems he noticed. A smirk appeared on his lips after finishing his quick outfit interrogation–wait, did he just call you-? I-, yes he did. You tried your best to hide your smile and not react.

"O-ooo, I got it. Thanks" Eren released a small chuckled seeing your reaction, he could tell you were caught up with the little pet name.

"I'll walk you over there." He got off his stool and walked towards your direction.

"I-, nah it's good, I got it." You said in defense not wanting to bother him. He didn't respond and just passed by you, exiting the classroom. He held onto the door, looking at you.

"You coming or no?" He was so nonchalant with it everything. You smiled a bit and walked out the class alongside with him. He released his grip once you were out and started trialing behind you.

You paused for a moment because you didn't know where you were going. You turned back to look at him, he caught on and let out an "ah". He quickly got in front of you as you proceeded behind him.

"So," he said.

"What?" You replied. Why did he start a sentence and not finish it? Was he expecting you to start the conversation, weirdo. You just wanted to get to class l.

"Oo, sassy are we?" He raised a brow.

"What—? boy, say what you wanna say."

Once again, he let out a chuckle, flashing you a small. God, was his laugh attractive.

"You're into makeup and stuff?" He questioned.

"Yeah, I'm into 'makeup and stuff' " You said the last few words in the mocking tone, referring to what he called cosmology.

"That's good, at least I'll be seeing you often."

"Often? Oh, are you in that major also?" You said.

"No...Do you really not know anything?" He made you feel dumb by his response. How were you suppose to know what he meant? You clicked your teeth and started walking ahead. You pushed back the door that lead to another hallway and walked towards the end to push the second door that lead to another building.

The brunette boy watched as you left him behind in the dirt, waiting for the moment you'll turn the wrong corner—so he could tease you about it then correct you.

It wasn't too long till you reached your destination, you both stopped in front of the class's door.

"Well, see you. I hope you don't make snarky remarks to every girl you meet."

"Nah, only you princess." He had a smirk on his face, ooo! You wanted to wipe it off.

You glanced at him and his eyes were already on you, you broke eye contact and reached for the handle.

"Wait–" you whipped your heard back.

"Yeah?"

He cleared his throat

"Name's Eren," you let out a small giggle, did he really just stop you to say his name? Puhleasee. Hearing your laugh, his face brightened up and kept his eyes on you.

"Okay, Eren~. Thank you for walking me, I gotten get to class now."

You opened the door and stepped inside. Eren didn't even get a chance to ask your name. Luckily for him, your major mingled a lot with his own, he could only hope to see you again around campus.

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Authors note: UGHHH, I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT FOR THIS just to pass out a few hours before school started. 🥲 I wasn't even paying attention in English and math class, but hope yall enjoyed <3.

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