#Bojack horseman fucking broke me
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https://youtu.be/q7WNFf9zbio
THIS SONG THO
I love Gina and Sarah Lynn so much istg
#Bojack horseman fucking broke me#its still my fav and the best comedy show Ive seen tho </3#Michu talks
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Media Musin’ Monday, #7:
Screw You, Nickalodeon: Making Fiends Deserved Better
I have no idea how anyone could seriously believe that the entertainment industrial complex™ even tries anymore to hold the illusion of a just or meritocratic realm. No holds barred, I have my issues with about every company still clinging like barnacles to the tragic, sinking ship that cable TV has become, but if you want me to point to a network that’s given me an entire skeleton of bones to pick by this point, and I’m underlining Nickelodeon in red at the top of my list.
It’s not because they host some bad shows, no. It’s not a sour grapes reaction to the untimely end of some of my favorite shows either, and though the entire rotten apple situation with creators like Dan Schneider and Butch Hartman certainly added to barrel’s spoilage, I would still feel every bit of my disdain for Nick’s tv group for the one cardinal sin they have committed again and again and again to ad nauseum- their ongoing phase of running a talent slaughterhouse.
It sounds hyperbolic, but I’d call it a fair observation: Spongebob is widely aknowledged as legitimately both the best and the worst thing to happen to this corner of kid’s media, hands down, but I don’t blame the little yellow guy one bit. He’s only another victim to the mess, and as much as I would love to go on a whole dossier spiel of the history of Nickalodeon from the 90s “golden age” to a full list of the dozens of shows and creators their execs have royally fucked over in the name of chasing the ratings dragon… for one, that’s been done a hundred times by other people at this point, and much better than I could. For two, that would take all freaking day. Just off the top of any cartoon savvy person’s head you’d vaguely recall the assassination of Legend of Korra, El Tigre, or Invader Zim, but that can is filled with so many “blink and you’ll miss it” smaller shows that were barely given two steps out of the starting gate, it pads down an entire TVTropes article on the subject. Dozens of them, shows that Nick all but basically set up for failure before quietly shipping them to the peaceful farm upstate- by which I mean shuffled off to inconsistent time blocks and lower priority channels so they could burn out their final approved episodes in hospice. Nicktoons alone garnered a hell of a reputation for exactly what I’m talking about, but that’s show biz, or… something.
Their worst and probably most audacious offense of all? Let me tell you about the fate of the charming world of a little girl who made fiends.
There’s no better place to talk about the end than the beginning.
Making Fiends, I mean, the original Making Fiends was a series of flash-animated shorts among a handful of other early 2000s web cartoons made by Amy Winfrey.
✨ Just, in case you didn’t recognize or feel something for that name, Amy Winfrey is one of the utter beasts of cartoons in general, not purely kids’ media. Songwriter, directing, animation, screenwriting, voice acting… you name a part of the process, and she’s probably dipped her toe in there at some point. Professionally, she broke into the industry contributing work to earliest season of South Park, and while she personally is most known for and associated with Making Fiends, the likely most prominent body of work she’s been a part of would be Bojack Horseman, wherein she’s credited as a director for many of its strongest episodes, including (but not limited to):
- “Free Churro”
- “The Telescope”
- "Sunk Cost and All That"
- “The View from Halfway Down”
- Amy Winfrey and her spouse (Peter Merryman) making a cameo appearance in the BJH episode “sunk cost and all that”
And even before all of that, she’s been at this animation stuff since the 90s and it shows in a loaded up portfolio of accolades and projects, both professional and personal.
The relevance of this information is to help put in some perspective to just how rotten of a deal she comparatively got with Nickelodeon, when one of those passion creations got a chance to join the network’s airing list.
But to sum up the idea of the web series proper, it independently released 24 short episodes in total, each centered around the antics of two girls engaged in both a completely one sided friendship and nemesis-ship. The show’s namesake refers to the single action the evil little Vendetta is most known for- creating a variety of servant monsters, many of which she uses to secure her rule over the port town of Clamburg, and all its inhabitants. Charlotte, on the other hand, is the quintessential “children’s show” character: near inhumanly kind, cheerful, and naive. So much so that she’s oblivious to her “best friend’s” near daily attempts to murder her, or the fact that she, you know, despises her.
In 2006, Nickelodeon took an interest in Winfrey’s toon and the prospect of adapting it into a TV series, reportedly because a daughter of a studio employee was a huge fan.
And fun fact btw, this was actually the first time that Nick did this approach of turning an indie web animation into one of their shows, but it certainly wasn’t the last if you remember this was also the origin of Breadwinners.
And as far as the audience was concerned, it was quite the successful transition! The TV version pretty much kept all of the major beats and vibes of the original, with polished animation, the same voice actors, and some stylistic upgrades to the art/environmental designs. For a brief time, it was the highest rated thing on its release channel too. Someone I don’t quite recall the name of once endearingly referred to the show as “baby’s first grimdark” and I adore how fitting of a summary that is. It sports a charmingly unique art style, memorable soundtrack, and I can swear to y’all, the humor aged like a fine wine.
“Why don’t you pretend to be dead?”
“:) ok!”
*slam*
(Also, sidenote, the entire series is still up on your tube, in HD, completely free to watch!)
So, if it’s such a neat little show, then why on earth does barely a soul seem to remember it existing? And even fewer scare who recall knowing about the show during its 2008 release?
Because Nickelodeon Studios, without hyperbole, set this show up for failure at every single turn before it even got a fighting chance.
People know of some shows that Nick treated like garbage, but this one they treated like absolute shit for reasons I can’t fathom.
Making Fiends, for one, never actually saw the light of day on the main network channel, as per the original plans. It was actually instead delegated over to Nick’s sister channel, Nicktoons, by a last minute decision.
Nicktoons, fyi, was not carried by most cable packages. I obviously lived on it as a kid, and it was functionally to Nick what I remember Boomerang being to Carton Network- the cable block where reruns of much older but loved shows were shoveled off to once they finished their days on the main channel.
Second, it was quietly premiered with barely a couple farts of advertising, too. I remember maybe seeing one preview as a kid, on Nicktoons.
And I guess, not keeping either of these in mind, Nick then abruptly pulled the plug on the whole thing, citing the tried and true “low ratings” explanation and leaving it at that.
Not counting years of post-cancelation reruns, the show actively ran from October 4, 2008, to November 1, 2008.
That is roughly a month between premiere and the end production date.
One season. Six entire episodes.
Seven whole additional completed scripts abandoned on the table.
Yeah.
I’m a touch salty about it still.
And with the shutting down of the Nicktoons network social media in 2018, any additional acknowledgment of the show from Nickelodoen themselves has kind of vanished to my knowledge. Like, it’s almost no wonder you already had to be part of the cult following to know about it, when Nick has been quiet about the calf they sent to auction since. Worst part is, they still hogged the rights to the show instead of idk, wild idea, giving it back over to Winfrey. I can only imagine people get away with entire reuploads of the series under the otherwise very IP protective Nick’s nose as another display of how low and bastardly those execs really view Making Fiends.
And that sucks! Wow! But I guess in a “be happy it happened, not sad it ended” way, I’m kind of glad for the fact that we can still enjoy and pass around the show that we did get to experience at all, rather than see it fade into true lost media territory.
Even today, about 16 whole years later, I know for a fact there are still plenty of other fans that remember and cherish the splash this tiny show made in that big, brutal pond. So, in that manner, you can’t truly call Making Fiends dead and gone.
A bittersweet story to think about, and only one of many down a long list, but ultimately one I’m happy to be able to tell at all.
Even if all the while still raising a giant middle finger to the network for the ending.
#media musin’ mondays#mm’m#making fiends#nicktoons#amy winfrey#nostalgic cartoons#scarlet talks about things#enthusiastic recommendations#long post
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My thoughts on Hazbin Hotel ep 4 (haven't finished ep 4 so my problem may be solved if I keep watching but nahh)))
>>SPOILERS OFC<<
1. Charlie is the definition "If you're broke just get a job and save money."
Babes they have a job what money can they save if said job is paying them just enough to survive 😭 anyways I feel that the reason she just isn't clicking with anyone is because she doesn't have empathy. Like seriously she sees a problem at face value and tries to solve it.
[Angel and Husk gets into it and she wants em to make up.]
That is literally the last thing you should be trying to fix considering they have a good bond already and today was just a rough night.
Imagine Husk who's forced to hear this dude complain about a job then still act like he's at said job 24/7. That's annoying and tiring already and now said dude is cussing you out for pointing out that you don't want him to act fake in a place where he's supposed to feel at home. Then Imagine being Angel who originally just had to shoot one scene and leave two if Val was on that type of timing. Then Charlie appears 1. This is such a scene of vulnerability for him. (Strangers seeing ur nudes vs ur mom seeing ur nudes...yeah exactly) 2. Val the bitch u sold your soul to is now pissed and who is going to take the heat?? Yeah exactly.
So now Angel has been milly whopped in the backrooms, kicked out his friend, and forced to shoot till midnight. Yeah pissy day and when he's going for a drink Husk is trying to drop wisdom and have him drop the act before serving him a drink that's strong enough to paralyze bojack fucking horseman. Yeah I'd be pissed too 😭
At the end of the day them fighting isn't the main issue the fact is Charlie is trying to save a nigga who ain't trying to be saved because he has accepted his fate. If she hops onto Husk's logic then I believe Angel would be able to save himself.
Drop the act.
Drop the act cause you ain't at work.
Once Angel is able to separate his work life from his personal life I truly believe he would be able to see that there's a chance at redemption because hey if these ppl at the hotel see me past my worklife then I may have a chance to live a normal life with people who idk love me for me or some shit boom Angel is ready to leave and Charlie grows some fucking balls and use the fact she's the princess of hell to end the contract between Val and Angel.
Everyone lives happily 3ver after the end
(Watch when I finally hit play after posting this everything I wrote is what happens)
Tldr; Angel gotta figure himself out before Charlie can try to change him. Can't change what you don't understand.
#hazbin hotel#angel dust#hazbin hotel husk#charlie hazbin hotel#my thoughts#what jcole say?#spoilers#episode 4#idk how to tag this#oh yeah also wanna mention how much i love Allistor like omg
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The Girl Can Bite Too, You Know - Part 8
Dean Winchester x (Female) Reader
Summary: Recovery takes time. Thankfully, a certain Winchester is there to make things easier.
Warnings: Tending a wound, Dean being adorably awkward, oh, and some nice vanilla smut
Word count: 1,982
A/N: This is the last part to this little series! Hope you enjoyed, thank you all so much for reading!
| Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 |
That week, the boys cared for you like one of their own. Sam made delicious meals (which Dean seemed to enjoy even more than you did), and his brother practically refused to let you out of his eyesight. The spare room next to Dean's was made up for you, and the bathroom quickly became stocked with creams and medications to treat your burns.
You'd cried for hours when you first saw your injuries. Dean had you sat down in the bathroom while he removed the dressings and applied the treatment, and although you knew it would be gruesome, you weren't quite prepared for the actuality. Your left arm, shoulder, and the side of your hip was a glossy pink under the cracked and peeling skin desperately clinging on for dear life. There was practically no muscle or fat left, and if you moved under certain light, you could see your tendons flexing.
"I'm sorry. This is gonna hurt," Dean whispered as he winced himself brushing the creams over your arm. You bit your lip at the immense pain until you could taste blood. It only took a few minutes before he was gently re-bandaging, but that was all the time you needed.
"A'rite, all done-" glancing up at you for the first time after keeping such concentration, his face dropped. As soon as he'd taken his hands off you, your body started violently shaking as tears fell continuously down your face and you hiccuped out cries. Without a word, he reached forward and wrapped his warm arms around you, careful not to squeeze too tight.
"I'm hideous, huh?" you croaked out. Dean's heart broke.
"No, sweetheart. Far from it. Just give it time, it'll heal and you'll barely notice the scars."
You looked up at him with wide glassy eyes. "Will they be cool scars at least?"
He chuckled. "The coolest. You'll look incredibly badass."
You smiled back. "At least thats something."
He carried you back to your room and sat with you the rest of the night. The next morning, he woke you with a meatfeast breakfast and wheeled in his small TV from the Dean Cave so you could have a Netflix binge without moving from your bed. He did the same thing the next morning, and the next, and the next. The rest of the week Dean hardly left your side, distracting you through the pain with hilarious stories, reminding you to take your medication at the right time, and keeping your spirits lifted. Every second, you fell for him just a little more. Just as he fell for you.
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Cas came on the eighth day, scaring the shit out of you as he appeared at the foot of the bed half way through an episode of Bojack Horseman.
"Who the fuck are you?!" you screeched as you fumbled around for the gun Dean made sure you kept under your pillow. The Angel looked at you confused for a moment, before the door caved in and Sam and Dean barged through, weapons at the ready.
"Shit Cas, a little warning next time?" Dean tutted as he quickly strode over to help you lie back, the sudden movement having disrupted the healing skin and making you cringe with pain.
"So you're the Angel, huh?" you grunted. Sam sighed.
"Y/N, this is Castiel. He, er - he's not the greatest at privacy. Or warnings." The younger Winchester gave Cas a pat on the shoulder and a strained smile.
"It is nice to finally meet you, Y/N. Dean here was incredibly worried, although I came as quick as I could."
"Aren't you cute," you sarcastically nudged Dean, who instantly blushed.
"I-I wasn't that worried..." he mumbled.
"Dean. You prayed to me a total of 537 times this week. I have been keeping count."
Oh shit, there were those butterflies again.
"Alright alright, just lay some damn healing mojo on her will you?" Dean grumbled, refusing to make eye-contact with you. The Angel strode forward until he was standing uncomfortably close next to you.
"This might feel odd, but you will be healed after." You nodded and closed your eyes. A gentle finger touched your forehead, before your body felt a rush of warm glow. You opened your eyes gingerly, looking straight down at your arm. It felt fine. Rapidly, you tore off the bandage despite Dean's reluctant look and felt tears prick your eyes again. Your skin was smooth and soft, not a blemish on it. You could move freely, without any pain or itching.
"Thank you, Cas," you smiled up at him before leaping from the bed onto wobbly legs.
"Woah, easy tiger," Dean grasped you round the shoulders and lowed you back down. "You might be physically healed, but you've been bed-bound for almost a month now. Don't rush things!"
Grinning from ear to ear, you looked across at Sam, who gave you a reassuring nod. You rolled your eyes. "Fine, but gimme a hand up. I gotta stretch these legs."
An arm round your waist, Dean helped you stubbornly take a stroll around the bunker, giving you a guided tour as he did so. You'd been dying to see its secrets ever since you'd rocked up, and you weren't disappointed.
"Dean," you questioned. "Look, I gotta take a shower. I stink, and I just need to freshen up."
He looked at you questioningly. "You sure you're up for it?"
"I'm healed, you idiot. Quit worrying." Although it was kinda hot.
"Alright," he shrugged. "Bathroom's down the hall on the left. Theres clean towels in the cupboard on the right."
You thanked him with a squeeze and headed off for what you expected to be the nicest shower of your life. The warm water felt amazing on your skin, and your hair instantly felt lighter once you'd scrubbed the grime out of it.
Humming a tune to yourself, you wrapped your hair in a towel, tucking another round your body, and darted down the hall back into your bedroom. You gave your hair a thorougher comb through before giving it a rough towel dry.
"Woah - oh shit, sorry!" Dean backed out from where he had peered round the door. "Sorry, I thought you were still in the bathroom. I er, I just wondered if you wanted something clean to wear. I bought a pair of pants and a t-shirt, if you want."
You giggled at this nervousness that made him seem like an embarrassed little school boy. "Thank you, Dean. You can come in, if you like."
You heard him clear his throat, before edging his way in. At first he tried to look anywhere else, but as you stood there, hair loose, short towel around you, smelling of lavender, he couldn't help but ogle.
You gulped. This was it.
"Do you er, feel better?" his voice cracked slightly as he walked towards you. A lump in your throat, all you could do was nod.
He threw the clothes down on the bed, not taking his eyes off you. Suddenly he was right in front of you, his hand reaching up and brushing back a strand of wet hair stuck to your forehead.
"Y/N..." he started, but you stopped him before he could continue.
"Dean, please. Please."
The whisper had barely left your lips when he grasped you round the waist, pulling you in close. You let the towel drop as you lowered your hands to reach round his ass, cupping it gently. You could feel his bulge radiating heat through his jeans. His hands gently moved down, one caressing your own butt while the other scooped forward to stroke your breast.
You flung your head back, giving him space to litter your neck with soft kisses. His mouth worked downwards, spreading across your clavicle before pausing to suck on your nipples. Before you knew it, he was on his knees, nuzzling your lower area. It was already pulsating, and you shivered as his tongue flicked your clitorous. One hand ruffling up his hair, the other grasping onto the bed frame for support, you felt your body gather tension. Dean must have felt it too, because without warning he stood up, flinging you backwards into the soft cushions as he tore off his shirt and pants. His tremendous frame rose up above you, mouth against yours. You reached down, finding his cock with no difficulty given its immense size, and began to massage. He groaned, and his chest sank down onto yours, rubbing your tits up and down as he grinded.
You couldn't stand it anymore. You spread your legs wide, hooking them around his hips and drawing him in. "Are you-" he panted, and you gulped and nodded.
"I'm protected, don't worry."
With that, he lunged, plunging straight into your soaking wet pussy. He entered with ease, but the force still made you cry out. You sank into each other for a second, before you tightened your grip around him and started to push. One hand on the head board, the other by your shoulder, Dean rode you rhythmically like a carousel. You felt the tension grow again as your body begged for more, every thrust sending your into orbit.
With a cry, you pushed him back so you were sitting up facing him. Legs intertwined, you kissed him passionately, tongues moving with the same pace as your genitalia. He squeezed on your ass as you tugged at his hair, both grips growing tighter as your moans grew in pitch.
The eruption was magically timed, you reaching your peak just as he exploded into you. Like a rollercoaster, you started to slow, grinding to a halt as he cupped you in his arms and guided you round onto the bed. Red faced and panting, you stared into each other's eyes, unsure what to say.
"Damn, that Angel really knows how to make a girl good as new," you grinned.
"Thank god as well. I was starting to get impatient," Dean confessed, drawing you closer into his chest.
"Sam said you were really worried about me when I got hurt," you tilted your head back to gaze up at him. "Dean, do you really care that much about me?"
He sighed. "Y/N, I don't catch feelings often. Don't get me wrong, you caught my eye the second I walked into that bar, but it wasn't until those Demons turned up that I started to panic. I wasn't sure what it was, but watching that building collapse with you still in it...christ, it scared the shit out of me. I thought you were dead. I didn't care if I got hurt, I just had to get you out.
I don't know what it is about you Y/N, but you're intoxicating. Honestly, once I knew you were gonna be okay, I was actually kinda grateful you needed a helping hand 'cos it gave me a reason to spend more time with you. Don't get me wrong, I'm crazy relieved you're all healed up, but I've enjoyed being with you this past week. But sure, if you wanna go now, that's fine. I get it, I do."
"But you don't want me to go?"
"I don't want you to go."
"I don't want to go either." It was a whisper as you reached up and kissed him again, softer this time. "I never want to leave."
"Don't worry. I won't let you." You both giggled as you rolled into each other again, fuelled with a child-like excitement that sent you tumbling back under the sheets.
Once again, that feeling of adrenaline and thrill raced through your veins. This was it. This was where you belonged.
"This is your home now, darling." You smiled up at the ceiling, feeling your Dad's pride as you allowed yourself to feel free, and happy, for the first time in a long, long time.
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favourite colour(s): i love green and blue, but i lean towards green lately! especially like more yellow-y greens. that's some good shit.
favourite flavour(s): i love sour shit lmao <3 lately i'm really into sour green apple candy. is it good for me? nah. but god i like it.
favourite genre(s): horror, especially horror-comedy, but honestly i really love media that really goes all-in on exploring a character psychologically, whether that be their grief or trauma or anything else. and ESPECIALLY if it's done through very weird and nontraditional ways. (like 'everything everywhere all at once' fucking broke me but it was such a fucking amazing experience.)
favourite movie(s): my answer for this has not changed lmao, it's probably still the first conjuring movie. but also my saw fixation is starting up so.... saw (2004) as well. i also love scott pilgrim but anyway-
favourite series: gonna just talk about some animated stuff i like real quick. anyway bojack horseman and tuca & bertie both changed me as a person and fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood is still a solid 20% of my personality even if i don't talk about it much anymore. oh and i do still have quite a bit of fondness for death note even if i'm not as into it as i used to be.
last song: failure by neffex! yes i was blasting my tony playlist earlier. why do you ask.
last movie: i think the last movie i sat down and watched was when i watched 'everything everywhere all at once' with some besties and spent almost the entire movie bawling my eyes out.
currently reading: i'm starting to read the novelization of the movie 30 days of night, written by tim lebbon! it's pretty good so far.
currently watching: it's always sunny in philadelphia. this series is a goddamn trainwreck and i really like it. i also started watching the new junji ito collection on netflix and.... idk it's. fine? maybe i'm just missing some context but i'm not really getting into it tbh.
currently working on: getting my affairs in order for moving / trying to do a little ship art / avoiding eye contact with the pile of owed art i have to do
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5 Pieces of Fiction that Influenced You as a Writer and Why?
The City We Became by N.K. Jemisin
Really, anything written by Jemisin, but particularly this book because its plot sort of resembles Hetalia -- avatars of lands (major cities and boroughs in this case) who develop immortality and coming together in a war. However, there is just soooo much going into this story, like an alien creature who uses white supremacy and gentrification to try to defeat the heroes, awesome superpowers, and tiny elements of hip-hop sprinkled in. Overall, there's this magical realism to this story and a lot of Jemisin's works because of her incredible worldbuilding.
Bojack Horseman
Yeah, this show fucked me up, so much so that I'm almost too afraid to give it a rewatch despite really wanting to. It's such a silly premise -- a (literal) one-trick pony becomes a miserable has-been celebrity drowning in booze -- but somewhere along the way, the writers thought, "This show could be so much more" and never looked back. It went from funny horse puns, slapstick comedy, and really uncomfortable bestiality scenes (does it count if the animals are anthropomorphized?) to realistic and even controversial topics like the heartbreak of being infertile, of the public opinion about abortions, and living with depression and other mental illnesses. Then the show dove even darker: generational trauma, the results of untreated disorders, childhood sexual abuse, and drug overdoses.
(So many people failed Sarah Lynn for her entire life! So. Many. People!! And I don't care that they're fictional, I will never forgive any of them!!)
God, did this show hurt, but it showed that people's tics and flaws came from somewhere, and it made me ask myself: so, what made Peter tic? Before this blog's remake, Peter was just a weirdo guy who got into bad moods and wasn't the type of muse to jump into bed with anyone. At first, it was just funny, having this sex-shy but foul-mouthed guy, but then I realized that this had to have come from somewhere. So, I had to look at some of the canon stuff with a new eye, seeing how would being semi-abandoned in a fort miles away from land for most of his childhood affect him as an adult. Why would a person who grew up in a religious setting choose to not only turn away from religion, but hate religion as a concept vehemently? What are the things that happened in the decades that Peter grew up in that broke him and shaped his worldview? The show made me think: which parts of Peter are his eccentric self, and which parts are a cry for help?
Most of all, this show raised the question: what are you going to do about that? Some people delve deeper into addictions, some give up, some find healthier ways to move on from the hurt and start their lives over.
The Invisibles by Grant Morrison
It's more like bits and pieces of this series had influenced my writing, rather than the whole story. I mainly borrowed from Lord Fanny (her unabashed love for wild styles and femininity) and Jack Frost (wild child with a love of hip-hop and many other American-centric media). But mostly from Jack Frost, because I love the idea that Peter, who is this personification of rebellion, an underdog, would absolutely love the most counterculture thing in Western society: anti-government, anti-white supremacy rap that makes the upper echelons clutch their pearls. This music that speaks of The Struggle that punk rock simply can't (which, I imagine, is why Jack Frost, a "chav" street punk from a fatherless home who is introduced to readers while he's being arrested and charged, is drawn to the likes of N.W.A).
There's also the fact that, in some way, this series "gave" me permission to go absolutely bonkers with my writing as I want to or see fit. If a guy can write a story about a government/church/alien conspiracy villains poisoning the globe, and the too-cool-for-school counterculture freedom fighters, which includes a genderqueer witch and the reincarnation of Buddha, fighting them, why can't I write something just as off-the-walls wild?
Dessa's discography
I'm cheating by saying that, technically, there are stories being told in Dessa's songs. Some of the songs are based on her real life, like "Call Off Your Ghost" and "The Lamb", and others seem to be fictional, like "No Talking Business" and "Sound the Bells". But no matter what, I always come back to her songs when I need inspiration or emotional fuel while writing. Honestly, Dessa's songs had partly inspired The MizFists arc, because I wanted to know what happens if Peter stops self-destructing and uses his love of hip-hop for good? Apparently, a lot happens.
Hetalia by Hidekaz Himaruya
At first, I had debated adding this onto the list at all; sure, it's the canon source for the very blog's existence, and one of the reasons I had made an adult!Sealand muse was because I was fascinated by all the potential there could be from the snippets of aged up Sealand Himaruya gave us, but a lot of the time, I feel like my character's deviated from his canon characterization (both his normal age and the bits of his adult portrayal) so much that sometimes, he feels like a whole new character. I had still added it because sometimes, I still draw from the canon to write him as I do now. His canon love for Broadway is why my muse is a performer; his canonical strength of steel is why Peter is able to "tether" to his fort and draw power from it for himself and his daughter. And the way Arthur keeps turning him away and "shooting him down" in canon is why my muse had decided to completely step away from the Kirkland family and lean into the Nordic family even more.
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i’m genuinely pretty curious about how i’d feel about bojack horseman now if i sat down to watch it from beginning to end. but going off memory alone, i really didn’t like the later seasons. it lost a lot of its momentum in around season 4 and while it definitely produced some masterpieces in its final years, i think it’d definitely be sort of difficult for me to watch all of it.
i have this theory about it that rbw made some specific choices in the later years because he was bitter about the show having, like, a rick and morty type reputation where it concerned the fans. the “you missed the point if you idolize them” thing, which imo is sort of ridiculous because bojack is constantly punished within narrative for his fuckups. but it’s undeniable that season 1 and season 6 feel like vastly different shows.
anyway, like, the reason i feel this way is that it name-checks discourse around the show in season 5′s philbert arc – “maybe it doesn’t romanticize it, but it normalizes it” – which i’ve always seen as a pointless criticism. and putting in that in the show just came off like it was apologizing for its own existence, which is completely spineless.
you know how jkr does that thing in the harry potter books where she’d very transparently respond to reader criticisms? “why can’t they use time turners to solve this? they all broke. fuck you.” i feel like a version of that happened here. especially if you look at how the show gets more explicitly progressive as it goes on, which imo doesn’t work all that well for it artistically. asexual todd is probably the biggest blunder here because his character really should have largely been written out after the “it’s you” speech, but diane’s antidepressant arc in the last season just sort of felt like it didn’t belong in there. by the end of it, the characters except for bojack were mostly running out of shit to do.
tbh the show probably would have been better off if it gradually phased out most of the comedy elements as it went on. the strongest episodes aren’t particularly funny at all, and it’s a shame there’s so much garbage in the back end of the series because that’s also incidentally where the strongest individual episodes are.
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Why don't you like Nana? You've probably talked about it before but just in case you haven't, why?
You can look up my tag #.nana but basically it was just melodramatic misery porn to me with no real catharsis to justify it, and nothing likeable about the main two characters for me to be interested in them being terrible people. I like depressing shows like Bojack Horseman or shit like Berserk, but both these shows have at least one or two likeable aspects of each character and enough moments of optimism and catharsis that doesn't make it a constant fucking slog to sit through and motivates you to stay invested.
I also don't like any romantic relationship with that many parallels and straight up idolization of Sid and Nancy, one of the most over-romanticized unhealthy relationships in show business (which is fucking saying something). So that adds to Nana and her boyfriend's unlikability to me 😅
Hachiko's a dependent doormat and Nana is a possessive manipulative person, nobody in the friend group does anything about the literal child prostitute and the adult woman who knows he's a child and is still actively seeing him is a character I'm incapable of liking at all. The only characters I didn't hate were Yasu and the guy Hachiko broke up with to go be with her rapist. Like I feel sympathy for Hachiko because there are lots of women like her irl in abusive relationships, but that means her friendship with Nana being possessive and unhealthy, and her marrying her rapist who got her pregnant is just...not something I enjoy at all lol. If I wanted to watch that sort of thing I'd just watch a Lifetime movie.
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Trauma dump and a rant about g house.
Every once and again you get struck by motivation. And so was I. So gather up children as I tell you the story of my fucked up relationship with this absolutely amazing genere of music:
Let me set the stage, I was around 18 at the time and I adored anything and everything that came out of confession label, I just broke up with the first real boyfriend I've ever had. To make matters worse I tried molly (escapism taken to the maximum) and I had just finished watching bojack horseman.
I was invited to a party, becasue the host wanted my best friend to come and it would be so fucking bizzare if she came without me apparently. I knew like 3 people there but most often they were too bussy with each other to even care about me.
Long fucking story short I really had a bad time being the outsider. So to deal with that I was drinking. HEAVILY. Literary black out drunk. Than a thought was in my brain 'I want to see the view from half-down, so maybe I could feel any kind of regret, any reason why I should have lived.'
I didn't even have time to process the thought because the next thing I saw was the view from the 6th floor balcony's barricade. And I felt people dragging me off of it. Needless to say I was under constant surveilence for the rest of the night. There were 2 older guys who were also doing music, so they were designated to watch over me because they had something they could be talking about with me.
I felt jelous. They were so much better than me at that point. And actually cool. Even gave me some usefull tips for singing and producing.
I wanted to pretend to be someone, to be happy with the work I put out. And so I set my sights on captuchring the jelousy, anger, hatered, and hopleness into an EP. That was the 'philosophy' released on my youtube channel in 2019.
Later I became ashamed of myself. I wanted to cut myself off from that person and never look back. 'Burry this old version and don't set up the grave stone so he can never be found' type beat. But my life has gotten better. And I've grown so much as an artist. I decided that I'd rather celebrate the overcomming of those emotions and bettering oneself instead of hidding away.
So I created a track emulating that old school g house. It's avilable too see on my channel right now. Along with the rest of the ep because I truly believe that now I am someone, I am happy with the work I put out.
Thank you for listening to my story and remember: just because a world died, does not mean it will stay that way.
Here is the link to the entire ep. now featuring the newest track 'the last philosopher'
(yes I do feel kinda bad self promoting after that huge wall of trauma dump but I know I would be curious to hear those tracks)
#trauma dump#trauma#music#musician#talking about myself#talking about music#talking about trauma#stay safe yall#it gets better
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Aw, Grim, you’re so sweet! But you don’t needa worry about me, I promise! I’m trying to stay positive, catching up on books or shows I can’t get to because I’m usually very busy. It’s silly, I know, but at least it’s better than bein all depressed. I play football and my coach told me I can’t play until it’s healed which really bummed me, especially since we have a game on Thursday. But I’m looking at the positives! So if you have any shows you recommend… 🤲
Okay the how is kind of stupid, but I’ll tell you anyway. I broke my arm playing football, fell right on the goal post and put my arm out to break the fall… yeah. And my wrist, well. I’m very short, like 150cm short, and I weigh nothing, so I climb. Not rock climbing, I mean climbing up my furniture; in this case, the huge bookcase I have, so I can reach the top books. I feel like you can kind of see where this is going. So I climbed it as usual, to get to the book I need, since I stupidly keep all my important books and school stuff at the tippy top. And I tried grabbing the book I needed with my now good arm, the one that I’d just gotten the cast off of, but it fell. It’s a heavy book so I didn’t want it to make a noise and disturb my neighbours so I kind of tried chasing it down with my arm?
It didn’t work and I ended up falling haha. I tried stopping it by landing with my hands out to break the fall but I didn’t want to risk my arm to breaking after it just healed, so I only used one hand. I don’t know how to explain it well, but my hand sort of landed between the floor and the book that fell. Surprisingly, it doesn’t even end there! I also slammed the big ass metal front door of my flat on my hand. Broke my wrist in four places lol.
I haven’t had a chance to listen to your song yet, but I will today! Pinky promise :)
Anyways! Question time, Grim… What’s a hobby you had as a kid? Do you like painting your nails? What’s your preferred method of transportation (e.g.: bus, train, car)? What’s something that made your week/day better? 🎤
ooohhhh you play football??? oh fuck yeah. youre so cool for that. but one thing though...... is it football like british football aka soccer or american football lmfao
i cant believe this story though wowwwwwoooww..... i truly understand your thought process. we do weird stuff like that when we're alone, us humans. you try to save your ass by making a move that ultimately has another part of your body suffering. i get it. i do it all the time. as someone who lives alone, i always have to be extra careful as to how i do things cause if i fuck up, no ones gonna save me lol. glad youre taking this time to just consume sick ass media. nothing better
OK SHOWS I RECOMMEND FUCK there are a lot. take your pick: Shameless (US version fo sho), My Mad Fat Diary, Friday Night Lights (football show that changed my brain chemistry), The Sopranos, Fellow Travelers (gay), It's A Sin (gay), Pose (one of the best shows ive ever watched), Freaks And Geeks (1 season only show), It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia (if you just wanna shut your brain off) and uuhhh any cartoon like Bojack Horseman, Simpsons, Rick And Morty is also sick (to me) you can just shut your brain off while watching it. all these shows are mad entertaining
A hobby i had as a kid......damn i had a lot. I would draw compulsively honestly, like anywhere i could. Any piece of paper. I would also play imaginary games with complex scenarios all the time and act out the entire Peter Pan live action movie from 2003 with my friend. i would collect keychains and had this bouncy ball i was obsessed with that i would just bounce off the walls. i went to circus school too so i did a lot of shit on the jungle gym at the park like every day. always tryna impress the other kids lol. nothings changed
i also do paint my nails! always with some sparkly polish though. i dont like to wear dark color polish or anything too matte so its always a combo of different glittersss
my preferred method of transportation is my bike!! but its winter 6 months outta the year here so when i cant take it i like walking the most or the bus. the subway here makes me feel claustrophobic fr. my parents are giving me their car though in the summer so im about to be a gay man that drives aaayyyyyyy
something that made my week better........hm probably dancing with my friends. it was disco night and i had my flask in my pocket so i got to drink for freeeeee. also writing the first two chapters of my rosekiller fic AAANNND getting an ask from you!!!!
okok i feel like i KNOW the game is YOU ask ME questions, but here lemme return the sentiment: what is a dream youve had that you'll always remember?
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tagged by @buffyjackets , ty for the tag! :3
RULES: list 8 tv shows to get to know me better! but im going to break the rules and list 10, because i cannot help myself. btw, #1 truly is #1, but the rest are not ordered in any particular fashion
bojack horseman. this might come as a surprise because i hardly ever rb anything about it but this is probably the show that has had the biggest impact on me as a person. i could go on and on and on and on about how meaningful this show is to me
buffy the vampire slayer. i watched it first when i was a preteen, but now i'm rewatching it and it really has a chokehold on me lol.
the wilds. im devastated that it was cancelled. i love those girls. rip my silly little island show
orphan black. rachel duncan you will always be famous <3 also helena, mika, beth, sarah, and krystal
killing eve. simply pretend season 4 does not exist, and everything is fine. season 3's finale actually is a really good ending
doctor who. like btvs, i watched this first when i was a preteen. unlike btvs, it did not take me until several years later for it to rewire my brain.
la casa de papel. i just like seeing a fucked-up found family doing crimes together lol
yellowjackets. something that almost all of the shows on this list have in common is that they contain fucked-up women. this show has a high concentration of them, so it's an easy pick
the L word. i'll be honest that i have not rewatched this since i was like 13, but i DO remember bits and pieces very well, and it has so many iconic characters & quotes. jenny schecter is so unpalatable and i love that for her
dead like me. this is a bryan fuller show from like 2002 about a girl who becomes a grim reaper. fuller is more well-known for hannibal and pushing daisies, but this is the one i was obsessed with as a teen. (i think there's also an episode of hannibal that's like...a stealth crossover or a shoutout to dead like me? idk i haven't seen hannibal.) it definitely uses some...outdated language...but i think it still otherwise holds up decently well. it's funny and profound and i love love love daisy adair with my whole heart.
tagging: uhhh i am being called away to watch btvs w/ my sibling lol. so, anyone who wants to do this, consider yourself tagged! also note that i fully broke the rules and it was supposed to be 8 shows.
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Reasons I ✨hate✨ my boyfriend
1. He talks over me and frequently doesn't respond to things after I'm done speaking
2. He forgets almost everything I tell him about myself (my likes and dislikes, etc)
3. (Emotional narcissist) Always makes everything I'm going through about him. (For example, he put me through a dangerous situation and then broke down bawling and had me comforting him when it should've been the other way around)
4. He has poor dental hygiene (breath has underlying sourness due to not brushing properly and not flossing, you can literally see the plaque when his yellow ass teeth show)
5. He's a broke ass Marxist with no career ambition.
6. He sucks at every aspect of sex and doesn't care enough to try (he also sucks at taking guidance and frequently hurts me).
7. Is immature and embarrassing ( for example, we were in a sex shop and the dumbass pointed at viagra pills and said "oh they have stuff for old people too" which is just an ignorant statement to make and me and the clerk had to educate him and he was still acting like a goof in the store. I was so embarrassed that those people knew I was having sex with this man baby.)
8. He doesn't much effort into his fashion or fitness (dresses like mr. peanut butter from Bojack horseman and has a beer belly despite being in his 20s). Also eats like a fucking glutton and doesn't have nutritious meals. Loves his oinky oinky pork 🐷
9. Brings home far more money than me but has far less savings. Just completely irresponsible with money.
10. No self-respect or assertiveness. I don't feel protected by him (this man brought me to meet his father and let that man throw thinly veiled insults at both of us).
11. I've literally brought all of these issues up several times throughout our relationship and he says he's gonna change and never does. Sometimes he improves for one week then falls off.
The list could literally go on...
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for the ask 37 and 22
37. 3 languages you would love to learn
oh my god i was hoping someone would ask me this because i want to learn so many languages.
French because i used to live in Paris but i haven’t been back in years and i’ve kinda lost my french abilities 😩. I would love to relearn it tho
Spanish because it seems like such a pretty language. also i wanna go to a lot of the countries that speak spanish and i think it would be a better experience if i didn’t have to get google translate out every two minutes lmao.
and (idk if this counts) sign language because i think it would just be a cool skill to learn.
22. 3 movies/books/tv shows that made you cry
i always thought i didn’t cry often until you asked this question and i realised i cry at so many shows i swear i have no idea how to narrow it down to just 3
the owl house finale. i was actually coping really well right up until the end when they all said “bye” and i realised that was the end of toh. there will never be another season. then i just started crying i was so sad.
bojack horseman. that fucking horse made me cry multiple times. the view from halfway down, stupid piece of shit and free churro all made me cry but good damage and that’s too much man actually broke me
and httyd the hidden world. when hiccup and toothless were reunited at the end of this movie 🥺 i couldn’t stop crying. my nose turned into niagara falls and my eyes looked like i had been high for 30 hours straight. i can’t even put into words how i felt.
thanks so much for the ask!!
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tw: ed, drug use, self harm, thoughts of sxicide
well. after a really long haitus, losing like 20 lbs, breaking up with my boyfriend of 5 years and just spiraling into weed, i'm back.
im in a really shitty place and ive just accepted it at this point. it fucking hurts like hell and every day and night i want to hurt myself or just die in general. after me and my boyfriend broke up i started to use weed as a way to cope. it suppressed all my feelings and i still do it but there have been moments where i didn't want to feel anything at all that i literally almost drove myself to death with edxbles. i had a seizure.
i stopped eating a lot, but sometimes when i'm high i'll get the munchies and it'll fuck everything up and i'd gain weight. i reached my lowest weight ever which was 153lbs but ever since i accidentally binged on pizza and garlic knots this one time i was high i havent been able to lower my weight and it keeps going from 155 to 159. i quite literally refuse to go back to 160 so i'll just start purging whatever i can in panic and it hurts and i hate it but i hate myself and i want the number to go lower and lower. i hate that im starting to get my appetite again at the most random intervals and i'll eat and completely regret it when i step on the scale after school and see that i gained 2lbs. which i know is water weight or whatever but i still fucking hate it cause that means that i'm just stuck at the same number i was in the morning and i wanted to be lower.
in conclusion, i'm really trying to hold on and i cant and i'm slipping and i have no one to talk to about what's going on cause no one takes me seriously so i just get high so i can stop thinking for a few hours. cause right now that's better than living.
that and i watch bojack horseman a lot to distract myself and i read to escape my own reality and enter someone else's.
stay safe <3
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Diane: “Im tired of squinting”
Me:
#bojack horseman#bojack spoilers#that fucking BROKE me#not that the whole season wasnt soul crushing#but holy fuck man...#i guess I just really thought they would work it out#i really thought theyd be ok#especially after that whole motel thing....that was so fucking sweet and beautiful and I loved it#god damnit man....god damnit#drews drama#ok to rb#text
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10 characters 10 fandoms 10 tags - @venusrobots tagged me 😁
1. Kim Wexler - Better Call Saul. She means the world to me. Everything about her is perfect and Rhea Seahorn’s performance deserves literally so many awards but the garbage emmys won’t even nominate her. She is strong and mean and flawed and a superhero and an insanely stubborn and loyal woman.
2. Mickey Milkovich - Shameless. Oh man this character, they accidentally wrote the best god damn gay character that’s ever been on tv. Once again Noel Fisher’s performance is what made this character who he is. That and the fan’s love for Mickey.
3. Beatrice Horseman - Bojack Horseman. She is a fucking horrible person, a terrible mother, and bunch more bad things but holy shit that back story. The way we continuously inherit the traumas of our parents, the way women were never given a chance literally since the day we’re born. I can’t go into it but this show does an incredible job of writing an incredibly complex female character.
4. Serena Joy - The Handmaid’s Tale. Okay let’s pretend that show only has one season but god damn. Serena Joy is literally the most vile human being and I love her so much. I love when writers get evil women just being evil and awful for no reason other than being evil. That’s her entire motive, she is pure evil. I love that shit
5. Skylar White - Breaking Bad. Clearly I love the way Vince Gilligan (a man..) writes women but damn I’m obsessed with it. She’s nuanced, layered, flawed. She feels so real it’s insane. She is truly human and she was hated for it by the brba fans. Incredible character.
6.Poussey Washington - Orange is the New Black. Hate this show, love Poussey. She was incredible. I am almost never a fan of sunshine-y and cheerful characters but she truly stole my heart. She was so full of love and she just had a really big and beautiful heart. She is an inspiration
7. Sandra Kaluiokalani - Superstore. I fucking love Sandra. She is crazy and secretly evil and I am obsessed with her. I have never loved a sitcom character like this but she floors me every time she has a scene. So fucking funny in the most subtle way ever. Superstore needs a warehouse spinoff so I can get more Sandra pls.
8. Tara Gregson - United States of Tara. Let me start by saying that this show is a terrible disservice to those who live with DID and should not be counted on for accurate representation. I went into it not knowing any of this and of course, Toni Collette delivered the most incredible performance as Tara and I just loved her so much for everything and every part of her.
9. Castiel - Supernatural. As much as I hate to say this, I truly loved this character and when I rewatched the show I was like oh it’s okay I won’t love him like that anymore so I’m sure I can handle watching the show again but god dammit I did. I loved him again and I love him now. He just makes me want to protect him and he has so many fucking layers I really can’t explain it but once again they accidentally wrote one of the best gay characters on tv so of course I fell in love 🥺
10. Rose Tyler - Doctor Who. I cannot believe I almost forgot her but I love her sooo much. She was literally the first female character that kinda finally broke me out of my internalized misogyny but wow she was amazing. She was another character that was like generally a good person but in a real way. She wasn’t perfect and that’s what made her the perfect character.
I don’t really know if I can tag 10 people but if you’re obsessed with tv shows like I am please send me your favs and tell me about the characters you love. I love watching tv it’s the only thing that continues to bring me joy no matter how fucking depressed and upset I am. Anyways I tag @dudealy @timidlouie @tomlinsno @28louistomlinson and anyone else who wants to do it pls tag me 😘🥰
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