girl code | kim taehyung
pairing: taehyung x reader (y/n)
genre: fluff, some angst
warnings: y/n and her best friend have a crush on the same guy, a little swearing, insecurities, taehyung being so cute, y/n not wanting to hurt her best friend, pining
words: 7.4k
summary: y/n is falling for her best friends crush, but she won’t make a move because she doesn’t want to break girl code. that doesn’t stop taehyung from falling for her and trying to make a move
based on a snippet i heard on tiktok of brynn cartelli’s new song girl code, which comes out this Friday! (8/5) i heard the song and i immediately fell in love and had to write about it LOL hope you all enjoy! i’ll add her username so if you want to listen to the snippet as well! :) <3 (tiktok: brynnzzyy)
My girlfriend told me she was into you that night we were introduced outside of the pub
“What are we waiting for? It’s so fucking cold out here! Let’s go inside!” My best friend, Lisa, complained to Jimin and me as we waited outside of the pub.
“We’re waiting for Jungkook! I already told you this. Stop complaining,” I chuckled as my two best friends bickered back and forth about waiting for our other friend Jungkook outside. “Why do you always have to complain about everything? Y/N isn’t complaining that is cold. Oh, and, look, there they are!”
I looked up to see Jungkook waving at us as he crossed the street with a random man by his side. I felt my heart beat quicken and butterflies flutter when I made eye contact with Jungkook’s new friend. He gave me a shy smile and made his way over to us without taking his eyes off of me. I took my eyes off of him when Jungkook stood directly in front of me and wrapped me up in a warm hug.
“Y/N! I haven’t seen you in forever!” He greeted me with a huge grin and a small kiss on my forehead. I wrapped my arms around his waist tightly, moving my head to the side so my ear was against his chest. With my new position, I saw Jungkook’s friend again, who was once again staring at me. I blushed but quickly looked away from him when Jungkook let go of me.
“You literally saw her this morning, dumbass. What took you so long? It’s freezing out here! And, why did you only say hi to Y/N? Did you forget Jimin and I existed too?” Lisa once again complained, making me giggle as Jimin and Jungkook groaned out in frustration with her nonstop complaining.
“That’s my bad,” the mysterious man spoke up, looking toward Lisa and Jimin briefly before smiling down at me. “I showed up at Jungkook’s house without any warning. I didn’t know that he had already made plans for tonight. I hope you all don’t mind me tagging along unexpectedly. I’m Taehyung, by the way.”
He put his hand out in front of me, hoping that I would shake it, but before I had the chance to Lisa slightly pushed me to the side and placed her hand in his, subtly biting her lower lip. “I’m Lisa. It’s nice to meet you, Taehyung. I hope you know that I’m not always this whiny. I just get a bit cold,” she pouted at him, causing him to let out a small chuckle.
“I don’t mind. My apologies for making you freeze.”
Taehyung then introduced himself to Jimin, while Jungkook pulled me toward the entrance so we could find a place to sit. When we found a table, we sat across from each other and Taehyung sat next to me, smiling warmly.
“Sorry, I don’t think we got to properly introduce ourselves to each other,” he talked into my ear since the pub was so noisy. His closeness and deep voice caused me to shiver slightly and I looked up to see his beautiful smile and comforting eyes looking down at me once again. “It’s Y/N, right?” I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion that he knew my name. I nodded slowly when I remembered Jungkook greeted me by name when he arrived.
“It’s nice to meet you, Taehyung,” I responded, putting my hand out so he could finally shake it which he did, but he also pulled it towards his lips to give it a gentle peck.
“The pleasure is all mine.”
Jimin and Lisa sat down at the booth with us, with drinks and food for everyone as we talked and joked around with each other. Taehyung surprisingly got along well with all of us and fit right in with our friend group. A few times, when he would talk, he would put his arm on the back of my seat or lean in closer to me when he was laughing. I didn’t want to think too much of it because we just met and he could possibly be extra friendly when he had a few drinks in him. I didn’t want to fall too hard for him already because I had known him for less than two hours and I don’t yet really know anything crucial about him. All I know is he has a beautiful smile, a contagious laugh, and a deep, comforting voice.
Jungkook had put the plate of cheesy bacon fries between us and occasionally would lift a fry up to my mouth to feed me out of habit. I didn’t think anything of Jungkook feeding me because it was normal for us to feed each other on a night out, but it seemed to confuse Taehyung when he leaned down to whisper in my ear.
“I didn’t know that you and Kook were a couple,” I nearly choked on my drink when I heard him say that. I looked up at him with wide eyes and he tried to rub my back to control my slight coughing.
“Oh, no! Kook and I are not dating,” I nervously laughed when he raised his eyebrows in suspicion and gave me a small smirk.
“There’s no sort of relationship between you two? Then how come he only greeted you and why is he only feeding you fries?”
“Aww, do you want him to feed you some fries too?” We laughed together and I lightly patted his shoulder. “We’re just good friends. We don’t see each other like that, you know? We just so happen to get along really well and he likes to take care of me so feeding me fries is just him being kind.”
“Hmm, okay. I’ll believe you.”
“You know, Taehyung, it’s a little too early in our friendship for you to be getting jealous about other guys,” I teased him with a wide smile on my face. He smirked and leaned closer to my ear, his warm breath giving me chills once again.
“I just like to seek out my competition early,” he moved back to look at my face and winked before rejoining the conversation between Jimin and Jungkook. I blushed as I played with my drink.
That means that he feels it too, right? Some sort of connection. Some sort of attraction. I was pulled out of my thoughts by Lisa calling my name.
“Y/N, will you go to the bathroom with me?” She asked, sliding out of the booth. I, wordlessly, followed her lead and made my way to the bathroom behind her, but that wasn’t before I heard Taehyung’s quiet request for me, or maybe us, to hurry back.
“Y/N! Do you see him?” She squealed when we were finally alone. I looked at her with wide eyes, not liking where this conversation was headed. “He’s so beautiful! And funny. Oh my god, do you think I have a chance? Do you? Please tell me that I do!”
I felt as if my heart dropped to my stomach and I wanted to throw up all over her shoes, as I tried to figure out how to respond to her confession. Obviously, she finds Taehyung attractive. Anyone in their right mind would find Taehyung attractive. I knew that Lisa had a chance. She probably had a greater chance of getting Taehyung to fall for her than I ever would have for him to fall for me. She was absolutely stunning, funny, exciting, and overall, everything that I wasn’t. In more simple words, I am pretty simple. And a guy like Taehyung would never go for a simple girl.
“Yeah…yeah. Obviously, I think you have a chance. He would be missing out if he didn’t want to get to know you,” I fake smiled in her direction and I couldn’t help but feel happy for her when I saw her eyes light up.
This was only an attraction to Taehyung, and I will get over it in no time. I just want my best friend to be happy.
Lisa cheered and pulled me close to her, wrapping her arms around my neck. “Yeah, and if you ever gave Jungkook a chance, then he would be the luckiest man on this planet,” she added cheekily, causing my eyes to roll.
“Jungkook and I don’t like each other like that! We’re just best friends.”
“I know, but I can hope that my best friend ends up with a hottie like Jungkook, and we already know that he treats you right!”
“I’ll find someone one day. Let’s focus more on you and Taehyung,” I smiled sadly, knowing that it won’t be Taehyung that will treat me right because I just gave up the battle for him to Lisa. Lisa and I brainstormed ways to get Taehyung to notice her before we made our way back to the table with the three boys.
“Are y’all okay? You were in there for a while,” Jimin checked in us, worriedly. I let out a small chuckle, thinking about how kind of a friend Jimin is.
“Yeah, we’re good! Just girl talk, you know?” Lisa answered, sitting closer to Taehyung as we planned for her to do.
“Hey,” Jungkook gently placed his hand on my hands that were folded on the table. “You sure you’re okay?” I smiled up at him. I wish that the universe had planned for Jungkook and me to fall in love. Life would be so much easier if I ended up falling in love with him since I already know how caring and gentle he is with me, and obviously, he is gorgeous.
“I’m fine, Kookie. I promise,” he gave me a small smile before removing his hand from mine and continuing his conversation with Jimin.
I looked over and saw Taehyung laughing at something that Lisa said. He smiled down at her with a wide, beautiful smile and I knew my chance with him if I ever had one was over. I sighed and tried to pay attention to what Jimin and Jungkook were talking about. I would occasionally insert my opinion on a topic and I would laugh along to their jokes and their stories. Taehyung looked over at me briefly before placing his arm back around the back of my chair. Lisa was telling the boys a story about the party she went to last weekend when Taehyung reached for the cheesy fries that were placed in front of me. He leaned down to whisper in my ear once again.
“I know it’s not really my place since we just met, but I just want to make sure that you’re really ok,” my heart fluttered at his concerned tone and I looked in his eyes to reassure him that I truly was fine. I forgot what I was going to say for a minute when I looked up and saw how beautiful he truly was up close to me. His concerned eyes and soft smile looked down at me.
“I’m fine, Taehyung. I think the beer is just getting to me a little bit.”
“Here, have some of my water,” he pushed his water cup toward me and encouraged me to drink out of the same cup that his mouth was on. I took a small sip before placing the glass back on the table. “Here. I’ll keep it between us, so if you need more water you can have some of mine.”
“Thank you,” I whispered, feeling flushed that he would share his drink with me so willingly.
“It’s no problem, Y/N. And here,” he grabbed another fry from the plate and directed it toward my mouth. “You should eat some more to make you feel better.”
I ate the from his fingers and smiled a genuine smile at him. “You were just jealous that Jungkook got to feed me, so now you want to establish dominance,” I joked, causing a louder laugh to exit his mouth.
“I would know how to take care of you better than Jungkook does,” he flirted with me, and I was about to reply back with a smart comment about how I would like to see him try to take care of me and treat me well, but Lisa pulled on his arm to start a conversation with him once again.
This is already harder than I thought it would be.
I, stupidly, encouraged her to make a move, told her to pursue what possibly could be love
I walked out of my bedroom to see Lisa dressed up for the day, making me pause and stare at her with a smile. “You look pretty! Where are you going?”
“I’m gonna go hang out with Taehyung!” She squealed excitedly. She looked at herself in the mirror one more time before turning to me. “I texted him if he had any plans today and then I asked if he wanted to go to some arcade.”
“Oh, that’s exciting! When is he supposed to pick you up?”
“Any minute now! I’m kind of nervous, but I thought we hit it off pretty well at the pub, don’t you think?”
“Yeah, he seemed to really like you,” I lied to spare her feelings. I wasn’t exactly sure how Taehyung felt about Lisa, but something is telling me that the feelings were not reciprocated. I am hoping that I am only feeling this way because I want Taehyung all to myself, and not because they are true. She jumped up and down when I told her that and squealed even louder when we heard the doorbell ring.
Wow, what a gentleman. Who rings the doorbell anymore to pick up their date?
Lisa rushed to the door, while I walked over to the kitchen to find something to snack on. I heard his deep voice greet Lisa, while I heard Lisa’s soft giggles making me sigh. While I finally found some chips to eat, I heard footsteps approaching the kitchen. Taehyung’s head popped around the corner and he offered me the warmest smile.
“Hey!” He greeted me, walking toward me. “How are you, Y/N?” He put his arm around my shoulders, turning my head to rest on his chest.
“I’m doing good, Taehyung. How are you?” He pulled me away from his chest but kept his arm around my shoulder.
“I’m great! You look great, by the way,” I scoffed and pushed him away from me. I was only wearing biker shorts and a sweatshirt so I knew that he was lying. “I’m being serious! You look good. Are you ready to go?”
I stopped in my tracks and looked at Lisa, who also had a confused face. “Um, I’m not going with you two,” his smile dropped and he sighed.
“Oh? Why not?” He asked disappointed. I was about to answer when Lisa cut in.
“She has plans!” She smiled before grabbing Taehyung’s arm. He looked down at her before looking back at me.
“Oh, with who?” My eyes widened because I truly did not have any plans, but Lisa thought it was a good idea to lie to him.
“Um, I made plans with Jungkook. Nothing too exciting. Just stay inside and watch some movies.” I smiled, but it quickly fell when Taehyung stared at me confused.
“Jungkook has plans tonight with some of our friends,” Taehyung informed me, causing my cheeks to burn red. I let out a fake laugh and scratched my neck out of embarrassment.
“Oh, yeah! I meant with Jimin. Jimin! I have plans with Jimin!”
“You two are more than welcome to join us though. Or we could stay in and watch some movies with you,” Tae suggested. I looked over to Lisa once again, who did not look pleased at all.
“It’s fine. I don’t want to intrude on y’all’s time.”
“No! It’ll be fun,” he insisted, which forced me into joining their date and thankfully, Jimin was available to tag along.
“Ugh! Why are we going to an arcade again?” Jimin asked me as we were in the backseat of Taehyung’s car. I had argued with Jimin for at least five minutes on the phone before I could convince him to go out with me. He had insisted that he could not leave the house because he was too busy watching Netflix, but after I promised to pay for his meal tonight, he reluctantly agreed.
“Because Lisa and Taehyung invited us,” I said, rolling my eyes. He groaned in annoyance before leaning toward me so the other two could not hear us.
“Why are we really going?” He asked, glaring at me to answer him honestly.
“Lisa likes Taehyung,” I whispered, causing Jimin to gasp loudly and both of them to look back at us with curiosity. I hit Jimin’s arm and waited for the attention to be taken away from us before I continued my explanation. “Taehyung thought that it was a group activity at the arcade and he insisted that I come as well. But, I didn’t want to be a third wheel, so who better to drag along with me than my best friend,” I smiled widely.
“Ahh, so you’re using me?” Jimin fake pouted, causing me to smirk at him. “But, uh, I thought there was something between you and Tae.”
I looked at Jimin in shock before profusely shaking my head no. I was confused about how Jimin came to that conclusion because neither Taehyung nor I have shown any signs of possibly being interested in each other. I looked ahead and caught Taehyung’s eyes as he briefly glanced through the rearview mirror. He noticeably beamed once he noticed my eyes. I quickly turned to Jimin, who was already giving me the ‘I told you so look’.
“Shut up,” I muttered to him.
Not long after we arrived at the arcade. Jimin and I tried to stay to ourselves as much as possible, but somehow, Taehyung and Lisa kept finding us.
“Fix your posture,” I heard being instructed in my ear. I immediately knew it was Taehyung and I stiffened as I felt him behind me. “And relax,” I was playing the basketball game, which I was failing at. “Here let me help you.”
He placed his hands on my hips, angling them toward the hoop, kicked his foot in between my two feet to separate them, and pushed my hips down to get my knees to bend. “Perfect,” I blushed as he moved his hands to my hands to help me grip the ball better. “You got this, Y/N.”
I took a deep breath and shot the ball toward the hoop, and surprisingly made it. I squealed in delight and jumped towards Taehyung in excitement. I gave him a quick hug, causing him to chuckle before urging me to continue since the clock was ticking down. I was able to make a few more baskets, but I wasn’t able to make it to the next round. I turned to my right to see Taehyung leaning against the machine, watching me play with a grin on his face. My cheeks turned red, and I played with my hands when I remembered how close we were just a minute ago.
“Thank you for helping me. I’m not too good at basketball.”
“Of course. I couldn’t let you embarrass yourself,” I smacked his shoulder and rolled my eyes as he made fun of me. “I’ve barely seen you all night. You don’t want to hang out with me?” He pouted.
“I’ve just been busy hanging out with Jimin like you’ve been hanging out with Lisa.”
“Looks like Jimin ditched you,” I looked to the back of the arcade where the bar was and I noticed Jimin sitting there with a drink in front of him. I couldn’t help but giggle at him. “I was so worried about Jungkook being my competition that I didn’t even realize the real competition was Jimin,” he remarked, making me tilt my head to the side.
“I think you need to work on your jealousy. Jimin and I are definitely not dating. He’s just my best friend. I’ve known for a long time. It would be too weird, you know?” Taehyung nodded his head in understanding.
“It’s hard not to be so jealous when you’re so beautiful,” As I was about to respond, Lisa made her way over to us and gripped Taehyung’s arm.
“Sorry that I took so long. The line for the restroom was so long,” She greeted me as well and I couldn’t help, but feel bad when I fully registered that Taehyung was flirting with me and called me beautiful. “You want to go play air hockey with me?” She asked him, now ignoring that I was standing with them as well.
“Sounds fun. You coming, Y/N?” He pleaded with his eyes, but I couldn’t bare to spend time alone with the two of them and I don’t think I could convince Jimin to leave the bar now.
“No, I’m okay. I’m gonna go sit with Jimin. I’m kind of tired now,” Taehyung’s eyes followed me as I hurried away, but I didn’t look back since I didn’t want to change my mind.
I definitely need a drink now.
But there you are with your hair pushed back, and a big ole smile gave me a heart attack, got me feeling things I never have before. And we talk all night, but I play it cool. I don’t cross the line, follow all the rules and I wonder if you’re thinking about it too
I grabbed the remote on my bedside table and scrolled through the different channels, but groaned out in frustration when I couldn’t find anything I wanted to watch. Lisa went out tonight to hang out with friends of hers that I never met before. She offered to take me, but I didn’t feel like going out to a bar tonight.
I screamed out in frustration once again when I felt my phone vibrate, wanting to be left alone. I reluctantly picked up my phone to see I received a text from a number that I didn’t know.
random number: hey! i’m hoping this is y/n, if it’s not please ignore this message lol i got your number from jungkook, and if you’re not busy or anything right now if you wanted to come over to my place and hang out with me and my friends! if not, no worries. it’s taehyung btw! :)
I sat up in shock that Taehyung had texted me to hang out with him and his friends when I don’t really even know him that well. I contemplated my options since it didn’t seem like a horrible idea. I didn’t want to be bored at home alone but did I really want to hang out with Taehyung and his friends without any of my friends? I bit my lip and decided that I could just go over to his place a little bit and then hopefully when I come home, Lisa will be there already.
y/n: hey tae! this is y/n btw lmao that sounds fun, just text me your address and i’ll be over soon!
tae: no, I’ll come pick you up in 20! see you soon!!
I quickly jumped out of bed and changed from my pajama pants to a pair of jeans and threw on a random shirt. I decided that my hair looked fine as it is and threw on the first pair of shoes that I could find. I quickly stopped in my tracks and regretted my decision to go. How would Lisa react when she found out I was out with Taehyung? How mad will she be? I sat on the couch and threw my head back on the couch; however, I did not have much time to regret or change my decision because I already heard my doorbell ring. I took a deep breath before I slowly made my way to the door.
When I opened the door, Taehyung was standing on our welcome mat with his hair pushed back, his hands behind his back, and a wide smile.
“Hey!” He breathed out, holding his arms out for me to walk into. I shyly made my way into his arms, hugging his waist. He squeezed me tight and swayed me from side to side a little. “Sorry if my text was a bit random and weird. I just, I don’t know. I guess I wanted to hang out with you. I didn’t really get to spend much time with you at the arcade the other day.”
“It’s okay! I’m actually glad you texted,” I pulled away from his arms and locked my front door.
“Oh, really? Why?”
“Lisa went out tonight so I was bored and alone,” he nodded in understanding, leading me to his car.
“Well if you ever get bored and need someone to hang out with, you can always call me,” he opened the passenger door for me and helped me get into his car. He waited for me to lock my seatbelt before he closed the door and made his way to his side.
We made casual conversation on the way to his house, getting to know each other better and learning more about his friends so I wasn’t as nervous to meet them. I slowly followed him as he led me to his house. He, unexpectedly, reached back and grabbed my hand dragging me so I stood beside him.
“You don’t have to be so nervous. I’ll be right here next to you, I promise,” Taehyung tried to reassure me so I took a deep breath and decided to just trust him. There’s no way his friends could be that bad if Taehyung is near perfect. We entered the house and I already heard loud talking coming from the living room. When I came face to face with all of Taehyung’s friends, they quieted down and stared at me, which was very intimidating.
“This is Y/N. She is also friends with Jungkook. That’s how we met. Y/N, this is Jin, Yoongi, Hoseok, and Namjoon. They’re my friends,” he introduced me to the group of guys, who gave me welcoming smiles and small, friendly introductions.
“Hi, nice to meet you guys. Thanks for letting me come to your guy’s night.”
Taehyung led me to the couch, where there were two empty spots left perfectly for us. He let me sit first, which left me between him and Namjoon. Once he sat down, he moved his arm lower to my hip to pull me a bit closer to him since I was sitting close enough to Namjoon that our legs were touching.
“Tae,” I said in a warning voice, causing him to stop in his tracks and move his arm away from my hips. “Are you moving me closer because you’re jealous again?” I teased him, causing him to blush and clear his throat. “This is the third guy in a month that you’ve been jealous of!”
“What can I say?” He leaned closer to tease me as well. “I must really like you,” I leaned in closer as well to tease him back, but then I remembered that I had to follow the girl code. Even though Lisa wasn’t here, I wouldn’t feel right flirting with the guy that she likes behind her back. I leaned back and just gave him a soft smile.
“I’ve already told you that you don’t need to be jealous.”
“I know, but it’s hard!” He complained. “I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop until people can no longer see you or be near you unless it’s me of course.”
“Then, maybe you shouldn’t have invited me over to your house with your four roommates,” I sassed him, making him laugh and he rested his head on my shoulder.
“You can just say that you wanted to get me alone,” I puked his stomach for his comment, making him laugh even louder, making me smile at how happy and carefree he sounded. “I missed you too much,” he mumbled. I couldn’t respond before we were dragged into whatever conversation the boys were having.
We ended up throwing on some random comedy movie after an hour or two of pointless, yet very funny conversation. Taehyung continued to be a bit flirty with me throughout the night, but I didn’t engage in the flirting as well. I tried my best to be on my best behavior, but I definitely slipped up a few times, but I couldn’t help it since he’s so beautiful and makes me feel comfortable around him.
I yawned while looking at the tv screen, and I slowly laid my head on Taehyung’s shoulder. He pulled me even closer to him if that was possible and laid a gentle peck on the top of my head. “Are you sleepy, pretty?” I gently nodded my head and I could feel his shoulders shake as he laughed. “Do you wanna lay in my bed?”
“I want to, but I should probably go home,” I complained. He nodded his head in understanding and helped me off the couch. As I was saying goodbye to all of the boys, he put his arm around my waist and helped me walk to his car in my sleepy state. He helped me get into his car, once again, before he made his way over to my home.
“Thank you for coming over tonight. I had a really great time,” he shyly mentioned as the radio softly played. I glanced over at him and I knew that I was screwed because as much as Lisa may like him, I definitely like him more but I shouldn’t. I was the one that encouraged her to make her move and I couldn’t just completely dismiss her feelings just because of my own.
“Your friends are great. It was so much fun.”
“Yeah? What about me?” He asked, nervously biting his lip.
“I think you’re pretty great, too, Tae,” I whispered as this moment started to feel personal to me. “Maybe not as great as Hobi, but still pretty great.”
“I think you’re pretty great, too, you know?” He looked over at me before focusing back on the road. “You’re so kind and sweet. And funny. And I’m really glad that we met,” he listed all the things he liked about me as he drove into my driveway. He turned off the car and moved his body so he was facing me, making me do the same.
“I’m glad that I met you, too. I guess I can thank Jungkook for doing something right,” we both giggled and as he was about to reply to me, we heard a tapping on the window. We both turned to the driver’s side window and saw Lisa smiling at the two of us.
“Taehyung! What are you doing here?” She exclaimed, throwing her arms around him when he opened his door. As much as I want Lisa to be happy, I couldn’t sit around and watch this. I felt tears come to my eyes and I quickly tried to blink them away.
“Um, thank you for tonight, Tae,” I said, opening my door. He was about to stop me from leaving, but I cut him off. “I guess I’ll see you around,” I closed the door and turned to look at Lisa. “I’m gonna be in my room. Don’t be too late out here.”
I hurried inside the house as the tears started falling down my cheeks. Ugh! Why does this always have to happen to me? Why can’t I ever just put my happiness before others? I’ve known Taehyung for a month and this is already one of the most horrible heartbreaks that I’ve ever experienced. I crashed onto my bed and hugged my pillow tight into me.
No matter how much I wanted to be with Taehyung, I couldn’t. I can’t be with Taehyung because of the girl code.
So here we are in this photo booth with your eyes on me while she’s all on you under neon lights in this crowded room I was getting shy, don’t know what to do with my hands or my toes
Tonight was Jungkook’s birthday party and I was getting ready to go there with Jimin. I am going to meet Lisa there since she went to hang out with Taehyung this morning. I haven’t seen him since we hung out at his house, but he has texted me occasionally.
“So are you going to tell me what’s going on with you and Taehyung? Because, sure, Lisa may like him, but he likes you!” I rolled my eyes at Jimin, as I opened the door to leave for the party.
“Yeah? And where did you get that idea?”
“What? Y/N! It’s so obvious. Through his body language, his flirting, and well, Jungkook told me,” I stopped in my tracks and looked back to see if Jimin was telling the truth. “I’m being honest! Taehyung told Jungkook that he likes you.”
“He doesn’t like me, Jimin. He can’t because,” Jimin cut me off.
“Because Lisa called dibs? Who cares? If you like him and he likes you, just go for it! You deserve to be happy,” Jimin put his hand on my shoulder and pulled me into his chest. “I think if you sit down and talk to Lisa about this, that she would understand. Lisa wants you to be happier than anyone does, other than me of course. Your real best friend. She may be a little hurt at first, but she would get over it.”
“This is just too much for me right now,” I told Jimin with tears in my eyes. “I just want to go to Jungkook’s party. Please?” He held me tighter and sighed.
“Okay. We can go now.”
We sat in silence on the way to Jungkook’s house. I really didn’t want to believe that Taehyung actually liked me. This made me feel worse about the situation because how do I tell Lisa how I feel when I was the one who gave her the go-ahead. I was about to get out of the car when Jimin stopped me.
“I just want you to be happy, Y/N. I think you should give Taehyung a chance,” he held my hand and rubbed his thumb over my knuckles.
“Thank you,” I gave him a genuine smile and got out of the car. When we entered there were already so many people drinking and dancing. I looked around for Jungkook and finally found him with Taehyung and Taehyung’s group of friends. I dragged Jimin over with me, so we could tell Jungkook happy birthday.
I snuck up behind him and wrapped my arms around his back. He jumped in surprise, but relaxed when he heard me scream. “Happy birthday bestie!” He laughed and turned around to give me a quick hug.
“Thank you Y/N!” He gave me a quick kiss on the forehead before greeting Jimin as well.
I glanced over to Taehyung, who was already smiling down at me. I gave him a hug, which he immediately reciprocated.
“Hey, pretty,” he whispered in my eye, hugging me tighter. “I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever.”
“Mhm,” I hummed in agreement. “I’ve missed you,” I truthfully told him, making him soundlessly chuckle.
“I’ve missed you more.”
I hugged Yoongi, Jin, Namjoon, and Hoseok, happy that I remembered all of their names and faces. Jimin seemed to be getting along well with them, so we stayed there and talked for a little while longer. Taehyung put his hand on my lower back and leaned over to ask me if he could talk to me really quick. I felt nervous as to what he wanted to talk about, but I still followed him.
“I just wanted to apologize,” I looked up at him confused about what he would be apologizing for. “I never meant to make you feel uncomfortable when I invited you over to my house. I…I just thought it would be fun to hang out with you and get to know you more, but I can understand why you felt that way.”
I tilted my head toward him and furrowed my eyebrows. “I wasn’t uncomfortable, Tae.”
“You don’t have to lie to make me feel better, Y/N. You rushed out of my car really fast. There’s no way that you weren’t uncomfortable.”
Oh. He thinks because I hurried out of his car when Lisa came that he made me feel uncomfortable.
“I wasn’t uncomfortable, I promise. I just was tired and Lisa didn’t know that I had gone over to your house so I just bolted out of there, I guess.”
“So it wasn’t anything that I did?” He had me reassure him and I quickly nodded my head to agree with him. “Okay. Good. I was worried.”
“I wasn’t lying when I said I had a fun time,” I gently reminded him. “You could have texted me and told me that you were worried.”
“Yeah, well, I actually wanted to talk to you about something else as well,” he took a deep breath and grabbed both of my hands with his. “I’ve had so much fun getting to know you and hanging out with you, and I wanted you to know that I like you.”
My heart stopped. Why is this happening to me right now? I couldn’t even look Taehyung in the eyes. I felt my stomach twist and my hands start to sweat. I glimpsed around the room and though no one was looking at me, it felt as of everyone was.
“Tae,” I whimpered out, not knowing how I was supposed to respond to him. “I don’t know what to say,” I told him truthfully, with tears in my eyes.
“Hey! That’s okay,” he pulled me into his arms and rubbed my back. “That’s okay, I promise. I already knew that there was a possibility that you wouldn’t like me, and I hope this doesn’t ruin our friendship.
I pulled away from him and sighed. “It’s not that, Tae. I…I do like you,” his eyes widened and a small smile appeared on his face. “I have to tell you something though.”
“You can tell me anything,” I looked around to see if I could find Lisa, but she was nowhere to be seen.
“Lisa likes you, too.”
He exhaled and shook his head slightly. “I had a feeling that she did,” he admitted. “Please don’t tell me this is going to interfere with us.”
“Lisa’s my best friend,” I reminded him. “I can’t break girl code.”
“How is it breaking girl code if I want you, and not Lisa? Lisa and I have nothing going on!” He insisted, but I just played with my lip. “Y/N, please listen to me. I really like you and I know that I might sound insane right now, but you can’t tell me that you don’t feel it too. You can’t tell me that you don’t want me too because I feel it. I know you want this, and I want it too. I want you so bad. I need to be with you so bad. Please break girl code…for me.”
At this moment, it felt like Taehyung and I were the only two people in the room. His beautiful eyes stared down at me with a pleading look. His hands nervously played together and his lip stuck between his teeth. I couldn’t deny my attraction to him anymore. He was standing here, in front of me, telling me that he wants to be with me and give us a try. I would be stupid to deny him just because of Lisa. I grabbed his hands and stepped closer to him, sighing.
“I do want to be with you, Taehyung. I’ve had so much fun just talking to you and being around you. I want to give this a try, us a try, but I want to talk to Lisa first.”
He nodded in understanding and gripped my hands tighter. “Please come back to me,” he whispered and I couldn’t help, but grin at his gentleness.
“I will. I’ll be right back, okay?” He nodded and grinned at me. He kissed my knuckles before letting me walk away to find Lisa.
But I don’t want to break girl code cause who knows where this will go
I found Lisa outside, talking to some of our mutual friends and dancing to the music. I smiled at how carefree and happy she looked at the moment, and I almost backed out of talking to her since I did not want to ruin her happiness. She jumped up and down and waved as soon as she saw me. She ran over to me and gathered me in her arms.
“Y/N! My baby, how are you?”
“I’m doing okay, Lisa. You seem like you’re having a lot of fun,” she nodded, happily. “I just wanted to talk to you, but I don’t want to interrupt your night.”
“You are the best interruption! What’s wrong? Do I need to cuss someone out?” She pulled me to sit away from everyone.
“Lisa,” I already felt tears in my eyes as I took a shaky breath. “I have to tell you something,” she placed her hands on top of mine and looked at me with worry.
“What’s wrong?”
“I know I should have told you right away, but I was scared and I want you to be happy. I,” I looked her in the eyes and let my tears fall. “I like Taehyung and I thought it was just a stupid crush because I had just met him and he was so beautiful, but it turns out I like him more than just a stupid crush. I’m so sorry and I understand if you hate me.”
“Y/N,” she started. “You should have told me right away,” I whimpered, thinking she was mad at me. “Then I would have never pursued him! There’s nothing I want more in this world than for you to be happy. Why do you think I’m always trying to get you to date Jungkook or Jimin? Because I want you to be happy and for someone to treat you right and if Tae makes you happy then I say you go for him because I know he’ll treat you right!”
“But, you like him,” I was confused about how she was so okay with this.
“Babe, it was a small crush. I could have told you after the arcade that he and I were not going to work out. Plus, I could tell he wasn’t that interested.”
“You’re really not mad at me?”
“I promise I’m not mad at you,” she gave me a tight squeeze, rocking us back and forth. “Now go back in there and get your man. I love you, Y/N.”
“Thank you, Lisa. I love you too.”
I went back inside the party, feeling way better than I did when I left it. I couldn’t believe Lisa was so kind and okay about this when I was literally freaking out all night. I looked back to where I left my group of friends to see Taehyung standing alone with a drink in his hand now. He had his head down and was nodding his head along to the music.
I stopped at the bar to get some liquid courage before I made my way back to him. While waiting for my drink, I looked back to see him already staring at me. I smiled and signaled for him to wait one minute until I got my drink. After what felt like forever, I got my drink and turned to find Taehyung, who was unsurprisingly right behind me.
“I couldn’t wait any longer,” he whispered as he towered over me. “Did you get her permission?” He moved his hands to my waist and I smiled, wanting to laugh at how surreal this all was. I set my drink down behind me and wrapped my arms around his neck.
I pulled him into me, knowing that I couldn’t wait any longer. Our lips met and everything finally made sense. It once again felt like Tae and I were the only two people in the world but in a good way this time. He pulled me even closer to him as our lips continued to move in sync. I pulled away from him to breathe, but our breath still mixed together since I didn’t move very far. Our foreheads were touching and we were giggling at each other’s eagerness.
“Let me take you out on a date,” he whispered against my lips. I nodded my head, wordlessly and found his lips again.
I can’t wait to see where this may go.
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Still Waters Run Deep | KTH
~summary: down at the riverbank is a boy whose eyes hold each swell of the waves, whose hair ruffles like the reeds. but the peaceful magic of the river may become your only sanctuary when wilder forces come into play
~pairing: taehyung x f!reader
~word count: 13.6k
~fluff, angst, childhood friends to lovers, fantasy au, historical au, spirited away inspired
~rating: pg13
~warnings: fantasy violence, kids being mean, flooding, storms, mention of arranged marriage, war, potentially implied drowning, I gush about tae’s hair too much
~a/n: omG I’m finally back!! much like the last time I participated in @toikiii’s wonderful ghibli collab, I have ended up with something wayyy out of hand compared with what I expected haha - I srsly thought this one would not be as long! but somehow... here we are. it mainly consists of lots of scenes and some giant time skips, so bear with me!
I haven’t done such a chunk of writing in so long and it’s honestly wild, I’m pleased with it but I have no idea on the quality hahaha. please let me know what you think! I hope you enjoy this <3
Small feet slipped clumsily down the muddy bank, your shrieks and giggles accompanying each bump on your way down.
Reaching the bottom, you pushed through the tall reeds that grew beside the river. Water seeped into your shoes and the hem of your skirt, not that you paid it any mind. Maybe your parents wouldn’t be too impressed when your returned home, but you were too impatient to try the small contraption clutched in your hands.
Father probably meant for you to cross the bridge and walk down to the flattest river bank. Instead, you had rushed down on this side of the bridge, simply wanting to reach the water as soon as you could.
Padding over to the bridge, you grasped onto the stone with one chubby hand. Last night had been the first rain in a while, leaving the ground soggy, but it meant the river was low in its banks.
Carefully crouching down, you took another look at the little boat in your hand. Smile making its way onto your face, you finally plopped it into the calm water, watching it bob up and down.
It was nothing more than a bundle of sticks your father had fashioned together with a flag on top, but to you it lit your heart with excitement. Going to the river was your favourite treat, and going to play was even better.
A wave, slightly bigger than the other ripples on the water, caught the small boat then. With a small gasp, you grabbed it before it could get out of reach, still clinging to the pillar of the bridge with one hand.
The sticks dripped water onto the front of your jeogori, but you didn’t notice, already busy placing the boat back upstream.
Letting it go, you decided to try a new game, running a short way along the bank and giggling all the way. Near the bridge was a willow tree, its tendrils drooping over into the water, and you waited at its base for the small boat to float your way.
Bouncing up and down on the river bank, you watched its gentle progress. When it drew closer, you clutched one of the willow branches in your fist and crouched again, holding a hand out to scoop your prized toy from the water.
You repeated your little game a few times, each time snatching the boat and rushing back to the bridge to do it all again.
Having just placed it in the water again, you skipped back to the spot by the willow tree. The wind had picked up, pulling teasingly at your hair and eliciting more giggles. It wasn’t until you crouched to capture the toy again that you saw it, too, being jostled by the wind, tugged away from the shore.
Holding tight to the willow branch, you stretched towards it, but your arm was too short to reach. Filled with urgency, you swiped to grab it, but it sailed past your fingertips, leaving them to grasp at nothing but water.
Crying out, you tried to grab it again, but it was hopeless. With your lunge, your feet slipped on the mud and you fell on your front, air expelled from your lungs and hands falling helplessly by the riverside.
Looking up, you watched your little boat bob happily out of sight among the willow leaves.
Lip wobbling, you pushed yourself up, still winded from the fall. Small gasps escaped your lips as you sat up, and as soon as you had regained enough air, you burst into tears.
Salty droplets began trailing down your face, eyes screwed up as you bawled to the empty river.
Your cries eventually died down into hiccups, and you looked glumly across the water through waterlogged vision. Between your sniffles, the willow branches swayed. You were too distraught to notice that the wind was no longer blowing.
It wasn’t until a small boy pushed between the leafy canopy that you tore your eyes from the place you had lost your boat.
Sniffing determinedly, you clumsily wiped a hand over your face. You didn’t want him to know you had been crying.
As you blinked away the tears, you could see the boy better. His dark hair was wavy, long enough to reach his big eyes. They were fixed on you.
Looking back at him, you frowned. Why was he looking at you?
You were about to tell him rudely to go away, even though you knew mother would never want you to do that, when he stepped closer again.
His hanbok was simple in shape like yours, dyed a pleasant blue colour. But you had never seen any of the other children’s robes glitter like that in the light when he moved. Nor did you recognise the pendant which hung around his neck, a small blue swirl.
Surely he couldn’t be the child of a yangban though – he walked with bare feet.
You sprung from the ground, startling him to a stop in turn.
“What’s your name?” you asked.
Those big dark eyes blinked. He stared for a bit longer.
“Taehyung.”
He spoke softly, but his answer was direct.
“I found your boat,” he said.
Your hostility towards the boy flew away at once. Instead, your heart filled with elation.
You hadn’t noticed him holding the boat earlier, but you didn’t care because now it was right there in his hand. Holding it out, his offering bridged the space between you.
Smile taking hold of your face, you bounced forwards eagerly to grab it. The sticks were dry again, the little flag still standing proud. It was like new!
You had already turned to hurry back to the water’s edge when you hesitated. Turning around, you found the little boy still watching you from the same spot. Looking towards the boat and back up again, you shifted your feet.
“Thank you,” you said dutifully, like you parents said you should. “Do you want to play?”
Needless to say, your parents were quite shocked when you bounced through the door later that day, clothes damp and smeared in mud – even more so than normal. Sighing fondly, your mother ushered you away to attempt to wrangle you into clean clothes.
Wriggling from her grasp every time, you seemed more occupied with showing off your boat and the story of the friend you had made at the river.
“He came from the willow tree!” you garbled excitedly, “and we played and played! He could make the boat go really fast!”
“Did he really?” your father smiled, taking the boat carefully from your hands. He made a show of observing it while your mother finally had the chance to begin unfastening your ruined hanbok.
“The willow tree?” she asked, capturing your attention.
You eagerly nodded, but she merely laughed.
“Darling, that’s the edge of town, he can’t have come from there,” she explained, pulling your arm from one sleeve.
“But he did!” you insisted.
“The willow tree?” your father then echoed, “why were you on that side of the river, hmm?”
Eyes growing wide, you hurriedly shut your mouth. Not a very good denial of guilt, but it worked all the same as your father simply ruffled your hair and told you to obey your mother.
Successfully more subdued, you stood still and allowed your mother to bundle your dirty clothes up and send you on your way.
“Did you meet your friend again?”
Your mother was still fixing the chima you had ripped last week. When she looked around to see you come in, once again with grass stains littering the hem of your clothes, that was the first question she asked.
Since you had first met Taehyung, this had become a sort of tradition. When you were down by the river alone, he would often find you and play together just as you had done that first time, a few years ago now.
The fun you always had together was usually missed by your parents, though. Instead, it only caused them frustration at the ruined clothes and damp shoes. They had taken to sending you out in your wet weather shoes anytime you went to the river.
Coming to stand in front of her, you chewed your lip. She never seemed to believe you, aways merely amused at the stories you came back with.
“We watched the merchants coming down the river,” you told her, defensive, “and we ran along, trying to keep up with their boat.”
Your mother hummed, placing down her sewing and taking in the state of you. It could have been worse, at least.
“Go and get changed, please, darling.”
Water gently lapped against your toes. It was a good thing you had carefully removed your shoes to stand at the bottom of the bank. Your hands smoothed over the pale pink fabric that adorned your hanbok. You were definitely not allowed to get these clothes dirty.
For once, you didn’t want to either.
It was your birthday.
Your nicer things had been brought to you, and you wanted to make the most of wearing them. Eventually you had managed to make your mother relent on taking them off your before you could run outside with them.
On your trip to the river, several people had greeted you and the wise lady on the corner had said a blessing that you didn’t really understand, but bowed to her anyway.
What you hoped most of all is that Taehyung would come.
Fingers fumbling with the pendant your father had crafted for you today, you eyed all along the river.
Even though it was your birthday, your father still had to work and your mother chores to do. So you would have a little time out here. If only you could say you waited patiently.
You shifted several times, grabbing your shoes and taking them to sit on the river. Then you decided to forage for stones, taking pretty ones until they spilled from your palms, when you would make a little tower that invariably collapsed back into the shallow water.
The preservation of your nicest clothes had left your mind, instead preoccupied with impatience. Tired of waiting, you flopped back onto the grass with a pout.
A few children bigger than you were laughing down by the willow tree. Other than that, it was quiet. It was the middle of the day, all the fishermen had left already and it was overcast with clouds, so no one would be coming to wash their clothes or enjoy the river.
It was unfair that you should have to frown on your birthday. But here you were, trying not to let your frustrated tears burst from your eyes.
Before they could begin, they were startled from your eyes.
A gasp left your lips, and you sat up straight, eyes fixed above.
Something disturbed the expansive cloudy sky. Among the sheet of whiteish grey, a creature dipped down, parting the billowing sea.
With wide eyes, you watched a long silvery body swirling through the air. It was far away, and moved very fast, but you caught sight of a dark, flowing fringe along its back.
Without thinking, you pushed yourself to your feet and started racing along in an attempt to follow the creature. You had just reached the other side of the bridge when the dragon tilted its head, and even in the vast distance between you on the grass and it, so high in the sky, you felt its piercing gaze.
The wind rumbled and the dragon twisted, its body snaking back into the canopy of clouds.
You were left standing on the bank, blinking in disbelief. Already you questioned what you had saw. If you told your parents, they would undoubtedly laugh at the imagination of their child. There was only one person who might believe you, and you wanted to see him now even more than before. If only he had seen it too!
Returning bashedly to the stony bank, you stopped your fidgeting. You replayed the vision of the flying snake over in your mind.
“Happy birthday.”
How had the time passed? While you sat thinking, you never noticed Taehyung approaching, never saw him come over the bridge, nor emerge from the willow tree where the other children were now paddling in the river.
Jumping up, you wasted no time bouncing over to him.
“Taehyung! You’ll never guess what! I saw a dragon!”
His eyebrows rapidly climbed his face.
“Where?”
“In the sky, of course.”
He turned to look at the sky, a funny smile on his face. Frowning, you put your hands on your hips.
“Well it isn’t there any more. It went away.”
“Dragons don’t have to be in the sky, you know,” Taehyung said, eyes glittering.
You blinked at him.
“Where else would they be?”
Slowly spinning around, Taehyung’s eyes searched the place before his face lit up.
“There’s a big dragon that lives in the river!” he exclaimed, bouncing forwards, “and it’s really strong, and it makes the waves go!”
Hurrying after him, you hesitated as he splashed into the shallows.
“Then shouldn’t we be careful?” you worried, “it might not like us. It might eat you!”
Taehyung laughed so hard he flopped onto the bank, tummy shaking with his happiness.
“Don’t be silly! It likes people – it lets them have the bridge here. And it knows it’s your birthday!”
By now you were grinning, familiar matching joy on both your and Taehyung’s faces. Before long, you were always having fun with Tae, and you eagerly joined in his game.
“It will come to visit me, and it will jump out of the water and splash everywhere!”
As you rambled, you bent down to the water and scooped some up, flinging it into the air with your arms spread. Some droplets sprayed back onto you, but most landed on Taehyung who was soon leaping to retaliate.
The sounds of your laughter rounded out your birthday that year. He would always come.
Expansive blue skies stretched above you today. The sun reached down, caressing the roads and rooftops of your village unhindered by clouds.
Leaving your house, you skipped happily to the end of your road. Turning the corner, you headed downhill. A cart kicked up dust from the baked ground on its way past.
Passing the next street, you waved at the kind lady who lived on the corner. Her walking stick was stubbornly abandoned against the wall of her house as she draped clothing out in the sun.
Walking in the shade of the trees that grew on the corners, you passed two more streets before making it to your small bridge. Further up the road, you could see the town’s larger bridge and part of the crowd of merchants who gathered around for market. But you had already gone this morning, and were now heading elsewhere.
The willow tree rested today, no wind to stir it.
Continuing past, you made your way across the stone bridge. Though your river was peaceful, it was wide and deep in the middle. Stopping to lean over the edge, you looked back at your reflection far away in the dark water below you. Though there was no breeze, the river still had life, and the image undulated as you watched.
Motion beyond the reflection caught your eye, dashing out of sight before you could focus on it. Maybe a fish? It had caught the light momentarily, and now you stood on your tiptoes, fervently eyeing the water to catch another glimpse.
A shrill shriek sounded, a large splash rapidly following.
You whirled around. At the other side of the bridge, a group of children was gathered, laughter rising from them. One climbed up onto the edge, just in their underthings. They leapt enthusiastically from the side, clutching their knees with their hands before they descended from view.
Cheers rose again as the group rushed forwards, peering over the side as the next splash sounded.
Looking over your shoulder, back to the water, the reflections were now disrupted by the ripples. Something light darted through the waves, but again, it was gone too soon. Probably a trick of the light.
Light frown on your face, you tore your eyes away and approached the gaggle. Some of them noticed you, but soon enough the attention was taken by the next one to launch from the bridge.
Finally catching up to them, you peered over with the others. The three children were splashing around in the water below. It wasn’t as deep as the very middle of the river.
“Join in!” someone nudged you as the next one climbed onto the edge.
Most of the group was a little older than you, but you recognised these children from playing at the river before. A slight flutter of nerves hit you as you watched the next girl jump, thinking it could be you.
But you had come here to swim, and the cries of laughter from below told you it would be alright.
Running to the end of the bridge, you discarded your overgarments in a pile with the others before joining the waiting group, smaller now. One of the older boys gave you a hand up, and you found your toes hanging over the edge, gently rippling water waiting below you.
With a gulping breath, you looked forwards and sprung from the bridge.
For a split second, the cheers from behind met your ears, air rushing past you, before you hit the water. Plunging down in a blur, the cool river engulfed your head, bubbles roaring around your ears.
You plummeted until a force suspended you in the water briefly, then the river shot you back to the surface. Gasping with glee, you opened your eyes, blinking away the droplets clinging to your lashes in order to look around.
To your surprise, you only saw your own legs below you as you trod water. The others had already swum further off.
You were so certain you had felt someone catch you – like a pair of arms had stopped your descent in the water. But your worries were unfounded. You hadn’t accidentally fallen on top of someone.
Getting your bearings in the water, you gasped when your toe met the slimy ground below you. It was almost shallow enough for you to stand up here! Maybe when you grew some more-
“Look out below!”
Startled by the yell from above you, you hurriedly splashed and paddled away, watching another boy drop into the river.
Rays of sun beating down, you enjoyed floating beneath the bridge where you could shelter in the large swath of shade. Giggling surrounded you, and your face was sprayed with refreshing drops as friends splashed each other.
You were rocked by the large wake as some of the boys ran around to jump in again.
Turning away from the laughter and cheers, you gently swum under the bridge. Lazing in the water, you eyed the centre of the river where you had seen the fish earlier. You weren’t quite brave enough to swim that far out.
Instead, you brought yourself closer to one of the bridge’s stone supports, peering around at the empty bank on the other side.
Was Taehyung going to come out today? It was the height of summer, and you couldn’t think where else anyone would want to be other than in the cool water.
Your eyes searched left and right along each bank, but there was nothing beyond the water’s shine as it lapped against the banks. Some of the willow leaves shimmered.
An increase in the racket behind you made you turn away at last. The willow leaves stilled again, a large, dark pair of eyes blinking from behind the cover as your form slipped back under the shadow of the bridge.
When you emerged on the other side of the bridge, it was to the group laughing and waving upstream. In that direction, a shape was visible and growing above the water.
Specks of light from the river danced on the prow of the boat as it approached.
“The fishermen are setting off!”
“Bring back lots!”
Some of the children were announcing.
In the boat, some of the fishermen gathered on the nearest side of the boat, or leaned from the prow. They waved back grinning.
“Take care of your mothers!” they called.
The boat passed, the lot of you bobbing in the wake it left.
“We could chase after them,” you suggested brightly to a girl beside you.
“Let’s chase after them!” she echoed.
A great splashing commenced, all of you propelling yourselves clumsily in the direction of the boat. Some of the older ones made it to the other side of the bridge before the vessel disappeared completely around the next meander, as if swallowed up by the sunlight streaming between the trees.
Already panting, you gave up sooner, splashing and spluttering around until you were able to simply float instead.
Still laughing, the group headed back towards you. They were all tired out enough, making their way towards the shallows.
“I got a lot closer when I played that with Taehyung,” you remarked, “it’s faster if you run.”
But you just got a frown from the nearest boy.
“Who’s Taehyung?” he said.
A few of the others looked around as well. Nearing the edge of the river, they were clambering out over rocks and earth.
“She plays with him, but no one’s ever seen him,” one girl stopped and chipped in, but she was only looking at the boy who questioned you, “my mum told me.”
Slipping over a rock in your attempt to stand, you tried to catch up to them as they went further up the bank, laughing.
“He’s my friend!” you called.
“Aren’t you too old for imaginary friends?” one of the older ones questioned from their spot leaning against the bridge.
Pouting, you finally reached the group at the shore. They were all busy retrieving their clothes, but seemed quite interested in this new topic.
“She’s strange,” someone said, “why did we let her play with us?”
“Why don’t you play with Taehyung instead, next time?”
The group erupted in laughter. Folding your arms defensively, you huffed. Trying to keep your eyes down, you headed forwards to grab your things and leave. Maybe you would go and find Taehyung after all. Even if you didn’t know where to find him. He only came when he wanted to.
As you stormed through, the group parted for you, but you couldn’t see your things anywhere.
A small scuffle caught your attention, muffled laughter.
On the bridge, the boy from earlier was holding something. Reaching over the wall with one hand, it unfolded from his grasp, fabric dangling dangerously towards the water. Gasping, you took a step forwards.
It looked as if one of the eldest was trying to pull him away, but he didn’t pay attention, laughter growing louder as he saw your face.
He let go, and your clothes fell from his fingers. The simple cotton pieces drifted slowly in the air, but their path was certain.
Your feet were already moving, splashing once more in the shallow water and slipping on the riverbed. But there was nothing you could do. Your clothes landed certainly on the surface, growing patches of translucence spreading as they sat there.
Laughter once more filled the air, but faded as the children left, back over the bridge. Even the older boy who gave his younger brother a smack over the head didn’t linger much more.
Paddling determinedly back into the river, the cold was no longer a pleasant respite for you. You had spent enough time in the water, and your damp skin had just been above water, cooling you down more. The drops hitting your face made you frown against the spots of freezing cold which bloomed where they dripped on your cheeks.
Your clothes lay flat on the surface, undulating with the slight current. Simply floating, harmless enough, they still drifted further away. It wasn’t until you had come under the bridge again that you caught up enough to grab them from the water in front of you.
There was no hope for them. Even before you gathered them into your arms, they were utterly soaked.
Clutching them tightly in one arm, you awkwardly swum towards the grassier shore this side of the bridge. You swallowed stubbornly, focussing on your one-armed journey through the water. Cold water enveloped your neck, lapping at your chin as you dipped below the surface a little with the added difficulty staying afloat.
Despite their ruined state, you refused to let go of your bundle of clothes. As your feet found the earthy ground, small pebbles stung your bare feet, but you stumbled towards the shore in any case.
Cascades of water flowed from the fabric even as you stood, the sad clump weighing your arms down.
Some irresistible force was dragging the corners of your mouth down. Sniffing stoically, you finally deposited yourself on the bank, staring out over the water. Soaked and starting to shiver, your will to keep back the sting in your eyes faltered.
The other kids were long gone, not around to see you anymore. All you had was the river, suddenly looking duller and less inviting, and the sodden fabric which chilled you more as it lay pathetically across your lap.
“Are you swimming?”
Shoulders instantly stiffening, your tears were startled to a stop. Blinking rapidly, you twisted to look over your shoulder.
Taehyung stood just behind you, dressed in just a simple shift like your own. His dark hair curled down to his eyes, innocently fixed on you.
“Not anymore.”
You turned your head back towards the river, hoping your eyes didn’t look red. Or that he hadn’t noticed, if they were.
Feet padded softly over the grass and the boy settled at your side. There had been no breeze, but perhaps the air was stiller now. It bit less at your damp skin.
The two of you sat in relative quiet on the riverbank. Water flowed calmly past you, no movement below the surface attracting your eyes as you stared blankly over it. Taehyung shared the stillness with you, not moving or speaking but his presence remained firmly at your side.
Glancing towards him, not enough to meet his eyes, you chewed your tongue. Then you placed one hand on your knee, pushing yourself clumsily from the ground and letting your clothes slide to the floor. Mud stains couldn’t make them any less wearable than they were now.
“I need to go home,” you said.
Taehyung eyed you curiously. Despite your words, you didn’t move.
His gaze shifted back over the water.
“It’s sunny,” he said.
A frown was still etched into your face, but you followed his gaze. Specks of sun bounced off the crests of miniature waves, rays dancing through the grasses and tickling your toes. A sigh left you, some tension melting away.
“Why didn’t you come to play earlier?” you asked quietly.
“I’m here now!” Taehyung smiled by way of explanation, jumping up. His smile was bright and made his cheeks look round. Already, you felt a budding smile making its way to the surface.
“Do you want to swim?” you asked.
Serious for a short moment, he fixed your eyes. “You shouldn’t go back in the water.”
Some relief came to you, although you wondered whether Taehyung must be too hot. He hadn’t been in the water yet, after all.
But there was no time to ask; he spun around and raced a short distance up the bank, leaving you to follow. You were quick to give chase, giggling as he looked back with a beaming grin.
“The trees left sticks!” he exclaimed as you reached the first scattered trees that marked the forest at the edge of your village.
Understanding him perfectly, you instinctively rushed around the base of the trees, looping around Taehyung as you both gathered bundles of twigs.
“Thank you trees!” you called gleefully. Taehyung bowed low to the clump you had visited. He bowed more carefully than you saw even your parents do at the shrines, and it made you eager to join in. Even if your mother frowned at this habit of thanking everything.
Your small pairs of feet pattered back up to the bridge, Taehyung just a step ahead of you as you leant against the edge, panting.
Little more time was spent before you were eager to play, however, both of you leaning over the far edge in sync to drop your sticks into the water. For the first several rounds, you invariably came out on top, smile growing with each win until the children from earlier were far from your mind. The current must have been on your side.
It was only then that the wind picked up, and Taehyung suddenly started winning some. But it was far too fun for you to be upset. You only laughed at Taehyung as he stood proudly with his hands on his hips, intolerable grin lighting up his face.
A fishing boat approached from downstream, and you waved off the bridge at them.
“The sun will go down!” someone called, “you should go home to your mother!”
“I will!” you cried back.
When you turned around, Taehyung was no longer on the bridge. He waited for you on the bank.
Hurrying down to join him, you noticed that the light had grown less intense as it had been at the height of the day. His dark hair cast shadows over his eyes and cheeks as it danced in the scarce breeze.
Ready to say goodnight, you launched forwards and wrapped Taehyung in a tight hug. One arm circled you back, gripping tight as you always did.
This time, his other arm forced its way between you. Breaking apart, you looked in surprise at his hand before realising he was returning your bundle of clothes which had been sat on the bank all this time.
Smiling gladly, you gathered them in your own arms, expecting to find them still damp from the earlier swim and their position on the river grass all afternoon. Instead, they were bone dry.
Starting, you fumbled with them, patting the fabric to check.
Assured, you found the shoulders and let them unfold. You paid no mind to the mud still streaked across it, only happy to have them wearable.
One more smile was directed Taehyung’s way after you slipped it over your head, before you were running back across the bridge and up the hill to your home.
Thunder rolled through the clouds, like drums ringing behind the heavy grey.
Casting your eyes to the raging heavens, you were only met with more rain striking your bare face. The dirt under your racing feet was rapidly turning to mud, each hurried footstep splashing more than the last.
Your arms were folded over your head as you ran. The extent of their shelter was questionable, but you had nothing else to shield yourself with as the cold, wet arrows struck from above.
The storm had come out of nowhere. Totally unexpected, it now shadowed the land like it had always been there, only thickening as the river came in sight.
Everyone else had already taken shelter, but you had been far from home when the weather turned, on an errand for your father. He was occupied with expensive and apparently urgent commissions from the impatient yangban, but his conscience refused him to ignore the family across the river who were due a new baby. They paid him to make the most beautiful pot their money could afford, and though not ornate, you thought it had been gorgeous. You had cradled it even as you rushed to their house, having heard the news that the mother was in labour.
Your father’s work was safely under a dry roof, but the same could not be said for you. No thought was spared for the new arrival anymore, or the omen that this raging storm could mean for its birth.
It wasn’t as if you were averse to the elements, but the water you usually loved spat against your face and the wind tore at you, nearly pushing you off the track you valiantly trod along.
A startling flash of light illuminated the path for a moment before the sky bellowed once more. The remnants of thunder echoed as you finally came to the bridge. Raindrops splatted ferociously against the stone, battering the moss which grew between the cracks.
Instead of running across, your feet instinctively took you downwards, around the side of the bridge to duck underneath it.
There wasn’t a still patch of water in the river, the surface battered relentlessly by the storm.
However, the storm had not set in long ago. The river sloshed in its banks but was only rising slowly.
Your chest heaved but you couldn’t fall against the brick to rest, soaked as it was. Some rain blew under the bridge, but the small sprays were nothing compared to the downpour you had just been subject to.
Resting a hand against the stone, you panted, shoulders relaxing at the lack of rain bombarding your frame. Trickles of water ran down your skin, but that didn’t bother you.
Eyeing the scene from under the bridge’s overhang, the river you knew so well was blurred and obscured by the determination of the sky. Jumping at another jolt of lightning, you bit your lip at the thunder that roared again soon after.
Your house wasn’t too far, but you knew the cascade your road would become in such rain, the hill sending all water rushing to its home in the river. It was summer after all, and with any luck this would be a passing, though fierce, shower. Well, perhaps ‘shower’ was too light a term.
However, the impossible crescendo of the rain combined with the endless dark clouds that had invaded the sky gave you reason to doubt your initial hopes.
Though you had been sure every inch of you was wet, you became aware of cool water soaking into your shoes. Jumping back from the sensation, you looked to the ground. The river lapped higher up the bank as you watched, crawling over the mud and stones.
With a gulp, you inched back, but the room under the bridge was undeniably shrinking.
When the thunder bellowed, it bounced around your small hiding space. The rain showed no sign of ceasing.
It was clear the situation would not change the way you wanted, but in your indecision you glanced outside once more, as if to remind yourself the rain was still there.
Your eyes fell on something else instead.
Squinting, you stepped forwards, nearly slipping but not taking your eyes off the figure.
You weren’t imagining it. Someone else was out there, standing a little further along the bank. Perfectly still, as if they hadn’t noticed the storm at all.
You looked about wildly, but of course no one else was there to see it too. The person continued to stand, looking out over the growing waves in the river. The wind buffeted their dark curls, raking it back away from their face-
Water flooded over the top of your foot, icy droplets sliding inside your shoe. With a shriek, you hopped away, looking back at the river, offended.
With barely enough space for your remaining foot, you were forced out from the bridge’s shelter to escape the river’s advance.
Rain striking your face again, you turned towards the spot you had seen them. Already, you knew inside you who it was.
He had moved, and your eyes raced around the drenched riverbank until you caught sight of a black mop of hair between the rushes further away. The rushes that were steadily being submerged, water climbing up their lengths.
As you watched, the rushes swung wildly in the gusts, almost totally obscuring the movement of the person behind them. Towards the rising water.
The patch of rushes swayed and bucked, and they were gone.
“TAEHYUNG!!”
Your yell was almost instantly lost to the storm, but your feet were pounding forwards, sliding over the soaked grasses that were rapidly engulfed in mud.
You couldn’t see him – he had been right there, heading towards the river.
Not stopping, you raced after your friend. Of all the times to be at the river, now was not one. Ignore the fact that you were there too. You didn’t want the place where you forged your memories with Taehyung to be the place you also lost him-
Forcefully stopping that terrifying thought, you simply plunged onwards. Not flinching when cold river water splashed around your ankles, another boom shaking the heavens.
“TAEHYUNG!” you cried again, parting the rushes with your arms and bursting through them, only to be met with yet more emptiness. The tall leaves were reaching past your head now, their dancing peaks blocking your view as you fruitlessly splashed in circles, stumbling onwards in blind hope of finding your friend.
Water sucked and slopped against your waist, skirt becoming sodden and heavy.
Struggling to step again, your foot met a rock which tumbled sideways next second. Nothing to catch yourself on but the bendable reeds, you lost your footing, plummeting towards the water.
Lightning washed the nightmare in white. In that split second, bright eyes turned towards you.
Your head disappeared below the water.
Currents caused by the rain swelling the river tangled themselves around your legs, pulling you down. But not seconds later, they loosened their hold.
Water retreated from your face, replaced by the rain which almost felt like a comfort despite being just as relentless as before. Gasping in a breath, you blinked thick drops from the river out of your eyes.
Hands were hauling you up, gentle but powerful. Under your arms, they lifted you so you were left scrabbling to stand on the treacherous stones again. Elsewhere, the river still thrashed in its banks, rising more and more, but the reeds must have provided some shelter here. The water slid placidly around you, allowing you to be pulled to shore.
Wiping your eyes with the back of your hand, you finally rid yourself of the water blinding you. Looking back at you was Taehyung.
He had grown lately, standing just a little above your own height, and he looked down at you with intensity swimming in those dark eyes, cast into more shadow under the darkness imposed by the looming storm clouds.
Finally reaching the water’s edge, you walked after him, the hem of your skirt splattering torrents of water onto the ground. His clothes did not do the same, but you were too gripped by shivering to notice.
“What are you doing out?” he asked directly, one hand lifting to comb your saturated hair from your face. Cold moisture was replaced by warmth.
“What about you?” you fired back, though weakened as you stood shaking. “I-I saw you, in the river…”
He gulped visibly, grabbing your wrist softly but enough to lead you further up the bank. His breathing quickened, his manner fidgety as his eyes darted across the river, drawing his lips together.
“This is my home,” he said distractedly, “not yours. You should be up the hill.”
He started bundling you over the bridge. Already, heat was returning to you and your shivers subsiding. At the far side, you pushed back against his touch, bringing you both to a stop.
“Come with me,” you breathed.
“It’s rising,” Taehyung muttered, eyes on the river. You weren’t sure he was even aware he spoke.
“Come inside,” you insisted, your turn to pull on his wrist this time. Desperate to get him away from the writhing river, so much more menacing than you had ever seen it.
Whirling back to you, Taehyung withdrew from your grasp, suddenly intensely focussed back on you. Stepping back towards him, you tried to bring him with you again, but he didn’t reach for you.
“It isn’t safe. Please go.”
“Taehyung-“
“I’ll see you soon.”
Taking your hands firmly in his own, he looked at you with earnest eyes. You didn’t notice the rain still assaulting you both, too breathless from the realisation that he wouldn’t back down.
You bit your lip.
“You’ll be okay?”
“Yes, yes,” he gently pushed you away, “but these closest houses won’t be… you need to go- if I don’t…”
His voice trailed off, last cryptic words obscured in a tide of thunder that ripped through the sky.
Somehow, you trusted him. Even though you knew it was insanity to leave your friend out in this, you knew you believed him. And if he had to go, you knew you would see him the next time you came down to the river.
With a small nod, almost an affirmation to yourself, you turned around.
As you knew it would be, the road up the hill that greeted you was more of a river in itself by now. Running into the flowing stream, you felt the downpour heavier against your face the further you got from Taehyung.
A few paces drew you level with the riverside houses. A rising roar the moment you reached them had you fooled for a moment, thinking more thunder was stirring up. But the following crash of waves had you turning abruptly back to the river.
Behind you, where you had just left Taehyung standing, the river had transformed into an ugly, writhing mass, large waves plunging downstream like a fearsome serpent. It erupted from its banks, water murky and angrier than you had ever seen your peaceful stretch of river.
Brown wash swirled wildly with no regard to the banks that usually constrained it. A wave frayed with white crashed over the bridge, the path you had just taken lost to the insatiable currents.
You were frozen, shivers creeping back in as you found yourself unable to move under the rain.
Your feet were the only islands as water continued to rush past them, drawn to the growing beast below. The storm continued to fuel the flood, but miraculously, most water seemed to rush out towards the forest rather than rising further up the banks.
“Y/N!”
A desperate call of your name cut through the howling storm and roaring river. It came from behind you.
Finally tearing your eyes from what had become of your river, a blue grew clearer through the curtain of rain.
Your mother ran down the hill. Her hand reached for you, gesturing for you to come. Her hair rapidly flattened against her forehead with water, but she focussed only on you.
Finally, you could go home.
Splashing in the waterfall below your feet, you began to run back to her.
The river was still swollen, and you weren’t allowed on the bridge. You had to walk up to the bigger one by the market in order to cross.
Your father carefully led you as the track became wilder, the nearer to the forest you got. The mud showed no sign of drying, still eager to swallow up your uncertain steps.
Everyone in the town was keen to visit the shrines after the awful storm. They didn’t even need your wise woman’s advice to convince them of the necessity.
“You can place the fish,” your mother told you, handing you one of the baskets. “to show our respect to the river spirit.”
“And our reverence,” your father chimed in, “they’ve made clear their displeasure, we need to appease them again.”
They hardly needed to explain these things to you; you had visited the shrines with them since before you could remember. You watched your parents carefully place rice at the foot of the shrine and kneel, appearing deep in thought for a long moment.
As they drew back, you followed suit with the fish. But as you bent your head, you were unable to direct your thoughts to the river spirit. Instead, your mind spun back to Taehyung, standing on the riverbank before the flood. How was it that you felt no worry for him? Somehow, you felt sure the spirit had taken care of him, too.
You thanked it.
“Some may be displeased,” your mother was saying behind you, “but the river spirit saved our town from that anger. I heard that the forest was wrecked by the flood, trees torn up all along the river. But our houses were untouched.”
Taehyung hadn’t come today. That was okay, sometimes he didn’t.
You remembered the storm a few years ago, when you hadn’t seen him for a week. Every day, you had gone down to watch the water which turned back to its normal shade gradually, recovering from the rampage it had been on in the flood.
You remembered the day you realised he would always come back. After a walk to the shrine, taking in the now empty offering baskets, you had crossed back in the evening to find him waiting for you.
You remembered the spot where he had stood, the same place you left him before the waters had risen from the banks.
Now, lying on the grass, you let your eyes drift lazily to that spot on the other bank where you had found him, his eyes creasing in a gentle smile as you had gasped, running to him.
Drowsy, your eyes wandered, catching sight of a flicker in the sky. Perhaps you were dreaming already – there was a silvery ribbon-like dart flying between the golden clouds. It reminded you of the fish that darted in the water, the way a flash of light bounced off it in its swirling motions through the air.
It also awoke some brief memory in you, but it blurred in a haze with all your times with Taehyung. Something just out of reach…
You squinted against the brief dazzle of light, and when you focussed again, it had gone.
Yep, probably your imagination.
A smile settled your own face, thrown into shade by the dusty pink light of early sunset. Somehow, even lying beside the river felt like you were with Taehyung. This had been the setting of your friendship from the start, so long ago you could barely remember.
And though you had never figured out whose son he was, where he dwelled, you knew him better than anyone. His regard for the river, the way he would talk to the wind like an old friend. Every minutiae of those turbulent eyes, the way his hands would card through your hair…
“You’ll get cold sleeping out here.”
Roused by the voice, your eyes fluttered open. The fingertips running through your hair were real.
Slowly blinking, you took in those familiar eyes, dark as they always were. A gentle wind teased his flowing hair as he smiled at you, a soft chuckle coming from his throat as he saw you waking. His voice had grown deeper these past years.
He shifted backwards, hands leaving your head as he moved to rest beside you. Awkwardly sitting up, you stretched out a slight stiffness in your neck.
“I’m not cold,” you retorted, quite truthfully.
He raised an eyebrow, his lips quirking in what was a familiar smirk. With a shake of his head, he turned his eyes to the water. The sun was practically dipping below the treeline now, showing how long you had drifted for. Molten gold had replaced the blue water running between the riverbanks.
“You’d rather stay asleep and not see me, I get it,” he teased.
His laughter boomed as you rolled your eyes. Eyes in crescents, he flopped back to lean on his lanky arms. Better to look at the irked fondness on your face.
“Silly, why do you think I’m out here at all?” you huffed.
“Of course you love me,” he said matter-of-factly, almost keeping the smile out of his voice.
Not knowing quite what to say to that, you pushed down the odd feeling he had stirred up and turned to watch the river with him.
A shadowy breeze teased the rushes. Their ghostly shushing rose from silhouettes, only the glistening water catching the last sparks of sun, waves glittering like embers as they tripped downstream.
It occurred to you that you probably should be cold, having dozed off out here. The playful wisps of breeze that dragged through your hair weren’t exactly warm.
Still, you smiled at it. Before even turning your head, you knew what Taehyung’s thick waves would look like as they flowed in the wind, almost like water themselves. The same shiny hair as the young boy who found your boat all those years ago had.
“You are late,” you finally spoke.
There was never an agreement between you, no arrangements of your next meeting. But you enjoyed coming to the river with or without him, and you knew before long you would always see him again.
Today, you were thankful for the long summer evenings, even if they stretched less and less as summer wore on. It gave you and Taehyung some stolen time, while normally you would have to run home this late.
“They’re dumping fish back in the water at Jugeon,” came his reply.
The lower notes of his voice shone through, his tone sombre. The buttery light on his tanned skin threw his frown into deep shadow.
His gaze rested on the river, but was truly far away.
You were used to Taehyung’s thoughts coming from nowhere, but it still threw you. News from that far took a long time to arrive here. Gulping back questions of how he had travelled three towns in just a day, or whether he was from there, you simply asked, “why?”
“Trading. Prices. I don’t know,” he sighed deeply, “it’s not right. I… The river gave them as food for people, and all it gets is death in return.”
Biting your lip, you turned your gaze from Taehyung to the water. What he told you didn’t sit right with you either. For what good reason would you risk displeasing the spirits like that, for one thing?
“We can take care of the river.”
And maybe it was childish, to believe you could make such a promise. But when Taehyung lay back in the grass by your side, he smiled at you.
Taehyung still liked to climb trees.
As he hung from a branch, calling for you to catch him if he jumped down, you could so vividly see the gleeful child you had played with years ago. The boxy smile between round cheeks, the mischievous glint in his dark eyes as you laughed at him.
Only a second later, all you saw was your inevitable doom, as what was not a small child anymore but a nearly-grown man plummeted towards you.
Somewhere among your scrambled reflexes, you stumbled backwards, while holding your arms out in some misguided hope of actually catching him. And you screamed.
Your yell choked off as you bumped against the ground, the forest floor handily having tripped you up. Air whooshed from your lungs, and then time slowed down.
You were hardly conscious of taking another breath. Where you had fallen, Taehyung had landed over you. Clearly, his plan to scare you had paid off, and he was perfectly capable of getting down by himself all along.
Feet either side of your own, he braced himself with one arm beside your head. His face hovering above yours was all you could focus on.
His crooked grin only grew at the sight of your startled state.
With a movement all too sudden for the illusion you seemed to be under, he pushed himself away to sit back on his haunches. Forcing your limbs into action, you stiffly sat up.
“You alright?” he asked, smile dimming fractionally.
Your mouth was strangely dry. You swallowed.
“Don’t do that,” you finally laughed, breathy and nervous. It was all it took to put him at ease, smile back to its full glory and bubbling over into a laugh.
“Should have seen your face,” he teased, leaning across to help you up.
It was so easy to play with him. The teasing roll of your eyes and the faux annoyance as you muttered playful retorts came so easily; it was almost enough for you to ignore the touch of his skin as you accepted his hand up.
Side by side now, you walked slowly between the trees. Feet scuffling through the carpet of leaves the forest laid down each autumn, you occasionally brushed shoulders with Taehyung, laughter intertwining in the air.
The steady tinkle of trickling water told you you had nearly made your way back to the river.
A small stream hurried through the undergrowth over stones and between drooping grass. Hopping over first, Taehyung turned to give you his hand, which you held lightly as you followed him across.
As you returned to the river, the sky grew greyer and greyer. There was too much cloud today for the sunset to be anything but a slow retreat into darkness.
Taehyung was laughing at a joke you made when the willow tree came in sight. The joyous sound you loved to hear was quickly replaced by the shushing of the trees boughs. Tae sighed, promptly calling an end to the light-hearted atmosphere.
His feet slowed, dragging in the dying leaves.
“You should get back,” he turned his eyes to where the moon would be, though all that could be seen of her light was a faint white bleeding through the mist, “the mercenaries will be out before long.”
You never wanted to leave. But these days, it wasn’t as if you could stay, hang off his arm and beg for one more game.
You were grown, and you very well knew he was right. Tensions had been escalating, your parents told you – with whom you didn’t know – but now the men of your town would wander around after dark with their swords at their hips.
Even the words past his lips saw Taehyung’s smile vanish.
Something was hurting him lately. After all these years, there was nothing in his heart that you couldn’t read through his face, his actions. If only you knew what caused it.
It was probably true that your face betrayed the same things. Stepping away, you looked at each other. You felt no need to smile, wave and pretend. You just looked.
Then you walked away, parting the willow and letting the leaves swing behind you, Taehyung obscured behind their curtain.
Lamps flickered on in the houses you walked past up the hill. The smell of rice and laughter drifted from them. A bolt sliding shut made a grating noise as you turned the corner. The eldest son at the end of the road was stepping out into the evening, weapon unmistakeably sheathed at his side.
Tearing your eyes away, you slipped into your own house.
The familiar sight of your mother’s back greeted you. She was working on something.
Only vaguely curious, you rounded the room to greet her. Then you saw it.
The dim yellow of the lamps glinted off the fabric, no doubt silk. Deep and jewel-blue, it lay in glistening folds across her lap while her needle picked out fine gold among the other embroidery already lacing the garment.
It took her a moment to look up from her work, but she caught your awed expression.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?” she smiled.
You nodded, but were still puzzled. Where on earth had she got something like this?
“What is it?”
“It’s a wedding gown, dear.”
You blinked.
“A wedding gown?”
“Of course we’re starting to think of when you should marry, you are at the age. We’ve begun speaking about a good match.”
Your eyes slid down from your mother’s peaceful face. Now, the fabric looked heavy, light glaring too bright against its oppressive dark colour. The embroidery was tacky, too much crammed in. Too delicate, too heavy.
Too much.
“A good match?” you echoed, hollow.
Shifting, your mother placed the funeral robes to one side. Stood, walked towards you.
You didn’t look at her face but her hands were real where they held your own. Soft.
“You know we would rather keep you for longer,” she was joking. Pinching your cheek. “But with all that’s going on, it should be done sooner.”
“What does all that have to do with me? Why marry among the fighting?”
“Because it is not here yet,” she assured, “and now is the time to gain prosperity. Make a home, a family. Your father is not needed as much for his skills when all that is needed are weapons. We just want what’s best for you.”
You swallowed hard. Lifted your gaze to your mother’s. Steadfast, they glistened but any tears remained unshed. Her mouth curved into a thin smile. Her hands trembled.
“And this is… what’s best?” you spoke weakly.
Pushing her lips together, trying to keep the smile on, she nodded.
You waited until the last lamp died. Held your breath as your parents’ steps padded through the house. Until they didn’t anymore.
Poking your head around the door, tiptoeing to the end of the hall, felt almost childlike, if it wasn’t for the lack of a smile on your face. No bubbling nerves as you sat bolt straight on your bed, waiting. No attempts to hide mischievous laughter. Only a fearful intent as you dropped quietly through the window and eyed your dark road for mercenaries.
All the lamps were out. Moonlight barely filtered through the mist which dampened the senses, blurred the hill you knew by heart.
Even the river seemed silenced tonight.
Only hours ago you had seen Taehyung. It was nothing more than blind hope that brought you back here so soon. At a loss, all you could think to do was go to him.
The bridge was encased in the thickest mist yet. It was as if strands blown down the river had snagged, cocooning it.
Glancing quickly around at the long open road beside the river, you stepped into the dense fog. You practically knew every flagstone on this bridge by touch.
It sloped up, and down, guiding you to the bank where the fog was little better. You kept walking.
At first sight of the dark figure through the mist, you tensed up. But it was hardly long enough to put a falter in your step, your body recognising Taehyung’s silhouette before your mind could catch up.
The eerie coating of cloud drifted away as you neared, revealing him under the moonlight.
He faced the water, the back of his head thick with curls picked out by the moon. Without a sound from you, he turned. Once more, you knew you reflected perfectly the sad look in his eyes. Silvery light danced there, but more striking was the darkness rippling underneath, unfathomable.
No words needed for now, you moved to sit by his side. The river dragged on.
“Aren’t you going to tell me it’s late?”
A breath of his laugh fell dead in the mist.
“Why should I? You’re well aware, but here you are.”
Silence, for a moment.
“So are you,” you tried weakly to tease him. A delay to the inevitable, a leaf to be washed away in the current.
He let a kind silence settle. The river trudged on and the mist huddled, shelter for your secrets.
You took a breath.
“They want me to marry.”
Speaking it to the water was almost unbearable. The words out loud were too real. Too nervous to turn, to see Taehyung’s reaction, you missed the way he stiffened at your revelation, busy instead grappling with the heavy, nauseous feeling in your stomach.
“Now’s a good time. Maybe the only time.”
Taehyung’s response was measured. Low, like it would slip from his control if he didn’t push it down
“I hadn’t really thought about it.”
Courageous enough at last, you looked at him. Taehyung’s hands gripped the riverbank, shoulders taught.
“Who?”
You were right – his voice did slip, and it was raw and desperate. He was trying so hard to look at the water, but couldn’t stop himself from slowly turning to face you too.
“I hadn’t really thought about it– ” you repeated “– only, now I have, I realised… I never wanted to marry anyone else.”
Lips hanging slightly open, his face slackened imperceptibly as your words sunk in. His hand had moved, relinquished his grip on the grass. He was leaning towards you, as if the earth was tipping you together. Neither were you immune to the magnetic pull of his eyes, and maybe it was the mist that blurred your surroundings, leaving nothing but him in focus.
“Can’t we?” you breathed, words lighter than the mist itself.
You watched his eyes and already knew the answer.
The way his gaze deepened, dragging away from your own and tracking across your face, down… Your eyes, too, were drawn to his lips. They closed gently, and he swallowed, adam’s apple bobbing. And your gazes lifted as one, fixed on the other.
You knew what it meant, knew his actions even before he moved. The way he looked at you…
Like he was memorising it for the last time.
Shoulders dropping, he moved away. Taking back the uncharted territory that had been breached moments ago.
Somehow, it didn’t surprise you. There must be reason for his hiding, the fact no one else in the town knew him, or even saw him. Your parents already disapproved of you continuing to spend time alone with a man, but someone so hidden was yet more cause for worry.
But if this was to signal the end, you had to know.
“Why?”
To your surprise, he stood. At the first few paces away towards the fog, panic charged through you.
“Taehyung!” you pleaded, jumping up to follow him, “Taehyung, please-”
A cold impact on your cheek told you you were crying. Just as the second made a path down your skin, accompanied by a shuddering breath, Taehyung turned. His eyes held yours steadily, even as tears welled and spilled from your own.
Something in his intense gaze halted all protests on your lips. Determination.
He had stopped, as had you. Heart seized with dread, you could only watch. Was he saying goodbye?
Your fears increased as he began to be engulfed by the mist. But wait- he wasn’t moving backwards. The mist was creeping forwards, its tendrils obscuring him partially, a veil. His eyes shone through.
How they shone, you suddenly realised you could not explain. The moonlight was not penetrating this fog.
Stunned, you stayed transfixed. Something around Taehyung seemed to change, shift, his clothes billowing in the non-existent wind until they grew. Large, silvery and frayed, they were ruffled by a breeze, except…
They were not threads of clothes but whiskers of a dragon. A dragon with dark hair along its back, the same flowing curls forming a mane around its head.
Taehyung’s eyes had not moved.
Gaping, you could not speak. The dragon was huge, serpentine and poised on legs with large talons, tail stirring up the mist behind it… behind him.
You didn’t need to be told that this was Taehyung. Beyond the fact you had just seen him transform, his eyes were the same. And they betrayed the same sadness now as the boy you had just whispered your confession to.
One step. Another. You crossed to him where he stood, waiting.
Tentatively, you held a hand up. Hovered just inches from his face. For a breath, you looked at each other, before he gracefully dipped his head to meet your palm.
He had to bow to come to your level, but you pressed your forehead against him, between his eyes. His snout and jaws, which must hold such power, rested placidly against you.
Your eyes shut as you held him close, and after several moments, you felt arms circle you again. It was Taehyung as you knew him, his forehead touching your own and those curls tumbling down to his eyes.
“You’re not meant for my world,” you murmured.
Taehyung held you closer at that, one hand lifting to your head. You felt the vibrations as he spoke next.
“We were meant for each other’s,” he pledged. “But… not this way. With-with marriage, and this war…”
The hands that gripped you trembled.
Pulling back, you hurriedly brought your hands to cup his cheeks. He tried to look down, but he could never hide the cracks coming through.
“Tae…” you pleaded as his breaths grew ragged. Your thumbs smoothed along the ridge of his cheeks as a tear fell.
He cast his gaze then back over the river, water the same deep black as his eyes. It was perfectly still, shrouded in mist and lazy moonlight. Unshed tears swam in his eyes.
“This is my river…”
He chewed the inside of his cheek for a second. Still looped around your back, his arms held you close, where you could pick up on his every move. Your chest ached with yearning, to bring him to you even when he was physically so near…
The night revolved around his every word as he continued.
“I haven’t been here that long… but it’s mine, and I belong to it. There are older dragons who are just as angry, and they set fire to the ships. But it’s my river, and I never let anyone die here. I-I can lay people and creatures to rest when they should, but I never let anyone drown… be killed.
“But now… there’s too many. The fighting is coming closer, and there are more ships. I can’t” –his voice cracked– “I can’t save them all.”
All you could do was hold him tightly as he let himself finally fall into your embrace. Your chest felt tight just hearing his pain, muffled cries and whimpers against you as you carefully lowered you both back to the ground.
“You don’t have to, Tae,” you assured him quietly, not really sure if he heard. You rubbed his back and continued your mutterings, “this is the humans’ war, not yours. You’re doing all you can. But you have me. I won’t leave you.”
At some point, Taehyung’s crying and your whispers had faded, leaving the two of you slumped against each other, tangled up with your head lying on top of his as you looked out across the water.
“You’re beautiful,” you whispered, “all of you. And your river…”
It felt so right that you had always had such a connection with this water, its banks and its bridge. It felt like an old friend. Perhaps it was, after all.
Tae sniffed, swiped at his watery eyes.
“You always came back,” he said, voice a little gruff.
Squeezing him lightly, a sad smile graced your lips as you stared across your river.
“Of course,” your replied, “and I always will. I promise.”
“Promise,” he echoed.
Shifting in your embrace, he moved to untangle the two of you somewhat. Just your shoulders leaned against each other. Sighing, you gazed over his tanned skin in the moonlight, tear tracks fading already.
“Let me help you. You look after the river, the town… and me.”
His hand raised, cupping the side of your face with elegant fingers that trailed through your hair.
There was that look again.
“I always want to help you.”
“So let me take care of you too,” you insisted, your own fingers curling around his own, capturing his hand where it hovered beside your face. “You don’t have to do it alone.”
Those promises rang in your ears.
Your parents’ backs grew smaller as you watched their journey downhill from the window. Bags clutched at their shoulders as they headed for the port.
“Look after them,” you muttered, eyes fixed on the glimmer of river you could see from here.
In your hand lay a pendant your father had pressed into your hands before you left. It was the one he had made for your birthday, a lifetime ago, when you thought you had imagined the dragon snaking through the sky.
Its blue glaze that swirled along the bottom always reminded you of your river, your safe place. Your Taehyung.
Fastening it around your neck, you turned away from the window. Walked through your house without much aim.
What had started, months, even years ago as hints of unrest, trouble with shipments and stories of quarrels brought back with the fishermen, had only grown.
You had grown used to seeing convoys going past the village, horses and armour and weapons glinting hungrily. Your own townsmen had begun patrols, but still the clash of swords was rare.
But still, nothing would stop it. Someone far away, whose name you would never know, wanted something. Wanted your peace, wanted your river.
And now the next town was on fire.
That morning, you had awoken to shouting, and smoke billowing over the hills. Strangers had run into your town, clothes charred and clutching pouches. Swarmed into boats or knelt crying at the corners.
They were coming up the river. Your parents had wasted no time.
Chests lay open, fabrics spilling from them, all but the essential clothes left behind. Cascading from one, its folds pooling on the floor, was the deep blue wedding gown. Forgotten like some common rag.
Stepping over it, you came to stand at your doorway. The road was barren.
You had sworn to stay with Taehyung nearly two months ago, but you could remember every word. Every utterance that you knew kept you tied to this place. Still, never were you tempted to take it back.
You stepped out, made your way to the river. But you had no bags like the others, and weren’t travelling to the bigger bridge where boats were fleeing. Descending the nearest bank, your feet were steady.
Moving past the rushes, standing tall as ever, you nestled yourself among the willow’s hanging branches.
The boats left. One by one, you watched them slink away until they were obscured by the forest, carried round the turn. You could almost imagine it was the fishermen going out to sea, that they would be back around that meander before two sunsets.
But the boats were crammed with people, leaning over the sides to catch a last glimpse of their town.
The ripples faded from their wake. The sun was making its curtain call when Taehyung came behind you.
“It’s late.”
His arms curled around your waist, cheek pressing against the side of your head.
“Is it too late?” you replied.
“They’re wise to leave,” he said.
But neither of you could.
You walked, slow through the forest. The sun was paling, watery rays piercing the canopy as you moved beneath it. What else was there to do?
The town would only be occupied by mercenaries and cavalry sent by the city. But you had no wish to be there, when you could be with Taehyung. Passing the stream that ran without fail, the willow you had swung from as youngsters, the outcrop where Tae had dragged you to slide along the frozen winter river. The countless trees you had scaled, and fallen from, together.
Though the memories were nothing but ghosts, and though you waited for some inevitable shattering of the stillness, you found you had never shaken that five-year-old eagerness to find your friend by the river to play.
As always seemed to happen, you settled on a bank. Maybe the laughter was a little stifled today, but the air was never free of it when you were together.
A lull came.
“Thank you.”
Taehyung’s voice had shifted, suddenly more bashful that you blinked in surprise.
“Tae?”
The eyes that met yours were creased in a smile. Biting his lip, he tried to keep it in check, as if embarrassed to smile too brightly at a time like this.
“Thank you for staying,” he beamed.
Then he kissed you.
His soft lips against yours sent you soaring instantly. The river faded away, only the cool light bathing your eyelids as they slid shut, feeling the ecstasy of the kiss.
Unhurried, his lips moved against your own, creating sparks like fireflies that spread through your limbs. Fingertips grazed your jaw, one last savouring motion before you slowly pulled away. Awed, your eyes took a moment to flutter open.
Tae’s smile had softened, warm adoration pouring from his gaze. You must look the same.
After a breath, or maybe forever, his eyes flickered away. His hand rested by yours on the ground, but he withdrew it.
Still warm from his kiss, you blinked slowly, only now picking up on his faraway look. He sat up straighter.
A moment later, he blinked, staggered up reeling. From what, you could only guess as he turned breathlessly to you. Fumbling hands found yours.
“I’m sorry-” he panted, already distracted, looking past you, “I have to go-”
The wind picked up around you, swirling and pulling at you from every direction, only his hands anchoring you.
They slipped from yours. In front of you, Taehyung surrendered himself to the wind and transformed, the muscular dragon standing tall on the bank instead. Not a moment later, he pounced into the wind, a vigorous swish of his tail propelling him above the trees, leaving you behind.
You were left standing. Taking a deep breath, you let your hands fall back to your sides.
You turned back to the town.
The closer you came through the trees, the faster your feet scuffed through the undergrowth, stumbling in your hurry as you began to hear shouts. A faint undertone of metal colliding only grew louder.
The willow tree was the last remaining barrier. Hurrying towards it, you caught yourself on its trunk.
A bang rocked the skies, loud as thunder but it was over fast, deafening and cruel. Firing a bolt of fear through your chest.
Pushing aside the leafy curtain, you stared.
Orange glowed over the far end of town, beyond the larger bridge. Black was rising above it, harsh as it twisted into the sky. On that same bridge, men were collected at the bank, struggling to push back against other figures running along the bridge, silhouetted by the violent glow.
There were boats stacked up on the water, but you could not make out how many. You saw them rock as the river started to churn, angrily shaking the vessels of the intruders.
More shouts. Stepping out from your secluded place, hooves thundered closer as a rider yelled from behind a helmet. A small pack followed soon after, skidding around to dash upstream. Fleeing. Away from the heat now blazing at the top of your hill.
Were they attacking from that side too?
Your feet pounded up the bank, racing to the bottom of your road as the devastation encroached. Flames licked the rooftops, taunting orange and red as it devoured without care.
Gulping, you backed away to the little bridge. You should warn Taehyung – but where would he be? The skies, the water?
Hurrying to the side of the bridge, your hands gripped the stone as you leaned over recklessly, searching the waves beneath.
A sliver of light, caught by something darting underneath.
“They’re coming from the hill too!” you called.
The light stilled, then flashed away, melting into the depths.
Chest heaving, you stared at the spot for a moment longer before pulling yourself back. A glimpse back where you had come showed nothing more than a blur of raging light, leaving you totally unable to distinguish the streets you knew.
Unable to escape the rising dread, you clamped your mouth shut. Your feet backed away slowly, instinctively, but you couldn’t quite rip your horrified gaze from the scene.
Another roaring blast stole your attention. From the side of a boat a way upstream burst a ball of sparks. It plummeted into the wreckage that remained that side of the river. There was no saving it now.
One last painful glance, and you ran. The bridge taking you down to the other shore.
No sooner had your feet left the stone than another explosion rang out, more sparks exploding into the dying day. You felt its heat knock you back, along with the terrifying realisation that your only path of escape was up in flames too.
Changing course once more, you raced back up the bridge, but could not go further than halfway as both sides were equally ablaze.
Your eyes desperately travelled to the source of the fires and the violence, the cluster upriver. The wind bellowed furiously down its course, tugging the choppy surface until a wave grew, swiped at the fire nearest its banks like a cornered wildcat.
Another boom, sparks collided with the water and it fell, splashing uselessly on the scorched earth.
“Taehyung!” you cried. But your voice was lost to the fighting.
The waters raged, blue spikes of waves now edged in the gold of sunset. They could barely be distinguished from the jagged fire jeering at you as it surrounded your bridge.
Battering your face, clawing at your clothes, the wind whirled around you. Either that or the oppressive heat of the fire that loomed closer, the air shimmering with deadly intent wherever you looked.
The cracks bursting from inside the fire were hardly different to the cannons that had first given it life.
In panic, you clambered up, any hope of getting away. The stone under your feet held firm, as it had since you jumped off this ledge as a child.
Stilling, you took a shuddering breath.
Twisting your head, you looked down at the water. Dark, unlike the blinding fires. Cold, unlike this stifling war.
Home, like Taehyung.
You turned.
Lifting your eyes up, you stared down the river, searching for any sign of him. But it was just you and the stone beneath your feet, nothing in front to separate you from your fate.
“Taehyung!” you called.
And with all the trust in the world, you stepped.
The fiery wind was replaced, engulfed by the icy waters that thrashed around you, closed over your head. Empty water charged around you, buffeting your limbs and pushing you this way, and that.
Sinking, you rolled over in the current, falling…
Caught.
Indistinguishable at first from the limbs of the currents, two flows of water wrapped around you, holding you still at last. They grew stronger, solid in the water as Taehyung encased you, clutching you to his chest, your head tucked under his chin.
Wrapped in his arms, you were suspended in the water. Blinking in the flurry of the river around you, you caught sight of those curls, flowing like the water themselves.
The fire blazed above, red staining the surface. But here, resting against a firm chest and weightless as the water carried you, you were safe.
You closed your eyes.
Water no longer pressed in on you. Your skin was warm, not cold like you last remembered.
Experimentally moving one hand, you felt grass brushing against your fingers. You breathed in, the taste of flowers on the air.
It was light when you opened your eyes, but not the infernal glow you had just run from. Or perhaps more time had passed than you thought… you weren’t in your town anymore.
Sitting at last, you found yourself on a riverbank. At least, you thought it was. The only problem was that there was no river, only a dip in the land, filled with boulders that stretched through an otherwise green field. The grasses were lush green and bent in the peaceful wind.
Most puzzling was your lack of panic as you found yourself looking around at totally unfamiliar surroundings. The last thing you knew was being held safe in Taehyung’s arms.
A little way down the bank there was a round statue, a smiling face etched on the front.
The sky was a calm blue and stretched endlessly, littered with fluffy clouds. And something moving between them-
The dragon swirled closer through the great blue, dark curls flowing like water. As he touched down just a short distance away, you climbed to your feet.
Taehyung shed his dragon form and walked towards you through the grass.
“Taehyung!” you called, speeding up to jog over to him.
His eyes lifted, as welcoming as the arms he held out towards you. Rushing happily into them, you collided, uncaring about the impact as you buried your head in his shoulder and hugged his middle enthusiastically.
“Where are we?” you spoke, muffled, almost as an afterthought.
He breathed in slowly. His hands were grounding at your shoulders.
“I told you I would protect you.”
“You.. you brought me here?”
Pulling away from him, you took another look around. The arms still holding you loosened, but stayed there.
“Where… where is here? And the town…”
Following your gaze, Taehyung hummed thoughtfully. He pulled you closer as he watched the empty bed where a river should lie.
“I can feel my river from here – maybe I can take you back with me?”
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