#But km just. Tired of being ignored

[plaguethewaters]

this is. exhausting

#vent #ignore the nova #im just so fucking tired #i dont even have anyone to properly vent to all my friends have way bigger problems than me and i already vent too much alredy i cannt burd #edn them so much #i tried to post on reddit like 'oh i ma so sick none of my problems are big enough to be considered real problems so im stuck suffering #with basically no support system' #and this guy just went 'oh youre young Real problems that eill make you Really suffer will come in the future #enjoy life now because nothing bad wver happens when youee young dont burden yourself of your friends problem' and i am so mad #first of all did you even read the post. #nobody taking my problems seriously because im houng is literally my probleem fuck #and I'll WANT to burden myself w/ ny friends problems i want to help them through that and help then be better. #like fucking shit #i know im being pathetic and crying about nothing alredy i KNOW #i have no real problema im just a little spoiled fucking bitch that doesnt jnow gow the world works and will ve destroyed in adulthood i fu #fuckjng know goddamnit #but can someone fuckjng be compassionate for once in my fucking life #and km being unfair my friends understand me so much and they alredy help me so fucking much #my best friend held me through so many crying sessions but she shouldt HAVE to #my support system shouldnt be made of other emotionally instable teens that are all fighting their own fucking battles #theu dont always have the energy to help me and they should nt be able to thats not their fucking job #i just want a fucjing therapist #kr like. a parent that will not thell me im dumb when i say o legitimately struggle with studying and have panick attacks and self harm #like i love them but goddamnit #i want to love nyself too #this is all the period talking after all #i dont have real problems #its just the hormones. #im so fucking pathwtic

[crimson-rain-smoked-flower]

was gonna type out a long bad post but instead i will simply say tfw avpd and leave it at that

#sometimes its hard to imagine anything good will ever happen bc my brain uses 110% of my energy imagining every way i could fuck it up #instead of making new connections with people i just ignore them bc i cant possibly imagine them wanting to be around me #so instead i save them the trouble of eventually being disappointed by me by never allowing anything to come of it in the first place #i should go to sleep but im not tired just sad #god i hate myself #idk how anyone has the energy for me #im just sick and exhausted all the time #and im so fucking stupid!!! #i know how stupid i am and i know its my fault because of how ive just spent the last few years smoking and drinking #and barely ever being sober #and my brain is so slow now #and i forget everything all the time #and i never have energy for anything #i can barely get myself out of bed before 3pm #and i don't really have hobbies or interests anymore bc i just don't have energy for them #i just hope yhat when i kms no one is too upset #deletr later

[kirexa]

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#i dont know what i fucking want to do right now im so tired why am i scrolling tumblr why am i doing this shit i was having a good day #and then i just wasnt why the hell does this happen i want to fucking. i dont want to kms. i know i dont and i wouldnt. but im just really #really tired of being happy and then just not being happy for no reason #i feel like i dont do enough and it fucking exhausts me anyways. fuck. fuck #sorry sorry im just. gonna go. i dont know what im going to do right now but scrolling Tumblr isnt helping anything its just making it worse #at least it feels like i feel a bit better after typing this #ive just felt a bad mood creeping up for the past hour or so and just ignored it and its hitting me full force i hate this #k vent

[lemonofthevalley]

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#okay things are . mostly fine between me and my bf #hes a little mad at me because i didnt bring it up at all before hand and how casually i had told him #(it was like 4am i was tired but wanted to remember to tell him before i forgot because alternatively i would just have not told him and -- #-- forgotten) #basically the one boundary we have about gettinf into other relationships (both polyam) is telling the other first but i was scared to -- #-- because i didnt know if like i had told him and then like 2 days later show up like 'lol they were just joking ignore that' #and sometimes ppl do joke flirt and joke abt being in a polycule and i couldnt tell if they were and i didn't want to ruin the fun by askin #i told him the second we made it official at least . in comparison to me forgetting to mention it for weeks or something #he wants to take a little bit of a break so he doesnt get mad at me again but we arent breaking up at least #its gonna be awkward for a bit between us but itll be okay #if we broke up i would probably kms tee bee haytch #sui joke #<- not really a joke but yeag #rlly hope our other friend whos in our main gc isnt mad at me too augh #we both told them he doesnt have to pick a side at all but . what if he hates me too yk #dont rb #sorry for v/nting in the tags again do you still love me /joke

[cetoddle]

my heart aches so bad so constantly these days i just wanna plunge my hand into my chest, rip out my still beating heart, and tear it apart with my teeth

#i don't have the vocabulary to properly describe just like. #how viscerally i want to destroy myself sometimes #not even in an 'i wanna kms' kind of way #but in a 'i just want to feel something other than misery' way #which sounds so edgy and dumb #but i just wanna use my nails and claw at my abdomen #pull out all my organs and squeeze them so hard they explode #rip out my brain and throw it so hard it splatters all over the walls #i wanna see my own blood and viscera pooling everywhere #slice into my neck and spit blood everywhere #u know #do u know? do you understand? #i'm just so so so tired #this life shit fucking sucks idk how much longer i can do this :| #like i was right. btw. about one thing we're just gonna be vague abt #i even thought i was just being dramatic but i was fucking right. cause of course i was. #i've been right about a lot of things #i wish i could be wrong but unfortunately. no. #sorry #just ignore me that's what ppl usually do #snow.txt

[showercurtainzz]

help

i need some advice if yall know how to deal w this sorta thing. i have a friend we'll call her M and we've been friends for well over a year and i cant imagine life w out her. but recently we've been getting into arguments over small things. one that happened a few weeks ago is me and her friend A made plans together. (keep in mind me and A never met, but M wanted me and A to meet). and M and A changed our meeting place and day without consulting me because M was fasting for the week and we had originally made plans to get lunch at our local mall. im someone who is fine if plans need to be changed but what i do not like is not being consulted about it and told 2 days in advance. i also have an emotionally abusive father who hates last min changes and she knows this. so for once i stood up for myself, i wasn't being a raging b1tch about it either. we got into a very heated argument and we both said insults and hurtful sh1t to each other. a few hours later i apologized for my side but she never did or feel any regret of her actions. me and A never spoke again after that nor did we hang out but M and A still went on with their changed plans.

we moved on but a few days ago we got into another argument. i have (had) a friend we'll call V. he and M hate each other. me and V met when me M and A were on a group call and prank texting ppl from their school. i texted V and we jus hit it off ig. A and M encouraged me to keep talking to him which i did. back to the story, she got p1ssed that he said a few sh1tty words ab her to me which i showed her. the next day M got super p1ssed at me for still being friends with V. then she sent A after me and she said super hurtful words regarding my looks and personailty. she also brought up things that I only told M which meant M had been talking behind my back which is my biggest pet peeve. I told M about it and she said she'd talk to A (which she did). i just ended my friendship with V as to avoid drama and M had strongly suggested i do because he talked shit ab her to me. (which fyi i did NOT play into i just ignored it.)

spring forward to last night i found out after all the sh1tty and fucked up things A had told me that M and A are still best friends. which p1ssed me tf off. she had told me to end my friendship with V because of the sh1t he talked ab her, but after 3 paragraphs A sent to me basically saying i'm a sh1tty friend, telling me to km$, ndall that jazz, SHE'S STILL BEST FRIENDS WITH HER?!?

i dont expect much from ppl but what the fuck. throughout our friendship she's also kind of prioritized other ppl over me which is fine, but she also cancels plans hours before we'd go somewhere and im so tired of it. its been rly draining. but she is also there for me, listens to me and stuff. what do u think bc i honestly dunno. pls help <3

#toxic traits #advice

[crazycookiemaniac]

I need to vent so ignore what's under the cut

Su1c1d3 has been a very tempting idea to me for years now. I keep oscillating between being "okay" and going absolutely crazy. I honest to God don't know how much longer I can take this life style. My doctor said I'd have to deal with this til the end of my life and that's really not something I'm looking forward to. I keep imagining how many different ways I could kms and just end it all. I have so many problems, it's really hard to look at the "bright side" of life.

I'm just really really tired. No matter how many times I seek for help there's just no fixing me. What am I even worth. Absolute fucking nothing. Sometimes I can't help but feel that my life is just a huge waste of mine and everyone's time.

I wonder when will I finally give up, once and for all.

#really negative post #beware #tw: su1c1d4l thoughts

[enha-hype]

maeumi & me - profiles 1 : y/n

a/n : please ignore the timestamps 🥴

y/l/n - just graduated highschool along with their best friend lee heeseung. proud pet parent. is only a year old than sunoo and ni-ki but acts like their parent too. a bit of a nerd but not as much as heeseung.

lee heeseung - parent #2. he's the same age as y/n and probably has most of the braincells of the group. he's the one who introduced sunoo and ni-ki to y/n and is tired of being disrespected by ni-ki 24/7.

kim sunoo - now a senior in highschool along with ni-ki. no one knows how the two ended up as best friends when they're the literal embodiment of calmness and chaos. he adores y/n with all his heart.

nishimura riki - befriended heeseung when his teacher asked the older one to tutor him for a term. secretly admires him for how smart he is but would never admit it.

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» synopsis : maeumi, your maltese pup, has been a huge part of your life ever since you first adopted him a few years ago. but little did you imagine that getting accepted into your dream university would mean having to leave him behind. heartbroken, you whine and lament to your friends about how unfair the situation is. whilst half-heartedly looking up foster homes maeumi could temporarily stay in, you're surprised when yang jungwon - a former schoolmate you'd hardly ever spoken to before - offers to take him in.

» pairing : yang jungwon x gn! reader

» genre : college au, social media au, pet parents au, fluff, strangers (kind of?) to friends to lovers, humour, a lil bit of angst

» warnings : swearing, jokes about death/suicide (kms/ kys etc), mentions of pet injury

disclaimer : this is purely a work of fiction made for entertainment purposes only!

tag list : open [comment or send an ask to be added <3]

#enhypen x gender neutral reader #kpop fluff #enha imagines #enhypen fluff #kpop smau #yang jungwon x reader #jungwon x y/n #enhypen smau #kpop imagines #yang jungwon social media au #jungwon x gn reader #tag : maeumi & me

[familylightfox]

Adding Salt: Not Accepting

@diffxrentwxrlds asked:

1, 2, and 11

Anonymous asked:

19

@chaosworthy asked:

Something that you find unforgivable? & What are some things you are tired of seeing in the RPing community?

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So, to be on the safe side, I'm going to put this under a readmore. If you plan to see my opinions on this, you do so at your own risk and you can take them with a grain of salt since they are literally just my opinions on how I see things. I don't speak for anyone else but myself.

1 What’s the worst role playing experience you’ve had?

I would probably say that it probably would have to be the people who will completely ignore part of my character's story or a description to instead push their headcanons on me. One person tried to push on me that Harmony HAD to be trans. I told them to shove it.

2 What would cause you to leave a fandom?

Honestly, since I've been around since the beginning and watched it at the best and worst times... I'm not going anywhere. At least in the Sonic community. I'm also in the furry fandom but that's also a place they can pry from my cold dead hands.

11 Have you ever received anon hate?

All the time. Most of the time I just report, block, and move on but there's occasions where what they send gets under my skin. Like being a transphobic prick.

19 What’s the worst thing that has happened to you in the rping community (Within an ooc situation)?

That would probably be when I had a giant target painted on my ass by some of the more popular blogs at the time and how many death threats and asks telling me to KMS. Still get those types of ask, but I handle them the way I mentioned above. I'm not going anywhere anytime soon unless the reaper himself comes knocking on my door.

17 Something that you find unforgivable?

In the RPC? The whole guilty by association bull shit. While I can understand that some people can be horrible, you shouldn't be labeled a paraiah just because you're friends with them.

4 What are some things you are tired of seeing in the RPing community?

This obsession with graphics over writing. Or making everything about an aesthetic. With everyone focusing on just making everything look pretty, they lose focus on actually having fun with writing characters and they won't even look at a blog unless it's got some deep fried icon where I can tell if that's an eyeball or a nipple.

I get. You guys want to look pretty because mainstream media has taught us that flashy things get attention, but maybe try to let your writing do the talking for you. You'd be surprised how many of us would rather see how you write over how aesthetically pleasing your blog is.

#ask the mun: dusk answers #ooc #negative tw #suicide mention tw #anon hate mention tw #ask to tag

[literary-mafuyu]

I rate my all(probably) teacher because i have absoloutely nothing to do and i hate my life and i hate studying and i hate school and i am going insane (i really hope now one of my school knows that its me and sees this or ill maybe actually kill myself).

TLE Teacher: first impression of him was intimidating but is actually not that bad lol, but still tho, why the fuck did you make us memorize 10 procedures in exact at the ass nighttime, 7/10, i will never rate anyone above the 8

MAPEH and ENGLISH Teacher: ok, i must admit, you are nice, BUT WHY THE FUCK ARE YOUR EXAMS AND INDENTIFICATIONS AND QUIZZES FUCKING IMMPOSSIBLE AND YOU REALLY EXPECT US TO FUCKING GET IT CORRECTLY AAAAAAAAA-, 2/10, why, its always hard to review the indentifications 😭😭😭😭😭, the source of my endless will to kms

SOCIAL Teacher: why so strict and scary 💀😭, he has the same vibe/feeling/looks or what ever as the TLE teacher but he's more cheerful-like and less akward, oh dear they were complete polar opposites, the other one looks scary, but is actually a bit nice(atleast), he looks approachable(he still tries to at this even time and i always fall for it bc his activities was 'not boring'), but is SCARY AS FU-, bro is scary, i feel like i was about cry when he said that i should speak more louder like "What did i say about my rules in this class" always says it like that in a scary way bro im gonna cry dude why does nobody understanddddd 😭😭😭😭😭, he fr dont understand us shy people, bro actually looks like hes always about to cry ive got a theory that hes always like hes about to cry bc he gets scholed by some person or idk abt him being so strict and is actually holding back on scholding students (bro probably hit a student by his attitude dont judge me its a students responsibility to assume ok) and like actually mentions on getting scholded by some idk, bro i saw that "IM DONE" in ur files bro prol venting (ik im probably misunderstanding like who tf would leave that in the whole ass class but he could be just like me fr to ignore and act like its isnt there and hope they dont notice it like me 💀 i can assume ok bish) probably has anger issues? BUT THATS JUST A THEORY, AAAA- Man, 2/10, wtf

FILIPINO Teacher: Hello advisor, you chill, and nice good humor, good tiktok dancing mov- ...excuse me, nice good easy pc exam, i hate essays tho, also why high expectations for me and give me the unfairty and made me merorize the hardest speech even if i was a tranferee 💀💀💀😭😭😭, and why my hardwork of studying on a lesson then you skip it tho, thank you for that tho, bc the mfing lesson is hard thank for skipping it, thank for the swimming pool, 8/10

SCIENCE Teacher: She feels like just my old school's English teacher, she chill, she cool, thanks for actually hearing out my excuses to get perfect grades lol, 7/10, W teacher

MATH Teacher: 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 Dont even get me STARTED im already tired bro, like, ik you old but, WHY YOU ALWAYS TEACH SO WRONG AAAA, like dude, just look at her answers youll literary understand me, its ok if it just a little mistake but like umh... thats too much for a "Pro,fe,tio,nal teachers" 💀💀💀, she wont accept crap, she either ignores it, or blames the student 💀💀💀💀, i also have that fucking feeling where shes favoriting the son of the principal on the school like wtf dude, also why do you make us just copy the answers 💀💀💀💀💀 i can excuse the lack of activity on checking our answers even if you promised to do it already like 2+ times but pleaseee why are you making us copy the answers except of making us train our brain and say that "Parents will come here and complain about your grades" like broooooooooooo 😭😭😭, everyone of us got probably atleast 15 mistake in math exam for no reason just because of her one single typographical error and didnt even correct it 💀, 2/10 u and my father is literary the same whats worse is me put both in the same room with both of you and math, i feel like dying

Peyn

#pain and suffering #rating my teacher #rating my teachers for no reason #crying sobbing screaming dying #depressed as shit #school #school is ass #teachers #rating

[mrs-monaghan]

i'm genuinely so tired of this fandom and it's hypocrisy

so the rest of y'all can talk about every other members' interactions and how they're "such boyfriends", but i MENTION jm and jk in the same sentence and suddenly i'm a shipper, i'm disrespecting them, i'm using them for my "delusional fantasies", or i hate the other members.

before anything else, jk is one of jm's best friends who he loves and adores. someone that on his solo debut where he had "no other artists featured" he decided to have jk do background vocals for a personal hidden track for fans. he could have had any other member on the song or just done it himself, but he wanted jk.

also the fact that neither jk nor jm have mentioned that jk is on this track is interesting. along with jk playing it on guitar before face released, jk learning it on guitar when he isn't the one credited for that on the song, jm getting shy and blushy when talking about it or giving a very brief explanation of the song, no one else apparently knowing about jk on the song (example yg), non armys and non jkks thinking the song is too intimate (especially the part where jk comes in), and the first draft lyrics being way too personal and speaking more so to one person than a collective.

that is until jm cheered geo's post.

all it means is that the idea of 'doing a live singing the song that jk has bg vocals on with jk' is something jm would like/do in the future.

people really do see jk and jm as nothing more than a ship now and will ignore, downplay, and/or hate on their interactions. even the friendliest and most platonic ones.

jm interacts with tkks or vmns and everything is fine, he's "sending a sign", it's cute. but he interacts with a jkk and suddenly we're the ones pushing a shipping agenda.

i don't even like geo that much, her "jikook are real" posts aren't that big of a deal but when she does them right when jk or jm hang out with another member or even another person, it's verging on setting them (km) up. but still i don't see any reason why she would lie/fake it when all that would do is cause more hate to km and jkks.

and if she did fake it/lie about it, i'll definitely call her ass out

#ask shaz #bts ask