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#But what else would one expect from two ex-goths such as my parents
teatimeweirdo · 4 years
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It was a cold night.
The gang was quite worried about Buccellati. He hasn't come out of his room all day. Abbacchio, who was cooking dinner for the boys, was pacing around the room for who knows how long and he felt fairly uneasy. For once, Narancia and Fugo weren't fighting, instead they were worried sick as well. Mista, who usally would complain about the missing food around, this time of the day, was unusually quiet. Their new member, Giorno, was silent all day since the person he would usally talk to was unavailable.
Even Trish was unusally tense, she knew something was up. Their Capo never really opened up to anyone, so no one actually knew what was going on.
Abbacchio called them to get dinner, today pasta was served, it didn't taste as good as the food Buccellati would usally serve them, but it was edible. While the kids were grabbing dinner, Abbacchio prepared a plate for Buccellati.
"Doesn't matter if you don't finish everything. I'll be upstairs."
"Can you please find out what's up with Buccellati?" Trish asked.
"Yeah, we're worried about him!" Narancia exclaimed.
Abbacchio just hummed in response and went upstairs, but Giorno saw the worry in his eyes.
Buccellati has been acting weird since he had gotten a phone call this morning. They all were concerned, since Buccellati has gotten a lot of calls but never acted like this after he got them.
Going up the stairs in this usally warm house was quite eerie tonight. When Abbacchio arrived at Buccellati's door he started hearing soft whimpers. It made Abbacchio's stomach turn. Imagining the normally calm and collected capo crying in his room like that made his heart hurt.
He started knocking on the door. "...Can I come in? I have dinner for you." Abbacchio asked.
Whiping his tears away and trying to collecting himself, Buccellati awnserd the door.
"Oh, it's you."
Buccellati disliked the thought of his gang seeing him like this, crying his heart out and being a total mess, his body shaking to its core and his room unorganized, but he knew he could trust Abbacchio, he knew Abbacchio wouldn't tell anyone about this, Buccellati always acted like a parental figure to everyone and he didn't want to break this perception of him, he didn't want them to think he was weak.
Abbacchio entered the room and placed the plate on Buccellati's desk.
"Don't worry, no one else is here, it's just me. I'm the only one listening." Abbacchio said softly.
Buccellati closed the door and went to his desk. "...thank you..." Buccellati said quietly, he almost sounded like he was about to cry again.
"Do you wanna talk about it? Of course only if you want to talk." As soon as those words slipped past Abbacchio's lips, Buccellati felt like crying again, no one except his father had ever asked him if he wanted to talk about his problems.
He wanted to say something, but all the words got stuck in Buccellati's throat, instead he just nodded. He went to his bed and Abbacchio followed him as they sat down. In the end, he managed to choke out a "My mom called."
Why would his mom calling be so ba- oh.
That's when Buccellati started to break down again. Abbacchio just sat there not knowing what to do, he was never good at comforting people, but he tried his best. Rubbing the other's back gently, he grabbed one of the tissues he took up in the room with him.
"...I don't know much about that whole situation, but...I'm here for you, Bruno. It's probably not much, but I'm here."
"My mom called, and I just....." He trailed off,  not knowing what to say.
"Take your time."
Abbacchio knew that Buccellati was a very family oriented man, he always saw how sad he was whenever two of his gang members were fighting, so Abbacchio could only imagine how upsetting it was for Buccellati to fight with his own mother.
"My mom called, she- she called me for the first time in 7 years, " Buccellati choked out, "she called and told me that she has a new fiance and needs money for the wedding," Abbacchio could tell that Buccellati became hysterical. "I know it's childish, but I never got over the fact that my parents divorced, and when my dad died, it just hurt even more," He let out a whimper after that, before finally finishing the sentence, "It's been so hard, and I- I don't know w-what to do-"
"Bruno-"
"I just-"
"Bruno, you have to calm your breathing,"
Abbacchio kissed Buccellati's temple in an attempt to calm him down.
".... Leone, could you please get something for me?" Buccellati whiped his tears away with is sleeves. "It's in the lowest drawer of my desk."
Abbacchio got up and went to get the thing Buccellati asked him to get without questions. What he found was something he never expected. Three duck stuffies, laying neatly next to eachother in the lowest drawer of his desk.
"My dad got me them when I was still a baby,"  Buccellati started, "he actually hoped that one day I will grow up to appreciate the water and the creatures around it as much as he did." The thought of a small Buccellati playing with little stuffies made Abbacchio's heart swell.
His lips curled into a little smile, "They're cute." Buccellati hummed in response.
"My mom actually threatened to burn them once, when she was mad at my dad. I have never been that panicked before." Buccellati chuckled.
"What a bitch." Abbacchio replied.
"Thank you for cheering me up, Leone."
Abbacchio went back to the bed with the duck stuffies and layed down besides Buccellati.
"You're really adorable Bruno, do you know that?"
Buccellati just blushes and lays down besides Abbacchio.
"How can I not know it when you tell me every day."
Now it was Abbacchio's turn to blush. He draped an arm over Buccellati and smiled to himself. What did he do to deserve such a good man?
It didn't take long for Buccellati to fall asleep, after all he has been crying all day. Abbacchio made sure that Buccellati really was asleep before getting up. He went to Buccellati's desk to pick up the long forgotten food, which has now turned cold, and went downstairs to put it away.
As soon as Abbacchio arrived downstairs he was bombarded with questions by Narancia and Trish. He just demissed them for now and went back upstairs.
Once he arrived at Buccellati's room, he was greeted with the most adorable sight he has ever seen. It was Buccellati sleeping and cuddling with his duck stuffies with a child-like innocence Abbacchio has never seen before. His heart melted at the view.
It took Abbacchio a while to tear his eyes away from this beautiful sight, when he was finally able to, he went to Buccellati's bathroom and drew him a bubble bath with the cinnamon soap, which was his favorite scent on Buccellati.
When he was done with preparing the bath, he went to wake Buccellati up. Abbacchio leaned in for a kiss on Buccellati's lips, who's eyes started to flutter open.
"Morning, sleeping beauty. I drew you a bath," Abbacchio says softly.
"You're so cheesy, do you know that?" Buccellati joked.
There it was, that smile, that Abbacchio adored, his heart skipped a beat whenever he saw that smile.
"You should smile more often like this, you know?" Abbacchio smiled. This made Buccellati smile even wider.
"Hop on!" Abbacchio laughed.
"You sure?" Buccellati asked, Abbacchio only nodded, which was the signal for the raven-haired man to hop on the goth's back.
Abbacchio carried Buccellati into the bathroom and locked the door. The ex-cop sat his lover down on a stool since he was still quite sleepy.
"Do you need help with that?" Abbacchio asked suggestively while raising an eyebrow.
"What? Help with what?" Buccellati asked still fairly sleepy. This made Abbacchio smile, he went up to his beloved boyfriend and gave him a sweet kiss on the forehead and left a lipstick stain.
"Don't worry, I'll help you." Abbacchio said while coming closer to Buccellati. This was when the sweet man realized what his lover was saying.
"Yo-You don't have to." Buccellati blushed.
"Too late." The white-haired man said with a teasing smile. He went up to the raven-haired man and tucked on his shirt.
After Buccellati was finally undressed, he went into the bathtub.
"Hey, that's my favorite scent!" the capo exclaimed happily.
"It's not my favorite on me, but I like how it smells on you. It always...smells warm." Abbacchio said while removing his make-up.
"Are you gonna join, amore?" Buccellati asked.
"Sure, " the ex-cop said, already being naked, only having to put up his hair.
Abbacchio got into the bathtub, the warm water feeling nice on his skin. The raven-haired man on the other side of the tub just smiled sweetly.
"Come here." the goth said sleepily, the warm relaxing water made him tired and he just wanted to cuddle Buccellati.
The dark-haired man went over just to cuddle the ex-cop, it was warm and comforting. Abbacchio just wanted to fall asleep in Buccellati's embrace.
After the bath they went to bed, Buccellati laying on Abbacchio's chest, the goth thinking it's funny how usally the roles are reversed, but tonight it was different, the beloved capo just needed some reassurance.
The two of them stayed in this position until they heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." The mother-like man said, which resulted in a grumble from Abbacchio
It was Narancia, who held a small frog stuffie and a teddy bear in his hands.
"I'm sorry to bother you but I couldn't sleep. I was worried about you, Buccellati." The boy said sadly, "Can I sleep in your bed tonight?"
Abbacchio seemed displeased but didn't say anything, he knew that his darling needed sometime with his found family.
"Sure, just please be quiet, we all need some sleep tonight, it's been a rough day." Buccellati said as he held his arms open for Narancia.
The three of them layed in bed and a cuddled, they looked like an actual family.
Buccellati was happy, happy that he found himself a new happy family.
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cloveroctobers · 3 years
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CHELSEA ELLE HODGSON —
IG info/Bio: @/chelseaaahodecor | 109k followers | hi babes! welcome to my life lovelies, please get comfy with this Prosecco im serving thru this screen! xx here’s my site if you need some light in ur life: ichelseahdgsondesigns.com 🏝💕
24 (25) years
From Buckinghamshire, England
Comes from a wealthy family
her father’s side of the family founded, “Hodgson investments” their company is built off of financial services
Her papo (grandfather) was arrested on tax invasion & served some time for doing so
Her father, Alistair now manages the company but under a different name
Her mother’s side of the family comes from old money...something about horses?
Her mother, Connie holds many events and seems to make $ from them but Chelsea isn’t quite sure what the woman does or if it’s fully legal
The family is all about protecting their image & if you don’t cut it, there will be repercussions
Feels a little like dynasty (I’ve only seen 2-3 episodes & never finished but get the point?) , maybe that’s why Chelsea & her sister enjoy watching it so much
Parents forsure held courtship events or either went to courtship events with their children (even Albie) & found suitors in hopes of marrying their daughters off (& finding Albie a new wife, only on Mrs. Hodgson’s part— mr. Hodgson seems nicer/easy-going)
Has older twin sibs: Albie-Crispin & Dolly-Georgiana
Often referred to as “the triplet” in the press
Well-known in their city
They’re all called by their first & middle name in their family household even tho their parents do not have middle names
Has a love/hate relationship with albie, he is selfish & has proven to do anything to drag others down to make himself look better
He’s a lawyer & has been married to his wife for about 7 years
Mrs. Hodgson, Dolly, & Chelsea all agree they do not like her but Chelsea puts on a smile whenever her sister-in-law is around while Mrs. Hodgson makes it known that she dislikes the woman, she thinks she’s beneath her son since her family does not make nearly enough $ put together between her & Mr. Hodgson
Dolly has a bf who’s a dental hygentist that she’s been dating for about 3 years but they’re both cheating on each other, she doesn’t think she’ll ever be married
She’s in office management
Chelsea fell in love with interior decorating from the moment she played with doll houses. Her grandparents made sure to send her the biggest doll houses they could find every Christmas. She’s always been in love with rearranging and picking certain items and best putting them into a space that works
She shit at drawing (she’ll leave that to the Architects) but she knows her furniture & patterns quite well
Has asked a few architects out on dates, some she worked with or stumbled across, only one seemed like it could have truly worked...I imagine him to look a bit like Henry Cavill with light facial hair (told you I’m a sucker for it, & Chelsea probably can tolerate just a bit not too much)
Yet Chelsea always has a wondering eye, she gets curious quite often which makes you wonder, is she really ready for love? To fully commit? One day she will be
It’s a competitive field and when she’s ready to battle she will but there are moments when she gets let down & has to pick herself up again
Has ADHD, goes to therapy for it & hates taking her meds. She’d rather stick to therapy sessions since it’s always nice to talk to someone
When she was younger she probably stole a friend or two’s bf & would definitely get mad if they did it back to her but they somehow still end up being friends in the end? Yikes
Hung out with the popular kids, was always at the parties making sure everyone was having a good time. Filling up the cups, directing where furniture should be moved, where the kegs should go, how many people should be there, etc...She doesn’t seem like the stuck up type like her mother but she is privileged & doesn’t realize it as much
Was a cheerleader & ran track, quit track to commit full-time to cheerleading since that kept her in shape enough
Dated here & there, had one bf where they would scream at each other and wouldn’t allow the other to leave or would be upset that the other didn’t come after them...yeah one of those couples
Broke up with her goth bf because he didn’t tell her he wasn’t coming to school for about a week; he had the stomach flu
Canon: Took a computer course in high school & in uni & found out she was at the top of her class for typing the fastest, she now loves the sound of her short pink ombré nails on the keys
Canon: Wanted to be a show jumper due to her mother’s side of the family & their history with horses
Goes to the stables every now & then, there’s one horse there that she’s absolutely in love with & loves to ride. Her father always offered to buy it for her but it’s not a animal she wants to own
Canon: loves finger foods + will get full off them at events quickly. She also doesn’t mind the tiny portions of food at expensive ass restaurants, it’s just enough for her
Takes hair supplements. Probably had long hair growing up that she always kept up in a bun or ponytail but decided to start chopping her hair off & getting layers & highlights which damaged her hair
Approves of plastic surgery
Is part of the itty bitty titty community & got a lift for them
Gets lip fillers for her bottom lip but isn’t a fan of needles + overlines her top lip
loves going to the dermatologist, the spa for facials & whatever else she’s willing to try & finding new skincare to buy
Tans & loves tropical hot summers
Buys an overload of bikinis even in the winter
Hates the rain, it messes with her mood
Loves a good lipstick & lipgloss combo, nudes & pinks are her to go to’s
Fav color is pink
Got herself a guinea pig after the show & named her “bubbly” after her baby in the villa
I feel like she would eventually get a tiny dog too
Has her own flat, that’s quite far from all of her family. She loves her dysfunctional problematic family but Chelsea likes her space from them too
Since buckinghamshire’s culture is more of a Middle Ages style, Chelsea made sure her home wouldn’t hold much of that style inside. It needed to be lively! Her family home was filled with dark wood & she can’t stand that
She loves going to the markets tho. She always seems to leave with something & either finds herself not liking it months later and ends up selling whatever item caught her interest
Her family tends to pop in whenever they want, especially her mother
Canon: talks about cat cafe’s when she’s drunk, says its her version of the chocolate factory + she’s the dancing drunk
Always down for a girls night out, girls trip & girls sleepovers
Probably goes to bed early around 10pm or earlier m if she’s not out having the time of her life, which makes her regret her choices the next morning
All her closest friends back home are a group of girls
Hangs out with Priya, Marisol, & Hope from the villa whereas the rest she’ll mostly communicate with them through socials or gatherings
Will host gatherings & expect them ALL to show up
Is dramatic when things don’t go her way
Loses focus more than gets bored in relationships? She’ll find other things or people to occupy her time which she doesn’t realize can be hurtful to others
When she does realize she hurts someone, she immediately wants to fix it
Canon: Is a blabbermouth. Cannot hold a secret for shit, also cannot tell a lie. Her body language gives it away first if she doesn’t spill it
Retail therapy is the best therapy if she doesn’t have a office appointment
Any spice girl song will be her karaoke song, she is always baby spice
Loves her Prosecco (me too sis!) & keeps plenty bottles in her wine fridge. She originally wanted a space with a wine cellar but got creeped out at the thought since it’s just her & bubbly living in the home
Has high cell phone bills, the girl loves a good chat
Cannot cook no matter how hard she tries. She’s been to cooking classes with an ex, watched videos, order from those food delivery sites to prepare food & it just never turns out well
Will spend hours in furniture stores, she’s had to be escorted out pass closing hours by security guards before & manage to make friends out of them. They all know who she is in majority of the stores she enters
Throws a party every time her following goes up. There’s never not a reason to throw one
Was upset that Carl unfollowed her once and figured Hannah made him do it. Which wasn’t true, Hannah was sure of herself now & doesn’t feel the need to be jealous, the man could follow whoever he wanted—she knew he barely stayed on IG in the first place. He thought it was too shallow
So when Chelsea called him one night sobbing he was utterly confused, he didn’t understand why a follow meant so much
He reluctantly followed her back
Thrilled to know Elijah, Lucas, & Carl all keep up with her. Oh & the rest of the boys ofc!
Chats with Jakub! They also hang out. They’re a bit of a odd pairing but they get along well, he’s basically another big brother to her but she actually likes him—
Afraid of the dark, keeps fairy lights lit throughout the night in her bedroom, keeps scent infused night lights in her hallways
Believes in feng shui
I feel like her voice is soft like jennifer Tilly’s?
Idk what her sun sign is? Is she a sag far as daydreaming cause she does that. I KNOW she has Leo in her chart, she’s dramatic, warm, likes to be admired & appreciated. Sun sign I need help? Maybe she’s a Sagittarius sun? + Leo moon + libra rising
Has a collection of celeb gossip magazines that she keeps on a stand next to her pink velvet chair beside her bow window
I think she will be the first islander that gets pregnant tbh & it’s by an architect (the guy I mentioned/envisioned that’s been waiting on her to realize he can give her the love she needs or prove he can balance her out) or firefighter or someone “manly” she wouldn’t end up with a islander I don’t think
she has a girl & names her, “adore”
Canon: Still wants 5 kids but we’ll see how that goes & if it’ll change, it’s been a bit difficult not drinking Prosecco but she’s got a lovely baby out of it
Crushes? Aaron Taylor-Johnson, Alfred Enoch, Alex Pettyfer, Joe Cole, Gregg Sulkin, Frank Dillane, Charlie Rowe, & Hero Fiennes Tiffin
Can listen to anything that’s got a good beat. But we all know she’s a pop & folk genre lover. She listens to: Astrid S, Maty Noyes, Cher Lloyd, Bebe Rexha, Allie X, Poppy, POST MALONE, etc.
Anthem? Gabrielle Aplin — Until the sun comes up
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rulesofthebeneath · 4 years
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Hey guys!! 
Here’s the new thing I’ve been writing! I hope y’all enjoy lmao this started as a dumb idea but now I’ve been really emotionally invested in it. I’m gonna try to post about twice a week. Let me know what you think, please!!! Tags: @abunchofbadchoices, @mrsbhandari, @lilmissperfectlyimperfect 
The first time he’d ever told anyone, it was his first boyfriend, and he was met with a sarcastic snort.
“Come on, ‘Jay. That’s just what gay guys say when they’re scared to come out all the way. You can’t be both gay and straight, you have to choose.”
He was fourteen, and had no idea what to make of any of his feelings, much less the weird ones that made his heart beat faster and made butterflies storm his stomach. So he accepted that, and listened to Jake, who was older and wiser than him.
“Are you sure?” he’d asked.
“Yeah. Wait, ‘Jay, do you not like me anymore?”
“What? Of course I do.”
“Oh, good. I was scared you were trying to break up. But I don’t know why you’d say something as crazy as that. You know you can always talk to me, okay?”
Ajay nodded, but deep inside he sincerely doubted that. In retrospect, it was the first of several red flags that had led to a less-than-happy ending for him and Jake.
The next people he told were his parents. As far as Indian parents went, they were pretty open-minded, and hadn’t really cared about him liking guys. He’d even been able to bring home boyfriends or school dance dates without making too many waves with his parents. They didn’t really understand why he couldn’t just date a nice girl, but they loved him anyways, and he knew he was lucky.
But when he’d said he liked both guys and girls, he was met with polite parental confusion.
“What? But you only go out with boys, putra,” his mom had said. “You’ve never brought a girl home. How do you know you like both, hm?”
It was an excellent point. Ajay couldn’t explain how he knew he liked girls, just like he couldn’t explain why he liked guys. But he just did.
His father shook his head. “No, no, no. You’ll have to choose someday. You don’t have to hide yourself and pretend you like girls just to make us happy. You know we love you.”
Ajay hadn’t even known how to respond to that one, so he’d just nodded and excused himself from dinner. He’d never brought it up again.
He’d posted anonymously on a forum for gay youth that he’d found, but hadn’t recieved much other than “that’s not real”, “you can’t like both”, “you have to choose”, “so you’re a cheater?” and “you’re just saying that because you’re scared of committing to life as a gay guy”.
It wasn’t long before he’d just logged out completely, questioning himself. Did he just think he was attracted to girls because he felt like he had to be? Because society said guys were supposed to like girls? Was it true that he was scared of being gay, because of all the homophobia he’d have to face? Especially as a second-generation Indian, he was expected to life the perfect heterosexual American lifestyle, getting a good job and having two or three kids and making his family back in India proud of their success story. Even though his parents knew he was gay and didn’t care, nobody else in his family knew. He hated to think what they’d say about him if they did. They already talked smack about Ajay’s only openly gay cousin, Aditya, and Ajay knew he was basically dead to the family.
So was he just pretending he liked girls to escape the full ramifications of being gay? It was possible, he thought, but probably not. He’d never had a girlfriend or even been on a date with a girl, but that was due to an unfortunate outing incident orchestrated by his ex (another of those red flags he’d ignored).
Despite the fact that he was outed, though, he’d found a group of friends who had thoroughly supported him. Rory, in all of their genderfluid nonbinary aro/ace glory, Clint and Natalie whose sexualities seemed to be oriented towards whichever gender Rory presented as on a given day, Skye who was a goth sapphic icon, James who was the token straight ally, Trevor who was so deep in the closet that Ajay doubted he’d come out this century, then two mysteries.
One was Erin, Ajay’s longtime best friend. He knew she liked guys, but he didn’t know if she only liked guys or if she liked other genders too. He wasn’t about to ask, though, because asking her would lead to her asking him, and he wasn’t quite prepared for that.
The other was Grace, James’ twin sister. As far as James was known as a heartbreaker, Grace didn’t appear to have dated anybody. Or at least, she didn’t talk about it and neither James nor Rory, who’d known her since childhood, said anything about it either. And again, he wasn’t about to ask because of the possibility of the awkward return question.
All his friends would pick on him, good-naturedly, about just how gay he was– how he always dressed sharp, his hair was always neatly combed and occasionally slicked back with gel, how he liked theatre way more than a straight guy could ever, the fact that he couldn’t do math, how his best friend was a girl, his taste for iced lattes, his distaste for anything athletic. Erin had even caught him doing a facemask one morning, and had teased the living hell out of him for it. Ajay didn’t see the big deal– he just wanted to keep his skin clear– but was willing to accept that basic hygiene and skincare were not something that straight men typically did.
It was all in good fun, and Ajay knew that, and he would even laugh along with his friends when they pointed that stuff out. It was funny, he could admit that. And he was gay— that was the only part of his sexuality that was easy for him to admit. He’d found comfort in that label, even though it wasn’t the full story.
In all honesty, he was scared to be openly bisexual. Coming out as gay to his parents after being forcibly outed at school was the hardest thing he’d ever had to do, and he couldn’t imagine doing it again. And how would he explain that he liked both guys and girls? He’d seen what they said on TV and in the movies, even in some books. Bisexuals are promiscuous, bisexuals are cheaters, all bisexuals choose to be either gay or straight eventually. It’s just a phase.
In previous years, in weaker moments, he’d wished he could just be gay. After a particularly disastrous encounter with a girl named Kelly and his very unfortunate crush on her, he’d cursed himself for liking girls when everyone knew he was gay. He tried to convince himself to be gay, to just only like guys, but it never took.
It never took, and it was one of the reasons he resented Rory, who was unapologetically themself. Rory didn’t care what people said, and either way they weren’t interested in dating. Rory had it good, anyways. They had parents who loved them, accepted them unconditionally, and had even thrown them a coming out party. They were just a far braver person than Ajay was, and Ajay wished he could have their accepting family and their confidence and just be who he was.
Ajay sat down heavily at the lunch table, having gotten there surprisingly early. Rory sat there, picking at their lunch absent-mindedly while scrolling through their phone. Grace sat beside them, twirling her hair around her finger and completely ignoring her lunch in favor of staring at something across the cafeteria. Ajay followed her line of sight but only saw the new poster advertising their spring musical, The Tempest.
Grace had snagged the lead role of Miranda after making her high school theatre debut as the lead in their fall play. It was her sophomore year, after she and her brother transferred from a school in Seattle when her parents decided to move back to their hometown and start their own business, a small diner called the Golden Griddle. Grace herself was an impressive actor, and even though Ajay didn’t want to admit it, she was an impressive person as well.
She turned her head as if snapping out of a trance, looking towards Ajay.
“Hey,” she greeted him. “Just checking out the new posters. I didn’t see them before.”
That’s right, Ajay reminded himself. Of course she might not have seen them until now. She had been noticeably absent from rehearsal yesterday, where Skye and Mr. Olsen had presented the new posters and the entire group had spent the last half-hour putting them up all over the school. It hadn’t been a huge deal- there were plenty of scenes that needed blocking, and Ajay had just had Skye stand in for Grace where it was needed. But he couldn’t pretend he wasn’t concerned, especially since he’d seen her twin heading home from soccer practice.
“Yeah, we put them up during rehearsal yesterday.”
“About that,” she started, looking uneasy. “I’m sorry I didn’t come to rehearsal yesterday. I… wasn’t feeling well, and I had to go home early.”
Ajay furrowed his brows. Grace looked so uncomfortable while she was saying that that it was obvious it was a lie, or at least not the entire truth. He wanted to ask her about it, but then James loudly sat down beside her, chatting with Erin, and he dropped it. Grace looked relieved at her brother’s interruption. Ajay shook it off– it didn’t really matter anyways. But he was worried all the same.
“Stop pouting,” Erin interjected,shooting him a ferocious glare. He was so surprised that the frown slipped off his face, causing the whole table to break out into giggles. Even Grace, which eased the worry a little. He shot a fake glare Erin’s way, then had to dodge another glare.
Skye, Natalie, Clint and Trevor showed up not long after, and Rory finally looked up from their phone.
“Hey,” they said. “How was everyone’s morning?”
Skye groaned. “Math test. Kill me now, before my parents see my grades.”
Grace rolled her eyes. “You know you got this, Skye. You knew everything on that test when we were studying last night.”
“Test anxiety is a bitch, though,” Trevor added. He prodded Skye’s shoulder. “I get it. We can’t all be the modern-day Einstein.”
“I resent that,” Grace mumbled, though a small smile remained on her face.
“I signed up to take the SAT at the end of the year,” Erin interjected. “I’m starting SAT prep tutoring this weekend. Three hours on both days.
The entire table except Ajay cringed. “Me too,” he admitted. “I’m gonna need a lot of help if I want a good score on the math section. I can’t make heads or tails of some of this trig stuff.”
Privately, he’d been thinking of asking Grace to help him out after rehearsal. She was already helping Skye on weekends, and though he couldn’t pay her like Skye’s parents could, he thought he’d offer to buy her dinner if she agreed. But that thought remained stuck inside his head, some part of him inexplicably nervous about being alone with her.
While he was caught up in his thoughts, wondering why the girl made him nervous and furiously trying to ignore that part of him, the conversation at the table had continued on without him. James jabbed Grace with his elbow and she jabbed him back. Erin and Rory talked about the college application process, Erin admitting that she wouldn’t be trying for any BFA Drama programs. Clint and Natalie hung on to Rory’s every word, echoing their indignation that Erin wouldn’t pursue drama in higher education. Skye and Trevor talked about set design, Skye even whipping out her sketchbook to add in some details.
By the time Ajay regained attention of the conversation around him, triggered by Erin asking him about that week’s rehearsal schedule, Grace had already zoned back out of the conversation, staring at the poster again. Ajay frowned again. What was up with her?
“Earth to Ajay”, Erin said. “We were arguing over which team was better, softball or soccer. What do you think?”
Ajay quirked an eyebrow. “Erin, I don’t do sports.”
“I don’t know why not. They’re fun! Even just to watch.”
“You know full well I have a complete aversion to any physical activity. But I guess if I had to choose, I’d say soccer.”
Erin nodded knowingly, a smirk playing on her lips. “I can see that. Scoping out the hot guys, are we?”
Ajay sighed “Sure,” he said, trying to sound as defeated as possible. Erin knew how he’d dated Jake a while ago, and he was now the team captain in his senior year at Berry. Erin had a theory that he still held a torch for the guy, though, which couldn’t be further from the truth. The only games he went to anymore were the ones that the whole theatre group went to with Grace to support James. Even though James wasn’t cast in the musical, he was an honorary part of the crew, having stepped in with his calm demeanor during various theatre emergencies. Everyone liked the guy– it was impossible not to– and they made up the loudest group on the bleachers cheering for him.
The only reason Ajay still liked soccer was because it was the only sport he understood. Jake had made sure he’d known everything about soccer, talking about it constantly. Ajay knew his ex planned to play pro soccer in Europe after graduation. Ajay had grown into a soft spot for the game that didn’t end when his relationship with Jake had.
The bell rang to signal that lunch was over, and everyone got up except Ajay and Grace. Ajay, because he was still reeling over the exchange, and Grace, because she was still lost in space, staring at that poster.
“Hey,” he said to her, barely able to make himself heard over the chatter in the cafeteria. “You okay?”
Grace’s eyes snapped to Ajay’s, looking startled for a half-second. “Oh, yeah, just distracted,” she said unconvincingly. She started to gather her stuff, and Ajay echoed her.
He fell into the crowd beside her, trying to make their way through into the hallway. Ajay screwed up all his courage to ask her about tutoring, because he really did need that extra math help.
“Hey, so, I was wondering if you’d be able to help me with my math stuff? I’ll be working on the SAT problems on the weekends but I’m falling dangerously behind in class again. I can’t really pay you but I can buy you dinner or something?”
Grace looked over, a little surprised. “Oh, yeah, sure. You don’t need to buy me dinner, though. I don’t charge my friends.”
“You don’t? But don’t Skye’s parents pay you?”
Grace looked a little embarrassed. “They insisted, and I tried to resist but Skye told me it was just a drop in the bucket for them. So really, I don’t need anything.”
“If you’re sure,” Ajay said. “But if there is anything I can do to repay you, I’ll do it.”
Grace paused for a moment. “Um… if you could help me with English it would be great. I don’t know what any of these old British writers are saying.”
“Sure, that stuff can be hard to digest. Sounds like a good deal for me.”
“Alright. Think we could hit up a coffee shop or a fast food place or something, say twice a week after rehearsal?”
Ajay nodded. “Thanks, Grace.”
“No, thank you,” she smiled. “See you at rehearsal.” Then she ducked her head and disappeared into the crowd.
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dragon-momther · 4 years
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I finally watched Descendants 3 and here’s my thoughts no one asked for.
In no particular order.
Unexpectedly long post so uh... read if you want
Emotions! Happy, laughter, sadness, heartfelt. Nothing groundbreaking but a great story of friends and family - the whole series for that matter. Not about where you came from but who you chose to be, whom you choose to love
I still wasnt ready to see Cameron. I cried.
Hades? Best worst dad 10/10. I knew that was gonna be the reveal but I was pleasantly surprised with how nicely they did it. They could have made him cliché 2D evil but they didnt! I didn’t expect to love his character
I love the subtle cues between him and Mal - not just in personality, but the choreography in Do What You Gotta Do, and their costume design! To me it shows that, all along, Mal has been nothing like her mom. Someone else pointed out that Mal’s hair and outfit colors shift to have blue reflecting her becoming more “Hades” which just solidifies this to me
She wanted Maleficent's approval, but Hades’ attention/care (yeah you’re the god of hell but couldn’t you wish me a happy birthday like... once?)
“My attention would have made you softer.” He would have been a doting dad and (as someone else mentioned) he knew that wouldn’t fly on the Isle. She would have gotten eaten alive. He was doing what he thought was best for her.
Hades’ “suffering husband” attitude was hilarious. [Overall I just like the facets they gave his personality!]
Dramatic goth bitch. Don’t roll your eyes, Mal, cause this is clearly where you get it from.
Hades suppressed shock (and dare I say pride) seeing Mal turn into a dragon at the beginning
Oh the “Hi, dad” and little snarky hand wiggle when they reunite. Cheyenne’s portrayal of Hades was great
Hades? Married? To Maleficent? The lore connotations are really funny. Clearly they all have a second parent but Mal happens to be the offspring of the two most powerful beings. (I mean, no shame, Maleficent. You go girl. Marry a god) and also him tolerating her long enough to have a kid
Please tell me Hades is really the one who gave Mal the name Bertha
On that note Ben (and their friends!) takes the knowledge that his fiancée is a demigod extremely chill. Like can you imagine your inlaws are an unfathomably powerful fairy and the fucking Greek god of hell? 
Honeymoon on Olympus anyone?
[I said it D1 and I’ll say it again. Why is a teenager the king? Belle? You don’t need to retire sweetie. You have No Reason to hand over the crown to a boy who hasn’t graduated. Why Are These Children Getting Married]
We were robbed of Fully Powered Mal and I am, for one, offended
Also Ben’s panicked “Hi, Dad.”
Hades! Dad! Just that. That’s it. Wants to make up for the 16 years.  (I wish we saw his reaction to his wife (ex?) being a lizard)
Is there marriage on the Isle?? Officiant??? Who’s moonlighting as an evil wedding planner?! Is there a fantasy disney villain divorce attorney or is Hades just hiding from his wife because he can’t do anything else
Hades noped off underground into a lair no one can find solely to avoid Maleficent, you can’t change my mind
Hades’ staredown of Ben. Protective dad 101 but he can and will kill you and ensure your afterlife sucks if you hurt her
The entire ending was great, esp with all the Hades-Mal reconciliation.
Mal revealing her lineage not just to her friends, but to the world, is fantastic character development. She’s not just telling the whole truth at last (as we saw her struggle with through the whole series) but she’s laying her biggest secret to the world. Completely vulnerable. Her people deserve to know, and it solidifies her point of “you never know where a hero will come from.” Because the product of the two strongest villains became the greatest of all of them. 
Also this finally shows the whole “real” Mal and, as Carlos said, “if [they] don’t love the real you...”
Hey Doug I love you but for the love of the gods please cut your hair
Jarlos painfully, adorably awkward. Help what is flirt?
Harry? 12/10 boy just desperately wants to be loved, someone give him more hugs. 
The subtle gestures with Uma? Iconic. Some of my favorite acts of affection are the little private things. The hugs, the way he holds her when they reunite, the little touches on her arm/shoulder/back. I saw you go to kiss her on the head, Harry. The editors can’t stop me
I haven’t talked about Audrey but she was meh in comparison to all the rest of this stuff. Not a bad character or villain plot, just... there
OST was a hit or miss for me, I didn’t like as many of the songs in D3 as the other two. DWYGD slaps tho. I love the banter
The pirates and VKs becoming friends, Gil getting respect, excuse me while my heart explodes
The costuming continued to slay. BLEASE can I have Mal’s dragon jewelry I’m begging 
I watched it twice. 
Thank you for your time, I’ll be in my silence corner
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AN: I am so sorry loves, I know I’ve been terrible about updating things. between Covid and my classes being moved online I’ve been so busy. I will try to be better about updating, but I can’t promise anything. Anyway, here it is, the long awaited update to Daffodils.
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"Hey Ben, my parents called." You yelled down the hall from the bathroom where you were currently brushing your teeth. You leaned over the sink and spat the foam into the stream of running water, before using the cup you'd brought to rinse your mouth. You heard a faint response from Ben over the heavy metal music pumping from the speakers in his dark room before continuing.
"They said they were coming home soon, they didn't tell me when though." You stepped over Angel and between Bb-8's paws as you made your way to Ben's room. You felt the bass reverberating in your chest and rolled your eyes. The neighbors must hate him, but Leia wasn't here to tell him to turn the music down.
"You alright?" You yelled, walking into the room and looking around. Ben was nowhere in sight. You wondered where he could be until he walked out of the small closet with a pair of sweatpants and a too-tight band tee on. He was headbanging with the music and you chuckled. Why were you best friends with this dork?
"My world, my love why do you torment me, To give up and give in to all you are? I like the man I am, but I despise the fool I've been." He sang before flopping onto his bed with his phone. He looked to the doorway and leaped to turn the volume down.
"Sorry (y/n) I didn't hear you come in." He said. You chuckled as you walked towards the bed and lay down next to him, poking him until he moved over enough so you weren't falling off the bed. You threw your arm over his stomach, leaning against him and resting your cheek on his shoulder.
The two of you lay like that for a while. You, thinking of your life and how you ended up here. While Ben scrolled through his Reddit feed, occasionally responding to a message on snapchat.
"Ben," You waited for an answer. He gave a nondescript hum and you took that as your sign to continue. "why did you put your stud back in?" You asked. He hadn't put his stud in since the end of sophomore year. Which is why it startled you today. You heard the clicking of the stud against his teeth again before he shrugged.
"Just thought I shouldn't let the hole close." He said, not looking up from his phone. You placed your hand against his stomach, leaning on it to sit up and look at his face. He winced and let out a huff as you put pressure on his gut.
He looked up from the screen to see you leaning against him with your head tilted. He dropped his phone on his chest and reached towards you, running his hand over your hair gently, before pushing you back onto the covers with a giggle.
"You're a dork Ben." You said as you rolled onto your stomach and pushed yourself up. Ben had set his phone on the small table next to his bed before smiling at you.
"So, you said your parents called?" He asked. You nodded before laying down on the bed with your legs dangling over the edge and your head on his stomach.
"Yeah, they said they would be home soon. It's about time, they've been away for weeks." You grumbled. You never thought you would miss your overbearing parents, but they were still your parents.
"Does that mean you have to go?" Ben asked, sadness creeping into his voice.
"No, they know I'm staying here and don't care. I mean when they get home I will but for now I'm not going anywhere." You rolled onto your stomach, resting your chin on his stomach and looking up at him.
"Good, I like you being here." Ben said. You smiled at him.
"Is your mom coming home anytime like, ever?" You asked. It was six thirty and Leia still wasn't home. She was almost always home by five thirty.
"Nah, she said she had a work party so she's staying in a hotel with one of her work friends tonight. It's easier than coming home." Ben said, a frown crossing his features.
"A friend?" You grinned cheekily. It had been years since Han left, Leia deserved to be happy.
"Ew no, gross that's my mom." Ben said with a chuckle as he pushed you off his stomach and poked at your sides and stomach until you slid off the bed and onto the floor in a fit of giggles.
Ben slid off the bed next to you, laying on the floor with you and looking at your face as you smiled.
"You're pretty." He said with a soft smile. You felt your cheeks burn hot before pushing his shoulder and pulling the collar of your shirt up over your nose.
"Oh my god shut up." You said through laughter. He rested his hand on your cheek, pulling the collar of your shirt down and lifting your head.
"I'm serious (y/n), you're pretty." Ben said. You reached out to him, wrapping your arms around his waist and pulling yourself towards him before pressing your face against his chest.
"Stop being so sappy." You mumbled against his shirt. You felt his chuckle rumble through his chest as he rubbed your back.
The two of you lay in comfortable silence. Listening to the other breathe, listening to Ben's soft humming and the occasional click of his tongue stud against his teeth. You scratched his back lightly and he let out a contented sigh as he rested his chin on your head. You could imagine the soft smile on his face as he leaned against your touch.
"So, the dance." Ben said quietly. You hummed in response, urging him to continue.
"Did you come up with that choreography?" He asked. You shook your head against his chest. It had mostly been David, he'd been on the dance team longer than you and you assumed he'd have more experience.
"What about the song? Did you choose that?"
"Ew no, you think I would choose rap for a dance? Ben it's me you're talking to." You said as you tilted your head up to look at him. He let out a chuckle and pulled you against his chest again.
"Alright alright, just curious. Honestly it's not my type either but anything to help you out." He said. You hummed in thought.
"What if we changed songs?" You suggested. Now it was Ben's turn to look confused.
"To what?" He questioned.
"I don't know, there's this one son, Ancient History by a band called Set It Off that's really good." You said. Ben tilted his head.
"I didn't know you listened to Set It Off. I've heard that song, it's a bit fast paced isn't it?" Ben asked, sitting up on the floor. You shifted so your head was in his lap as he rubbed your back.
"I mean I guess," you paused, rolling on your back to smile up at Ben, "luckily I know an amazing guitar player who could do an acoustic cover?" You scrunched your eyes shut and flashed him the widest smile you could, folding your hands in a "pretty please." You heard Ben hum in thought.
"I dunno, what's in it for me?" He asked as he tickled you.
"Ben!" You exclaimed, dropping your hands onto your stomach and scowling at him.
"(y/n)!" he mimicked your high pitch.
"You won't just do it for a friend?" You asked, sitting up and leaning dramatically against him. He sighed and leaned his head against yours, turning so your foreheads were pressed together, noses just brushing.
"No, not a friend," He paused, reaching for your hand and holding it in his own, "but I'd do it for you." You felt the heat rising to your cheeks and squeezed your eyes shut as you lowered your head to bury your face against his neck.
"You're such a sap." You said, pushing his shoulder gently. He let out a chuckle and wrapped his arms around you, pulling you into his lap to lean against his broad chest. He'd long ago removed the leather jacket and skinny jeans covered in chains, dropping them in the hamper next to the studded boots. He wasn't Ben the goth, Ben the guy everybody avoided, he was your Ben.
Your best friend who tried to pierce his nose in eighth grade and got an infection, your Ben who taught himself to braid hair to help you with prom hairstyles, your Ben who snuck in your window to look at stars and who cuddled your dog and loved Playdough ice cream a little too much. He was your Ben who got himself arrested for beating your abusive ex, who dealt with black eyes and broken noses for you no matter how often you told him he didn't have to fight for you, because you were already here. You were here and you were never letting him go.
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The concert was tonight. Your parents had come home that morning, despite saying they would be home soon two weeks ago. You didn't question it, Leia was more than happy to let you stay in her home.
"It makes me feel better knowing you're here and safe than alone. Anything could happen." She said with a pointed glance. Leia was not an oblivious woman, you had no doubt she knew something had happened with Hux that pushed Ben to sit in a holding cell for a while, but Leia was a saint and let you keep your secrets.
Ben had gotten his band together to record you an acoustic cover of the song Ancient History by Set it Off for your dance. Finn even told you Ben had pulled out some of his old piano skills for the background and convinced Mitika to put away his drumsticks for a few minutes. You hadn't expected him to go that far but you were grateful he had. It sounded amazing.
Now you were backstage in your costume, a flowing white sundress with a chiffon skirt, gold neckline, and a pair of tight white shorts underneath. You had managed to wrestle Ben into a pair of tight black leggings that, to anybody else, looked like jeans with a white T-shirt. Your dance was simple with the use of a prop Rey had built for you in her theater tech class. Ben was currently watching the routine before yours, picking nervously at his pants as he fussed with his hair.
"(y/n) I don't know if I can do this." He said, turning to you with a terrified look in his eyes. You gave him a small smile as you pulled him into a hug.
"Ben we've practiced every day for two weeks, we've got this. You've got this." You said softly to avoid being heard. He relaxed and rested his chin on your head with a sigh. You heard the applause and watched the lights dim as the group before you walked off the stage. You grabbed one side of your small "wall," unlocking the wheels on the bottom and pulling it onto stage as Ben helped you guide it to the middle and position it where it needed to be. You both took your positions as the song began.
No, there's no denying chemistry this strong Yes, pretend it's right but we both know it's wrong...
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"Mom! Dad! I didn't think you were going to make it!" You exclaimed, running towards your parents when you saw them outside. You hugged your mother first, then your father. They smiled at you, well, your mom did. Your dad just scowled at Ben the way he always did. Ben approached the two, shaking your father's hand and reaching to shake your mothers when she pulled him into a hug.
You pulled back with a wide smile, waiting for their responses. Your mother immediately started congratulating you, while your father returned to glaring at Ben. Ben was unphased, ever since Ben had first been suspended, first gotten a piercing, your father had been less than kind to Ben. He was used to it. Thinking back, it was around the time Han left that your dad started being nasty to Ben. Leia seemed to materialize from thin air next to you, pulling her own son into a hug and holding him close to her. He leaned into her embrace, a contented smile on his face as he rested his chin on her shoulder.
"I'm so proud of you Ben." Leia said as she pulled away to look into his eyes. Someone a few parking spots away called her name, and she patted Ben's shoulder before leaving to talk to whoever had called her.
"So why were you her partner, hm?" Your dad asked sharply, earning a swat to the chest from your mother accompanied by a harsh "Greg."
"Her original partner broke his arm, and the coach asked me?" Ben said, mild confusion in his voice. He was used to indirect hostility from your dad, not a direct challenge.
"Wouldn't be surprised if you broke it." Your dad muttered, earning another sharp "Greg!" From your mother as she dropped her hands and turned to look at him with wide eyes.
"I, no sir I didn't." Ben seemed to shrink within himself. He felt like he was a little kid in the front yard who accidentally broke his mother’s flowerpot. He knew she wouldn't mind, would just make him clean it up and plant new flowers, but Han was the one who had found it. Han did mind.
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"Benjamin Lando Solo!" Han's voice boomed from the front yard. Ben flinched as he slowly turned to peek out the open garage door where he'd been tinkering with his wooden box he'd been trying to put together for months.
He'd broken his mom’s blue flowerpot, the one with the pretty yellow daffodils in it. He was going to tell her when she got home, but she was getting groceries. He'd broken flowerpots before when he wasn't being careful, never on purpose, sometimes it was a ball or he fell off his bike or he tripped over the crack in the driveway, he didn't mean to.
Ben slunk from the garage, approaching Han cautiously with his head down.
"What is this, hm?" Han snapped, pointing to the neat pile of blue ceramic shards with the yellow daffodils sitting inside neatly. Ben had swept the dirt into the flower garden and set the flowers up until Leia got home so he could tell her and help her replant the flowers.
"A broken pot." Ben said quietly, still looking at his scuffed sneakers rather than his father's face.
"Did you do it?" Han asked. Ben nodded, squeezing his eyes shut and waiting for more harsh words.
"I asked you a question Ben." Han snapped again. Ben swallowed deeply, trying to keep himself from crying.
"Yes." He whispered. Han planted his hand atop Ben's head, lifting it so his son was forced to look him in the eyes. Ben winced, squeezing his eyes shut and willing the tears back into his eyes.
"What was that?" Han growled.
"Yes sir." Ben said, swallowing again. Han pushed Ben towards the neat pile hard enough for Ben to fall on his knees, ripping a hole in the denim as his knees connected with the rough cement.
"Clean it up." Han snapped, standing over Ben with folded arms. Ben looked at the flowers sitting happily on top of the pile. What was he supposed to clean up? He knew his mom would want to keep the flowers, maybe she could fix the pot? It wasn't that broken. He hesitated a bit too long and Han hauled him to his feet by gripping the hood of his favorite black jacket and pulling.
"I said, clean. it. up." Han snarled, holding Ben high enough off the ground that his toes barely touched. He heard the seam of his hood ripping and began squirming, trying to get Han to let him go.
"Dad, please you're ripping my jacket." Ben said, trying to hold his weight on his toes as much as he could.
"That’s not the point!" Han roared in Ben's face. Ben winced and felt the tears begin to stream down his face as he held the front collar of his jacket to keep from being choked. Han finally let him go, dropping him to his feet before stomping away muttering "useless" and other assortments under his breath. Ben heard the engine of his mother’s car, quickly wiping his eyes with his sleeve before turning and meeting her in the garage, hugging her as tight as he could while she examined his ripped hood.
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"Don't lie to me. I know what you're after." Your dad snarled, stepping towards Ben and glaring up at him. Ben stepped back nervously as you stood beside your mother.
"I-I, what?" Ben asked, swallowing nervously. He stepped backwards and stumbled as he kicked the toe of his own boot.
"Greg!" Your mother snapped. Your dad ignored her, reaching forward, grabbing the collar of Ben's jacket and pulling him down to his height.
"Dad!" You called, starting to feel scared for Ben. You knew he could fight, knew if he wanted to he could knock your father on the floor in a second, but you had never seen him freeze like this.
"You've always been after my daughter. But let me tell you, I will never let a delinquent piece of shit like you anywhere near my little girl. I'm surprised you stay out of jail for a week at a time, your dad was right to leave." Your dad hissed. Ben's brows furrowed and he stood to his full height, pushing your dads’ hands off him.
"Dude, shut the fuck up." Ben growled. It was a warning, you could tell. You looked to your mother, who seemed just as frozen as Ben had been, but also on the verge of tears.
"You're never getting near her, you're like him, a deadbeat drunk piece of shit who walks out on his family. You'll be just like your father." Your dad jabbed his finger into Ben's chest.
"I said shut, the fuck, up!" Ben yelled as he knocked your dads hand away and shoved him hard enough to cause your dad to stumble.
"Dad!" You snapped. Your dad hesitated for a moment before trying to charge Ben to tackle him to the ground.
"Dad what the fuck?!" You yelled. Your dad stopped trying to push Ben, who had planted his heels into the ground and wound up his fist to hit your father in the face.
"What did you just say to me young lady?" He asked harshly. You stepped away from your mother, grabbing your dad's arm and pulling him away from Ben.
"What the fuck dad?" You said, placing yourself between your dad and Ben. Ben was breathing heavily with shaking shoulders. You could hear the rapid click of his stud against his teeth. You wrapped an arm comfortingly around his waist as you glared at your dad.
"What did he even do to you?" You asked as Ben leaned against you. Your dad looked between the two of you and looked even angrier. You looked to your mom to see tears rolling down her cheeks.
"What happened while you were on your 'extended honeymoon'?" You asked, quoting the words extended honeymoon. Your mom looked away, covering her mouth. Your dad looked to her, but she refused to look at him.
"I'm just trying to protect you honey." Your dad said softly, stepping forward and holding his arms out to you. Ben let out a rumble from his chest and stepped forward protectively, pushing you behind him before he could think of what your dad would do.
"Let her go right now." Your dad snapped. You stepped out form around Ben, resting a hand gently on his chest.
"Protect me from what?" You asked. He couldn't mean Ben, could he? Ben was sweet, he was protective, you trusted him more than anybody, he was your best friend, you loved him.
"From, from him. He's not good for you, can't you see he's going to be just like Han?" Your dad said, reaching for you and gripping your wrist. Ben growled and stepped forward harshly, pushing against your hand. You pushed back and turned to look at him as you pulled your arm from your dad's grip.
"Greg." Your mom said finally. He turned to look at her.
"This is exactly what I was talking about. You can't think about things calmly. You take everything as a personal offense, and here you are assaulting a teenager who has been nothing but good to our daughter for ten years." Your mom said, stepping forward to pull your father back by his shoulder.
"I take it back, I don't think we can work this out. I want you to sign the papers and get your things and be out of the house tonight." She said. Your dad stared open mouthed. You blinked in confusion, looking between the two adults before finally turning to Ben who had stepped forward and rested an arm across your chest protectively.
Your dad let out a few huffs, trying to find something to say. Your mom shook her head, turning to walk to the car, leaving you standing there with Ben and your father. Your dad turned to look at Ben, then at you, then where he had his arm.
"What happened to Armitage hm? He was a good respectable boy, why did you decide you wanted this, this, this," Your dad spit as his face turned red "this screwup? Has he hit you? Did he force you to do anything?" Your dad asked, glaring at Ben and reaching for you again. This time you didn't protest when Ben let out an angry hiss as he pushed you behind him and puffed out his chest.
"That respectable boy hit her, slapped her, left bruises so deep they were black on her, and scared her so bad she came to me crying at 10 at fucking night begging to stay with me." Ben said harshly, backing your dad down with every step. "That respectable boy is the one who hit her, who tried to force her to do things, and would have succeeded if it weren't for me. I am not a screwup, and I am sure as hell better at protecting her than you." Ben jammed his finger into your father’s chest before turning to face you and herding you away from your dad towards the Falcon. You tried to take a few steps, before everything sank in and you stumbled against Ben.
"Hey, hey it's ok." Ben said gently, shrugging off his blue jacket and wrapping you in it gently before bending down, sweeping an arm under your legs and holding you bridal style in his arms. You wrapped your arms around his neck, pressing your face against his shoulder and letting the tears run down your cheeks, ruining your makeup and no doubt staining his white T-shirt. Ben just held you close, carrying you to the car to take you home.
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Unit 3: Face Claims, Please Stop Using Emily Rudd
     Ok. So now lets look at face claims. Face claims are a broader topic to character creation and OCs as a whole. I like face claims. They’re great, because they allow you the writer to get in your head what the main character looks like and how they fit in with the cast and the world. I have nothing against face claims, I use them myself because I like to visualize what I’m working with. However, as we’ve seen in Unit 2, it’s on the writer to convey what the character looks like. As we’ve seen in Unit 1, the character should be cohesive with the rules of the universe. Face claims and characterization can apply the first two units very easily. 
     Reference images are for your eyes only, so that you can see what the character looks like. When describing a character, pull details from your reference image to explain what they look like. You do not have to be overly specific. Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way is a prime example of being overly specific, given the first paragraph of her fanfiction My Immortal is: 
     “Hi my name is Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way and I have long ebony black hair (that’s how I got my name) with purple streaks and red tips that reaches my mid-back and icy blue eyes like limpid tears and a lot of people tell me I look like Amy Lee (AN: if u don’t know who she is get da hell out of here!). I’m not related to Gerard Way but I wish I was because he’s a major fucking hottie. I’m a vampire but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I’m also a witch, and I go to a magic school called Hogwarts in England where I’m in the seventh year (I’m seventeen). I’m a goth (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly black. I love Hot Topic and I buy all my clothes from there. For example today I was wearing a black corset with matching lace around it and a black leather miniskirt, pink fishnets and black combat boots. I was wearing black lipstick, white foundation, black eyeliner and red eyeshadow.”
     Never do this. I will find you and we will have a very nice conversation about how to improve your writing. Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way breaks the three big rules of characterization and character description: She drops the face claim directly in the narrative (Amy Lee, lead singer of Evanescence), she describes every characterizing feature about her (vampire teeth, ebony black hair), and she describes her complete outfit. To give a better standard of describing characters, we are going to fix Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way. 
     Young Adult novels very often stick to height, hair color, eye color, and body shape. This is something you as an author should think about, but sticking just to this blueprint can be pretty generic. When you look at other people, those aren’t the only things you notice, right? Those aren’t even things you necessarily need! A big example of going against the grain of the standard is found in The Great Gatsby. Despite having loads of color imagery, we never learn what Daisy’s hair color or eye color is. But somehow, we don’t need them because we are supplemented with, “Her face was sad and lovely with bright things in it. Bright eyes and a bright, passionate mouth.” Fitzgerald focuses on how his characters carry themselves and their facial expressions. These give descriptions of their personalities. When he does describe hair color or eye color, he does it in a way that fits with the style and vibe of his writing, and you as a writer can do the same. 
     In my own personal opinion, eye color does not need to be described immediately. You can save small descriptions of your characters and sprinkle them in throughout the story, rather than dumping an appearance in one paragraph. In one instance you can describe what a character’s wearing, and in another later on, describe their hair as they pull it away from their face. Describe it as it changes from the normal. Jeremy Scott’s The Ables is a great example of character description and characterization. The main character is blind, which means that the cast gets by on contrasting personalities. We don’t know the ethnicity of many of the characters until we’re halfway through the book, and the main character only learns his basic appearance because it’s been described to him by his parents. Things like eye color and hair color and how tall someone is don’t matter as a whole. What matters is how it can be applied and further the story and the personality of the character. A character having curly brown hair? Don’t necessarily need that. A character who takes the time to curl her brown hair every morning? That tells me something about that character. Small moments, and giving descriptors through details can really help you avoid the paragraph dump. 
     Character Bios are the bane of my existence. Do not put character bios in the beginning of your fanfiction. All you’re doing is giving me a paragraph I’m not going to read. Character bios are lazy writing. It’s low-hanging fruit to mention them as something to not do. There are so many ways to incorporate detail into a story. By putting in a character bio, you tell the reader that you either: don’t know how to incorporate these facts, are too lazy to incorporate these facts, or don’t care enough about what you’re writing to incorporate this information that we must know immediately about your character. In addition, we don’t need to know your character’s favorite color and the music they like on page one, so why do that to yourself? Not caring about your work can ruin a fanfiction. If you don’t care about what you’re putting out there, how can you expect your audience to care enough to read it. 
     Another important aspect of characterization is show-don’t-tell. Which we’ve all heard, but I’ve rarely seen it used. When used effectively you can draw the reader in, and allow them to use context clues to draw their own conclusions. A good rule of thumb, and the Show Don’t Tell 101 is that you show emotions, and tell feelings. You don’t need to tell me how the floor swayed under someone’s feet and they felt as if they were underwater. You can just say they felt tired that morning. However you can show emotion, and show the full range of anger and pain when someone’s upset to convey properly how that character is feeling. This is something that requires a light touch. It ties in with context clues and foreshadowing. I shouldn’t know from the third line of dialogue of a Shane Dawson fanfiction that the OC has an eating disorder. I shouldn’t know when exactly two characters are going to end up together, or when two characters are going to split apart. It should come as a surprise. An example I can give is a story I have of two spies who fall in love. From the first chapter, it’s obvious to the reader how this world is a game to them, and how they click and exist on that same wavelength. Chemistry can be obvious. Banter can be a fun way to express chemistry. What wasn’t obvious in this story, was that one of the spies would be killed by his own organization. What wasn’t obvious was how this would shape the other spy, who became the main villain of later works. If you make the narrative obvious I want you to then surprise the reader. Because you yourself will get bored. That’s why you see a lot of fanfics get dropped after three chapters- the writer has it all planned out how something will happen, and this plan becomes boring, but they don’t try to change the plot to make it more exciting. Throw in a wrench. Shoot someone. Spice it up my dudes. 
     We titled this chapter Please Stop Using Emily Rudd because one, we see Emily Rudd, as well as other girls who will be in an imgur album at the end of this chapter, way too often as the main OCs in fanfiction, and two, they represent a saturation and an insecurity in the market of main characters. We as writers don’t need to rely on these girls, and we actually keyhole and limit ourselves when we stick to stereotypical goth/emo girls (ex: Eugenia Cooney, Aly Antorcha, and Taylor Momsen face claims), or pale girl with dark hair and green eyes (Emily Rudd) same thing different descriptor for Nina Dobrev, or that red haired girl with green eyes who I couldn’t find a name for but she’s in almost every Harry Potter and/or Weasley sibling fanfic so you know who I’m talking about. 
     These girls should not be the standard of OCs. On top of that, not every OC has to be “strikingly beautiful” some of these OCs are like, 11-12 at the start of the fanfic. It’s ok to not describe how pretty they are. On top of that, not all of the world looks “strikingly beautiful” and that shouldn’t be a character descriptor. When one fanfiction I read had the love interest describe the OC as, “nothing to look at,” they contrasted everything else I’d read before because they made the beauty in that character not about what she looked like but her actions and who she was as a person. She became more beautiful as the fanfiction went on because of her personality, and by the end of it, it made sense that the love interest fell in love with her because he loved her as a person, not as an object. That’s what it boils down to. These girls don’t have to be pretty thin models and celebrities to be good face claims. Spending less time on the appearance, and more time on the personality makes for a character more beautiful and more believable than if you used some model. Don’t feed the manic pixie dream girl trend. 
     Moving on. Your character should not fill a hole or replace a member of the cast. They should bring a new perspective and add, not take conflict from the original work. For example, if you are writing Harry Potter fanfic, the character should not be composed of all the attitude Harry and Ron didn’t get in the movies. If you write Sherlock fanfiction, the character should not be the voice of reason to apologize for Sherlock’s antics while still doing the same things as him. In my own Psycho-Pass fanfiction, my character should not be a manifestation of Shogo Makishima’s soul. All these things do are fill holes in the story without adding to the narrative. If they were removed the story wouldn’t know they’re gone. If you can add conflict or alternative plots to the narrative, making the characters and the cast go through something they didn’t go through otherwise, you make the OC matter more. There used to be a beautiful Harry Potter fanfic that got deleted, where the OC went on full fledged adventures without the cast. She did her own thing, hanging out in the Harry Potter universe. This fanfic worked because the OC was the star of her own narrative. She wasn’t hanging on to Harry, Ron, Hermione, and Draco. They did their thing, and she did hers. It made for a great fanfic that I’m very sad to have seen the end of. Try and give your character something to do that doesn’t involve the cast. Think of it like fanfiction’s version of the Bechdel Test: Can your OC go through a chapter of fanfiction without relying on the cast. 
     Let’s revisit our darling, dearest, dead, Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Ravenway. Using what we’ve discussed in the previous paragraphs, I am going to attempt to fix the introduction given by our dear Enoby in Chapter One of My Immortal. Pray for me. 
     By Year 7 at Hogwarts, I had given up on the uniform. I’ve been at this school for too long to keep wearing the same damn thing, and as soon as I’m done I can bow out of button-ups and itchy sweaters. Professor McGonagall had a fit when I walked in last year with purple and red streaks in my hair. I smile as I imagine her face when she sees my miniskirt and corset. I sloughed in front of my mirror, carefully winging out my eyeliner and dabbling my lids with red eyeshadow. I popped on a black lip, blew myself a kiss, and felt stupid for doing so. 
     McGonagall didn’t even let me make the Great Hall. She marched me back, and forced me to change into the school uniform. I added pink fishnets and combat boots, and rolled my skirt up before heading back down to the Great Hall. My classmates gave me a wide berth. As I walked past a cluster of Slytherins I could hear them whisper. 
     “Fangy bitch.”
     “Say that again?” I said setting my sights on them. “Do you really want to insult me now? I haven’t even had breakfast yet, though I could make an exception.” They scurried off. I flipped them the bird as they went, and carried on downstairs. Remus Lupin was the best thing to ever happen to this school. Yeah, he was a werewolf, but I felt a little less alone. At least there was more than one monster running around here. 
     Next week we will be discussing names. Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way will make a return, as well as some other names that are uncomfortable and cringy to read. This is your warning now, that in 2 weeks we will have our first exam for Fanfiction 101. I did say in the introduction that there would be an exam, and it’s on its way. We will give you more information next week when we see you to discuss Nameberry.com. 
     Supplemental Instruction: The aforementioned imgur album of overused face claims and OCs. Think of this like a newly minted banned book list. 
https://imgur.com/gallery/SpIGZhF
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Honestly, what are you thinking about right now? >> I’m aggravated because ESO’s server maintenance is supposed to be over by now, but it isn’t, and I want to play. I also hate that I am so easily aggravated by things like this sometimes, because I’m sure to people with fully functional brains it’s not a big deal and it probably shouldn’t be to me either -- but no one ever said I had a fully functional brain. Also, I’m thinking about all the raucous crowing going on outside. The crows have really been out in full force lately. Do you like to get your nails done? >> No, it involves too much physical contact (although, at least it’s only on one part of my body). Also, I can do just fine at home by myself, and save like... fucking $60 or whatever. Why the fuck is it so expensive anyway? What are your thoughts on Valentine’s Day? >> I don’t have any thoughts on Valentine’s Day. It really doesn’t affect me most of the time (it didn’t even affect me when I was single, honestly). I think it’s a bit of a silly holiday but far be it for me to rain on other people’s parades about it -- the last thing anyone needs is someone like me being pedantic and bah-humbug-y about the fact that they’re doing something cute for someone they love. Anyway, while V-Day doesn’t really factor into my life any (Sparrow sometimes gets wine and makes dinner and we just veg out watching YouTube or whatever), I was flipping through a local publication while we were at Biggby the other day and I found a V-Day event at one of our favourite places (Long Road Distillery), which was perfect. So we’re going to that, and I think it will be fun. Sometimes V-Day is just a convenient time to find fun "date” ideas. Do you remember the last movie you saw while on a date? >> Well, in the last question I put “date” in quotes because I, an aromantic, don’t really know how I feel about the concept, but at the same time it’s not completely illogical to call planned outings with my spouse a “date”, so... you know. Regardless, the last time we both went to see a movie together is when we went to see Jojo Rabbit last year. Do you love the color pink? >> I mean, it’s fine. I like it in some cases and I like it less in others.
Have you ever cheated on someone? >> Yes. What color is your favorite bra? >> My binder is black. Sometimes I do consider getting one with a cool print on it, though. I forget the name of the company that makes those. If you took on the surname of the last person you kissed, what would it be? >> Can Calah doesn’t have a surname. Do you kiss on the first date? >> --- Do you like to wear dresses? >> Sure, sometimes. What I don’t like is wearing them in public and knowing that I now have no way to assert that I am not a cis woman. Because “well, you’re wearing a dress, after all!” Yeah, because it’s comfortable and has a cool pattern on it. Fuck off. Are you into sports? >> No. Do you like any ‘manly’ activities like hunting, fishing, or camping? >> I’ve never been hunting or fishing, but I imagine I’d find hunting a bit more interesting than fishing (although, from what I understand, both activities involve a lot of waiting around without moving, which doesn’t sound fun at all). Camping, however, can be a lot of fun. Did you lose your virginity before you were sixteen? >> I was coerced into sexual activity before I was sixteen. If not, are you still a virgin? >> ---
What was the name of your first boyfriend? >> Craig. Your first kiss? >> Hm.
Are you still with either of those people from the last 2 questions? >> Like, of fucking course not. Have you ever used your bra to hold things like you would a pocket? >> Yeah. Are you a shop-a-holic? >> No. How many purses do you own? >> Zero. Describe your favorite pair of shoes: >> --- Who knows a secret about you that no one else does? >> --- What is your longest relationship to date? >> The one I’m in. Who ended the last relationship you were in? >> I did. Have you ever gotten back with an ex? >> Yeah. Everyone makes mistakes. Are you bi? >> I assume I would be if I wasn’t ace. Have you ever done something with a friend of the same sex? >> Yeah. Who was your first prom date? >> A 29-year-old police officer from a nearby town. My father set it up. Yes, it was just as sad as it sounds. Have you ever dated someone more than three years older than you? >> Way more. Have you ever dated someone a year younger than you? >> Yeah. Have you ever fallen for a guy friend? >> No. Have you ever had a guy friend you weren’t into, fall for you? >> I don’t think so. Do you cry during romantic movies? >> Not usually. I don’t have the kind of heartstrings that romance flicks are primed to tug upon.
Who was the last person to see you cry? >> The only people that see me cry are Inworlders if I can help it.
Have you ever been used? >> I don’t think so.
Have you ever felt violated? >> Yeah. Do you like when I guy takes you by surprise and kisses you? >> I wouldn’t like it if anyone did that. What do you think of red lipstick? >> I don’t think anything of it, really. It’s just lipstick. Do you ever leave the house without make up? >> I usually leave the house without makeup on.
Do you tan? >> I’m already dark-skinned, boo. What is your natural hair color? >> Dark brown. Is it that right now? >> Yes, with a tiny crop of greys. Have you ever gone for someone despite knowing they were bad for you? >> Well, I kind of just overlooked my instincts, is what I did. Do you prefer guys with dark hair or light hair? >> --- Have you kissed anyone who’s name started with 'C’? ’D’? 'J’? 'K’? 'R’? ’T’? >> I don’t feel like digging back into a history I don’t care about to figure this out. Would you be more likely to date a redneck or a goth? >> A goth, if I were to date. A prep or a skater? >> Unlike “goth” and “redneck”, I don’t know anyone my age who identifies as “prep” or “skater”, so.... An athlete or a musician? >> Musician, probably. I don’t think I’d be able to remain interested in (or interesting to) anyone for whom atheticism was important. When was the last time someone gave you flowers? >> I don’t know. What kind of gift can win you over? >> Win me over to what? Has anyone ever sung to you? >> Yeah. What was the stupidest thing you’ve done while drunk? >> Drank too much and ended up sick for the rest of the night. Are diamonds really a girls best friend? >> I don’t know, ask a girl. Gold or silver? >> Gold. What is your favorite scent? >> I don’t have one. Do you like massages? >> I really don’t. Apparently “no one hates massages” except lmao I do. Have you ever been skinny dipping? >> No. Do you sleep naked? >> No. Is smoking a turn-off? >> Not necessarily. But the thing about smoking is, if you do it enough, it has lingering effects that are turn-offs -- smelling like smoke all the time, yellowed fingertips, a persistent cough, that sort of thing. If you smoke every once in a while, that probably won’t be a problem, so it’s fine. But I’m guessing not many people can say they smoke every once in a while (I’m the only person I’ve known that does).
What is the perfect date? >> --- Is there a certain tv show you get upset if you miss? >> Not really. I can always just... catch up... What is your favorite movie? >> The Fountain. When was the last time you spent the night at someone else’s house? >> Christmas. Was that someone of the same or opposite sex? >> It was Sparrow’s parents... What is one food you always crave? >> I don’t know about always. Baklava, maybe? I have it so rarely that I do end up wanting it often. Are you an exercise freak? >> I am... freaked out by exercise. Ha. What scares you more, spiders or snakes? >> Neither. Do you expect to be married in the next two years? >> I am already married. What would you do if you found out you were pregnant? >> I wouldn’t be pregnant. It’s scientifically impossible for several reasons. Was the last person to call you male or female? >> --- Does it matter if a guy has a sense of humor? >> I mean, I’m not going to hang out with someone completely humourless. Do you wish on shooting stars? >> No. What are your thoughts on guys who wear wifebeaters? >> Literally, that’s just an undershirt. What kind of specific opinion can I possibly have about people who wear undershirts... Who do you vent to when something is bothering you? >> Can Calah.
What is the best way to cool off when you’re mad? >> Distraction. Plenty of distraction. Do you have someone who is protective of you (father, brother, etc.)? >> No. Well, King Crimson would be, but there’s not much he needs to protect me from Inworld, lmao. Would you ever get implants? >> No. Have you ever had a crush on a sibling’s friend? >> No. Have you ever had a crush on a friend’s sibling? >> No. What is the corniest pick-up line someone’s ever used on you? >> I don’t remember. It would have had to be like 10 years ago. Does it mean more to you if a guy uses the word 'beautiful’ about you? >> --- Is your best friend a guy? >> --- Are you more of a 'girly girl’ or a 'tomboy’? >> I’m not either, since I’m not a girl. Is your hair longer than your shoulders? >> It’s not even longer than an inch. Do you prefer showers or baths? >> Showers. Have you ever dated someone with a child? >> Yeah. She was a funny kid, I liked her. One time she dead ass sat in front of the main menu screen of a movie that her father had put on for her and then forgot about, for like an hour, and he was like “omg why didn’t you come get me to press play???” and she was just like *lolshrug*. Kids. Have you ever dated someone shorter than you? >> No. Have you ever dated someone of another race? >> Yes. Do you secretly still love to dress up for Halloween? >> I have never dressed up for Halloween (aside from just wearing a nice outfit, but not like a costume) and I would love to have that experience. Have you kissed anyone today? >> No. Will you kiss anyone tomorrow? >> It’s possible. Are you addicted to texting? >> No. If you and your best friend got arrested, what would it be for? >> ---
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Things That Bother Me About Gossip Girl
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Chuck Bass’ hair in the first season
Jenny Humphrey repeatedly trying to stir up trouble & be a bitch
Serena’s nappy hair. Has she never heard of a hairbrush?!
Nate’s lip
Rufus Humphrey’s singing/song
Serena constantly pushing her lips out and whispering when she talks
Serena and her daddy issues. Mainly her being so quick to pin Rufus as the bad guy.
Little J losing her virginity to Chuck and then pinning him as a bag guy.
Jenny’s disgusting goth makeup.
Eric’s blonde striped hair
Lily running to her ex husband for help instead of just going to ANY OTHER DOCTOR ON THE PLANET
The poor acting during Dorota’s labor
Serena’s disgusting hair. It’s so bad I had to say it twice
Serena repeatedly being handed EVERYTHING. She gets trashed, fucks her best friends boyfriend, leaves a man to overdose and is still offered everything she doesn’t deserve.
Eleanor stealing a teenagers work.
Harriet The Spy (aka Georgina) being a villain. My childhood is ruined
Those alleyway assholes shooting Chuck. This is like The O.C. all over again. My heart can’t handle it.
Speaking of Chuck... Chuck constantly reminding people he’s “Chuck Bass”
These high school teenagers dating adults & nobody being bothered by that. But, as soon as Dan has interest in a teacher then we’re shook?
Elizabeth never coming back to tell Chuck she actually IS his mother
Come to think of it — the whole flip flopping of Chuck’s mom was frustrating
Chuck’s uncle Jack being so willing to hand over the hotel all of a sudden was pretty weird too
Rufus not getting Jenny some serious help
Agnes drugging Jenny!!! That girl needs to get locked away
The way that all of these children talk to their parents. They’re so disrespectful. Which is typical for teenagers. But, these parents just enable the behavior.
The on again off again relationship of Dan & Georgina
Vanessa. enough said.
Dan not INSTANTLY getting a paternity test
Prince Louis. again, enough said.
Blair & Chuck not seeing that they’re always going to come back to each other.
Lily being so easily swooned by anyone who is NOT her husband.
Georgina outing Eric. Soooo fucked up
Never hearing from Jenny & Dan’s mom again after her few appearances.
Chuck inheriting a business at 18. TF?!?!
Rufus’ tattoos
Chuck going from suits & ties — to being shot — to villager WORKING in Paris!!
Serena thinking she can take over as Queen. B may not have always been Queen, but, the title suits her so much better than S.
Juliet’s scheming ass. ughh!
The whole storyline of Georgina, Milo, & Russian murderers.
Eva being waaaaayyyy too good for any of these Upper East Side snobs and not running for the hills after Blair was a complete bitch to her. GIRL— RUNNNN!!!
Dan being so obviously more attracted to Vanessa during his threesome with her & Olivia. HOW DUMB COULD YOU BE?!?!
Dan being so cold about Georgina taking Milo. The way he spoke about Milo during his “Intervention of Emotions” was foul
The Humphrey Loft. It seems not secure AT ALL!! There’s a gap between the two front doors & I just feel like it’s probably the easiest place to break into.
I know I’ve already mentioned Serena’s hair but, I don’t understand how she can go to all of these elite events with these unkept hairstyles. In Season 4 Episode 4, the one time she straightened and brushed her hair, she slapped on some disgusting braid on the front of her head.
I know I’ve also already mentioned Vanessa but, can we talk about how much older she looks than everybody else her age?!
Blair wearing shorts to an NYU party. I almost died.
Blair’s knitted beret she wore in Paris. Soooo not “Blair Waldorf”.
Hilary Duff’s acting. It’s just not good. I love Hilary but, her acting hasn’t progressed since Lizzie Mcguire.
WHAT KIND OF PRISON IS BEN IN THAT HE HAS ACCESS TO LITERALLY EVERYTHING!! Is it even prison at this point?! I know people are able to sneak things but CMON!!!!
Gossip Girl getting sloppy with the posts
Going seasons and seasons and seasons of not a single person ever attempting to find out who Gossip Girl even is. That’d be the first thing I did if somebody was posting about me. Is this not borderline stalking?!
Rufus’ tan.
Literally EVERYTIME Jenny returned back to the show. Her character was one of the worst ones.
There’s a scene in Season 4 Episode 11, where you see a framed picture of Lily WEARING THE SAME EXACT THING SHES WEARING IN THE SCENE! The lack of creativity was weak with this one.
Blair gets a little cheesy towards the end of season 4
Serena looooves to play the blame game. Never taking FULL responsibility for anything. Always looking for someone to take the heat off her
Blair repeatedly getting into physical altercations with people at events. For a woman who seems to pride herself in how much better she is than everyone else she tends to act very classless at social gatherings.
Charlie/Ivy inheriting ANYTHING from Cece
There ever being a storyline of Blair being pregnant only for us to know that she wasn’t meant to be with Louis. Meaning that the baby storyline would have to end. I wish they wouldn’t have had it at all. It was weak the whole way through.
Blair arriving at the airport in her Vera Wang gown and tiara not expecting to get attention from it all.
People instantly knowing who that she’s the Princess of Monaco. Not to sound ignorant or anything but, where tf is Monaco?!
Bart Bass coming back from the grave. WTF?! Not believable.
Dan growing his hair out to where he looked like he was wearing a wig he found in a back alley dumpster
Dorota’s acting. Toward the end of the show they gave her character more lines and she appeared in more and more scenes. But, her acting/her lines were incredibly cheesy.
Serena & Dan getting married in a living room with everybody just chillin on couches. I’m all for small. I’m all for simplicity. But, this was too redneck.
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Pattinson's High Life. Actor on challenges and rewards of Claire Denis' space drama 
by Amber Wilkinson (Eye for Film UK)
Robert Pattinson was in San Sebastian last week to attend screenings of Claire Denis' latest film High Life, alongside co-stars Juliette Binoche and Mia Goth. The film tells the story of man who finds himself isolated in deep space with only his baby daughter for company, flashing back to consider what happened on this ship full of ex-convicts, including the feisty Boyse (Goth), overseen by a doctor (Binoche) obsessed with inseminating the female members of the crew and with extracting semen from Pattinson's abstemious Monte.
Catching up with Pattinson in a suite at the city's exclusive Marie Cristina Hotel, I ask him about how challenging building a relationship with the baby (Scarlett Lindsey) was, given that the first act of the film is just the two of them alone in space. It turns out it was just as difficult as you might imagine.
"I always thought the character was supposed to be a lot weirder than it ended up becoming," he says. "We'd already cast these identical twins for the babies. I met them the night before and there were two things. They were constantly with their mum and twins. You might have thought identical twins would be good because if one's not working you get another in to do the same thing. But no one figured out that if you split up twins who are constantly with each other, they go crazy.
"The night before, I was trying to bond with these kids for two-and-a-half hours and the only way I could make them even slightly happy was to pretend to be a monster. They weren't even happy, they would just stop crying for one second and scream instead. I was like, 'This is not going to work, unless you want to have an entire movie with a baby that's looking absolutely terrified.' So we cast Scarlett, who's one of my best friend's kids like the night before we started shooting and, so, I didn't want to be horrible to her because she's my friend's kid."
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He says he had met the tot previously, when she was very young, adding, "Well, she didn't cry",  but it was still a full-on job and not just when it came to acting.
"With this, it was kind of in the morning when she first left her parents she kind of cried for about 30 minutes but then she was fine. But if I gave her back to her parents then there would be the same process again. So it ended up being that I would babysit her the entire day - and it's not even normal babysitting because she could never cry ever, so I was with her for hours, so if there was the slightest hesitation or the tiniest bit of a tear coming on, I was like [Pattinson makes playful baby noises]. It was absolutely exhausting but it definitely ends up adding to their relationship. I really didn't want her to be upset, whereas in the script my character was much more indifferent."
The British actor says that he "prioritised" the film, which was in development for five years. "I was initially going to do The Lost City Of Z with James Gray and they almost overlapped and that shows because it was ages ago when I did that," he adds.
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"There are certain directors who I would kind of cancel everything else for. James Gray was kind of one of them too. I don't know how ready I was but I just knew that I wanted to do it."
Pattinson, whose career has taken a much more adventurous trajectory since he found fame as vampire Edward Cullen in the Twilight series, says: "I couldn't really have had a more perfect career. To have that crazy explosion which was great fun. I really liked making all the Twilight movies which were great fun. Then to basically transition as soon as it ended to doing exactly what I wanted to do - I couldn't have asked for more."
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The 32-year-old reveals that his experience of working with David Cronenberg on Cosmopolis "changed everything about how I go after different filmmakers".
"He randomly came to me," he says. "I'd never met him. I found the initial email exchange with my agents the other day and I was saying, 'I don't think I should do it, I'm going to mess it up.' I was trying to get out of it. I don't remember that at all, and I got really convinced into doing it.
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"But with Clare, I said I wanted to work with her years before I even met her and it took ages for a meeting to happen and years after that for the movie to happen."
The list of directors he's also like to work with includes Catherine Breillat, Jean-Luc Godard, Jacques Audiard and Leos Carax. Speaking about the way his attitude changed towards the shaping of his career after working with Cronenberg, he adds: "I thought I had to have more control before".
"I would make decisions where I was thinking I had a more direct relationship with the audience rather than the directors. So I did [fiml]Bel Ami[/film]. It was the only time I really thought I'd try to subvert the audience's expectations. Because, at the time I had Twilight which has a very female audience so I thought it would be kind of funny to play a part that was specifically screwing over women and stealing their money. I was thinking I shouldn't rely on myself, I should work with people who are cleverer than me. After working with Cronenberg, I didn't know how to do the movie at all. I was avoiding rbrn talking to him. When I finally talked to him, I said, 'I'm sorry, I've been nervous to talk to you because I don't really know what the movie's about about' and he said, 'Yeah, me neither'. But he said, 'It's kind of juicy, right?' It's a cool thing. As soon as I realised that, whenever I watched a movie that had a big impact on me, I'd immediately go after the person and I still do that now."
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Speaking about working with Brady Corbet on Childhood Of A Leader, he adds: "I'm always a little bit wary of working with first-time directors because I don't know how to judge someone at all, I'm really bad. Every director is good in a meeting. But with Brady I'd just know him for such a long time - since I was 14 - and anyone could tell you that he was a savant. I like people who really feel that there's a particular imprint that they put on a movie. With Cronenburg and Clare it just feels like a very specific world they've built - it doesn't just feel like they've recorded some stuff happening and just stuck it together, it feels like a world that's existing and it's contained in the movie."
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As for the less mainstream nature of his more recent films, he says: "I don't feel like I'm 'properly' arthouse - these are big names. I don't feel like I'm trying to be super-obscure.
"I think most super-commercial movies, generally the directors have only done TV commercials before or they are random people. With mainstream movies, I feel like I've seen them all before. The amount of scripts you get that are quite formulaic and I don't know what the point is."
With High Life, he says: "I had no idea what to expect. I had no expectations in a really good way. If you see a director who has made Beau Travail - I could look at that and feel so much from that movie without really knowing what it is saying at all. But I just know it's great. So I just very much trusted in whatever Claire wanted to do with it. The first time I saw it, I definitely found it funnier than I expected. Nobody is finding it funny but the first two times I watched it I was crying laughing."
And, like many before him who have worked with the French director, he is full of praise for her.
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"She's just a unique person," he says "I'd met up with her tons of times over the years before we started doing it. I just loved hanging out with her, she can be so kind of warm but at the same time, just so weird. She'll pick subjects out of nowhere and I've never met anyone like her. On set, she's just very funny. No one quite knew what the story was about but there was so much faith in her. It was an interesting work environment where no one's trying to sabotage it. Normally, if a director couldn't fully explain exactly how they want things to be done, a lot of the time actors will start going, 'You don't know what you're doing, this is going to be shit.' and then they start protecting themselves and their performance. There wasn't a single day, no matter how strange the subject matter got, it seemed that everyone was very supportive of the movie. That's because of Claire, she inspires that a lot. She's a very sweet person."
He says he wishes that the directors he works with had more of an audience but is self-deprecating when I suggest that he brings fans along with him to his films.
"Like 10 people," he says "I think the majority of people who would go and see this are people who like Claire, adding, "I hope that every movie I do that it starts to create a sort of expectation that I only do stuff that's trying to be interesting."
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I Used To Walk To School.
One time a bomb went off four houses down from me. They didn’t even block off the street. He survived the blast from where he was building them in his basement and they hauled him to jail. I was out front walking and I grabbed a girl walking to school in front of me and we crouched behind a car in a driveway until we were sure it wasn’t gunshots and we thought we were safe to keep walking.
One time I had huge rocks thrown at my friend and I by a bully. One almost knocked me out. We made it home safely by sheer speed.
One time this kid we knew was riding around us on his bike with his dad’s taser. He tased my buddy, and his ear buds fried right out of his ears when he fell to the ground. That image is burned into my brain forever. The kid was shocked at the power of it. He tased himself in the ass and shocked himself right off his bike. I had to help them both recover. He didn’t know the power of it. He didn’t mean to hurt anyone. That same kid was only fourteen and high as shit when he stole that truck, was chased by all of the police in Cincinnati, and ran it into a phone pole to his death.
Men yelled sexual things at me a lot of the time.
One time we stopped by the creek that was frozen over and we spent all afternoon running and sliding on the thick ice and snow and pretending like we were skating. I’ll always remember that moment. It was beautiful physically and relationally. The snow was fresh and covering the ice and the trees with this beautiful dusting. I was grounded for getting home late.
One time we all ran through everyone’s sprinklers when it was hot in the spring. Whoever got the most wet on the way home won. I’ve never been so wet and happy in my whole life.
One time my buddy opened up and told me about how he grew up in hotel bathrooms listening to his mom sell her body to men while he colored on the floor.
Most of the time we skateboarded around and were called criminals by adults safely in their cars.
We had a lot of snowball fights while we slipped and slid to school in the winter.
One time I was grounded because my stupid friends stopped to smoke weed in my backyard when I wasn’t home.
One time I saw a squirrel without a tail run up a tree and it looked just like a rabbit. I freaked out. My buddy assured me it had been living in his yard for years.
One time we passed a bunch of little kids with no parents playing with a hose in the street, I thought it was funny, they had made a puddle and were rolling around in it in the road, but the reality was that was the closest they had ever been to a pool. I still have shitty flip phone photos.
I remember steering clear of the streets and apartments and alleys where people were shot and killed recently. You kind of just knew what routes to take to stay safe.
One time I kept walking with my friend to go buy drugs for her and we were fifteen at some thirty year old dude’s house and he had a gun and locked the door and I told her I wanted to go home but she told me to wait and I did and she got her drugs and we ended up being okay but I never wanted to go there again.
One time we all stopped at the Burger King on the way home and dyed his hair pink just for the hell of it in the bathroom there because they didn’t care.
My mom was never around so most days I just kept walking past our house, hanging at the plaza with older kids I shouldn’t be hanging with, but they were the only ones that accepted and loved me, and with no where to go we always wandered and ended up doing bad shit, when I was older smoking at the drug park and then we moved from the drug park to the drug dealer’s house and then they went to kill that guy that one time and I punched all the walls in the bathroom until I was bleeding and some girls that I hated picked me up because afterwards I was so guilt ridden that they found me on my porch lying on my side just hyperventilating, a fucking mess realizing the violent consequences attached to illegal drug dealing. How many people died so you could get high?
One time he told me about how she had raped him when he was passed out and that was how he lost his virginity.
One time I paid $5 for some weed in a crumpled piece of notebook paper on the corner from the sister of my friends who were busted by the SWAT team and in jail for drug dealing and unlicensed weapons.
One time my buddy showed me his gun in his backpack, but he hadn’t bought any bullets for it. He was still expelled for drugs by the age of 14. She was expelled for prostituting on the street during lunch period, and we’d been best friends for a long time but her parents took her away for a while after all of that and I lost her.
One time someone yelled insults to the goth girl that lived across the street from me, calling her gay as well, and she responded with “Only on Tuesdays!” and I learned that you couldn’t be hurt if you didn’t care.
I had my first kiss with a boy that liked me on one of those walks home.
I told my boyfriend and still best friend that I was gay because I didn’t like kissing him on one of those walks home. He told me he knew. Almost ten years later we’re just as close as ever. He is my brother and I am his sister in all but blood.
I rarely walked or skateboarded home alone.
One time I opened up my shitty garage with the giant cave crickets that scared me, and I held the door open with a piece of wood because it was really old and the spring had broken, and we plugged our guitars in to an extension cord I ran from the house to the garage to keep the sun off of our amps, and everyone hung out in my driveway because I technically wasn’t allowed to have anyone over when my mom wasn’t home. She never said anything about the driveway or open garage, so kids came from all around just to hang out and jam in our driveway.
One time I walked home to a chalk mural on my driveway from my ex boyfriend and best friend asking me to prom because we both had no one to go with and my school would not let you go with someone of the same sex anyway.
I tried to feed friends that were hungry after school by bringing out pieces of toast and glasses of juice to the sidewalk because we didn’t have much else.
When I was really young I totally peed myself on my front porch because the lock box was stuck and I had to go the whole walk home and couldn’t hold it and be patient with the code at the same time.
One time when I was a kid was that crazy every 17 year cicada season everyone has heard about. We used to play with them. I’m not sure the correlation, but we seemed to pass an awful lot of dead birds, and we weren’t afraid of them.
One time we passed some younger kids swinging a dead squirrel by the tail that they’d shot down.
One time I helped my neighbor pick up her drunk mother passed out on the back lawn when she called for my help as I walked by and helped her carry her inside.
One time I broke up a dog fight in my front yard.
One time I found a stray dog and I named him Taco and I played with him in my yard for two hours until his owner drove past and picked him up. I always wanted a dog.
One time my buddy wouldn’t stop hitting himself, he even started beating his head on a metal pole, and I ran up behind him and grabbed him and hugged him and wrestled him to the ground until he started crying and held me back because that was what he needed, and I walked home with my arms around him.
We always hugged each other goodbye at our houses because you just never knew if you’d never see someone again.
I was never afraid. Never. I was a kid. It just was, and I grew up, and I learned, but I did not fear because I had never learned to. I carry a lot of that with me now, and for most of it I am thankful. It’s why I run out in the street and help strangers, it’s why I think clearly in stressful situations, it’s why I grabbed that boy moshing too hard and hurting people at that show recently and I hugged him, a complete stranger, and he cried and hugged me back and calmed down because I had known from before that it was all he needed. Sometimes the streets feel cold and I wish people would spread love more like we did. Sometimes I don’t believe they can unless they come from where we did. They see it as a bad place, but I see it as instrumental to everything I like about myself and how I operate, but it’s also the cause of a lot of my problems and PTSD. I guess it’s a give and take.
Most of those kids just needed an influence. Most of those kids just needed direction. Most of them didn’t know any better. We never knew any different. Let your kids walk home. Let them interact and learn. Most of them will come out okay. But also teach them what is right and what is wrong. Don’t let them learn everything they know from strangers. I was lucky with my judgement, but most were not. You can’t abandon your kids and expect them to be okay.
God knows I’ll never be okay.
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On Point With: DJ Sammy Jo
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A veteran NYC DJ who’s stellar career began during the Great Nightlife Shift of the late 90s, this legend remains an integral beatmaster on the dancefloors of today. Thotyssey gets all the glamorous, glittery details from DJ Sammy Jo!
Thotyssey: Thanks for chatting with us, Sammy! You DJ’ed at the legendary Night of 1000 Stevies in Irving Plaza the other night... how did it go? DJ Sammy Jo: It was fantastic. It’s my fave party of the year. Just tons and tons of good energy always.
Excellent! Oh, and of course, happy birthday! How are you celebrating today / tonight / in the near future?
A quiet dinner, and then I’m working at Club Cumming “hosting”. I’m saving a big blowout for when they get their new license approved. [CC co-owner] Darren Dryden and I have the same birthday, and since we DJ together on Saturday nights normally, we decided to wait til we could really do it up.
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I was gonna ask you about all that business with the zoning and licensing snafu later, but we might as well get into it now. How do you feel about this whole mess--where because of some discovered filing error, Club Cumming has had to cease all live music and dance parties? How is everybody who works and performs there handling this weird state of limbo? 
I have to say everyone--employees and patrons--has been amazingly supportive. In nightlife, you expect to people to jump ship the minute something like this happens. But we’ve had some record nights on Saturdays, and the hardcore Monday crew is still coming. It’s such a great sign that it has nothing to do with hype--that it’s really just a place where people genuinely want to hang out.
Is there hope for the future? Things seem more complicated then we all originally thought.
Cross fingers, it will be resolved in a week or two.
Wonderful, here's hoping! 
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You've had a stunning career, and I suppose you've seen a fair share of highs and lows in this challenging industry. Which reminds me: isn't it weird to see our ex-mayor Giuliani--the killer of nightlife in the 90s--just behaving like a garbage lunatic, sabotaging his last good friend President Trump on national TV?
There’s something slightly satisfying watching his complete meltdown and--most likely--ostracization from the shittiest administration in American history. I mean, if you get fired from the Trump administration because you’re too much of a loose cannon, then you have to be a fucking moron. Like I always say, everything comes out in the wash. It’s nice to see the whole nation catching up to what we already knew.
It does seem impossibly odd that these states who hate New York types embrace Trump and Giuliani, two of the most extreme cases of obnoxious New York personalities. Yeah. I don’t know if it’s a testament to how stupid those people are, or what accomplished grifters Trump and Judy are!
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Ha! Okay, so Sammy Jo! Where are you from?
Two places, sorta. My first eight years were in northern Florida, and the rest were spent in an NYC suburb. I’m so thankful my family moved back down to Florida to retire.
Florida is good for that! Were you always musical?
Yeah, pretty much. When I was 5, I used to set up a stand at the end of our driveway and try to sell my Winnie the Pooh and Lambchop records. Seriously. Most kids had lemonade stands. I had a record store.
Aw, that's cute! By the way, are you really named Sammy, or is that a nod to Heather Locklear in Dynasty? Dynasty. My real name is David, but only my parents call me that.
Werk! Aside from Lambchop, who were some of your favorite artists and genres growing up?
Disco and AM radio rock were really important to me in my early years, but then I dove right in to new wave and goth in the 80’s. Erasure, The Cure, Siouxsie, New Order, The Cult, Nitzer Ebb, Cocteau Twins. And then later on I was very into British bands like Saint Etienne and Pulp.
That's all the soundtrack of my life!
Haha! I feel very fortunate to have grown up with those bands just emerging. 
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How did you start DJing? 
I was working at the nightclub Mother in the late 90’s One night, my boss and mentor, Johnny Dynell, was playing on some off-night, and he had to take care of something in the office. So he said “here, just play my records ‘til I get back.” When he came back, he said he knew I had “it.” He couldn't say what it was, but he knew from the stuff I chose and how I lined up the tracks that there was a DJ in me just itching to get out. Then I started DJing at bars and restaurants around the East Village, and it kind of grew and grew from there.
I guess you could say it was kind of accidental, but I was always obsessed with music and making mixed tapes for friends. I would also read album sleeves and study who did what on my favorite records.
That's the best education!
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What's something about the partygoers and partythrowers, the club kids, the drag queens etc. from that period that was really unique to that time... that maybe you don't see so much today?
I never went to the big gay clubs back then. I was going to Jackie 60, Squeezebox and Cake. I preferred parties with a little dirt on them. What I miss now is a certain intellectual hedonism from that time. The weekly themes at Jackie were so intricate and referential--and even though a lot of them went way over my head, I always felt part of something bigger happening. Like, we were all there making art, even if we were just drinking and dancing and laughing at the shows they put on. 
And Squeezebox was so OUT of the box for drag, making queens sing live instead of lip syncing. and Miss Guy playing the best rock and roll for faggots. I had no idea what was happening at Sound Factory or Palladium, and I didn’t care. I had found my home.
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Sounds like Heaven! You’ve also been a touring DJ for the Scissor Sisters. How did that come about?
[Scissors’ frontman] Jake lived two buildings away from me on East 12th St, but we met when he was dancing while I was DJing at Click +Drag, a cyberfetish party. We got along like a house on fire... and this was the beginning of Scissor Sisters, so I would book them at parties where I DJed. Then they disappeared for a bit to go and work the UK scene. 
One morning, I was laying in bed with my then-partner Vivian Bond, and at some ungodly hour the answering machine clicked on (this was 2004, mind you), and it was Jake saying “things are going really well here in the UK, and we’re about to start a proper tour... and we wanna know if you will be our opening DJ?” From then on, they were stuck with me! 
It was kind of a perfect match, because I like playing all kinds of music--and their references were so all-over-the-map that I could play whatever I wanted. 
They've had a great career, and Jake Shears is an electrifying frontman. So I think it's ironic that their biggest American hit had Ana Matronic as the lead vocalist!
I know, it is bizarre that of all their songs, the gayest one was the big American hit. I think a lot of people don’t understand the magnitude of what SS accomplished. There never was--and there hasn't been--a fully Out and Proud, successful American pop / rock band like them. We had Michael Stipe barely out of the closet in the 80’s. Then what? Adam Lambert, like 4 minutes ago. It was really special what SS were able to accomplish, and on their own terms. I think people wanted to dismiss them as ironic, but they actually are one of the most genuine pop bands.
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You just mentioned your ex-partner Justin Vivian Bond, who of course has become this legendary cult cabaret performer and activist over time. What do you think of Mx. Bond’s evolution as an artist and a person over the years?
It’s been so amazing seeing V change and grow, and become so happy in her own skin. V is proof that we are constantly evolving--not just as a society, but personally. She’ll always be the love of my life....even when she’s a pain in my ass.
Incredible! It seems like these days, DJs in the gay bars are kind of expected to stick to Top 40. Do you feel this limitation on your nights, or do venues only get you on board when they want something different than that?
I feel lucky right now that I get to DJ at places that don’t dictate what I should play. I’m at The Cock, Club Cumming and House of Yes. They could not be more different from each other, but they all just want me to do my thing. So it’s great to have that kind of freedom, and none of them want me to play current pop music.
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You've been DJing the Cock Friday night party King-Size alongside Nashom, Ernie Cote and Chris Flynn for a minute now. Are you distracted by all the sexy skankiness that can go down there?
I love it! I’m never one to participate in that kind of stuff, but I like being near it. I like the energy of people who feel free enough to carry on like that in public.
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And when can we next find you at Brooklyn’s House of Yes?
Eric Schmalenberger and Steven Klavier do a monthly gay Sunday party called Bad Behavior. The next one is May 13th. It’s really fun!
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And before that: on Thursday, May 10th at the Town Hall, you'll be part of an all-star tribute to the late nightlife legend Flawless Sabrina. That should be a moving night. How do you remember Sabrina?
Yes, that’s gonna be great! I first got to know her when she would come to Cheez Whiz, a night I did with Sweetie (RIP!). She would be there ‘til the latest hour, and get onstage and just tell stories about “back in the day.” It was always fascinating and hilarious. She was so supportive of the younger generation, even though she had every right to be snarky and jaded. A true queen, she was.
She'll be greatly missed! 
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Anything else?
I’m DJing outside at Times Square on the 13th for the NY X Design Expo 6-8pm. It’s fab! I just play a bunch of disco outside, and strangers all start dancing together. If we’re living in a bubble here, then I hope it never pops! Amazing! Okay, last question that I like to ask DJs, especially of your caliber: what's the best advice you can give to a new DJ coming up today?
Always be aware of who you’re playing for. There’s nothing more annoying than seeing a DJ wanking to themselves in the booth. Your job is to try to make everyone in the room have the best night of their lives... without dying. Words of wisdom to spin by! Thanks, Sammy Jo!
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DJ Sammy Jo spins weekly Fridays at the Cock (10pm) and monthly Sundays for “Bad Behavior” at the House of Yes (10pm). He hosts--and hopefully soon will once again DJ--“Haus of Cumming” Saturdays at Club Cumming (10pm) Check Thotyssey’s calendar for other scheduled appearances, and follow Sammy on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Soundcloud.
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fardell24b · 3 years
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First Day of Summer - Daria’s Day Part 2
Daria and Jane got off the bus near the intersection between Dega Street and Main Street.
 “Where would you like to start? Go along Dega Street, or along Main?” Jane asked.
 “I doubt there would be anywhere I would want to work at along Dega,” Daria said. ‘I’m not going to be a barmaid at the Zon!’
 “There is that magazine that Monique works at.”
 ‘No way.’ “Isn’t she Trent’s ex-girlfriend?”
 “So?”
 “Wouldn’t that be, awkward?”
 “Not that awkward! At least give it a shot!”
 “Ok. But that is all we are doing on Dega!”
 “Deal!”
 ‘I hope so,’ Daria thought as they started going along that street. She looked up the street, trying to see anything that would be of interest.
Daria looked at the Dega L’dale Gothic Magazine building as she and Jane approached it. It was a well-kept building that dated from the early 1930’s and still had much of its Art Deco looks. “You called ahead while we were at the Mall, didn’t you?” she asked.
 “You know me too well.”
 Daria sighed.
  “So you would like a job for the summer, Daria?” Monique asked when Daria had sat down in her sub-editor’s office.
 “Not by choice. But a job here would be at least related to what I will be studying in College,” Daria said.
 “So, what are you studying in College, and where?”
 “Double Major of English and History at Raft.”
 “Raft has a very good reputation. You have done well, Daria, I barely got into Lawndale State.”
 “Oh.”
 “Toughest four years of my life, but it was worth it!”
 “No doubt,” Daria said. ‘I imagine that her music paid for all her expenses whilst she was in college,’ she thought.
 “That’s how I got the job I have now. The Harpies were going nowhere. We still play at the Zon occasionally though.”
 “Um, yeah,” Daria said, afraid that she would mention Mystik Spiral and set Monique off by accident.
 “Sorry, went off track there,” Monique apologised. “There are a few positions available. Many of them are a good compliment for your College choices.”
 “You think so?” Daria asked.
 “Certainly for English,” Monique said.
 “True,” Daria admitted.
 Monique handed Daria several application forms. “Have a look at the positions, and you can return them, filled in, in the morning,” she said.
 “Thank you for your time, Monique,” Daria said after giving each form a brief look over. All of them were of some interest.
 “You’re welcome.”
 “I better get going, before Jane organises another interview behind my back,” Daria said as she opened the door.
 Monique quietly laughed. “That’s Jane for you,” she said.
 Daria flashed a Mona Lisa smile before leaving the room. ‘Although I’m not sure where she would be organising such an interview.’
 “Where are you going next?”
 “Main Street.”
  Daria and Jane waved goodbye to Monique as they left the building. “See, that was constructive,” Jane said.
 “Yes, I have five application forms from one company, on top of what I have from the Mall,” Daria said, as they walked back towards Main Street.
 “Next, you can apply for a job at Dan’s Stationers,” Jane suggested.
 “Isn’t that the place where you met Nathan?”
 “Oh, yeah.”
 “I will look there. But if we run into Nathan...”
 “I don’t want to run into him anyway!”
 ‘Good!’ She didn’t want to think about what would happen if Jane did run into Nathan. Even after six months it was a sore spot.
  Daria and Jane exited Dan’s Stationers without seeing either Nathan or Tom. (Not that they expected to see the latter, Daria just remembered that Tom was with them when Jane had met Nathan...)
 Dan’s Stationers hadn’t had any positions available, nor did the next few stores they looked at.
  Fifty minutes later, Jane and Daria had lunch at the Pizza King. “So on top of the Mall, and the Gothic Magazine, what do we have now?” Jane asked.
 Daria placed the application forms next to her Pizza. She put the Mall and Gothic Magazine forms aside.
 “Viv’s Videos,” she said.
 “The clerk was surprised when you asked for the application form.”
 “That put it lightly,” Daria said.
 Jane laughed.
 Daria removed the Viv’s Videos form and placed it on the other forms. “Lawndale Second Hand Bookstore.”
 “Go for it,” Jane said encouragingly.
 Daria smirked and continued to the next form. However, they were interrupted by Brittany Taylor...
 “Hi, Daria. Hi, Jane!”
 “Hi Brittany,” Daria said, annoyed at the former head cheerleader.
 “What are you up to?” Brittany asked.
 “Looking for summer jobs. At least Daria is,” Jane said.
 “Oo-oh,” Brittany said.
 “What are you doing?” Daria asked.
 “Nothing, wandering around Lawndale.”
 “You miss Kevin, don’t you?” Jane asked.
 Brittany sat down next to Jane and started crying. “We have been going out since middle school!” she said.
 Daria winced at Brittany’s higher-than-usual squeaking. Awkwardly she tried to reassure her. “There, there,” she said.
 “I knew his grades were low, but not that low!”
 “Don’t worry, Brittany. You’ll find someone in college,” Jane said.
 “You think so?” Brittany said.
 “Of course,” Daria said.
 Brittany thought for a moment. “Yes, I will, but I still miss Kevie!”
 “Of course you will miss him, but you can’t spend the rest of your life pining after him,” Jane said.
 ‘I’m not going to pine after Tom. I know that,’ Daria thought.
 Brittany twirled her hair in thought. “You’re right,” she said.
 They sat in silence for a few moments. “So, what jobs are you looking for?” Brittany asked.
 “Something that will not send me insane,” Daria said.
 “A place that is not like that nut place,” Jane said.
 “Oo-oh,” Brittany said.
 “Something which will prepare me for college,” Daria said.
 “You got into Raft, right?” Brittany asked.
 “Yes,” Daria said, wondering what Brittany was asking now.
 “Great Prairie State doesn’t have as good a reputation,” Brittany said.
 “Was that your only choice?” Jane asked.
 “No, I had Lawndale State as a safety, but Raft was my first choice!”
 “Oh!” Daria said. ‘I don’t know how I would have reacted to Brittany going to Raft,’ she thought.
 “At least you are going to college in the Fall. I have to wait until next semester,” Jane said.
 Brittany gave Jane a confused look.
 “Late entry. I initially didn’t want to go,” Jane said.
 “Oh, So where...”
“BFAC. Boston Fine Arts College.”
 “Is that good?” Brittany asked.
 “One of the best in the New England States,” Jane said.
  After they left the Pizza King (after Brittany left), Jane and Daria made their way to the town library.
 Daria walked up to the main desk. “Are there any job vacancies for former High School students during their summer prior to College?” she asked.
 The librarian looked surprised. “Wait a moment,” she said. She went and checked a nearby computer.
 She soon came back.
“Actually, there are two positions for assistant librarian and a position for an archivist’s assistant,” the librarian said.
 “I would like a form for both positions,” Daria said.
 The librarian winked at Daria.“I knew that you would want both,” she said. She went to get the forms.
  Daria and Jane sat at a table between the Fiction and Non-Fiction sections of the library to wait for Cindy and Kristen. Daria looked over the library application forms prior to grabbing a copy of Isaac Asimov’s Nightfall whilstJane read a book on the life of Leonardo da Vinci and how it influenced his paintings.
  30 minutes later, Daria heard Cindy say “Here they are.” She looked and saw Cindy and a girl matching Cindy’s description of Kristen.
 “Hi,” she said.
 “Hi, Daria, Jane,” Kristen said, uncertainly.
 “Hi,” Jane said.
 ‘I guess that my reputation precedes me,’ Daria thought. She remembered meeting Andrea at Payday over a year before.
 “Andrea?”
 “Well, you found me. Now you can make fun of the pathetic Goth chick whose parents make her work at a crappy job in a stupid warehouse store. Go on, cut me up like you do everyone else.”
 “I just want a shoe lace.”
 “Oh, shoe laces. Aisle 197b.”
 “Thanks. Um, we never saw you.”
  Daria came out of her remembrance. “Hi, Kristen,” she said, with slight warmth.
 “I must thank you for last night, Daria. Cindy has been worrying that she won’t know anyone when she starts at Raft,” Kristen said.
 “Really?” Jane asked.
 “Yes,” Cindy said.
 “OK,” Daria said.
 “So your sister isn’t going to Raft?” Jane asked.
 “No, Kelly’s truancy means that she barely passed senior year, and so she is going to Lawndale Community College,” Kristen said, with annoyance.
 “I hardly know Kelly anyway,” Cindy said.
 “I guess so,” Jane said.
 ‘Of course,’ Daria thought.
 “I am happy to know that I will know somebody when I go to Boston this fall,” Cindy said.
 Daria smiled her Mona Lisa smile “And I won’t have to wait until spring to have someone I know close by.” She shot an apologetic look at Jane.
 Jane shrugged.
 “Your reputation precedes you, Daria. I expected someone more, brusque,” Kristen said.
 “Um, yeah, I guess I have softened up over the past year,” Daria said.
 “A certain boy has had an influence, I guess,” Jane said with a smirk.
 “More like I have matured,” Daria said with her usual snarkiness.
 Cindy and Kristen exchanged a look. “That’s the Daria I’ve heard of,” Kristen said.
 Cindy nodded before saying. “A boyfriend?”
 “We have broken up,” Daria said, with a slight indication of sadness.
 “Sorry,” Cindy said.
 “No problem., I was the one who broke it off,” Daria said.
 “Oh,” Cindy said.
 “They were going in completely different directions,” Jane said.
 Daria glared at Jane.
 “So he wasn’t going to Raft, or any other Boston college. That wouldn’t have been the end of the world,” Cindy said. She noticed Daria’s look. “Or would it have been?”
 “No, he’s going to Bromwell,” Daria said, pronouncing the school’s name in a posh tone.
 “Bromwell! You mean he was a Fielding boy?” Kristen asked.
 Daria nodded.
 “And not just any ‘Fielding boy,’” Jane said.
 “Jane!” Daria warned.
 “Right, too much information, too fast,” Jane murmered.
 “I’m not one for gossip anyway,” Kristen said.
 “I guess I will found out in Boston,” Cindy said.
 “Maybe, or maybe sometime this summer,” Daria said.
 “Sure,” Cindy said.
 ‘I wonder how she would react,’ Daria wondered.
  After waving goodbye to Cindy and Kristen as they walked away from the library, Daria looked at the clock on above the check in desk. “4:20. Jane, we need to hurry if we are to get to the rest of Lawndale before close of business.”
 “Right after you, Amiga,” Jane said as she came out of the library. She took out a copy of the map of Lawndale. “Ok, we have done the Lawndale Mall, Dega Street, Main Street and the Library.”
 Daria looked at the map. “That leaves Cranberry Commons, the various stores on First, through to Fourth Streets and the various neighbourhood stores scattered around town, we wouldn’t be able to get to all of them.”
 “Well, Cranberry Commons is only a couple of blocks away...” Jane said.
 “Let’s go,” Daria said.
 “It should be quick,” Jane said.
 ‘It should be,.’
  Of course, it wasn’t that easy. They had to cross Burnstein Road, one of the main routes through town that lead towards the crazy intersection that the locals called Seven Corners. As such they lost about 10 minutes waiting for a gap in traffic.
“This is crazy,” Jane said after five minutes.
 “And somehow the city council doesn’t see a need for a zebra crossing.” Daria said.
 “That’s one thing you can do this summer,” Jane suggested.
 Daria grumbled.
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Survey #78
“why are the children all marching into the desert to die?”
list your three favorite scents. lilac, uhhh and then cinnamon and coffee, maybe? how do you ground yourself or recharge? sleep, go online... comfort food? my #1 is definitely ice cream have you ever been on a laptop inside a vehicle? no while on the road, do you play any road games? not anymore are you scared of semi-trucks? especially when you’re driving next to one? AHHHH YES if you have any pets, do you talk to them in a baby voice?  hell yeah! do you like screamo music? i do not. i want to be able to understand the words. like, they can even be in different languages, i don't care, i just want to understand clear words. what is the relationship between you and the person you last kissed? much to my dismay, there isn't one. if you could change your name what would you change it to? zoey, probably. have you ever tried weed?  no, and i have no desire to. how much effort did you put into your last relationship? way, way, way too much. are you a patient person? NOPE. do you have impulse control? DOUBLE NOPE can you use chopsticks? my tremors would never allow it. do you like the smell of gasoline? NO NO NO NO NONONONONO did you ever live in a house with more than one story? nope what’s your favorite fast food place? bojangle's what's your favorite alcoholic drink? i haven't tried many, but the best thing i've had thus far was a watermelon margarita thing. have you ever given yourself a tattoo? no, and i wouldn't. i'm very serious about the professionalism of my tats. do you ever buy your pet(s) birthday or christmas presents? sure do! can you lick your nose?  nope. can you lick your elbow?  nope. would you rather watch a movie in theater or at home?  defs in theaters. do you still own any vhs tapes? do you ever watch them?  no, mom got rid of them all. what hobby have you always wanted to pick up?  hmmm. crafts. have you ever rolled off your bed in your sleep?  no. have you ever had a penpal?  nope. do you put your shirt on or your pants on first?  pants are you afraid of spiders?  only if they are venomous or have extremely long legs in comparison to their bodies. have you ever been stung by a bee?  i haven't. do you enjoy board games?  no. what do you like on your burgers? (cheese, ketchup, mustard..)  cheese, ketchup, mustard, onion pieces, pickles how much water do you drink each day?  none. do you enjoy mario games? not particularly, but with friends, sure. has the last person you kissed met your father? he has. what’s your favorite breed of dog? akita inus, chow chows, beagles... do you swear in front of your parents?  i'm totally open around my dad, but i usually don't say "fuck" around mom. what would you do if you found out you were pregnant to the last person you kissed?  cry and probably become obsessed with the child's well-being, even while in utero. can you make yourself cry? i can't. what do you tend to drink a lot of? milk have you ever woke up crying from a bad dream? yes, and i once woke up screaming. have you ever had to block anyone online? i've been actively using the internet since dial-up, whatcha think? are you scared of ending up alone? i'm legitimately horrified. are your pets asleep right now, if you have any?  i'm not at home, so idk. have you ever done three or more shots in a row? i've never done shots. favorite undersea creature? dolphins i think, but i also really like jellyfish and whales. seahorses, too. describe the darker side to your personality.  more than anything, i can be viciously jealous. i have an interior savagery, but just barely enough control to contain it. what makes a movie really enjoyable for you? creative, whimsical story and artwork, drama, and relatable characters. favorite type of bird? owls. favorite forest animal? deer! do you think you could ever have an abortion if you unexpectedly turned up pregnant right this second? absolutely not. what is your favorite video game console? why?  ps2 has the best games. do you like vanilla candles?  sure do. how many girlfriends/boyfriends have told you they love you? one, i think. juan might have... have you ever smoked a cigarette? no. who did you last share a taxi with? i've never been in one. do you vape? nope. do you enjoy the arctic monkeys?  i like two songs. where’s your favorite place to shop for clothes?  rebel's market. have you ever seen a mountain in person? i have. have you ever explored somewhere abandoned? i have. there's a shack and old house near my house that friends and i explored when i was younger. we got in trouble lol. have you ever found a four-leaf clover? i discovered a patch of four-leaf clovers the day after my dad left... (: would you rather live in a coastal town or a town closer to the forest? ohhh. can it be in the forest? are you lazy? i am, honestly. regularly burn incense? i used to. i need more sticks... who was your high school crush? i had a few. i was kinda interested in a guy named kyle, i really liked this boy sebastian, but my biggest crush was jason. are you cpr certified? no. who accompanied you to your first concert? mom, nicole, and jason. do you and your friends listen to similar music? depends on the friend. my best friend, no. do you believe in the idea of taking from the rich and giving to the poor? why or why not? no, because who says the rich don't deserve what they've accumulated? do you believe that animals are capable of “human” emotion? why not? it's very obvious that they feel emotion; now are their emotions the same as how we humans feel it, maybe not, but they obviously feel. who do you consider “family?” my mom, dad, ashley, nicole, katie, bobby, misty, a few aunts and uncles and uncles, colleen, chelsea, bradley, and despite having no relationship with him, jason will always be my family. could you sacrifice yourself for someone you barely knew? honestly, no. does the thought of having children scare you? horrifies me. i'd prefer to never imagine pushing a seven-pound human being out of my fucking vagina. xbox or playstation? playstation! have you ever asked someone out? i kinda-sorta initiated the asking out with aaron, but not exactly? when do you want to get married? i see 23 as an ideal marrying age, but there's literally no way that'll happen with me unless j comes back. did you like your middle school life? ACTUALLY fuck that. that's when my anxiety and depression started, and it was just... awkward and uncomfortable. have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yes and no... maybe. like, with jason, i thought to myself, "wow, he's really weird" when i met him, but at the same time, i found myself thinking, "this guy's gonna mean something." what’s your favorite zoo animal? meerkats, on the rare occasion they have them. do you have any plans for tomorrow? skating! :D what’s your favorite part about the fall? the colorful foliage, omg! which scooby-doo character are you most like (scooby, shaggy, daphne, fred, velma, the monster, scrappy?) probably scooby or shaggy. what “group” did you belong to in high school? i resonated/made friends with mostly the goths, emos, metalheads... describe your favorite pair of pj’s. a black pair of pajama pants with a design of harley quinn holding two guns sitting on her knees with "hey, puddin'" written beneath her. i usually wore them when i wanted j's dick honestly lmao. i still wear them tho honestly just 'cuz they're comfortable. if you could have any job in the world, which one would you want? meerkat biologist OR a member of the mythical crew how did you learn to ride a bicycle? my dad taught me. (: have you ever been to a sports game? hockey, yes. have you seen all the shrek movies? no and i cry every night because of it. have you ever finished a whole video game? of course do you know anyone with a pet snake? currently, i don't believe so. your parents split; would you want to live with your mom or dad? they did split, and i live(d) with my mom. how does it make you feel looking at pics with your ex and someone else? i've seen one picture of him with his current girlfriend, and i legitimately wanted to murder the bitch. no exaggeration. have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend? multiple times. what is on your bed right now? well, my own bed is in storage right now to my understanding, but the bed i'm using at colleen's currently just had pillows and blankets. are you someone’s best friend? i am! :D what do you think of when you think of australia? my friend shaylee ever ridden on a roller coaster? no, too scared. what is your birthstone? amethyst is anyone jealous of you? literally no reason to ever be. do any of your friends have children? not any close friends how did you get one of your scars? i scratched the fuck out of my leg. it was overly itchy. honestly, what is your point of a view of a friend who goes for their friend’s exes? consult your friend about it. when was the last time you laughed so hard you couldn’t breathe? when playing "cards against humanity" with colleen, chelsea, and bradley would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? zoo! do you sleep with a night light? no. do you bite your toenails? nope. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime? overall, i feel most connected to otep's lyrics. have you ever gone to the person you like’s best friend to help you out? no. who is the most blunt person that you know? colleen do you think you will be going to sleep soon? i might take a nap. what nervous habits do you have? my eyes dart, i play with/knead my hands, avoid eye contact, etc. when was the last time you were hit on by someone? i'm not sure. what is your ringtones on your cellular? "telescope" by starset do you wear makeup? rarely. do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? nope. what is your pet’s name? the only pet i personally "own" is teddy, a beagle-cocker spaniel mix. do you have any siblings? do you get along? my two immediate siblings are ashley and nicole. what is your favorite color? maroon. what color are your eyes? blue do you like your parents? i love them. how long does it take you to shower? like 8 minutes. is the last person you kissed older than you? by two years name everyone you kissed this year: no one is it awkward when you run into your ex’s? i've never "run into" him. i've seen him once, but it wasn't awkward honestly. have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed? probably hundreds of times... do you change your phone background a lot? nope. think back to your last relationship. was it worth it? yes, it was. has anyone seen you in your underwear, other than mom? yep. do you hate being the first person to start a conversation? sure do. if you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick? strawberries what do you usually order from olive garden? spicy shrimp fritas. fucking perfection. how do you like your steak cooked? well done do you know anyone who self-harms? i know people who have, but i certainly hope they still don't. do you have any siblings? what are their names, age, and grade they are in? doing immediate siblings only. ashley: she's 24, i think, and she's graduated. nicole: she's 18 and is a freshman in college. do you know a schizophrenic person? yes. my own half-sister tiffany is a schizophrenic. do you own many pairs of shorts? i don't have any. is there a certain song you like to headbang to?  surprisingly, i don't headbang. is there a band/artist who has strange lyrics but you love them anyway?  rammstein's lyrics are rather different imo did you love playing hide and seek as a kid?  i really did! do you have a favorite font on the computer?  garamond, i assume. have you ever been severely burned?  nope. did you ever dream that you had a baby?  multiple times. what was the weirdest thing you ever saw cross the road?  hm, not sure... do you try clothes on before you buy them? i avoid that shit like the plague, but i guess if i have to. by society's standards, are you attractive? probably not, idk? mostly because i'm fat, so. i do have clear skin though? would you let your kid smoke weed? if i found my child smoking weed, that would probably be the closest i'd ever get to beating their fucking ass, to be frank about it. are you mentally stable? "no" should be the obvious answer. do you think marijuana is safer than alcohol? in some ways, sure. what do you hear right now? "the dope show" by marilyn manson, chelsea talking in her room... have you ever been in an abusive relationship? no. what color is your favorite bra? it's mostly baby pink, but has a black, swirly design on it. which would you rather have, a new puppy or kitten? i'd actually quite enjoy a kitten right now. if you could have one power, what would it be? shape-shifting. would you ever date out of your own race?   yeah. do you still watch movies intended for children?   every now and again. who is your favorite stand-up comedian?   john pinette. what is your strangest phobia?   whale sharks. what is the most pointless movie that you have ever seen?   "the purge."  just the concept of it was so stupid.  i mean, the film was okay, but still pointless. have you ever kissed someone of the same gender as you?   romantically, no. when a bee is coming close to you, do you stand still or run away?   depends on the kind of bee.  ex., wasp, i'm running.  honeybee, it's cool. are you self conscious about wearing a bathing suit?   very, yes. if you had to play one sport for a living, what would it be?   dance. have your parents ever thought you were gay? what happened?   i don't think so, no. what’s the best thing to eat for breakfast?   pancakes are your parents more liberal or conservative?   conservative, mostly, with some liberal views. when was the last time you saw your best friend?   this morning.  i am currently living with her; she's at work atm. how many jobs have you ever had? (including things like babysitting)   two. do you have family meals when it’s someones birthday?   we go out to eat somewhere nice-ish. are you comfortable talking to both your parents about sex and boys?   mom, sure, but i would never discuss sex with dad. have you ever wanted to be a teacher?   not at all. what do you think is overrated?   i don't really call things "overrated."  well-liked things are liked for a reason. what is underrated?   the band otep.  they should really be better known. can spiders jump?   yes, they can. there was a sculpture that was supposed to be displayed for a week in the rockefeller center in nyc of a falling woman - designed as a memorial to those who jumped or fell to their death from the world trade center. it was complained about as grotesque, inappropriate and describe as 'not art.’ what do you think?   who says something grotesque cannot be art?  it was absolutely art and carried with it a heavy message.  it shouldn't have been censored by not showing it. has anyone ever mistaken you for a satanist?   with my wardrobe, probably. what did you see today that was beautiful in an ordinary way?   i saw my best friend. are you dyslexic?   no sir. do you agree with the people who say that everyone is bi-sexual even if they don’t want to admit it?   heard that before, and it's bullshit. if you are the only human on the planet of the apes do you have sex with an ape?   ugh, no. do you believe that black people should get money to make up for their previous enslavement?   ... the fuck is this?  no???  look, i am in no way racist or anything, but there is no reason to pay african americans because of past mistreatment?  like, that shit's done and over with? have you ever tried to write poetry or song lyrics?   poetry, yeah. do you like men who have a sensitive side?   it's like.  mandatory for me. dangly earrings, hoop earrings, simple studs, or no earrings at all?   hmmm, studs. would you ever wear black lipstick? do you know anyone who does?   i do sometimes. do you lecture people about drugs?   if one prompts me too, yes. if you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life, what would it be?   like... 49, maybe? who was the last person to call you babe?   probably colleen, potentially juan. do you have family problems?   yes. were you smiling when you woke up this morning?   who the fuck just wakes up smiling? do you like being in pictures?   while it's great to be included, i only really like it if i'm taking the picture, 'cuz i know how to flatter my face. do you sneak out?   at 21, i can't exactly "sneak out," but when i was a teenager, no, i never did. how would you spend a day at the beach?   in the ocean have you ever experienced altitude sickness?   nope. do you ever make a big deal out of nothing?  only constantly. have you ever written anything on a bathroom stall?  nope. are your hands unsteady?   yes, i have an essential tremor. are you scared of moving on?  FUCKING HORRIFIED. when talking on the phone, do you place it against your left or right ear?   right ear are you scared you’ll get a q-tip stuck inside your ear?   nope. do you use index cards to help you prepare for tests?   i never did. what’s your favorite flavor of sunflower seeds?   i don't like sunflower seeds. what's currently on your mind?   meh.  i feel... alone and unaccomplished.  i just found out a veeery old friend of mine is moving out with her girlfriend soon, and.  idk.  seeing her grow up like that makes me jealous.  i miss having another half, okay? what’s your favorite hairstyle on a guy?   kill me pls, bc i like emo/scene hair the most ;-; what color is your hairbrush?   hot pink have you ever dated someone with curly hair?   not full-blown curly, no.  very few of j's tips would be curly, but his hair overall was more wavy. how many of the people you’ve kissed have had brown eyes?   one. what’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever said to the person you like?   "i love you." are you currently in a “i wouldn’t mind if i lost 50 pounds” kind of mood?   losing 50 pounds would honestly be spectacular. are your parents religious?   yeah. would you like to have twins?   fuck no. if your best friend liked your last ex, what would you do?   oh, i'd tell her off. want to have kids before you’re 30?   it'd be ideal. has someone ever made a promise to you and broke it?   sure has. would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos?   sure. do you feel more comfortable with a male or female doctor/nurse?   female. are you interested in more than one person at the moment?   nope.
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A Favor House Atlantic (Part 22)
2101. Are you an optimist? I am a realist 2102. If you were in the Breakfast Club, which character would you be? No idea lol 2103. Who do you have no respect for? I’m not sure. In general abusers of any kind 2104. Is the plural form of cactus cactuses or cactii? cacti  Is the plural form of penis penises or penii? It’s penises but I like penii better lol 2105. What does your favorite coffee mug look like? I don’t have one 2106. Have you ever gotten hurt at a concert? Yes. A couple times. But I’ll always specifically remember my ex abuser ashing his cigarette into my shirt/bra, still have scars from it. I was so excited because we were first in line and was going to get the best seats. Guess he hated seeing me happy. Got really drunk that night. I was 15. Sad part is people around us laughed at it.  2107. What age do you think it is most difficult to be? Middle school fuck that shit 2108. Do you like to be considered wierd or different? Yes 2109. Do you think you could handle a day in jail? Depends but probably 2110. Is your body an amusement park? No 2111. Are dj's obsolete? No 2112. What is the best liquid in existence? Diet pepsi lol 2113. What is turning out better than expected? Nothing. My life was finally on the up swing. Had my happy little family, good job, healthy family. Guess someone didn’t like that. Still have my family but just in the last month, have found out on of my parents is very very sick. Sicker that what was originally thought. That in itself is bad. But having to deal with the fact that I can’t just go and hug them and hold them not knowing how much longer I have really sucks. Panicking that they are going to contract COVID or that I am because we will be as good as dead with our conditions/age. Had to cancel a vacation I’ve been saving and planning for over a year.  Add on to trying to relearn new ways to do my job. And being at home with my child and having to take her to work with me 24/7 not having a break. I love her but toddler years are not easy. I just want to hug everyone and comfort them and I can’t, it’s breaking me. Stupid fucking COVID. And fuck off whoever it is out there that thinks I haven’t dealt with enough shit in my life already. Sorry end rant, needed to get it off my chest. 2114. Who is the most overbearing person you know? My abusive ex? 2115. Who does it surprise you that you are close to? No one. I’m not particularly close to anyone but my immediate family.  2116. Apparently Eminem got booed at the MTV music video awards because he was making fun of Moby onstage. What do you think of this? I have no recollection of this 2117. Close your eyes. What do you see? I don’t want to close my eyes, I’ve been having flashback dreams lately.  2118. What's the best Van Halen song? You really got me 2119. What do you picture when you hear the word "Puritans?" Nothing 2120. Have you ever been on a trampoline? So many times 2121. What do you use batteries for the most often? Remotes 2122. What do you find thrilling? Going to Disney 2123. Porch swing. Sunrise. What else could you ask for? Alot  2124. Do you like William Shatner's cover of Mr Tambourine Man? No idea 2125. Where's the sexiest place to have a piercing? I always wanted my eyebrow pierced but have rejection issues so didn’t get one. I’ve had my ears re-pierced about 6 times because no matter how long I’ve had my earrings if I take them out my ears close. I can only wear stainless steel and have a slight gauge to help them stay open.   2126. Do you get panic attacks? YES 2127. How long does getting dressed to go to a club take you? I don’t go to clubs 2128. What is Adam Ant's best song? No idea 2129. Does your body need improvement or is it just fine? Needs a replacement 2130. Does watching MTV or reading beauty magazines make you feel bad about yourself? No I do that on my own 2132. What is the most romantic movie ever? I honestly don’t know.  2133. Do you think that woman are treated as second class citizens of this world? Sometimes 2134. What would you do if you were at a dance club with your signifigant other and he or she got into a fistfight with someone? Tell them to stop 2135. Has anyplace ever asked you to leave? Yes. Do you know how many times I’ve been “kicked” out of Walmart when I was younger lol 2136. Have you ever been openly kicked out? Yes 2137. Are you permanently banned from anywhere? No 2138. Who is your favorite movie director? Tim Burton 2139. What topic do you hate to talk about? My past, my emotions 2140. Are you looking forward to the remake of Willie Wonka and the Chocolate factory or do you think it could never be as good as the original? The original was better 2141. Do you enjoy the band Ministry? No idea who they are 2142. What is your coziest article of clothing? My Disney jackets 2143. What is your favorite word to say? Not sure 2144. Does your name and your signifigant other's name feel like one word to you? No 2145. Do you like the band the Buzzcocks? Never heard of them 2146. Can you tell when other people are lieing? Sometimes 2147. Do you like to wear glitter? NO 2148. Would you prefer to wrap your own presents or have them all giftwrapped? Wrap my own 2149. Where do you go when you want to meet new people? Nowhere because I don’t want to meet new people 2150. What is the best first sentence to a book, in your opinion? I don’t know 2151. Should fun or safety come first? Fun 2152. Does mind over matter work for you? Sometimes 2153. What's the most weight you ever lost in one year? Oh god like 60 lbs 2154. What are your feelings about punk and goth? It’s cool 2155. Did you ever write something when you were high and then looked at it sober and realized that it was nonsense? Yes 2156. How often do you shave: (guys) your face? (girls) your legs? Almost never anymore. Unless it’s summer and I’m going out in shorts (girls) under your arms? When I wear short sleeves or if it gets too long 2157. What word do you often hear people misuse? SO many 2158. Have you ever used somebody? No 2159. Are you paranoid? Very 2160. What is the best music video of all time? I have really bad memory 2161. How many Shakespeare plays have you read all the way through? Maybe one because I had to for school 2162. What was the deepedst religious or spiritual experiance you've ever had? Spiritual just being out on my bike rides surrounded by nature and having clear thoughts for the first time in my life.  2163. What is it like to be you today? It’s a struggle 2164. Do you like to play games? Somtimes 2165. Have you made any good friends on this diary site? N/A 2166. Have you met anyone from open diary? N/A 2167. What have you done lately that gave everyone something to talk about? Who knows 2168. Do you get along with people who annoy you, disagree with you, dislike you, and hate you? Depends 2169. When you ask for something do you make a request or a demand? Request 2170. Who are you a bad influence on? Myself lol 2171. Who are you a good influence on? Probably no one 2172. Who is on your christmas list this year? My family  2173. How many other people do you know of that are doing this survey? None 2174. Have you ever intentionally had a one night stand? Yes 2175. Do you tend to get car sick? Nope 2176. What is the legnth of your hair? Little past shoulder 2177. Do you like to listen to techno music? Sometimes 2178. Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color? No 2179. What do you think of these diary names? Oculto: Cool suffer victim: I like it but feel bad for the person, hope they are doing okay With A Purpose: Okay Almost_Famous: Alright In.The.Name.Of.Lust: No The Phallic Stapler: LMAO <*>SeXyCandace<*>: No 2180. What do you think of these entry titles? Lesbians ... as far as the eye can see: What? Why Avril Lavigne sucks: Fuck off Call On Jesus: No Buddha-licious: Lol WeLCome To The JungLe!: Okay Geektastic: Alright Should i get an abortion?: It’s a tough decision to make 2181. What do you find beautiful in an atypicaal way? I don’t know 2182. What would you PHYSICALLY fight someone over? My child 2183. What was the last thing you were invited to? A medical presentation 2184. What do you like Riding my bike 2185. Have you ever drank: chartruese? No absinth? Nope 2186. Do you plan your outfits ahead of time, pick them out the morning of, wear whatever was on the floor, or wear what you slept in? Morning of  2187. How long have you ever gone without changing your sheets: A couple months cloths: A couple days underwear: Two days toothbrush: A couple months? 2189. What item should not be shared? I don’t know 2190. How do you keep control of your temper? Sometimes I don’t 2191. If you could gain all of your dreams by giving a family member (little brother) to the goblin king who would turn him into a goblin, would you? No 2192. Do you like to listen to Duran Duran? Not particularly  2193. Do you ever feel the need for MORE than life has to offer? Yes 2194. What is your favorite children's story? I Love You Forever 2195. Do you think that adult books should have more pictures? Yes 2196. What was your all time low? I was in an abusive relationship from middle school to like junior year high school. I wanted to die and hoped someone would kill me so I wouldn’t have to do it myself. I started drinking and popping pills hoping it would kill me. I stopped eating. I stopped caring. I honestly never thought I would make it to this point in my life. 2197. Do you make up songs and sing them to yourself when you're alone? Sometimes 2198. Do you like to listen to the Smashing Pumkins? Sometimes 2199. Do you see the expression of emotion as weakness? Yes 2200. Are you prepared in case of chemicle, biological and nuclear attacks? Well isn’t this a coincidence FUCK YOU COVID. I’m convinced it was something developed and released to reduce the population. But that’s just me. I lean on the side of conspiracies at times. 
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Bite Sized Books // Where I Indulge In The Fake Relationship Trope
I am on a continual quest to read all the fake relationship books. This is an absolute favourite trope of mine, I am a sucker for a pretend romance in my books and I am not fully sure where my passion for this trope comes from, but there you have it. I found myself having a few fake relationship books lurking on my Kindle so decided now was the time to read and review them all for your pleasure.
Black Tie Optional – Ann Marie Walker
Published: 30th May 2017
Source: Netgalley
Genre: Romance, Contemporary, Fake Relationship
My Rating:
Everything about Coleman Grant III oozes power and sex. And not the perfunctory kind either, but the sheet clawing, heart stopping, gasping for air after you’ve screamed so loud you can’t breathe kind. From his dark wavy hair that stands in an artfully rumpled mess, to the blue eyes that sear your skin, to his full, sensual lips - on the surface he’s pure perfection.
Too bad he's an asshole. An arrogant, uptight corporate raider hell bent on destroying the environment one species at a time.
Everything about Olivia Ramsey screams hippie humanitarian. From her blond hair tied in a sloppy bun, to her faded jeans with the Bonnaroo patch sewn on the thigh, to her combat boots still splattered with mud from the previous day’s site visit.
So it makes perfect sense that they would get married. In Vegas. Stone-cold sober.
Cole needs a wife. Olivia needs to save an endangered species. But what starts as a marriage of convenience soon turns into a battle of wills and sexual tension. Love is a game, and Olivia and Cole are ready to win.
Is this book perfect? Hell no. Is this book insanely fun and an addictive read? Definitely! When I was emailed about it I was intrigued but hesitant because I always get excited about fake relationship books and I have been disappointed a time or two. I was concerned that I would experience the same thing again. Thankfully, I didn’t.
It was originally proposed as being a book for fans of rom-coms and The Proposal and it is very true. I saw it as a cross between Two Weeks Notice and The Proposal. Two Weeks Notice for the rich man thing who is a bit of a dick but still charming. And then The Proposal as they stage a fake relationship to fool his family and convince them he has gotten married. I just loved the whole fake relationship and the entire relationship they staged as they were such opposites.
Cole and Olivia were so good together, they were opposites, Olivia campaigning for the rights of animals and Coleman not caring about little more than making sure his business is successful and keeping his sister happy. Those are the things which are most important to him and nothing else matters. Together they were so good together and enjoyed reading them moving from attraction to actually caring about one another. I especially loved when they were at her parent's house because he was out of context. He was no longer just the rich guy but also got to relax away from work and expectation and he could be a little silly and fun and that was the time I liked them best. When they weren’t putting on as much of a show for other people.
Basically, this was a fun romance which included a favourite romantic trope of mine. I would recommend for a nice easy summer read. You will enjoy yourself and who doesn’t love that?
Isn’t She Lovely – Lauren Layne
Published: 28th November 2014 Source: Bought Genre: Romance, Contemporary, Fake Relationship, New Adult My Rating:
She needed a place to live. He needed a girlfriend. The rules were clear... until they were broken...
The only thing Ethan Price and Stephanie Kendrick have in common is their screenwriting class at the NYU Film School. Ethan's family is loaded and expectations are high for his stepping into the family business one day, while Stephanie is the class outcast and from the other side of the tracks.
When a project brings this unlikely pair together, Stephanie becomes the fake girlfriend who plays a part similar to that of the character in their screenplay. What Ethan didn't expect was to fall in love with her - but has he fallen for the real her? Or just the version he created...?
Isn't She Lovely is a modern take on Julia Roberts' Pretty Woman and is perfect for fans of Jessica Sorenson and Tammara Webber.
Lauren Layne is a firm favourite of mine when it comes to contemporary romance. She knows how to hook me in with her romance and I love her books. Sadly, this one was a little disappointing. I mean, fake relationships are my favourite romantic trope. It makes no sense, it's a ridiculous trope and I love everything about it. I don’t fully know why this one didn’t quite hit the mark for me. I enjoyed it, but I could easily forget about it.
In this case, I loved that our couple, Ethan and Stephanie, were aware it was a farfetched trope and that it was partially their joint film project which motivated them to start their fake relationship. Sure, Ethan had lied to his parents about having a new relationship but there was no real reason he has to make Stephanie into his fake girlfriend. And the whole makeover thing was partly to make her less 'gothic' but also to mirror the Pygmalion concept of creating the ideal woman and falling in love with your creation. I think that's partly why I struggled to connect because the two were analysing their relationship via the context of their screenplay. It meant you couldn't get fully absorbed in their relationship as they weren't either, there was too much time looking at it through the context of their screenplay and it just didn’t work for me.
I also didn't love Stephanie or Ethan. I mean, I liked Ethan. He was rich and charming but had another layer to him he rarely got the chance to show. And then Stephanie, she had very good reasons for her prickly goth ways but it made me feel quite unsympathetic to her as she continually pushes everyone away. I mean, I get it, I don’t usually mind a prickly personality but for some reason, it just didn’t work for me with Stephanie. I think because I didn’t fully believe she was the goth she made everyone think she was. I don't know, just something about them made me…not dislike them... but not like them either. Even together, I liked them but I didn't fall in love.
I was bound to find a Lauren Layne I didn't love but it was sad all the same. I liked it and finished it but I didn't adore it and when I read romance I kind of want to get caught up in it, you know?
Her Backup Boyfriend – Ashlee Mallory
Published: 19th January 2015 Source: Bought (free) Genre: Romance, Contemporary, Fake Relationship My Rating:
One little white lie leads to more than she planned…
Straight-laced lawyer Kate Matthews always plays by the rules. But when her ex gets engaged and a big promotion is on the line at work, she blurts out that she has a new boyfriend. And now that she’s proved she “has a life” outside of work, everything is perfect. Except for one teeny little detail—here is no boyfriend. And now Kate’s liable for her little white lie…
Dominic Sorensen is hot, charming, and very definitely not Kate’s type. But not only does Dominic want to help Kate renovate her home, he’s also willing to play “boyfriend.” All he wants in return is a little pro bono work for his sister. Now instead of Mr. Right, Kate has a delectable Mr. Fix-It-Right—and some unbelievable sexual chemistry. And if falling for Dominic is a breach of contract, Kate is guilty as charged…
Okay, I know I got a bit out of hand with three fake relationship books in under a month, but when you love a trope you love a trope. In fact, the only reason I got this book was the fake relationship aspect and the fact it was free on Kindle (or when I got it it was). I am so glad I did, though. I often find the freebies I get for my Kindle are some of the best reads and I think that’s because I go in with no expectations. Ashlee Mallory has gotten me interested in reading the rest of her books to see if they are just as enjoyable as this one.
Kate and Dominic are these complete opposites who only really meet as Kate moves in next door to Dominic’s aunt. He happens to do some house renovations she happens to need someone to renovate. I mean, that premise alone of her falling for the guy doing up her house whilst he’s being all burly and manly whilst telling herself that’s not what she wants would have worked fine for me. It’s taken a step further when Kate gets caught in a lie at work and ends up needing a fake boyfriend and it’s a case of mistaken identity when someone assumes that boyfriend is Dominic. He decides to take advantage and get a little legal assistance from Kate (she is a lawyer after all) and the fake relationship begins! That’s when it got good with the whole 'opposites attract' fake relationship awesomeness.
I think the reason this book worked better than the Lauren Layne one was simply the fact I liked the characters. I mean, I was annoyed by Kate dithering between her head and her heart within the book but I liked her. She was a good person who had been put down a lot in her life and doubted her wants. And Dominic was a bit of a dick judging Kate based on a past relationship but I loved how he continually tried to reassure Kate she was brilliant no matter what she did and anyone who told her otherwise could get lost. And the entire Sorenson clan was fantastic as well. I love a romance with a strong sense of family and you definitely got that with Dominic’s family. I especially loved how all his siblings and his parents could make fun of one another and tell embarrassing stories but were also there to offer support.
This book just worked for me in every way. If you’re looking for a fun fake relationship with a bit less sexy time and a bit more family time then this is the best book for you. And if you’re lucky you might find it still going free on Kindle.
And there are my mini reviews, have you read any of these? What were your thoughts? And please tell me your favourite fake relationship book, I am on a continual quest to find more.
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#61 12:59am May 14
I will update when it's a good time to do so. As of now, I will simply post my update on all my friends in which who I can recall and will do what I can to do it right. Here we go~ (List will be in random order) -Mom- We're doing pretty good, nothing BAD exactly, she does annoy me from time to time with her demands such as cleaning up my room when it's going to be a huge mess anyway. Since awhile ago, she wants to get a grill from the money of my dad and I, hah... I don't hate her, I mean, we all have flaws and that's okay. She's going to go celebrate Mother's Day with her friends, including ''Konni'' (I don't know how to spell her name, but she's the aged woman who introduced me to sushi and I feel in love with it from the start.) But yeah, there's that. -Dad- We're always on good terms, never have we once been at odds with each other, he'll be coming down here soon for my graduation. I hope I'm able to spend more time with him as I aim to go on my own sometimes eventually. Not saying I won’t have contact with them, just being out of their influence would be nice. He's still up working on roofs and such, great worker he is. We continue to call each other every day, it has been a thing since I was little as my parents divorced when I was young and we all lived in Miami at the time. If only he lived closer so I could visit him, I would if I could. -Dj A.K.A. Jacob- Since the last time my mom and I went out to a nearby sushi restaurant, Dj and I have been talking again now. Which is wonderful as I still recall weekends where I literally had no one to game with, so yeah. We're still on good connections, we chatted last night as he and our friend (I’ll call him Party as it's part of his gamertag, new guy to me on Xbox) were playing Overwatch. Anyway, yeah, he's doing pretty good over there, I haven't heard him complain about anything of his life, yet. We all get there from time to time. I look forward into talking more, not to sound clingy, we just go way back into the days of Reach. -Seeker A.K.A. Jared- Ah, I miss the dude. Favorite catholic friend, not that religion matters, anyway, I haven't spoken to him since ages ago. I asked Dj on what has been going on with him and he told me he's still busy with work and such, but he's still going well. I wonder how he has been doing though, I miss him. We go way back as well, to Reach. Maybe sooner or later I'll get in reach with him, although he is busy very often from what I can recall and he has his own group of ''goons'', it's worth a nice try. What can go wrong? -Erin A.K.A. Goodbye Delilah- Quick clarification, long ago Erin told me she changed her name to Lilah, but everyone still called her Erin so I'm left to guess it was a ''phase'' of a name in a way. So, I no longer have any connections with her anymore. I texted her and she was insane again. She made accusations that weren't true, saying things such as I left her for cancer and I never loved her, so on so on. I took screenshots of what she was saying to me, notifying her that I was doing so as snapchat does that, she went on saying go for what I desire, don't bitch about it and telling me I shared shit for attention, mostly what she said from the pictures of what I took. Then she removed me right after, so poof! She is now gone. Honestly, I'm not disturbed or shocked, not at ease either. Yet, I am a bit relieved I don’t have to deal with her anymore. -Jessica A.K.A. School Buddy- Jessica and I are still talking to each other, even though we don't chat at all outside of class, we still manage to kill time together in class like this past week watching unique videos on YouTube in which are too complex to be explained for the simple minded. ''The pipe is leaking''. She now has a girlfriend too, can't be on school property and she's a dropout too. Dropping out doesn’t matter to me, but I never would have guessed Jessica would date the girl from what I have seen of her. She works at Walmart, I think, eh, whatever makes her happy. -Gabby A.K.A. Goth girl from South Carolina (Or somewhere near there)- Yeah, uh, we simply stopped talking to me as she went off on me saying I was a bad person and I made fun of her for a condition she has, I honestly don’t recall that. She also said I talk about others too much and that she doesn’t need more ''half assed friends'' to be around her. I can't say much about it, I'm not here to please everyone. Although she sees my snapchat story from time to time and I still have her on Instagram, I have nothing against her at all. I know I have flaws. I hope she's doing alright whatever she is up to. -Molly A.K.A. Mollyboo- We haven't formally spoken to each other in a too long of a time. Although we have a streak going on, that also recently died so we're back to square one, her and I don't chat as we used to. From moments passing by me, I feel like I was a cushion for her. I'm not saying she's a bad person, no she's not. All I'm saying is that things haven’t been the same for us. Which is a shame because I enjoyed skyping her when I didn’t have anyone else around. Molly has been with her friends more often recently, her life isn't perfect obviously, as everyone, she is struggling with a few things, but I believe in her where I feel she can get through it all. Uncertain if we'll even meet up during the summer, but that's okay, I just want the best for her. -Alyssa A.K.A. Ex Gothic Succubus-I'm afraid to declare that her presence has gone missing from my life awhile after my birthday. She's been going through a lot, with the possible pending deaths of her relatives, she has been occupied. I do not know what she's facing up to right now, but for sure I wish her the best. I'm not afraid to admit that I miss her, just ashamed on the way our relationship ended. Time will tell if she returns or not, she always does this from time to time being busy and such. I'm not blaming her disappearance on her, we're not even dating anymore so why should I expect her to come back instantly? Anyway, can’t say much about her since she's away at the moment. I sent her voice messages from time to time, maybe she'll hear them one day. I hope so, I have countless voice messages of her on my phone. -Rose A.K.A. One Year Crush- The impact of her thorns hasn’t healed at all. Ah, oh well, she's still dating that one nice looking guy. They went to prom together and they looked like a cute couple. Even though she said it could’ve been better, she still enjoyed it. I miss her. Of course, she's dealing problems from within herself and her family from what I have been seeing. It hurts to watch and if I could look away I wouldn’t as I care for her. Uncertain if we'll meet up for the summer to be honest, she hasn't texted me since my birthday. I still leave her voice messages from time to time, never expecting a reply back. Some say move on, some say hang on, I say woebegone. Since Reach we go back too, I don't want to loose what's part of my world. After all, more and more of it is becoming a memory rather than reality. -Angel A.K.A. Tall Mexican- Another surprise, we haven't talked at all. He's been focusing on work and with his girlfriend which is great and all, just wish we would hang out more. He still lives here, he still posts stuff that I see and he's more than alive surely. Joyful he's not, but he's getting somewhere, good guy he is. -Nara A.K.A. Gone Girl- Ever since the last time we met, we haven't texted. I know of recent she posted a pic with her boyfriend, so they're dating. I’m not jealous, only upset that she suddenly disappeared from my life like I was some paper airplane that was around only to be thrown away from her. Ah, oh well. No idea what she is up to. -Jaden A.K.A. Suicide Girl- Jaden and I are talking, but only in school. In no way do I desire to talk to her out of school and we haven't. Classless I am on her talking to me again in chorus when she hasn't before, wouldn’t even make eye contact. She mainly talks to this girl ''Ericca'' (Don’t know the spelling of her name) who has a ton of problems, but we all do so I won’t complain about that. There's that. -Grace A.K.A. Edgy Misguided Wiccan- Not much to say about her besides her unreasonable ways of living and her choice of people she surrounds herself with like having a best friend that's 13 doing drugs and dating a guy who snorted Doritos for a dare. Makes me wonder why I'm picked over these people, ugh. She has her hair black since recent. I was invited to a group chat just this week by her and I was kicked out ''yesterday'' because I disliked a band, I got upset and told her I won’t be coming back. Argh, whatever. I'll be gone soon. -Abby A.K.A. Switching Genders Friend- Ill use she to make it easy. Anyway, her and I have been okay. Not much talking between us, most memorable conversation between us as of this year was us arguing about her flying to live with her boyfriend who lives in Texas. Again, not a bad person. She desperately wants to leave Florida, I feel her. She's going to graduate soon as I am, which is nice. Tried texting her a few hours ago, she didn't feel like talking, I hope she's okay. -Andy A.K.A. I'm Not In Lesbians With You- Andy and I have come down to simply meeting up for a minute or two together walking to her bus and saying good bye with a quick hug. She's still cute and all, but it's not meant to be. Not saying that I desperately wanted to be with her, but at a time where Rose was all I could hold in my mind, I thought she would be the water to wash it away and have her take the place. Im completely aware this isn’t how love works, duh in a way. Besides, our lives are completely different. Anyway, she's out all the time with friends or family, or talking about Attack on Titan saying how Armin is her cush. So, yeah. There's that. -Siena A.K.A. Celebrity Spirit of Miami- Girl from Omegle that lives in Miami. Her and I dont chat as much as I wish, but that's fine. She usually says she's busy with life and ''a lot has been going on'', from what I know she gets called a whore a ton and I don't see her like that as all. Odd to think of it. She is attractive, yeah, but I don't really know much about her despite us knowing each other for a good amount of months. She's great at singing and practices plays, I hope all goes well for her. She deserves it even with her flaws. -Kaylee A.K.A. No Personality Girl- Nothing to say besides her always posting pictures of herself barely smiling or posting pictures of her pets. I would talk to her, but I never feel like she wants to talk to due to her responses. Also, not a bad person, just not a good connection between her and I. I mentioned her long ago as I wrote an entry saying I don’t mean everything literally, some is ranting some is ''blah blah'', I recall she couldn’t let that go because of it. I know I’m not important to her, oh well. -Kayla A.K.A. I Always Wear My Boyfriend's Graduation Ring- Kayla is in the hospital from what I know. She got a kidney stone, if I can remember correctly since it is so late I’m just passing my thoughts onto the screen. Before that, she went to a concert that was very far away and not in Florida, she managed to be with her boyfriend at the time. This was going around when prom was. She got sunburned. I helped her out with our homework for sociology but she didn’t come to day she was said to. I will say I feel like I irritate her sometimes, but maybe that's just me. -Marielle A.K.A. Guatemala Fire- We've been talking a lot for many months, well, this year so far. She recently got grounded by her ungrateful mother. She's not happy to be in Guatemala and wishes to get out of there. She's a sweet girl, smart too, she's learning how to code and working in an office. She's not there everyday and we're not able to skype, but I consider her close to me. So yeah. -Daphine A.K.A. Cloud Exhaler- So long gone that she might as well be out of this universe ever since she got a boyfriend. No clue what's going on with her. It seems the cycle of our friendship ended as she would tend to come back and be distant over and over. She has had a rough past and I can only hope it gets smoother as time erodes life. -Rayanna A.K.A. College Life- She's doing fine, her life has been lightened up by her boyfriend. Gosh, if only I could be that happy. Whenever I text her, she never fails to mention she's doing something in relation to him like being there with him or waiting for him to come over. Sweet relationship from my point of view. -Victoria A.K.A. Nordic Artist- Havent chatted in ages, taken away by her perfect boyfriend. Tried texting her long ago, she seemed very uninterested. I don’t mind, she seems happier and that's great compared to her past.   -Stori A.K.A. G's Girl- Again... Long time no chat, seen her talking with G, Skitz and another guy in parties sometimes over Xbox. Which is a shame since Dj and I never get invited to them. Ah... Sucks, but so be it. G has taken up all the space for everyone else and Stori can go on for months not talking to someone so I guess she thinks Im fine or something. I'm only irritated a bit about it, she has a nice character, one of the most innocent people I know, intelligent too. She's not clueless, she just doesn’t act in a certain way which makes her seem classy, I guess. I’m so tired. -Sheyla A.K.A. Miserable Medical Girl- She's in college going into the medical field. We don’t talk at all, only once but that was ages ago. She seems to be doing well, I have her sister in my sociology class, Sheyla is a lot better compared to her, the sister is awfully annoying. -Jenna A.K.A. Las Vegas's Light- Jenna and I have been texting throughout the day, very enjoyable person to talk to. She's been to many ''cons'' and she's sweet. She's very busy often which sucks, but that's life. We tried staying up Friday, but she fell asleep pretty soon. She had to do a lot today and tomorrow or whatever day this weekend. She works at this place for old people, taking care of them and such.
I would definitely name more, but I am too exchanged to go on. Maybe I’ll add on more soon, as of now, good night.
- 2:54Am
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