Izzie: I regret giving you that blender for your birthday.
Casey *sipping cupcake*: Why?
Even if you’ve never watched Atypical, please, please read this. It started as a fic but I think there’s a message in it that needs to be heard. I don’t know if you’ve heard this recently but you deserve to be loved.
“You know, it really sucks that, since young, people drill into our heads that a boy and girl together is the only way, that it’s only natural and all that nonsense. They never presented any other option and that really sucks. It’s hard to unlearn all these stupid rules— believe me, I’ve been there— and it’s going to be painful but loving and accepting yourself is more important than whatever the hell the world thinks. Knowing doesn’t necessarily help but it’s a step. I beat myself up for ages and it was a really shitty time and I thought I was broken and I could never be loved. Look where I am now.“
Izzie just hums.
"I think that your happiness matters more than trying to please the world. Fuck the world!” Tanya exclaims, drawing a half laugh from Izzie.
“It’s not going to be easy and you’re not just going to be able to change overnight but you are wonderful and you are loved, Izzie. You deserve your own happiness and your own happy ending and to be able to accept yourself for who you are. You deserve to be you. You’re neither broken nor wrong, you’re strong and you’re amazing. One day, you’re going to get there and you’re going to wonder why you were ever so worried about this. You’ll get there, it could take a week or a month or a year or any amount of time but, one day, you’re going to love yourself and be proud of who you are and how far you’ve come.”
“You’re crying,” Izzie says as Tanya brushes her tears off.
“It’s fine. I just-” she hiccups “I just wish someone told me this when I was twelve and crying myself to sleep at night. I was so disgusted and in denial and I hated myself. It wasn’t nice.”
She pauses, breathing deeply, before continuing. “But you know what’s great? Back then, everything sucked and I wanted to die and I felt so, so alone. It was so dark that I never would’ve imagined being where I am today. I’ve come really far and I’ve learned that I deserve to be proud of myself for that. I’ve learned that I am deserving of love, that I am loved and that I love and I think that’s the best thing I’ve ever learned.”
Izzie just exhales heavily. She doesn’t know what she feels but she wants to believe Tanya and she tells herself that she will.
“Look, I’ll give you my number. If you ever want to talk, I’m here. It’s a long process and you have to learn to do it yourself but the least I can do is be here for you. Doing it alone is the hardest.”
Eventually, Tanya gets up to go. She places her hands on Izzie’s shoulder and looks her in the eye. “Remember, you are loved and you deserved to be loved and you can love and you deserve a happy ending.”
Izzie sits there for a little while more and for once, in a long, long time, she genuinely feels so loved. She knows that she is loved and she feels at peace.
This is the part I really want people to read but full thing is on AO3 https://archiveofourown.org/works/24304345
short angst piece because I finished Atypical
Izzie is terrified.
Izzie is terrified, even when she tells Casey that she’s not scared of that asshole, of her mother’s latest ex-boyfriend-turned-current-boyfriend-again whose name she can’t even bring herself to think about because with it comes him getting high out of his mind and yelling, throwing things. That, somehow, isn’t what scares her the most about him. It isn’t how she has to shield her siblings from him, who are now more of her own children at this point, it’s not that. It’s selfish, really.
What she hates the most about him is how he sneaks little comments about her and barges into her room when she’s supposed to be asleep and the worst part is, her mother says nothing. She says nothing, when her boyfriend eyes her teenage daughter with a predatory gaze. She says nothing, when Izzie finally breaks down, handing her siblings over to their grandmother, even when her brother gives her a heartbroken gaze. Her little brother, barely 12, becomes the adult when she’s gone. Their grandmother is old, she can’t keep up with a rowdy 7-year-old and a screaming baby.
His eyes have lost the shine that comes believing everything right’s with this world and he lost his childish innocence the first time Izzie dropped them off with their grandmother and disappeared for the first time. Over that one night, when she had disappeared in tears and returned with scratches, she’d seen how much he’d grown. He assumed the role of the responsible adult and the worst thing was that he understood. He told her to take time off for herself and that he would manage with their grandmother’s help for one night. He told her how grateful he was for her always putting them first and how he loved her and she needed this break and he would make her take it.
Izzie told herself that she wouldn’t be like their mother, she wouldn’t force them to grow up before they had to but she did. She still did and she hated herself for it. She just couldn’t take it anymore and she needed a break. Still, she hates herself even as she sinks into Casey’s arms, thinking how she couldn’t be any better than her mother. She doesn’t stop thinking about how she abandoned her siblings the same way their mother often did. She was just like her mother and she was disgusting for it. Despite this, she lets Casey hold her for a while, sobbing, and lets herself drink in the comfort and the warmth and she lets herself be safe, even if only for a while.
Atypical is such a good show. Yet I am glad that they are ending after season 4 because I don’t think a show like this could run for much longer without the writers doing something bad to the story line or to a character I like.
Spoiler alert(?) for Atypical season 3
Can i just say, even though of course i’m excited for casey and izzie to be together, the best part of the season 3 finale was zahid’s proposal for him and sam to be roommates. Ugh, good friendships are So important
AN EVERYDAY CONVERSATION WITH ME AND MY GF
izzie: okay let’s both say something about ourselves
izzie: i’m gay
Things i would like to see in Atypical season 4:
as of 15/05/2020
- More Cazzie ~ not only are they my favourite canon wlw ship, i think there’s quite a lot of potential to have an even better story line than they do at the moment. also its gay.
- A development of Paige and Casey’s friendship ~ i think that there’s an opportunity for them to have an amazing relationship especially after the one scene in ‘searching for brown sugar man’. it’s the unlikely friendship that i would love to see.
- More of Evan and Casey’s friendship ~ although they broke up it’s clear that they still have a great connection and seeing how they still care for eachother outside of a relationship is great.
- Bring back some side characters. Namely Abby, Beth and Sharice ~ i loved all of these characters whenever they popped up and would love to see more of them in the final season.
- Izzie’s back story ~ it’s often bought up that Izzie has a tough home life and i think more insight into that may get us to understand her character a bit better.
- Give Izzie a last name
- Casey going to UCLA ~ i’d like to see how the different characters react to Casey leaving. i’d also like to see if Izzie goes with Casey(maybe she trains with Casey and gets coach Crowley to convince UCLA to let her in too, idk).
- Sam moving in with Zahid ~ their friendship has always been one of my favourites and it would be amazing to see this bromance blossom especially after the events of season 3. it would be interesting to see how Elsa reacts as she has been skeptical of Sam moving in places/staying overnight in places in the past, but it seems as if she almost trusts Zahid kinda.
- Find out who Sam has been talking to during his 'monologue’ scenes in seasons 2&3.
- Find out what is happening with Doug and Elsa’s relationship.
These are what i can think of atm. Feel free to reblog and add your own opinions to this =)
canon queer women of tv part one/who knows
rosa diaz - brooklyn nine-nine // claire devlin - derry girls // casey gardner and izzie - atypical // brittany pierce and santana lopez - glee // kate messner and emaline addario - everything sucks! // rasha zuabi and zoë rivas - degrassi // fabiola torres and eve - never have i ever // elena alvarez - one day at a time // reagan lucas - new girl // eleanor shellstrop - the good place
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