#Complex Trauma

[yourhealingjournal]

sometimes you really do have to let go what you want to do at least for the moment, not because you don’t deserve it or you are not allowed to have it, but because you have too much on your plate & your peace is more worth keeping than the overwhelm of achieving everything now.

#note to self tbh #be kind to yourself #positive self talk #self love #healing #trauma recovery #complex trauma #gentle reminder #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #actually traumatized #actually borderline #procrastination #overwhelm #task management #perfectionism #healing journey #healing quotes #yourhealingjournal

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Can we please for the love of god stop telling teenagers they’re too young to have aches and pains. Can we please stop being dismissive about these things. Fakeclaiming is disgusting period, but it is exponentially harmful to youth. Just because you didn’t start hurting until your 20s or 30s or 40s doesn’t mean every teenager complaining of chronic pain must be lying. I learned the hard way that if kids are invalidated enough about this, they will just learn to accept constant pain as a fact of life. And then they will need surgery they can’t afford in ten years bc it turns out constant pain is NOT a fact of life. At any age.

p.s. same goes for mental health

#chronic pain #chronic illness #medical trauma #tw fakeclaiming #fake claiming #anti fakeclaiming #childhood trauma #complex trauma #physical disability #disability advocacy

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

#narcissistic abuse #parental abuse #cptsd life #complex trauma #just cptsd things #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #mental health #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #overwhelmed #therapy #coping #mental illness

[incendavery]

its actually quite simple

#comics on tumblr #artists on tumblr #diary comic #complex trauma #squirrel #davedrawsstuff #no image description

[neuroticboyfriend]

time with complex trauma is like. i need to do everything all at once and if i don't i'm a failure, even if there's nothing to do. three months ago feels like yesterday but i can hardly remember yesterday anyway. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. i need everything to slow down but my life is so stagnant. i can't go to sleep because the day can't end, but i need the day to end or i'll go insane. i'm constantly worrying about the future but it feels like i have no future. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. time has no meaning but every second is the end of the world.

or is this just me?

#someone tell me they relate #i never see anyone talk about this kinda thing #softspoonie #cptsd #trauma #ptsd #complex ptsd #complex trauma #traumatized #actually traumatized #c-ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #trauma victim #trauma survivor #vent

[webkinzpossum]

complex trauma is kicking my ass

#opossum memes #opossumcore #possum memes #possumcore #complex trauma #trauma #cptsd #complex ptsd #complex dissociative disorder #childhood trauma #cdd #osddid #osdd #disociative identity disorder #mental illness #mental illness memes

[lefluoritesys]

TW: talk about physical abuse

Friendly reminder that physical abuse isn't just hitting or throwing something at someone. It's also knowing that you are injured and making you walk around for hours. It's putting you through physical labour that is causing you physical harm. Anything they make you do that causes you physical harm is physical abuse. Don't put it in a box. (At least for the sake of your own mental health)

-physical protector & external soother

#did #osdd system #did system #osdd #system #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #system stuff #system things #did osdd #physical abuse #tw abuse #abuse survivor #child abuse #abuse trauma #complex trauma #childhood trauma #trauma #ptsd recovery #complex ptsd #ptsd #complex dissociative identity disorder #osdd 1a #osdd 1b

[i-go-out-walking]

I need someone to save me from things that happened years ago

#actually mentally ill #mental health #mental illness #childhood trauma #complex ptsd #complex trauma #mentally fucked #trauma #vent #actually ptsd

[psychosiscupcake]

“it wasn’t that bad” - and yet, you still are wounded

“other people have gone through worse” - and yet, you still are wounded

“i don’t think about it much” - and YET, you still are wounded

the fact is you are wounded and that is all that matters

#actually traumatized #actually traumagenic #trauma #traumatized #post traumatic stress disorder #actually ptsd #ptsd #complex ptsd #complex trauma

[yourhealingjournal]

actually, to have the audacity to live, to take up space, is the scariest and most rewarding gift you can give yourself.

#cptsd recovery #gentle reminder #living with cptsd #cptsd healing #be kind to yourself #trauma recovery #self love #radical self love #positive self talk #actually cptsd #actually borderline #complex trauma #just cptsd things #healing #recovery #recovery quotes

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Gentle reminder that your disability and/or chronic illness struggles are valid, even if others have it worse. It’s not like there’s one definitive Most Disabled Person In The World and they’re the only one entitled to accommodations or reactive emotions. That’s not how it works <3

#physical disability #chronic illness #neurological disability #adhd autistic #audhd #neurodiversity #did osdd #late diagnosed autistic #complex trauma #invisible disability #invisible illness #intersectionality #comorbidities #comorbid conditions #disability representation #disability accommodations #disability advocacy #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled representation #disabled rant #disability things #chronic illness things

[nothing0fnothing]

The number of times I've caught myself in the middle of telling myself how worthless, unlovable, dislikable and embarrassing I am is too many. It's almost every day.

And sometimes I correct myself and say "I am not unlovable" "I am allowed to make mistakes" "I have grown and changed since then."

Sometimes, I just wallow in the shame.

#raised by narcissists #narcissistic abuse #dysfunctional family #childhood trauma #parental abuse #dysfunctional household #toxic parents #vent post #toxic mom #complex trauma #mental health #mental illness #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #overwhelmed #coping #therapy

[subsystems]

Infographics from Beauty After Bruises's article on complex post traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Please read the full article here!

#dissociative identity disorder #complex post traumatic stress disorder #cptsd #ptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #actuallydid #actuallytraumatized #actuallyptsd #actuallydissociative #actuallytraumagenic #mental health #mental health awareness #DID awareness #trauma #complex trauma #dissociation #beauty after bruises #sunflower posts

[neuroticboyfriend]

do you have "treatment resistant depression" or are you just fundamentally living a life that would make anyone depressed?

are you just dealing with abuse, poverty, and oppression? are you just dealing with a lifetime of trauma? do we just live in a society where peoples basic needs are neglected, and the completely understanble response to that is pathologized? on purpose? so that it's just an individual problem and people arent Trying Enough... so nothing about the system has to change?

...do you have "treatment resistant depression," or do you just need real community, support, resources, and protection?

#yes depression is multifacted so if this post doesnt resonate with you.. just keep fucking scrolling #dont come at me like itS A chEMiCaL imBaLanCe.. #come back to me when you understand the point being made and dont derail. thanks #softspoonie #depression #depressed #treatment resistant depression #depressive disorder #major depressive disorder #oppression #systemic inequality #systemic injustice #systemic ableism #ableism #mental health #mental illness #mentally ill #trauma #complex trauma #ptsd #cptsd #traumatized #abuse survivor #abuse #survivor #antipsychiatry #antipsych #anti psych #anti psychiatry #psychiatry

[avpdrecovery]

my current avpd theory

i've been thinking and i think i have a theory about avpd based on all the things i've been reading and listening to lately.

i think avpd consists of/comes to be because of these things:

initial traumatic experience (that included some kind of rejection or ostracization)

no healthy way to process trauma or co-regulate with anyone

dissociation from the "real you" (it is associated with shame due to initial trauma, but also perhaps out of self-protection)

coping mechanism to make up for dissociated "real you" (masking, agoraphobia, social anxiety, co-dependency and/or enmeshment ("safe person"),...)

relational self via the "real you" remains underdeveloped or not there at all (so this could be b/c of masking, not engaging at all, ...)

lacking experiences of being "experienced by another person" as described in the infamous article/study as well as this post and this post.

this then spirals into the known avpd symptoms

the dissociation part is the important part though. i think this is key. the reason why people with avpd report this feeling of not being there, feeling invisible, etc... is because of this i think. for me i always felt like i was a robot or running on a "low flame". and when i use the term "dissociation" i'm using it as it is used in trauma and cptsd circles. a kind of detachment and separation from our own true being, feelings, thoughts, etc...

and when you're dissociated, it's hard to truly interact with people and practice that relational self muscle. instead, if you even have relationships with others, they are superficial, involve a lot of masking & mirroring and can only be kept up for so long, because that is exhausting in the long run. it's impossible to be genuine or vulnerable when you're not really there and not really being honest for the fear of repeating the trauma (shame and fear). and the more time passes with us desperately trying to engage others without our "real self" being in the drivers seat, the more we feel out of sync with everyone else and the more the formation of our relational self suffers and remains underdeveloped or not there at all. everything begins to compound into the known symptoms.

i don't know i've been going through old stuff (journals and letters) of mine and i'm so confused, but i'm trying to think through it all in the hopes of finding a way out. as always. 🥲 maybe the theory makes sense to others, too?

#avoidant personality disorder #avpd #avoidant #avoidance #trauma #complex trauma #complex ptsd #dissociation #relational self #avpdrecovery #avpd ramblings

[lefluoritesys]

Healing is also realizing you're going to have trauma reactions even after you decided to be healthy. That even after saying: "I want to heal, and rest, and I'm going to try to get better," you still let yourself reject help, struggle with trauma reactions, and unhealthy habits. That it's okay, and it's a part of healing. As long as you try to get better.

It's not going to happen immediately. If anything, at first, it's going to get way worse, horrible, even. And then better, and then bad again, and then you'll start getting relapses. And that's okay.

Relapse is a part of healing. Feeling all the bad stuff is a part of healing. Allowing yourself to be traumatized is a part of healing.

-host

#did #did system #osdd #osdd system #system #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #system stuff #system things #did osdd #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #healing #complex trauma #childhood trauma #trauma #ptsd recovery #complex ptsd #ptsd