#DO NOT RB

[an-albino-pinetree]

@plutothecatplushy is goin absolutely wild in my notifications, and I love it so much sfjjn

you are so very 100% valid for the absolute simpening taking place in my posts 💚💚

The next post will* be a carnival page~ for my fellow Carnival lovers -//v//- 🩶

#my stuff #wip #do not rb #tree talks #nonsense #shitpost #🩶🩶

[mcondance]

mcon, Black, they she fae. no f! terms. 20. white people dni /srs

rules mlist anons

#is this a tim shrine. . yeah #🎈 navi . #do not rb

[cupcraft]

I also want to clarify some of my posts from the other day and just like explain where my head's at. This is not a vague to anyone btw its just about me.

My posts about "no speculation" was mostly because I saw leaktwt stuff in which was pressuring Shubble, digging up extremely private information about HER, and also using tommy vlogs as evidence of something and it made me feel so sick as a victim who wouldnt wnat that to happen to me about my past abusers. It was a very triggering day for me and I regret posting so much about it as I did without that clarity.

However, I want to be clear people coming to their own quite obvious conclusions about the situation was never the problem (I have come to conclusions myself as well, though I don't think I need to state them out loud nor do I need to make a long post about what posting on my blogs gonna be like at this time I don't think that's productive for me personally). And I never NEVER meant to post as if I was supporting abusers, none of my posts were to be "neutral" or defend anyone at all and I don't think it came accross that way but I want to make sure and emphasize that in case it did.

We can live in a world where pressuring Shubble and harming her and her private information (meaning the stuff that wasn't what she talked about publicly) is bad and also moving intentionally to not platform abusers can exist in the same realm. Shubble made it clear that silence has only bolstered this man, and that he's dangerous and will hurt others again and again.

So, I just ask, going forward. Please be kind, please do not pressure Shubble at all, do not entertain leaktwt doxes/nor their intentions (which is not pro-victim). But do bolster Shubble's message and her wishes above all else. Do not let your misogyny cloud how you talk about Shubbles story. Do be cautious in platforming abusers. Do be patient with us victims who are triggered by all this in the fandom again. Do not make long posts saying you support your fav male cc and why "you'll always stand by him" and do not victim blame or try to pick apart shubbles story you equally make me sick to leaktwt doxxes and you are not pro-victim either. Do not use your stories or other peoples stories of abuse to denounce Shubble's do not attempt to discredit her because your experiences were different or you just really really want to defend your male cc.

And I am sorry I posted without clarity and while I was in a triggered state of mind (those posts have mostly been deleted).

I just I'm scared. I cannot go through another moment in this fandom where people blame and harm victims like many did during the dream allegations. I cannot do that again. I cannot. Your behavior has consequences and does in fact harm people, that is why it's so important to be for victims. I love you all, thank you. And if you areleaving the fandom/blog/etc. as a mutual of mind feel free to reach out if you want to stay in contact o7

#my musings #tw abuse mention #cup.shubble #do not rb

[reimeichan]

We just got out of a call with our mother, and... I'm not going to diagnose her with anything, but viewing her behavior through the lens of her having distinct dissociated parts of self really helps us better understand her. And the more we interact with her, the more we see signs of that: how one moment she remembers the things we told her months ago, the next her attitude has completely changed and she'll say "what thing? you never mentioned that before to me in my life!"

And just.... it hurts. It fucking hurts so much.

That woman is not just an evil, manipulative, abusive bitch who hurt me time and time again as a child. Now that I'm more integrated I actually can remember moments where my mother was nice and kind and patient with me. And this past phone call with her was exactly that: she was willing to hear me out and offered me a lot of aid and help and even wisdom for what I'm going through. And I realized, fuck, that's Nice Mother, isn't it? I never, ever deal with Nice Mother. That's always been Gray's thing.

No, what usually happened throughout my childhood and even my adulthood was that we would hope for Nice Mother to be the one to talk to us, or even Airhead Mother or Work Mother, and sometimes we would be greeted with a mature, level-headed version of our mother. But sometimes, she would suddenly change and go from understanding and patient to cruel and paranoid in what seemed to be a flip of a switch. And in those moments, I'd have to step in to do some form of damage control... so of course I never met Nice Mother. I have only ever known Angry Mother.

And now that I've met Nice Mother, how the fuck am I supposed to reconcile that these are the same person? That this woman who has caused me so much pain and grief for almost 30 years of my life is also the same woman who hugged me and told me that she'd do whatever is in her power to help me through the toughest times? How do I stop being so jealous of the other versions of me, who likely arose to handle the other versions of her, for having essentially a different mother from me despite those mothers all being the same person?

I'm so, so angry that I was never given the opportunity to feel loved and supported by her. The other parts of me have, but what about me? I've only ever had a cruel mother. But they... of course they had a kind mother. Because I kept them from the cruel mother. But I deserve to have a kind mother too.

Fuck, I don't know what I'm trying to say. I'm typing all this as I'm bawling my eyes out. I just need somewhere to type it all out and get some thoughts in order.

#actually did #actuallydid #personal #by green #do not rb #but you're free to dm me or reply to this for whatever reason you may want to

[cherubdulce]

interest check! I’ve been practicing on my cheebs for awhile now and I’m considering to make a section of it for my Valentine’s Day comms with the base price of $20 (I might change it) (including coloring and such)

#cherub.txt #do not rb #btw I won’t make my sheet until hopefully(?) late jan or when I get most of my comms done since there’s a couple I need to get done #style maybe changed a tad bit but I want to experiment on it :)) #hi lin and max whos see this :33

[hypnogogyc]

God i fucking missed digital painting

#do not rb #wip #i will never touch lined composition notebook paper with pen every again #*ever #colors… layers #… brusheddsd

[bbina]

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[atesomerocks]

so uh yeah. as someone who was a fan of wilbur soot for many, many years and has been continuing to follow his music career, i cant say that i am not absolutely fucking appalled and disgusted with whats come to light. genuinely i now just wish i had known what kind of person this was before i ever showed any support for them, and i can assure anyone wondering that any shred of respect i once might have held for the man is completely evaporated.

support shelby and the victims.

#i ask that none of my past support of him/fanart of him be reblogged or generally used #the fact ive taken the time to draw and create things inspired by someone who would do that makes me sick. #tw mentions of abuse #tw wilbur soot #serious post #txt #not art #do not rb #also ill be going thru and trying to private as many of my works related to him as i possibly can

[mcondance]

girlhood, infinitely.

mcon, they she fae. no fem terms. 20. white people dni.

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#best viewed in low contrast and light mode . #spam like = blocked #do not rb

[divinemackerel]

grieving is awful. try to draw a tribute to someone, fail, cry for 30 minutes. stop. try to draw them again.

#personal #do not rb

[sirius-to-pup]

Hey friends! I'd like to make a yume/selfship server, but mainly for friends! It's gonna be selective because I plan to make dedicated gush channels mostly to avoid others speaking over each other and doubles. If this is something any of my mutuals are interested in joining, feel free to like this post 💛

#smoothie.txt #do not rb #i might rb this again later for the later crew ! #even though its selective i promise i dont bite ;o

[hexellent]

Ooooo you wanna trophy wife him so baaaad

Apparently I can only go ham on oc art…I will always be my babies’ biggest fan. 😭💜

#don't yell at me i'll cry {ooc} #it’s my problem if i want to pack up and run away {muse: diego} #my art #do not rb #I’m contractually obligated to make him pretty. #and expressionless apparently

[darkgreenandbloodred]

My brother, the black sheep, and I, the scapegoat, have recently started talking again. About life and our toddlers, about death, mental health, grief, the lost years, about being jaded and cynical and traumatized. It’s been nice.

#personal #do not rb