#Dean will never see him again

[quietwingsinthesky]

it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This. #castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it! #which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!! #but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE. #that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there. #something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him. #anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons. #thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel. #again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together. #something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life. #something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

[lakemichigans]

“I forgot you do that. Whenever we get – what’s the word – close? Anywhere in the neighborhood of emotional vulnerability? You back off, or make some joke, or find any way to shut the door on me.”

FAVORITE SPN COUPLES (1/?) → Dean & Cassie

#supernatural #spn edit #spn #dean winchester #cassie robinson #spn gifs #deanedit #deancassie #spngifs #spn 1x13 #favoritespncouples #everybody loves season 1 aesthetics til its time to gif #anyway dean spilled the family secret to cassie after just a few weeks #i never want to hear anyone say he's the less emotional / romantic one ever again #i'm convinced the only reason why dean has this womanizer reputation is because we see season 1 from sam's POV #they've grown apart so much but sam still thinks dean is exactly who he was at 20 #so the audience is told that dean doesn't want to settle down and could never take a relationship seriously #even though we know that's not true. his life just doesn't allow him to get what he wants #anyway the point is i love cassie and i love them together #but i'm glad she survived and never got involved with the winchesters drama <3 #myspn

[xofemeraldstars]

that's his boy :')

#i'm tearing up lads that's his kid he thought he would never see him again 😭😭 #dean winchester #bobby singer #spn #kya watches stuff #wrewatch #w: kripke #spn 4x1

[opheliasam]

regardless of everything I think it’s pretty much undeniable that season one dean would full on commit murder-suicide (kill late seasons dean and then himself) if he saw the state of late seasons sam and i think that’s pretty telling

#early seasons sam would just get immensely angry and horribly depressed like what the hell happened here #early seasons dean being unable to even fathom not forgiving sam for anything and everything because that is his baby brother #and he sees how much guilt late seasons sam feels and how the fight has been beaten out of him #how he’s been violated again and again in the most insidious ways and how his anger is gone and he never wanted this #it would break his heart it would #sam winchester #spn #dean winchester #personal

[lonewolf638]

Leila Chatti, "Fault" + Sam & Dean Winchester.

DEAN Even if I said yes, it doesn't mean squat. Sam will never say yes – not to you.

EZEKIEL But he would say yes to you.

#sam and dean #spn edit #supernatural #spn #my edit #web weaving #sam winchester #dean winchester #ezekiel #sam looks so good teary eyed fuck his best look #szn 8 #this arc was all kinds of fucked up but i love codependency so its ok #still!! it hurts so good that dean never apologized for it!! he doesnt regret it one bit #:(( hate the fact that dean was self-deprecating when sam said he sees his hands killing kevin #he just doesnt get it its so bad that its good i love him 2 bits #let him hit you again

[waywardvamp]

Supernatural went on for so long I am honestly surprised they didn't do the "Let's revisit this character from a few seasons back" thing more often. I don't know, with how many people's lives they have fundamentally changed you'd expect to see them come across people more often. Or get called back. Or something.

#spn #supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #yes this is about Jesse Turner but it's NOT only about him it's about most one episode characters there are SO MANY that it would have been #interesting to see again #ejem Kaia Nieves I'm so pissed we never got to see Kaia and Claire interact again

[jerevision]

RIP Bojan in that slutty white shirt I guess

#joker out #bojan cvjetićanin #the slutty white shirt #we'll probably never see him in it again #forever lost in some mysterious part of finland hmm #dean's latest photos brought back all the feels help

[segernatural]

what is castiel's greatest regret?

link to panel is here, timestamp: 20:54, images below cut

when he was god he could've fixed the world but failed to

'he harboured his feelings for 10 years without actually sharing them, and waited until he was about to die to share his affections'

he never really patched things up with his angel brethren in heaven

he never actually felt like he belonged on earth

(likely connected to above but) he had very few friends

he had a very, very limited wardrobe

as cas looks back on his life, it's probably nothing but one giant sweep of regret

misha did book-end it with:

"Well, I think, in the big picture, Cas... the thing that I like about that character is that he always tried to do the right thing, always tried to do what he thought was good and righteous. And sometimes he made mistakes, but that was always his North Star, and I quite like that about him."

#this went in several directions. but it is very interesting to think about. #i use a destiel lens bc i often do #but its really something. to think about cas regretting not saying something sooner. and i think its a testament to how the confession went #because there were very legitimate reasons for cas not to say anything. but now. after. after the dust settles after the words are out. #after he sees dean hear it. he wishes he said it sooner. #because he knows hes not gonna lose him. fuck. and they couldve had something. #if only he didnt. stop himself. over and over and over again. #10 years. a blink in the eye for him and yet. everything. every moment. every time. i should've said it. i should've told him. #but i didn't. #at the very least he did get to say it. and save him one last time. but they could've had years. fuck. 😭 #sorry but also. the 'waited til he was about to die' cause he knows what itll do to dean. itll fuck everything up. itll break him. #(in hindsight he knows this now) dying is already enough. but leaving dean with that. with instead of 'we never...' it was. 'we almost' #'we did. for one brief second we did' #spn #destiel #char speaks #15x18 despair #favourites

[clowndensation]

wait explain to me the destiel hatred i’m curious what abt it angers u that doesn’t apply to the other two ships

great question! the answer would unfortunately require 3 hours and a powerpoint presentation, so i will try to do a brief summary:

a ship sucking only ever has about 25% to do with the ship itself. destiel is bad in the sense that i think dean winchester is an annoying character that gets treated with kiddie gloves by the narrative, which makes him irritating to see on screen, because i personally dislike it when "men are angry and abusive because they just love too strongly, and don't know how to express it :(" is played straight as a character's primary internal conflict. especially over 15 seasons. it's boring, he's boring, and 35 year old men shouldn't be going to colleges trying to figure out which freshman girls are legal or not. hate him.

however the real sin of destiel, beyond the fact that dean winchester and i have beef that will only ever resolve when i get to reincarnate as the rusty nail that kills him, is that the fans are so so so fucking annoying. like yes the narrative frames dean as a golden boy who can either do no wrong, or "well, i guess he did wrong there, but what about how tortured he is :(" but good god. at least the show isn't trying to convince me that destiel is some groundbreaking lifechanging love story, complete with "omg this moment" montages where they romanticize scenes that feature dean either insulting, threatening, or humiliating cas. like this entire show (post season 5) is dean chronically either infantillizing and attempting to keep cas under his control, or holding him up as the only person he can rely on, thus giving cas expectations that are impossible to fulfill.

and don't get me wrong! people can like a shitty person and a fucked up ship. that's basically everything i enjoy on here. but at least like. acknowledge it. aldfkjalka. and if you're gonna like a shitty person and a fucked up ship, at least write about it in an interesting way. 90% of fic and posts written about destiel aren't even about destiel as presented in canon, they're about two generic men with generic personalities who suffer from the world's most generic tropey problems. cookie cutter ass basic relationship. the high school au of ships. boring.

#like johnlock is boring and moffat makes all his characters suck ass but whatever. sherlock will never be as bad as dean so i don't care #wincest's key flaw is that it's incest. which does make me uncomfortable to read! i don't care for it! #but once again. disliking a ship only has 25% to do with the ship itself. #i don't see wincest shippers telling me that wincest is groundbreaking queer cinema so at worst it's just a ship i prefer not to see #people mention destiel and i'm forced to ask: #'do you actually find the ship compelling or is jackles just a tall man with green eyes. answer quickly.' #while they shout about how sam is useless and shouldn't be in the show and how everything would be better if every character just did #as dean said and stopped disagreeing with him #like the absolute dissonance of people hating john winchester and then claiming dean is a good person. lol. lmao even. #anti destiel #destiel critical #<- trying to cover my bases here. this is all quite mean i realize #what you have to understand is that dean is my number 2 least favorite character of all time #this is as nice as i can get. there are drafts of this post where i'm meaner.

[angelsdean]

every time i see gifs of dean hugging miracle i wanna eggsplode he was so. fucking sad oh my god. like oh my god he was lonely sad depressed mourning. look at him curl around that dog ! look at him seeking comfort ! look at him rocking side to side :( 

#i've never actually watched that ep but the good (sad sad sad) 15x19 that lives in my mind is characterized by profound silence #completely in dean's pov and just. the whole world feels quiet muted and far away bc he's so deep in his grief #and we just see him going thru the motions and then when he's alone he's just curled up with miracle or sleeping (so he can dream of cas) #(even if it's a nightmare. even if it's just relieving those final moments together. at least he gets to see cas again) #vic.txt

[fivefeetfangirl]

What if... what if there was Purcon 8 Baldsen Ackles but make it 91w version

you want this??

someone put this on a t shirt so i can get it signed by jensen

#THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG AND I HAD WAY TOO MUCH FUN WITH THIS #nonny you should know my family LAUGHED AT ME #i asked them 'does this look like a good head line' AND THEY LAUGHED #my brother just stared at me like this 👁👄👁 #ignore the cigarette being the wrong way it was the last thing i added and my patience was running out #also enjoy some 91w barefoot dean action shjdhsjdh #embarrassing how bad this is considering MY JOB IS PHOTOGRAPHY hdksjfhkdsjfh but we never photoshop so i think im allowed to be bad lmaooo #91w #again sorry to every more normal person than me that follows that tag #sorry to all new followers who followed for normal amount of crazy content #im actually considering getting a jackles auto to get him to sign my baldsen t shirt (right on his forehead hjsdhsjdh) but we'll see what #happens lol im not exactly made of money either lol #baldsen actually started out as a joke to me but now im more like hmmm leaning into it maybe the man should just shave his head #and then i see his long hair and i change my mind lol #but still a funny af meme #baldsen ackles

[quietwingsinthesky]

what if. Amy “fix-it” because hallucifer makes sam so paranoid about dean leaving for no reason that sam gives in and follows him and is witness to the whole thing

#hallucifer: wow. big brother really trusts us. (beat) so something’s up right? we know it’s never this easy. #sam: (visibly restraining himself from saying shut up. about to grab his scar.) #hallucifer: (aware he’s about to be banished) don’t listen to me if you want but. I’m just trying to help. #don’t blame me if you look in the papers tomorrow and find a obit for your brain-eating girlfriend. and… what was her kid’s name again? #sam: (touching the scar. not pressing down. face all screwed up.) || hallucifer: :3 it’s not like it’ll hurt anyone #if he really does trust you he doesn’t even have to know we’re following him. *and* you’ll know your brother still trusts you. #even when I’m here. maybe he won’t even punch you again. that still hurting? #sam: (grimace. because yeah. it does.) || hallucifer: door number two - he thinks you’ve lost it and he’s going to stab that woman to death. #so what’s it gonna be Sam? ready to gamble your friend’s life on if Dean gives a shit about your opinion? #[and that’s the point where sam goes to follow dean. still doesn’t talk to Lucifer. not there yet. but oh hallucifer is sooo pleased with #himself about this. because he’s Sam. and he picks up on what Sam doesn’t. and he could see all of Dean’s little giveaways that Sam was #turning a blind eye to. and now here’s the perfect opportunity to put a wedge between them and get sam to trust him more <3) #GOD. FUCK. IM UPSET NOW. WHY WASNT HALLUCIFER IN THAT EPISODE. MOST OF THE EPISODES? #such a good fucking concept. squandered. #anyway. idk if sam saves Amy but he DEFINITELY here’s Dean’s little speech to her about how she can’t change. #hallucifer with faux sympathy like (sigh) damn. well. i always told you what he was like. Michael. Michael-sword. no difference. #both of them want us dead the moment we step out of line. #and Sam just frozen there in horror with Lucifer’s voice sinking in. and he believes him. how can he not. with dean proving him right #hallucifer #spn #sam winchester #amy pond

[certifiedwerewolf]

This fandom's gonna have me He Would Not Fucking Say That'ing over John Winchester of all people. If I have to read one more fic flattening him to a one-dimensional caricature that the boys unequivocally hate without question instead of the much more realistic and nuanced characterization we got from all three of them-- like there is so much bad about Supernatural but the messy, nuanced feelings the boys have about their dad is actually really good, realistic writing. It might be cathartic to have the boys just decide one day that they hate their dad and everything he did was bad but He Would Not Fucking Say That.

#idk maybe something happened in the later seasons but it doesn't feel like it from what i've seen #actually i've seen a lot of stuff that does let it stay nuanced but a lot of what i see is like #fans who are frustrated that dean and/or sam never looked at the camera and said 'anyway dad was abusive and i hate him forever now' #so they decided to just write fanfic about it #which again i get the catharsis i do #it's just very frustrating to see it flattened out like that

[bisaster-energy]

cas voice im not your father belphegor voice yeah sorry about that

#something something cas not realizing the horrors of his actions until years later and in the worst possible way #the despair. the disgust. seeing someone u knew u love being worn. like a snazzy outfit looking exactly like always but #so clearly Not Right #cas seeing that demon flirt with dean like it's a joke moving what was once his child in ways that are completely wrong #and having that oh moment. is this what it felt like for claire. when she could still see her father but will never see him again because #he's gone and all that's left is the shell. a new hermit crab climbed into before the old one even #decayed. the way cas can appreciate the feelings and intricacies of human life but only #only if it's painful. it wasn't a date. the sex meant nothing it was a trap. ur not important enough to stay with dean. #ur child is gone and suddenly u become lily sunder suddenly u understand claire suddenly #suddenly dean says you're dead to him and you have no one #the effort cas put into learning how emotions work and sympathizing when he used to dismiss #Only for his own grief and sorrow to be spat on #im gonna cry #cas my best friend cas

[writeouswriter]

Bitches* be like “this is a story about a guy who can see ghosts, you like ghosts, right? You like fairly grounded low level contemporary fantasy about psychic powers, right?” and then hit you with a giant alien mind controlling bug man and demon pig hybrid cavemen from the future.

*Dean Koontz, Dean Koontz is bitches

#bro I hate it here #I’m still so bitter #odd Thomas #dean Koontz #any time someone recommends me odd Thomas when I ask for book recs based on a certain genre I just #I just know they didn’t read past the second or third one #4.5 and 5 are hmm they are something #5’s setup is so good but then talk about disenchanting follow through I was gonna throw the book #demon pig cavemen hybrids from the future???? dean Koontz why #why do you enjoy my suffering dean Koontz #it’s been years and yet I cannot will not forgive #book 4 though is my favourite of them #book 3 has some... horrifying but interesting scenes #book 2 was meh #book 1 was decent but tragic but my favourite part was the small town world building and side cast #which we promptly never get to see again for the rest of the series #anyway top ten anime betrayals: the direction the odd Thomas series went in #it’s so convoluted and f—ked up #like man no one actually looks at this guy’s books before he publishes not even him #I want to fight dean koontz

[adammilligan]

THINKING about adam and kate again and how all the background information we're given about adam was that he was fundamentally a Good Son. good enough grades to graduate with honors, loves his mom, raised himself when she couldn't, etc. and it's so LONELY growing up an only child much less one that would have to be alone all the time because kate was either working at night or sleeping in the day!!! and it makes me wonder why someone as close to his mom as adam would go to a whole other state for college instead of just staying in minnesota. i wonder if kate kind of pushed him to go away. like granted he only went one state over to wisconsin but still! i wonder if adam kind of grew up with the same mindset a lot of kids who watch the parent(s) that they love struggle which is yknow that they'll postpone college and stick around and work and help. genuinely kind of wonder if kate shooed him out of the house because she has that same sort of "i want you to be better than this" love that a lot of parents have because they don't want their kids to end up in the same situation as them. and of course adam wouldn't argue about it of course he'd pack his things and move a whole state over to a public university in a country where out-of-state tuition is sky high and he'd aim for a career that pays more than kate's. because kate wants him to be better. because he's a good son.

#there's no rhyme or reason to this it's just me spitting my thoughts out. but still! #adam with his clearly and genuinely loving relationship with kate already has a different parental dynamic set up for him than others on #this show. like it wouldn't be like dean's good son-ing with loyalty to an absent father and it wouldn't be like sam's rebelliousness #where john told him to never come back if he went to college #adam is the good son in a very straightforward and loving relationship with his kind-of absent MOTHER. which already alters things enough #it's not because he fears her. he would keep his head down and his nose clean and do what little she asks of him #because he knows she loves him and that she wants what's best for him #and because he led a fundamentally lonely childhood and that's just how he grew up so he'd hang on to her every word. just a little #i mean!!!! he was literally willing to sacrifice half the planet for a chance to see her again!!!! that's insane!!!! #gah. i don't know i'm just musing #kate rambles #adam milligan #kate milligan