#Depression thoughts

[babyjustmasturbate]

Kennst du das, wenn du die ganze Zeit versucht zu funktionieren und irgendwann ein Punkt kommt, wo es nicht mehr geht? Manchmal hab ich das Gefühl, ich wäre wie ein Geist, der durch diese Welt wandert und unsichtbar mit allem möglichen klarkommen muss..

#eigenes #gedanken #thinking #allone #hate #depression thoughts

[numb-little-bugg]

the feminine urge to go jump off a bridge

#my post #please don’t report #dont report just block #depression #depressed #tw: depression #mental health #tw #sewer slide #su!cide #tw self destructive behavior #suicudal #trigger warning #tw: sucidal thoughts #depression thoughts #tw sui vent #su!cidal #su!c!de

[tr4nqui1tr4g3dy]

“How a Borderline Loves (Part 3)” - edited and compiled by @ifuckinggiveup

#love #thoughts #heartache #heartbreak #dark grunge #2am thoughts #depression thoughts #3 am thoughts #grunge #how a borderline loves #borderline personality disorder #bpd thoughts #indie art #art collage #tranquility #3am thoughts #2 am thoughts #too many thoughts #loneliness #commitment #love that seems obsessive #but we’re actually just very loyal #and we REALLY like you #and we REALLY want to make you happy #we just go overboard sometimes #and it’s overwhelming #heartsick #lovesick

[thedemonbunnys-blog]

Fucking hell I loved a boy sooo much I’m crying over him I just wish things would’ve have worked out sooo bad I really loved him bro and now he’s gone he was perfect just the boy I fucking wanted the boy that made me smile even when I’m depressed the boy who made me happy the boy who I wanted to be with at all times the fucking boy I only want is gone is fucking gone cuz he can’t do long distance relationships now I’m heart broken but I’m not even made at him and I probably will never be mad at him cuz I love him to much to be mad at him fucking hell god damnit I’m not okay I’m so not okay I wish he would just text me but he blocked me cuz my friend told him to leave me alone so he didn’t hurt me again but I wish he wouldn’t have blocked me so bad so fucking bad now I’m crying my eyes out fuck…..

#depressing shit #depression thoughts #sad thoughts #feeling alone #i​life sucks #alone with my thoughts #how i feel #my life #music #music is therapy

[tryingtowriteastory]

If I had been selfish…

Her words were like arrows through my heart; shot so easily, causing me pain on every inch of my body. She’ll never know if I was selfish, she wouldn’t have me here. I would have let go of this pain long ago, but then knowingly would have passed it on to her.

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[dragons-for-the-win]

I just want someone to save me. Is that so much to ask?

To have someone tell me that my life is worth living.

To know that someone cares

#sorry for being depressing #sui vent #su1cide #su!cidal #tw sui ideation #depression thoughts

[siecobaina]

saw via li's vid about never being in a romantic relationship at age 20 and goddd i could so relate i can't even see myself navigating the steps of getting a boyfriend, it seems completely out of my realm entirely

i feel like in the past year i've developed this kind of bitter worldview of like: there are datable people and there are undatable people, and these categories are completely separate from any categories of 'pretty' and 'ugly' and 'popular' and 'unpopular' and even 'kind-hearted' vs. 'mean.' and i know this because i have been all over the spectrum. in middle school and early high school i was really ugly and was kind of mean and unpopular but as i grew up and learned more, i also got better at taking care of myself and became more pretty and popular.

but still, even after all of that, i have never been able to be in a relationship. even after being confessed to by a guy, it's like there's this threshold into a relationship that i can never walk through. it almost feels like playing a game, and i am admittedly ass at playing it. it doesn't help that i have all of these self esteem issues that makes me doubt that anyone loves me at all.

now that i'm in college, it feels even more isolating. i am popular among my classmates but i don't have any friends. it's like i can't even convert people from my acquaintances to someone who actually wants to spend time with me outside of school. and, of course, since i can't even make a single friend, i can't get into a relationship either.

i've been really isolating myself lately, during my free time, i instantly go hide in my dorm. i take really long showers and i eat at restaurants off campus or eat snacks in my dorm to avoid going to the cafeteria and being seen sitting alone.

i feel like it'll be impossible to start making connections with people again until i am ready to be seen having no friends. until i'm ready to admit to another person that i am lonely and i need some company. but i have too much pride and i'm too embarrassed to be seen like that to do it.

#mental health #mental heath support #actually mentally ill #depression and anxiety #depression thoughts #depression awareness #anxiety recovery #therapy #never been loved #never been kissed #i wish i had friends #i wish i had a boyfriend #isolation #self isolation #attachment issues #fear of rejection

[antisocialbutterflyclub]

Imagine telling someone with depression that they are a coward for committing suicide (and failing).

#3d #cvt #tw #depressing shit #depressing quotes #cvtt!ng #tw vent #tw depressing stuff #kinda depressing #depression thoughts #venting #sewer slide #sewerslide #twsewerslide

[the-pain-inside-us]

I would love to tell someone how I am. What's happening in my head. What my thoughts are. But I have no idea how to talk about it. I have forgotten how to talk about myself. How it is to open up to someone. I always listen to everyone but nobody listens to me. I am always there for others. But nobody wants to know what's going on in my head. I am not surprised. Nobody wants to hear something about my chaos. This is the result of always putting yourself last. To get lost without anyone noticing. But that's life. In the end you are always alone.

#alone with my thoughts #feelings #depression #it's not good to be alone right know #alone #overthinking #alone in the night #no sleep #no rest for the head #feeling numb #depression thoughts #nobody cares #nobody listens

[babyjustmasturbate]

Ich weiß nicht, wieso ich manchmal so verletzend zu mir selbst bin. Ich möchte nicht alleine sein und isoliere mich dann selbst von allem.

#eigenes #gedanken #thinking #allone #hate #depression thoughts

[djalphaomega]

A world with such beauty within it, filled with such vile nature.

#cyber city oedo 808 #reflection #depression thoughts

[tr4nqui1tr4g3dy]

“You For You And Only You” - edited and compiled by @ifuckinggiveup

#love #thoughts #heartache #heartbreak #dark grunge #2am thoughts #depression thoughts #3 am thoughts #grunge #depressed thoughts #3am thoughts #2 am thoughts #too many thoughts #sad thoughts #loneliness #lovesick #vulnerability #indie art #art collage #photo collage #you and only you #you for you #unconditional love #unconditional acceptance #you don’t just find that anywhere #tranquility

[jedibinx]

Gentle reminder that any time past 9pm you shouldn't listen to yourself. Past 9pm is when the brain goblin wakes up and eats all your nice thoughts and farts out shitty thoughts.

If you have a shitty thoughts just remember it came from the brain goblins ass and nobody should take ass noises seriously.

#anxiety things #anxiety problems #brain goblin #depressing shit #depression thoughts #mental health #mental health tag

[secretimelady]

I'm not walking around in circles, I've realized. It's a downward spiral

#depression thoughts #depressing shit #tw: mental health

[mrs-mafia18]

Being alone with my thoughts is a dangerous thing...

That's all I am anymore though. Alone with only my demons to comfort me

#depressing shit #sadgirl #bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd favorite person #bpd feels #depression #depression thoughts #bpd mood #overthinking

[siecobaina]

pros and cons of being by yourself

pros:

- focus on yourself & understand yourself

- no rejection no heartbreak no humiliation

- can travel w/o feeling bogged down

- can do whatever you want lol

cons:

- loneliness

- don’t get to practice vulnerability

- boredom

- probably causes depression and low self esteem

#mental health #mental heath support #actually mentally ill #depression and anxiety #depression thoughts #depression awareness #anxiety recovery #therapy #depression journal #relationship advice #disorganized attachment #attachment issues #never been loved #unlovable