#Did I understand this question correctly? I feel like I'm missing the point
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i have an idea for a valetines day oneshot. could you do like the girl was in a toxic relationship before chris and she doesnt expect anything from chris because of the past but then he surprises her and like shows her how good it can be? like a lot of fluff and cuteness please. i hope this makes sense ly
☁️ SO THIS IS LOVE
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the request🤭
warnings ⎯ chris x fem!oc, fluff, mentions of previous relationships, cursing, very rushed, short and not proofread
A/N ⎯ happy valentines day lovers! this is the first time in my nineteen years of existing that i actually have a valentine and it feels so surreal?? quickly whipped this up because the request only came today so i apologise for the length
(also ily too anonymous)
i hope you enjoy <3
❛ ━━･❪ ִ ࣪𖤐 ❫ ･━━ ❜
delilah swiped to the next tik tok, sick of seeing every single one about valentines. she would be lying if she said she was surprised to see yet another video of a couple.
don't get her wrong, it wasn't as though she was jealous, she just didn't particularly understand the hype like everyone else did. for years, she had watched others on the day, not comprehending why the day was so special. even when she actually had a boyfriend the previous year, he never so much as uttered the words happy valentines to her. it was something she had grown accustomed to, the idea of spending the day like any other.
so even this year, when chris and her had decided he would pick her up to go his place, not once did she question it. she merely believed it was another regular day of her hanging out with her boyfriend. she wasn't expecting anything else as she awaited his arrival, sitting atop the bottom step with her shoes on so she could leave quickly.
chris 💖💖💖
i'm outside ma
del ❤️❤️
coming out in a sec
and that was exactly what she did, getting up from the steps and making the short walk to her front door before opening it and stepping outside. she saw his car parked nearby and made the small trek to it. she smiled to herself when he leaned over and opened the door from the inside, seeing as his car was still on. she stepped into the vehicle and gave him a soft smile.
he returned it easily, leaning a little once more to press a quick but sweet kiss to her more than welcoming lips. she smiled against his lips as they pulled apart and his eyes raked over her outfit and face.
"you look so fucking beautiful," he told her as he began to pull out of his spot and begin driving to his house.
"thank you, can't say the same for you," she teased with a laugh and he playfully rolled his eyes at her, the dynamic already feeling the way it always did; something the two of them adored more than anything.
"how has your day been?" he questioned, glancing at the rear view mirror briefly to check his surroundings before resting his hand on her thigh.
she slightly shuddered at the touch. he still made her feel goose bumps even after months and months of being together. the effect he had on her never dissipated and she would be embarrassed if not for the fact that she knew it was a mutual thing.
"pretty boring, i've just been waiting around for you to come and get me. i missed you," she stated even though they had literally seen each other a couple days ago.
"i missed you too, i always miss you," he grinned at her before he took a different turn to the usual route they took.
"i think you missed that turn love," she pointed out and he fought back his smile before turning to quickly face her with a shrug.
"it's basically the same thing," he lied but she furrowed her brows as she knew they were getting further and further away from his house.
"are you feeling⎯ " she started but she was cut off by his questioning words.
"close your eyes baby," he instructed and she looked towards him in confusion, wondering if she heard his words correctly.
"what?" she met his eyes and he grinned at her, only increasing her curiosity by the second.
"close them, you trust me right?" he pointed and she nodded rapidly, doing as he said and closing her eyes as she felt the car drive a little more before he parked somewhere.
she heard him step out of the car and move to her side, opening the door and grabbing her hand to help her out of the car. she kept her eyes shut per his commands and grasped his hand tightly, not knowing what to expect in the slightest.
"what are we doing?" she pondered aloud, walking in line with him and smiling when she felt his hands around her waist, guiding her to wherever they were headed.
"sh patience mama, we're almost there," he grinned, his hands rubbing soft circles against her skin and making her sigh contentedly.
then he paused in his tracks and turned to face her. if she felt the next place she was walking, she would instantly recognise where they were and he certainly didn't want that. he thought for a small moment before an idea popped into his head.
"why are we stopping?" her query was answered when he picked her up, her legs instantly wrapping around him with a slight yelp escaping her lips at the suddenness.
"you better be keeping those eyes closed," he warned her with a laugh and she couldn't help but laugh to despite not knowing what exactly was happening.
she would say they⎯ well he⎯ walked for around another minute before he at last stopped and placed her onto the ground softly, swivelling her body around so she was facing whatever he wanted her to.
she smiled as she felt the sand beneath her shoes; she loved the beach and chris knew that. it was a nice surprise but she had no idea what else was about to happen. he pulled her body so her back was pressed to his front and hooked his head over her shoulder.
"you can open your eyes now," he sounded so excited and she instantly allowed her eyes to fly open, a small gasp being released as her eyes surveyed the sight in front of her.
in front of them was a picnic blanket with all of her favourite things placed atop it from jam tarts to pasties to fruit and everything in between. there was a small hamper with a bunch of makeup and perfume as well as skin care products she always rambled on about but didn't think chris remembered. there was a small heart shaped cake in the centre that she couldn't quite make out the words written on but she would be lying if she said she didn't have a small inkling. the plates and glasses were pink and he had a few rose petals sprinkled all over the place.
she turned to him with the largest smile he had ever seen, "chris... oh my god. you're a fucking angel. i love you so much, this is so sweet."
he was about to tell her he loved her just as much, if not more, but her lips quickly found his in a passionate kiss. he slightly stumbled back at the force but quickly steadied himself, wrapping his arms around her waist and relishing in the way her hands found his neck and hair. she pulled away with a flushed look and a smile like none he had ever seen before.
"happy valentine's day baby," he breathed out, pressing another kiss to her lips and internally feeling relief that she actually liked his efforts.
"happy valentine's day," it was the first time in her life she had heard those words spoken to her and the first time she had said them to anyone.
she understood where people were coming from now. the magical sensation of being surprised and love being showed through the effort their partner put it. she adored chris more than anything but she never would have anticipated something like this. she didn't even think it was possible for something like this to happen.
she pulled him into the tightest embrace, speaking into his chest, "i love you so so much, no one has ever done anything like this for me before."
"no one? didn't you have a boyfriend last year?" he furrowed his brows in confusion; surely her ex had spoiled her the way she so desperately deserved.
"i mean yeah but we never celebrated, i never got the hype," she pulled away from him with a shrug and he looked appalled.
"you mean the idiot never did anything to show you how special you are?" he pondered aloud, ensuring he was understanding her words correctly.
she blushed at his words and shook her head, making him drop his jaw open in utter shock.
"what a fucking ass," chris rolled his eyes and she snickered at his words, not realising why he was making it such a big thing but at the same time noticing just how happy she was over chris actually doing something for her.
"now i feel bad... i just assumed you wouldn't want to celebrate either and i never even got you anything but you did all⎯" he stopped her rambling with a kiss, silencing her and making sure he poured every last emotion into the connection.
"stop talking ma, i don't expect shit in return," he told her and she beamed at him, feeling more loved than ever and wanting to remain in this moment for an eternity and more.
"come on, let's eat this shit, i'm hungry," he pulled her to sit beside him on one of the cushions but eventually he found herself straddling his lap, the most comfortable place if you asked her.
"so pretty," he mumbled against her neck and she hummed happily.
"you're so perfect," she returned, brushing her fingers through his hair and loving the way he leaned into her touch lightly.
he pulled away to look into her eyes, "i love you so much."
she pecked his cheek and when she pulled away, she spoke again, "i love you so so much."
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You broke up, but you still attend his matches
Character: Kenyu Yukimiya
wn: Hint at moments before blue lock, match with U-20
Part 1 with Kenyu Yukimiya!
the following: Hyoma Chigiri, Rin Itoshi, Yo Hiori, Meguru Bachira, Shoei Baro
P.S. This is a small problem in translation from my language. Lock translates quite differently, it would be better to say as castle, so we use prison for the most part. So Blue Lock will in fact be translated as a Blue Prison. I'm sorry if I explained it badly!
He himself does not understand the reason why he decided so. And it was right after he learned quite unpleasant news. Perhaps it happened on emotions that, by the way, he did not try to restrain.
— Can we break up?
Not to say that she had a good relationship with his parents, but they were quite friendly, so she learned information about his stay in Blue Lock from them. Quite a mixed feeling, yes, he said that he wanted to become a better striker and this is his best option for becoming one, but at the same time there was some kind of offense. Although she herself could not understand why.
Soon it will probably be a year since they last saw each other. And the news about the Blue Lock match against U-20 has already spread all over Japan. The funny thing is that his parents gave her a ticket, with the words: "Go, he may be stubborn, but he definitely still loves you." It's not that don't want to trust these words, rather on the contrary, she knows perfectly well what Yukimiya is.
A place in a not so busy place as the same fans. At the break of the first half, nearby I heard a woman shouting to her son to play better, apparently he is also from Blue Lock, nothing more than an assumption. Yukimiya is talking to one of her teammates. And now she doesn't even know if it's worth shouting his name, although as a fan it should hardly stop her.
— Yukimiya! — She didn't shout too much, but perhaps closer to the stands from the field she should have been heard. The guy looked a little confused in the direction where his name is, of course there are a lot of his fans here, but the voice was much different from everyone. The voice he was used to hearing.
— Oh, is someone playing with you, too? The three adults stared at her with interested faces.
— Oh, yes, mine.. an acquaintance," she was taken aback by this, I would like to say that "ex-boyfriend", but it's better if they ask even more questions.
— Oh, and who is he playing for? — A younger-looking woman asked.
— For Blue Lock, number five, I'm probably not sure what I saw correctly..
— What good news, we need to thank him, since he is playing with our boys! — the woman is already older, she babbled excitedly.
— I'll tell him somehow, — the girl thanked them for their words.
There was still the same commotion on the field, little did she know that her scream had reached the guy, well, not only him. Perhaps they started teasing him and asking who it was. According to their assumption, either a fan, or he still has a girlfriend, and he was silent! A particularly interesting point is that he was excited by her presence, if he says that he didn't miss her, he will lie.
The match ended with the victory of Blue Lock. Seriously, this was probably the most exciting game she's been on in a while.
He learned about the meeting from his parents, for some reason, according to them, the girl could not transmit the information herself. Place, time and possible options if he cannot be present on that day. I have provided for most of it.
— Hello.
— Hi, it was a great game, I haven't seen you play for a long time, — the girl sipping a cocktail from a straw, looked at the guy in front of her. Still handsome, tastefully dressed.
— Why did you come? — without much ceremony, without asking how things are going for her now. Nothing, just an interesting question, why all this, if they have long given a reason to abandon this relationship.
— Can't I watch football? — the girl bowed her head, there was an interesting note in her voice, — although you know, I just want to talk. You still haven't told me the reason for the breakup, I need to know what I did wrong.
"It's not your fault. — After mumbling thoughtfully, I thought for a while and decided to say: — I have vision problems due to fatigue, my visibility decreases, and if I continue to play football as a professional, I will lose my sight altogether. When I found out, something came over me and I started to get into trouble about it, - the guy put his hand on the table, rubbed her weight, thinking, was it worth talking at all?
Yes, he knows how understanding she is, but she does not forgive mistakes, and if this is his mistake? He did not say the reason for his actions. Why is he so worried about this? It seems like I've been buying my feelings for a long time, but still somehow uncomfortable.
— That's it? Yuki, it's not even a problem if you ever can't see me or the surroundings. At least I can tell you what it all looks like. — The girl stretched out the words in a puzzled way, not understanding at all what can be said about it. Support him? But he seems to have resigned himself, support is unlikely to change anything now. — And yet I was offended!
The girl turned away from the guy with a sulky look. Which caused Yukimiya to be surprised. She plays with him, which becomes clear when she smiles and laughs at him. He'd really be lying if he said he didn't miss her. Does the thought of how he lived this year at all slip through?
— Well.. you have every right.
"That's stupid, especially on your part.
— That's right. I don't know how to say it, it was too much for me, and I should have been alone and not say such words. — Kenyu sighed heavily, realizing that he had seriously screwed up so much. — And by the way, I didn't want this, he says, on emotion or something..
— Yeah, I know, I just didn't think it would last a year and plus you'd go to some kind of prison*.
"This is the Blue Prison, Blue Lock*," Yukimiya points at her with her finger and corrects her.
— I don't care at all. And I've also come up with a way to redeem you! We're going on a date right now! The girl spread her arms out to the sides, completely proud of herself. — And don't you dare leave, you wrote yourself that you are free all day. Yukimiya only laughs at her a little. But he is clearly not going to leave, although honestly there was an idea to talk and leave if everything goes wrong, which is what he was waiting for most of all. — By the way, thank you from some women.
"Who are they?" Yukimiya was genuinely surprised. Moreover, these are women, not girls, as is usually the case.
— Honestly, no idea at all; it turns out we met during the match, — the girl shook her head, making a shocked face, as if saying: "I experienced such horror from the conversation!". — Apparently they also had someone playing for Blue Lock. — The guy just grinned, and Y/N looked at him puzzled, expecting some explanation, but got nothing. Kenyu changed the subject.
Needless to say, she was really able to get him out on a date that wasn't even in her plans at all? But in any case, this is what they both needed. After a year, they realized that they were too attached to each other, to such an extent that it was difficult to maintain self-control over their actions. Yes, my God, Yukimiya had a place in his notes where he writes to her while she was using his account from which he lost his password a long time ago.
How many words were there about their love for each other? Uhm... A difficult question.
#blue lock x reader#blue lock#bllk#bllk x reader#x reader#hedcanon#yukimiya x reader#yukimiya kenyu x reader#yukimiya kenyu#one short#oneshot
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Okay I have loadsss to say!!!
Apologies in advance! It's a long rant. I'm excited.
Spoilers below!
All my ROs are Male so hence the pronouns my MC is a MLM
1. Beck is the most adorable fucking thing in the history of everything. I love him. Omggggggggggggggggg just how could your brain even come up with such a bean of a dude. He seems so stressed but so sweet. I adored his interaction with Jason it was so funny to read. And how much he actually misses his friend. Loved that I can have a crush on him because come on.
On that note tho:
Can I throw Ethan off a bridge???? Like Jesus dude cut it out. I see I'm gonna have issue with him on a beck route because dude doesn't know when to take a step back and not come off as a di....dingleberry!
2. The farewell with the fam was bittersweet as my MC has very complicated feeling towards the parents but Jace is just the best brother ever. Makes me sad I'm an only child.
3. Sids cute. ♥️ just so cute. Friendly and funny. Quite charming.
4. R is such a little lovebug. I love how we cldnt say no to him. And I had to stand up for him because no one gets to push my roommate around especially if they are really hot.
On that note again: ugh I want to punch Hader so badly... but I also want to romance him.. but I also wanted to throw a can at his head..empty can.. calm down.. 🙄 he can be glad he's hot and that I'm Slightly masochistic when doing IFs.. I also go for the your an asshole but i like you routes.. unfortunately 🥲
5. F seems like he is soooo fun! Very charismatic and DRAMATIC lol
6. Question. You said we would encounter EVERY (yes i saw that) RO.... did I see correctly and is there a secret RO.. and does that mean they are in the chapter? If it's Ethan end me now. It's gonna be an enemy to lovers route cuz he is aloooot.
Hmm what else..
I love the little things. Like choosing our aesthetics. Clothes, dorm room set up. It's a nice touch in customization. You love us awww 😭
Was wondering about customization and if MC is gonna have the option to have any piercings or tattoos their family know nothing about.
Oh I did see a bit of a typo I suppose. After Haders scene and meeting F. After you choose your food in the cafeteria. Instead of saying as you take a "bite out of your chicken katsu curry" it says take a "sip" but that's all I noticed. Also if you ever need beta readers.... 👀👀👀👀
Overall I loved the entire update. I can't wait to interact more with everyone. And as I'm on a music scholarship Hader is gonna have to get used to my MC talking back 🙄 it's great. Your writing is great. This is so fun to read and reading it brought a smile to my face. Thank you for working so hard on it. ♥️
Spoilers under the cut, let's break this down!
I love, love, love all the detail!
So I'll try and answer or have a comment for each bit since you made so much effort to give me feedback when you didn't need to.
Fun fact: Sid and the male form of one of the ROs are actually holdovers from an ill-starred short-lived mlm fic I wrote before GGGLU ever existed.
1. I'm so glad you liked Beck! I was worried that people would get irritated with him or end up not liking his personality but I thought the way I wrote him was most authentic to the story I wanted to tell for his route. He's so exhausted but so willing to help and isn't that just the cutest thing ever?
Ethan is Ethan, you'll definitely get your chance to be snarky and put down some fighting words with Ethan in the future. Infact at no point do you have to come to like him for Beck's Route but I can atleast say that there is a reason that he is Beck's University BFF and to a certain extent in my mind it makes his character a lot more...understandable if not your cup of tea.
2. (Obviously) there's the death of the author and I don't get to dictate how others interpret my writing but I'm so glad that you saw it the same way that I saw that scene when I was writing it because to a certain extent parting is a bittersweet moment for the MC regardless of how they feel about Jace and their parents.
3. Sid is adorable, just a ball of pop punk flavored sunshine. Was definitely one of my favorite characters to write in this part of the chapter and as a music scholarship MC you might be seeing more of them...but I'll shut my mouth for now.
4. Yeah I had debated allowing the MC to deny R and totally skip the cafeteria scene but I thought it was more fun if it was a compulsory event and the idea that R already has so much sway over the MC is sorta funny to me.
Hader is a bag of emotions and definitely stormy ones at that, I can't promise he'll ever be B or R levels of adorable but I can say that Riley wasn't lying when he said Hader isn't always like that and that usually he's a little more hot than scary and broody than angry.
The intended effect for my Hader-mancers was that they would want to punch and kiss him at the same time and seeing as they were already simping I had to ramp up the punching bit.
5. Fred is also good fun to write, I keep on saying this but also one of my favorites to write this time round and also one of the hardest for me. I'm not naturally a very dramatic or big personality so it's hard to write someone who is naturally charming and affable, I'm happy it was able to work somewhat as intended.
6. Hehehe the secret RO is in the demo currently and seeing as they're already implemented it's not a particularly big deal for me to reveal them BUT seeing as you guessed wrong I guess I'll be keeping it a secret for a little while longer.
A little hint: part of the reason H is so angry has to do with our beloved secret RO.
7. Customization is going to come as necessary to the story, things like tattoos and piercings are planned to come in part 2 of chapter one.
At some point you'll have a chance to get bigger tattoos but so early in the story the only tattoos you can have hidden from your parents will be pretty small.
8. I do need beta readers 😭😭😭 but I don't know how to get in contact with anyone through the proper routes and I'm famously awful with Discord amongst my friends.
If I ever figure out how to set up a Discord or interact with readers outside of Tumblr itself through the proper routes of communication then you will definitely be at the top of the list!!!
Finally we're at the end, thank you for giving me such a comprehensive breakdown of your experience. I really couldn't and wouldn't be able to write if it wasn't for your encouragement and excitement to push me forward to write.
I'm glad my writing style is atleast palatable and I'm more than ecstatic that it was able to provide a momentary amount of joy when reading.
Thank you for reading!
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fanfic writer emoji ask meme: 🤡 💌 🎯🥰
the ask meme in question
hailedloco I am blowing kisses in your direction, mwah, love these!
🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?
Oh, gosh... honestly, that scene in chapter 3 of and bit by bit where Needle accidentally cockblocked Cody had me giggling to myself when I first came up with it. Needle in general is a character who just loves to laugh, and it's always so much fun writing him!
💌 How do you feel about comments and feedback?
Genuinely?
Fuckin' love them.
I see some discourse sometimes about people not wanting to reply to comments because that inflates their comment count, and while I can kind of understand where they're coming from, I can't help but feel like that kind of misses the point. Comments are... community-building, it feels like? The interaction is the best part! Something in particular that delights me is when people reply to other people's comments asking questions about something they noticed or saying they really liked a particular point the OG commenter brought up, because-- those are people! Talking! Because of something I wrote! I love talking to people, I love that interaction!
And I do believe that leads very nicely into:
🥰 How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics?
Please.
Listen. I never shut up. I will never shut up. Message me about things. Message me about AUs. Ask me questions. Share your theories. Scream incoherently into the void, I will join you. Scream incoherently at me, I will scream back. Tell me about your fic ideas. I'm here to make friends and have a good time!
🎯 Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? Care to share which?
Hmmm. I don't think anyone's guessed anything that's upcoming, but I did have readers in how to bring him home who guessed correctly about some of the long-term consequences Obi-Wan would be dealing with, and quite a few readers guessed the theme of the trap in the last chapter of like lightning changing hands.
HOWEVER.
I love it when people guess things. Or tell me about things they wonder might happen. Because, while I've already got the major plot points outlined, often these give me ideas for things to incorporate into the fic!
Only two of several examples: TheSunRisesAnew mentioned in a comment on Chapter 2 of like lightning changing hands that they wondered if the clones could be sensed through the trap because they're not Force-sensitive in the same way that they could go through the rift. I'd already tried and discarded the concept earlier, but their comment led me to try it again in a different iteration, and that's how we got Obi-Wan telling Ben about how they all feel in the Force! PetrifiedForests left a comment saying, "Considering the summary, I would love for Ben and Helix to read together. That's very on the nose though 😁" and now I have AN ADORABLE IMAGE IN MY HEAD that is DEFINITELY getting written. Comments are great motivation, yes, but I feel like what gets left out sometimes is exactly how inspiring they can be! Y'all have fantastic ideas!
Ahem. Anyway. My point- love interaction, love comments, love all of you, thank you very much!
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It gets worse before it gets better - Felix part 1
Pairing: no specific pairing right now
WC: will always be between 2k-4k words
Warnings: Language, throwing up, talk of past trauma, gyno visit, needles
Not sure if I was gonna post this yet but I decided to fuck it, updates plan to be once a week but if I miss a week don't kill me writing is hard and sometimes I can't be bothered. Anyways enjoy chapter 1 cya next week!
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"Morning Felix, how are you feeling?" Leedo, Felix's doctor asked as they sat down for his monthly check up. They see each other so often that Leedo was ok with Felix calling him by his first name, plus it makes him feel young for someone who is 32.
"Morning Leedo, Yes I feel fine thank you for asking" Felix replied, slightly fidgeting in his seat, even though this was a monthly occurrence it didn't stop him from feeling slightly scared each time.
"Did you forego your scent blockers like I asked you?" Leedo got out his clipboard so they could begin, they always started with questions first and then a quick procedure after.
"Of course, people kept blocking their noses as I walked past them" One of the many things Leedo needed to check on was Felix's scent as it was a lot stronger than average omegas, he is always asked to not wear his scent blockers a day before his appointment. That way Leedo can analyse the smell throughout the visit and check for anything wrong.
"Did anything weird happen?"
"Nope, it's just really strong, I wear the scent blockers because I once made someone pass out" this comment caused Leedo to laugh a little, writing down his notes like always. Felix could never understand why his scent was so much stronger, but after that day he refuses to leave the apparent without scent blockers unless his doctor asks him.
"What was your slick like this month?" now it was time for the nitty gritty.
The more important issue Leedo always asked about was Felix's slick, because he had a rare condition that caused him to overproduce slick, or produce slick at random times, or even produce slick inside where it has nowhere to go so every month Felix had a needle stuck into him to get rid of the slick or else his insides may explode.
"Annoying as always. I always leak if I sneeze or fart. and when I touch myself I always have to lay a towel down because I turn into a faucet at that point" Felix rants, and he (on the side) watches as Leedo writes everything down with caution. "Also, I fear that I'm a little more swollen than last month, it's been hurting the last few days" Felix admits, I mean he is talking to his doctor so there was no use trying to hide it, he's been seeing Leedo for over 5 years now!
"Oh dear, I better take a look then, please take your pants off then I'll help lift your legs into the stirrups" now it was time for the procedure, Felix never liked needles but he was used to it at this point. It was either needles or a possible surgery!
Once Felix was in position, he closed his eyes and proceeded to take deep breaths, trying his best to stay calm and pretend he was elsewhere.
It worked for long enough until Leedo explained that he was going to begin, a whimper left Felix's lips and a few tears were shed as it always did when the needle pierced his insides, thankfully the stirrups stopping him from moving around too much.
"Shh I know, you're doing so well, not long left" Leedo tried his best to sympathise and comfort even though he was the one causing the pain. The vile was halfway full and once it was almost full no more was coming out which meant Leedo had gotten all of it out, he sighed with relief and removed the needle making sure to dispose of it correctly.
"All done and all gone, you can relax now, and also get dressed" Leedo handed Felix some tissues and then undid the straps that kept his legs in place. "I'll see you next month, enjoy your weekend" Leedo was waving Felix outside of the door.
"How did it go? all good?" Wooyoung, Felix's roommate and best friend who always drove him home afterwords (since it was advised that Felix shouldn't drive himself home) asked. Felix could only muster up a nod though as he was feeling quite tired and wanted to sleep during the car ride home.
"FELIX WILL YOU HURRY YOUR ASS UP" Wooyoung called from outside the door, he was waiting for Felix to finish his business but it seemed as if he was taking forever.
"Fucking hell Woo I'm coming, calm your tits" Felix flushed, and washed his hands before exiting, "and you were listening to me poo because?"
"EW! I was not listening! I just don't wanna be late for this party. Seonghwa always calls us out for being late" Wooyoung was fixing his hair in the mirror they had next to the front door, just making sure it looked good.
"Babe you look fine lets go, you're the one who doesn't wanna be late!" Felix ushered the both of them out of the door before they started to head to the party.
It was a frat party hosted by the most elite and most difficult to get into frat. Felix heard that you had to have a rich background, drive a fancy car, and have no problems with anything that happens at the frat before they even consider accepting you.
Joining a frat was never something Felix wanted to do though, besides the obvious not wanting to go through hell week; he didn't wanna host parties every week or be forced to drink every day or only be allowed to date girls who were from sororities and boys who were from frats which was for some reason a rule at Yeontan.
Now don't get Felix wrong, he loves a good cocktail or having a shot but every day? That thought had Felix hurling in his mind. Felix had nothing against frat guys, he's even friends with some, he's just happy he isn't one of them.
"Hwa-hyung, I told you we wouldn't be late" Wooyoung exclaimed, giving Seonghwa a very tight hug which pulled Felix from his thoughts.
"Yeah, you're on time for once! Jimin texted me and said the others are already inside" Seonghwa showed his phone, but it was only close enough for Wooyoung to see.
"Oh thank god, cause I could use a fucking drink."
"Me too my friend, me too."
Once they got inside, it was nothing short of a true frat party! loud music booming from every corner, a bowl of condoms, a bowl of most likely spiked fruit punch, random bowls of chips, a plate of special brownies and of course the fully stocked bar.
There was a cup system in place so that everyone knew your status, this was implemented into most parties so that there were no incidents; red meant single, gold meant it's complicated, silver meant either taken or not interested, and black meant you were a frat or sorority member.
Felix always chose between red or silver, and it always depended on if he was in the mood to deflect drunk assholes or not. Today he went for silver, not really having the energy to talk to randos and wants to focus on having a good time with his friends. Wooyoung picked up red though, feeling in the mood to be laid.
As the night progressed, drinks were drank, and the music somehow got even louder, Felix spotted someone he had never seen before, he was holding a red cup and practically skulling it. Felix was stood to the side, watching as his friends danced closely and took some videos of them for the future memories.
Said someone walked over to Felix and smiled, holding another red cup with him.
"You look like you could use a drink, here" the strange person handed one of the red cups to Felix, but once he looked inside he sighed.
"I'm allergic to yeast, so I can't have beer" Felix shook his head and tried his best to be polite considering beer was the most easily accessible drink and this man didn't know of his allergies.
"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know" the man took a few steps back in fear of what Felix may say next.
"Are you new? I've never seen you at these?" Felix walked closer to the strange yet totally hot person and asked. A strong wift of what could only be described as nature hit his nose and it made him gulp, he smelt good, like really good.
"Ah no, I actually go to Jongsung. My name is Chan and that's my friend Yeosang eating chips" Chan pointed to a another strange person who was grabbing himself a handful of chips.
Jongsung? oh hell no!
"What are you doing here at a Yeontan party? you have to show your Yeontan ID to get in" Felix said rather rudely after finding out they weren't from Yeontan.
Chan looked a little taken aback, but he totally understood why. Yeontan and Jongsung students haven't really been on the best of terms ever since the incident.
The people involved were defiantly punished for it, but it left Jongsung with a bad rep and quite a few people transferred over to Yeontan because they felt unsafe.
"I'm sorta friends with one of the frat guys, Jisung, and he let me and my friend Yeosang in"
"Your friends with Han Jisung? he never told me that the little shit!"
"I'm guessing your friends with him then"
"yeah, he's in my friend group,..." Felix turned his head at the sound of a loud scream, face palming when it was just drunk Wooyoung almost falling over. "For fucks sake Woo, please excuse me" Felix walked away from a smirking Chan, kinda glad he no longer had to talk to someone from Jongsung. Like he was hot, but was he hot enough to not be from Yeontan?
"Taehyung! why did you give him another vodka cranberry, you know how he gets when he has vodka" Felix was so annoyed that Jisung let Jongsung students in that he could no longer enjoy himself.
"Don't blame me, it was Hyunjin who gave them to us. I saved him from falling by the way!"
"Well wheres Hyunjin then? cause this party kinda sucks!"
The next day Felix's phone was met with a bunch of un-read messages, considering he turned it off off when he and Wooyoung left the party early.
Wooyoung had gotten a little too drunk, and Felix wanted to leave anyway so he happily took Wooyoung back to their dorm where Woo convinced Felix for some late night cuddles.
Beautiful sluts bunch
Jisung - Where did you and Woo run off to? I didn't see you last night!
Taehyung - Yeah man you totally took off after Woo's almost slip
Jisung - Almost slip?
Taehyung - Woo almost fell over and crushed his leg, but I saved him
Seonghwa - come on guys I'm sure they have a good reason
Jimin - They better cause I lost my dancing partner
Yoongi - It is way too fucking early for my phone to be making this much noise
Hyunjin - I feel you Yoons, my head hurts like a bitch!
Jimin - Too many wet pussy shots am I right 🤣🤣
Jisung - Are they even awake?
Felix - Yes I'm awake you shithead, but Woo's sleeping so shush with all the messages
Seungmin - Where did you go? Sungie and I missed you
Felix - Woo got like falling over drunk so I took him home, plus I wasn't feeling it and kinda wanted to go myself
Seonghwa - That's fine, I hope Youngie is ok?
Felix - I mean I might have to help him throw up but other than that I think he will be fine
Jimin - Aw sending my love
Taehyung - Yeah me too!
Yoongi - I send my love too if it will get you all to stop texting and let me sleep!
Hyunjin - Feed him western breakfast food it's a great hangover cure
Felix - GUYS HE'S NOT DYING CHILL
"Lixie?..." Felix turned his head when he heard a small whimper from next to him.
"Morning gorgeous, how you feeling?" Felix sat up and helped Wooyoung to sit up as well.
"I think I might be sick, oh god" that was Felix's cue to rush both of them into the bathroom, and order McDonalds with one hand and softly rub Wooyoung's back with the other.
Later that day after all his classes had finished for the day was when Felix decided to confront Jisung about Chan.
Felix just never grasped how some people could hang out with them. Ever since the incident last year both Felix and Woo never wanted anything to do with Jongsung again.
Sungie 💚💚
Felix - Since when are you friends with people from Jongsung?
Jisung - Oh so you met Chan last night, I meant to tell you
Felix - Ok and?
Jisung - Felix, not everyone from Jongsung is a bad person. Chan and I went to the same high school he's a cool dude
Felix - Does he know what happened?
Jisung - I'm not sure, it's not really something I wanted to bring up. We just hang out sometimes and I've rapped on a few of his tracks
Felix - Look I'm sorry ok! It's just what happened to Woo, and I live with him so I'm the one calming him down from episodes or comforting his nightmares, it fucked him up Sungie
Jisung - Trust me, I wouldn't wish that even on my enemies, but only 2 people were involved, not the whole fucking student body of Jongsung
Felix - I'll try my best ok
Felix didn't see Chan again until next weekend, at yet another frat party, he assumed Jisung let him in again.
It took all Felix had to not ask why he didn't go to his own university's party, instead he smiled and said hello like a normal person.
"Felix! we need to stop meeting here like this" Chan had that smirk on again, and Felix partnered along with his blush. As much as he didn't like Jongsung he couldn't lie and say Chan was ugly or that Chan didn't wanna make him suck his dick.
"Yeah I know, a little weird right?" Felix tried his best to keep his cool, but he knew that Chan could see his blush. His face was so red anyone could see it from a mile away.
"I got you a drink, don't worry it's just rum n coke, I remembered" Chan winked as he handed over the cup. Felix's insides did a little backflip, he remembered I can't have beer? oh my...
"You scent, it's pretty strong" Chan commented, leaning against the wall for support.
"Uh...yeah, I have a condition..." Felix nervously answered, and kept it vague because he only met Chan last week and didn't wanna tell him his sob story just yet.
"Maybe we should get some ice-cream sometime?" Chan joked, considering Felix's scent was coconut
"Hmm, maybe, but lets dance first" Felix didn't know what came over him, maybe it was the fireball shots Jimin somehow convinced everyone to do. But as he pulled Chan over to the dance floor, all his worries seemed to go away.
Felix even introduced Chan to Wooyoung, who was too busy grinding against Jimin and making out to notice. But Felix just assumed it was Woo being Woo, he always loved to makeout when drunk and Jimin was known as the guy who was down for anything so.
Over the next few days, besides going to class and the endless hours of dance practice, Felix spent his time thinking about Chan. He was so annoyed with himself with how much he was thinking about him but it was hard not to.
It may have been wrong for Felix to completely write off Jongsung when Jisung was right, only 2 students were involved with the incident but it was just so hard to not blame the school. Especially when the incident happened on school grounds.
Which was why it was plaguing his mind even more how Chan was able to get him to bring down his walls, and in a short matter of time no less.
"So, you like him?" Hyunjin queried, while taking a sip of his chocolate frappuccino.
"I didn't say that-" Felix tried to protest.
"The blush on your face says otherwise" Jimin smirked, taking a sip of his matcha frappuccino.
It seemed Felix was the only one who got a hot drink, his hands slightly shaking as he went to grab his piping americano.
"Chill everyone let the poor boy speak!" Seonghwa sighed, sometimes he hated being the mom friend but at other times he knew he had to be otherwise the whole friendship group would be an absolute mess.
"Thanks Hwa-Hyung, I don't know if I like like him, but I don't hate him and it's messing with me. Cause on one hand I'm like he's bad he's from Jongsung and on the other hand I'm like but he wasn't one of them plus he's hot as fuck and I had a wet dream the other night about sucking his dick" Felix ranted, but was thankful he was finally able to get that out.
"Could it be pre heat? I know when mine hits my emotions get all weird" Wooyoung asked.
"No, I'm not due for another two weeks, so it's not that" Felix pondered, his seasonly heat always came towards the end of the season, and it was only the start of August.
"Well what ever you decide just know I'll be here for you, we all will be" Wooyoung put one arm around Felix and pulled him in for a side hug, which was very welcomed in this situation.
"Of course we will, we love you always" Seonghwa added on, giving a sweet smile.
"Are we planning anything tonight? I kinda wanna go out" Wooyoung asked.
"On a Tuesday?" Felix laughed and shook his head.
"Not out out just like a movie or something?"
"I can't, Tuesdays are one of my stream days remember?" Jimin declined, considering the streams were how he made his money.
"Ew you and your streams" Wooyoung shook his head and decided to not ask any further, even though he watched majority of his streams and commented for moral support.
"You wouldn't be "ewing" me if you knew how much money I'm making" Jimin smirked, he knew his friends were ok with him being a camboy, they even watched but they never wanted to participate.
"I just texted Taehyung what you told us and he said that you most probably like him, and that you should most defiantly suck his dick but only if he promises to suck yours after" Hyunjin showed his phone and Felix only whined.
"Hyungggggggggggggggg."
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I've been thinking about this all month, but one of my good friends dated this guy for a while who is such trash, he was into edgelord shit, racist, sexist, homophobic, real weird about 2A, I hated him. My friend is a kind, accepting person, his values didn't align with hers at all. So everyone was like what the fuck are you doing, but she thought he was nice deep down or something. I couldn't talk to her for about a month. She only dated him for six weeks or so and then woke up and realized how gross it was. I was questioning everything I knew about her as a person but in the end it was a terrible lapse in judgement and I forgave her and everybody moved on. this feels so similar on a worldwide level.
tl;dr fan commentary is hard and it felt like there was a demand to prove we didn't condone the things he's done, but I think you did your very best supporting people and speaking out while still trying to hold sympathy for Taylor, and she means so much to you that there is nothing wrong with forgiving this and moving on and loving her and her music like you do.
one of my friends told me a similar story about someone they love who was involved with someone completely terrible for a while, and how difficult it was, i think this is a more common experience than we'd like. and people are flawed and sometimes they make bad decisions and mistakes, including good people. i'm sorry you went through that, i'm sure it was really hard, and i'm glad it turned out okay in the end.
thank you ❤ yeah, i think it's been difficult because what started as understandable disappointment/anger/concern and very valid criticism and feelings of hurt, and where we were trying to support and amplify one another, turned into a vicious cycle of outright hatred fueled by outrage and blame and purity culture (the people viciously slut shaming, the comments claiming she's insincere/calculated/manipulative/untalented/narcissistic/evil etc etc and blaming her for his actions and statements had gotten way out of control. holding someone accountable doesn't equate to utterly dehumanizing them), and then at the same time fans were harassing and attacking one another for speaking up or for not reacting "correctly" or for having empathy for both people impacted and for taylor herself. it's just been a mess! and it's been excruciating and stressful and sad for me personally and sort of broke me a bit because i'm just...overly sensitive lol and trying to sort through my own hurt and disappointment mixed with being overloaded by negativity on here and feeling so much for everyone who came to me in pain, and then also selfishly missing her and my connection to her music because the weight put on all of this forced me to take a self-protective distance...shambles!
anyway, as i also said to my friend earlier, the problem happening online right now is there's this intense focus on punishment in almost puritanical religious terms - repent, do penance, take your lashes for loving anything especially if it's deemed "problematic"! - but without room for growth, forgiveness/redemption, and salvation. and like...if we're having to think about it like that, the penance means NOTHING without room for forgiveness. requiring trials and proof of upstanding morality becomes a vicious cycle at some point, which does NOT mean we should tolerate bigoted behavior or harmful actions or not be critical ever, it's more about measuring that and channeling it for more than futile outrage and lashing out at each other. the solace and joy we find in art is WHY that love exists, that's paramount, and what we can do after supporting one another is fostering that love and growth in a more positive way. so i hope moving forward this is a learning experience for all of us (myself included!) and we can be a little gentler on one another/ourselves and remember that ultimately the light at the center of things is why we're together here!
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About this post https://www.tumblr.com/deripmaver/726960051961708544/yall-dont-send-bthump-my-meta-to-start-shit?source=share
This is me posting a bthump question about your meta. Just wanted to say that I didn't mean anything bad ❤️ Your meta is my point of view and I did not know how to express my question correctly, that's why I sent a link to your meta. I didn't see your post about not wanting your meta to be sent to anyone (If I knew I wouldn't be doing this). It wasn't my goal for bthump to treat you badly or anything. Looks like there's an unspoken rule regarding alien meta. I wanted to say that I didn't mean to do anything wrong. I love your blog and your meta💘 I understand why you don't want your meta to not be distributed on certain sites, etc (after all, there are really a lot of not very good people). I repeat I love you and your blog. Take care dear😗💖💝💘💕💞💓
P.S. English is not my native language, I hope I wrote correctly😅🥲
OH NO NOW I FEEL BAD SLKDFJHGLKSDJ im sorry anon i got a little bit suspicious, it's really sweet that you send her my meta because you think it expresses your POV better sldkjfhglksdjf nooooo ok you're totally fine!!!!
i dunno if it's an unspoken rule or just my personal preference, so i don't think you missed any big etiquette thing on tumblr.
i still really don't recommend you sending her my meta though just because, even if you think it expresses your point, i just don't think she's particularly interested in having her POV challenged, and to be fair neither am i. i just also think we're coming at berserk with such fundamentally different views of casca as a character that there's no way for her discussion of my meta, and my discussion of hers, to be productive as opposed to creating negativity, if that makes sense???
anyways i hope i explained this ok, lskdfjhgsk i'm sorry lol i was kind of annoyed at first but i see you didn't mean anything bad by it
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Pardon me for asking, even though I know we're far out of the story already, but it's just something I might have missed understand, or there really was no explanation..... Why did Misumi waited for years to take down Hirata if he was broken by the lose of his subordinate Kurobane?
Yashiro said or hinted that Misumi knew or suspected Hirata for killing Kurobane, and yet he let Yashiro nearly died for that motherfucker to get caught. Just to imagine he's the big boss, he could've done an investigation a year after Kurobane died, maybe, but no.... And Yashiro was prolly tailing Hirata's group ( anon at that time ) for maybe 2 months? It just....Im sorry for the term, pisses me off to think, that Yashiro nearly died for him ( and yes, I sort of understand it was also an impulse because what happened with Doumeki, but it was also for Misumi's sake, maybe to give Misumi closure, otherwise why did he had to provoke Hirata and record everything ) and it felt it meant nothing to Misumi, and still pesters Yashiro about joining again. I just dont understand how he can be possessive of Yashiro yet threw in him in danger. Hirata tapped Yashiro's office, couldn't he have done the same, if he only needed hard evidence? I dont believe that he's done nothing because he was worried for the inner politics within their Yakuza, or is that really the reason? I dunno, I guess need help to fully understand why he didn't do anything if he knew....
Hey there, and no worries about asking!
I think, if anyone's read my blog posts of Saezuru, they probably know I don't really trust or like Misumi. I think he has the potential to become the main obstacle that gets in the way of Yashiro and Doumeki ending up together and out of the Yakuza. So I also wouldn't put it past Misumi to recklessly endanger the lives of people he claims to care about.
With that said, I really can't say what the exact reason for him allowing Yashiro to endanger himself might be. I don't think Misumi WANTED Yashiro to engage with Hirata. If I remember correctly, he had some of his own guys watching Yashiro to make sure he didn't do anything reckless, or to endanger himself. He was telling Yashiro to stay put and not go after Hirata, I think? My memory always fails me on these details and I have to go back and look, haha.
As for why Misumi waited years to take Hirata down, I don't really know either. I think, maybe, because while he suspected Hirata as being responsible for Korubane's death, he didn't know for certain, and so there wasn't really anything he could do without causing a big upheaval in the ranks. Though that does sound like a weak excuse, and as you pointed out, Misumi, being so high ranking himself, likely would have had the abilities and resources to expose the truth.
Yashiro did endanger himself specifically to help Misumi, absolutely, while also using it as an opportunity to commit suicide. But that's just how Yashiro is. He's completely self-sacrificial, and it's maybe one of the most tragic aspects to his character. Like I said, I don't think Misumi planned or was okay with Yashiro doing what he did, but then, he didn't do a whole lot to stop it from happening either.
Basically, I think Misumi is a lot more sinister and potentially villainous than people are willing to admit. The way he manipulated Yashiro and trapped him into the world of the Yakuza was horrific. The very definition of cruel. And the way he's acting now, trying to force Yashiro back, has me VERY nervous. I don't trust him at all, and I don't think it would be beyond him to hurt Yashiro in order to keep him for himself.
Anyway, I don't feel like I provided you with any real answer to your question, lol. I'm not sure either on why Misumi waited to take Hirata down. I'm sorry if I wasn't really able to help. I need to go back again and re-read some parts, I think.
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4, 8, 13, and 32 for the writing meme pls! :DD
this is from the weird questions for writers list!
4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral?
i like words that are kind of oddly spelled - hymn, myriad, idyll (hence my username). For a verb, coalesce.
but as for feral in a negative way? it's souvenir. i can never for my life spell it correctly, i always put in extra vowels. Spell check has to save me (as it just did!).
8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose and how would it go?
oooooo story without dialogue is probably easier because i already write so. much. exposition as it is. it'll be interesting to go without putting in any dialogue, but there are ways for characters to communicate or express themselves without active dialogue, so i can probably figure it out.
i write dialogue-only snippets when i'm outlining fics and I always get the urge to fill in the blanks with descriptions of actions and so on. a dialogue-only fic for me will not want to stay dialogue-only upon edits haha.
13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?
haha! explicit sexual content! i can read it and plot it just fine, but when it comes to writing the minutiae of it i will combust. It's just easier for me to cut off/fade to black and leave the fic at a mature rating.
not necessarily easy, but i guess pining/longing/nostalgia? i've moved countries a lot when i was younger and it always feels like i'm missing someone or longing for something, and so when I write that kind of content it's easy for me to access my own feelings and channel that into my characters. It's a sort of bittersweetness where the sweetness is your feelings for the person/place/time but bitter because you're apart from whatever it is you're missing, and I like exploring that dichotomy.
32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?
@derpinathebrave asked the same question so i'll tackle a poem/novel example here and a fanfic one for them!
the last two lines of Clementine von Radics' poem, "Mouthful of Forevers" really stuck with me. I encountered this poem through a Sam/Lucifer SPN fic, How To Fall; the author included poems/excerpts from songs/prose at the beginning of every chapter. The fic has such a visceral depiction of Lucifer's motivations and this poem was just incredibly apt for that point of the fic, as well as being a beautiful work in its own right. Here is the last stanza of the poem:
I know sometimes
It's still hard to let me see you
In all your cracked perfection,
But please know:
Whether it's the days you burn
More brilliant than the sun
Or the nights you collapse into my lap
Your body broken into a thousand questions.
You are the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.
A line from a novel - definitely this one from Robin Hobb's Realm of the Elderlings series: the Fool's "And I set no limits on that love." It's a recurring line in the series (iirc) as the Fool tries to explain his love to Fitz, and Fitz constantly struggles with understanding/coming to terms with it. I think us fans tend to have mixed feelings about how the Fool and Fitz's relationship is depicted in the series, but that passage where Fitz skill-links with the Fool and experiences the Fool's love for him is just so profound. The Fool's love defies boundaries - it is not romantic or sexual or even platonic, it just is. He loves Fitz, and his love is limitless. I remember reading this book in high school and finding out a friend read it too, and the first thing we both said to each other? "I set no limits on that love." Even though there were (at the time) nine whole books in the series, out of thousands of other lines this one resonated with us the most.
That entire passage is just incredible so I'm gonna stick it under this read more.
"Would you have more than this?" The Fool's voice was less than a whisper. I discerned a challenge in his words, but could not understand it.
"Yes, please. Try," I bade him.
Beside me at the table, I was aware of the Fool making some small movement but my vision was unfocused on the room and I had no warning of his intentions until his hand settled on my wrist. His fingertips unerringly found their own faded gray fingerprints, left on my flesh so many years ago. His touch was gentle, but the sensation was an arrow in my heart. I physically spasmed, a speared fish, and then froze. The Fool ran through my veins, hot as liquor, cold as ice. For a flashing instant, we shared physical awareness. The intensity of it went beyond any joining I'd ever experienced. It was more intimate than a kiss and deeper than a knife thrust, beyond a Skill-link and beyond sexual coupling, even beyond my Wit-bond with Nighteyes. It was not a sharing, it was a becoming. Neither pain nor pleasure could encompass it. Worse, I felt myself turning and opening to it, as if it were my lover's mouth upon mine, yet I did not know if I would devour or be devoured. In another heartbeat, we would be one another, know one another more perfectly than two separate beings ever should.
[…]
Just as I opened my eyes, the Fool's thought uncurled in my mind like a leaf opening to sunlight.
And I set no limits on that love.
#*#replies#qserasera#ayeeee thank you for all the questions! these were super fun#also i just realized that i don't mind first person when it comes to original prose#i just find it difficult to read when it comes to fanfic i guess because we've already come to know the characters through another medium#and it's weird to suddenly get beamed to first person/directly in their perspective?#whereas if you're meeting a character completely brand new (ala~ original fiction) then first person is just like the character telling#a story to you and using -i- to do that#anyway that was a random observation but cool to figure out!#btw did you reblog the questions list i will drop questions to you if you did!#i can barely keep up with tumblr RL is still chaos but ilu i hope you're doing good!#writing#long post
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STUDY NOTES POST #9: HOW PEOPLE DID, IN TYPING ME AS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER
There was this one post in the Attitudinal Psyche Facebook group, where the person asked an interesting question: " How do you think the folks on Personality Database would type you if you were a fictional character?" There is a person from my dreams (part fictional, part real) who is also my typology twin. We met him earlier, in the "One family, 3 ESFPs" post. He was Arvid, Jr., the one who preferred to be called Arvid because "that was his name ". Funny how we're similar, even down to that. I'm the same way with my name 🤣
Anyway, I found a typing questionnaire online, and posted it several places: in some discord servers I knew had Personality Database type description typists, in the Attitudinal Psyche Facebook group, where I knew theory typists hang, and on Reddit, where I was likely to get both. Here is the questionnaire, and the answers:
I knew I was hard to type, but I didn't realize how hard until nearly everyone failed to type me correctly when I was a fictional character.
So if I had to pick one thing in Arvid's typology/my typology that threw off the typing for most people, it is that we're both social blind 3s. Somebody even confessed that they could clearly understand the whole typology once they knew they were dealing with a social blind 3. It just shows how flawed some 3 descriptions are, if people can't imagine 3s being social blind.
So anyway, now, I'm going to go through the parts of a Personality Database typing that can be gleaned from the questionnaire, and write what people should have seen, and then what they did see
MBTI: ESFP Yes, as we all know from the post I shared earlier, Arvid was an ESFP. However, I don't know how many people typed him as an ISTJ. I have no idea where they got the thinking from, except maybe the correlations, correlating ISTJ to his incorrect Enneagram. My answer to question number 6 is a dead giveaway he was a feeler, and I'm sure the answers to some other questions probably also suggested feeling>thinking. Other answers I got were INTJ and ISFP. How they missed the obvious Se dominance is beyond me
Enneagram: 3w4 sx/sp 3(6?7?)9 While I am clearly 379 in my tritype, Arvid could have also possibly been the 369 tritype instead of 379, as it's not clear whether his head fix is 6 or 7. In my case , my head is clearly 7, which is the one possible difference in our typology (just that one number). Anyway, nearly everyone got the sp/sx right. Two people in the Enneagram group on Reddit got the core right (3), but were newbies, so they didn't try to type anything beyond there. Everything else said about his Enneagram was incorrect. When I pointed out he was a 3 and sx/sp, people's eyes were then opened, and they could totally see 3w4 sx/sp. The top incorrect answer given was 6w5 sx/sp 613. I also had people typing him as a 9 and a 5. I think one person typed him as a 1.
Socionics: SEE (And yes, I've been able to confirm my Socionics is in fact SEE ) There was one person who actually said he was SEE. They got it right. Everybody else was wrong. The most common answer was LSI ( once again, where's the thinking?) Other incorrect answers were ESI, SEI and SLI. I also don't know where everyone got the idea he was introverted
Attitudinal Psyche/Psychosophy: EFVL Only one person got this right. They were the first person who responded in the Attitudinal Psyche group on Reddit. The most common wrong answer was FEVL, but the answer I put for number 8 is a pretty clear indication of 1E. It's also pretty obvious he's 2F with his openness and experimentation in the realm of physics. Other incorrect answers were VFEL, VFLE, LFVE and FELV. I think one person might have even responded FLEV, if I remember correctly
Classic Jungian: ES(F) Only one person took a stab at this one, and got it right. I'm pretty sure they were also the one who said he was SEE in Socionics. Go figure.
So yes, that was a summary of how people typed Arvid based on the questionnaire, and thus how they would likely type me if I were a fictional character
Here's a picture I drew of Arvid, so he could be visualized:
Here's a link to the original blog post where I talk about him:
I hope you enjoyed reading about my experiment
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question! I read your rules and I want to respect them but I’m nervous bc I’m confused about some of it? I try not to romanticize but I cope with my writing too. is there a list of tags you have blocked? should l warn you when I rp something with someone else that’ll have a bad topic? apologies beforehand!
Hello Anon,
thank you for sending me a message. Let me see if I can clear anything up for you. Please feel free to talk to me privately about what you're confused about. You can always send me a Direct Message and I would be happy to discuss things with you one on one.
If that is uncomfortable, Anon is fine. I'll try to explain what is confusing.
I have a list of tags I have blocked through tumblr savior but I also listed it in my rules at the very bottom ->
There are things on my "Please discuss with me" list that I, myself, write. I just am very careful to make sure that everything is tagged.
What I meant by drabbles will be tagged at the top and bottom is:
This appears BEFORE one of my drabbles and there is a cut to place the drabble under a read more:
and this was tagged at the bottom of the drabble in tumblr's tagging system:
I basically function on the rule that if it could be triggering to someone, I tag for it the best I can and I also leave the "// ask to tag" tag on my posts if I'm unsure if I missed something. I don't know what people have gone through and/or what is upsetting to them so I try to tag for everything I can remember from my partner's rules and the general basics that should be tagged anyway. I.E - gore, violence, gaslighting, abuse, genocide, war, death, etc
There is no need to warn me ahead of time about posts that could contain something triggering, if everything is tagged correctly.
because my tumblr savior will block things for me at the mention of the word and it will do this:
the word snake shows up in the post - not a picture of them. Just referring to another character as one but I still have to physically click a button in order to see it and at that point - it is my own choice to look at it. Then that's on me.
My rules are just asking that we tag for generally triggering things and if we are unsure - we ask each other. I have asked many times if my muse could do something in a post to make sure it wouldn't be upsetting or if my muse could "get really vulgar" (not kumo, a different muse) when he was cussing in anger just to make sure it wouldn't crossing a line with my partner.
I have written gore on this blog and I have written intense injury.
I have also started my post in a thread like so:
Just so anyone reading it (because I do have a few people who read my work but do not RP (and that's super cool to me)) wasn't taken off guard when shit started to get really nasty. That post was also tagged with
I write some really nasty shit on this blog. I'm not even going to set here and tell you I don't. I write war, abuse, torture, gaslighting, manipulation, death, murder, etc
I write really nasty things, but I don't condone them and I've made it very clear several times with several long posts that I don't. The characters that do bad shit in my narrative 9 times out of 10 will get punished by the narrative in some way shape or form eventually and that includes Kumo.
There is a difference between writing something to cope to try to work through it and break it down and understand it better and process it through different eyes / a situation / your muse and setting there and saying it's okay.
It would be like me setting here and excusing the fact that Kumo has killed and Kumo has murdered and Kumo has lied. The why or how behind why he did it doesn't matter. All that matters is he has killed and he needs to try to make up for that the best he can. He needs to better himself. He needs to grow. He needs to show remorse. He needs to better himself all around.
And I understand that some muses don't get better. But when we write it off as "they're just an asshole." or "they're just a bastard" that makes me uncomfortable because I don't set well with "they are how they are." If I can have an in-depth conversation with you the mun about things I can be generally okay. I've written villains. I've written villains who thought they were justified as fuck before.
They weren't. They absolutely weren't. Thought they were but they weren't.
So the only thing I can tell you is talk things out with me a little more so we can see if doing so will make you more comfortable - anon or private - either is fine.
Just send your muse to me and we'll write a little and if you feel uncomfortable it's okay to stop. If I feel uncomfortable it's okay to stop. It's okay to talk about it too. It's okay to ask questions. It's okay to check things if you're unsure. It's okay to check things for clarity's sake.
(I.E. "Can I assume that your muse is holding my muse like - " )
The best advice I can say is to just come talk to me. I will try to work it out with you the best I possibly can.
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The Jonah hill situation with that girl, I forgot her name I never heard of her but I can't be bothered man, apparently she's a surfer and she models if I understand this correctly and.. there's a lot to be said and even more questions to be asked. I don't care to get into it. After looking into the background of the texts Jonah Hill has struggled with anxiety, and the woman he was dating in the texts which occurred in 2021 also has her mental health struggles (don't we all) and I obviously am like everyone else seeing this on the internet who does not know or never met these two before and probably never will, all I can say is that these two people had a rough patch and they're best off carrying on with their lives since it seemed to be a miss for the both of them. They don't seem compatible plan and simple. I feel bad that the woman deleted 3 pictures/videos off her social media for Jonah, when they weren't even in a relationship (forgive me if I'm wrong). I think that was a bad move on her part bc she didn't like it obviously, she should have just put an end to the relationship. Hopefully she still has them in her gallery or something but yeah, Jonah Hill is looking like the asshole for that bit, but as far as him stating his boundaries in that text I think that's a healthy way to go about things since he states there is no hard feelings. It's not our business to know why he doesn't like what he doesn't like (even tho it's also not my business to write a full fledged response to this) But was there hard feelings? You could say yes, but it's all said and done now, this was 2 years ago. I'm afraid to ask this question bc I'm afraid it'll open up a can of worms but the only relevant question at this point is why the need to look back to the past? The situation wasn't the best but it's by no means dangerous, nobody was psychically hurt, she wasn't m*lested, etc but if there is evidence to support a claim that he did or if she did anything to him then that should be the first thing to bring up, but I'm going off topic and that's not the case we have here. In fact the whole situation from whats been presented as of today is pretty tame. This case just boils down to two people not working out as a potential couple and the woman is bringing up the past. However you wanna slice it that's what it leads to. Maybe we'll see why in a few days that she brought it up again as of now I gotta say this move seems in vain. Thx for reading and be an individual and beware of herd mentality.
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Spooky Short: ValenMine Customer Service
Hello and happy Valentine's Day!
My friend sent me this writing prompt and gave me 30 minutes to come up with the story. I'm not sure where he got it, but if you're reading this & you happen to have created it, thanks (& sorry I was unable to credit you)!
Enjoy this Twilight Zone/Black Mirror-esque Valentine!
Writing Prompt #1,081
You download a dating app that you've never heard of after your friend recommends it. She met her current boyfriend through it and, according to her, he's perfect. She warns you that the sign-up process is a little bit strange, but completely worth it. You shrug and fill out the information, thinking nothing of it. The very next day, a box arrives on your doorstep. You take it inside hesitantly and open it to find an odd array of items inside: a pink elixir, a rose, and some chalk. A notification is sent to your phone shortly after. The app requests that you open it and follow the instructions on the screen: draw a small circle on the floor, think of the perfect partner, and drink the liquid. You do as instructed and, in a gigantic poof of pink smoke, a woman appears in your living room, standing inside the circle. In a few days, you get used to her. She is perfectly nice and makes an effort to plan dates as well as bring you gifts, but you soon realize that she barely eats, doesn't sleep, and doesn't seem to know anything specific about her past. You try to shake off the odd feeling, but then see her face, with a different name, on a missing person poster.
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—ValenMine Customer Service Inquiry Log #111,459 —
—Pete McNeil, Orlando, FL February 9, 8 AM—
ValenMine Customer - Pete, 2/9, 8:00
What the hell?? If I thought Josie lying completely motionless in bed, watching me sleep (!!), was weird, last night’s discovery is even worse. I mean, I assumed she just fell asleep after I did and somehow managed to wake up before me every day, but whatever; I like attention and it’s been a while. But when we were talking a walk after dinner last night, I saw a missing persons poster WITH HER FACE ON IT. What’s going on here? Who is this woman you conjured up?
ValenMine CS Associate - Sarah, 2/9, 8:40
Hello! We’re happy to hear from you! I’m glad to hear that you’re enjoying the attention you receive from your ValenMine girlfriend! Here at ValenMine, we’ll make you a perfect match!
Pete - 2/9, 8:41
That’s all you have to say?? What about the fact that Josie’s doppelgänger is on a missing persons poster? Where did you find this woman?
Sarah - 2/9, 8:45
If I understand correctly, you’re concerned about your ValenMine girlfriend. Is that correct?
Pete - 2/9, 8:45
What an astute observation.
Sarah - 2/9, 8:46
We here at ValenMine strive to make sure all our users find their happy, blissful ending! Wherever you are, wherever they are, we’ll get you together. At ValenMine, we’ll make you a perfect match!
Pete - 2/9, 8:48
That’s what I’m asking! Where did you meet Josie? I thought she kinda poofed out of nothing. It almost seemed like magic.
Sarah - 2/9, 8:49
We’re happy to hear your experience was magical!
Pete - 2/9, 8:50
But where did you find her?
Sarah - 2/9, 8:51
I’m sorry; our user database is classified. If you want to know more about Josie, we suggest healthy conversation. Studies show that healthy communication is essential for a fulfilling and long-lasting relationship.
Pete - 2/9, 8:55
You don’t think I’ve tried talking to her? She exactly doesn’t say much. She wouldn’t even tell me where she’s from!
Pete - 2/9, 8:55
*doesn’t exactly
Pete - 2/9, 8:57
I mean, at first it was nice to be able to get a word in edgewise and to have someone just listen to my opinions for once—usually I have to rely on Reddit or my PodCast for that, but views on Pete’s Thinks have been down lately.
Pete - 2/9, 8:58
But that’s not the point! I wanted someone who didn’t ask dumb questions during movies or ask about the rules to lacrosse fifty times during a match, not someone who seems to have no thoughts about anything! All she does is agree with me. Which, cool—haven’t been with a girl like that since I was in middle school—but…
Pete - 2/9, 9:00
And then this thing with the missing person’s poster! I frequent a lot of news sites with their eyes open, you know? I know all. about. the deep state. I am VERY INFORMED. Where did this woman come form?
Pete - 2/9, 9:00
*from
Sarah - 2/9, 9:10
We here at ValenMine strive to make sure all our users find their happy, blissful ending! If you can’t find anyone on your own, we’ll do whatever it takes to pair you with your perfect partner. At ValenMine, we’ll make you a perfect match!
Pete - 2/9, 9:11
You said that already. Is there someone else I can talk to?
Sarah - 2/9, 9:11
I’m sorry; all our customer service associates are busy with other callers. Is there anything else I can help you with?
Pete - 2/9, 9:12
Is Josie really even her name? The missing persons poster said her name was Adriana.
Pete - 2/9, 9:12
You haven’t hooked me up with some kind of illegal, have you?
Sarah - 2/9, 9:13
I’m sorry; I can’t divulge any information Josie hasn’t told you herself. ValenMine takes the privacy of our customers very seriously. Perhaps the missing persons poster just looked like her.
Pete - 2/9, 9:14
Don’t give me that! There’s a very small scar right under her hairline—I liked it because she was perfect but not too perfect, you know?—so I know what I saw, and the woman on that poster had one too!
Pete - 2/9, 9:20
Hello?
Pete - 2/9, 9:31
Sarah?
Pete - 2/9, 9:45
What the hell? You’re not gonna talk to me either?
Pete - 2/9, 11:00
OK, I’m just gonna call the police.
Pete - 2/9, 11:30
I swear I’ll do it. Let’s see how your little app fares then!
Pete - 2/9, 12:05
Hello?
Sarah - 2/9, 2:00
Sorry for the delay! I’ve spoken to my higher-ups here at ValenMine and my manager would be happy to speak with you in person at our downtown office.
Pete - 2/9, 2:05
Finally!1
Pete - 2/9, 2:05
Jesus.
Pete - 2/9, 2:05
OK.
Pete - 2/9, 2:05
Great
Sarah - 2/9, 2:06
Perfect! I’ve sent the address to the email we have on file for you here. Is there anything else I can help you with today?
Pete - 2/9, 2:06
Hell no. I’ll save my questions for your manager.
Sarah - 2/9, 2:07
Great! I’m glad I could help you today. Remember: here at ValenMine, we’ll make you a perfect match!
—End ValenMine Customer Service Inquiry Log #111,459—
—Customer Approved for ValenMine Match-Maker Intake Procedure—
THE END
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are you autistic? No malice behind this ask, ignore if it makes you uncomfortable :°
I have questioned it. I've never been diagnosed or anything, but I have had a few people tell me that I could be on the spectrum.
I am slightly sensitive to certain textures (to this day I cannot understand why anyone would call the Webkinz Fleecy Sheep "soft" like that type of fleece is PAINFUL) and loud noises are especially bad. Heck, for the longest time I wouldn't eat off our ceramic plates and made my mom keep the plastic child ones because I couldn't stand the sound of a fork against ceramic.
Also, yeah, I get fixated on things easily. That’s probably pretty obvious considering I have this in the works that I'm trying to finish before I lose interest.
But yeah, I get so distracted, I actually have to try mentally setting water goals because I forget I'm thirsty 90% of the time. I also forget about my water goals.
The crap memory didn’t help in school either and is a prime reason I’ve completely shunned the idea of college. I always got multiple questions wrong on tests, not because I didn’t know the answer, but because I didn’t read the question correctly. Reading it aloud, multiple times, even having someone read it to me, a word was always missed or added in my head. When I took music lessons, legit I was singing a song for two years before my teacher pointed out that I always added a word that wasn’t in the lyrics. I had no idea.
I would say, my biggest issue is language. If you can't tell, I really struggle with spelling and remembering the proper definitions of words. Answering an ask takes about 20-30 minutes if not more because I have to think about it so much and stop to check I'm using phrases correctly. Without looking it up, I can't ever remember if "condone" means you embrace or disagree with something. Sometimes while hand writing, I still catch myself improperly capitalizing letters or writing a few backwards. Been a problem since I was a child. Don't look at my early video descriptions, back then I didn't have spell check.
This actually has kinda led to a reverse problem where for awhile, I became so fixated on forcing myself to learn proper grammar so I didn't look like an illiterate idiot, I ended up correcting everyone's mistakes and pissing them off. I'm obviously not like that anymore, although I think that intent learning helped in the long-run. That said, I've practically accepted learning another language is near impossible. You have no idea how much I wanna learn Japanese just because of Xenoblade and Sonic but the words don't stick.
But also, of course, everyone has sounds and feels they don't like. People get invested and forget things. My entire family has accepted I'm probably dyslexic. There’s multiple people in my immediate family who are autistic, too. I'll probably never bother getting tested or anything, but I wouldn't be too surprised if I did find out I was autistic.
#ask#for the record i spent a good 45 minutes writing this#i don't feel like it should have but maybe that's how long it would take others#i don't know i'm just slow with language#i also realized i've been out of water for the past hour writing this#whoops
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I went down a bit of a rabbit hole tracking down some old Francie Shwartz interviews. I am fascinated by whatever toxic concoction of bad vibes was going on in Summer 1968 Beatledom, and while I'm very aware Francie is an unreliable source, I'm insatiably curious. It was hard to find this stuff so I'm posting some links here in case it helps people who want to read it, too. I feel like she consistently gets close to saying things but then kind of veers around saying anything substantive. There are also points in interviews where it reads like she is very informed by other people's writings on the band and general received wisdom. This got very long, read more under the cut.
Body Count on the internet archive - missing some pages but the Paul chapter is intact. This is a strange read, it's like there are huge [scene missing] chunks of stories left out, and the sense of timeline is hard to follow. In that way, I suppose it does remind me of hazy summer days melting into each other when you're a young twenty something just hanging out all the time. There are so many strange little tidbits- on her second night in London she went to a club, met Paul's brother, and gave him a silver roach clip? There's very little explanation about how she actually ended up moving in with Paul at Cavendish- I feel like that would be a very specific memory worth including? To be honest, after reading this chapter my only thought was "that was exhausting, I literally can't understand how that entire situation lasted a couple of months."
Interview on About.com "Oldies Music" page (via Wayback Machine)- interesting, but again, devoid of the kind of details I would expect. This answer in particular drives me wild, because if she is going to remember them in great detail when she's 90 throw us a bone here!
What were the White Album sessions like?
The sessions were like a long long dream, punctuated with odd mini-nightmares, and almost always stoned (hashish, mostly - reefer was rarely available in London then). Those sessions are something I'll remember in great detail when I'm 90, in a rocking chair or floating in virtual reality.
Q&As with Francie posted to the Macca-L listserv (via Wayback Machine)- among other questions, the one where Francie tells us what Paul smelled like:
[lynn]
francie, one of the questions macca-listers frequently ask those who have had a "macca encounter" but for which we have yet to get a definitive answer is "how does he smell?"
[Francie]
He's very clean. (Yeah, that was a HDN reference.) My favorite zone: His hair -- it always made me crazy (hope he's not reading this!) because it's so very silky and thick, and smells like a freshly shampooed show dog, and I mean that in the nicest possible way.
As for his personal aroma, his skin had a very very mild, almost morning-sunny scent, but everso subtle. He's one of those people who is so cool on the outside, you can't detect the storm within, and since he rarely lets the strain or conflict show, he also never has that "guy" smell. Strictly no sweat, from head to toe. Even his shoes in the closet - After i thought about this question a while, I realized his "perfume" is his 'cool' made physical. He never needed cologne and if I remember right, used no aftershave. Strictly a soap and water guy whose aroma never aged a day in the life.
1998 "Conversation with Francie Schwartz (via Wayback Machine)- Mostly focused on specific questions about recording sessions:
The text seems to imply that you were present in the very first recording session for the White Album. Did I understand correctly? That would be interesting to add to the Beatles dates collection. After all, it is not reported on Mark Lewisohn's `The Beatles Recording Sessions'.
I saw the chronology you referred to... Lewisohn had to rely on engineers notes and surviving Beatles memories, catching what he could from Neil Aspinall and others. I believe Yoko was at the very very first session, and Paul invited me to the second... I now believe it was a matter of Paul being really shaken by John's insistence on bringing Yoko (he refers to this in his inimitable fashion on the Anthology Video) to the sessions. In other words, Paul's thinking went something like this: If JOHN can bring a weird new woman to sessions, so can I... the difference was, Paul had only met me two or three times before this - and John and Yoko were newly in love...
I looked in my datebook and I think I confirmed I was at Abbey Road starting with Session #2 of the White Album. I went to quite a few sessions, but the most audible record of that is the backing track I sang with George Harrison (Bah-oom shooby doowah) for `Revolution' Take 2. That would have been that second session, which lasted until maybe 2 or 3 am...
Abbyrd.net interview with Francie Schwartz (original website still functional but here's a Wayback Machine link just in case)
Q: There is the persistent story that Jane Asher caught you and Paul together, leading to their breakup. True or false?
A: False. They were on the verge of breaking up when I arrived in London. Right after I met Paul he went to his farm in Scotland, and I believe Jane was with him, and that they were trying to work it out, but failed, because he came on with me as soon as he got back to London. I detail the actual events in the E! TV interview. Bottom line: She did come to the house one morning and knock on the bedroom door... but that was well after she had announced that the engagement was off, on TV. I believe that the "sound bite" psychology is what contributed to the myth that persists even today. It's a simple explanation for a very complicated and hard to condense process that was ongoing.
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noelle is talking to the visiting human homicide detective investigating berdly's death and if she were not so grief-ridden and scared and feeling like she was missing something awful she would care that this is the second human she's ever met in her life and he's very gently asking her questions about the day he was found, talking carefully and softly but matter-of-factly and she can tell he's not used to questioning kids, but he's trying. and he says so miss holiday if i understand correctly you were the last person to see berdly alive. and she nods wordlessly. something will not let her talk about this. and he says now, when you found him, you assumed he was sleeping, is that right? and she swallows and nods. is there a draft in here or something? and the lieutenant says well, how'd you come to that conclusion?
and she slowly lifts her head and looks at him fully for the first time. if she could see herself right now- not that she'd want to, she's been avoiding mirrors lately, she doesn't feel like looking at herself for some reason- she'd notice his expression is just as blank as hers. except hers hides things even she does not know, or will not let herself know, and his hides... she wonders. probably more than she could imagine. he'd been smoking when he came to their house, but she doesn't see his cigar with him now- maybe he threw it away?
when he speaks again, she realizes she's forgotten to answer his question. well, he says, what i mean is, of course you wouldn't assume he was dead. that's perfectly natural. but what i wanna know is, why didn't you try to wake him up?
i did, she says as evenly as possible. i called his name. he didn't move.
the lieutenant scratches his head, a carefully painted picture of confusion. you called his name, he says. and that's all you did? noelle says nothing. he continues. well, the department tells me your friend had a shift with a ms. boom around the time you woke up... he was very careful about keeping his appointments, wasn't he? why didn't you try to shake him awake or anything?
noelle's hands have been in the same position this entire time, folded carefully in her lap. are her legs falling asleep? she shifts uncomfortably. lieutenant columbo leans forward, places a careful hand on her shoulder. listen, miss holiday, he says, i'm so sorry you're having to go through all this, and i'd rather be anywhere else than asking someone your age about the death of a friend, but if i wanna make any progress... well. all i'm sayin' is that if i accidentally slept in on a weekday and my wife didn't wake me up so i wouldn't miss work, i'd be kinda annoyed. you know?
noelle does know. really, she does. it's just not here right now. none of it is. the memory of that awful dream, the snow and ice, her watch on kris' wrist...
lieutenant columbo points at her left hand, in her lap on top of her right. outta curiosity, he says gently, what happened here?
she focuses her vision. he's pointing at her left ring finger, and noelle doesn't know how or why, her throat suddenly feels dry, she can't breathe, but there are marks on it- marks like something sharp was pressed around it.
that awful ring... snow and ice. proceed. a visceral need to hide comes over noelle, and she wants nothing more than to run away, away from this well-meaning human, and shut herself up in her room, but she can only sit, sit so still, nearly frozen like a deer in headlights. and all lieutenant columbo notices is that she's gripping the fabric of her skirt awfully tightly as she says, just a ring too small for me.
#snowgrave#millie don't look#child harm#anyway this is more a snowgrave noelle character thing than anything else i just had to put my#latest blorbo in it lmao
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