#Don't look at me I am yearning

[sending-love-letters]

Honestly... faceless characters have no right to look attractive.

Knight armor

Motorcycle riders with the helmet and full leather getup.

A shadow creature with no discernible features

headless horseman

The options are endless and I'm kissing them all.

#monster lover #faceless monsters #don't look at me i am yearning #my writing 🫀💌 #dullahan #shadow monster #rider

[dollhouseofdreams]

Just had the best orgasm of my life

#olivia speaks 🎀 #don't look at me i am yearning

[spocks-kaathyra]

"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that

#joking but like. am I wrong though #yeah no one is able to overcome the inherent human flaw of emotion and anyone who thinks they can is in fact mentally unwell #except for me I'm built different I have actually managed to transcend emotion. this is a good thing and not a problem #I saw my father's anger and my mother's discontent and my brother's self loathing and my friend's yearning. #and I saw how it only made everyone more unhappy. and I decided I would be above them all and never let my emotions rule me. #I was scared of the dark until I realized that fear wasn't useful to feel. so I stopped feeling it #this is a good thing and I am a paragon of mental health I think #mmm alternatively I was made to play mediator in a family of traumatized ppl and learned to repress my emotions to the point of dysfunction #but I prefer to think I'm enlightened and have no problems. this is fine and will not blow up in my face #anyways. just now realizing that this might stem from my childhood. oops #also realizing that I'm probably not aro and I just learned to turn off romantic attraction bc I saw how miserable it made my friend?? #well. I still don't experience romantic attraction. but probably I should and I will if I ever sort out this repression thing. whoopsie #really she was ready to kill herself over some white guy and I looked at that and was like. nope. I'm never stooping to that level #mm might not help that my parents never loved each other and I never had a healthy romantic relationship modeled for me as a child #but still like really like what is the point. of having emotions. they're just not useful #oh hurr durr I'm angry at my friends for talking over a tv show. there is no way to act on this without damaging ppl and relationships #ohh I'm in love with this guy who will never love me back. THERE IS NO PRODUCTIVE WAY TO ACT ON THIS #literally emotions can only be destructive and I'm a better person for opting out of them #there are no downsides to being repressed! I can still feel positive emotions. I'm happy sometimes. sometimes I'm excited. it's fine #guy who is Unpacking Things live on ur dash. sorry #narcissus's echoes #vent

[aldercaps]

hmm i have a huge group project due that i'm presenting for tomorrow. time to learn a new instrument post-haste

#snufkin game made me yearn to make music again #i have an orchestral flute i share with my partner but its not Hitting The Spot #so now i am looking at tin whistles and mandolins and Yearning #idk i just want to be able to do fun folk music OR bass no inbetween #i havent had a bass since i was thirteen and it was wayyy too big for me the guy i borrowed it from was like 6'4 and i was teeny #caught big-time between fun little woodwind and wanting an instrument i don't have to blow into #gah #also. i have no money. so you can imagine the stress i am under #homepost #delete later

[theultracharmingladynoire]

honestly i am tired now can I just stop liking his face

#Literally trying to convince myself that I only yearn for him because of his face #Nothing more #Nothing less #I mena I can't be in love with someone if I don't actually KNOW them as a person #I just. Ughhhhhh this is all beccause of the fact I have to see him everyday #Still on me but getting over him would be so much easier if I didn't have to see him everyday? #I am tired man #It's been EIGJT FUCKING YEARS COME THE FUCK ON NOW #n rambles #I've got so much more to worry about and this si the least of my problems but it's like an annoying mosquito in my head #And it's so stupid because his face just looks more beautiful with each passing day god I am not your strongest soldier stop torturing me l

[hailtotheskull]

i think i'm going crazy a little

#5 hours is enough time. i'm going throw up in the tags so. idk. don't read if you don't want that or whatever #but i so consistently just feel. On The Outside of everything i guess. nowhere is where I am i sit on the edge of everything #i watch other people live and i watch other people function and i go “i wish that was me i wish that was me” and i sit there still #and it's true that i wish that was me but every time i almost get there i break down #i become convinced i'm hated convinced things are out to get me that they'll go wrong so i retreat and go back to sitting on the edge #i keep yearning for a life that feels so within my grasp and that i watch everyone else take for themselves #but every time i reach out i recoil without thinking and i go “why don't i have this life? why do i feel so alone?” #because you shut yourself away because you're so afraid all the time! look nash you can acknowledge it look! #but acknowledging it is pointless because do i do anything about it? do i try to change things? no! i don't! i just do this! #who knows. i'm losing control of my own life and all i have to do is grab the wheel and stop it but i can't do even that

[robo-dino-puppy]

sunset over the dry yearn

#horizon forbidden west #hfw #hfw landscapes #hfw the dry yearn #haha here i am with more sunsets! #just thought the three different times of day were nice colors #it does sort of bother me when the clouds look like they've been clone-brushed tho #lol #it doesn't always happen but i've noticed it in hfw when i don't remember it from hzd #maybe it happened there and i just didn't see it? #anyway #they look so good otherwise i can't complain

[sending-love-letters]

Okay not to be self-indulgent but I would die if Vincent called his significant other, his Galatea.

I love the idea of him calling you his muse, but Galatea scratches the possessiveness itch I have.

His Galatea.

The one who was made for him, who is perfect for him, everything he wanted.

Someone he can mold, and create, and guide, and that will love him back unconditionally.

His Galatea.

Click read more if you want a short summary of Galatea.

Galatea was an ivory statue crafted by king Pygmalion. He fell madly in love with his creation and in desperation, he prayed to the goddess Aphrodite for Galatea to become a real woman. In answer to his prayers, the goddess Aphrodite brought it to life and united the couple in marriage.

#slasher #house of wax #vincent sinclair #vincent sinclair x reader #house of wax 2005 #don't look at me i am yearning #I have some beef with Pygmalion and I would always make fun of him because he was pretty misogynistic but... #I get the appeal now buddy... you still suck though #my writing 🫀💌 #possessive #x reader

[fictionadventurer]

Guys, I’m getting so excited for the Inklings Challenge.

#doing some blog housekeeping in preparation for the 9/1 launch #finding stock photos for an autumn header brought back so many feelings from last year #the autumnal atmosphere of excitement #the creative choices made at the spur of the moment to get this up and running as fast as possible #the joy of outlining the rules of the game that other people will get to play with me #it's so fun and something i don't think i've experienced since elementary school #setting it in autumn wound up being an excellent choice because it fits so much of that back-to-school excitement #that once elevated this time of year for me #now i want to look up so many stock photos and create so many prompts #(can't i just give fun picture and moodboard prompts? those always work for me.) #(and i am yearning for the low-stress mildly-creative exercise of just browsing through pretty stock photos) #still not sure if i can follow through with the september writing exercises possibility #(unless anyone has writing exercises they want to share?) #and i'm a bit nervous about how the symbols requirement will be received but i just gotta go for it and hope people can get creative #also it is just wild to me how quickly this was thrown together last year #i posted last year's announcement on 9/25! #for a challenge that started on the first! #absolutely insane that it went as well as it did under those conditions #i'm hoping this year will only be benefitted by the additional time instead of losing momentum over the longer sign-up period

[zevlor]

x; end this yearning - hesitant touches and longing looks. (x)

#lmao me just spit balling the ages fr #meant to do piper but i got lazy so here's this one #this looks like garbage bc i did it so quick at 1 am #also don't comment on the badly done scar lmaooooo gave up on it #anyways still thinking about them always thinking about them #not really tagging if you see it you see it #oc: maxine sinclair #otp: end this yearning #*ocedit

[nooradeservedbetter]

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#man there's some blogs out here that i really cannot follow #not through any fault of their own but genuinely thinking about one direction in any way that is related to rl analysing makes me so sad #and yearning #i'm fine with fics i'm fine with edits and gifs and cute pictures and songs #i'm even fine with bbg discourse (fine as in: i ignore it as i've always done) #but this fandom.... this fandom. idk #1d entered my radar for the vmas 2013 and i slowly got into the fandom first in italian and then i came here around uhh #i don't remember but i started reblogging in feb 2014 apparently #i remember being an anti at first and then one gif made me change my mind #but that's not the point #the point is that in august 2014 my abusive ex left me and one of the reasons why i'm still here and i am what i am is the fandom #it's this fandom #and coming back to it after years in which while a fan i wasn't technically in it is.... #it hurts. it's a weird feelings in my stomach. it's looking around and seeing new faces and wondering where the old ones are #it's seeing narratives change and analysis change as well #and i guess it's more about the time passing. idk. #me? i just wanna write fic at the moment #i cannot handle really thinking about irl them #so anyway

[blujayonthewing]

how much of 'that armor I made and did a really fucking good job on looks bad on me' is because of the fabric's structure and how much effort and money am I willing to spend making a new set to find out

#Elyss has behirskin armor now... kinda want it..... 👀 #the TROUBLE IS that I am fat and Elyss is not so it's genuinely hard for me to gauge whether it's #'this looks bad because it doesn't suit my body type as well as it does hers' #vs 'this looks bad because I can't help comparing how much I Don't Look Like this character actually' #vs 'this looks bad because faux suede on a heavy twill base still isn't rigid enough for what you were going for' #if I did something like a faux snakeskin or crocodile vinyl leather armor with more structure... would that work better..... HMM #anyway this isn't the first time I've thought about this but a) it's youma season so fb memories has me Yearning #and b) cool friend finished their cool OC cosplay and it's fuckin amazing but IT TOO HAS ME YEARNING!!! #I could cosplay as Aubree really easily but her outfit is so Just A Guy that it doesn't feel that much fun kfdjhdf #and NYSSA.... is significantly bustier than I am :'D sfdjhgdhjd not that that means I DON'T wanna also do a satyr costume anyway #but I'd have to adjust her wardrobe cause it's a bit you know revealing and I simply do not have anything to reveal kfjghdf #about me #my OCs #elyss

[jokerownsmysoul]

picrew.

Thank you so much @greghouse for tagging me! 🥺 I've to admit that making these picrew made me yearn a whole lot, what a literal dream to cook for him and have a quiet dinner over his apt. that's one of my fave things 🤧🙈 best picrew ever, I smiled like a silly girl while making these from start to finish 😂😭🥲💙

The options are so lovely that I played around a little bit, I enjoyed it way too much 🙈🥺💙

I tag: @ajokeformur-ray @daincrediblegg @daydreamhustler @your-truly-the-whale and whoever wants to do it! 🧸🌷No pressure as always 🤗

#I know it's definitely not normal reacting like this over a picrew but it got me 🥺🤧 would give anything to have this #Anyway of course my picrew is looking at him lovingly almost forgetting to eat 😂 #I'm full of love 🥲 #This picrew is straight from one of my favorite daydreams i can't even put into words how much I'm yearning because of it #THANK YOU for the tag again because istg it's so beautiful 😭 #I can't control the yearning #Picrew #I can't stop watching this smiling like a dumbass 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈 #Girl help #Also yes I put spaghetti because OF COURSE I DID #The next step is italian homemade pasta #I've to stop myself from making more #I've an unhealthy obsession with picrew I know #Got a little bit emo over Joker eating breakfast and being the cutie patootie that he is i won't lie 😭 #Why am I like this #Anyway don't rb in case you'll do it please 🥺💙🙈🙈🙈 #I'm shy 🙈❣️ #It surprised me how many Arthur looks options this picrew has 🤗🌹 #Too bad I couldn't make carnival or put the Arthur's outfits that aren't available ❣️ #It's 3 am and I have too much free time atm

[depresseddepot]

It's struggle through autism symptoms hours

#being dx as an adult really is just a coin toss of ''will i be okay today or will i be existentially and emotionally ruined'' #was thinking about touch and how much i dislike it and it finally sort of settled home that like #i will not be living the life i imagined #i imagined one day i will be okay being single and unnattractive and i will care for myself #how am i supposed to be hopeless romantic and touch repulsed #how can i ever EVER even slightly hope to find someone who will be into me. like. lmfao it is a cruel joke #i am fat and unattractive. i am asexual and touch repulsed. i have autism and adhd and am completely unmedicated. #my own mother is too embarrassed by me to accept these things let alone not be ashamed of them #i can look past the visual and personality shit. like yeah whatever lets pretend someone is into me. #i do not want to have sex. i do not want to be touched. i do not want to kiss or be lovey dovey. #and i realize what's left is just literally ''a friend'' but what about all this fucking romantic yearning i seem to be full of #idk. i know the answer to this im just trying to ignore it i guess #all this escapism and yearning and dreaming is just to pretend that one day i will be a different person living a different life #but i want to live with someone. i want someone to sleep in my bed. i want someone to wake up and make breakfast with #i want someone who cares about me to be in the house when i get excited about something and need to tell someone #i don't want to be alone #i want to be near someone who makes me feel like i'm not a freak. someone who doesn't ever give me That Look #if ur autistic you know the look im talking about. the confusion the irritation the ridiculousness of it #i want to feel like i will always be someone's first choice. i want to know what it's like to trust someone with every part of me #and it will never happen because i cannot stand to be fucking touched #if i was just asexual i could manage. but i cannot touch #does this get better? will this improve if i meet someone i trust? i want to die #the only (ONLY) thing i think i can even remotely provide is creativity #and im good at it. i can write well and i have good ideas amd i know generally what im doing #but with school and work i just do not have the time to work on my wips #and i don't know how long i can fucking take it #i am doing nothing. i am giving nothing and taking so so fucking much #i know i don't have to work to deserve to live but jesus christ. what am i fucking doing #i don't have time but its the only thing i have to live for and i don't know how much longer i can live like this #vent

[sheogorad]

started thinking about men again. i'm boutta

#i am standing in the corner blaire witching it consumed by homosexuality #cian's ted talks #yes this is about harrykim. yes they have such a firm grasp on my balls that the dam inside of me is breaking #i so carefully keep myself from thinking too hard about relationships. i am SO careful to not think too hard about how fucking lonely i am #and then these two old fuckers come along and are like hey! time to fuck your whole life up #time to make you think about being an old man in love with another old man #time to make you pine. and yearn. and crave. time to make your skin start prickling when you realise how lonely you are and how gay you are #i can feel the hair on my body stand up. i can feel the warmth that i do not allow myself to want. it washes through my whole body bro #i am so gay and these old fucks are making me lose my shit. i am literally a professional harry simp at this point #this old fuck has a bad bod and is kind and weird and silly and funky and So Disco and i am In Love With Him #don't even look at me man i'm in the corner again. now i'm bouncing off the fucking walls thinking about him #fuck my LIIIIIIIIIIFE