#Dysphoric World

[uncanny-tranny]

The hardest, but most important, part of my transition has been untangling what my personal dysphoria is, and what is more a result of cissexism.

What I mean by this is that I learned that I am not dysphoric about certain aspects of myself, my body, and my life, but my discomfort in these aspects was influenced by the cissexist culture I live in which told me I couldn't exist as myself.

It's definitely a slow process, but I have found that it helps me self-actualize and actually see myself instead of what others demand of me.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #dysphoria #and what makes this really tricky is that often it isn't clear-cut as to what makes you dysphoric... #...versus what makes you uncomfortable due to your culture or environment... #...i still experience dysphoria but now i find that my motivation isn't to please the people around me... #...if i truly wanted to please the people around me then i would cease to exist altogether... #...and once i truly recognized that and came to terms with this reality i stopped feeling like i owed the world everything... #...i stopped feeling so disconnected with myself... #...i don't think this will be useful for everybody but i want to offer a different approach to it... #...by no means do i think that this is a 'cure-all' in fact it's not even close... #...because what i found that this has done is bring me *closer* to my trans body and my trans soul... #...i have found that my dysphoria has narrowed (especially since going on testosterone) and i feel more at peace

[shitpostingkats]

What if I told you. He. Was trans.

#its true tio nintendo told me #sometimes I feel dysphoric and then I remember Leon was a scrappy little kid #with messy hair and pink windbreakers #who was best friends with the girl next doors #and then started wearing baseball caps and sports jackets #and grew into the most powerful trainer in the region #with the most god awful fashion sense and an ugly beard and long purple hair and the worst sense of direction in the entire world #who's stupid and dumb and dresses insane #and I feel seen in the weirdest way #trans #transgender #pokemon #pokemon swsh #pokemon sword and shield #champion leon #trans!leon #leon pokemon #swsh

[dennisboobs]

adam's apple

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #ada speaks #ada's gifs #is he trying to make it more or less noticeable....... the world may never know #dennisisms #tumblr user charmac pointed this one out everyone say thank you <3 #i assume he's trying to make it more noticeable because he's going on tv to be The Man that everyone Respects as the Face of the Company #but for him to even think about this #lol. lmao. ha ha even. #is there anything he's not insecure and/or dysphoric about #his adam's apple of all fucking things #i diagnose you with genderfuckedness

[midnightfox450]

Thinking about the general state of Mettaton in deltarune. Like he doesn't "haunt the narrative" but he is definitely narratively A Ghost. You can't see him and probably never will and what little we have of him is unrecognizable at first glance. But his general impression is still there, the history of him. Your internet habits are all that are left of you when you're a perpetual shut-in, after all.

He's spoken about in vague hushed whispers by shopkeepers and no one else. He is a ghost story. He still has unfinished business. But the vessel he's supposed to be haunting is already occupied. The stage lights are shattered (NEO is known for its high defense [What even is NEO?]).

We went to a computer world and in next chapter we'll literally be going to a TV one. And he wont be there. Toriel and Undyne and maybe even Napstablook will probably be there but he won't.

#this was originally a rant to my friend but i thought it would post it if only so i dont lose it myself #rip mettaton you would have loved computer world. youre not even dead just too dysphoric #mettaton #mtt #deltarune #utdr #dr #deltarune mettaton #mettaton deltarune #trans mettaton #deltarune meta #mettaton meta #(haha) #utdr meta

[stillflight]

Being a masc, mlm trans man is weird because media representation of cis gay guys will somehow make you dysphoric because they're more effeminate than you and also because they're more masculine than you

#i'm too straight. i'm too femme. i'm too butch. i'm queer but like TOO queer so now i'm just a woman. #i lack the masculine contempt and feminine swagger that gay guys apparently have #i wanted to watch that show caleb gallo that so many gifsets are from but had to stop because i got so dysphoric like #this is a world i'll never be apart of i don't belong here #i'm a creep i'm an afab #kvetch #trans #queer #ftm

[sylvaridreams]

wide leg pants for the plausible deniability win! 🥳 literally he's sad and soggy do you care.

snippets from discord convo below

> alba looks at auru and goes huh, he has vigil meathead masculinity complex brainrot. how tragic. and then turns around and you see the same thing taped to his back

> no one would stop him no one would be mean if he wore a skirt at most someone would probably tell him you look really nice in that commander but hed kill himself over it on the spot for it having been mentioned.

> i do think its funny that alba can look at auru and be like (sigh) yeah he has issues with masculinity. i refuse to look inward however

#if auru doesn't watch it alba will steal the ''world's most dysphoric cis man'' title out from under him!!!!! #gw2 #alba #my art #sorry my sketches are so. sketchy. it's due to the sketching. #his sad eyes and downturned ears are killing me. boy come on

[gougarfem]

what happened to butch + masc/gnc women taking testosterone with the understanding that it doesn't change your biological sex. what happened to lesbians who took T while occupying the butch role unapologetically. what happened to the women who were seen as men by everyone except other gnc women. what happened to those moments of tenderness in recognising another woman's femaleness, reconciling that with her masculinity, understanding the space she took up and why she did so. why does everyone use they/them pronouns. are there other people like me? am i setting a bad example? am i erasing a future little girl's role model by making the choices i do? will i inevitably be grouped in with the trans crowd? is it possible to be recognised as a woman who looks and sounds like a man anymore?

#lav.txt #transition #masc tag #this is about my own experience as a woman who has been severely dysphoric since childhood #and has had no relief in the ten years of therapy since my diagnosis #and trying to find my own place in the world and my community while taking testosterone #respectfully please don't reply to this post with comments about the dangers of T or how nobody should do it to begin with #nobody makes perfect choices #instead let's talk about the erasure of spaces for people like me in the last few decades #the role i would have occupied fifty years ago is gone #i don't know if i'll ever be recognised for who i am by other women

[spikedhearts]

how do i say no to working tomorrow (my day off) without feeling like i am the worst employee of all time and am going to be fired immediately

#maybe if my manager hadn’t fucking fired everyone else then she would have people to work and wouldn’t be begging me every week #also unrelated but am listening to new t*ylor sw*ft album and it sucks #and i am annoyed and dysphoric and i hope the world explodes and everyone dies #tumblr my public diary

[ltacryptid]

not to be queer but I LOVE BEING TRANS!! Like. So many of the things I used to hate about myself have become things that make me so euphoric and I’ve never been happier than now and I LOVE being apart of this community and I love everything and I love my body!!!

#I have social dysphoria and recently it’s been really good. Liek I haven’t gotten a lot ever since I realized I was w tenor #And like. I have a bit of a tummy which helps me feel less dysphoric about my feminine hips. And GRAAAHH #I LOGE BEING TRANS!!! #I wouldn’t change this for the world.

[sirenium]

TW: Caps, truscum, ace exclusion, discourse (??)

It is absolutely appalling to me that the cesspool that is the truscum subreddit is still alive and well. Don't get me wrong, some of the people seem like fine individuals... at least from my (very) limited knowledge. But others? Holy shit, bro. It didn't take very long to find some sort of exclusionary post; this one in particular claimed that 'saying ace people are part of the LGBT community is like saying atheists are a religious group' and... wow. That is an INCREDIBLY idiotic take, and I'm not going to explain why due to the assumption that everyone reading this has a functioning brain.

It's like they think being any type of queer is all about oppression and pain, and anyone they deem to not experience an adequate amount of it isn't queer. We've seen this with the tucute shit, so tell me why I'm even remotely surprised that at least a few people who consider themselves truscum are aspec exclusionary as well. It makes my head hurt.

Exclusion does nothing the further LGBTQ rights and acceptance, all it does is victimize more people! Making yourself 'one of the good ones' does absolutely nothing! Making other queer people feel like shit does NOTHING to solve the real issue, which is the fact that there are STILL queerphobic people in the world! The fact that there are people OLDER THAN ME who can't grasp that fact is so upsetting to me.

#tw discourse #lgbt #anti transmed #anti truscum #truscum dni #btw dysphoria isn't the determining factor of being #trans #it certainly can be #but there ARE #non dysphoric #trans people in the world #regardless of if you want to accept that or not #Truscum ideology should've crashed and burned in 2018 istfg #fuck exclusionists #also #asexual #people are queer #therefore they belong in the #lgbtq community

[nowendil]

been thinking a lot about womanhood lately

#like. i don't exactly identify as being a woman. in contrast i do have a strong nonbinary/muunsukupuolinen identity #yet i do feel and acknowledge that in most contexts i AM a woman #not only because that's what most of the world sees me as but that's also consecuently how i move through the world #there is no one set way for women to experoence the world but i do feel like my experience is one of those. because i am gendered as a woman #it used to make me uncomfortable and dysphoric and i'm not saying that now it never does #but i have made my peace with it? like. i feel like i have “let womanhood in” as a part of my identity #and i have also realized that it's not actually being seen as a woman that makes me uncomfortable but being seen SOLELY as a woman #like my friends calling me a woman or my partner calling me their girlfriend doesnt sting usually #because i know they also see the other parts of my gender identity #but when a coworker refers to me with she/her or includes me in “ladies” it stings. because i know that's all they see #like YES i can be a woman. if you acknowledge that i am a bit of a weird woman. #i can be a woman if you acknowledge that i am a gnc woman. a bisexual woman. a queer woman. a woman who is sometimes bit of a man. #if you see and acknowledge that we can talk #however i am NOT a nonbinary woman. i am nonbinary AND a woman. which to some people is the same thing #but to me it's an important distinction. being nonbinary and being a woman are both parts of my gender identity but in very different ways #and very distinctively. lumping them together as equal parts of my identity as i feel the term “nonbinary woman” does doesn't describe me #i am enthusiastically nonbinary. i am begrudgingly a woman. i'm a woman with a long footnote explanation. woman¹ #“nonbinary woman” also doesnt feel like it accommodates the way i relate to manhood or boyhood. but that's a whole another tedtalk #i'm not a man but i like how it looks. and i'm not a man i'm just borrowing parts of it for genderfuckery reasons #idk how to explain it in english... #in finnish i would say that en oo mies mut joskus lainaan tai iahn vaa ihailen asioita mieheyden kuvastosta. #but because in social situations and In Our Society That We Live In you mostly can just choose one gender and it's either man or a woman #thennout of those i would rather be a woman. legally. with strangers. you know. not a woman but kind of yes because i relate to other women #if i could be seen only as nonbinary i would. but then again my nonbinaryness does encompass some parts of both womanhood and manhood. #so i guess people would have trouble seeing it as “only nonbinsry” #idk man. it's complicated and also changes emphasis multiple times a year #ask me again a month from now and the gender landscape will be interpreted completely differently #gender #nowe talks

[elithilanor]

Blog Update:

Cat photo to boost visibility lol

Currently no longer accepting fem-insert or OFC fic asks unless it’s sapphic. Ones currently in the queue are fine and will be finished.

Any and all gender neutral or masc inserts/OCs are fine (including with a fem elf).

Also gen or non-pairing fics are more open, as well.

If you’re a mutual, feel free to message me; we might be able to talk about it.

#we’re just very very dysphoric at the moment #and it’s not great for me to work on them rn #gender dysphoria sucks #and I don’t wish it on others #and I’m literally only doing sapphic because I want more of it in the world

[bingobongobonko]

man why do i look like that

#worlds most dysphoric man #and so it continues #dysphoric as fuuuuck but i get the bills paiddd babyyy #i paid my bills today yay

[ringneckedpheasant]

had the second worst great clips visit of my life today but thank fucking gd my hair turned out Okay despite the other horrors

#there are 2 in relatively close proximity to me & the one I like more had like 90 minute wait times #as opposed to 15 at the other place #and I knew it would be awkward & bad bc it always is at that location no matter who the stylist is #And Then It Was #stylist repeatedly misgendered me to her coworker who was giving some other guy almost an identical haircut to mine #said coworker did too despite me checking With My Name Which Is Marcus #& then she accidentally nicked my ear w the clippers #& I think she was worried abt doing it to the other ear so I had to trim around it a little when I got home #very stilted conversation which was mostly my fault and isn’t a crime #but she kept telling me I should try a specific style after she’d already started #& I was just like oh haha maybe next time. like three times over the course of 20 minutes or w/e it was #and ALSO sometimes the great clips employees do not really help you get cleaned off #I was spoiled last time the stylist gave me a dry washcloth to get all the little Bits off my face #but todays stylist just sent me out into the world after using the blow dryer for about 10 seconds #got out to my car. hair all over my face. itchy. nothing to wipe it off with. #anyway. worst time was when someone gave me an extremely incorrect haircut bc of a language barrier & I wasn’t really mad about it #but I did cry in my car after bc I felt So ugly & dysphoric #also last complaint abt this poor person #she seemed to have Very little confidence in her choice of tool and changed the guard on her clippers and what clippers she was holding #like 3x more than was necessary & I know this because I get basically the same haircut every time w very little variation #& it just made me anxious that it was going to look bad bc her behavior was #making me feel like she wasn’t very experienced w the kind of haircut I was asking for #marc.txt #last last complaint for real not abt her #her coworker who was also misgendering me cut my hair last time I was there 😔

[doggerell]

when is it My turn for twink death

#my walkies are making me loose what little weight I have no!!!!!!! stop!!!!!!! #I have the worlds most opposite body insecurities I know. but I hate being some spindly little twig #speaking #also looking like a twink makes me… dysphoric? I dont know. I really hate it. #I dont wannnnaaa be androgynous #let me be a girl. Im trying to be a weird girl but everything thinks Im just a twinkish trans guy

[sureuncertainty]

earlier we took a horrible uquiz that was like 'what kind of straight person are you" like whatever funny joke but I'm STILL UPSET because one of the questions fucking ASSUMED THAT AVERY IS A CISHET NAME, OP I AM GOING TO STRANGLE YOU WITH MY BARE HANDS

#this is avery by the way #this quiz made me dysphoric /hj #i didn't wanna add this on the actual post cause obviously this is a joke but also we are a LIIIITTLE bit actually offended #the question was like 'what would you name your kid' #anyway we got 'manly man' but that question automatically rendered all results invalid bc how fucking dare you first of all #this reminds me of one time at work percy saw a guest who had the same name as me but it was spelled with an i on the end #i can't even spell it out bc it's the most cursed thing in the world and makes me want to Die #anyway that's that on that tonight has been an emotionally taxing night for me we're gonna go to bed #win rambles