#EUPD

[ineffectualdemon]

People think being self aware cancels out mental illness. That when you realise your thoughts or behaviours are irrational you just stop having/doing them

Instead what happens if you're extremely self aware and mentally ill is that you just think in a resigned kind of way "I'm being really fucking crazy right now" while being very loudly mentally ill

Sometimes you are able to tell the people around you "oh, you can ignore me rn. I'm just being extremely mentally ill rn. It will eventually pass" and then continue your erratic behaviour. But mostly it's just privately thinking: "well this is embarrassing but I can't turn it off so just gotta deal with it I guess."

It's infuriating honestly

#mental illness #bpd #cptsd #mental health #eupd #system talk

[aussie-trans-king]

#bpd stigma #bpd stuff #bpd shit #bpd #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd problems #borderline thoughts #quiet bpd #bpd feels #bpd vent #living with borderline #bpd clog #bpd fp #cluster b #emotionally unstable personality disorder #eupd #actually eupd #bpd mood #borderline #borderline life #borderline pd

[world-lemination]

Wdym you wouldn't claw someone's eyes out for me??? That's kinda weird

#bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd mood #bpd stuff #eupd #being borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #borderline feels #borderline problems #bpd problems #actually bpd #bpd life #bpd favorite person #bpd yandere #eupdawareness #actually eupd

[franknfurterstriangulardinosaur]

The thing is that if there was any positive resources for Personality Disorders, we would be able to get better. Instead, if we look up “narcissist help”, articles come up with “how to destroy a narcissist” and “they’re self absorbed, entitled and manipulative”. You look up your disorder and you just get things that articles on how other people can destroy your mental health, just because you have your condition, because of the trauma that caused you to have this personality disorder. It’s like they don’t want us to get better, they just want us to know how we’re horrible. They need people to demonise us, they want us to be destroyed. They make sure that everything hurts us. They expect us to recover then stigmatise the things we are trying to fix. That doesn’t convince us to get better, that convinces us to become the worst version of ourselves.

#narcissist abuse isn’t real #narcisstic personality disorder #actually narcissistic #npd #bpd #aspd #antisocial personality disorder #personality disorder #hpd #ppd #szpd #stpd #ocpd #dpd #avpd #narcisstic resources #mental illness #eupd #ableism

[starspd]

the BPD experience of yearning for someone to tell you its going to be okay, but then when they do you dont believe them (and sometimes can even trigger you more)

#bpd #personality disorder #actually bpd #actually borderline #personality disorders #actually mentally ill #borderline pd #borderline things #mental health #bpd culture #cluster b #cluster b pds #cluster b personality disorder #actually cluster b #bpd mood #bpd thoughts #bpd stuff #borderline personality disorder #borderline culture is #borderline life #borderline thoughts #eupd #actually eupd #emotionally unstable personality disorder

[bpdnblvnts]

#traumacore #actually bpd #bpd #bpd thoughts #actually eupd #quiet bpd #bpd feels #bpd mood #bpd blog #eupd #bpd sucks #eupdawareness

[haithamssillylittlelife]

"i have x disorder and i don't think it's disabling, therefore it's not a disability"

that's cool and all but please remember all disorders are spectrums, and some people might experience it in a disabling way even if you don't. not everyone experiences their disorder in the way you do.

#npd #bpd #avpd #actually npd #actually bpd #actually avpd #personality disorders #actually cluster b #cluster b #eupd #autism #actually autistic

[notnorth]

My Kind Of Love

I want a love where the door is held open for me.

The love that pulls out chairs, and strokes my head when I’m unwell.

The type of love that is kind, peaceful and soft.

The kind of love that makes me feel safe, and I’d never dare flinch.

I want someone who will hold my hand and kiss my forehead in a crowd full of people.

Where I never have to second guess if their intentions are pure and genuine.

That love where we build empires together, and support each other to grow.

Choosing our favourite pumpkins in a patch, to carve that same very night.

Where we cuddle up in front of the fire on a cold Christmas morning.

We dance and sing in the rain, to share that romance-movie passionate kiss.

Where we book a flight on a whim, because anywhere together is better than not having each other at all.

I want to receive my kind of love.

From,

SCN.

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#scn #blog #bpd #eupd #notnorth #poet #poetry #poets corner #love #love poem #my heart #my kind of love #heartbreak #moving on #in love #for you #i love u #self love #love quotes #lovers

[siickangel]

love isn’t supposed to feel like this !!

#art #art journal #art journaling #text art #my art #collage art #bpd problems #eupd #digital art

[aussie-trans-king]

i know im constantly too much for everyone but sometimes i just want to be enough for someone

#actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd #borderline thoughts #quiet bpd #bpd feels #bpd vent #living with borderline #bpd blog #bpd fp #cluster b #emotionally unstable personality disorder #eupd #actually eupd #bpd mood #borderline #borderline life #borderline pd #borderline problems

[world-lemination]

You don't wana run away and start a new life together??? I thought you said you liked me??

#bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd mood #bpd stuff #eupd #actually eupd #eupdawareness #being borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #borderline feels #borderline problems #bpd problems #bpd shit #bpd feels #bpd favorite person #bpd vent

[bunniibpd]

#bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd memes #relatable memes #bpd life #bpd mood #bpd problems #borderline memes #borderline personality disorder #actually eupd #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd episode #bpd splitting #bpd vent #cluster b #emotionally unstable personality disorder #eupd #trauma #trauma posting #trauma blog #personality disorder #childhood trauma #mommy issues #daddy issues #abandonment issues #borderline problems

[bpdwarri0r]

Dear little me🤍

#trauma #eupd #complex ptsd #therapy #dbt #mental health

[littleoddwriter]

when y'all stop perpetuating stigmas and demonisations of certain mental disorders you deem 'scary' and 'problematic', we can actually start having a conversation about it.

self-absorbed people aren't immediately 'narcissistic'. stop using it as an insult to or even descriptor of every person you feel is being particularly selfish or conceited. NPD is a serious disorder and should be treated as such. stop demonising it.

and also, abusers who use the tactics of putting others down, making everything about them, etc. are extremely self-absorbed and could be anyone. stop making it look like it's just people with NPD, who themselves are abuse victims... often of that exact abuse you accuse them of. same goes for BPD and emotional abuse/using emotions and outbursts as abuse tactics...

generally start treating people with a cluster B personality disorder like the human beings they are, deserving of respect and kindness, just like everybody else.

stop throwing around the word 'psychotic' when you're really just trying to say somebody is 'evil' or 'deranged'. psychosis is a very serious symptom of extremely demonised disorders, like schizophrenia. people with it are just as deserving of respect and kindness as every other human being is.

low/no empathy doesn't make you a bad person. not having compassion doesn't make you a bad person. it's okay for people to not have those traits. they aren't 'monsters' for it. nor are they undeserving of your love and compassion for it, either.

in order to have a nuanced and helpful conversation about stigmas of mental disorders, you need to understand your own partaking in them and unlearn those words, behaviours and thought patterns. please.

sincerely, a person with a cluster B disorder that is sick of your hypocritical bullshit aka ableism

#don't be ableist. it's not cute. and it's not justified even if you think it is because of everyone else doing the same... #i have BPD for anyone who doesn't know yet btw #reblogging this post is very much encouraged #cluster b #cluster b safe #actually cluster b #aspd #bpd #eupd #hpd #npd #personality disorder #schizophrenia #schizophrenic spectrum #schizotypal #psychosis #stigma

[ineffectualdemon]

Okay I'm starting to get annoyed

Me: it's annoying how people think being self aware cancels out mental illness

People who found that post: *equates being noticeably mentally ill with completely unmanaged mental illness and destructive "bad" coping techniques* but it's still good to be self aware because then you can form good coping techniques and get better!!! It's just the first step of many on the road to recovery

Me: ...okay but even managed I'm still mentally ill. That's the whole point

Look I am practically the poster child for well-managed mental illness

And I am still visibly and uncomfortably mentally ill!!!

It doesn't go away!

It's a part of me forever!

And that's okay!

But it's annoying when people act like I should just never have a panic attack again because I can say "I'm going to have a panic attack" and prepare for it

Or that because I know I'm dissociating that I can just stop

And also some people can't "recover" or "get better" even if they are self aware

And even people in recovery are still having to deal with mental illness. It comes back or they're triggered or something else happens

My mental illness is here to stay and I can accept that and other should too

#mental health #mental illness #eupd #cptsd #depression #anxiety

[beautifuldarkmind]

I just feel like stuck. Every day is the same and I'm just existing not living.

#bpd #mental health #borderline personality #depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #sadness #empty #hopeless #sad quote #anxiety #anxiety disorder #anxious #mentally ill #mental illness #mentally unstable #borderline #eupd #hopelessness #lost #stuck #stuck in my head #emotionally unstable personality disorder #self harm #self hate #fml