#EVEN THO THEY DON’T FUCKING WORK

[pepperpixel]

“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!

(sur-ger-y!)

Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!

(my-my-mind!!!!)

I remember waking up with my mind repaired.

(A-OK! ^^)

I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”

Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!

Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #doodles #lol at tagging this petrigroff but nah I stand by it man!!!! #being a petrigroff shipper is understanding that I’m actually canon these two need som fuckin COUPLES COUNSELING. OR TO JUST BREAKUP. #like….. gGHG I LOVE BETTY BUT ALSO. ALSO… also…. these 2 have some issues… seperate and together issues. lmao #ANYWAY THO. ANYWAY THO. IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I SAW THE NEW TRAILER. IM GONNA DIE. MY WIFE I GOT TO SEE MY WIFE #AND WERE ACTUSLLY GONNA GET SIMON MENTAL STATE SHIT YEAHHHHH!!!! #HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!!!!!!! #FIONNA AND CAKE DO NOT LET THIS NERD KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS FEELINGS FUCKING GET HIS ASS!!! MAKE HIM FACE IT AND WORK THRU IT!!! #pls!!!! if even Simon Petrikovs can start working thru his mental traumas there might be hope for all of us ghghg #uh but anyway yeah. AMBESIA IS HER NAME IS SO THEM.. STRAIGHT UP I FELT THE URGE TO EVEN LIKE. make an animatic for it!! it was so fitting! #im not gonna make an animatic cuz I don’t feel like it but!!! I saw it… I saw the animatic in my brain ghghg- #there’s a lot of typos in these tags but. just do me a favor… and pretend like there aren’t lol #fionna and cake #am I…. possibly…. projecting more mental trauma and issues on Simon. then he ACTUALLY has… #probably. yes. but!!!! he def still DOES have issues. I feel like I’m probably exaggerating the Betty ones cuz he #never really outright expresses feeling hurt by her. but also I feel like!!!! he’s the sorta guy!!! WHO WOULDNT EXPRESS THAT! #cuz he loves her!!!!! sO MUCH!! and she did so much and pushed herself so far and was trying so hard… and also she’s fucking basically d #dead now!!!! it’d be like. disrespectful of her memory…. to feel that. also what’s even the point of expressing that pain she’s gone!!!!! #she did all of that.. for him… how could he…. just. spit in the face of that #im writing those last few tags in the he perspective of simons mind btw… the things he tells himself…. #anyway gGHG MAYBE I AM PROBABLY PROJECTING MORE ISSUES ON HIM THEN HE ACTUALLY HAS BUT WHO CARES MAN #I’m allowed ghghgh- #I wanna draw art of Simon having a traumatic flashback to the ‘Dont worry ull be obliterated soon!’ line and hating himself for it #ice king isn’t him!!! it isn’t him! it’s not him!!! why does that hurt it shouldn’t hurt she wasn’t talking to HIM #BUT SHE WAS #SHE WAS… she didn’t think of the ice king as Simon but he IS… HE IS AND JUST. URGHGH

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

pardon my shaky hands

#death note #l lawliet #trad art #got out the paint pens bc they’re so crisp #that black pen makes my shaky hands very noticeable but whatever #u get the scribbly guy since i cannot smooth my lines via procreate w/o a working pen #i have so many of these paint pens tho i don’t even think i used all of the blue ones #they all are very little tho #they’re the posca .7mm ones but i think i’d use them more if i got the 1.8 or thicker ones #my hands are shaky and my eyes are bad so it’d be easier if i could get bigger pens #i have a couple but they are all neon bc i like bright colors #and since i'm talking paint pens anyway i found an absolute beast of a pen #i literally have to fist it to hold it it's massive. i mean. i do have little hands but it's still massive #the ball in it literally clunks when i shake it rather than the little quiet noises of the other ones #its fucking massive i forgot i had it it is awesome i think i probably got it to color things in fast bc it's a massive wedge tip

[lotus-pear]

THE NEW BSD CHAPTER?????? HELLO?????? EHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK FYODOR

#oh uh spoilers in the tags so don’t read if you’re not caught up #…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… #THEY RLY JUST KILLED DAZAI LIKE THAT.. AT CHUUYAS HAND TOO💀💀 #THE WAY HE BEGGED FOR CHUUYA TO SEE THROUGH THE VAMPIRISM AND SEE HIM SEE DAZAI OSAMU HIS PARTNER HIS COUNTERPART #THE MAN WHO BRINGS OUT HIS HUMANITY AND HAS ALWAYS SEEN HIM AS HUMAN NOTHING LESS #SOMEONE WHO HE JUMPED OUT OF A PLANE FOR FOUGHT A DRAGON FOR USED CORRUPTION FOR BC HE TRUSTED HIM WITH HIS LIFE #AND THEN HE SHOOTS HIM????? I WAS HOLDING BACK TEARS😭😭 #WE’VE FUCKING LOST BSD FANDOM WE LITERALLY JUST FUCKING LOST #NOT TO MENTION SIGMA I DONT EVEN WANT TO GET STARTED ON HIM #against everything i hope that aya rly removes the sword and it kills bram or some shit and everything blows up in fukuchi’s ugly face #also praying that fyodor instructs chuuya to bite dazai or some shit bc even tho he’s a fucking bastard i still want him alive #idk if when bram dies everyone who became reanimated as a vamp turns back into a corpse bc bffr that’s the only thing saving aku and dazai #or when the ada gets the page they’ll bring dazai and sigma back to life and have sigma join the agency #manifesting this ending manisfestibg this ending it will work my tears and prayers and hopes will be answered im not fucking delusional #bsd

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone? #in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[kingkatsuki]

Texting Bakugou that you got hurt at work as he starts freaking out in his office and getting ready to blast his way to your building, until you answer his FaceTime call and show him the Dynamight plaster now wrapped around your finger as you pout into the camera and ask him “Are you gonna kiss it better?”

#so now he’s cursing on the phone and asking what the fuck happened #and when you tell him you hurt yourself sweeping he’s like #how the FUCK do you cut yourself sweeping💀 #and he definitely pretends to kiss the phone camera for you even tho he’s still cussing you😂😭 #this absolutely didn’t happen to me at work #and I definitely don’t have a plaster on my finger from sweeping #altho it’s not a Dynamight one🥲 #bakujo

[fridayiminlovemp3]

god i wish i had a backbone!!!!!!!

#this girl at work asked me to take her shift saturday and i ready don’t want to but i don’t have a good reason to (other than the fact that #i’ve worked every day this week and that was my one day off but!!!!!!!) and i was like yeah i’ll let u know and she’s sent me 3 long ass #texts BEGGING me to take it. fuck off!!!!!!!!!!! #and then i fucking took it!!!! because i felt bad!!!! but like it’s not my fault that ppl won’t book days off and can’t ask anyone else to #cover them. like i’m not the only fucking employee #whatever tho!!!! i’m 23 not like i have anything better to be doing on a saturday evening then fucking working (i should be at the club) #it’s sooooo embarrassing!!!!! it’s soooooo embarrassing girl #fuck my stupid baka life #mari.txt

[sunnibits]

you are so fucking right about babies. baby naps are hardcore the most cutest naps ever. i love babies i feel like that’s an unpopular around here but they’re just so cute. anyway real footage of me anytime i see a baby

REALLLL ME TOOOO!!! I’m always just like. holy shit a baby. holy shit ur so small. dude I hate to alarm you but um. did u know ur so small. like. are you aware that you are in fact just a little guy. itty bitty even. and the baby’s just like: 👁👄👁

anyways this is a real image of me at work every Saturday

#mr wiggles my absolute fucking beloved. the cutest fucking little guy ever #fr tho I don’t get why so many ppl on tumblr are so fucking mean to kids like 😭😭 #I get that society has made you absolutely exhausted of the way we’re all expected to have kids and treat them like miracles but also. #babies are actually cute and special unfortunately. like they actually are sick as hell if u give them a chance. #I know not everyone wants a baby but I feel like the mere concept of the way children perceive the world fits in very well with the tumblr - #- populations general philosophy of romanticism and enjoying little experiences in life #idk. maybe I think about things too much. but that’s just my thought #ask box #anyways I would kill fifty armed men in cold blood for even my least favorite kids at work and that is a promise #they may drive me crazy but I would take a bullet for them without hesitation #doodles

[pepperpixel]

WHERES UR HEAD AT- AT- AT- AT?

WHERES UR HEAD AT?

WHERES UR HEAD AT?

FiNALLY MORE ART… Srry I’ve been gone for a while!!!!!! I… have just.. been super busy. And I’m still busy lol. I got a lot goin on!!!! But… But…!!! I managed to finish some art today!!! Thank god lol- so yeah! Behold this funky nurse creature..! she will be committing medical malpractice on u..!!! And that is a promise!! Or ur money back guaranteed!

#original #original art #artists on tumblr #nurse #demon #doodles #it’s the holidays dudes…. shit is fucking busy….. #but yeah… here is nurse tho… I hope u enjoy her… #I enjoyed drawing her!!! I tried to mess around w a lot of diff stuff! #like… I tried to not stress so much about.. making a polished end product.. and to instead just. draw… in a way I thought would be fun #and interesting! and it was!! #which was nice! #and also I think the end product turned out good too which is nICE BUT #I was trying not to worry about that while I was drawing lol. #I think.. she has soup for brains… but boy does she kno how to work a hacksaw…! #like. her brain is only made for surgery… almost scarily competent and cracking somebody open and messin around in there! #the scarily is cuz… u have to be awake lol… and also u don’t need surgery… she just wants to give it to u… so! ur getting surgery lol #but her brain has no cells or time or care for anything outside the operating room… #IDK IF ILL EVER DRAW THIS NURSE AGAIN SHE DOESNT EVEN HAVE A NAME #but there are those thoughts I had about her! #blood #knives #the scarily is also cuz. who KNOS what she’s doin in there!!! u certainly don’t!! other medical professionals dont! they’d be appalled! #straight up horrified! but! she knows…. she knows what she’s doin. that’s what matters in the end lol #also she def isn’t giving u any anesthesia lol she’s goin in raw #anyway yeah!!! she’s cute I like her!!!

[sophfandoms53]

Putting Ratcole, Cameron, Frankie, and Cauliflower on the same level of legendary status as Britney, Taylor, Danielle, Josh, and Xavier is kinda nuts imo

#like you have the queen of the DR #whom also could’ve won bb14 had dan not had his funeral #you have one of the greatest strategic minds and also a master of the DR #our first black winner whom was part of the first all black alliance that all got to the final 6 #our first female black winner whom showed sm grace and resiliency her entire season and won AFP #im not even the biggest josh fan but he was entertaining and knew how to work the jury and strategize in bb19 even with paul’s help #and his pots and pans thing ofc #then you have fucking ratcole who picks men every time and sobs all the time #cockroach cameron whom was protected by production all season via the edit #cauliflower whom had bb22 incredibly rigged in his favor from before night 1 #and then you have frankie who’s incredibly annoying and is struggling behind his sister’s shadow clearly #the imbalance is crazy #Also only 2 ppl from pre-modern BB…. #danielle and brit😭 #girlies and taylor don’t fail us now #even tho ik this is gonna be rigged for the dudes #especially cody and Cameron 🙃 #bb25 #bbrg #big brother reindeer games #big brother

[sapphicsnzs]

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

#self obs #i will delete this later but i just need to get it out #i told my two best friends about how i got rejected and they both were just like move on lol #like i don’t think they realize how awful i feel right now like literally that was my dream and im scared im never gonna be able to do it #i also somehow have to tell my parents and that’s a whole different problem #my parents are already up my ass about me quitinh my job for no reason #well basically i think they’re trying to get me to move home for the summer which doesn’t make sense to quit my job i’ve been working at #for almost a year to come back and get a job for a month #but like i can’t think of another reason that my parents would randomly want me to quit my job #so i’m stressed about that and now i also have to tell them i got rejected and now i can’t start the part of my degree that i need for my #fucking job and fuck i’m so stressed and don’t know what to do #and im just like so embarrassed and everyone is acting like its not a big deal even tho like if i apply again i probably won’t even get it #because i didn’t even make it past the interview phase and anyways im just so upset with myself and everything #i like actually thought my life was turning around and i was gonna be happy finally but nope #anyways this is just me sobbing and trying to let out my frustrations because no one will actually listen or validate that i’m upset #whatever im gonna go drink some wine and probably pass out on the floor of my room

[milflewis]

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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it #my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with #and while this like isn’t fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l #lovely? #bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am #glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh i’m popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like she’s hasn’t been gone #since i’ve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life #he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even #harder now. in others he is easier. #he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken #about. that no one knew. my dad doesn’t love him more now but he understands him better #my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he #hasn’t walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his #personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasn’t dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the #nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off #he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isn’t. he doesn’t know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he #still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so she’s tired today. don’t stay #long when you call in to see her? #whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late he’d ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael. #not ur kids. u can’t parent them. he didn’t know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart #i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him

[burst-of-iridescent]

okay i’ve had fucking enough of this so let’s clear something up right now: the fire nation did not colonize the southern water tribe.

here is the literal fucking definition of colonization:

see the common thread there? settling.

as in, people from the colonizing country have to actually live in, and establish control over the local government and people of the country being colonized.

as established in show canon, the fire nation did not send anyone to live in the southern water tribe. the fire nation did not establish its own form of government in the southern water tribe. the fire nation did not depose the existing leadership of the southern water tribe, set up a puppet ruler, or otherwise exert any form of political, social or religious control over the people of the southern water tribe. what the fire nation did do was commit genocide against the southern waterbenders.

the only country that the fire nation colonized in atla was the earth kingdom, but somehow, i rarely see the colonizer argument applied to jin/zuko, suki/zuko or toph/zuko. sokka/zuko is one of the most popular ships in the fandom despite the fact that…. *checks notes* sokka is also from the southern water tribe, a place zuko supposedly colonized. funny, i don’t see anyone hating on zu/kka for that though.

zuko and katara are not a colonizer/colonized ship in the show, and neither is the dynamic between their countries reminiscent of our reality. zuko and katara are not based on real people, the way j*hn smith and pocahontas were. there is no real history of war or colonialism between the people they were inspired by (the Chinese/Japanese and the Inuit respectively).

what is real is the terrible, horrific history of colonization. what is real was my people having their food stolen by the british & dying in the millions from famine. what is real was my home being conquered by the japanese because england colonized my country, forced it to depend almost entirely on them & then left it to suffer when they lost.

colonization is not a cute little buzzword you get to throw around to disparage any ship you don’t personally like. if you’re uncomfortable with zutara, that’s your prerogative, but for the love of god please open a fucking dictionary before you decide to (inaccurately) compare the brutal, bloody reality of one of the worst aspects of our history to the relationship between two fictional characters.

#zutara #pro zutara #if one more person tells me zutara is a colonizer/colonized ship i will lose my fucking shit #please understand the meaning of words before you decide to go flinging them around willy nilly #especially something as serious as colonization and the effects it’s had on millions of people #additionally i didn’t even get into the fact that zuko actively works against his country’s colonization #and risks his life MULTIPLE times to tear it down and bring the regime to an end #idk ab y’all but i don’t see any colonizers doing that #what do i know tho #it’s not like both my homes were colonized or anything

[puppyeared]

OH YEAH I UPDATED MY KIRBY GIJINKAS. AGAIN

#I added elfilin this time cause I got katfl a couple weeks ago!! I haven’t finished it yet but I’ve gotten a little bit into the game #inevitably I meandered upon some mild spoilers so all I know is something something elfilin escaped a lab and has an evil twin?? #something like that. I haven’t gotten that far tho but I put him in a hospital gown bc I think it works #ALSO I HOPE I MADE DDD LOOK MORE LIKE A DILF?? that’s what I was going for or at least smth dilf adjacent #I want to make him look cozy though so I’ll probably experiment with his design to make it look more like pajamas #because I can. also I don’t want to draw his hat so I dumped hair dye on him and gave him a Mallen streak bc he is Tired #it’s called dreamland for a reason so I’m gonna make him look SO fucking COZY. SNOOZY EVEN #also when I told my brother about my idea for a channel ppp ask blog he laughed because it sounds like peepeepee #so I tried to backtrack and told him ppp is short for pupupu because that’s dreamland in Japanese #but it sounds like poopoopoo so it went about as well as you’d expect #my art #doodles #Kirby fanart #kirby series #Kirby #king dedede #Kirby gijinkas #Kirby and the forgotten land #katfl spoilers #katfl #elfilin #kirby gijinka

[twistedappletree]

i’ve been at the emergency vet for 3hrs and it’s a 1hr drive here and back and it’s 5am now and i’m so fucking tired omfg there’s no way i’m gonna be able to sleep for work today 😭

#i hate that my town doesn’t have a goddamn ER vet #literally no access to a nearby ER vet is actually why one of my past dogs died #bc the hour long drive was too long for him even tho i sped like a bat out of hell #thankfully my baby’s getting seen but ffffffff #i couldn’t have even go a to her reg vet anyway #bc they’re only open when working class people are at their jobs lmao #like the only way you can get fucking vet care during the day #is you’re retired and have NOTHING to do ever and don’t have to worry about fucking anything #tf kind of hours are 11AM TO 2PM FUCK OFF #😒😒😒 #anyway #$600 for everything which actually isn’t that bad considering #my reg vet would’ve been more expensive actually #just wish priya’s insurance didn’t have a wait period otherwise it would’ve been way less #but i had to bring her immediately my poor girl was vomiting and had bloody stool and was so lethargic 😭 #apple babble 🍎 #non fandom