So things have gone from bad to worse. My mom and stepdad had two loans and he hasn't been paying them, we tried to get a hold of him about them but he blocked us again not wanting to acknowledge that we exist. One of the loan companies called him and he said that "I don't care if she loses everything" how low can you get that low apparently. I don't know what to do about any of this it's getting to the point where we will lose everything. The loan company said that if they don't get their money then they will come and take whatever they can to sell and get their money that way. Everything just keeps falling apart and people keep saying that it'll get better, well it hasn't so far and I'm losing hope.
https://gofund.me/8729af84
Here's my GoFundMe again help me out if you can and please share it around as much as you can.
I have been in a constant state of panic, anxiety, depression and fear for so long I do not remember feeling anything else and I miss who I used to be so so so badly I could scream.
I give so much to people who don’t deserve it I’m so loyal and I always go back and for what? So they can lie and call me abusive and make me feel horrible for having feelings?
i am so anxious right now, i mean i always am but right now its more then usual and i dont even know why, my whole existence is just a ball of anxiety. I think i’m just going to break if one more thing happens in my life. I got diagnosed with anxiety years ago and its getting worse lmao
My professional life is currently falling apart and instead of taking care of it I distract myself with designing imaginary tiny house.
I drew a floor plan some time ago and yesterday I created some poor visualization. Now I just need to develop wall sections for electricity and plumbing and design furniture.
I deleted my ig some time ago, so now you have to see it. Sorry.