#Either way

[bitteraristocrat]

WE'VE FINALLY MADE IT TO BRIGHTON.

#Kuroshitsuji spoilers #chapter 211 #sebaciel #also I think that might be the Brighton Palace Pier??? #either way #ADVAGADAFHSGJKGDDKGSGKJFS #FINALLY #MY BOYS

[thebibliosphere]

Speaking of therapy, I say, as though we're old friends, and you're not a stranger trapped in this metaphorical elevator with me and you can hear the suspension wires starting to fray.

I've been doing a lot of work recently that's focused on imposter syndrome and the feeling that no matter how well or how much I do, I'm not good enough. That I'm somehow tricking everyone into thinking my work is actually good.

Some days it's a minor niggle in my head that I can gentle and soothe with logic and affirmations. Or smother, depending on the mood. Other times it's loud and all-consuming and the mental anguish it causes me is so real I can feel it twitching in my muscles. This desperate fight-or-flight instinct with nowhere to go and nothing to fight but myself.

Anyway, because I'm several types of Mentally Unwell™, I was switching between workshop sheets ahead of next week. Filling in different forms. (Trying to get a good grade in therapy) And I got my "recognize your harmful ADHD coping mechanisms" worksheet mixed in with the "you're not actually lying to people, you just feel like you are because your brain is full of weasels" worksheet, and seeing them side by side made something go topsy turvy in my head, and I just had to sit and breathe for a couple of minutes until the urge to scream passed. Because it clicked, it all suddenly clicked.

The reason the imposter syndrome workshops and therapy sessions aren't sticking was because I do routinely trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not.

Because I'm masking my ADHD for their convenience.

I've always known there was something wrong with me. My neurotypical peers made it abundantly clear I didn't fit in or was failing in some way I couldn't see nor remedy, no matter how hard I tried.

So I compressed myself into a workaholic box of hyper-competence in the hopes they'd stop noticing the flaws and exploit like me instead. And then subsequently lived with the daily fear that if they looked too close, they'd realize I'm a monumental fuck up with enough personal baggage to block the Suez Canal.

If you ever need someone to burn themselves to ashes for your comfort and convenience, I'm your gal.

Or I used to. Until I had a bit of a breakdown, and the rubber band holding my brain together snapped and pinged off into the stratosphere, never to be seen again.

Unfortunately, the trauma of living like that didn't also fuck off and instead left a gaping maw where my personality ought to be, so now I get to deal with that aftermath.

And it's that aftermath that's affecting the imposter syndrome shit. Because yes, I am hyper-competent and good at what I do-- but it doesn't feel real because that is how I mask.

And the truly frustrating thing is I am good at what I do. I am not pretending. I worked hard to be good at this. It just feels like I'm dicking around because 90% of my personality turns out to be trauma masquerading as humor in a trenchcoat, and having people genuinely like something weird I'm doing is so foreign my brain has decided it's just another form of masking.

I'm pretending to be a good author so people will think I'm a good author, and my brain thinks we are in Danger of being found out. We are in Danger, and writing is Dangerous because then people will know I'm Weird and not whatever palatable version I've presented myself as for their NT sensibilities.

Like the neurotic vampire with a raging praise kink wasn't an obvious giveaway.

Anyway. I got nothing else. Thanks for listening.

I'm going to go be very normal in another room and not stare into the abyss of my own soul for a bit.

#adhd #mental health #mental illness #trauma #imposter syndrome #sorry for the wall of eratic text #feeling jittery af #possibly hypomanic tbh #either way #aaaaaaaaah

[sandflakedraws]

soft bros ft. the efforts of my unseen troll art improvement speedrun

these movies are a reminder in goober form that actually, i love music intensely

#sandflakedrew #trolls #trolls floyd #trolls branch #branch #floyd #they look significantly less anime from the other times and i'm happy about that #i think it was the roundness that was missing #either way #still workin on everything but we take improvements where we can!

[wis-art]

fishing and proud

#art #my art #goat #fishing goat #doodle #trans #you know i made this piece because someone said that one of my recent pieces made them want to get bottom surger #and first of all #hell ye! #hope you can get one #second of all #you're beautiful even with a bulge hehe #either way #yellow #im taking it easy lately #drawing mostly doodles #hope it's all good with all of you #trans goat #furry

[sophfandoms53]

I keep thinking about how aggressively tall Hunter is compared to the rest of his friends. The way he literally just towers over all of them never ceases to amuse me.

Like look at this

This kid is like a fucking tree-oh wait

#ik he’s older than them BUT DUDE #it just looks so funny #they’re so smol and he’s just #a literal tree #maybe Caleb was just tall too #i just remember reading Hunter is apparently between 5’9 and 6’1 #idk if that’s true bc it’s not from an official source #either way #this dude is tall as hell #toh #the owl house #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers

[tanglepelt]

Dc x dp idea 113

Danny was falsely arrested. How dare the store. He may look homeless being on the run from his parents and all.

But really.

All he did was stuff the item in his pocket so he could help someone grab an item.

They didn’t even give him the chance to explain. He had the money. Sam insisted on giving him cash before he ran.

When they took his fingerprints he really didn’t mind. He was running from his parents not the government. As soon as he was left alone he’d high tail it out of Gotham.

To bad he wouldn’t be left alone. Being Bruce Wayne’s kidnapped son was not on his bingo card.

Now Bruce Wayne billionaire had never expected to have his son be found. Never for him to be found stealing food and obviously homeless.

#dcxdp #dpxdc #dcxdp prompt #dcxdp crossover #Danny was kidnapped as a kid #maybe by other forces then the fentons #maybe the fentons #either way #Danny is Bruce’s other blood son #one who was kidnapped #Danny was aware of the kidnapped Wayne #he saw it on a conspiracy show #just Bruce Wayne billionaire #getting informed his kidnapped son was found #and he was stealing food #and he looks homeless #how bad would Bruce feel about that #Danny can’t easily bs his way out of this

[gammija]

ive been meaning to make this post for a few weeks, and now that Lena's "I am not a wealthy woman, certainly not compared to your own family," to Gwen seems to have put a spotlight on it, here's my lil suggestion;

Elias Bouchard is a ministerial employee/politician, and the OIAR falls under his responsibilities.

Gwen's Bouchard surname already heavily suggests that she comes from a wealthy family, like Elias did in tma. Alice's "Let me guess, fancy gowns, champagne, bathing in the blood of the poor, that sort of thing," comment in ep3 makes that not just independently wealthy, but high class as well.

Then with Alice accusing Gwen of (benefitting from) nepotism in the first episode, it makes sense that someone in her family has a powerful position somewhere in the OIAR hierarchy.

All those are easy to notice, but one thing I haven't seen many posts about - in that same episode, Collin and Alice have this conversation:

ALICE: [...] Is it an app yet? Do we have a minimalist logo? I assume you’ve finished all the social features?

COLIN: Don't you start. I swear I'm going to shove a cable down that prick's throat, pull it out his ministerial anus and floss him to death.

and later, with Teddy-

TEDDY: Colin, mate, you know you’re never getting out of here.

COLIN: Christ, don’t say that.

TEDDY: Even if his nibs lets you off the hook, which he won’t, you couldn’t bring yourself to just leave.

Based on that, we can conclude that somewhere up the OIARs hierarchy, there's some managerial asshole who insists on keeping Colin around (for the app?).

So, combined with what we know from OG Elias in tma, and Gwens nepotism comments, until proven otherwise, that asshole is Elias to me <3

#technically it could be anyone. and the nepotism comment could be about a lot of people #BUT. thisd be a lot of fun #visit from daddy just to check in on how the apps coming along #OR he actually does know more than lets on #either way #the magnus protocol #tmagp theory #tmagp spoilers #tmagp s1 #gwendolyn bouchard #elias bouchard #gwendolyn #elias #magnus protocol #magnuspod #magp07 #magp007 #tmagp - give and take #joos yaps #also ik its not the most farfetched theory but i have EVIDENCE #and not just 'hey thisd be neat' #granted its nowhere near airtight so there's still a high amount of 'wouldnt this be neat' doing some of the lifting #but still

[matchstique]

Redid a dtyis I did roughly a year back. Happier with the way I’ve improved drawing digitally so it isn’t a complete hassle to do.

First is new, second is old!

#rottmnt #tmnt #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt bad future #rise of the tmnt #goodness I hope it looks like I’ve improved #who knows #either way #happy with the newer composition! #drawings chains is a pain in the ass #but satisfying #matchart #fanart #tmnt 2018

[borderlinereminders]

I have figured out how to find my count! Viewing the page source and then searching for the word "received' brought me to here.

I’ve continued to monitor my page source as my words changed and here’s what I have so far: MAX = 1,000 LOL = 1,100 OMG = 2000 WOW = 4,000 *-* = 5,000! WHY = 6,000 PLZ = 7,000 AAA = 7,500 ;_; = 8000 O_O = 8,500

T_T = 9,000

<33 = 9,500

BLR = 10,000

#undescribed #either way #if you're like me and want to know your boop count #i had to do it from my computer #but right clicking and viewing page source is how I did it! #boop #booping #i'll update this as i can but if anyone has an idea of the omg number #or lol #that's helpful

[kikker-oma]

A late birthday present for @telemna-hyelle !!

You're a lovely writer and I've been meaning to draw something for you for ages🥰 this story was so so sweet and soothed my soul❤️

#sorry this is so late! #idk why but this fanart fought me #EVERY.SINGLE.MINUTE #I think I'm so used to whump my brain was short circuiting at drawing fluff lol #either way #this story was SO SWEET and I love the symbolism of irises! #they are my fave flower #dod you know blue irises symbolize faith and hope? #very fitting for this story❤️❤️ #legend of zelda #loz #loz fanart #loz aol #adventures of link #loz link #loz zelda

[disabilityreminders]

It’s okay to take time and grieve when your body and/or brain aren’t functioning the way they’re supposed to.

But please remember that your value and worth never decrease, no matter what you cannot do because of your illness, condition or disability.

#I might have posted this one before #I can’t remember #either way #I like it so here it is again if so #my post

[sammachu]

Software instability critical

#dbh fanart #dbh #rk900 #dbh nines #gavin reed #reed900 #detroit become human #video game #took me ages to post this one #was too much of a coward lol #either way #been a while #mayonnaise

[sandflakedraws]

the song came on my shuffle and would not leave me alone until i penned this i'm so sorry

#this is way too much effort but like. music makes me feel things y'know? #trolls #floyd #branch #john dory #clay #bruce #cannot recommend Comfortably Numb enough as like. THE listless + dizzy song #no other tune has quite nailed the feeling like you're about to pass out at any second #also the human scream of agony in the middle is great too #either way #don't look at me #is he dead? i couldn't decide so thats up to u #long post #undescribed

[nerdpoe]

Dick Grayson, AKA Nightwing, was on a solo mission when he disappeared off the face of the earth.

He would be the first to admit; he'd been an idiot.

He'd had a fight with Bruce, and as a result wiped everything he could so that the Big Bat couldn't find him and interfere with his case.

He'd scrubbed everything with Barbara's help, gave Damian and Tim burner phones so that he could reach out to them, and fuckin bounced.

But he shouldn't have done that.

Because he'd lied to Barbara, to make absolutely certain Bruce wouldn't be able to find him before he was ready.

He'd gone somewhere for a mission on the entirely opposite side of the country.

And then he'd gotten shot with...some kind of gun.

He wasn't too sure.

But he didn't die.

After he pulled himself further into the forest, sure that he was going to finally meet his maker, the world...got bigger.

Dick shrunk, and could only watch in horror as his hands got pudgier and pudgier.

He was a baby.

He was a baby that couldn't even lift his head, and he could feel his memories starting to fade, seeming to be grabbed and shoved behind some sort of wall.

This tiny baby gets found by Forest Ranger Samantha Manson, a registered emergency foster parent.

So while the batfamily is salting the earth looking for Dick, he's being absolutely spoiled fucking rotten by the Manson Family; Daniel Manson, Tucker Manson, and Sam Manson.

Dick has...some memories. A few recollections.

But also the white-haired adult is floating again and waving the rattle-noise-maker, so those stupid thoughts can wait.

#i like to think that yes #the deaging can be reversed and his memories can be restored #either by reversing the deaging or growing to the age where he was deaged naturally #either way #by the time bruce finds him and tries to take him back #he really really really isn't expecting a retired us registered alien terrorist to fight him tooth and nail for his own son #which bruce gets #for all that he and dick argue he very much does love his son #and can respect this protective drive #but also #he wants his son back #so this ghost man is going to have to step the fuck off #whoops forgot to tag #dcxdp #dpxdc #dc x dp #dp x dc #story prompt #phanfic

[werepires]

unbelievable

#destiel #or cockles who even knows #not me #either way #control your FACE #bobby rewatches supernatural #4x07

[adrift-in-thyme]

Panels with Time and the Master Sword are my favorite flavor of angst

Credit to @linkeduniverse

#there’s definitely a conflict brewing here #time and sky are gonna argue about this at some point I can feel it #maybe time will even find himself in a situation where he has to use the master sword #probably to save the boys #and he has to push through his hatred (and fear) of it #either way #jojo’s definitely not finished with Time’s complicated relationship with this sword #linkeduniverse #linked universe #lu time #trin rambles #lu update spoilers