#Elegy for My Sadness

[keroseneskin]

imaginary futures

My mind is a maze of "what ifs" and "could've beens", hopelessly entangled in the labyrinth of our imaginary future, never to be.

There is nothing more devastating than a story left unwritten, I am convinced, as my pen drips with the ink I longed to spill for you.

It breaks my heart to think of all the ways I could have loved you but never got the chance.

What I mean is, I wanted our love to fill every page of every book in the library of our hearts while you were content to settle for mere sentences.

-you were the novel I never wanted to end in a sea of tabloid magazines.

#personal #mine #me #spilled ink #love #poetry #spilled words #keroseneskin #prose #daily poem #love poem #sad poem #elegy for my sadness

[metamorphesque]

— Elegy for My Sadness, Chen Chen

[text ID: Maybe the centipede in the cellar / knows with its many disgusting legs / why I am sad. No one else does.]

#elegy for my sadness #chen chen #quotes #literature #poetry #poem

[muguetdemai]

Chen Chen, from "Elegy for My Sadness," When I Grow Up I Want to Be a List of Further Possibilities.

#chen chen #poetry #elegy for my sadness #when i grow up i want to be a list of further possibilities #words #on sadness

[6peaches]

Chen Chen - Elegy for My Sadness

Maybe the centipede in the cellar knows with its many disgusting legs why I am sad. No one else does. I want to be a sweetheart in every moment, full of goats & xylophones, as charming as a hill with a small village on it. I want to be a village full of sweethearts, as you are, every second of the day, cooking me soups & drawing me pictures & holding me, my inexplicable & elephant sadness, with your infinite arms. But isn’t it true, you are not always why I am happy. & I promise it is true, you are almost never why, why I am sad. You are just in the same room with me & my unsweet, uncharming, completely uninteresting sadness. I wish it could unbelong itself from me, unstick from my face. Who invented the word “ennui”? A sad Frenchman? A centipede? They should’ve never been born. They should’ve seen me in Paris, a sad teenage exchange student. I was so sad & so teenaged, one day my host sister gripped my hand hard & even harder said, SOIS HEUREUX. BE HAPPY. & miraculously, I wasn’t sad anymore. All I felt was the desire to slap my host sister. See, I was angry in Paris, which is clearly not allowed. One can be sad in Paris (I was) & one can be in love in Paris (I was not), but angry? Angry in Paris? Now, I am in love—with you!—though sometimes terribly sad for no good reason, & not so much angry as guilty when you say to me, Don’t cry, don’t be sad, as if my sadness could sink this room, this apartment, this whole city not Paris. But does my sadness always need to be your sadness? I wish I could write an elegy for my sadness because it has suddenly died. I wish I could mourn it by kissing you again & again while neither of us can stop laughing, a kind of kiss where we sometimes miss the mouth altogether, a kind of kiss I think every single dead person in every part of the world must crave with violent impossibility.

- Elegy for My Sadness by Chen Chen

#poem #poet #Chen Chen #Elegy for My Sadness

[thecmbynartist]

my emo poem

alone in this world

only darkness lies within me

secrets that i hold

 what else can it be truly?

i've held back my doubts

i've held back my tears

i've kept my head high and stout,

throughout these years

underneath the surface

enveloped in my shadows of woe

my heart is locked in a case

for i am the only foe i know

hidden in the corner

dreaming away

i find life too sober,

so i run away

through the thickets of regret

through the webs of lies

all the things that i had set

fade away no matter how many times i had tried

no one knows me

i am a shadow of my past

no one has seen me

till the end shall my sadness last

lies and rumors i had made,

just to keep up with the game

the life i wasted was such a shame

since then, i've never felt the same

no one really cares

nothing really matters to me

i try to ignore all the stares,

even though what is unknown can be seen

the young child i once knew told me someday my deeds wold be true

the young child i once knew made me promise that i'd never be blue

but, young child i once knew,

i am sorry

i have failed you

young child i once knew

t'is time i told you the truth

i am nothing

no one who loved me never really tried

i am nothing

the old me i once was has died

#emo as hell #i'm sad #sad thoughts #deprssion #poems on life #elegy for my sadness

[mixandra14]

#why I'm crying? #Chen Chen #Elegy For My Sadness #gift ♡

[withinthesplendor]

"You said you'd read me like your favorite childhood book. Cherishing every word as they mimicked a story you knew so well. While evolving over the years into something much more. Studying my eyes as the illustrations of my soul poured out in tears like rivers you traveled. Yet instead of flowing with the currents of happiness you forced me to bend my pages at your will; fraying my already delicate edges, tearing me apart and leaving me waiting for days on end... -jdr/withinthesplendor

Man Ray - Tears

#prose poetry #my poetry #my writing #elegy for my sadness #my thoughts #continuous maybe #short story #short poem #photography #man ray #tears #jdr #withinthesplendor

[dangoulains-devotion]

this room was built for one chair only,

i'm not empty, i'm just lonely

#arknights #muelsyse #arknights muelsyse #lone trail #my art #<- i am moonlight elegy on twt #anyway WHEW i went out of my comfort zone TWICE here... #i never draw backgrounds (you can tell) and i never draw flowers (you can tell) #but they're meant to be lilies... symbolising loneliness and sadness.... hehehe #i'll be honest i came out of lone trail like eh mumu's alright. not my favourite but i don't dislike her #and then she ends up being the first one i draw from the relevant characters. standing man emoji #i got insp for this while listening to ho'olheyak's theme too btw L O L #also i know there's details missing from her outfit but consider. deciphering and drawing arknights designs is sometimes a ball ache #gorgeous to look at. but don't make me do it or i'll scream and throw up

[cheruib]

he asked her what she wanted to be, she told him i want to be a village full of sweethearts, as you are, every second of the day, cooking me soups & drawing me pictures & holding me, my inexplicable & elephant sadness, with your infinite arms

#THE most poem of all time #also please read the entire poem if u haven’t because it is life changing & u will be happy you did #it’s elegy for my sadness by chen chen<3

[tricos-here]

most likely won’t be polishing this any time soon if ever but I wanted to put it down on paper so 🧘

#me: i should give my hand a break. also me: #anyways o(-< #faryen obstart #my art #gets a little sad thinking abt her because she could've had so much development in 10 years and yet. #and yes i know elegy armor wasn't a thing in s1 i don't care

[keroseneskin]

I am looking for a version of our story

Where we don't break each other into pieces

But we both knew our love would shatter us from the start.

I didn't mean to take my sledgehammer, love, to your crystalline heart

But the words came out faster than i realized

and whats been said can never be undone.

Mostly, the only words I can think to say are,

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

But sometimes there's no one to blame when beautiful things end.

#personal #mine #me #poetry #love #break up poem #elegy for my sadness #sadness #sad poem #sad poetry #spilled ink #keroseneskin

[jellyluchi]

RosErik poem once again

#taha talks #elegy of my sadness by Chen Chen

[poetryfrickenprincess]

#my poetry #original poems #poetry #my poem #my original poem #poems on tumblr #poem #poems #my poems #sad poems #childhood #elegy

[sadprosenauroras]

—tag drop

#i want auroras and sad prose || wanted plots #i'm setting off but not without my muse || wanted faceclaim #no not without you || wanted opposite #what are my words worth || ooc #all my elegies eulogize me || asks #i bathe in cliffside pools || games #and my beloved neither do you || wanted ship

[weltenwellen]

Chen Chen, "Elegy for My Sadness", When I Grow Up I Want to Be a List of Further Possibilities

#poetry

[arlecchno]

i cannot do this right now someone hold me

#h shenanigans #i mean its expected i guess #but IM SAD!! #i hope ill manage to get him in 20 days #now im kinda regretting on spending all my savings for cyno #worst part is i didnt even manage to get his weapon #2 of elegies is all i got….