#FUCK DON'T LET THEM DIE PLEASE

[justcommander]

And that's why Michael got cool shades in this AU.

That feeling when you're just a teenager and already got cataract. Amongst the other things that damn possession and truck accident caused you But John is doing his best all on his own...!

#faith the unholy trinity #michael davies #john ward #my art #i need a name for this au of mine #Father and Children AU #why children? #well i don't like innocent teenagers dying #imma draw Amy too in this au sooner or later fuck that i ain't letting her die #Please do not be like John tho. #Bring people that got ran over by a truck to a hospital don't heal them at home while you exorcise them. #also i love Michael he's just a kid that poked a dead fox and he triggered a red exclamation mark on every cultist in the range of 10 km

[andorerso]

sorry but comparing whether Jyn or Cassian suffered more in their life like it's the fucking trauma Olympics is fucking ridiculous

they both suffered the same and it's literally not a competition, hope this helps <3

#let's see they both lost their parents around the same age #cassian was kidnapped and lost his sister #jyn was a child soldier #(and so was cassian if you wanna go by his original backstory but i digress) #both had an unstable childhood #both had to watch their parent die actually (lyra and clem) #jyn was abandoned by saw cassian was in juvie #both went to labour camp #they literally both went through the same things but please tell me how cassian had it so much easier than her i'd like to hear #again it's not a competition anyway #but it's ridiculous to even compare when they went through pretty much the same shit lmao #im fucking tired of this narrative #i swear some of y'all don't even like cassian lmao #shut up sissi #discourse #maybe i'll delete this later #im just fucking tired #stop pitting jyn and cassian against each other #they're equals that's the best part about them!! my god #anyway this is a cassian andor defense account #don't talk to me if you don't like him

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

we need more vivi hurt/comfort in this fandom. #25 prompt (“I’m going to ask you how you are and I would like you to answer me honestly.”) from Artie to Vi if you're up for it? 💛🩵

(hurt/comfort dialogue prompts)

(oof god i'm rusty with these characters. let's get into it)

"I'm fine," she says, for what feels like the millionth time.

"Bullshit," is Arthur's response. "I'm down an arm, Vi, not my fucking eyes. And ho- honestly, I wouldn't- wouldn't even need th-those to tell right now." A hand lands on her shoulder, pushing her down further into the chair for emphasis. "One more try. I'm gonna ask you how you are, and it'd be nice if you c-could answer me honestly."

She shoves him off and stands up, already stalking away, ignoring the shooting pain all up through her side when she does. "God, fuck you. Fuck off. This is so stupid. I don't need,"

And then her vision whites out.

---

She blinks herself fuzzily awake into a world much softer than the one she was just in. She's in bed, she registers, or at least a pile of blankets. The pain is gone, but it also feels like everything else isn't quite online, either. There's a vague clicking noise from somewhere to her right.

"...you hovering all the time," she finishes her thought, although it comes out too mumbly to really deliver.

"j'you say sa- s-something?" The clicking noise stops, and an Arthur appears in her field of view. He looks worried. So, like normal.

"Yeah, uh, what? Why am I in bed?"

Now he just looks exasperated, throwing his hand up in annoyance, which is an improvement at least. "You passed out, stupid! And th-th-then when I freak out, out about it you're all like oh no never mind it's whatever fr- from the fucking floor. 'Why am I in bed.' Dumbass."

She only vaguely remembers that, not that she's going to admit it. Well, okay, question answered. She tries to get up, and Arthur immediately shoves her back into the pillow.

"Hey," she protests.

He makes his usual staccato ch-ch-ch disapproval noise, which she usually thinks is cute when it isn't directed at her. "Nope. I j-just got done bandaging you up, you are not getting up. You, you are st-staying right here."

She tries to wrestle him off, but he's annoyingly persistent and her angle's all off. "Okay, I'm patched up! So it's fine! Let me out!"

Whup, and her hand is flat against the bed, and Arthur's hanging out of his chair to get his arm over her chest and pin her down. "No."

Probably she could flip him. Maybe. He'd hit the wall behind her but not, like, hard. She thinks about it. It's really hard to lift even the non-pinned arm. Maybe she couldn't.

"Stop being stupid," she tells him instead, sounding normal and not at all desperate. "This is nothing."

"It is- v-very much- not nothing."

"This can't be enough to stop me. It isn't! I'm better than this!"

"Get up, th-then!" he challenges.

"I'm not a fucking tranq'd animal!"

He yells wordlessly at her, she shouts back, until they're both panting.

She shoves him again, no real force behind it this time. This is such a waste of fucking time, when he damn well knows they never have enough of it. "I need to get up. You need me out there, you know that."

"Go to hell."

Now tears are welling in her eyes. She's screaming at herself, internally, but for some stupid reason it's not translating into more strength. "We're wasting time, here. I'm ready to go, I can move, I can work. Let me up."

He flops over, into a less aggressive pin, but not actually a less effective one. Their faces are almost touching, which was maybe the idea. "One more try," he says, again.

His damn stubbornness is another thing that she likes more when it isn't being used on her. This is not a fight she is going to win.

"If I fall asleep," she says reluctantly, "and you're not there when I wake up, I'm going to fucking kill you."

That gets a laugh out of him. "M'not going anywhere, Vi."

#the nemesis speaks #the nemesis answers #answrs #swift writes #ask game #mystery skulls animated #oops. i'm using that tag i guess #uh. is this how i normally characterize these guys? i don't remember. this is how i write them now anyway! #lewis is their balancing force that keeps less than 50% of their dialogue from being variations on ''fuck you'' #which is also very fun coming from pla where everyone is sooo polite and formal all the time. and these two are. Not That. #uh. other commentary on this. i actually don't know where this is set #it could be just a swap scenario where vivi's the one with the memories but idk. i feel like it's somethin else. smthn less canon adjacent #ALSO vivi and arthur are both such like. ''please let me die for you'' level devoted to their friends. tho they express it v differently #and vivi's like. she's gotta be the strongest and bravest and most powerful because if ANYTHING HURTS THEM SHE WILL FULLY SNAP #...and then obviously implicitly here Something Happened to lewis. which exacerbated the problem #meanwhile arthur is like. no fighting. it's not the time for fighting now is the time to sit down and let me fix you. tell me what you need #-and i'll fucking rearrange reality to get it. #and then they scream at each other about it! normal friends who are normal.

[welcometoteyvat]

ok sorry i'm going to ship hate again

some things in genshin fandom really just don't make sense to me. ie somehow the most controversial ships at least have canon material, whereas some ships are decently popular but literally only eyecandy with 0 substance. like why are you doing this, they don't even have mutual voicelines or story mentions, they've NEVER interacted, would have 0 reason to even in future storylines, the only reason you like them is because they're lesbians together or smth

yes this is about yan.tao and shen.lan

#open at will: hater behavior #the male ships also don't suffer from this (at least in my experience) so i think it's really just stupidity and a complex about women #i'm also less annoyed about shen.lan because i see it less and i'm more neutral on the two #theyre kind of egregious too though bc they have No voicelines OR mention each other either LMFAO weren't even released in the same patch #but yan.tao DEAR GOD. i can't ever look in the yan.fei tag without seeing them it plagues me #yanfei has one singular voiceline about ht and people immediately thought OMG lets make them kiss or osmething #the fact that it's STILL popular even after shinobu and yelan and especially after perilous trails quest i'm baffled. please LET IT DIE #there are better characters to make her interact with !!! shinobu is literally a goth and purple if you're still looking for eye candy!!!! #and literally gan.yu qianbei also exists if you think long distance relationship doesn't work or something #idk i'm just so annoyed yan.fei is my main and forever has a place in my heart and then she gets crumbs with a ship thats so fucking random #baffles me . ok haterism over i'll reblog normal things now

[dream-eating-youkai]

find it so funny that Genshin Impact has the Fatui as the evil guys like they are your enemies and stuff but almost every member of the Fatui you can talk to you can befriend easily lmao. like yeah sorry about all the evil shit that happened i was too busy hanging out with my besties Viktor, Childe and Nadia to care.

#genshin impact #literally tho they are some of my favourite characters #like i am so invested in these random Fatui members like I need Vlad to make some friends so bad you don't even know #And when Snezhnaya comes out they better fucking let Viktor and Nadya go home like my poor babies just wanna go home #(keep spelling Nadia's name as Nadya cause that's like. the usual spelling of the name i've seen and my brain is small) #Nadia just misses her family and snow and Viktor is just kinda bored and doesn't know what he's supposed to be doing #Tsaritsa please let them go home most evil thing she's ever done tbh #it is kinda funny how people's faves are usually like. main characters but my faves are just like. random Fatui members lmao #I would die for Nadya Vlad and Viktor tho like actually

[reddiamondyeet]

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#red rants #I'm literally so depressed that I'm past the point of wanting to kms #I'm so fucking tired I don't even consider it. Even that is too much work. #I'm so tired all the time. Too tired to live. Too tired to die. Too tired to express myself. Too tired to keep it all bottled up. #Too tired to care. Too tired to let it slip. #I feel emotion for 15 minutes maximum and then I just fall back into exhaustion #everything I need to do. want to do. takes more effort than I can possibly give right now. #I'm sorry I can't support you but I can hardly fucking support myself right now okay. Plus all my instincts keep screaming at me to isolate #I'm so much happier with other people but I don't have the energy to upkeep connections with them. #I'm too tired. maybe I should just lay in bed and rot away #I know no one will see this. no one ever sees it when I'm upset. I'm half convinced that everyone has my vent tag blocked #but if anyone does see this. I don't know. talk to me maybe? I'm too tired to think of what would help but that usually works so #just please talk to me. i guess #tw suicidal thoughts #eh maybe

[chibitorra]

WHAT

THIS MONTH’S NORAGAMI CHAPTER

NOOOOOOO

#torra rambles #noragami #noragami spoilers #in tags #please please PLEASE don't let this be real there's just no way #Hiyori can't be fucking dead I won't #all I wanted for my birthday was Yatori and I got the opposite #I got suffering #; - ; #this was one of my greatest fears... #actually both #bc yato got fucking reincarnated and now hiyori is dead #still holding out on the hope that none of this is real #that this is all one big dream father's cooked up to scare them into submission #that he's just playing on their fears to buy time #yato's fear was to be forgotten and he was forced to watch the only person he cred about die in front of him #yukine was scared of becoming a monster #and Hiyori was scared to die #please adachitoka yatori was one of the only ships I cared so deeply for and they didn't even get to kiss #I'm so sad

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#random rambles #The last ask sent me on five different tangents I wasted the whole afternoon over #I opted against adding this to the ask because it'd be unrespectful to Anon but if I don't let it out somewhere I'll die #Everyone knows how beyond what it may look like that I don't like bsd and that includes Beast #But the ask touches the exact reason why I think Beast ultimately fails as a story #because it constantly tries to frame Akutagawa as evil and heartless; but what's framed as his most cruel action #- the one of mindlessly slaughtering his enemies at the start - is itself moved by love #And I know someone in the wings is already arguing #“that's the whole point. the reader is supposed to see through it‚ and see that Akutagawa wasn't inherently evil to begin with” #… But I don't think that's the case. This is not the place to talk about it but at the same time I don't want to make a post about it #but at the same time I feel like I won't have peace untill I've brought this up. #That's not the case because 1) Dazai says it's not the case‚ and Dazai is the character with most authority in the entire franchise #and 2) Ryuunosuke's later scene with Gin reinforces the fact that Akutagawa's action was cruel and inhuman #But it's not true. It's just that the author is a little nihilist that doesn't believe humans are inherently good. #So please let's just stop pretending they aren't? Because bsd fans. in my very humble opinion - are in severe need of someone #to remember them they are free to like aspects of the franchise even without acting like its morals aren't completely fucked up #Sorry for derailing it's been tormenting me since forever I desperately needed to mention it somewhere. #I've recently read someone say that bsd sustained that humans are inherently good and like... What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck. #Like there ARE series that do that? T/pn is one of them? Read t/pn if you want that? It's good? #But bsd definitely doesn't c'mon it's not that hard #Ugh. sorry for this. It was just to say #I love Beast but I don't like bsd and Beast is part of bsd and Beast does ultimately adhere to bsd's fucked up morals Kyotag out #I'm just saying we should all be able to recognize where our personal worldviwes end and where the author's start. #If you don't you aren't reading you're projecting #I'm not even rereading this #if I'll overthink it a second more I know it'll end up together with my millions black posts at the bottom of my drafts #Post

[running-in-the-dark]

why is viewing apartments so fucking stressful

it's genuinely one of the worst things ever for me, I hate it, I don't want to do it anymore

#it's the. everything. #you go into someone else's home. you look at it while they're watching you. they talk. you have to respond. you have to seem like a normal #well adjusted person that they would want to have in their house. be nice but not so nice that it's weird. #this isn't natural for me I don't know how to do it #I just end up smiling like a fucking idiot the whole time and going 'hm-hm' and nodding and being dumb #it's horrible it's awful it makes me want to die #and the worst part is leaving. how?! it's so uncomfortable! you can't be like well I've seen everything now goodbye. no there's. rules and #stuff but I don't know them so I just laugh like a fucking idiot and #god it's so humiliating #like hello trust me I'm a real person please let me live in this building so that I don't have to sleep outside #😭 #personal

[littlegildedswallow]

being triggered is the worst, most undignified shit ever. like great you all (family) saw me break down and cry (and ignored it) over something seemingly insignificant that actually takes me back to the root of my childhood trauma. I wept in the bathroom like the good old days for close to an hour, trying and failing and trying and failing to compose myself. now, a couple hours later, let me stitch up my person suit again, pretend to be in control of myself and reintegrate myself into your lives. we're all going to act normal and pretend nothing happened even though we all know it's a matter of time before it happens again. now, in a fit of righteous rage, I'll go out of my way to hurt you and make you feel the same pain I felt then, but mostly when I was eight and needed you to protect me, but you didn't. and then you'll hurt me back, unintentionally, because you're my parents. and I'll hurt you again and want to run away. and it will never stop, and when you die, the anger and grief will eat me alive and I'll carry your trauma and my trauma with me till the end of days.

#i'm not having a child just no #not traumatizing another little girl by making her a part of whatever the fuck this is #there's so so much love here but also so so much misunderstanding and pride and grief and anger and hurt #i love my parents i hate them i would kill for them i will only be free when they die i want to kill them i will die if they are hurt #family is so so fucked up #please send my soulmate my way please please please #i just want to be seen and believed and understood #please just let me find someone who will believe me #i don't want to keep proving that i'm hurt i'm tired of self destructing to prove that my pain is real #see this is why i'm obsessed with hannibal #if you get it you get it #mine

[roadara23]

The Bad Batch Season 2 starts today,

And I will be thinking of no-one, and nothing, else for the rest of the year.

Thank you.

#crosshair the bad batch #the bad batch s2 #the bad batch #I may or may not be a thirsty bitch #But dammit am I a thirsty bitch that cares #I am ready #My heart is not #PLEASE DON'T LET MY BABY BOY DIE #AND PLEASE ESPECIALLY DON'T LET IT BE TO HIS BROTHERS OR VADER #Guys I am so excited and anxious for thus tgat I need my fucking inhaler #I just #I just want Crosshair fully back #And for him to be happy and loved #And for them to all be a fucking family again #HE STILL HAS HIS CHIP IN FUCKING DAMMIT #And where's our precious boy Howzer #I NEED TO SEE THEM OKAY BY THE END OF THIS GUYS #PLEASE #FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #LET CROSSHAIR AND HOWZER BE SAFE AND HAPPY 2023 #LET'S START OFF THIS NEW YEAR RIGHT

[cabbajes]

painfully funny how both harrow and gideons first instinct on how to show love is to die for the other person. at least start with a little kissing or something come on

#harrow's 'strike me down' speech asking gideon to kill her... #gideon literally killing herself in front of harrow and then being like nooo don't be upset this is a good thing #why won't you let me die for you it's hurting my feelings :/ #harrow coming out of the tomb and immediately telling alecto to kill her #ladies please just ask them out first #gtn spoilers #htn spoilers #ntn spoilers #tlt spoilers #tlt #AND harrow trying to sacrifice herself instead in gtn #why can't they be normal #harrow got so close when she tried to fuck the body but was roadblocked by the fact it was awkward and desperate

[astrovagrant]

babygirl its back to the fucking report writing today .

#i dont think our new plant deserves a fancy quote letter. i think they can die #i will still do it!!!!! but fuck you #our cfo was asking me questions abt it yesterday and i did the equivalent of a mom holding toys over a toddlers head #david. david. yes they already have a quote letter but it sucks dookie asshole i'm making them a better one #please don't pretend you know anything about what goes into it okay let me handle it

[rainbowangel110]

Aight, it's 3:12 am here, been working on catching up on my course credit recovery, and I'm supposed to wake up at 7 so I can catch up my course credit recovery :D

Help :D

#for context this is partially my fault #okay bear with me #was in the gifted program and was put into an AP Chem class #turns out I don't know HALF of what the curriculum is so me and the teacher agree that I need to switch classes #send a request #get swapped into a GT Chem class #slightly easier I guess??? #turns out! Ya girl sent the schedule change request..... twice #by the time I'm in this ACA Physics class it's already late August and at this point I don't give half a shit cuz holy- #I was done with that specific hour of the school day I guess #anyways CUT TO OCTOBOR WEEK OF LAST YEAR #GUESS WHO WAKES UP DIZZY AF #GETS TO THE BATHROOM TO DO HER business WHEN SUDDNELY MY VISION IS FUCKING GOING IN AND OUT #“Oh crap..... please don't let me die before 'Thanks to Them' comes out-” (....... this was before the 15th okay stfu) #my mom is like “Uhhh okay the best I can do is give you some DayQuill.....” #eat a lil bit of waffle #and boom #puke it out immediatly #check temp #100.4 #yeah so I was home for AN ENTIRE WEEK HOLY SHIT #and at this point..... #like every other class I can handle cuz I know what's going on and stuff #but this goddamned PHYSICS CLASS I JUST JOINED #WHAT ARE WE DOING?!! NO FUCKING CLUE!?!?!? HELP!?!? #so basically I lost interest for the rest of the semester...... #Mr Brewer if you ever find this (god hope not he's probably above 45 or something-) #I'm sorry cuz I..... yeah I got nothing for an excuse #But thank you for letting me be able to catch up and giving me time and being paient with me so I can somehow clutch out the second semeste #barely I must say I clutched a 70 on the final and the semester but unfortunately with the disaster of Sem1 I need this course recovery

[rubberbandballqueen]

hgnnghh... college friend has been asking me questions abt adhd n how to get diagnosed n stuff recently, which i'm more than happy to help him with, but just now he sent a tik tok that was like "maybe i should ask abt this too?" n it was like "why do adhd people seem to crush so hard" n it was like.

now listen i haven't had a serious romantic feeling since i was in middle school, but the description in that tik tok literally dragged the memory of all that out of my chest n i just said to him "haha yep... that's accurate my dude" as though it hadn't just described what was easily one of my top ten "do not ever repeat this again" experiences of my life

#i then proceeded to tell him that he probably shouldn't be pathologizing every little trait n thinking it's a 'symptom' or w/e #like if adhd tips help n stuff then just follow them; if you feel medication would help talk to your doctor etc etc #but also like. i don't wanna live my life like 'ugh i'm hyperfixating on my crush again but i don't want to make a move' #'bc what if they think i'm weird/creepy/just not interested in me back ugh i'd literally just die' PLEASE LET ME BE NORMAL ABT THINGS #idk just the way everything was described. ugh! the shame!! #i think i used to talk abt this more in the very early days of the blog (bc that's when i was still rlly bitter abt my last crush) #but like yeah it seems i really don't like to think abt romance when it's abt myself or my past w/it #i'm okay with the idea of like. being older n doing things in a more mature way should anyone ever grab my interest #but like idk!! it's weird!!! bc when rereading my old middle school diaries it's like 'aww yeah i was really struggling w/this' #but it's very deeply sympathetic like 'yeah it was rough but you'll get through this; it gets better' #for some reason watching this tiktok was just like. a fucking ice bucket of shame. like what the fuck who gave you that right #the worm speaks #i'd really just rather romanticize falling in love the way i have been doing these last few years through anime fanfiction #and never ever ever ever ever ever ever deal with whatever the FUCK happened in middle school ever again bc we were v immature then

[crepuscularqueens]

you would not believe how many black sails thoughts are just running in circles around my little brain. like. give it a fucking rest.

#thinking about when the walrus crew is captured by the maroons and billy is formulating a doomed to fail escape plan and flint's like #'well it gives him hope. let him have it' and meanwhile when flint formulates his escape plan that would also be unsuccessful #and would definitely cost his life either way billy is just like 'okay. let him die please' #JFLKDSJFLDS #also thinking about billy's 'we SURVIVED him' to silver re: flint. that's fucking... heartbreaking tbh #silver's like okay i crawled into flints mind we are one now. idgi i am his right hand arm man his silly rabbit. does he call you that? no. #i don't like billy at that point but that line gets me. #the HOLD this show has on me! it's never letting go. #also endlessly endlessy thinking about what a weak take it is to think silver killed flint. you missed the point that is not the tragedy #he point is that he couldn't let the war kill madi or flint that he could not live with that! #in turn he kills the war and with it the chance that he could have a life with either of them in it. that's the tragedy. he betrayed them! #and it's worse! it's worse that way! #black sails #james flint #john silver #billy bones #silverflint