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[alyjojo]

January 🎆 2023 Monthly - Cancer

Whole of your energy: 4 Swords

I’m getting a heartbreak that’s come with a dark night of the soul type of energy, very spiritual in nature, there’s probably a spiritual awakening of sorts on the horizon for you. But right now, you’re feeling very low, and are taking a time out away from everyone and everything. It’s possible you’re sick and aren’t telling anyone, keeping it a secret from your friends & family. Or just the state you’re in right now. It happens 🙏 Don’t let it go too far , it’s just a season, not an inevitability 💜

What’s going on in January:

The Tower rev:

You avoided a disaster in your life by healing and rising above it, moving away from it, not letting it get to you or affect you. At least not in the moment, this could be the after effects of any number of things, especially grief and those kinds of very heavy emotions. Private grieving. A bit of blaming yourself, when it probably isn’t your fault at all. At least it doesn’t look like it is. This could be about very painful topics for some, on the lighter side I see a fkboy/girl, I’m gonna read it as a fkboy/girl, but if it is a darker topic…I know it’s possible, I’m not trying to be insensitive. If it’s someone else’s health, they may have avoided a disaster, but it’s got you questioning very deep topics like what are you going to do when/if you don’t have this person? Or you may have left a situation/person and now have regrets.

8 Cups:

This is the act of leaving, whether you left or someone else left, it was for peace of mind and knowing there’s more out there for you. Probably you, seeing how you avoided a Tower. That Tower would’ve hit you head on if you hadn’t. That’s the positive, things happened the best way they could have for things to work out for you how they have. You feel a way about this, but you did the right thing.

5 Pentacles:

Very deep emotions, sadness, a codependent need created in you/someone else due to abandonment issues…debt, financial losses. Nothing fun in this card, and it’s all due to a fkboy/girl breaking your heart. Or that’s switched. It could also be spontaneous actions and impulsive decision making without considering consequences, doesn’t necessarily have to be a person. A financial rut was dug and it stays, while you regret having ever decided whatever you decided. Could also be due to someone else that’s unreliable, impulsive and kinda reckless with actions. But you’re stuck with it.

2 Swords:

You don’t know what to do, you have a lot of options but none are clearly right for you, and they probably don’t help you get out of this hole or feeling, without a lot of effort anyway - Strength. You’ll need Strength to overcome this situation, and this also shows you not talking about what’s on your mind with other people.

7 Swords:

You could be avoiding work? I don’t think that’s going to work, not if it’s a financial problem. Besides that, any number of issues involving your work and 4 Swords…illness, canceled hours, losing your job, or simply avoiding everyone and not saying a word…just doing your job and going home, in this constant state of sadness. If you work with said fkperson, that could be why work is difficult for you now, you avoid talking to anyone about anything. It could also not be related at all, and your job is messing with your head as much as everything else, you just need a break from it all. Your color cards show a friend coming in, someone you can lean on and appreciate. Thank goodness. You can’t just stay in this energy, don’t hold back from your friends, they can only help as much as you allow them to.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Libra, Scorpio, Aries, Virgo & Sagittarius

Oracles: ✨

25 Sexual Energy 💋

In the purest sense, sexual energy is not an energy to be expanded from you. It is a state to reside in. The first and second chakras are the root of our sexual feelings. When you use this very potent energy to manipulate people and situations, you are doing yourself a huge disservice. When you expand your life force energy up from your first two chakras and incorporate the energy from your heart and crown, you can experience the most complete and Divine experience of sexual energy possible. This doesn’t even have to include another person. When you can merge your connection to Spirit with your connection to the earth, without any filters or blocks between the two, you will experience a complete and true connection.

We act as a conduit between heaven and earth. And when we can put ourselves into this energy at any given time, we are not tempted to use our sexual energy in a way that feeds our need for validation. Nor are we easily manipulated by another’s outputting of sexual energy. This card is asking you to look at where sexual energy is directed in your life.

We enter into January as: (the most spiritual color card of them all, to mirror your Hermit & High Priestess - which is Cancer’s card)

She Shaman 🧝🏾‍♀️

“I will guide you to your muse.”

She Shaman whispers to you “Do not be like the old birch and wait for anyone else to tell you of your muse. Connect with it!” This is your destiny calling. The path you have chosen is an artistic one. The universe is waiting for you to begin your dance and express your love in a tangible art form. The time is now, the moment has arrived, it is a time for decisions to be made. Dance! Rejoice! Do not seek council outside of yourself to confirm what you know to be true inside. Do not wait for permission to act. You must trust your instinct and act from the voice within. Let go of any need for approval, your answers are within. You will not be alone, Spirit is with you.

What is to be learned in January:

Rhonda Rhino of Amethyst 🦏:

“The road to divinity is paved in forgiveness.”

The true essence of Rhonda is that her dreams came true because she never harbored resentment, this card is about forgiveness. Because she didn’t take her mother’s suffering personally, she didn’t have to work it out. There is a lightness to staying reasonably detached from another’s anger & pain. We only need to forgive ourselves if we have judged others. Rhonda focuses on what her dream is, not what others have done to her, she is the essence of goodness and forgiveness, nothing changed that about her.

Purple may be a lucky color 💜

#cancer tarot reading #monthly reading #january 2023 #cancer #tarot

[flawlesskorra]

Me to my friends after listening to their opinion about the dumb decision I'm about to do:

#Playchoices #Open heart #Text #Personal #Fkpersonal #Open heart book 3 #Choices #Me #literally every time i ask for advise #and they are like yadayadayada #and then im like okay THANKS BYE #GONNA DO IT ANYWAY IM ALREADY DOING IT #open heart 3

[flawlesskorra]

I haven't touched the app or really opened the choices tag since my concussion but damn what in the fuckery has been going down????

#Playchoices #Text #Fkpersonal #Personal #Choices #Open heart #i guess this is mostly regarding open heart 3 #and some other really weird ppls comments #how did this start what #open heart 3

[flawlesskorra]

I- sorry you lost me there all I understood was head left lsowuwhwja

#I just 😩 #I can't with him sometimes #How does he do this at a time like this shwuwjwjw #I took me a hot second there to get who he means sadsgshwkgs #Playchoices #Endless summer #Anywho I do love his nicknames #Personal #Fkpersonal #jake mckenzie

[flawlesskorra]

forever thinking about Ai girl and how it breaks my heart story wise (how it would probably end) but also because the author passed away.

#Current mood: Injesting tragedy manga #😭 #Text #Fkpersonal #Personal #T #Ai girl #Sugi emiko #Emiko sugi

[flawlesskorra]

trying to login to tumblr without seeing all the blades spoilers

#I KNOW IT ISN'T ALRIGHT #I won't be able to play it till tomorrow evening so goodbye fellas #blades of light and shadow #Bolas #Baldes #Not avatar #Playchoices #Text #I already saw some stuff and I was like oh oh Oh #I forgot it was the time!!!! For it already #Welps #pixelberry #Fkpersonal #Choices

[flawlesskorra]

I wanna properly comeback to tumblr bc Christmas is sending me into those old nostalgia moods but at the same time I do not but then again it is one of the platforms I can just fuck around on and not care on but then again it is tumblr and there's a lot of annoying negative things

#Text #Personal #Fkpersonal #Me #Idk man nothing is the same but sometimes I blog and I get those old feelings and it gets me to such a high #:') #But then I'll see someone's stupid opinion and am like oh.. Right.. It's tumblr helloo

[flawlesskorra]

every now and then I think of winx club and how good it could've continued to be after s4 and I die a little every time

#Winx club #Winx #Text #T #Misc t #Fkpersonal #🙄 #especially the animation

[flawlesskorra]

I just started playing endless summer *finally* and am on book 2 now and PHEW. Man am I emotional over this series and those characters atm. (I love all of them but boiii am i damn soft for jake... He has my entire heart and I love him a lot and I think he might go to the list of my fav Lis as of now)

Also the art is very pretty and I love that there are quite a lot of artworks for characters or certain scenes during the books, something I wish a lot more books would have. The soundtrack is nice as well, one of the few books I actually don't listen to my own made playlist for the book.

I also had a small shock when the blue people showed up and started thinking of the wrong avatar sysiaiwkw

But man - it's such a diamond heavy series.

#I'm playing it rn via the h*ck but man would I be broke if I wouldn't #I knew a few spoilers as what would happen exactly but it still is keeping me on my toes #Still it is really good and I'm definitely adding it to one of my favs (at least atm) #Playchoices #Endless summer #Personal #Fkpersonal #Text #Choices

[flawlesskorra]

I kept hoping it was a bad rumor or a joke but...

You really wanna tell me Baby Bump got a second Book, Witness so far has 20 chapters and most likely gets (28?)

and not only is Distant Shores a standalone...(which was guessed anyway but Still)

IT ENDS WITH 16 CHAPTERS???? they couldn't have added a couple of more in the end????

I know some stories have to end cause of plot reasons (*cough yet there are series which got unnecessary and dumb sequels cough*) and that not every series spans out over multiple books but still... maaan I really loved this book a lot. The music was really epic and I even invested in most of the diamond choices.

#playchoices #distant shores #Yes im being over dramatic LEAVE ME BE #This and blades were my fav this year and I loved it so fucking much #My fucking heart mannnn #I would've read three more books about us going on pirate adventures #Text #Personal #Fkpersonal #Choices

[flawlesskorra]

Never have I ever really was like:

*devi trying not to deal with her father's death so she made everything about this guy, tried to change who she is, not talk to anyone about her grief cuz she pretends to be fine, losing her virginity and trying to distract herself in any way she can from her pain and ended in a really destructive pattern*

and a lot of people got really mad that it wasn't realistic way of someone grieving a parents death but like...??? Everyone deals and handles grief differently?? It's not just all one big cry and moving on???

*****

That's literally what I tried to do after my father died. I tried not to deal with it or talk about it with ANYONE because I didn't want to be THAT girl everyone pitied and I HATED it when they did - and thought if I could ignore it long enough it would go away. And I've dealt with death SO MANY times before in my life but this was something which completely shook me and I threw myself into lots of bad habits just so I wouldn't need to deal or confront my feelings about it... I didn't try to talk or properly grief him for almost a year and then once I started doing I broke down and cry all the time.

I'm not saying devi's actions are okay or excusable or healthy in ANY WAY... But you can't go ahead and say that it isn't an "accurate portrayal" when you've never been through something like that or if you have... Not grasping that not everyone handles death the same way.

Anyway say what you want about the show but devi spiraling while dealing /not dealing with her father is one of my favourite things and yes it makes me cry.

#Never have i ever #devi vishwakumar #devi #Text #T #Personal #Fkpersonal #Rant #Rambling #Will delete this later #I kmow no one really cares about that aspect but I just had to say it

[flawlesskorra]

I never thought I'd play lovestruck cause I was a bit cautious over the style and not being able to customise /have a lot of choices but a lot of people highly praised it so I was like ok ok gotta give it a shot -

HOWEVERRR I definitely didn't plan to pick up anything bad boy/gangster related again and yet here I am at 3AM playing gangsters in love gushing over chance and the gang

However I won't be spending any "hearts" on any scenes cause in one chapter where I chose a heart scene and all I got was a glass of fucking water I'll never trust this app again

#Sgsjwheueiejs #IT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK OUT OF NOWHERE I DIDN'T EXPECT TO LIKE THIS STORY SO MUCH???? #The entire heart thing is really annoying #however I heard it doesn't really change a lot and is just extra dialogue #Anyway I love chance a lot and his cocky attitude #Lovestruck #Text #lovestruck voltage #Game #Fkpersonal #Gangsters in love #chance valentine

[flawlesskorra]

playing chapter 6 of distant shores and I'm really torn whether I should recruit both of the twins or not ahsjwjjwnw

#I have the diamonds for it but I'm also saving them for whatever comes next #I'm sure there'll be a way to recruit ada again later... Right? #Distant shores #Playchoices #Ah decisions decisions #Not avatar #Text #Personal #Fkpersonal #I might do it on my second playthrough

[flawlesskorra]

has anyone else had problems lately with the reward ad at the end of a chapter? It stopped appearing for me and when I talk to PB support they're like "it must be your WiFi connection"??? Okay but hon it isn't even SHOWING up anymore

#Playchoices #It's awfully annoying as I was planning on diamond mining books #And yes that 1 diamond does pile up quite a lot if u complete multiple books etc #Pixelberry #So frustrating #Fkpersonal #Not avatar #Personal #choices #Text

[flawlesskorra]

Y'all this is our own dumb bitch ass fault for believing when they said Open heart would come out in winter would mean December and we believed them with "end of this year"

I-

#Open heart #Playchoices #Choices #Fkpersonal #Text

[flawlesskorra]

Y'all I ORDERED A GOOD FRESH breakfast for my best friend cause I almost killed him the other night and this man has THE AUDACITY to just look and me and go

"I don't eat breakfast."

I've never related to Cassian from Witness before BUT HERE WE ARE.

#Lmao honey do you not have any diamonds or what's going on? #Witness #Witness a bodyguard romance #Witness: a bodyguard romance #Choices #Cassian #Text #T #Personal #Fkpersonal #Playchoices #Pixelberry #Breakfast