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i-wanna-hug · 3 months

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an uneasy reunion

#((sharing all their little spy secrets on the dancefloor.. call that lesbionage....))#((ALSO LELI IN THIS OUTFIT GENUINELY DRIVES ME SO INSANE SHE'S SO HANDSOME OUGH MY GOD))#((romanced her back in my first origins run and still swooning over her in inq hmrmghg love her love her love her))#dragon age inquisition #dragon age #leliana #morrigan #dragon age origins #my art

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anachronistic-falsehood · 1 year

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Vash and Femininity: Trigun Stampede and its Themes of Bodily Autonomy, Exploitation, and Vague Gender Fuckery

alright sit the fuck down. we're gonna talk about THEMES

I was on Twitter- terrible idea usually, but a couple people I follow made some tweets that got me thinking about Trigun's overall themes, and here we are. So let's talk about some themes in Tristamp! And I'll take a couple looks at Trimax as well, just for fun :3

Let's look at how the showrunners utilize gender roles and exploitation of feminine characters to show how unhealthy Knives' obsession with his ideal of Vash is, and how horrific his exploitation of Vash and the Plants is.

Vash, from the beginning of Tristamp, is someone who cares about people's choices. When people kill others in front of him, he reiterates that whether someone lives or dies is not another person's choice to make. This is something he learned from Rem (a prominent female figure in his life). He refuses to kill people because that is not his choice to make. To kill someone is the ultimate removal of their bodily autonomy. They can no longer make any choices at all; they're dead.

Vash is also someone who has almost no choice in what path his life takes. He's constantly dragged around by outside forces, namely situations that are caused by Knives (which we'll get into later). Vash doesn't make things happen, things happen to Vash. The majority of events that occur are not his fault. He's pushed and pulled in a thousand different directions. His entire life is completely out of his control.

This can be seen as early on in his life as the Fall, something he had no control over and had no idea he even had a part in. Even later, in the ship with Luida and Brad, after he's been rescued from the desert, he's kept in handcuffs right up until he's shown to be of use to them and the Plant on their ship. After that, he could theoretically say "no, I don't want to go to other ships and heal their plants," but he doesn't. He's Vash. He's helpful and nurturing at his core, and these people have done so much for him just by letting him stay, so he'll do whatever they ask, no question.

This carries over into his adulthood. At Jeneora Rock, he goes to look at their Plant at one simple request, doesn't protest when he's dragged into a duel-- he doesn't take initiative unless someone's life is immediately at stake. He lets people tell him what to do and lets himself get dragged around by the wrist. He doesn't even pretend to have control over his life like Trimax Vash does, which I mean. Fair. Why pretend to have a grip on your existence when it's impossible to do anything without a gun pointed at your head?

Vash is a very passive character. He's nurturing, kind, gentle- he's a guy that fits a lot of very typical feminine character stereotypes. If you wrote this same story but made him a woman, I wouldn't bat an eye (but I would definitely be looking at it a lot more critically, what with the amount of stereotypically nurturing/motherly female characters in media already.)

This contrasts directly with Knives. He makes a decision and carries through no matter what stands in his way. He takes initiative. If Vash is a passive character, Knives is an active character. Wherever he goes, he leaves a lasting imprint. He makes shit happen! If outside forces make things happen to him, he'll go out of his way to make sure that particular force doesn't affect him again.

These two tweets I saw are what got me thinking about this originally. I just feel like here's a good place to put them as a segue into talking about episode 11.

Episode 11 is where a lot of this feminine imagery really just. Explodes in your face. IT'S RIGHT THERE. You can't dance around it if you try. And it kind of reaches a peak when the connection reaches 100%, the gate opens, and. well. THIS happens to the Plants.

Plants, in both Trimax and Tristamp, are almost always typically feminine-looking. Knives and Vash are the only two who are male or even masculine at all. Knives, as the most masculine out of all of them, is the one trying to take charge, and mould the world as he sees fit, to a degree that is detrimental to both him and everyone else. And Vash-- passive, feminine, kind and nurturing, whose Angel Arm in the manga always sprouts decidedly feminine-looking Plant parts-- is the one being exploited for Knives' plans. It's no mistake that they made the giant plant formation at the end of ep 11 look like a giant woman that almost resembles Rem.

Vash wants people to make their own choices and keep their autonomy when it comes to their bodies and lives. Knives is the exact opposite. He wants all Plants to become independent and he uses Vash to achieve that goal, without asking what Vash wants or even knowing what the Plants themselves would prefer. He exploits Vash for the soul purpose of trying to make these Plants have Independent Plant babies. He's completely incapable of seeing that his choices are not for the greater good! He thinks he's saving them, but none of his actions are for the good of anyone but himself. He’s just violating them for his own gain.

They're really leaning into gender roles for these guys, but in a way that screams "HEY, LOOK AT THIS! ISN'T IT FUCKED UP? LOOK AT HOW FUCKED UP THAT IS. LOOK AT THIS, AND BE UNCOMFORTABLE, AND KNOW THAT IT IS FUCKED UP."

Because it is! It's so extremely fucked up. They're using this imagery and these roles, something that makes most of us intrinsically uncomfortable, to drive home how unhealthy Knives relationship with his ideal of Vash is. That's the point. We're supposed to be uncomfortable with this.

Now of course there's some nuance to it. Like, you could see Knives as somewhat of a feminine and/or queer-coded figure as well, ESPECIALLY if you look at some of his panels in the manga, which could in turn lead to themes about infighting and control within marginalized communities, but that might be something for another post. :3

And there's definitely different ways you could take this! Vash, with all this feminine imagery, could be either transfem or transmasc coded, depending on what way you'd rather see it, which could lead into themes of how people outside the norm constantly face a lack of bodily autonomy and are exploited for purposes outside their boundaries. We could also look at Wolfwood and his lack of choice over joining the Eye of Michael and becoming the Punisher, and how masculine men (particularly men of colour) are often forced into violent roles against their will. If we look at Trimax, the exact same could be said for Livio/Razlo and people with disorders such as DID/OSDD.

There are many different ways you could spin these themes, some of which I don't feel personally qualified to discuss. If anyone who is qualified to talk about Wolfwood or Livio/Razlo or even other characters related to these themes, then god PLEASE add onto this post or make a post and tag me or something. I would love to read it!

Anyway, in conclusion: Vash is a feminine figure constantly taken advantage of and exploited and and he's so incredibly trans/nonbinary-coded that it drives me insane. Thank you

#whiskeys word soup #trigun #trigun stampede #HI. HELLO. THIS DRIVES ME INSANE PLEASE READ THIS #and seriously if anyone wants to make a post about wolfwood or livio/razlo or any other character exploring these themes of bodily autonomy #on GOD. lemme know i wanna read it #well aware that some of this is probably me digging too deep for things that aren’t there but still!!! fun to look at #what is media analysis other than putting on ur queer glasses and picking out trans allegories within stories #it’s been a while since I’ve made a full analysis essay kinda post!! this is how i normally format them bc it’s easier for me to read

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milkbreadtoast · 4 months

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"I quit my job and became the Princess Bride"✨ Have you read this romance novel? 😇

#twsb #when the third wheel strikes back #섭남파업 #서브 남주가 파업하면 생기는 일 #cedric riester #christelle de sarnez #jesse venetiaan #<--finally... tagging an art w only him and not also the tag jung yeseo... KDBSJ #its actually him this time #IM FINISHED AAAH #this was just... a practice... but it took longer than expected (but at the same time still p short? only 2 days #i didnt color it v detailed but oh my god #coloring on procreate is a fking pain #the shitty excuse for a fillbucket that doesnt even use accurate colors... drives me insane #MY EYES HURT #red eyes white clothes cedric.... who are you #(also christelle w sky blue eyes... pushes them more to the aqua/teal direction to differentiate them more #jesse without ahoge... the ahoge is yeseo's thing <3 #my art #RIP jesse but also thank u for dying(?) so cedyeschris can be a thing yaaay😚#did u guys notice that i didnt give cedric orange highlights like i always do too...#its weird looking at him... technically ur the same person but... who r u...#QPB

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jessieren · 3 days

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Slightly blurry but OMG look at the adorable cuteness of this photo with the softstache™ 🥰

Happy moustache monday everyone

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nitw · 1 year

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serizawa being all like "i have little experience in relationships of any kind due to my sheltered past but being in love sure sounds nice :) anyway do you wanna hear about my boss? he's so cool~" and reigen being canonically bitchless always + showing no interest in the female clients he's popular with + questioning the importance of sexual attraction and marriage + actually feeling insecure about his struggle with emotional vulnerability deep down and thinking no one could possibly like him back for who he is..............

so anyway yea they're both somewhere on the aroace spectrum and gay for each other

#i have more to add but i don't wanna clutter the post so like HEAR ME OUT #BECAUSE this drives me up the walls insane #serizawa being the first person on equal ground with reigen to see through the walls he puts up but still respect and love him #reigen being serizawa's biggest source of inspiration and guidance but who also wholeheartedly boosts his self-esteem -#- and is the anchor keeping him grounded when he needs it most #BOTH of them being each other's first 'is this? what attraction feels like?????' epiphany #god. GODDDDD #leo.txt #serirei #mp100 #mob psycho 100

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mulderscully · 1 year

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ten did nothing wrong by becoming the timelord victorious actually. he was missing his wife

#and god knowing that he gets to be with rose. but no he doesn't!#that would drive anyone insane #and the way he accuses tentoo of being dangerous #is not because of how tentoo was created #it's because he needs rose. to hold onto his humanity.#s3 he is barely keeping it together IN HER NAME #'that name keeps me fighting!'#and s4 he is almost a person again and he is able to move forward to a degree #but donna knows and can see how much he misses rose #& the whole 'I CANT GO BACK I JUST CANT' isnt even abt gallifrey #it's about rose #and then he does get rose back. and he's SO HAPPY #so genuinely happy for the first time since s2 #and then he aborts the regeneration and accidentally creates another version of himself #because HE LOVES HER and he knows how traumtic watching him regenerate was for her the first time #tentoo is born out of his love for rose #so ten losing her again is what drives him crazy #if donna had stayed. tbh i still think he would have gone crazy #dw

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krynutsreal · 10 months

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pinterest poses pages but with the goobers

#1 Tumblr mobile hater

#god i miss the pen i used for these two pages sm....it was so good...#tumblr js still not letting me rearrange images its driving me insane #kry k(art)#mondo owada #kiyotaka ishimaru #ishimondo #sky au

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xcosmicsans · 5 months

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Thinking again about the difference in size between rbg arc kangaskahn vs xy arc kangaskahn…….

#like when did they get so small…….#it drives me insane like the Implications……….#it’s been like. 10 years I think?? about???? who really knows when the timeline is Like That #but like. god. is it that they’ve become more domesticated?? they’ve been caught and battled with so much that #they’re they’ve gotten smaller just as a convenience thing??#like I know that in practice it’s just the difference between early pksp vs modern pksp #because the whole thing has a very #‘‘this is a new world to us and we’re learning about it but we’ve still just barely scratched the surface of its secrets and wonders’’ feel #hhhh but it gnaws on my brain even still #pokemon adventures #pokespe #pksp #me post

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wizardnuke · 6 months

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i love dnd..i love playing heavy utility/support/backfield and i love having three to six attacks in a turn and an insane ac. at heart im a support player ill get my hands on whatever we're missing in a group

#looks at a druid a fighter and a bard fighter. okay cleric time.#i LOVE playing cleric turns out.#though abjuration wizard is still super super fun its a different flavor of support #it's not buffs it's 'i am going to transfer literally all that damage to myself and war caster style succeed my witchbolt concentration'#doing insane amounts of damage while taking damage (+ with temp hp and then just a lot of hp. im taking the tough feat as soon as possible)#aabria iyengar was right these abjuration wizards are craaaazy. but war domain clerics also fuck hard #my abj wiz is very much an experiment in 'what if someone who is not at all suited to this life tries to adapt as well as she can'#the point is that she isn't a cleric. do u understand. she's not a cleric and that's the point it's the. hbbbgbfhb. she's out here #functioning as a combat medic on some aasimar features + healing kits/potions + arcane ward. Look At Me #i also really enjoy playing nonreligious characters in these worlds where deities 100% exist not in a 'fuck the gods' way but in #a way somewhere between 'i'm all i need' and 'i called and no one answered' and 'may or may not go on an insane power hungry spiral and #try to get a touch of godhood' which is in part very due to my own agnostic and people-loving heart and 'haha what if i icarused this girl'#a resentful caution towards gods an immense respect towards religious companions and 'when your god isn't here to help. i will be'#anyway REACTION arcane ward you don't take damage im fine. next turn reaction shield ward's back up. the thing is.#she will drive her hp down. the ward isn't much like it goes past that temp hp. it's 14hp that shit goes down and carries to her hp #but it never drops. any leveled spell puts hp back into the ward. a 1st lvl shield puts it at 2hp and she can use it again #she is not suited for these conditions but my god it is fun to watch. i care her.#i explained that subclass feature to a player that's not in that campaign and said. like. yeah she can take damage. when her ward drops to #0 it carries to her. any leveled abj spell puts it back up. and she can use it and drive her hp down again.#do u understand what i am explaining to u! do you get it! she is and has always been a punching bag!#she was a very valuable asset to the army and the group she was drafted! into. because when she's there. people just don't fucking go down #aside from her. aside from her. AAAAH. she's so cool. she is very smart i am still riding the high of critting every turn w witchbolt and #reacting to ward a party member against a crit that would have dropped him by taking the hit herself. and she didn't break concentration #badass

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pulchrasilva · 9 months

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Thought too long about non-standard relationships where you don't bother with a label and there's no "confession of feelings" it's just deep care for each other and a determination to stick together and intimacy with no regard for what type of relationship it is. SOMEONE make it stop before my little brain explodes from the gay feels

#realising that i tag most of my fics wity 'can be romantic or platonic' but what i really mean is 'they dont care and neither do i'#there was like 1 fic ever that i wrote that i only tagged as romantic and *i* still think of it as undefined but i figured people looking #for a platonic relationship may not appreciate the characters kissing #GOD that one symbrock fic i wrote...#the 'confession' scene in that i cant stop thinking about it its gonna drive me insane #when the characters label their relationships in ways that make sense only to them >>>>#me when i have a weird thing about intimacy also #idk man. im fucking Thinking about it right now #'what is this? what are we?' 'we are venom' OUGHOUGHYOYGTKSKADI so good i was so smart and good with that

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aelswiths · 7 months

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Aelswith & Alfred (being adorable as fuck) in 1x08

For @aethelreds, @kingslionheart, @garunsdottir

#the last kingdom #sevenkingsmustdie #tlk aelswith #tlk alfred #aelswith x alfred #alfred x aelswith #GOD #G O D #the way he goes to her for validation and to affirm that they're ok and that she still believes in him and trusts him #they drive me INSANE #he loves her so much #and she loves him so much #they are SO married #they totally fucked after this scene #100%#no one can convince me otherwise #the bed is RIGHT THERE #they had this cute scene and then fucked each other silly

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hella1975 · 7 days

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isn't it insane how three of endeavor's kids are heroes. and all three of them don't follow his way of going about it. shoto's a conventional hero but he does it through all might's way. he wants to save people. not climb the ranks. fuyumi teaches children so they can learn what's right and wrong. natsuo studies medical welfare so he can help people onsite without the "pro hero,, label. being so normal abt this btw.

BEING REALLY FUCKING NORMAL ABT THIS

#GODDDDDDDDDDDDD THEY ALL JUST WANT TO HELP PEOPLE DESPITE DESPITE DESPITE #fuyumi working with kids is so insane to me. like on the one hand i love fuyumi but i Do have reservations about someone who works #with kids being SOOO dismissive of like. actual domestic abuse happening to a kid right in front of her #say what you like you can't change my mind on this idc if she's justified as a person this is coming from a fuyumi defender #but no teacher should be THAT BIASED about domestic abuse #but anyway what was i saying. OH YEAH. SHE STILL WORKS WITH KIDS. SHE PRACTICALLY RAISED HER BROTHERS #AND SHE KEPT THE FAMILY TOGETHER YOU'D THINK SHE'D WANT A JOB WITHOUT SUCH FOCUS ON CARETAKING #AFTER DOING IT HER WHOLE LIFE BUT IT IS FUNDAMENTALLY PART OF HER. SHE CARES.#NATSUO BEING A DOCTOR BECAUSE HE WANTS TO SAVE WITHOUT CARE FOR RANK OR FAME #SHOUTO BEING A HERO DESPITE /EVERYTHING/ AND SAYING TIME AND TIME AGAIN HE'LL BE BETTER THAN HIS FATHER #god. they drive me mental #ask #todofam #mha

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months

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had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)

#she drives me insane #she asked something. I answered. she goes 'okAaaAayyyy?' in the most irritating tone ever.#like what is wrong with you. what.#she's so fucking irritating. truly the most joyless serious bitter person I have ever met (and I have met my mother so...... that's saying #something)#it's just. man social interaction is already so difficult but she just. makes EVERYTHING weird.#literally dude all I said was that yes everything's great with me and the cats 👍 how ELSE was I supposed to respond to that??#I know I'm overthinking it and being a horrible ungrateful little bitch but god I just can't stand her #I don't CARE what they do for us I still just don't like them 😭 yes I know I'm the worst 😭#my husband had to promise me that I won't have to see them more than twice a year once we move. I just. they drain every last bit of life #and joy and happiness out of everything #drives me insane #anyway I'm done being an asshole for now #been trying to take a tumblr break but where else would I complain about this.#personal

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sunnibits · 2 years

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ok so for some reason a lot of fanon content has Izzy as the younger one who gets taken in by Ed for some reason (and don’t get me wrong I love that, the vibes are immaculate) but guys. GUYS. please share my brainwaves for a minute… bc I’m just now thinking of like, a super young Edward Teach getting his first start at sea, and whether they’re already actual pirates or not, Izzy Hands is one of the first real sailors he ever meets and he just thinks he’s SO COOL… they’re both around young adulthood (MAYBE teenagers if we’re getting real cutesy) but Izzy is an older boy, he’s already been on sea for a while, and even though their age + experience gap isn’t actually that much, in Ed’s eyes Izzy is like, Thee Coolest Guy he has ever met in his life. He wants to be just like him ooooohhh he wants to impress him so bad. He desperately wants Izzy to think he’s cool. He follows him around and Izzy acts like he hates it (he doesn’t).

like I love the idea of Izzy being the one in awe of Ed as much as the next person but please consider their real age gap for a minute,, the POTENTIAL guys…

#blackhands #izzy hands #ed teach #ofmd #I’ve had extensive thoughts about working with their real age gap before but not like this #this is a new idea and it’s driving me INSANE oh my god.#yknow eds enthusiasm for everything and the way he obsessed over people.#a young Ed teach would ABSOLUTELY obsess over Izzy #oh my god…. what if.. young Ed crushing on izzy..#ok ok I know it’s unlikely but WHAT IF. what if Izzy was like. one of Ed’s first Gay Awakenings #oh I am KILLING myself with this #oh god #wait this is also sad tho bc then like :(((( it just adds to how painful it is that they’ve grown apart now #bc iz still remembers when Ed thought he was the best thing in the world #:(((((((#brainrot out of NOWHERE fellas

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churro-on-a-unicycle · 8 months

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they dont even give him the satisfaction of a full hissatsu animation im about to kill someone

#WHY WAS HE TREATED LIKE THIS IT'S MIND BOGGLING #trying so so hard to think of a good reason for them to just not use this literal mascot looking kid #do you know how good for marketing that hat alone is????#what were they thinking ohhh my god #it drives me insane #anyways uh he still looks cool as fuck at least you got to have a teeny tiny moment max #matsuno kuusuke #inazuma eleven #ina11 #churro chats

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timegears-moved · 1 year

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#bwark #me @ gon #sorry i've been reading meta about his mental state this kid is going to fucking drive me insane #please for the love of god go to fucking therapy i can't handle this shit #i always thought i resonated more with killua and like he's still my fav i think but god. i didn't not realize just how deep gon's shit #runs the first time i watched hxh. this kid fucking HURTS me. i love him so much

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