#Grr now I'm apologizing too much

[my-names-angel-but-im-not-one]

Replaced or not?

Part-1 Part-2 Part-3

For summary n details check out part-1

Pairing: Obey me character x mc!

"I really despise her, she gives me creepy vibes ngl " Dandil said.

"Yeah she's like ugh, if only the brothers had spend time with you they would've seen how much better you are!!" Ebella joined

"But it's a good thing they haven't we get to keep you all to ourselves" Norain said hugging you as you giggled at their clingy behaviour.

Dandil is a demon succubus. Ebella is another demon that holds the sin of greed. And Norain she's another average level envy demon.

I've been friends with them since I came here ..... actually I've been friends with almost all the demons here...diavolo has also praised me for it.

We chatted as our recess bell rang once again.

"what's your class ?" They all mused .

"......... mathematics" i groaned as they did too . They groaned because it's one of the subject we're not together.

My mathematics class go with Satan , Levi , and mammon and unfortunately Run hai. There's only one class i don't have with her and that is magic. The only good thing run hai has done so far is that she's able to bring Levi school......offline.

You sighed as you thought 'i still have Satan thou' but all that went to waste as you saw run hai was sitting beside Satan and was trying so hard to get him to talk. Satan saw you entering the class and eyed you in apology . You understand thou....not like you can do anything. You took and empty seat and sat down and took your notebook out try to do the homework you didn't do at HOL. (Cause like same bro)

"Oi human!! Liste-"

"I don't have any Grimm to spare mammon so you can go"

"The great mammon isn't here to ask for gri-!!"

Before mammon could say anything another person sat behind you.

You tensed and went stiffed bodied as you don't know this demon and you could easily die by his hands . You peeked from under your eyelashes and saw mammon was stiffed bodied as well.

"Lucien...grr" mammon growled at him . Thou unfortunately the professor asked him to go back to his seat. Now Levi , mammon and Satan all were eyeing you like you really are going to die.

"i don't like this..." You muttered under your breathe.

"Oh but I do very much darling~" the said demon beside you smirked and grins showing his sharp canine.

"I'm Lucien ". (This is how he looks)

You tensed . "Ah-i-i didn't meant that about yo-you" you stuttered as you tried to not look at him-

"Look at me when I'm talking to you love~" well damn. You looked from under your lashes and boy were you charmed.......no literally you couldn't move .....you tried but you couldn't he did something you are sure.

'move, move , move damn it MOVE!!'

"HAA-" You breathe in the air as you moved again .

"is something wrong mc?" "Sir i do not feel quite well...maybe I can go early please?"

"yes you may...it must be hard being a human " the professor said with a sympathetic smile and went back to teaching.

You packed your stuff and give a look to Satan . He nodded his head. As you just went to pick up your bag you froze again.

You could see this Lucian guy moving but you could not . You watched in horror as he grabbed you immobile wrist and did something that burner your hand in pain . When he removed his hand to your horror there was a bracelet like mark on your wrist now. (The mark)

"hah hah!" You panted and ran away from RAD and made your way toh HOL.

The main door creaked as you enter . Waiting for you in the hall was Lucifer. 'huh why is he here didn't he have to do sone stupid council work or something '

"MC"

"umm-"

"Don't worry i was already informed about your health , care to explain what happened? Why were you suddenly unwell? Did you ate something bad?"

"What? NO!! What do you think happened? And whatever happened to me is none of your concern ...Run hai is still at RAD you should go back she might need you " you spat at him

'why does he care now huh'

"Of course it is my concern you are under my protection-"

"Yeah so much for protection Whatever" you ignored him and tried to went past him . But he grabbed your wrist.

The same one that had the mark . And it was still hurting .

You howled in pain and Lucifer immediately let go. His eye scanned your wrist and he let out a gasp upon seeing the mark.

"What is the meaning of this?" Suddenly he was in his demon form and you knew that you fucked up . And you fucked up very very bad.

[A/N]: oooohhh we fucked up didn't we ෆ⁠╹⁠ ⁠.̮⁠ ⁠╹⁠ෆ. Also i introduced an oc . The art is not mine thou!!

Comments are appreciated!

Thank you for reading!!

#obey me mc #obey me shall we date #obey me short fic #obey me female mc #obey me leviathan #obey me mammon #obey me yandere #obey me satan #obey me lucifer #beel x reader #obey me belphie #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #obey me luke #obey me solomon #obey me asmodeus #dark

[your-art-is-gay]

For some reason, I'm hyperfixating really hard on Vampire Knight right now, so uh....

I may have bought the art book. And by "may have," I mean absolutely, definitely, 100% impulse-bought the art book.

And I have thoughts. A lot of thoughts.

So here's some of my favourite art from the book! Also, apologies for shitty, phone-quality photos.

(Under the cut so this doesn't get too long.)

Pretty outfits!

Kaname in a Day Class uniform.

I don't know what's funnier here, what Yuki's doing to Zero's hair or the fact that he's letting her. And in class (or at least, in public) by the looks of it, given that they're in uniform.

I hate how cute they are in chibi. Grr. >.<

I love their expressions in this. Like, you've walked in on them and they're both annoyed by it.

Ugh, this one is one of my favourites. It's just gorgeous. I like the symbolism, too---Yuki has her long hair and Artemis scythe, so this is after the whole pureblood reveal. The broken chains could represent her breaking the seal on her memories and powers, and of course they're red---so much of her life is soaked in blood, and if I remember correctly, her repressed memories manifested in visions of blood.

This one is interesting to me. Again, Yuki has long hair, meaning that this is post-awakening. She's holding Yuri protectively, almost possessively.

The thing that intrigues me the most is that Yuri seems to be wearing a Cross Academy necklace, like Yuki's. Is this symbolism, or is it just something I've forgotten about?

This illustration has always been one of my favourites. I think it's so funny that Zero and Kaname look like they're about to attack each other, and Yuki is physically holding them apart like, "c'mon guys, can you at least wait until after our picture is taken?"

I feel like it encapsulates their dynamic really well. ^-^

Well, that's all for now! But I have more thoughts. Lots more.

Stay tuned, if you're interested!

#artemus hyperfixates #artemus opinionates #vampire knight #vampire knight art book #yuki cross #zero kiryuu #kaname kuran

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

(FE:Engage/Genshin Impact) Alear and Lumine shenanigans

Fortunately for you, I LOOOOOOOVE Crossovers!

Alear fed Sommie some oranges he picked from the orchard, watching as Sommie excitedly wagged their tail.

The ring on his finger began to shake as Lumine suddenly materialized next to it.

(Lumine) "Aww! Your dog...-Er, cat? Dogcat, looks so cute!"

(Alear) "Hah, it's name is Sommie. And honestly, I'm not too sure what it is either."

Lumine extended a hand to pet it, only to phase through it.

(Lumine) "Grr, damn these ghost hands!"

Alear chuckled, turning to her.

(Alear) "Don't worry, I'll make sure to pet them for you. Did you ever own pets back in your world?"

(Lumine) "Yeah, actually! In my Teapot, I had a few cats and dogs, and a boar! And Razor, if you wanna get technical."

(Alear) "A...teapot?"

(Lumine) "Long story. Involved a kind old lady and a lawyer who did NOT shut up."

(Alear) "Pot calling the kettle black there, Lumine. I'm fairly positive you're older than all of us except maybe Tiki-"

(Lumine) "Shush."

(Alear) "Anyways, how did you even fit all that inside a teapot?"

(Lumine) "Oh, it was a magical one. I got to fit an entire island, including all my friends and a mansion inside it. It was all managed by a bird named Tubby."

(Alear) "That sounds...interesting. And who's Razor?"

(Lumine) "Razor is a kid raised by wolves. He was really sweet."

(Alear) "Like Panette?"

(Lumine) "Yeah, like Panette! Though he isn't able to speak as fluently as her. Acted like a wolf sometimes too, though that was mostly habit."

(Alear) "Do you think he'd enjoy pets as well?"

(Lumine) "Hah, I actually used to give him headpats whenever we were together. I'm sure he'd like it from you as well."

(Alear) "I'd like to meet some of your friends from Tevyat some day. They all sound interesting."

(Lumine) "That world sure is a strange bunch. It's not home, but...it feels like it, you know?"

(Alear) "Yeah, I do."

(Lumine) "And honestly? I only trust them meeting you, everyone else in this place is SOOOO weird!"

(Alear) "Wha-That's a bit mean."

(Lumine) "I'm pretty sure Bunet would want to literally eat him."

(Alear) "What?! Okay, now that's too mean!"

(Lumine) "I literally watched him ask if he could like some sauce stain off your shirt, and overheard him wanting to lick Jade's armor. Let's face it, your army is full of nothing but weirdos."

(Alear) "There's some normal people here!"

(Lumine) "Name one person that isn't weirdly abscessed with one singular thing."

(Alear) "Well, there's Celine-"

(Lumine) "All she does is talk about tea! I don't think I've seen her mention a single conversation without it!"

(Alear) "What about Alcryst?"

(Lumine) "If Alcryst tried apologizing to the wolves in Tevyat like he did with the ones here, they'd eat him alive."

(Alear) "Um...Well, no one from Elusia is entirely normal. Uh..."

(Lumine) "Like I said. Weirdos."

(Alear) "Is Tevyat that much better?"

Lumine raised a finger but suddenly stopped herself.

(Lumine) "...Fair point."

#fire emblem engage imagines #genshin impact imagines #alear fire emblem #lumine genshin impact #crossover #fire emblem engage headcanons #genshin impact headcanons

[beesnutz]

How the Star Trek: The Original Series Cast would react to you having a tapeworm!

KIRK: This.. Worm, it is... hurting you... and you caught it.. on this ship..? (pause). The medical team in sick bay will help you. Ah.. How i feel? A captain.... A captain is not allowed to get involved with anyone personally, even if what they have is a tape worm. I am deeply sorry. I promise you, we will do what we can to figure out how this tapeworm managed to get into your body. It is our duty.

UHURA: Tapeworm?! Of all the... You poor thing.. we must get you to sick bay immediately. I'll open up a channel.. You know, I've too caught a nasty bug, when i was a child. But I don't remember the ailment as much as I do my doting mother taking care of me as I healed.. I hope you too, have someone special near you who will be there by your side.. (she looks away shyly). Perhaps I will come to check up on you at some point, as well...

SPOCK: Fascinating... To be infected by a tapeworm in space is quite a difficult, if not impossible feat. Unless it is some alien variety, of course, although you have not joined us in many away missions as of late. Quite illogical.. No matter, as it would be more illogical for you to lie about your condition. For the sake of efficiency of the ship, please take control of your situation as soon as possible.

SULU: Phew... a nasty little bug you caught there, let's hope the living conditions in that belly aren't up to standards, maybe it'll move out.. Jokes aside, tapeworms are a serious thing, so don't put it off any longer. Don't worry, I'll take care of your post, there's only so many flowers i can prune in the botany bay before my mood gets just as thorny! (laughs). Be strong, pal.

CHEKOV: Grr.. Yes. The "Tapeworm". We have many tales about the nasty thing in Russia. Gah, If only I was small enough to go in there myself, I'd strangle that slimy little thing with my own hands to make sure it would NEVER try to bother you again.!! Huh? Ah.. yes. It seems i've become too heated over it - but it hurts to know that thing is destroying your body! I apologize...

JANICE: Ehh, a tapeworm, how gross is that?! Oh, sorry.. Well. I've never seen anything fall ill to anything like that on this ship, the medics are all top notch professionals. Nothing to worry about!... I'll go back to work now...

SCOTTY: Aye, I'm no gonna lie to ye, the chances of pickin' up a TAPEWORM o' all things on here.. Is hard to believe! I'm already swamped with work over here, and now, to worry about you.. Nae, trust me, I like'ta worry about you!

CHAPEL: Now how did you manage to get yourself a pet tapeworm? Ah, stranger things happen on this ship almost every day, I shouldn't even be suprised! Listen, run off to Dr. Mccoy to give you a proper examination, I'm stuck here with this job.. But, hey, afterwards, come to my cabin, okay..? ..I can make a lovely soup that's perfect for any rainy day.

MCCOY: What the devil are you talking about? All that my tricorder shows is a "hard" case of BOWEL OBSTRUCTION. Take this pill and call me in the morning.

#star trek

[mysteryshoptls]

R Jack Howl School Uniform Personal Story

"I'll expose your wicked deeds!!"

[Cafeteria]

Jack: The cafeteria's pretty crowded. My lunch break'll be over just from waitin' in line.

Jack: Starting tomorrow, I'll make my own lunch and eat in the classroo… Hm?

Jack: [sniff, sniff]

Jack: Wha-What is this terrible smell…!? From the moment I stepped into the cafeteria, there's been some strange smell in the air!

Jack: My nose might be better than others just 'cause of my wolf genes, but… how has no one else noticed this odor?

Jack: If there's some kind of harmful chemicals leaking somewhere, the whole school'd be in a panic.

Jack: If that happens, my daily training schedule could be ruined!

Jack: Looks like I'll have to find it and get rid of it myself…

Jack: With my Unique magic, I'd be able to figure out where the smell is coming from like that. But, it's not like I can use it here.

Jack: I guess I should just try to follow the source of the scent. [sniff… sniff…]

Jack: There's a strange smell coming from over there all the way in the far-right seat… Is that it!?

Floyd: Oooh～ It's Uni-chan. What's up?

Jade: If it isn't Jack Howl-kun. Are you perhaps hoping to sit with us for lunch?

Jack: Jade-senpai, Floyd-senpai, I got a question for you two.

Jack: I want you to show me what's in that attaché case at your feet.

Jade: Oh my, this is the cafeteria, you know. If you would like to make a deal of some sort, we will of course welcome you at the Mostro Lounge after classes let out.

Floyd: Yeah, yeah. If y'wanna see what's inside the bag, y'gotta pay us something good～

Jack: You two're doin' some shady business again, aren't you!? Hand over the case!

Floyd: Huh, what's that? You wanna go?

Jack: I'll make you show me!

Jade: Ah… Oh no, the case is opening…!

[snap!]

Jack: HEUUUGH!!

Jack: Ptoo, ptoo!! What is this? …Some kinda slimy liquid just flew out at me!

Jack: But, it ain't the smell I'm lookin' for. Kinda smells like the ocean, though…

Jade: This is a new moisturizer that we developed. How tragic, we were to hand it to our customer after this…

Jack: Oh, so it wasn't nothin' dangerous, huh. My bad for bein' too hasty… I'll take the responsibility and compen― AH!?

Jack: The source of the foul stench is nearby… It's coming from the seat over to the left! It's gotta be there!!

[dashes away]

Jack: No way… You're kidding me, right? There's no way you're the culprit…!

Epel: Oh, Jack-kun… Is something wrong…?

Jack: Grr… Epel! What are you hiding? Confess!

Epel: I was just…j-just eating vichyssoise and risotto…

Jack: Don't underestimate a wolf's nose, I'll expose your wicked deeds!!

Jack: [sniff, sniff… sniff, sniff…]

Epel: What the…! I mean, wait, Jack-kun! Stop sniffing me… please?

Jack: There! Inside your jacket pocket!

Epel: Ah, no!!

Jack: This is… This box is… A plastic container? It contains…

Jack: Oh, grosssssssss, this stinks!!!

Jack: There's only onions in here!!

Epel: I got some minced leeks, diced and thinly sliced green onions… Oh, and scallion oil.

Jack: I hate onions!! Why're you hiding all that stuff in the first place!?

Epel: Uhh… So, my Dorm Leader told me that, "This week, you are to eat a whole meal with proper manners."

Epel: But it wasn't really tasting good, so I'd sprinkle some of my green onions on the dish when no one was looking…

Epel: But anyway, don't you have something else you should be saying to me…?

Jack: Urgh… Sorry for bein' suspicious of you. And for botherin' your lunchtime. Yeah.

Epel: Okay then, I'll forgive you if you eat all of these onions.

Jack: No, anything but that!!

Epel: I'm just kidding. You're really the kind of person who can own up to his mistakes and apologize, huh. Can't say I dislike that… I guess.

Epel: Hey, since you're already here, want to have lunch together?

Jack: Oh… Yeah, sure. Now that I think about it, we're in the same class, but we really get a chance to talk that much.

Jack: …Just, make sure to keep those green onions away from me.

Epel: Fufufu.

Jack: Urgh…

Requested by Anonymous.

#twisted wonderland #twst #jack howl #jade leech #floyd leech #epel felmier #twst jack #twst jade #twst floyd #twst epel #twst translation

[shameonmeeguiltypleasure]

Seducing Mr Bridgerton Chapter 4 Progress update:

Hello everyone! I am currently a little on the intoxicated side, but I just had to let you all know chapter 4 is finally flowing!!!!!!

I'm so happy, I could cry from relief, excitement etc. I really thought I wouldn't make the deadline I set myself. But I'm so glad I didn't give up and kept pushing myself to keep working on it. I have..... Two? I think, alt/deleted scenes that are of no use so I thought I'd share it with you all on Tumblr.

The official chapter 4 is going in a direction I honestly didn't plan. It was as if that's what my version of the characters wanted to take things and so.... That's where it went.

I'm very excited to post the chapter in three days time. Of only so I can see who else agrees with me 😂

Anyway, .enjoy and thank you very much for the continued support 💕💕

Chapter Four: Alt/Deleted Scene 1 :

Between the ages of six and nine – Eloise rather fancied the idea of ruling the world. She had done the research and strategy for it too. But eventually, she realised that society was not ready for a world of her making. It would take far too long and see her courting death much too closely and she had her family to protect. So, she made the wise decision to temper her dream and settle for fighting the oppression of women’s rights in what little ways she could.

But she never forgot the many strategies she’d created to dominate her enemies. And for her unfortunate brothers, who tended to forget her once-upon-a-dream, Eloise never hesitated to use her learned methods against them when seeking vengeance. Still steaming with anger over her quarrel with Colin during breakfast, Eloise was mentally sorting through her options. It was nearing lunch and she still had yet to settle on a decision. Should she rage into a mental war or a physical altercation? To what extent did she wish to see him suffer? And for how long?

“Grr! The problem with brilliance… far too many options…” she muttered before scooping more of her soup.

She ignored Hyacinth’s pointed groaning and avoided her mother’s stare.

“Eloise. Surely you’ve calmed down by now, you’re twenty-eight.” Violet Bridgerton sighed. “I had hoped you’re vengeful plotting would have stopped by now”

Hyacinth scoffed. “In what world Mama?” she asked with a shake of her head.

“Hush you, don’t think I’d forgotten that you’d broken a plate to get your siblings to stop.”

Hyacinth sat up with indignant disbelief. “I had no choice! Consider this, would you rather a broken plate or a bloody son?”

“Hyacinth!” Violet scolded, but while her youngest apologized her expression showed no regret.

“Don’t defend him, Mama! If you had witnessed his actions yourself, you’d be just as insulted and angered as I am.” Eloise sharply voiced.

Hyacinth rather thought she could see the fire in her sister’s eyes. Violet hesitated to sip at her tea at seeing Eloise’s temper. Her second-born daughter had always been passionate and feisty, but much like Colin, her true temper tantrums were hard to weather.

“What on earth could he have said that’s pushed you to this point?” she absently wondered.

“He called her, and I quote: ‘ an ignorant child with no understanding of true hardship and pain.’ Do you see now why I had no choice, Mama?” Hyacinth announced with a solemn demeanour that was almost comical. But Violet was too stunned to comment. Eloise, however, was not and the reminder of Colin’s angrily spoken words infuriated her even further.

“Can you believe his audacity Mama!? To call me childish when it is him who turns tail and runs away from commitments,” Hyacinth opened her mouth to comment but a sharp look from Violet had her hastily keeping her words to herself. Eloise was too busy venting her rage to notice. And she might have continued for longer if not for the arrival of her Viscount brother and his family.

“I’m sorry but what the devil are you yelling about?” Anthony interrupted with a concerned frown.

“ANTHONY!” Hyacinth cried with joy before jumping from her seat and rushing to hug him tight. The youngest Bridgerton turned to the side to cover her whispering lips and quickly informed the oldest Bridgerton of the situation.

“Eloise and Colin are fighting. I had to break a plate to stop the bloodshed. As you can see, Eloise is still raging.” Hyacinth hastily spoke. When the Viscount’s eyes widened with understanding, the tension Hyacinth had been ignoring eased and her brother returned her hug with a tight squeeze.

“Well done, Hyacinth. Do me a favour and see that my sons don’t go antagonising their little sister like their idiot Uncle.” Anthony warmly encouraged. Hyacinth happily abandoned the company of her older siblings in favour of her adorable nephews and niece. As she did, she couldn’t help but be thankful for Anthony’s timely arrival. No part of her felt any sympathy for whatever retribution Colin might suffer, as she thought he rightly deserved it.

********

Anthony had prepared himself for a rather chaotic day. For whatever reason, his sons had insisted they spend the day following after him. And while he loved his children with every ounce of his being, he worried about being able to balance his workload while minding his sons. Edmund and Miles were nine and seven. And having helped raise his seven younger siblings, Anthony vividly remembered the unpredictable wildness children were capable of.

Apparently, at thirty-three and twenty-eight, Colin and Eloise were still capable of being such chaotic hellions.

“Colin said what?” Anthony repeated. 

“How rude!” Kate added with disapproval from her seat beside him.

After convincing Eloise to explain the situation to the both of them so they may help, her temper seemed to cool. Anthony knew Eloise’s cool temper was nothing to feel relief over. As Benedict once accurately described, Eloise was the water to Colin’s fire and when incensed with each other, she was an icy tornado to his fiery inferno.

“And he did not mention anything about the cause of his moody disposition?” Kate questioned.

Anthony glanced at his wife and could tell she was entertained by the dramatic nature of his siblings. Feeling righteously assured, Eloise responded exuberantly to Kate’s consoling inquires. It was clear Eloise felt as if she was in the right. Anthony would argue both his siblings shared the blame for their ridiculous quarrel. He was dragged out of his musing when Eloise said something most intriguing.

“I’d excused his brooding demeanour after last night’s party, but this morning was far too much,” Eloise added with a huff. Anthony laughed which gained him the attention of both women.

“I’m sorry, but did you just describe our brother as brooding?” Anthony repeated with another chuckle.

“It is the only word fit to use.” Eloise hissed.

“Yes, but this is Colin. In what world would he be described as brooding? He’s no dark hero in the making, Eloise. Call him the temperamental idiot he is and leave it at that.” Anthony said while still feeling amused.

“Although hard to imagine, aren’t you a little too confident about your brother’s character? He has been travelling for so long, perhaps his experiences across the oceans have changed him?” Kate voiced thoughtfully.

Her suggestion caused both Anthony and Eloise to frown with disagreement. What experiences could Colin possibly come across to prompt him down the route of a dark brooding hero? Anthony sighed and looked at his wife with a sympathetic sort of smile.

“I love you, but surely you give Colin too much credit. As impulsive and thoughtless as my brother can be, his is a character that’s not easily swayed.”

Kate arched a brow in taunt and Anthony clenched his fist to stop himself from wanting to kiss her.

“Men can be swayed.” She announced with a knowing smirk on her lips.

Anthony swallowed and cleared his throat pointedly to change the topic. “Regardless, something is obviously plaguing him. Do you remember anything specific occurring after last night?” he prompted.

Eloise’s frown deepened before she spoke out with obvious frustration. “Nothing! Beyond Lady Danbury’s challenge and the talk of Penelope’s dare to suspect her, there was nothing else!”

“Ah…” the Viscount and Viscountess said in unison.

Eloise straightened and peered at the sudden knowing in Kate’s expression as well as Anthony’s furrowed brow. “What? What is it? You know something I don’t, so tell me now.” She pestered like a bloodhound who’d caught the scent of prey.

Kate sipped at her tea and gave an easy wave to show her thoughts were nothing of importance. But Anthony was too busy contemplating the wonderings in his mind about Lady Whistledown and his brother. Perhaps it was the hunt for Lady Whistledown that’s got him so out of sorts?

“Why would Colin care for Lady Whistledown?” Eloise demanded.

Anthony blinked, having not realized he’d spoken his musing out loud. Faced with his wife’s intrigued and expectant stare, as well as Eloise’s demanding glare, he had no choice but to answer.

“He’s not exactly fond of the gossip of the ton, and her writings about him have… annoyed him over the years.” Anthony carefully explained.

He carefully observed Eloise’s reaction to his words. He suddenly remembered the earlier years following Whistledown’s debut and Eloise’s obsession with discovering her identity. At some point, she seemed to lose interest in her hunt, but Anthony had been too relieved over the matter to question it. Now, his worries for his sister returned with full force.

“You’re not Lady Whistledown, are you?” he decided to check.

The groan of disappointment from his wife and the annoying disbelief from his sister was completely unwarranted. Eloise levelled a sarcastic grin towards him and spoke in a tone one would use while gutting fish.

“Anthony, if I were Lady Whistledown, I would not waste precious ink and time in writing about my idiot brother. Nor would I ever use adjectives such as ‘charming’ to describe him.”

“Exactly as I thought.” He nodded. But the look in Eloise’s eyes made him suspicious. He could visibly see the cogs in her brain turning with thought.

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[zhongrin]

Hello again rin! I'm glad you're both doing good, but please, make sure to take plenty of rest and don't overdo it on the caffeine, that goes for you too Albedo.

As for me asking for advice, while it's not urgent per say, I've wanted to ask for any dating tips you may have since you seem to have experience (You and Albedo seem to be a pretty happy couple, so I thought I'd ask if it's not too much trouble). I'll admit, I've had my eyes on a certain adeptus with an anemo vision, but I'm not sure how to approach him. I've been leaving almond tofu with notes reminding him to take care of himself and the occasional qinxing flower, but I've left those anonymous due to embarrassment.

I did try going to Zhongli, the Wangsheng Funeral Parlor consultant, for help since he seems to know a lot about Liyue's history, so maybe he'd know something about adepti courting methods too, but he's been crushed due to his wife's disappearance, so I dropped off some tea instead and wished him good luck in finding her.

But anyways, pretty sure this letter is going on for too long, so have a great day and thanknyou for your time!

Signing out,

Vermilion.

dear ver,

not you too! ughh. okay okay, fine, i mean that's what the healers said too, so i've been drinking a lot less coffee because albedo is 'rinproofing' the coffee cabinet... and by that i mean he stored it on a high cabinet somewhere and hid the stool from me can you believe how petty he is grr

oh, are you talking about xiao? well, while he's of a similar type with albedo, his personality is quite different, so i'm not sure if i can be much of a help here... but let me try. i think it's nice of you to give him little presents, but you should make your identity known! well, that's assuming he doesn't already know because he could be a little sneaky from what i remember, given his anemo vision and all (on that note, a vision seems super handy huh, i wish i had one... anemo sounds like a really nice power but i've always thought if i had a vision it would be geo! because albedo wields it so flawlessly, be it in and outside battles... ok now i'm just rambling i should stop).

i think communication is key in every relationship, so you should definitely muster the courage to start talking to him! and remember, he might act standoffish and all, but he only does it because he's not used to social interactions! as long as you make it known that you mean no harm (and that he can't harm you because you've taken precautions for his karmic debt), i think he'll appreciate the company! and then you can start getting closer from there! i believe the more you spend time with someone, the closer you'll get to each other naturally! i wish you good luck <3

please don't apologize, three paragraphs in a single letter aren't considered long at all! i'm the one who has to apologize because i went off tangent a bit there... anyway, please take care and update me on how things go with your little crush!! <3

hugs and headpats,

meirin

#rin answers #rin plays ebg #rin selfships #meibedo #rin is having tea with: vex 💙

[vegangirldiaries]

I Miss Him

The first time I met John, he was sticking up for me in high school. Being the quiet goth girl that I was, of course, I was teased often in school. John had this sort of 'metal-head' aesthetic about him so I guess he found me somewhat relatable? He was a tall dude, and kinda chubby, so no one would be brave enough to go up against him in any way. In my English class, he stood up for me when one of the guys stole my treasured book I had been reading (LOTR). After John was through with him, not only did he return my book and apologize, he actually looked like he was going to cry. Despite this, John wasn't ever a mean person, he was more like a gentle giant. This big and tall guy that almost became like my body guard. I loved darkwave music but the only punk band I loved was the misfits. He was a HUGE fan of Glenn Danzig, so we got along just fine and shared earbuds in class. What we had was platonic, almost a brotherly/sisterly love and respect for one another.

After High school, we both got REALLY into game of thrones. after season 3's 'red wedding' episode, he swore he'd read all the books so he'd no longer be surprised with heartache. We worked on a podcast together called 'game of thrones re-watch' he was so much fun to work with! I would've had him on every episode, only we never finished a full season because of scheduling issues. There were too many things in our way, so we stopped. I still have one episode recording I fondly listen to when I miss him.

In 2019, when the final season of GOT aired, John wouldn't be able to finish watching the show. In April of that year, he was hospitalized with a bad cold. It became pneumonia and he succumbed to it on April 6th, 2019. This past Saturday was the 5th anniversary of his death. It was so strange to know someone my age die at 31. It felt so unfair.

In 2018, I found out a childhood friend of mine had committed suicide. A year later, I get this news. and in 2020, I had to suffer through watching my mother pass away while in hospice. It was a strange time for me to have to grieve for three years in a row.

My husband had the pleasure of meeting John a few times. We used to host Game of Thrones watch parties at our apartment, which John was always invited to. My husband got that gentle giant vibe from him same as I had so many years prior to that.

We both shared the same thought when we got the news he passed... 'he was too nice a guy to deserve death at so young an age... if anyone had ever deserved to die... it was definitely not him. We've never met anyone as genuinely nice as him'

So, now whenever I get the chance to, I visit his grave and sit and read to him. Whatever game of thrones related book I have on hand. Since I'm always readding GRR Martin, it isn't too difficult a task for me. He never got to see the ending of GOT, which is another sad though. and as a reader, he'll never get to finish the books.... an even sadder thought. I think he would've liked the ending. I think he would've been angry at first, but in the end, the very first house he rooted for ended up with the win. and he definitely would've liked that.

RIP John, we miss you, buddy

#grief #greiving #death #rip #friendship

[schism-au-blog]

Chapter 8

Pearl and Rose headed back to the Crystal Gem base. They quickly told Garnet everything they “overheard,” which included the news about the diamonds turning gems into weapons, and not the part where the diamonds were going to try to heal shattered gems using Rose’s tears. 

“So?” asked Rose. “What should we do?”

“This is a complicated situation,” Garnet said. “We need to exercise caution. Tell our gems to be more cautious- that includes you, Pearl.”

“Me?” Pearl said, indignantly.

Rose giggled. “You say that like you don’t know what she’s talking about.”

“I can be cautious!” Pearl exclaimed.

Rose giggled. Garnet looked doubtful. “In any case, I think it would be foolish to focus on the metallic gems instead of homeworld. Homeworld is still our main adversary. The metallic gems share the same fundamental goal as us,” Garnet said.

“Right,” said Rose. “So what should we do about Homeworld?”

Garnet thought for a moment. “That’s for you to decide. The future is cloudy. We need to change fate.”

“That hopeless, huh?” Rose asked.

Garnet shrugged. “Not as bad as when it was just the three of us.”

“You’ve also been getting better at seeing possible paths,” Rose said.

“Your teaching on how to trust myself and look at things I never thought possible helped,” Garnet said.

Rose grinned. “I’m glad! Your abilities are wonderful, and the fact that you figured out how to use them properly is incredible.”

“If only I could figure out which path to go down now,” Garnet said.

“Don’t be too hard on yourself,” Rose said. “You’ve guided me wonderfully up until now, and I know I can count on you.”

“Thank you.” Garnet sighed. “As an advisor, without looking into the future, I’d suggest playing defensive, at the moment. The metallic gems’ entire purpose is to be more disruptive than us, and if Homeworld is focused on developing weapons, they’re not as focused on developing the colony. Until we figure out what they come up with and how to turn it against them, we need to focus on as few gems getting poofed as possible.”

Rose nodded. “Thank you, Garnet.” She grabbed both of Garnet’s hands. “You are truly incredible. You are what caused me to truly believe that fighting for gemkind was worth it.”

Garnet smiled. “I trust you, Rose. Personally, I hate the diamonds enough that I would shatter them if I could, but if you say that’s not what we’re going to do, then I trust that you know best. You believed in me before I believed in myself, so I’ll believe in you now.”

“You really think shattering the diamonds…” Rose trailed off.

“I have a habit of looking at outcomes, then the path it takes to get there,” Garnet said. “Frankly, as long as the diamonds are around, I doubt they’ll let us have control of the planet. But, if I know anything, I know it’s possible to change fate.”

“Thank you for trusting in me, Garnet,” Rose said.

Garnet nodded. “Of course.”

“We should check in on the Pearls from the Reef the other day,” Rose said. “We’ve been in such a hurry dealing with the metallic gems that I nearly forgot about them. They must be having such a hard time fitting in.”

“They should be in the armory,” said Garnet. “I think Cherry is teaching them to use axes.”

“Thanks, Garnet!” Rose exclaimed as she ran out of the room. Pearl followed behind.

Rose and Pearl burst into Cherry’s training session. The Pearls were learning basic fighting stances, but it was very clear they were new to fighting.

Cherry waved. “Hey guys, need something?” she asked.

“I just wanted to see how the Pearls are doing,” Rose said, “so, how are you doing?”

Gold grinned. “Rose! I thought I wouldn’t see you around much, since you’re the leader and all.”

Rose smiled. “I don’t want to leave anyone to feel stranded. I want to be available to anyone, anyone should be able to talk to me.”

“That’s very noble,” said Silver. “I’m adjusting well, thank you for checking in.”

“Pearl, would you mind taking over the training session?” Cherry asked. “I’m trying to get them to figure out what weapon suits them best, so you don’t have to stick with axes.”

“Yes, but why would I need to?” Pearl asked.

“I need to talk with Rose real quick. It should only take a few moments,”

“Okay,” Pearl said hesitantly.

Rose and Cherry went to a side room off of the main armory. “So, what did you want to talk about?” she asked.

“I know you like to think the best about everyone, but I’m worried about your plan on where to keep Bismuth. Between the metallic gems being able to relatively easily raid and get to her, and literally any double-crossing gem being able to access her, it seems risky to continue keeping her in the relative open, even with guards,” Cherry said.

Rose nodded. “That’s unfortunate. I really wished that gems could pay their respects.”

Cherry nodded. “I think safety is our first priority. We can worry about that later.”

“You’re right,” said Rose. “Thank you for bringing this to my attention. Shall we go watch Pearl train Gold and Silver?” She turned to leave.

“Wait!” Cherry said, “that’s not all. I also think we need more guards assigned. Homeworld doesn’t know exactly where our bases are, the metallic gems do. They also know we’re pretty lax on the guards. If they raided right now, it could be devastating.”

Rose turned back around to face Cherry. “Thank you, Cherry. I doubt they would raid so soon, they’ll probably try to get a base established, but I won’t deny that it’s in the realm of possibility. How many more guards do you think we should have?”

“I know it’s ambitious,” said Cherry, “but I think we should double it, at least. Our guards have basically counted on the fact that Homeworld doesn’t know where we are, but the metallic gems know exactly where we are and where everything is within the base.”

Rose nodded. “That means we’ll have to scale back on big wars and focus more on the small hit-and-run missions, but we can do it.”

“Excellent,” Cherry said. “I’ll also work on moving guards so that metallic gems won’t know where exactly everything is.”

Rose smiled softly. “Thank you, Cherry. I don’t know what I did before you joined.”

“Let’s go out, I’ll offer to take back over for Pearl,” Cherry said.

Rose smiled brighter. “Pearl loves teaching. I’m sure she’d be glad to take over so you can work on shifting the guards around, and I’ll move Bismuth.:

“I still want to offer,” said Cherry. 

“Of course,” said Rose.

Rose and Cherry went back to the armory. They watched while Pearl demonstrated swordsmanship to the other Pearls. Rose admired Pearl’s determination, the clean lines she formed with her body and the sword as she elegantly fought. She looked so serious, so passionate, and yet she looked like she found absolute joy in it. In fighting, in teaching.

Rose watched her intently. She was truly the most graceful gem Rose had met. That was, until she met Rose’s eyes, blushed bright blue, and fell flat on the floor. Rose giggled.

“Now, don’t do that,” Pearl suggested to Silver and Gold. “Rose, I wasn’t expecting you to be done so soon.”

“Are you alright?” Rose asked.

“Yes, yes,” Pearl said. “I’m fine. Cherry, did you want to take back over?”

“If you want me to,” Cherry said.

“Pearl, would you be willing to stay here while Cherry and I manage some things?” Rose asked.

“Of course, Rose,” Pearl said.

“You don’t have-” Cherry started.

“No, I insist,” Pearl said. “I love teaching other Pearls how to hold their own.”

“Excellent.” Rose said. She waved. “See you soon.”

Pearl blushed, then quickly nodded. “Right.”

Rose strode out of the room, she took a right to head to the room where Bismuth was currently located. She didn’t know quite where to put the bubble but she figured her secret armory would work quite well for the moment. Pearl was the only other gem to know about it, and if Pearl decided to turn against her, she had bigger problems to worry about. Like Cherry said, letting people visit Bismuth was second priority to making sure she didn’t get unbubbled.

She took a breath and entered the room where Bismuth was bubbled. She looked up at the bubble and felt tears well up in her eyes. This was her friend. Now she was just a rock. She was trapped. It was Rose’s fault. She could fix it. Rose reached her hands towards the bubble, then quickly withdrew them. Garnet had said that timelines where she popped the bubble were to be avoided.

But- but, fate could be changed, the future could be changed. But she thought of the hatred in Bismuth’s eyes as she tried to shatter Rose. As she campaigned for shattering Pink Diamond. She couldn’t face that again. And what if Bismuth tried to do something reprehensible again? Rose didn’t think she could bear to bubble her again.

She brought the bubble down and looked at it sadly, then gently teleported it to her armory. She felt her shoulders sink. Something about transferring Bismuth away made it feel more permanent, and all of the memories that she made with Bismuth flooded to her memory.

She headed back to the training room. All three Pearls, as well as several Holo-Pearls ,had swords in hand. Rose thought about how Bismuth had made all of them.

“Rose!” Pearl exclaimed. “Done already?”

Rose smiled. “Yes, it wasn’t long. Can I help with anything?”

“I think I have it handled,” Pearl said. “If you’d want to watch, you’re more than welcome.”

“No,” said Rose. “If I’m not needed, I’d rather deal with some personal things.”

“Alright,” Pearl said. “Maybe we’ll be ready with something you can help with by the time that you’re done.”

Rose nodded and grabbed her sword before leaving the room. She looked at the magnificent craftsmanship. It was truly a piece of art. She’d complimented Bismuth on it when it was first made, but after all of the use she’d gotten out of it, it didn’t feel like enough. Was she reducing Bismuth down to her actions? No, it’s just that her work was important to her. Rose realized where she needed to visit to truly pay her respects and honor Bismuth.

As she was heading to the warp, she was stopped by Morganite. “Rose, are you okay?” she asked.

“Yes,” Rose said. “I’m absolutely fine.”

“Sorry, I don’t mean to bother you, you just look a bit distant,” said Morganite.

“Ah, sorry,” Rose said. “Did you need anything?”

“No,” said Morganite, “I just wanted to remind you I’m here to talk if you want.”

“Thank you, Morganite,” Rose said. “I appreciate the offer, but I think I’m good for now. How have you been doing?”

Morganite shrugged. “Honestly, this anti-elite talk has been scaring me a little. I mean, I’m clearly off-color, but I still fear that if a metallic gem saw me, they’d try to-” Morganite couldn’t force herself to finish the sentence.

“No gem should have to live in fear,” Rose said. “If you want me to ask Cherry to put you on the permanent guard so you don’t have to go into battle, that’s fine.”

“No,” said Morganite. “I can also manage seeming like an elite to Homeworld. I know how helpful that can be.”

“But you shouldn’t have to be afraid!” Rose exclaimed.

“I’ll fight so that gems like me don’t have to face the fear of being shattered. I’m not nearly as scared now as when Homeworld was after me.”

Rose smiled. “You are truly incredible. I completely support you.”

“Thanks,” Morganite said, “I didn’t want to hold you up.”

“No, it’s completely fine,” Rose said. “It wasn’t anything important.”

Morganite smiled. “Well, I’m glad that you’re doing well.”

Rose smiled. “Thank you.” She turned to head back for the warp pad, this time making it without any further interruptions. She warped to Bismuth’s forge and clutched her sword to her chest.

Taglist: @suartz

#steven universe #Steven Universe spoilers #steven universe fanfic #pearlrose #pearl #rose quartz #SU #su spoilers #Su Au #su fanfic #Garnet #chapter 8 #my writing #hhhh I cannot write Garnet #Or Pearl honestly #Can I actually write? #Sorry it's one am and I cannot handle my writing at the moment #nanowrimo #Sorry if this chapter wasn't really plot related #Grr now I'm apologizing too much #oh well #sorry my tags are incoherent #writer brain

[inyourfantasyfanfics]

accidental kiss w/ illumi? before they're in a relationship please! <3

Yes absolutely! I'm kinda mad because my computer restarted in the middle of typing this so half of it was gone and I hope this re write gives the same energy as the first. GRR anyway I love Illumi

Accidental Kiss Illumi x GN!Reader

to know Illumi you have to be one of the following: A nen user, in the same line of work, affiliated with either Killua or Hisoka, or really persistent and a lot of luck

you were on the balcony of a hotel bar above a festival that was happening in the area

you were watching the festivities from afar due to the spot being perfect to watch the fireworks later in the evening, the sun was just setting upon your arrival too

soon enough you felt Illumi's presence coming toward you.

this wasn't exactly new and it also wasn't exactly normal. he did tend to invite himself to your location without telling you beforehand even though you were sure you gave him your number before

it will grow on you I promise

as soon as he was next to you on the balcony most people who were also there found their way inside, he had that effect on people. you could recall feeling that way even only a little when first meeting him

now the feeling of him next to you made you feel safer than when you were standing next to strangers only a moment ago

to him when he first met you he tried to avoid you due to feeling sick he almost thought you made him feel that way on purpose but it didn't explain how he felt even sicker after he left

(he was nervous)

that was then now his feelings became more comfortable and simultaneously more complicated. like how the pressure he always carried on his shoulders dissolved as soon as he was near you

but at the same time, he has this intense urge to add your well-being to the responsibilities he already carries.

the lights of the city below were bright now as it darkened around you both, you spoke first

"This usually isn't your scene, did you have a job?"

he didn't speak right away. sometimes he never said a word but after some consideration on his end he spoke

"A personal job I suppose"

his dark eyes bore into yours. it was enough to make a grown man buckle under the pressure. however, it made your knees weak for a whole other reason

you smiled at him and he turned to gaze out at the festival. you could hear all the noise below and from the bar inside

there wasn't much wind but there was a breeze so the fireworks would start any second

you focused your gaze off of him so you didn't see him physically relax once you stopped looking at him, he had no idea if he looked off-putting or scary and that's why you were staring, he just knew it couldn't be loving right? at the best maybe a stare of... acquaintanceship. so he relaxed a bit.

finally, the first firework went off and the show started- it was beautiful. you snuck a glance at Illumi

he looked the same if not bored or his brain could have been somewhere else

he couldn't have experienced much of this in his childhood so it's sad to not see him enjoy it now

the wind seemed to pick up rustling his hair just a bit revealing what seems to be a leaf

"Illumi-" the way he immediately turned to face you was alarming but you carried on

"mind if I get something out of your hair?"

he seemingly subconsciously leaned in for you. he usually wouldn't do this but being close to you is an alluring idea.

so you got semi-close to him and reached into his hair.

it was SOFT like silk, you easily slid your fingers through it and grabbed the leaf that found itself there

just then the wind must have blew a firework close or someone on the street decided to be part of the show because a firework went off close behind you making you jump and fall into Illumi only a little

but it was enough that your lips connected

it was a shock but you did pull away quickly mumbling an apology that he would no doubt hear.

"I uhh, got the leaf-" you said and showed your hand

he had not exactly straightened nor did he freeze up he just seemed dazed?

it hit you once you licked your lips out of nervousness

"Strawberry? ... Illumi are you wearing strawberry lip blam?"

you cracked a small smile at that

"I like the feeling of it" he replied plainly

you let out a small breathy laugh and joked "what? my lips or the lip balm?"

he definitely straightened this time and his face showed him in thought

"both." he said "...both?" you repeated like a hopeful question

"can we try it again?" his voice was so straightforward it almost sounded lifeless if you didn't know him it would have surprised you

"yes, I think we should" you finally replied leaning into him

I almost want to write this better and in short story form but I might be too lazy for that-

#illumi zoldyck #illumi x reader #hxh #hxh headcanons #hxh x reader #illumi x you #illumi x y/n #illumi zoldyck x reader #illumi headcanons #hunter x hunter #adult trio

[kakubun]

Hi! I'm not sure if this request is okay or not... but could I have some Seijoh 3rd years X a reader who's just barely 5 feet, and seems super shy at first but is actually really energetic, they just have a hard time talking to people? I've only been following your blog for a few days now, but I really love your content! 💕

seijoh third years x gen!reader

:000 thank youuuUUU, i felt like i went off topic again, sorry :((

i love you *cat noises* (also isn’t like barely 5 feet y/n’s nearly at any of the dudes’ crotch 💀 💀 )

also pray for me i have to see my homophobic english teacher almost everyday grr

i’m online on the weekdays and offline most of the time due to gadget restrictions :((, sorry for late late late written request 

you were adorable, tooru loved you :33

that means a lot of headpats when you agree with him and it would always fluster you and you would always slide your mask up to hide yourself 

PLEASE the third years adored you, you were their favourite person 💀💀 they loved seeing you go all shy at everything they do and partly bullying oikawa which you weren’t

y/n: that’s wrong though.. i thought oikawa was correct?

oikawa: seeee?? *head pat* good darling~ you defitenely know who’s the right and wrong one in the situation💫💫

of course they respected you and never went too far with their teasing, yep they had boundaries but that doesn’t mean they can’t mess with you

oikawa: y/n-chan!! you’re supposed to defend me!!

y/n: when?? you were in the wrong though??

mattsun: agreed.

makki: correct. 

iwaizumi: the statement that they’ve said is genuine and truthful.

matsuhana + oikawa were the same bozos on you every single day 

they would do random bs there and then, making the others done with them 

hanamaki would bend near your ear and ask you to pass his bottle, matsukawa would randomly hold your chin to make him face you whenever you were talking to him and not facing him 

and 

oikawa at one point wanted to take his shirt off like that one scene with suga (which i don’t understand when suga was like “hah, get used to it~” to yachi when they could’ve changed in a locker room or the club room?? like bruh it’s that simple 😎👍👍) but iwaizumi wacked his head and shouted at him to not do anything inappropriate 

and more stupidity involving matsukawa shoving you into his nasty ass sweaty chest by lifting his shirt over your head and hanamaki would wipe cream off your cheek when he purposely pushed it to your cheek  and oikawa sneaking you his fangirls’ chocolates when he couldn’t eat most of them in your bag (he loved his fangirls but it was too much to consume-)

that’s why you adored iwaizumi 

he wasn’t a piece of shit like some people- i mean he wasn’t bothered when you constantly hide behind his back 

you were.. interesting. 

you were pretty quiet and you look really reserved and soft, those thoughts were in his head when he practised his serves but what he didn’t noticed was you since he focused really hard 

you were stimming, you let out a loud woah and clapped, wiggling in your seat 

matsuhana were right at your side and stared at your reaction, holy shit you were cute when you were excited and rather loud 

you just joined the team with no knowledge of volleyball of course you’ll be amazed

well not actually no knowledge, bestie dragged you to their matches and after that you actually watch volleyball with your parents when they let out a relieved breath that you weren’t bothered anymore when they always asked if you wanted to watch any volleyball matches with them and you would join in

they thought it was out of pity but you genuinely wanted to watch it

they looked so cool, you couldn’t resist cheering for them 

oikawa noticed you cheering when you glanced back at the pair near you who were laughing and you whined for them to stop 

oh dear oikawa gushed and his best friend didn’t even noticed you and raised his eyebrow when he saw oikawa all distracted

days and weeks came by and you were suddenly bursting with energy and jumping up and down when they agreed with your strategy to perfect their game play and when they would practise and show off to you and you just wouldn’t stop getting over of how swaggy they looked 

you were pretty happy for the most part, your team fills you with euphoria over and over again and never fails to put a smile on your face 

the left you :DD everyday 

okay, here’s the thing 

matsuhana waved you over to them, wanting to talk to you and whispered to you secret agent style even though there was no need- 

oikawa’s fangirls

mattsun: do you know the unknown creatures that wait near the door at 2p.m. every afternoon??

makki: yeah, yeah the ones that are attracted to oikawa??

y/n: huh isn’t that-

you choked out laughing when you realized what both of them were referring to

of course you knew who they were

they were loud like you

but

nice 

well most of them, they would gush about oikawa but they were kind enough on not to do it in front of you often cause they knew majority of them were annoying :000

but bits of his fans, scary

fan: oh so that’s how usual volleyball practises are? gosh i would be so happy just to be near oikawa- oops sorry! 

y/n: :DD it okay

 they devoted their lives to a simp, an idiot who just loves aliens and volleyball and his friends 😔

you avoided them at every chance, the other fangirls actually protecting you ;’’’’DD but sometimes the mean ones got to you and you had a hard time defending yourself 

“you’re just a slutty whore whose all over oikawa, probably the same with the others. you probably had-” they droned on about very nasty things you would NEVER DO and some of the comments would jab at your heart and you would shake your head and run

you couldn’t hide it to the team and angrily fumed at yourself by troubling the team

oikawa didn’t wait, he grabbed your hand and asked where they were

you told him, crying and putting up your mask and facing the fans again and chills made you twitch a lot when oikawa commanded them to come over and apologized 

the fans froze, stuttering and being completely obvious that they didn’t breathed any of your air even though they did but oikawa rolled his eyes and coldly chuckle and approached them himself

you were panicking so you didn’t watch and look the other way 

it was a blur when he held your hand again and walked you back to the gym when the others anticipated  both of your presence

the team approached you and immediately trapped you in questions and oikawa cooled down and waved off that his business with the fans were finished 

you wiped the last form of your tears and tackled oikawa which made him squel and you lightly punched his chest and banged your head onto it multiple times

y/n: you’re fucking scary when you’re mad

he blinked at this and looked at you who pouted at him and he chuckled and rubbed your back when you hugged him again as a thank you 

the other members broke into chaos on how they were confused, why is oikawa getting hugged by their precious manager and saying that it’s not fair to tease y/n who was in a sensitive position and wanted oikawa to apologize 

guess everything was okay and the fans didn’t bother with you ever again

especially with your captain who bared his fangs to anyone that hurted you

#haikyuu!! #haikyū!! #haikyu x reader #haikyuu x gender neutral reader #seijoh x reader #aoba johsai #aoba johsai x reader #haikyuu x manager #seijoh #haikyuu x self insert #seijoh third years #haikyuu fluff

[little-lizziej]

"Will you talk to him?" Alya asks Marinette as she takes a seat on her chase, the soft cushions support Marinette's back as she talks with Alya.

"No" the bluenette shakes her head. "I broke them up, I'm the reason his heart got broken." Marinette lets out a sigh before lifting her legs and hugging them. "How am I supposed to even look at him?" She asks.

Alya looks at her best friend with pity, she had earlier said that out of everyone Adrien deserved love the most, but she had been wrong. She deserves it the most. Marinette deserves it the most. "It's not your fault Marinette" Alya shakes her head.

"Yes it is" She whispers, cutting her best friend off.

"No!" Alya exclaims and stands up from the chaise frustratedly. "It's Kagami's fault, yes you liked him! You loved him! But you also respected him...and her!" She yelled as she started pacing around the room. She just couldn't believe it, Kagami managed to make her best friend believe this was her fault when it wasn't.

"A relationship isn't made out of three people Marinette, and she shouldn't have talked to you about it, she should've talked to her boyfriend about it. You don't owe anything to her, he does. Because he is in the relationship"

"I was still a bad friend! Maybe I'm not in the relationship but I am her friend...and friends don't do that. I had to respect her and her boundaries because of our friendship and that's final"

"A friend?" Alya asks with a scoff. "You think what she did was friend-approved?"

Marinette stays silent, she knows Kagami was indeed a bad friend. Friends don't make them ignore their feelings or friends, they don't hurt each other. They encourage and respect each other's feelings.

Marinette shrugs her shoulders as she lets out a tired sigh. "She was a bad friend" She whispers with a nod, "but she liked him...and I know better than anyone that love makes you do crazy things"

"You also know how to love" Alya narrows her eyes at the wall as she sits beside Marinette. "You know how to love your friends"

"I think she's just confused"

"I don't care" Alya grits out, "you hate being selfish so I'll be selfish for you. You were here first, you liked him first. You loved him first"

"I don't even know what love is" Marinette cuts her best friend off. "Maybe I wasn't in love with him...maybe I just loved him as a friend"

...

"Kagami stop" Adrien clenches his jaw as he watches his ex girlfriend approach him once again. He takes several steps back and tires to maintain the distance between them.

"Adrien please!" She whines, "I-I made a mistake!"

"No Kagami!" He yells without a care about who listens. "You hurt her"

"So what if I did? She's just Marinette!"

"Just Marinette? She's the nicest and most caring girl I've ever met. She has done absolutely nothing to you!"

"She loves you!" Kagami yells and instantly regrets it. He didn't know that. Adrien didn't know that.

"No she doesn't!" The young model shakes his head in denial.

"Stop being so oblivious Adrien! Why do you think she made you that scarf on your birthday? Or why she has so many pictures of you on her wall? Or why she stutters and gets super nervous when you're around? She's in love with you!"

"She made that scarf?" He asks her unable to think about anything else.

"That's not important!" Kagami rolls her eyes and hears him approaching.

"Yes it is!" Adrien yells as he grabs her softly by the shoulders. "Kagami we are not getting back together"

"Fine" Kagami whispers after a few seconds, she opens the door of his room and looks back at him. "It's your loss anyways" she grins before slamming the door closed.

Adrien lets out a sigh as he sits down on his bed with his hands pulling at his hair. "Grr I swear if you had just let me at her!" Plagg exclaims as he comes out of his hiding spot. "I hate that girl!"

"Why do you hate her?" Adrien asks.

"She hurt Marinette, no one touches my princess" the black kwami growls. "She makes the best cheese puffs!" He adds before letting out a dreamy sigh.

Adrien stays silent, he can't help but think about Kagami's words. She's in love with you. She's in love with me. Those two sentences keep repeating over and over in his head. Plagg glances at his holder and tilts his head to the side in wonder. "What are you thinking about kid?" He asks him.

"Do you think Marinette is in love with me?" He lifts his head and watches Plagg.

Plagg's eyes widen as he takes another bite put of his Camembert cheese. He swallows before taking a deep breath, "well..."

"What?" The young model asks him with a frown.

"I need more cheese" Plagg groans. Suddenly, a shoe flies his way. Plagg dodges the shoe and places his hand on his chest. "Well someone has issues" he mumbles under his breath before letting out a laugh. "Oh I'm so funny!"

"Plagg!" Adrien exclaims.

"Ok ok!" Plagg yells as he throws his hands in the air. "I think she is in love with you...can I have more cheese now?"

"Ugh" Adrien groans, "this just complicates everything"

"I thought you already knew?"

"I knew she liked me! Not loved me!"

"Potato, poTaTo it's the same thing" Plagg rolls his eyes and shrugs. He just couldn't believe his holder was complicating things so much. If he was in this position with his Camembert he would just eat it. He wouldn't complicate his life so much.

"It's not! You don't get it Plagg, my father has never said he loved me! The only person that's said it is Kagami. How am I supposed to know how to feel?"

"You love her kid" Plagg sighs as he approaches Adrien and sits on his shoulder. "Just don't hurt her"

...

The classroom is filled with chatter as usual, only this time there is only one topic to talk about. Why did Kagami and Adrien break up?

Maybe it's none of their business, but they can't help but wonder why? And how it affected not only Adrien but a certain bluenette. To say they're worried is an understatement, said bluenette has been there for every single person in the class, even Sabrina and Lila.

It's only natural for the class to feel worried about their friend, she's always supported and helped them in every way possible. She's always been an amazing person to count on, and although they do like Adrien, the place Marinette holds in their hearts is far bigger.

"Hey guys!" Greets Adrien as he walks into the classroom. Everyone immediately quiets down and stares at him.

"Hey dude" smiles Nino and holds out his fist. With a smile, Adrien bumps his fist against Nino's. "How are you feeling dude?" Upon te question everyone listens in, eager to know how their friend has taken the break up.

"Surprisingly ok" Adrien chuckles with a shrug. Everyone lets out a sigh of relief but doesn't stop worrying. There is after all a certain designer who is yet to confirm her feelings.

"Adrien" Alya greets him with a nod, she isn't sure how to feel, a part of her is happy for him. Maybe the model hadn't realized it himself but...his relationship had started becoming toxic.

Without a doubt many had noticed, but said nothing. Their opinion hadn't been asked and Adrien looked happy. They, however, couldn't stay out of it anymore. Adrien wasn't only getting affected by this, but Marinette was too.

The young designer knew how much her friend deserved, and to see the way his own girlfriend and father treated him killed her.

"Good morning everyone!" Said Ms.Bustier  as she walked through the door. Everyone greeted her back and sat down in their respective seats.

"I'm here!" Marinette yelled as she ran inside the classroom, late true to Marinette's fashion. "I'm sorry madam!" The bluenette ducked her head as she apologized and made her way to her seat.

Because her head was firmly on the floor, Marinette didn't catch Adrien looking at her dreamily.

"It's alright Marinette just don't let it happen again" Ms.Bustier sighs knowing very well it will happen again.

"Can I talk to you after class Marinette?" Asks Adrien after he turns to look at the bluenette. Marinette's eyes widen before she quickly nods and shifts her gaze away from him. "Great" Adrien says with a grin.

Eventually the class ends and the classroom empties, "where uh...do you want to talk?" Marinette asks Adrien refusing to meet his eyes. Although it cant be further form the truth, Marinette couldn't help but firmly believe that in just a few seconds she'd be blamed for her friend's broken heart.

"I'm sorry Kagami made you feel that way Marinette" Adrien apologizes and reaches for the blunette's hand. He laces his fingers with hers as he lightly tugs on her hand pulling her closer. "I never ever want to loose you" he whispers.

"It's all my fault" Marinette mutters looking away from him, "you shouldn't be apologizing"

"It was never your fault" Adrien denies as he shakes his head. "Kagami shouldn't have done that, she shouldn't have gotten in between our friendship"

"Did you get hurt?" Marinette whispers making the model chuckle and shake his head once again.

"You ignoring me hurt a lot more than Kagami leaving me" he smiles as he grabs Marinette by the waist.

"Really?" Marinette asks finally looking at him.

"Yeah" Adrien whispers, "did you make that scarf for me on my birthday?"

Marinette's eyes widen as she recalls the blue scarf. "H-how did you-"

"So you did" Adrien interrupts her. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asks.

Marinette shrugs and squeezes his hand, smiling when the action is returned. "You looked so happy and I...I didn't want to take that away from you"

Adrien looks at Marinette with wide eyes, no one had ever cared about him so much. A warm feeling takes over him as butterflies appear on his stomach making him feel all kinds of ways.

"Do you love me Marinette?" Adrien asks feeling hopeful.

"I-I used to, but I shoved those feelings away when Kagami and you started dating"

"So not anymore?"

"No" Marinette shakes her head, "not anymore"

Adrien's stomach sinks at her words. It's such a shame he finally realized he loved her just as she stopped loving him.

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[noiwillnotdothefandango]

Bored so i'm developping on Nuit's character with some 'voice lines'

About..Hobbies

My hobbies? Well.. truth be told, between my work and our journey, i'm left with little time to myself. Back in my younger days, i regularly practiced ballet, though. Why did i stop? Agh.. you have no idea how uncomfortable standing on your toes for hours on end is..

About..Sophia

Sophia? Why are you asking??...i see. Sorry if i came off as..aggressive there. Sophia is- was my fiancé. Truth be told, i didn't have much of a choice in the arrangement. I suppose an arranged marriage doesn't sound quite as romantic does it? No, you can keep the book. It's not as though she'l need it. As long as you take proper care of it, i'm happy to let you have it, Traveler.

About..Fashion

Author note: if Nuit was introduced as a character, i think it'd be interesting that with him and his shop came some sort of mechanic relating to the outfits/gliders you can unlock in game. Perhaps you could buy some 3 star clothing with Mora? Have acess to a shop where you can buy materials to craft your own clothing? Maybe your clothes would get progressively more dirty/torn and you could freshen them there?

Welcome to L'heure de Minuit, no, the dress on display is not for sale-oh, sorry, Traveler, it's a habit. What can i do for you??

About..L'heure De Minuit

It means "midnight hour",since originally the shop was only open at night. Why? Sophia... wasn't comfortable with working during the day. Besides, a shop that only opens at night? Doesn't it sound mysterious and enticing~? Maybe.. even a bit magical? Hm. I suppose not now that it's open during the day too.

About..Inazuma

Have you visited Inazuma, Traveler? Their clothing is fascinating.. i've read so much on the intricate patterns and fabrics- it's terrible the place is shut off to visitors! I'd love to see how their clothing is fabricated first-hand..!

About..Mondstadt

The city of freedom.. it's certainly..charming, isn't it? Somewhere you always feel welcome in, no matter who you are.. it's an interesting feeling.. I miss it dearly.

About..Liyue

Ack... sorry. Liyue happens to be... a place of sour memories to me. I've been ripped off more times than i can count..! Sophia used to say i need to be more wary of people and their intentions... perhaps i can visit it again when i can get a proper grip on it..

About..Likes

There's something undeniably elegant and beautiful about butterflies.. i could never understand people who are afraid of them.

About..Dislikes

Ack.. Lafontaine is always crawling with pigeons and rats.. as far as i'm concerned, Pigeons are the bottom line of avians.. Everything about them is so dirty and gross..ughh..

About..Drinking

Mondstadt's wine is rumored to be of upmost quality.. but i must admit red wine isn't really my kind of drink. I have a hard time stomaching it, so i try to avoid drinking in general...well, i wouldn't say no to a glass of white wine if it was offered to me however.

About..Sight

Ah! Sorry-! I didn't mean to bump into ypu again! .. uh... Fischl...? Haah- désolé, désolé! It's just- with the hair color and..grr..ah-fine! I'll put my glasses on! Archon's sake..just..don't.....laugh...

About..touch

You want to know if this is authentic..? Alright, Give it here. Aahh... well, it seems right. Hm? What's that look for? You expected me to do some far fetched test? You can just tell from the feel of the fabric. Well.. if you really don't trust me...you can ask Sucrose to be sure....

About..birthday

Oh, it's that time already? Congratulations..! Ah.. i'm not good at this, am i? Apologies, birthday celebrations are not my forte.. well, that is to say i'm quite terrible at remembering them. I actually forget my own half the time.

#genshin impact oc #nuit caeruleum

[thehoneyedhufflepuff]

hey! you're one of (if not my favorite) fanfic writers, and i just love your writing style. do you have any tips? i'm struggling with writing fanfiction, and i'm currently trying to write and original novel but am having a hard time sorting out certain aspects of the plot and putting events in chronological order.

Hi there!

Apologies for taking a minute to answer this! It’s been on my mind since you sent it though. And I have to say that this is so kind of you. I think I speak for many creatives when I say that hearing your work & style is someone’s favorite is...hell, I don’t even know what to say. It means SO much, because I think we tend to be our own worst critics & beat ourselves up for the things we feel we’re lacking instead of seeing the good sometimes. So thank you so much. 💜

As far as advice...I don’t know if I’m in a position to give very good advice at the moment (I’ve just come out of a bit of a writing hiatus myself) but I will try! I actually just stopped writing for the night to come answer this ask, because words are just not working for me tonight.

So...I finished one original novel about 12 years ago (& no, it will never see the light of day LOL) (though I did get a small scene of it published in my community college’s anthology, so maybe it’s not as awful as I remember) & have considered another over the years, but I’ve gotten caught up in the hows before too. I guess the first thing I’d like to say is that getting caught up or having a hard time sorting things out is normal. (I used to think it just meant I wasn’t cut out to be a writer, that this stuff came easy to everyone else. It doesn’t mean either of those things at all.) I think that sometimes we forget how other writers struggle when all we see is their finished product, right? In reality I feel like we’re all screaming internally. Or at least most of us are. It’s not always hard, but a lot of the time it is! And that’s okay!

The closest I’ve got to writing something “original” lately is with my characterization of Dev & Niall in Between the Lines, & once BTL is done I might tinker with it to see about adapting it into a novel. We’ll see. I use this fic as an example primarily because it’s gotten so long, & I often struggle with it in terms of “what happens between this point & this one,” & because it’s challenged me a lot. I’m going to try to think up some things that have helped me as I’ve written it, & maybe they’ll be helpful for you too?

Something I think about often is how GRR Martin talks about writers in terms of architects & gardeners, which is the idea that some writers know everything that’ll happen from the start & stick to their outline (architects) while others sort of just wing it & the story grows as they write (gardener). IDK that anyone is only one vs the other, but if I had to pick I’d say I’m a gardener type. (Which is how I’ve ended up with a fic that’s nearly 200k lmao god.) I feel like sometimes not knowing what happens next keeps me from writing. Trying to “figure it out” can almost become a form of procrastination for me. So if that’s relatable to you, I’d say the best thing to do is just write. You don’t have to know everything. I’d argue that you don’t even have to know all that much. Sometimes once you start writing—& they don’t have to be good words, just words!—the story starts to weave itself. In the case of BTL, I’ve had some basic things I want to happen. We’ll call them points A — D. And while I’m trying to get from one point to the next, some stuff will happen on the side, or something wild will happen between points C & D that I wasn’t expecting, so now I have other things I need to address before moving on. Which brings me to my next point:

One of the best pieces of advice I ever saw on this site was this: a plot is a problem for the characters to solve. I’m paraphrasing. But the gist is that these solvable problems drive the story. Something I struggled with a lot when I was first starting BTL was plot. And then I realized I already had one. The plot centers around Baz’s mental health & how that affects his relationships. End goal is him & Simon living “realistically ever after” (& Dev & Niall, too!), but there are a lot of problems to solve on their way to that ending. And each problem solved leads to a new problem. (Which reminds me of that Simon quote from CO when they’re having their first kiss, lol.)

My point here is that you don’t need a big sweeping plot (unless of course that’s what you want). Everyday stuff can serve as a plot & guide you.

I hate to say this because I’m not sure it’s actually helpful, but the remedy here is just to write. I work a LOT more out by writing than I do by sitting around thinking about what to write. Sometimes the words come easy. A lot of the time it’s like pulling teeth. But they do come, & you’ll find that you’re figuring things out as you go.

Also, be kind to yourself. There was a while there where writing was ALL I was focused on. I’m currently trying to compartmentalize, because it’s almost like this story became my life. And while I do love it & want to write it & share it, I ended up overlooking other important things in my life in the name of worrying about writing. And so I am on a little journey to find balance now.

Also, it’s okay to write words that suck. Something I’ve experienced the last few days is feeling like the words I’m putting down are awful & out of character & this that or the other, BUT that’s what editing is for. It’s better to have mediocre first draft words down than no words at all. And a lot of the time, it turns out that the words I’ve written aren’t mediocre at all. I just wasn’t trusting the process while I was writing them. I was being too judgmental. Sometimes (a lot of the time) that judgment is really unnecessary. And sometimes our subconscious knows a lot more than we give it credit for.

...I feel like I’ve been rambling & I’m very unsure any of this is helpful at all, but I hope it is!

I went trolling through my blog because I know I’ve gotten asks similar to this before, but I only found one before I got tired lol (I should really put stuff like this under its own tag, whoops). I might’ve said something useful here. Also @vkelleyart shared some tips the other day that you might find helpful!

thanks so much again for the kind words!!! they really mean a lot. & i hope my answer here helps a bit. good luck with your stories!!! 💜

#writing advice #there that’s my new fancy tag for asks like this #that i’ll probs forget by the time i get another ask like this teehee. #writing schtuff #is my tag where i put a lot of writing stuff & was the tag i trolled to find my other answer #there’s...a lot under that tag because i put all my fic ask memes under it #rip #ANYWAY! #asks #THANK YOU 💜💜💜 #hope some of this is helpful #as niall’s dad would say: #godspeed.

[myvelouri]

I requested off work for today 3 weeks in advance. Sam said she was gonna come to the metal concert. But she flaked. Oh well. Fuck her I guess. Idk. But Jay came! I loved it

He's very sensitive and gets pissy. He's kind of an ahole

But we went to warehouse live to see these bands. It was for Chelsea grin. It was great

A lot of "my people" were there. Like. Alternative! Of course. SO MANY GORGEOUS GIRLS THAT ARE MY TYPE. I was in the pit and this girl looked at me and smiled twice at me. I could have gotten her number. And as you know, at these venues you get to walk around during when bands are setting up. So I walked around and there was so many fucking hot girls that kept making eye contact with me!! I was like wtf am I hot? Again? Lol! It was insane. Even after the show when I went barhopping with Jay! Girls kept checking me out HARD! PROLONGED EYE CONTACT, DOUBLE EYE CONTACT, SO MUCH!

so I met Jay's friend Maura, he met her through tinder but they're friends. They haven't ever fucked. She's actually gorgeous wtf wow how do I not get matches like that, lol. I don't actually have a tinder tho.

Anyway she was cool. Her credit card got jacked but she fixed it and figured it out. She got crushed in the mosh pit too. She's cute and tiny. We were gonna bar hop with her after the concert and we totally did. I also ran into a girl who I knew from OkCupid a long time ago. I never fucked her. But she wanted me bad. Lmao. She actually knew Maura. LOL.

I felt mean kinda just dismissing that girl. She's cool tho. Idk

Um

Lol

So I finally got buzzed and we drank at the place where Jay and maura agreed to. I started getting silly. Bunch of other people at the table they knew but slowly they left. Lmao. It was jus me, Maura and Jay left. I killed the big beer someone left for Maura. Oof. Got me good

We went to Niels bar. It's like an arcade. Well, me and Maura started getting very close. Another one of her friends added me on her Facebook earlier and Maura was like "did you get me too?!" And I gave her my phone and I have itachi from naruto as my keyboard for my phone! And she goes "omg is that an anime background keyboard?" And I said ya. And she lit up. She was so into me lol. She was hype. And she asked if I liked horror anime. She said a name of one and she said she's gonna message me the name of it! I was surprised a girl was so interested me that she even said she'd message ME? LOL. GIRLS GHOST ME. WTF? shocked. And shocked I was checked out a lot. I had my black tank top on, grey beanie, skinny black jeans and my chain. Idk. Cute I guess.

Used to be cuter.

Anyway me and Maura started joking around hard. Somehow we talked about Deftones and she loved them HARD like I do and it was easy for me to keep talking and joking with her and she was amazing. I could date her. I could totally. We are almost the same. I'm so shocked. And she's gorgeous. Oh lmao her friend made out with her. Two girls. She made out with Britney. Lmao Brit was hitting on me and Jay too. But she was drunk

Um so Jay was on the table with me and Maura and me and her were just going off together. And I think I made him feel like a third wheel but he has a girl right now... And I already asked him if he wanted to pursue Maura and he said kinda but not really but kinda. So I felt like it was unfair. I felt dumb for not getting a lot of those other girls numbers. I only meet those gorgeous alternative babes that love metal like me at these places. Godamnit I'm dumb. I was just too sober to do it.

Uh

So as I joked with Maura, called her a dork, talked about exes and everything. I tried to get her to play a game with Jay. But Jay went off and played with another guy. As I'm having a good time with Maura, Jay texts me very salty stuff like "yeah kinda hard to get with a girl when you keep saying shit to her first" and I felt bad. Guilty. But.. she was into me. I can't help that. Jay is adorable btw. But she just was into me. Cause we have a lot in common. I um

I, idk why I can't remember the specific convos. I eventually got Jay and maura playing together. I got some hot funions from the vending machine and shared them with Jay and maura. I fed Maura lol. I'm a flirt. But I tried to feed jay too to make it even LOL but he didn't want that. I started fucking with Maura and shoved a funion in her nose hahahahaha. Then a lil later another one but I said I'ma shove it in her other nostril. And then I told her to come close, and I bit it out of her nose and ATE IT HAHAHA

then I got one in her mouth and said I'ma eat it out of her mouth. I said "but hey we're going to end up kissing" and lol. I did... Idk if she kissed back much but we were both aware that Jay would be upset. Um. I only did that when Jay wasn't there btw.

I talked to her about it too.

I could have gotten with her. I want her as a friend. She's incredible. So much in common and open af!

So we drove back together in separate cars and we took care of her cause she had a headlight missing and she wasn't sober so she can't afford being pulled over. And Jay drove in front and I drove behind her. It was nice

He called me and said he's gonna have her come smoke at her place. And that was my queue to leave them. And he apologized for being salty earlier. I didn't want to ruin our friendship so I let him have her. I really wanted her. but... I don't know. It felt like the friendship was more important

So I did that.

Um

I just

I wanna see Maura again... Tbh.

She was amazing

I drove to my hometown bar and met my regulars there. I told Sherwood and he said I'm an attractive dude. Uh later they said I was hit with the ugly stick and not America's next top model. Ha.. I guess.. that sucks ha.. thank you? Lol...

Ow..

Anyway

I uh

I don't know

So many pretty babes tonight! I am stupid for not talking to any

The show was amazing though wow

I want to start a band so badly

Um

I spent way too much money this week. I'm in debt ugh.

I can't tell you how many girls gave me eye contact and smiles. Wow. It lit me up. I felt so pretty

I haven't had that since like a few years ago

I'm not super fine I guess but I'm pretty I guess. Idk. I just don't understand how attractive I am or am not. I'm so confused about that.

Maura talking about Deftones and the song sextape made me go Gaga. Lol

Um

Idk if Jay even got with her in the end. And he won't tell me

Grr

I feel dumb

I'm too nice... Too caring.

I can't believe the chemistry between me and maura. Lol.

#personal