#He deserves it but I still feel kinda sorry for him 😞

[webslingingslasher]

tw: depression

hey! i was wondering, how would peter react or take care of reader with depression? can be either nerdy or frat peter or any peter rly :)

sorry i am very much kinda really going thru it rn 😞

felt that. depression is fucking brutal, anon. i'm here for you and i hope you're taking care of yourself for now.

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you don't move when your window opens. you haven't moved for hours, you couldn't draw up enough energy to turn or eat, or breathe. the wall in front of you hasn't changed, it's been a blank slate of emptiness. just like the pit inside you.

'i know you're not sleeping.' it's teasing, your heart doesn't have it in you to perk up. you don't feel excited peter showed up, nothing could top the numbness that's burrowed its way into your chest and mind.

'you haven't texted me back all day, i was about to send a smoke signal.' your bones feel sharp, the idea of rolling over to face him stings, you think you'll shatter into a million pieces. you have nothing left to give, even talking seems exhausting.

'baby?' peter knows somethings wrong, he thinks he knows what's wrong. you had a good stretch, it had been months before the depression caught up and sent you bedrotting.

peter can't imagine how it feels for you, but for him, watching you go through this, kills him inside.

your mattress sinks, you close your eyes when peter reaches out for you, his hand on your skin is the most warmth you felt all day. it's peter; your rock, your safety net, your protector.

you think it's the first time you've talked all day. you had a permanent lump in your throat and you knew just by opening your mouth the tears would start.

but it's okay, because peter is here.

'i'm really sad today.' it's all it takes, your shoulders shake with your sobs, how could you feel everything and nothing all at once? peter's soft whispers have you curling into yourself. you don't deserve him, he doesn't deserve this.

'oh, honey.' it's full of love, his nose brushes your shoulder like a puppy asking to be pet. 'wanna give me a hug?' your voice wavers on your answer, it's raw and scratchy, begging to be hydrated, you don't think you've even had water today.

'yes, please.' your cheeks feel sticky but peter's holding you tightly, yet softly, it's like he's trying to hold you together. it's working. 'i'm sorry.' you feel bad. you should be more for him.

'don't be. i want to be here for you, and when you can only give twenty percent, i've got the other eighty. i love you. always and forever. no matter what.'

he needs to add the end, he needs to because he knows how it weighs down in your mind. how you've told him over and over it's unfair he has to put up with this and how he doesn't deserve what you bring to the table.

peter told you he's got a big fucking table and it's got more than enough room for your "mess." you don't say the silent part out loud anymore but he knows you still think it. peter would never admit it to you, but sometimes he really hates your brain and the way it thinks about yourself when your depression sets in.

it's selfish, you hate it about yourself but you need a reason to keep going.

'can you tell me how sad you would be if i died?' to anyone else it would sound morbid, to peter it means you're feeling better. peter slightly rocks you in his lap, he hums like he needs to think.

'you think you're depressed? just you wait, i'll make this look estatic.' a smile teases, he's determined to get you laughing. 'i mean it. i'd be on my knees, tears and snot all over my face, holding your hand at your funeral. i'd probably throw myself down the hole with you.'

it works, it's minuscule but you gave him a real smile and a tiny laugh. it's because you're picturing the teary-snotted face he'd be sporting and he's totally okay with that.

peter presses kisses over your hairline, he's speaking from the heart and you can feel it.

'because if you're not living, i wouldn't have a reason to either.' 

#nerdy!peter drabbles

[jisungsspams]

Perv. PJS

Warnings :Kinda dom!y/n. Dacryphilia if you squint. Name calling (maybe ? One use of slut.) Grinding. Non penetrative sex lol. Jisung is obsessed with you like It’s bad and he comes in his pants lol

NOT PROOFREAD

Author’s note: sorry if this is bad and cringe AHHHHH its my first story pls be kind 🙏🙏😞

Word count : around 1.5k

Mdni

Perv!Jisung who always snaps a pic whenever you are wearing a short skirt just so he can look at them later when he’s alone in his room.

Perv!Jisung who always make you sit in his lap just so he can feel your skin against his more.

Perv!Jisung who tries to steals your panties because he can control himself anymore but gets caught by you.

-« y/n… I swear this isn’t what you thi-»

-« You’re a fucking pervert Jisung. You’re so disgusting. »

He looked like he was on the verge of tears, yet his grip on your panty wasn’t relaxing. You scanned him and realized, he was growing hard. He was getting off to this.

-« You’re so nasty Jisung. Be honest, you fantasize about this every night uh ? »

you asked getting closer to him. He didn’t even dared to move, just letting you get closer to him. Even if he was way taller than you, he felt smaller than an mouse under your gaze. He couldn’t help it but, what you were saying made him even harder than he was by looking at your panties. His hand tried to cover his bulge but it was too late, you had already noticed how hard he was getting.

You, on the other hand, was loving his reactions, he’s so easy to mess with. Getting off to you calling him names.

-« You’re stupid or what ? Answer me asshole. »

You couldn’t believe your ears, he had whimpered. He was really enjoying this.

-« I… y/n please I’ll just leave if you want. »

He said looking at the ground.

In all honesty, he found this situation extremely hot. A quick glace into your eyes and the way you were looking at him so demanding… it was making him impossibly turned on. He hated his mind and how much effect you had on him.

-« Jisung. »

you grabbed his chin to emphasize your point, making him look at you in the eyes

-« I asked you two times already, answer me or I’ll slap you… but it’s not like you wouldn’t enjoy it, stupid perv. »

This was his breaking point. Warm tears started flooding his eyes and leaked on his cheeks. He felt like dying on the spot, he was almost coming undone in his pants. His eyes were screwed shut, not even daring to look at your disappointed gaze.

-« y/n please let me leave… I’ll never talk to you again-»

His words got caught in his throat, you had started licking his tears. You were enjoying this so much, he was crying like a baby because he was embarrassed.

As soon as he opened his eyes, a moan shamelessly escape his lips. You were looking at him so sensually and only then he realized, you were enjoying this, you wasn’t actually disgusted by him.

-« I didn’t asked you to leave… are you going to come in your pants like a stupid baby? »

You didn’t even waited for an answer to grab his chin down. He leaned in enough for your lips to brush. You smiled a bit because even in this situation, he was still so unsure of what to do. You even wondered if he had any experience at all.

Realizing he wasn’t going to kiss you first, you leaned to kiss him. It started really sweetly, almost as if none of you had experience in kissing but soon, he deepened the kiss. Jisung was so eager to kiss you, his hand quickly attaching to you and rooming your body as if it was the last time he saw you. You broke the kiss and looked at him in the eyes while trying to catch your breath. Jisung felt his entire body lit up as if a fire was growing inside of him. He could come just from touching you.

-« Jisung… don’t touch me. »

-« But y/n… why- »

You once again grabbed him by the chin and made him look at you, cutting his sentence short. Everything about him was so cute, the way he whimpered whenever you touched him, it made you want to break him.

-« You don’t deserve it. If you touch me one more time, I’m going to leave you and you’re going to have to take care of that with my panties. »

You grabbed his bulge, making him moan. You knew how much effect you had on him and you were going to play on it.

-« Get on the bed now. »

You pushed him down and got on top of him. He looked almost scared but really it was just anticipation. He didn’t knew what to do so he just kept looking at you impatiently. You started kissing him again and although Jisung tried to keep his hands to himself, he couldn’t. His hands quickly found themselves on your hips and he started grinding against you. His pleasure was through the roof, he couldn’t care about what you were saying or whatever, he was chasing his own high.

-« Jisung… stop ah- stop this. »

You looked at him but his entire demeanor had changed. His gaze wasn’t filled with shyness and fear anymore as if he finally realized what the situation was, it was filled with lust and need.

-« I can’t stop… I need you y/n. »

His voice was a tone lower than usual, filled with lust. It went straight to your core but you weren’t going to drop the dominant act so quickly. He had effect on you but you couldn’t let him get full of himself

-« If you really can’t stop, then you can get off like that. »

His movements stopped immediately. He looked at you with big puppy eyes, his usual shyness and cute manners coming back quickly, trying to convince you to let him explore you further.

-« y/n please I can’t get off just like that »

-« Yes you can, you’re almost there so and I don’t really care Jisung. You’re nothing but a stupid slut. »

As you were talking, you started grinding against the evident bulge in his pants. Maybe you were the actual pervert because you were enjoying his attempt at keeping his hands to himself to maybe get you to do more. Your lips quickly attached to one another. The kiss was heated and brief as he couldn’t help his moans. Instead you started kissing his jaw and neck. Soon enough, you found the special spot that made him whimper and move his hip up. Attacking that spot immediately after seeing his reaction, making Jisung start to feel dizzy.

Your movements were slow and you decided to set a almost cruel pace for the both of you. You were also turned on to an extent you never felt but you were never going to give him what he wanted. Jisung felt so close but your pace was just pure torture. He wanted to make you go faster but he knew you’ll stop if he touched you again

-« y/n… please let me- God- let me touch you. »

His face was almost distorted from pleasure, his moans and whimper leaving his mouth without shame. Quickly after saying this his hand came to your hair and grabbed it, making you look at him. You couldn’t hold the moan that emerged from your lips.

His facial expression’s weren’t as shy anymore, you could tell he had gained a weird burst of confidence by how you reacted. You knew you were going to cave in very soon, resisting Jisung is actually impossible. His sweet eyes yet sensual gaze made you tremble.

-« Drop the act y/n. I know you’re as close as me, go faster. »

He grabbed your hips and forced you to go faster. His change of behavior made you whimper. You didn’t expected him to take on this role due to his shy persona.

-« Jisung… y-you’re such… a whore»

You buried your head in his neck. Even with your clothes on, the friction felt so good that you felt a familiar knot forming in your stomach. His hands gripping you harder and your movements becoming quicker, you could tell the both of you were so close.

-« If I’m a whore then you’re… f-fuck… the biggest slut ever. You’re close… right. »

Jisung movements became faster, not caring about anything but chasing his own high. He wasn’t fucking you but he could almost imagine how sweet you tasted and how you’ll wrap around his length.

His words, his tone and the lust in his voice was driving you insane. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head as you felt your high growing closer.

-« Y/n… I’ll fuck you so hard… you’re not going to walk for at least a week. »

-« Fuck… you don’t know how long… I’ve been waiting for this. »

He couldn’t stop even if he wanted, he was to infactued with you. He almost felt like he could die just from looking at you.

One last nibbling at his neck and he was send over the edge. Throwing his head back and coming undo in his pants. Not even seconds after, you also came.

Not moving for a few seconds to catch your breaths, you turned around and looked at him in the eyes, laughing at his fucked out state.

-« You’re such a pervert Jisung.»

-« I’m keeping your panties. »

#nct dream smut #nct smut #jisung imagines #nct scenarios #nct imagines #nct jisung #jisung smut #jisung scenarios #jisung x reader #jisung x you

[superbattrash]

You could kith

You could

Oh ew, nope, children, I ain’t gon ship them ………. 👁️

Oh he has such an evil vibe bro wtf. HOLY SHIT HE’S LIKE. ALL EVIL???? Woah… OH. MY GOD. DID HE SERIOUSLY DO THAT? THAT IS DISGUSTING????!!!?!???

Oh 🥺 oh my god. It’s not just daddy issues… it’s. all the issues 🥺 poor bby

Aaaaand Bakugo doing a little eavesdropping, aha

“Might seem stupid?” Deku, it IS stupid compared to Todoroki’s, come on 🙄

Oh? Did I hear that correctly? Tournament?? 👁️👁️✨ my dragon ball senses are tingling

WHAT. THE. SHIT. STICK. THAT IS HELLA COOL

Oh???? OH!!! O H MY FUCKING GOD THAT IS HIS POWER HOLY SHIT SHIT FUCK SHIT OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE ALL THE ONES WHO HAVE HAD THE POWER OH MY FUCKING G O D

that is so fucking cool ok I get it now

Oh no don’t make me feel bad for you :( oh nooo, he’s just like Deku ;w; but almost better because he has real motivation lol

Aw they acknowledge him 🥺🥺🥺❤️

aaaaaand deku’s back to being an idiot XD

Does anyone LIKE endeavor??? He is AWFUL

Baby keeps saying sorry whenever he attacks. I bet his momma taught him good manners because it clearly wasn’t his stupid ass dad >:/

“I was angry is all” oh honey, my sweet baby boy 🥺

Oh sweet naive pikachu 😞 she’s clearly more than she lets on ~

Ohhhhhhh, please let her beat him just a little. Maybe not all the way but she deserves to be more than “the girl one” pls. Also bakugo would do good with a little ass whooping. Let’s see 👁️

Please don’t just lose immediately girly, I need you to NOT BE A LOSER!!!! This is so unevenly matched 😭 oh? Oh maybe not. He’s not… he’s actually taking her serious though? That’s respectful? It isn’t bullying?? HELLO

ThanK YOU AIZAWA!!!! HECK YEAH WOOOOAHHHH SHE IS GOOD!! Not great maybe but good!! If her opponent hadn’t been, yaknow. Bakugo good 😂

HE SAID HER NAME 😭 HE REMEMBERS HER NAME!!!! That has to be the ultimate sign of respect from him 🤷🏻

Oh 🥺 wow my first real feels from her…. that’s ok boo, you’ll still be a hero <3

YOU TELL HIM, DEKU!!!!! >:/

Aw, the stone and iron twins 😂

Oh come on, do you have to cry like that? JESUS NOT THIS PIECE OF SHIT AGAIN 😡 FUCK OOOOFFFFFFF… FUCK YEAH DEKU YOU TELL THIS JERK ASSHOLE WHAT’S UP

Ohhhh, the fight we’ve been waiting for 👁️ let’s see what you can do babes

You only have 10 fingers bro 🙄 whatchu gon do when they’re all broken? Oh you moron, there has to be a better way to do this… aaaaand there goes your arm. Jesus…

Oh???????? Deku, you lil sneak >:3 are you really gonna force him to use the fire? Hmmmmmmm…. That was kinda badass if yaknow. You didn’t know WHY he doesn’t use the fire >:/ that just seems rude

Oh shit there goes one arm :O like. For reals

Oh All Might, my beloved 😭 you don’t want him to lose but you don’t want him hurt 😭

You’re gonna lose if you keep asking him to give it his all, you idiot… then again. Please do 👁️✨

OH FUCK YOU, YOU’RE AN ABUSIVE ASSHOLE TOO???? FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT I WISH YOU’D DIE!!!!!!

Give me the damn firE POWER SO WE CAN SHOW THAT ASSHOLE WHO YOU REALLY ARE SWEETIE!!! IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT FUCK FACE, IT’S YOURS!!!!!!!

Awwwww they’re smiling 🥺🥺💕

FUCK. THE FUCK. OFF. THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!!!! DROP DEAD YOU ASSHOLE

WHAT

W h A T

They’re stopping the fight?!!!!?!?!!?!!

W H A T

Damn it YOU LOST???? What the FUCK

I hope it was worth it >:/

#mish watches mha #do I like this because it has actual fighting now? probably #would like serious fighting but I’ll take a tournament any day #it’s the dragon ball fan in me I suppose #shit this got long 🥲 oopsie

[bluehwale-main]

nd when I showed the paragraph to my frnd after reading ot she was like he will have even more strong feelings nd he confessed that he has a crush on me nd I kinda feel like guys only start talking to me when they are romantically interested in me

nd I told him I have a bf (lies 😁) he didn't believed me im like we jist started dating nd he was like 😞my chance is lost I will still be frnds with u even tho u have a bf im like u waiting for me to break up so thst U can date me 😭 im like ???? telling I have a connection with u md its been 3months I have first see him nd for him its like love at first sight 🥴🥴for me its like regret at first sight

:-((( guys like that deserve nothing theyre the worst they rlly don’t deserve u at all omg im gonna FIGHT them >:-((

okay im so sorry but i laughed a bit bcs ???? why is he so pathetic im crying HELPPP 😭😭 “my chance is lost💔😞” LIKE WHAT CHANCE BRO NO SPOT WAS OPEN FOR U AT ALL mans was talking abt a chance as if u’d give any to him atp its so embarrassing woops anD REGRET AT FIRST SIGHT SHHSHSHSHSHSHS u’re so real for that one i also regret knowing men exist

#answered #also isnt it so frustrating tht we alWAYS have to use the reason ‘oh i hv a bf’ to be taken seriously by guys???? #like #they cant respect us for not wanting them but they can respect other men by not going after their gfs its sick 😭😭

[chrisbangs]

hi li I hope you're doing okay (obv not and I mean that in the NICEST way possible) I'm sorry you're going through so much shit with men and your mom and jobs :/ my abusive ex called me the same girls name twice when I was in my....relationship/situationship with him so! That was cool and he definitely fucked me up in more ways than one. As for the other stuff, I've been unemployed for a month now (for the second time this year!!!!) so I feel like my degree is useless and I'm doing something wrong cause all my friends are either in grad school or have stable jobs lmao 🙃 and then. my mom told me to smile more in public the other day so that men would talk to me but!! She still doesn't know that I'm a lesbian!!!!!! Lmao. Maybe this is weirdly personal and out of nowhere but I definitely still read your text posts and think about you so I guess I just want you to know that you aren't alone in having an especially Bad Time rn. But yeah. I love seeing your posts on my dash and I do read your tags and I hope things can start to work out better for you soon, you definitely deserve better. I hope this ask isn't too weird but I just wanted to send you some love 💕

dndkdmdmdmd 😞💗 it wasn't weird at all and i appreciate you and your kind words so much you have no idea!!!! sjsjksksks i feel like we're living the same life atp this is literally mirroring my life almost exactly 😭 i get you my dude... and i'm sorry you're going through some shitty stuff rn 🫂🤍 i really hope things do change and get better :(

honestly it's kinda crazy when everything sucks and nothing makes me feel better like damn 🫡 gonna just keep taking Ls and for whatttt like what's the pointttt 🤷‍♀️ it's just insane to me...

in any case 🫂🖤 this is me sending u a hug bud... i hope you're doing ok... perhaps we won't feel miserable forever but at least in any case i am rooting for you!!!

#😓💗 #gah... that's so much to go through i get it... #nothing is going right anymore in my life lol #like i wish i was joking but photocards are the only thing i hold onto as my joy in life #i literally have 0 reasons to be happy anymore jendkdndkdndkd #sounds insane but 😎 damn the only time i'm happy is when im flipping through my silly little binders or #when im drunk or when im on a 2 hr bus ride with my headphones in listening to my favourite podcast (distractible) and no one looks at me #i feel so . unwell........ jendkdndkdndkd #i had to really think abt stuff recently and #i just feel like . empty ya know ... #🤷‍♀️ my life has no meaning i have no reason to live etc etc blah blah blah #getting used by some guy cause i have 0 self respect has only made me realize how little i care abt anything in life it's so insane #I FEEL SO EMPTY!!!!!!! i'm just like... i'm really just some shell of a person #idk idk!!!!!! i don't wanna be me i don't wanna be alive my life SUCKS.!!!!! #it's fine omg i'm so dramatic but also i don't have anywhere that feels good.. i have no one that makes me feel safe anymore !!!! no place #that i get to be happy in... everything is either guilt inducing or trauma reminding or whatever u know #like i just . i have nothing 👍 and that that... #i feel very alone ! and very tired and .!!/!&/&/&/!/! idk... like i genuinely don't care much about anything anymore... #i guess it's fine like this is my life this is normal this is how i've lived it for so many years but #i've never felt so lonely before i guess... 🤷‍♀️ but guess who did that to themselves 😎👍 #jsnsksnsksks so it's my fault i'm the issue as usual... whatever hdjdjdkd i'm so insane and dramatic i hope i dieeeeeejjdndkdkd #ANYWAY. i love u . thanku for being so nice to me idk what i'm saying but you are wonderful and :( i hope everything goes up from here for u #anon #answered

[giannitaa]

ASK: heyy!! can I request when jjk boys have a very understanding partner, like when they come home from work and they're just really tired and accidentally lashes out on their partner and then goes inside their room.

then a few moments later he comes out thinking their partner is angry, but their partner is just like, "oh don't worry about it, you were tired." so he's just like "don't ever let me speak to you like that ever again, okay? hit me if you have to."

hope you understood that, thank you 😭 and can you specifically put gojo in?

a/n: hey anon!! this is actually my first request ever😭 i'm kinda nervous lmao. i hope you like and i reached your expectations 😞. sorry if there's any misspelling or any preposition wrong, i HATE prepositions as a non-native english writer and i don't know how/when to put them.

characters: gojo satoru (i'm gonna do more by the next week, but now it's just gojo)

warnings: nothing, just satoru screams at you. fem!reader (i still don't know how to write for male!reader, sorry)

content: your boyfriend comes tired from their job and he is mean to you when he gets home (angst [if you are a little bit sensitive, like me]/comfort).

w/c: 0.5k (aprox)

GOJO SATORU

you are sitting on the couch reading a book, waiting patiently for your boyfriend. you had texted him "what do you want for dinner?" because you know that when he shows up he'll be tired, he will just want to shower, eat dinner and then go to sleep with you.

then you hear the sound of the door opening and keys being thrown at the furniture that's next to the entrance. he looks exhausted. by the look on he face you notice that he obviously needs to rest. you get up to hug him.

"heyy! you haven't replied to my text, so i haven't done anything. what do you want? i'm going to start cooking it right now." you say, while you take off his jacket.

"cook whatever you want. now please, shut up. jus' leave me alone, i'm going to shower. don't come."

"huh? are you okay 'toru? has anything happened today?"

"i said, don't talk!! i jus' need to be alone!!" he angrily says at you.

"okay then, go to shower. when you get back dinner's gonna' be ready"

he steps to your room furiously, and you hear him slamming the door. you sigh, knowing that probably he had an extremely rough day and he doesn't want to be with anyone. that's okay, that happens to you a lot of times, even though you don't react like this.

you open the fridge and grab some vegetables and meat. that's when you start hearing the sound of the water running down.

satoru feels his heart rip apart when he remembers how he treated you five minutes ago. you don't deserve it. you are probably the only person that treats him with love, appreciation.

he feels his eyes forming little tears, but he doesn't want to cry. the water helps his body relax and make his muscles being less hard. satoru gets out and he dries himself. he steps out of the room when he already got on his pajamas. whatever you were cookin smelt so good.

you feel an arm wrapping around your waist.

"'m sorry" you feel gojo say that in the crook of your neck.

"'s okay, i get it"

"i yelled at you. you're the most precious thing i have. i should not have done that." he kisses your hair, while he says repeatedly that he's sorry.

"the next time i appear like that, in that shitty mood, yell at me or get angry. you don't deserve this treatment"

"no. i will not do that. 'toru you have to understand that it is completely normal being stressed"

"that doesn't justify why i talked to you in that way"

"anyway, let's just eat dinner 'cause i'm starving"

"yeah, and then go to sleep. i need to rest immediately, and you need it too."

you smile because you know he is really sorry, even though it didn't bother you.

this is horrible, sorry anon😞

want to read more? -> gia's masterlist

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[dylanconrique]

hey everyone, just a little update.

i'm typing this out to assure those who i have made worried in light of my previous post. and i would also like to give my most sincerest apologies to those who have commented, or messaged me personally such lovely, heartwarming messages in my time of need, as i know i have left you waiting to hear from me and in hindsight may have worried you even more.

i made that previous post while i was alone in my car in an abandoned parking lot while in the midst of a manic bpd epidsode (as i call it anyway) and after pulling an all nighter at the hospital the previous day/night when i was found by an officer trying to sleep in my car at a different parking lot that i didn't realize was next to a baseball field that closes at 10pm. (i was also heavily contemplating taking my life that night as well when he found me and i just kinda broke in front of this poor man cause i thought i was going to get into trouble with him now, but he was so kind as to persuade me to go get professional help).

after all that and returning home this morning at 8am, i managed to get only a few hours of sleep and then got into another violent argument with my mother and ran out of the house again to contemplate taking my life for a second time in a row in two days. that was when i made that post. i didn't check my phone battery before leaving so it died while i was still out at this parking lot and then i just kinda.... passed out in my car after i had sufficiently ran out of tears to cry????

i didn't come back to my house till i felt like i absolutely had to cause it just doesn't feel at all like a home to me. by then it had been a full two days since i last ate anything. so i made a super late dinner, and it took me a lot longer than usual cause like i said, i hadn't eaten anything (i starve myself subconsciously when i'm stressed) and thus had no energy which took me till about 1am to actually finish making my meal.

it is now 1:45am and although i want more than anything to reach to my darling friends personally and let them know how grateful i am to them, i have been awake for 24+ hours and i can't physically stay up any longer.

i am so deeply sorry to have been such a burden today. 😞💔 i love you, and i thank you all for the tremendous support, i really don't deserve it sometimes. 🫶

#*and this is icarly! #*personal update #tw: suicide mention #tw: self harm #sorry for ranting #i always feel like i have to explain myself so people don't get mad at me #have a good night and sweet dreams

[whumpy-days]

Slasher (!!Spoilers!!)

Slasher 1x08 - "Soon Your Own Eyes Will See"

The Executioner becomes the executed.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

#Slasher TV #Cam Henry #Sarah Bennett #Steve Byers #Katie McGrath #blood #bleeding from mouth #pain #grimace #stabbed #held down #revenge #throat cut #throat slit #this is seriously the most attractive death I've ever seen #He deserves it but I still feel kinda sorry for him 😞 #Steve Byers whump

[hoarsedevours]

so 2521 team really did that cliffhanger and expect me (us) to go on our days completely sane?????????????? ??????? when I am trying so hard into not reading their relationship as romantic????? convincing myself that they're just an example of a hetero wholesome relationship???? ??????? i actually succeeded quite well...ahemmm. Indeed, their relationship is very wholesome and btw a loud shout-out to yijin for not making things weird that would make things kind of creepy. i've seen it happen in age gap kdramas👀 and heedo i'm sorry if i am not taking your crush on yijin very seriously. it's cute but your bond with him is much more more more more special <3 kinda jealous ngl

..........👀 not to sound like a very much super gay person who projects on pieces of media on main but heedo and yurim is really going all out with their lesbianisms. the full extent of their LGBTQIA+ power! wew you go girls!!!! I think the majority of this episode is dedicated to the kinda alternate universe of 2521 where it is a lesbian coming-of-age drama and the leads are starting to come out from their rival era and gradually inching to the long-awaited lovers period. is this queerbaiting...or am i just projecting? my brother who is watching over my shoulder told me there's nothing to be giddy about in the whole lovery-dovey documentary shoots.... lollll

however, our favorite hetero couple would not permit their moments be outshined by the sword-wielding bisexuals whose one half of the latter duo is ironically also the other half of my favorite hetero couple. wowwwww a screaming shout-out that can still be heard in outer space to the 2521 team, especially to the screenwriters who wrote this drama!!!! you ma'ams and sirs deserve a kiss on the mouth, platonically of course. i am in aweeeee of the main lead's dynamics. there is no gaudy love triangle involved! (except the one that i've created in my head; a bisexual loves both girl and boy and the girl she loves also loves (?) a himbo and the himbo loves her in return and also his bestie who is with him since birth and the bestie respects the first bisexual's boy and the main boy loves them all btw. wow i don't trust my mind) a very organic webs of relationships! legitimate friendship! besties forever! ohhhhhh the next episode will be so much funnnnn!!!! focusing the spotlight again on my favorite hetero pair, heedo and yijin's relationships in this episode is slowly blurring the line.....however, it is done in a way that feels very natural. and cute. don't forget the cute that i have to pause the video to scream my lungs out or to slap the table like i'm in a rowdy bar to bet on something or someone. poor table and poor lungs but for yido i would destroy😞

---"You said to had to have me and I was wondering how." 😆😆😆😆😆 banger #1

---"Don't you have any faith in me?" "What am I to you?" "Have faith in me" bangers # 2, 3, and 4 but also yoooooo yijin's lines remind me of the questionable tv and radio dramas that I grew up watching and listening😆in which that lines are usually uttered by an unrepentant fuckboy who is deceiving yet another innocent victim in the game of love or a main male lead who is promising his lady love of being faithful to her always wherever he goes ksdjlkjslkgjdlksjg

---"Don't avoid me again, I won't forgive you"

"I guess you hated it."

"The word "hate" doesn't even begin to describe it"

hall of fame #3667 in the 2521 investigation department for making my mind drown with thousands of theories🤡 who left who? who left first? who's the "heartbreaker"? what the fuck actually happened???? lots of question markssssssssssss

---when he said "her left side"sososososo quickly👀 keeping an eye on her more than often, bro? memorizing her face? just in case? you leave? for good?

---the "look at me" one 🥺

---the heedo living in yijin's head rent free exhibit #3

---their moments in heedo's living room 😍🔫 won't start thinking of the logistics of their relationships now when heedo is even more confused and yijin is of no help. not that i want him to help though. the responses he's been giving is perfect until he said that damning "It's love. I love you, heedo. I don't need a rainbow." asfadsfgsadjhasbdbajshvdja jfshjgah😍😍😍👀🤡💀😭😬🤩💕❣ i don't fucking know what to do with myself that i called out lord many times!!!! lord or whoever is in charge in the sky must have crossed out the tally under my name several times and said "this girl seems to be excited of being reunited with her creator once again" i know this is so christian of me, i'm sorry non-christian or atheist citizens of the world. if it helps, i only draw on the religious teachings for non-religious purposes most of the time, if not always 😂

--- the color grading in that last scene in this ep is so pretty!!!! i suddenly remembered the near-death scene in the Black Butler live-action film. loooooordddddddddd. and yijin have to say that "you have a knack for leading me to a good place" and not expect me to interpret this as a death foreshadowing. hello? it's called rest in peace for a reason💀 nonetheless, the yijin is still alive in 2022 agenda is still solid in my mind but i am also open to possible...... realities👀💀

---"you made me do what was right for a reporter to do"👀 uhmmm....is this....it? heedo committed something realllllllly bad that yijin must report it? ???????? ????????

---the feral yijin mode when heedo was injured?????? (top notch! one of my favorite tropes everrrrr!!!!!) 🥺 that he went up against the producer?! not going to lie, i am expecting a "you're fired" or you're out" line from the producer but I guess i just had too much melodramatic and frankly exaggerated mexican and spanish and sometimes indian dramas😭. Him insisting that they must go to the hospital? them riding together in that red sports car again? natural wonders of or world #9832

diverting from my favorite homo and hetero duos, this episode shows why i don't hate yurim. i remembered writing that "i feel for her" in episode 7 and i still stand by that. she is relatable...to me... to the children who are raised as a member of an economically-challenged household. who have learned to ignore their wants because the money is to be used for something more important. to strive harder because failing is never an option. not when you don't have any fallbacks. it's like that when you're a poor girl btw guys in case i am reading opinions from rich people. middle-class counts as rich😡 of course her emotional outburst is not really acceptable but at this point i'm becoming more of a yurim apologist so i won't elaborate...... and feeling for yurim doesn't equate to disliking heedo or not sympathizing with heedo. our society grew past the need for looking at things from a binary glass. unless i tell it so.

yurim's mother......wow i am such a judgemental bitch when I WAS READY TO THROW HANDS WHEN SHE ASKED HEEDO IF SHE WAS THE ONE WHO BEAT HER DAUGHTER AND TOOK THE GOLD AND WHEN SHE SUDDENLY HUGGED HEEDO I FELT LIKE A STRAY CAT WHO'S BEEN TREATED WITH LOVE AFTER A LONG TIME!!! AHHHHHHHH😭 mrs. ko adopt heedo pleassseeee and ms. shin would just send the child support.....loll....just kidding....unless??? yes, so they showed ms. shin with that kinda undignified pose as an act of making amends with her daughter...whatever she's still in my hitlist🙄🙄🙄

Presently, i am very much tempted to try divination in knowing what is the ending but i have to stop myself. maybe tomorrow i'll run 2521's natal chart😭😭😭 or do tarot. i actually already tried shufflemancy which has been mostly accurate for me. i asked if yijin and heedo's married currently btw and the songs are positive. but idk it's for a show and it's not my energy so i won't put a significant weight on it😭 if u read this part, no u did not

#2521 #twenty five twenty one #more spoilers under cut #that photosynthesis quip---banger no. 67546 from my favorite coach xD #'i am lonely and struggling' yurim my child same here #heedo ranked higher than noth jiwoong and yurim #wait till yijin knows this fact xDDD #kinda remembered the collide OST from one tree hill when heedo came in the interview studio. memories.... #'i want to crawl into a hole and die. my mind's completely blank' a fucking mood #thank you yijin for setting an example for adults on how to treat a teenager's crush! not the last bit thought. that was suspicious👀 #after this week---there will be six eps remaining #shittttt how would they squeezeeeeeee #so soft everytime yido shows in their own unique ways of supporting and loving and caring for each other. keep doing that and i might die #of envy