#He's shitless just because

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[primarinite]

Carracosta and Dalia, 13 (roleswapped)?

became way too attached to this au lol

#pokemon #pkmnart #pkmn #pmd #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokemon super mystery dungeon #psmd #pmd ocs #seedot #tirtouga #simipour #braixen #oc: zaya #grovyle #oc: dalia #my gf and i were discussing how different character roles would be swapped and i kinda figured ampharos/simipour would be interesting #though tbh i don't think the bad at directions gag works as well with ampharos being a principal that doesn't really go anywhere #i think simipour is funny either way because whether he's the principal of a school or leader of a well-respected organization #he's always stoned off his ass #and we thought about having the school kids replace the beheeyem. which was funny because my gf imagined them evolved. which makes sense if #you want them to be threatening. but i was imagining them still in their base forms and seedot being scared shitless and having to run away #from a shelmet and a goomy at the beginning #anyway you will NOT comment on how awkward tirtouga's face looks. i am aware. i am never drawing that thang again #also realizing now that this was less about dalia and carracosta in particular and moreso just general roleswapping stuff so. sorry

[coulsonlives]

Re-reading the comics and I totally forgot how dark they are

#zuko #zukaang #aang #atla zuko #atla aang #atla #avatar the last airbender #the promise #unpopular opinion maybe but i loved how nothing in this book was cut and dried and how everyones' trauma came back to haunt em #progress isn't linear so i don't mind zuko's behaviour here #he suddenly has a lot more pressure on him and he's obviously scared shitless he'll do the right thing etc. like shit just got real #super sad #aang didn't want to kill ozai but idk he was just being a friend to zuko here because zuko asked it of him #aang was obviously conflicted BUT he also wanted to uphold his duty to the world #which zuko totally sold him on and used as an argument for aang to honour the promise. #i can totally see that happening #i loved the ending too how zuko turned out to be right all along and it was the generational trauma that just convinced him he wasn't right #like is some of the characterization/plot contrived? sure totally! but wow i'm shocked to see how ice-cold the overall reception is #@tumblr stop messing w my tags and sticking them in the post body omg #atla spoilers

[xserpx]

‘Maybe I’m the better brother,’ said Calder, ‘but you’re the elder.’ He brought his horse up close, and he pulled their father’s chain from his pocket and slipped it over Scale’s neck, arranged it carefully across his shoulders. Patted him on the back and left his hand there, wondering when he got to love this stupid bastard. When he got to love anyone besides himself.

— The Heroes by Joe Abercrombie

Bayaz had been right. You don’t get to be a king without making some sacrifices.

#the heroes #the first law #joe abercrombie #calder #scale #there's something about the way calder sacrifices the chain itself that cements him as my 3rd favourite character in the series #like on one hand it's all about family and he's soft at heart #but otoh there's an edge of calder's intelligence & self-preservation in the decision that is just so HIM #calder knows his limitations & he has a steely rebellious streak #and i think he's able to step back from his own fear and analyse bayaz's strategy #and he realised that for all bayaz scared him shitless he doesn't have calder's measure #all bayaz sees is ambition & a rivalry between brothers (because OF COURSE he does) #when the reality for calder is much more complicated #he DOES resent his brother deeply there's a lot of trauma there but he's also fiercely fucking loyal to his family #he knows it's a weakness and i think he's incapable of letting anyone - even bayaz - take advantage of that #mostly it's just really heartwarming but it's also fucking badass #idk how to describe it #it's like loki & thor turned up to eleven

[krafterwrites]

You know looking back on it, I think the cursed ring was just my brother pranking me

#After I discovered it in my pocket he said ''One of us should stay with it and watch it to make sure it doesn't move'' or something similar #And at the time I thought it was just because he was scared shitless of it #But it could also be him making it so that he didn't need to try and reverse pickpocket it onto me any more #He also seemed weirdly nonchalant when I suggested getting rid of it by flushing it down the toilet #He wasn't like ''No that won't get rid of it it'll come back'' he was just like ''Dude that's stupid'' #You'd think if he really was terrified of it he wouldn't be so against an attempt to get rid of it #Krafter Talks

[chipistrate]

You see that theory going around on Twitter about Gregory being innocent in the main ending?

@/TheJ_Pro on there has a pretty detailed thread about it if you haven't heard it.

YEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHYEAH I SAW!! MY SON!!! MY SON IS INNOCENT!!!!

Honestly I think he's valid in his actions whether he did it or not considering the situation he was in at that moment- but after hearing the evidence of him not doing it, even outside of that thread, I'm definitely leaning more on the side that it wasn't him.

#Chip Chatter #ruin spoilers #fnaf ruin spoilers #fnaf sb ruin spoilers #security breach ruin spoilers #my son is my son no matter WHAT he does #he's already killed one of his friends before (although not of his own free will) I can forgive him for doing it again. #HE WAS IN A TOUGH SITUATION AND HE WAS SCARED SHITLESS AND IF IT REALLY WAS HIM TALKING THEN HE FELT BAD ABOUT IT TOO LIKE AUGHURGHIUJERFGR #I'm sorry Cassie I promise I love you so so so much but I have to defend my son always and forever it's like my whole thing right now #GREGORY GET BEHIND ME!!! #Though I doooooooooo prefer if it wasn't him because I have some shit cooking right now....................... (AU crafting) #but look- my boy FINALLY escaped the Pizzaplex with his found family (mostly) in-tact and he does NOT want the creature that tormented him- #-and his family for so long to escape and he was SCARED and had to make a TOUGH DECISION and I will forgive him no matter what if it was- #-really him. #BUT THAT GOT OFF TOPIC!!! I DON'T THINK IT WAS HIM ANYMORE LMAO but I'm just saying that if it was him I love him anyways

[kennabeth]

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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people #but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him #then their love for him might as well not exist #and thats how most people love. it's not wrong. #he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally #up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience #so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive #--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him #which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series #if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same #anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling?? #and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway #that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives #(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end #but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping) #ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless #'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them #fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used #and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him #I'm so tired #and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting #because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving #i hate it here #also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy #repression go brr #says kenna #kenna reads rote #ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind #what the hell!! #one flesh one end bitch!!

[csoisoi]

my neutral existing is gone im happy and smiling again

MY JOY

IM SO HAPYHCHEHVHKYK

please im so happy seeing the first years

de man was unexpected but its a verY WELCOME APPEARANCE I MISS HIM

#pulu and ronron makes a new appearance and call sabnock papa #i miss those two sm #its just rlly sweet i love them #theyre so cute #yabashi making an appearance threw me so off guard but i was so happy #im curious as to why he chose this batra? is it because of clara? #also i want to see him interact with march-sensei. theyre cousins and march seems fond of him but yabashi hasnt said anything abt him yet #i wonder if hes scared of him bc ngl if my cousin was a torture arts teacher. id be scared shitless #his beanie is so cool too. it makes me wanna try to diy it but i neither have a beanie or the fabric to make it its <//3 #ive been on a hypothetical diy spree but all ive made are too many pins and one phone charm strap thing #hes just rlly cool. very fashionable now that i take a second look at him. very gender tbh #chacha wondering where kerori was was very cute #pheene not being opposed to joining camui's batra was very nice and the sudden change to her hunting him down upon seeing was very funny #demii and allocer seemingly talking in the library too it was very cute #the misfits as second years and taking care of their underclassmen is very cute and i love it #the series is all about relationships familial platonic or otherwise #the dynamics present and how expansive the demon world is with all the new characters and designs #i just love afdsgbgdjlfg mairuamsdgf #ok thats it #mairimashita iruma kun #mairimashita! iruma kun #m!ik #mairuma #welcome to demon school iruma kun #welcome to demon school #iruma kun #csoi posts #csoi talks too much in tags

[mad-hunts]

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #guess who's headache went away!! woop woop #ALSO * bangs my credit card on the table * THIS... THIS IS WHAT I WANT #i want someone to scare him shitless. and in a southern gothic / urban setting. i know that is awfully specific BUT #whenever barton is SCARED of someone else? you know they're pretty bad. ESPECIALLY when he feels the need to run away from them. #and i just... i want to explore that with someone. please 🙏 #it is the next day however so it took a while for my headache to go away. buttt at least i can say it's gone :D #also just to be clear... i just think it would be interesting bc i've never had the chance to do an rp with him scared of someone. #so i swear i'm not saying this to be messed up or anything JSJSJ It just got me thinking about- #another villain that is to introduced in my canon that legitimately seems to unsettle barton and that is because she is... well- #she's the daughter of an extremely messed up guy that he killed?? so likeee ☠️ her methods of getting vengeance on him mayyy be- #slightly scary??? IDK but i'm just thinking about it now 🤔

[lord-shitbox]

one day ill post an essay about sugihara's praise kink but for now you guys gotta trust im right. say 1 nice thing to this man and he is on his knees

#sugihara kei #ygtb #kumichou musume to sewagakari #listen he spent his youth being made to feel that he wasnt good enough and he ran away from home because of it #he did things that were wrong because it's how he got praise/validation #some flaky scary emo dude from the fucking mob stops by and tells him the tea tastes good (because he's scared shitless) & he immediately #fucking joins a life of organized crime. ''even if it's just to make tea please take me in'' OOOOHHH YOU WANNA BE PRAISED SO BAD #I SEE THAT SHIT. FUCKER. #he seems pretty stable! still wants to be important / important to other people (see making friends w yaeka) #but liek trust me guys this is the most shakign down bad motherfucker on the planet #I NEED TO GO PULL OUT THE SCENE WHERE AOI GIVES HIM HEADPATS BECAUSE. BECAUSE #if i wrote fics for this series you guys KNOW i would have sugiharas praise kink tag id have like 5works about it. i SEE THAT LOSER BASTARD

[the-acid-pear]

I honestly wish i could feel as bad as your average joe feels about snowgrave bc i really wasn't, as traumatized as some ppl imply they fucking are. About Noelle, at least. Her side of the tale just didn't hit me that hard at all. I guess it's the way people paint it like YOU'RE FORCING HER TO KILL when it's, true but it's, idk, more nuanced. I still shat my pants over my two sigmas (Pink Addison and Berdly) dying tho.

#luly talks #jk berdly isnt a sigms #he cares about others way too much #pink is 100% one tho they are my sigma enby etc #spammy ALSO made me supah sad #but when DOESN'T he? 🤣 #like i love this route and i love noelle but i wasnt scared shitless or shaking on my boots like omg how could i do this... #because i mean. it's just the fact that we aren't forcing her but pushing her foward #she's not a weak poor little girl being manipulated she can kill and she should kill like #i feel bad about noelle but i don't feel pity. am i making sense or am i coming across like a jerk? #deltarune

[pepprs]

my dad might have fucking covid. about to jump off a bridge

#purrs #he was unmasked in my future room with the contractors yesterday and one of them woke up sick this morning and stayed in bed all day and now #my dad is feeling sick and my mom isn’t even better yet and i just saw so many people (WHO ARE VULNERABLE / HAVE VULNERABLE FAMILY MEMBERS) #in the last couple of days and now i might have exposed them. i am about to LOSE my shit. i need all respiratory diseases to die immediately #i am TIRED of living in constant fear. and i am FURIOUS at my dad for not wearing a mask. #like do you people NOT FUCKING GET IT. You may be cavalier. you may say you don’t care if you get it you can fight it off. BUT YOU INTERACT #WITH OTHER PEOPLE. who may not WANT to get sick. Who may not be able to DURVIVE getting sick. WHAT IS SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND. if you see #someone wearing a mask they are doing that FOR A REASON!!!! TO PROTECT THEMSELVES!!!!! TO PROTECT THEIR LOVED ONES!!!!! so fucking WEAR ONE #OUT OF COURTESY! USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN! i don’t care if they’re hard to breathe in. I don’t care if they’re uncomfortable. I don’t care if #it’s your own house and you’re not used to it. SUCK IT UP. you can be uncomfortable for five minutes. you KNOW how anxious we all are about #getting covid and you DIRECTLY endanger us and now i might have put other people in danger. and i didn’t even choose it I didn’t do anything #wrong. FUCK COVID. fuck this collective punishment nightmare. I am SO TIRED of living in constant fear because OTHER PEOPLE want to pretend #it’s over. it fucking ISNT. there are things I care about. there are people I care about. and if you were a decent fucking human being you #would understand that and MASK UP. not everyone gets to be so glib about it. it’s hard enough being seen as fucking insane and still taking #damage from having basicaly 0 social life because im too afraid to go anywhere or do anything it’s harder when people around me who i can’t #help but interact with exhibit that they do not actually care about how it is improtant to me that i do not get sick or get my loved ones #sick ESPECIALLY when it is my loved one himself who KNOWS how scared shitless we all are. it fucking hurts so bad. fuck covid. FUCK covid. #delete later #like. despair. i can wear my n95 mask all i want but i am still fucking HELPLESS when people around me don’t. despair. DESPAIR.

[kissmefriendly]

Got my mother and my little brother staying with me soon. On the one hand, brilliant, I haven’t been in the same room with both of them at once in years. On the other, holy fuck how. In my place? It’s tiny! Someone is sleeping on the floor for a week and the other two are sharing a bed. I’ve never wanted to sleep on the floor more in my adult life.

#holy fuck could they not have scheduled this a little better? #also cannot wait to get shamed #for what? anything. it’s fair game. #a week’s worth of ‘you’re just being lazy’ and etc. #a week worth of name calling and transphobic slurs hurled at me #mainly from my mother who is staying much longer than a week #a week of never feeling safe because if I forgot to hide just ONE piece of paper or just ONE ticket to an event or ANYTHING #I could get re-outed as trans to them and my mother might actually kill me #I’m so scared lol #and my brother and I only JUST began talking again this year #before that the last time I saw him in person he was whaling on me #nearly broke my collarbone and hit my head against the tiles so badly it briefly knocked me out #I am happy that we’re back on speaking terms #but I admit I’m a little scared shitless #these two are (mostly in my mothers case) bearable ON THEIR OWN #I don’t think I can take them both at once #starting to feel like the city from a Godzilla vs Mothra film #YIKES. #doesn’t help that with my heart condition I can’t clean for as long or as well as I used to #they’re gonna rip me apart for that. ‘I LITERALLY have a debilitating heart condition I can’t stand without fainting’ #’you’re just being lazy. sheer laziness. just drink some salt you’ll be fine it’s not a big deal’ #I FAINTED TODAY JUST VACUUMING ONE ROOM! #anyways

[transingthoseformers]

Imagine this in the most metallic tone possible but I'm just over here repeating "Ah, yes, No."

Wow I do not like Sunder do I

#mtmte sunder #maccadam #transformers #comic reading #so remember how i say i don't tend to hate characters #yeah no i heavily dislike sunder he scares the shit out of me #which means he does his job well #because he's meant to scare you shitless #update: i forgot to post this #i probably had to go to the store and just tossed it into the drafts #i still am terrified of sunder

[pagesofkenna]

oh also i meant to be keeping a running tally of times Andhera has rained:

in the Hart Hunt when Binx told them they were smart (Omar says he rubs the back of his neck and his hair gets a bit damp)

while interrupting the duel (Omar straight up says 'he has this elemental gem, its raining and thundering')

(as of episode 3)

#rewatching the season because i couldn't stop myself #i intend to edit this post later #I'm trying to figure out what the storm during the duel was about. omar literally tries to pass it off as #'this is a thing he is doing intentionally' #and part of me feels like yeah andhera IS doing that intentionally #but idk if thats 'this goes off when im emotional OR if i activate it' #or 'this goes off when im emotional so when i want it to work i just have to work myself up' #eta ok in ep4 andhera says to hob that he was 'scared shitless' during the duel

[walkingintheamm]

the way I've been freaking out the whole day about a situation that is honestly not that serious but involves a very untrust worthy perso n from my family

#my cousin asked me if I wanted to tutor her son #and just told me he could on monday's and tuesday's in the morning #and nothing else #no place #no specific time #and I sent her text and she didn't respond #tried calling she didn't pick up #nothing was confirmed so I seriously hope she's not expecting me to be ready tomorrow morning #when she has been giving me radio silence since friday #like she didn't even call me she called my mom first #and only sent me a text with the very small details #and then nothing else #I'm scared shitless this whole situation will flip on me #truly hope she's not expecting for it to start tomorrow #because she didn't even confirm what grade he was in #also is it weird that she worded the question with if I wanted to and not if i could or if I would? #me posts