#Heart doing its thingie. He thinks he's a ballerina so he's doing his arrythmic jumps

[lovinnelily]

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#Omfg I'm so fucking triggered rn #Thank you mom #I'm half dissociation half de realizing half having problems to breath #At this point I don't even need to HOPE to die I think I might actually #Heart doing its thingie. He thinks he's a ballerina so he's doing his arrythmic jumps #Ffs #As if today wasn't bad enough #Also: #I'm really sorry for all the negativity lately #I haven't been on much and everytime I throw this shit at yall but Tumblr is just my safe place #It just has been mentally rough and I don't even have a reason to why it has deteriorated so much. #Like if you ask me why it became harder or what made it so I can only say ''me'' cause there's nothing happening to justify any of this #Also: English is just not really working for me #I do read but it just doesn't feel very real. Letters. Words. They feel like a code I don't actually Know. #I look at words and it feels like looking at a sequence of numbers or glyphs i- it ain't working. My brain. It just. #Really can't fucking breath but I nervous post when I'm feeling weird irl just so I can feel like I'm doing something anything rly #Gonna put my 'don't you fucking dare dying bitch' song on aka bohnes' so pissed #If that doesn't work I'll just... Exist in pain.