#HeisenSaku

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If your doing a new one why can't you update your jokesaku or madasaku fics too?

Hi, anon. It's not quite that simple. I mean, I definitely should update/finish my older stories before starting new ones. There are eight of them sitting on the back burner... I never intended to be one of those writers that left fics unfinished or on hiatus, yet here we are. Now, I understand some of those writers a bit more since I actually began writing myself. It's not always that easy.

Here's the thing. I'm not the kind of person who can work on multiple projects at one time. God knows I've tried. I told myself and others I can do it. But I've concluded that all it does is stress me out and nothing gets done. I'm someone who can't sit still, is unorganized, can't focus for long periods of time, and is a mess at the end of the day. Yet I still try to write chapters that are between 5-11k because I'm a big dummy that can't reel it in. And dyslexia only makes it more difficult.

I work a full-time and part-time job. I have bills to pay and a place to take care of. A partner, demon children (my cats), family, and friends that need me. So when I do get a little free time, I want to spend it doing something I'm excited about. That tends to be my current fixation at the time. Which is also something I can't necessarily control. Believe me, I've tried. Being in the middle of a project and losing what was once an all-consuming fixation on a ship/piece of media is heartbreaking. I can try to rekindle the flame but unless it happens organically, I'm screwed.

That happened recently. My fixations can last months, even a year or more. The last one was MadaSaku again (HeisenSaku and JokeSaku before that). Then the passion for it whittled away, little by little, until I was left spending months just trying to finish one chapter. It's agonizing. Eventually, it comes back. It's just the time in between that's hard. I'd sit at my table for hours on days off, staring at a single chapter and drawing a blank. I couldn't get anything done. In return, I'd feel embarrassed to the point I didn't even want to go on Discord and talk to my online friends. It might sound silly, but that's how it is...

Right now, I'm sucked into the Eddissy ship for Stranger Things. Seeing the gifs and fanart of those two ignited the feeling I was missing. It motivated and inspired me to write again after another long dry spell. The same way the other ships I write for did previously. I don't know how long it'll last, but I want to ride the wave for as long as I can.

So with the limited free time I have available, I'd rather spend it working on something that I'm excited about and actually putting out content than forcing myself to stare at a blank screen for hours while slowly spiraling into a self-loathing mess. For free, might I add. The only reason I do any of this is because I enjoy writing garbage and love hearing from readers.

This wasn't meant to be so long, but I've been getting quite a few messages like this recently. Especially on FF.net. Like, I spent hours over multiple days working on and editing a 5k+ Eddissy chapter, then get a review/DM saying "Nice so when are you finally going to update your JokeSaku fic, huh?" and it's just so... disheartening. I get it. Some of you are here for JokeSaku, MadaSaku, etc. And it's not fair to leave you hanging on an incomplete fic. It just doesn't feel great to have someone basically say, "if you have time to work on this crap you like, then you should also have spare time to write the things I actually want to read." I don't know... This is just me explaining and rambling about what's going on from my end.

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One of my longtime besties got me a commission of Heisenberg and Sakura as a gift! I'm losing my shit fangirling over this! My friend isn't into anime or Resident Evil but knows I love these two and I can't thank him enough 💖😭

I don't think the artist has a tumblr but he ordered it from Etsy.

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🔗Visele ~ Chapter 2 "Affliction"🔗

Stepping through the entrance, the quiet hall is dimly lit with oil lamps along the walls. Brown eyes dart back and forth, gazing around the empty nave. The last time she came here was over a decade ago… It’s been so long. If there was a choice, she wouldn’t step foot in this place again.

The atmosphere feels heavy, bearing down on her as she pads across the stone floor. An antique rug runs along the aisle, separating the left side from the right, going straight down the middle until reaching the altar. Cautiously walking past the empty pews, something in her gut starts twisting. A sense of foreboding overcomes her, making the brunette want to turn around and run.

‘No! I can’t… I have to do this!’

“Ah…” Her heart almost stops from hearing the voice, finally noticing the dark figure moving in the shadows by the altar. The candlelight illuminates the slim form that steps out, walking around the table filled with pictures, offerings, and burning candles. “You’ve come.”

Izabella’s mouth runs dry as the woman steps out in front of her own portrait, dressed in dark clothing and feathers with a strange mask concealing her face. Despite rushing here out of desperation, no words form as she stares at the village saint.

‘She knew I was coming? How?’

“Don’t be afraid, child. Speak.” Something is intimidating about this person, making her arms subconsciously tighten around Sakura.

This turned out much longer than I intended... And I left out a scene for another chapter to avoid hurting reader's eyes lol. Anyway, I'm pretty excited to be getting more updates out lately and appreciate the messages and support I've received. I love hearing what you guys think! This one might be a little hard to read but perhaps I'm being a bit cautious. I'll still put tw's in the tags.

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🔗Visele ~ Chapter 1 "Gauntlet"🔗

'No one's here. Not anymore.'

Making it outside the portcullis, Sakura stares up at the dreary, dark gray skies. It feels like the weather matches her mood. Dark, cold, and sad. Trying to shake it off, she continues down the dirt path, walking past the ghoulish scarecrows on either side... The decaying corpses of men Alcina had put on display throughout the castle grounds. It served as a clear warning to any males that a similar fate will befall them should they choose to get too close.

Wrapping the cloak around her, the pinkette hugs it tightly against her shivering form. Winter is the worst time of year, especially in these parts. The bitter cold doesn't work well with this body. That only makes the current situation going on even more frustrating.

Going through the village itself causes her chest to tighten. Where was one a relatively peaceful and devout community, there is only devastation and death. Empty homes that used to be filled with families are left broken, with doors or roofs smashed in from the attack. Some still have the remnants of what the occupants were doing at the very moment all hell broke loose. Laundry partially hung up, plates of food on the table, candles lit at their alters…

Green eyes flicker back and forth, taking in the destruction the lycans left behind. It all happened so quickly… A single order from the woman these people worshipped with everything they had, caused all this.

"Heisenberg… Bring the lycans into the village."

That's how it started and the ruins all around are how it ended. The moment the command left Miranda's mouth when she returned with the infant after being absent for several weeks, the Lords were all stunned. It's not that there was love for those who inhabited this village... No, most of them couldn't care less. It was out of surprise that everything was suddenly escalating. After controlling this land for almost a century, she expected it to all be wiped away within a day.

Here's another weird crossover to add to my collection. What can I say? I just have a thing for shipping Sakura with characters from other fandoms 😅. I got into Resident Evil Village after its release and couldn't get enough of the hunky metal daddy. This hellsite got me hooked. Hope you guys enjoy this new story! And I can't thank the JokeSaku discord group enough for bouncing around ideas with me and being a constant source of inspiration 💖

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An extra little note now that I'm thinking about it. In this AU, Heisenberg and Sakura are only a few years apart. The cadou just stopped their aging at different times. I figured I'd add this before someone says anything about age gaps or calls him (or me) a creep. She's about 77 years old but her appearance is around 24/25. I don't know if Karl's canon age has been revealed yet but I just put him at 80 and looks 40. It'll be explained more in future chapters but figured I might as well get this out of the way now.

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Did you~~~ Did you make sakura preggo? 🥺 Is she preggoo in your re crossover? Is there going to be baby heisenbergs? 🥺🥺 does mother know about this? was heisenberg excited when he found out?? ARE THEY GOING TO HAVE A HAPPY ENDING????? 🥺🥺🥺🥺 Plz he deserved to be free and enjoy life 🥺😭 Let him have a family anbd be happppyyyy!!!

Hello, anon! Sorry, I meant to answer this a few days ago but got a little side-tracked 😬. I've actually had a few people ask me about this part and I can see why they came to that conclusion.

"And now we have more on the line than before. This has to work or it all ends." She quietly listens, melting into the heated body surrounding her. Large hands skim along the maroon fabric of her skirt, slowly making their way up. His fingers curl around the pinkette's hip in a firm grip while the other finds a resting place against the bodice covering her abdomen.

I don't actually say Sakura's pregnant but some assumed that's what this paragraph meant. H mentions them having more on the line than before (implying there's something that's changed recently that makes their fight more consequential than it previously was) and he's laying his hand over her midsection, which can either be a gentle/intimate touch in a stressful situation or have more meaning. It depends on how you look at it.

But... I'm not going to confirm or deny that she might be pregnant. This chapter was an intro to give some insight on the present and where the story might be headed but the next one goes back in time to the 1950s. A lot of this fic will focus on Sakura being 'adopted' by Mother Miranda, dealing with the changes in her body, meeting the Lords, trying to navigate and survive living in the village, and what leads to up the events of RE8. It'll span over 60 years so a lot will happen and some things I have planned might change (or not lol). But I'll leave this part up to your imagination.

I 100% agree that H deserved a happy ending... I was so mad that there wasn't an option to accept his deal. It would've been really interesting to see how differently the ending might've played out. Who knows? Ethan turning him down probably sealed his own fate as well, so it's karmic in a way. It makes me sad listening to H talk over the speakers about how Miranda took him and the others and forced them to serve her for decades. He spent his life working on revenge and didn't even get the satisfaction of having the last laugh or knowing she met her end as well. In his case, he lost and Miranda won. She used him all his life and he was killed just as she wanted.

In any case, I'm not a big fan of tragic endings yet can't guarantee anything for now. This fic is most likely going to be long like my others so we'll see! I'm working on chapter 2 and there's a ways to go until the end. I'd love to see him be happy and free but I'm basically a passenger writing down what the driver tells me 🤷‍♀️.

As for the question about H being excited if he found out Sakura was pregnant in this scenario, I'd say he probably would have a whole lot of mixed emotions. The first would most likely be shock from the news, especially since nothing happened for years before then. I'm sure they'd both assume they were infertile a long time ago. There's also the disillusionment with family after being stuck in his current situation for so long but this also gives him the opportunity to have a real one. Another would be fear. Would Miranda take the baby after it's born? There's no way she wouldn't notice Sakura being pregnant after a while and with the parents being two cadou experiments, she might snatch the child away to study/observe/test its body, capabilities, and see what kind of information she can collect. So there would be a lot of internal conflict going inside that hinders H from being completely excited. It would give him even more motivation than he already has (if that's possible) to stop Miranda and escape the village. He'd be damned before letting his brat(s) go through the same terrible shit he did.

Sorry this is a bit long and might not be the answers you were looking for but thanks for sending this in! I love getting asks from readers 🥰. I try to be careful about spoilers when it comes to important parts (like the ending) so I have to tiptoe around certain questions to avoid ruining it for others. You're more than welcome to drop more asks in and I'll do what I can! And I genuinely appreciate your excitement for this story 💖!

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Just a bit curious how will sakura and Ethan relationship between them be like. If you want to keep it a surprise that ok, like I say I'm curious. Loving your fic can't wait for the next chapter.

Hi, anon! This is a good question. As for Ethan, I see him initially treating her the same way as the other Lords. No nonsense, impatient, where the hell's my daughter, etc. With Sakura, I imagine her to be more sympathetic towards his situation than her 'family'. Like Heisenberg, she'd already be disillusioned with Mother Miranda and wouldn't want another child to suffer at her hands.

Where Sakura and Ethan's relationship might get ugly is over Heisenberg and some of her siblings. She won't have an issue with him as long as he doesn't take away anything precious to her. And if it's clear to Ethan that she has no intention of fighting him and seems willing to help him get Rose back (or at least divulge info) then he is mostly indifferent to her. I guess it'd kind of be like how he and Duke treat each other. I don't want to give too much more away, so I'll leave it at that.

Thanks for sending this in!

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Heya I don't want to sound annoying since you prolly get ask'd this all the time but do you know when your updating next and which might it b 👉👈 I rlly miss your joker x sakura stuff tho i like the new pairing too

Hello, anon! You don't sound annoying at all! I enjoy it when someone asks me about my work. It means you're interested which is a great thing lol. I'd rather be bugged about updates than no one care in the slightest. No writer wants to be throwing their material out into the void with zero response. That really kills motivation and can make it feel pointless to put so much time and effort into an update when there's no feedback. So, throw anything you want my way. Anon asks, questions, comments, reblogs, likes, whatever. I eat that shit up!

Back to your question... I'm finishing up chapter 2 of Visele right now. I actually planned on having it out this morning but family-in-law(?) stuff kind of set me back a little. Hopefully, it'll be ready for tomorrow morning instead.

About JokeSaku, don't worry! More will be coming soon. With this next chapter of Visele, that'll be four updates I've done in the last month and a half that are all 9k+. After that long drought I had for a while, I'm pretty proud of myself for getting that done.

I'm thinking about doing chapter 18 of 'Dreams of a Monomaniac' next. It was my very first fic and needs some love after so long. I've been thinking about MadaSaku lately too. That story is definitely the best received by readers and they deserve some material for being extremely patient with me. BUT! After that, I will go around and try to update my fics the best I can, especially the JokeSaku ones. My chapters tend to be 8-10k+ so that's partly why they may take a little bit.

Thanks for sending this in, anon! I hope you're happy with the answers I gave you and that you enjoy the new updates coming in the very near future 💖

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Composure

🌸Queen of the Rhombus ~ Chapter 22 "Composure"🌸

Just watching the panic and confusion painted across the doctor's face is making his blood sing. She's distressed, completely frozen on the spot. Her mind is racing a hundred miles per second and can't decide which option is better… or worse. It really comes down to two options: tell and lose him as a patient or keep quiet and throw her dignity as a respected psychiatrist out the door, becoming something of an accomplice to his antics.

'Don't give her too much time to think about it. She can be useful in some ways.'

"C'mon, Har. We both know the answer." Pushing off the bed and getting to his feet, Joker slithers up towards the shaken woman. When someone's mind is in tatters, the best thing to do is take advantage of the moment. Snatch the fragments and use them to create something new. An image of his choosing. She's getting so close to reaching a breaking point. He can see the anguish in those blue orbs.

There's something deep inside that's trying to get out. What it actually is, is the real question. A person can only hide their true selves beneath a polished exterior for so long before it tries to claw its way to the surface. Everyone has one. He just realized it sooner than most and willingly embraced those demons. Harleen, on the other hand… She just needs a push in the right direction.

"Listen." The doctor looks stunned when his deep voice breaks her from the raging battle going on in her mind. She's slow to react, finally realizing that he's no longer on the bed but mere inches away. "No one has to know. It can be our little secret, 'kay?"

Hoped to have this out last week, but I got a bit... distracted by some metal daddy lol. I'd like to thank the ladies of the JokeSaku discord group and those who sent me messages for motivating me and trying to keep this mess of a writer on track. I genuinely appreciate all of it!

My next update will be the first chapter for a new crossover I'll be working on. I'm giving Sakura a tiny break from Gotham and tossing her into the Village from Resident Evil 8. It'll be a Sakura Haruno x Karl Heisenberg pairing (dubbed HeisenSaku from the thirst squad on Discord fufu). I won't be forgetting about JokeSaku at all, so I'll be jumping back and forth between the two.

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Happy to hear your back and queen is cont. Will you ever update dreams of a monomaniac or is it discontinued for good? I rlly like princess of zho and beheader but they haven't been updated in years but ill still have hope. i read kingdom because i liked them so much. your a good writer so im okay with whatever you. have you considered sakura x re8? That would be interesting and your rlly good with crossovers. good luck and welcome back ⊂(￣▽￣)⊃

AHello, anon!!!

Thank you for the kind words and I'll try to answer the best I can. It really has been a long time since I updated my old-old work... Dreams of a Monomaniac, The Last Princess of Zhao, and The Beheader were all started in 2015, a few years after I moved to help take care of my sick father. Fanfic was like my little corner where I could just take a break and escape reality for just a bit. After he passed away at the end of 2016, I had a really hard time continuing my work. I was devastated and fell into a deep depression that seemed never-ending. I did maybe one or two updates over the course of four years and wasn't happy with them. I only did it out of guilt after seeing messages from readers who missed them. Those definitely weren't my best by any means...

My passion for writing came back at the beginning of 2020 when I rewatched TDK and decided to give it a go one more time. It wasn't my usual crack pairings or crossovers, but something new which excited me. I do honestly want to finish my old work. It's just hard because when I reread them, it reminds me of a painful time in my life that I don't want to think about. Not only that but my writing was crap and I feel the need to edit them to hell and back lol (they're all pretty long and it'll take forever). They will be picked back up someday... just when I'm emotionally and mentally ready to. That might not be the answer you were hoping for but I'd rather be honest than giving a specific time frame and you being disappointed if it doesn't happen. I do appreciate you enjoying them, being patient with my irregular schedule, and even reading the Kingdom manga, which is pretty time-consuming.

As for Sakura and Resident Evil 8? Consider me mind-blown 🤯. I spend way more time than should be allowed daydreaming and coming up with weird ideas but I really like this one. Since I read this ask, I have all these different scenarios swirling around in my head. There are a million updates I need to work on but this kind of slide-lined my thinking process and got me excited. A one-shot? A full-on fic? Slowburn? Who's POV? What kind of pairing? How would any of this even work? You messed up my day 😤lol (jk). I like the idea of possibly doing a Lady Sakura x Heisenberg fic (no clue what kind of ship name they'd have... HeisenSaku, KarlSaku, Heiku? 😵) and changing up some of the game's original story. Hidan would make a cool Lord too. Maybe I can do a crossover and include two additional Lords into the fray (Sakura and Hidan). We'll see where that goes, I guess... It's an interesting concept I could plan out for a future fic.

Sorry this is a bit long... Anyway, thanks a lot for sending this in and being interested in my work! I know it can be frustrating sometimes when a fic you enjoy is suddenly abandoned. I'm grateful for your patience and for hanging in there with me. Hopefully sometime soon I can finally finish what I started years ago 🙏. I also appreciate the story ideas and I'm more than willing to hear you out or answer any other question you might have. Oh, and that kaomoji is really cute. Sending lots of good vibes your way! 💖

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Hi 👋 not to sound like a bother ~sorry if i do~ i was wondering when the next update might be coming out 🥺🥺🥺 i love this ship & your stories. Im sorry if this sounds pusshy or anything 🥺😣

Hello, anon! Don't worry lol. You don't sound like a bother to me at all! I'm more than happy to answer any questions. I know this was sent before today but incase you might've missed it, I uploaded chapter 22 for Queen of the Rhombus yesterday. Whenever I update, I just make a little post on here but that's about it (not the best at self-advertising to be honest 😎).

Thanks for sending this in and don't hesitate to ask anything. It makes me really happy that you like this weird little ship and my work 🥰! Hopefully I'll be able to update again soon. I'm working on the first chapter of a HeisenSaku (RE8 Karl Heisenberg x Sakura) fic, then I'll be hoping back over to JokeSaku. You're always welcome to join our discord too. Just PM if you feel comfortable and are interested. Sending lots of good vbes your way, anon!

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