#Hold me close don't let go

[mushiemellows]

Hey bros, does turning the bottom half of your legs into tracked treads count as an assistive mobility device?

Sketch dump from an old unfinished series I like to call "One Piece AU in which everything is the same but we let the quadruple amputee go at his own pace for a goddam second"

He knows all the tricks. But he should have made the grade on that ramp slide a little less steep.

#him hands so big to hold his forearm crutches of course #uh don't look at that brook too close it was my very first try at drawing him #thats actually not an excuse these were my very first franky studies too #i was like let me try and draw something hard and then I'm going to put him in a chair which is also notoriously hard to draw #i just think hes neat #one piece #cyborg franky #soul king brook #straw hat pirates #disability positivity #i do not personally have a mobility disability but these were a fun study for me #my art

[attackfish]

I need people to understand that some service dogs are small. When most people picture a service dog, it's a lab, or a german shepard, or a standard poodle, or other big dog, working as a seeing eye dog or helping somebody with mobility imparements, and a lot of service dogs do look like that.

But some service dogs, for example medical alert dogs, can be tiny. In fact some of the smaller breeds are noted for having the hyperfocus on "their" human that is essential to being a good alert dog. My seizure alert dog is a maltese. I get accused of trying to sneak my pet into places all the time, or have people insist she must really be an emotional support dog. I'm not, she's not, and she does important work in keeping me safe. Respect small service dogs.

#posts i created #disability #service animal #service dog #once a shopkeeper refused to let me in because "how is she supposed to run alert anyone if you have a problem if you're holding her? #and I was like she's here to alert me not you and she has to be close to my face to do her job #my local grocery store and butcher know me and know her and don't hastle me #but going to new places especially small businesses sucks

[dykeseinfeld]

what harrow the ninth has to say about grief actually makes me tear my hair out with how true it feels. everyone says grieving is how we show love and they say you have to remember the one you love to keep a part of them alive but what if by the act of remembering you are destroying them. the photograph you take out of storage and unfold to look at over and over eventually becomes indecipherable and their memory becomes so smeared and smudged that your entire sense of your past is too stained to look at anymore. all the person who has died wants is to be grieved but they never asked you if that is too heavy a burden to bear. whether you think about it or not though the guilt and anger and sadness and just the void of them will fucking destroy you for so long that eventually you forget why it's happening. even if you do choose to grieve and remember them and tell stories and laugh and cry you have to carry them around everywhere you go which sounds nice but if you're being honest it isn't a part of them inside of you. it's just you.

#tlt #htn #the book is so. #being a teenage girl grieving multiple suicides is literally just Like That. #don't even get me started on the kneeling before g-d in bleeding penitence. #the sword. you are vomiting on the ground and you can't take care of it you can't let it go it's getting destroyed it's destroying you. #it's too heavy to lift. you're keeping it safe so it doesn't cut you and still hold it close but you are literally destroying it.

[justwanttobelovedbyyou]

#let me hold you close #don't want to let you go #bette x tina #jennifer beals #laurel holloman

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine

[bitterseaproduction]

Just saw Joker described as a '2nd year' in the P5 Tactica information, which is gaaaaaaaaaaaaaah--

I swear, for a series with a message of moving forward, Persona (see: Atlus) sure loves to avoid moving forward. Never mind complaints about more P5 content -- I'm here for side games and returning character storylines -- they are keeping the Phantom Thieves stuck in a Peter Pan state.

Where is that willingness to move forward that came with the P4 Arena games? For the P3 and P4 kids? Man, just the P4G epilogue alone took us as far as Strikers did timeline-wise.

And speaking of Strikers, the sole actual sequel to P5? Evading or hiding half of the characters we'd be love to revisit, and generally dodging Royal's entire existence? Woof.

#don't mind me just salty that atlus keeps revisiting P5 YET REFUSES to close open threads or even acknowledge whole ass main characters #and just keeps doing these 'it might as well be a dream' games that feel like narrative bottle episodes #might I be completely off base and Tactica WILL add something new to the big picture? maybe. I'd love to be wrong. #I'm just getting worn out after half a decade of a slow burn tease that just keeps adding reasons to hold on with little to no payoff #hard to remain invested in a franchise when efforts to hold out hope OR let go and accept canon as it is could be undermined at any time #a lot akechi related BUT kasumi and the other thieves' royal-specific ambitions also apply. And all of the confidants I'd love to see again #What's going to happen to Morgana long term? Where will Ann end up? How will Ryuji's school transfer go? #What amazing new art might Yusuke make? What government is Futaba going to-- I mean uh what awesome career is she going to pursue? #What will Shinya look like a year out? Can I see Hifumi make a comeback? How's Mishima doing? Chihaya? #Can I see a Kawakami and Takumi NOT riddled with stress for a heartbeat? Some exploration of Jose??? #And the PERSONA 4 CREW! I have been waiting for them to get their 'P3 in Arena' treatment for forever and I am TIRED OF WAITING ATLUS #persona 5 tactica spoliers #maybe delete later #depends how salty this looks to me in a better mood

[iobsessoverfictionalmen]

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[linabirb]

i keep thinking of mayyyybe trying to cover a milgram song and the thing is that i did. try to do it once but to my own shock and surprise the only song that i was able to handle was. weakness.

i literally was like "okay i have a high-pitched voice uhhh let's go with after pain or umbilical or tihtbilwy maybe??" and that failed and i was like "okay i can't handle fast-paced songs let's go with something slower" that also failed.

and then i tried to sing weakness and. it worked. it didn't sync with the instrumental that well so i still was a little slow but it still. sounded good.

#haruka muu and mahiru kinnies in me were fighting and haruka won. good for him #this close to just singing mappi's psychogram cover honestly. let me go insane. let me go crazy #the hardest thing about singing for me is not even the actual process or mixing or anything. it's the fact that i don't live alone #i COULD sing the highest notes ever or something but consider this. my grandma is taking a nap #or there was a time while i was just quietly singing one of the songs and my mom was like “are you okay? it sounded like you were swearing” #I FIND IT FUNNY HOW SHE WASN'T MAD AT ME FOR SWEARING SHE JUST GOT WORRIED BC SHE THOUGHT SOMETHING HAPPENEDHJDFJDKDK #.. just realized that me kinning haruka muu and mahiru basically screams “i NEED attention”. hold on gonna go fix my kinlist real quick /j #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]

[euesworld]

"Hold me close and don't let go, hold me tight and don't let go.. just never let go."

I will do the same for you and we can be a team - eUë

#hold me close #hold me closer #hold me #holding you #hold me tight #don't let go #never let go #never let me go #never letting go #never let you go #relationship #relationships #goals #mood #sappy mood #sappy #i love you #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled words #love quotes #love #love quote life quotes #love quote for her #quoteoftheday #romance #romantic #in love #falling in love #fell in love

[piplupod]

(can i please get a waffle voice): can i PLEASE having a coping mechanism that doesnt turn maladaptive. can i PLEAAASE have just one !!! i am Begging you, on my hands and knees !!!!! AUGH

#tfw your coping mechanism detaches you from reality and now you're watching yourself warily to make sure u dont fall into That Pit again #skirting around the edge and unhooking my claws from the coping mechanism and holding it gingerly with the tips of my fingers #praying i do not have to put it down entirely. because man..... its slim pickings around here for shit that actually Works fhfjdkl #the issue with reality being nigh unbearable ... is that you cannot bear reality. and thus detach. but u cannot go too far away from it. #or else Bad Shit happens. that i don't especially want to experience again fhdjdkdl #it'd be so cool to have a brain that didnt do this. so i could just freely la-dee-da along with fun things #instead of the fun things turning Bad bc they went too far fjfkdl #or having to keep a very close eye on myself when i get into new things bc i can see they have the potential to go badly for Me w my brain #sobbing forever honestly. i feel awful. this sucks shit. im trying to be funny about it to cope but im Upset fjfjddkl #im so sick of this type of thing fjdkdl I wish i could just like... be okay. for a while. without it going badly like this fjfkfl #i thought maybe i was on the up finally but nooooo it's just bc i was getting too far from holding onto reality properly #god i hate this pattern. im so fucking angry w it tbh fjfkfl i cannot believe i let myself think this was going to be different fjfkfl #but anyways!! onwards we march and hopefully i figure smth out fjfkdl im uhhhh very tired #going to crawl into bed at the ripe time of 8:30pm and just go listen to music and draw or smth idk fjfkfl this is frustrating #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[icharchivist]

Chikage’s 3rd flair (the usual fanservice minichat one) has him talk about how the Spring troupe is trying to get information out of him, and yet that way he learns more about them and he enjoys getting to know more abut them, and then he turns to Izumi like “do you want to hear more about me? okay. lean me your ear” and then he gets EXTREMELY CLOSE TO THE CAMERA TO REALLY TRANSLATE THAT HE IS WHISPERING DIRECTLY TO HER EAR

and it’s to say how he prefers to eat his curry. he’s CLOWNING ME.

and then he ends up being all teasy because :) yeah it’s still learning about me! and it’s implied Izumi gets pouty because he replies something that a friend of mine translated "Well, there's no need to know in hurry. We'll be getting along for a long time, right?” but google translate translated the “getting along” part as “we’ll be in a long relationship after all”

and i’m

i’m having a moment. 

#i usually kinda skip those and don't try to read them #bc my understanding of Japanese is really on the basis so far #but i skip them by tapping on the screen bc it's faster than reaching for the button skip #and SO SEEING HIM GET THIS CLOSE JUMPSCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME #so i tried to read through the rest and looked at a translator and then asked a friend who is fluent to help me make sure i got it right #and i got quickly the whole 'let me tell you a secret' *invades your personal space* *says something relatively silly* #LIKE it's STILL SOMETHING ABOTU HIM and it's sweet but it was clearly not what people were fishing for and he knows it!! #and I KNEW. I KNEEEEW HE WAS DOING THAT #im. weeps and holds my head into my hands in despair. #it has no right working on me so well i hate it #and once again with his 'we'll have a long relationship so it's fine you'll get to know more in that time' #it adds so much to the fact one of his way to flirt is so much so constantly proposing or acting like they're engaged #and then going 'i'm joking though. or am i. :).' #like geez talk about commitment #and i'm not going to derail myself thinking about man. commitment for a man who had to always be on the move and everything. #like. bites fist. #but yeah anyway i was in public when i was going through this and i almost fucking cried on the spot #and i felt myself turning red like a complete idiot #so fuck this fuck this fuck t- #ichablogging a3jpn

[juniperleafdelivery]

* "do you love me?"

* a biting chuckle. "oh no, stanley. i need you. that's quite the distinction."

#do you ever think about how you can need someone but not love them #do you ever think about how you can never let someone go but can never hold them close #the stanley parable #ough i've been hit with the stanarrator beam again #don't mind me

[doppelnatur]

to a certain degree i don't think there is such a thing as purely internalized and internally directed bias. i don't think directing bias at yourself is morally much better than directing it at others it's just a lot harder to stop. that said, as soon as your self cruelty begins to affect anyone else it's just cruelty. a gay man being homophobic is not any more justifiable than a heterosexual man. then again, maybe this entire way of thinking shows a lack of compassion for myself and is a form of bias.

#Idk I'm being mean to myself about capacity and ability stuff. #I'm. Very aware I still hold a lot of ableism. I really really try treating others with kindness and like noticing when something is an #Ableist impulse and seeing it looking at it and letting it go. And I think I usually do a good job. I do. But it's so much harder when it's #It's me and there's no other expert on my experience and my normality than me and I just don't trust me to. Actually know what's going on #Idk I think ableism is the most active unlearning I'm having to do. With both racism and queerphobia it was very gradual #Fatphobia I feel like i never really like. Took in. Idk why and obviously there's some just straight up misinformation that I'm correcting #But that's all so different #Learning about ableism was such a huge thing for me and it helped me let go of so much self loathing and all that all at once #And to also just be kinder to the people in my life. Like significantly. I think I'd be an absolute pos if not for the autistic community #But like. I feel like I've hit a plateau and there's just. Part of this belief system that's just. My character at this point and I don't #I don't know that I'll ever be able to get over it and I think it makes me a bad person or at least a worse person like. In an unfixable wa #Maybe I need to think of myself like the world. Where I don't think an ideal utopia can be built but that just means we have to keep trying #And get as close as possible and watch all the lik e easy fail points carefully and mend and repair. #Like part of the reason I could let go of self hate is just that I genuinely became a significantly better person #Not just the internalized ableism part but the external butt they're the same kind of anyways right #Idek it's 1am

[sapsolais]

i love nimona

#i'm going 2 ramble here in the tags ok. okay? ok #god. look. i went into this movie thinking 'yeah yeah obv trans allegory woohoo' thinkin that's great! but #idk. i thought it would be something that could be brushed aside or sanitized easily maybe. y'know? like passed off as another kids movie #and i thought maybe other trans folks could relate 2 the movie and i was like ok that's cool let's watch it and. it was just #that one scene. #everyone talked abt how they cried and how it really Hit and i didn't get it until then #at the statue #i cried. a lot. and i never do that w media and i don't mean that to be edgy or whatever kssdfkjg but just #oh fuck #they Get It #that part. it reached into my soul and grabbed that core part of me and Tugged. #it Hurt and i felt it. the exhaustion. ready to give up. the cry nimona let out. i cried because i got it. and then i cried harder because #i'd give anything for a ballister in my life #my thoughts are 'they got us in the second half ngl' basically KSDJHFKSJDHFKSD #first half of the movie? great! but second half? oh. oh it punches u in the face over and over and gets better and better #it's so. SO good. god. i don't know when everything clicked 4 me i don't think it was a singular moment but. man. oh man #i need to rewatch that immediately #instantly a favorite. shit #it's so unapologetically nimona. it's so Itself and it's not sorry and i love it and it feels so special and i'm holding it so close #there's 2 much to gush about in these tags there's not enough space but just know. i am Insane about this #sap says #god. fuck

[thesoftestmess]

i just need to stay in my own energy i just need to stay in my own energy i just need to-

#yes my life is entirely fucked up #yes it all feels broken beyond repair yes i hate myself from the moment i wake up every day all day #but i just have to draw my silly little drawings and go on my silly little walks #and attempt to be alive in the ruins of it all #i just have to find back to my core and live there but still let things touch me sometimes #and connect to art and connect to art and connect to art #be grateful for what i have and mourn the things that i don't #not become the monster they try to turn me into #become it anyway sometimes but just for a moment just for a day #allow myself to have emotions and not just the pretty ones #taking it one fucking day at a time #look at the beauties and if i cannot see them look a little CLOSER #I'm not losing my mind this is me trying to keep it and hold it close to my chest actually #one day I'll actually share my poetry with the interwebs #until then u get incoherent mind mess brabbling and hope against all odds #fari talks

[bumblingbabooshka]

An exchange I think about a lot

#It's a throaway line...to you!! I'm holding it close to my chest #Tuvok stuck in the delta quadrant having a (vulcan)crisis of religion...struggling with his faith #We see that he semi-regularly goes to visit holographic monks and such - something he probably did when at home #And again he has no one to speak to about his doubts v_v <- ACTUALLY they could have done a Chakotay and Tuvok storyline about that #since they both have Reject-Tradition! teen phases and have embraced tradition/their culture's spiritual beliefs in adulthood #I think it could also be nice to see what Ms. Science (Janeway) herself has to say about any of that #Also I like this exchange bc it reminds me that Tuvok listens to children and takes them seriously #Like Starfleet code is 'don't interfere' so if it's their culture to kill kids he should let them but he sees these kids are scared #and don't want to die and think these adults are going to kill them so he trusts them and protects them immediately