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#I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS!!! AAAAA!!!!!!! AAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! my BOY!!!!!!!
2n2n · 10 months
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Which do you prefer, Yaoi or yuri?
*I begin playing you a song on my hurdy-gurdy*
Not an easy answer... I must tell you tales of times long past.... and we will contemplate the nature of interest. The nature of sexuality ....
From age 11-20ish I identified as a lesbian, and only dated women. Went to dyke marches etc whole 9 yards. Most of my friends were the few other dykes in my school ..... but for some reason, I was a chronic shotacon and really only liked shota porn, LOL. In those days it legitimately wasn't 'bad' or 'gross' to like (lol) it was just annoying (lol); my friends would just call me a bad lesbian or try to cajole me into watching their yuris or normal pornos of ladies fisting. A funny era. From like, 11-17? I would say I really only imbibed yaoi, did not really care for anything else, was a pure of heart fujoshi, to everyone's chagrin.
I got into a more serious relationship at 18 & I finally was like, "its a little embar I am a shotacon ... I would like to just make lesbo porn with my lesbo partner..." so, somewhat artificially but not entirely artificially, for about 18-20 I only had female OCs for the mostpart and read f/f or yuri if you will, fics and such. My partner liked m/f to some extent so sometimes we'd dabble in a boy added into there. I guess I experimented a little with being nonbinary around this time, that wasn't right for me though and truly girlie vibes are me. Also my partner at the time eventually started transitioning (we r still close!) so, I re-analyzed my sexuality & what gender like was for me & wasn't really 'a lesbian' any longer and like, honestly never really found a new identity after that.
SOMETHING happened in 2012 a and I regressed back into a shotacon like, sooo uncontrollably, and, I didn't feel as if I was avoiding anything or really repressing anything, yet once I was back in the saddle it was balls to the wall, really so like aaaaaa rrrr aaaaa mmnnggghhh !!! I was 20, arbitrarily. So from 20-24 or so I was back to your basic fujoshi vibes.
I met my now-husband online in 2016 in this era, we were both in a yaoi twincest fandom. I honestly wasn't 100% suuuure where I really sat with boys IRL but, he was very my type in all ways , anyway. So let's not think hard. We met in person & had violently intense chemistry like fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck gotta fuck gotta fuck hard. Bird is really ................. a heterosexual guy lol. Though at the time he thought he was a leetle more pan vibes, he really had only been so passionate about, girls. Despite starting out in yaoi we wound up only really shipping m/f things together, major het moment for me. I was like "lol... this is so interesting... and funny... and fun!". I had never really imbibed het content deeply lol. Literally ever. But my lover was a boy, and I was a girl, and it was most fun to embody a het ship together, and have sex with each other, heterosexually, lol. So for the better part of 6 years, 24-30, me and @7ban-sama have been very m/f very het. HOWEVER ... Bird loves women and I love women, so we've sometimes been yuri vibes and yuri times!! So, it was more yuri, more often, than yaoi, overall! Though honestly it's all over the place; Chasriel and Krisriel are hugely important to us, and gender is ambiguous in that.
Then uhhh I feel like I have periodic relapses, its so embar but I guess the nature of what I am... JSHK was like . It is exactly something I'd have read and obsessed over at age 15, in my fujoshi era. I really expected to identify with Nene-chan but instead I am very Tsukasa (sad trombone)! The twins actually grabbed both of us by the throat with their arc and its similarities to our love ... and then again we both love, girls ... so you have, Hanako x Nene x Tsukasa as an ultimate three-way. It is le yaoi and le het.
As you can see it is difficult to say "I prefer yuri" or "I prefer yaoi". I guess completely on my own incel vibes no partner, I tend to just do yaoi, while, when I have a partner, I tend to engage more fantasies that could analog us, and I am a girl, so (so I was more yuri when properly with a 'girl', and het when properly with a boy). I think if I was forever alone I would probably do mostly shota nonsense, but that would partially be out of an inability to really inhabit the fantasies firsthand ... at least some of the reason I feel I didn't engage much with girl fantasies despite being a girl was feeling too disassociated from my own appearance (normal self-hate stuff, repulsion, feeling ugly, feeling gross etc). I think yaoi is 'safe' for me, it doesn't .. . hurt me, lol? It doesn't make me feel like an ugly girl, it's kinda no thoughts head empty. I could finally very potently engage in m/f and f/f with Bird, @7ban-sama, because he made me feel pretty, and sexually desired (no fault of anyone's but my partner before wound up being ace, so I couldn't really get reassurance there). With Bird I think I have the most eclectic and varied diet, and the most fun doing, anything, everything. We have RP'd our hetships, our yuri ships, our shotas, wholeheartedly. I feel like presently I just like "things that remind me of Me/my husband". In a way the identifiers of yaoi and yuri are kinda fading to my brain.... maybe.
But in my soul I still identify with being a fujoshi, a rotten girl. No matter what I like, I sure am a rotten girl.... girl gone fallow....
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having-conniptions · 8 months
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Love In The Air episode 10 live reaction under the cut (long post)
Listen I know no one reads these but they make the experience more enjoyable for me. It helps me understand what's going on, keeps me from zoning out and usually makes me notice more details that turn into theories and predictions IT'S SO MUCH FUN
What I love most about the PrapaiSky arc is Sky. Just... Sky.
"My boyfriend's sick." HE'S NOT YOUR BF but yeah I get it your dad wouldn't give you time off because your crush is sick lmao
Oh no he had a nightmare while Pai was there 😭
Fuck that hurts. I'm gonna go beat up whoever did this to Sky and I have a feeling P'Pai is coming with me
Prapai do not even joke about that DO NOT ughhh why is he so insensitive sometimes
And then he's so gentle and sweet again aaaaaa
AND SKY STARTS ACCEPTING HIS HELP, BELIEVING THAT HE'S SERIOUS ABOUT IT 😭❤️
And they're holding hands while sleeping so Sky can feel safe and protected 😭❤️😭❤️
But Sky is still a tsundere / not admitting to himself and to Prapai that he's starting to like him
"You know what I want." - "No, I won't have sex with you." - "So you don't know what I want." THIS EXCHANGE >>>>> Sky needs to understand what Pai sees in him 😭❤️
"I won't like you" *proceeds to smile to himself the second Prapai has left* WHO YOU TRYNA FOOL BOY
THE WAY HE WADDLED TO THE DOOR MY CUTE LITTLE PENGUIN
PRAPAI'S SURPRISED LITTLE FACE AAAA
"I don't like owing anyone" yeah right that's why 😉
My baby is so giggly and giddy but I know he's also so so scared that's why he still pretends he's not interested
It's not that he's not interested it's that he's scared of what will happen when he shows genuine interest because showing someone that you're interested in them always gives them some sort of power over you so you need to trust them first - especially if you've gone through whatever happened to Sky
Another race awww yeah lemme see Prapai in his racing suit again please
Ooooo the guy in the beige sweater is really pretty
That fucking chicken song again lmaooo
OH HI P'PAI
So soft 😭 right up until the "you should be spanked" comment brooo 😂
PRAPAI PRESSING HIS LIPS TO SKY'S FOREHEAD BUT NOT KISSING HIM AAAAA 😭❤️❤️
And Sky's little smile as he thanks Prapai, and Pai softly kissing his hair aaaaaaa
So far PrapaiSky has not been what I expected (though I did figure out pretty early on that they hooked up) but the soft cuddles are definitely getting to me
Great to see Sky feeling better in the morning <3
And PhayuRain being cute <3<3
Tsundere time again here we go lol
His face when Pai told him to smile tho
Awww those girls were adorable
SKY'S SMILE!!!! AAAAA I CAN'T HE'S SO CUTE PRAPAI ALMOST DIES INSTANTLY
And Sky actually gets a little worried hahahaha
Pai's like "I can't believe I'm about to do this" HE'S GONNA KISS HIM
Aw shucks
But yeah he's waiting for Sky to kiss him we love to see it
"Why the heck am I watching a sleeping boy?" LOVE, BITCH
PAI ALMOST KISSING SKY BUT KEEPING HIS SELF-CONTROL, SKY REALIZING HE WANTED PRAPAI TO KISS HIM 🤯🤯🤯
He agreed to go on a date with him and he's all smiley and happy and he's playfully teasing him aaaaa Sky deserves the world
Wow Pai really hasn't been with anyone in two months because of Sky huh
Joy I love you but please stop spreading rumors hahaha
The back and forth in this episode is everything
Bro I'd be so mad if I was trying to focus and someone just stared over my shoulder the entire time
The shoulder kiss 🥰🥰
LMAO SKY AND HIS KNIFE I CAN'T
What is he writing? 👀
Drawing on each other's hands aaaawww 😭❤️
He was so focused he didn't even notice Pai got them dinner
Prapai describing his siblings but actually describing himself lmao
Sky: "Don't call me Nong Sky, it sounds fake" Prapai: "Sky." Sky: *ba-dump*
That almost-kiss and "I'll wait until you're ready" I'M ABOUT TO THROW SOMETHING THEY WERE SO CLOSE
Back to tsundere but we know he's just teasing now because even if he trusts Pai now he's too proud to just give in
THE WAY THEY BOTH LOOK AT THEIR HANDS AWWWW
Bro who sleeps with the lights on
Bonus scene: Pai googling how to take care of Sky because he wants to do everything right 😭❤️ and then he called his mom to ask her for advice awwww 😭❤️ and Sky was taking notes on Prapai bc he wanted to get to know him better? HOW CUTE IS THAT
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eijiroukiriot · 3 years
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WHAT A GREAT DAY TO LOVE BAKUGOU WITH ALL MY HEART
#OKAY OKAY SO LIKE....#I WAS HANGING OUT W A FRIEND FOR LIKE ALL OF LAST NIGHT#SO FROM LIKE 9 TO 1:30 I DID NOT CHECK MY PHONE#AND THEN I OPENED TWITTER ONCE I WAS IN BED JUST INTENDING TO WIND DOWN FOR A FEW MINUTES BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP#AND MAYBE SEE IF THE SPOILERS WERE OUT#I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS!!! AAAAA!!!!!!! AAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! my BOY!!!!!!!#every time something positive happens w bkg in the manga my default reaction is just I'm Gonna Cry Now#i didn't actually cry but i did stay up another half hour overwhelmed w Bkg Love#my full thoughts on the name!! are that i like it!! i mean gz wasn't going to happen and we knew it#and half of us were using names like nitro/detonate/etc etc anyway#so it's a little cheezy but doesn't feel ridiculous#and honestly the might (the cheesiest part) is a nice touch#a name is a wish? right? that was the point?#in theory dynamight sounds like something he could've picked w no thought at all in 2 seconds#but the fact that it's like...you know...the man who ended all might taking on his legacy and his name in his own way#and then there's the parallels w deku choosing those kinds of names as a kid#but dynamight is equal parts bkg as bkg and bkg as a successor#like combining something unique to himself w the dream he's always chased#i like it!! i think it's nice and honestly most of all i'm happy to know it#depending on how this arc goes hero society might crumble before he can ever use it but you guys have to know i am proud of my boy#thoughts#tab
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