#I DO NOT WANT TO THINK OF THE IMPLICATIONS YET

[easy-there-leftovers]

“While I hope that isn’t your intention, staring any harder at the fire won’t make it any stronger. No matter how accomplished you may be.”

You feel the muscles in your brows relax in the dark of the night. Interesting, that. Considering how you don’t recall them furrowing so tightly in the first place.

Hearing the scratch of shoes against stone, you feel him make himself more apparent, as he always did. Moving to stand beside you. Not resting his eyes upon your visage just yet. Choosing to study the dying embers you must have been glaring at in front of you.

He takes quite an awful amount of time in doing so, too. Whatever thought you might have been thinking about long gone from your grasp as his presence unnerves you.

You feel your hands clenching and unclenching to alleviate yourself.

Yet the very air around him still makes your head swim, and your blood boil.

He takes a deep breath, as if steeling his resolve, before turning to look at you.

“What’s on your mind?”

“Cut the shit, Dekarios. What do you want?”

He shudders at the use of his name, but raises his hand up in false surrender. Gesticulating with his arms and hands as much as he did when you last saw him this close up.

“I mean no harm, and I see no point in denying to remedy whatever rift may have come between us.” He motions to the both of you, as he speaks.

“Come now,” he moves to lessen your distance, but you only turn to keep facing the dying campfire as he continues.

“Surely whatever schoolyard taunts and transgressions exchanged aren’t worth jeopardizing our efforts in our search for a cure, hm?” There’s a hopeful lilt at the end in his voice. He looks almost sincerely apologetic as continues on. Words, lacking their usual garrulous nature, as if keeping things short and simple would appease you.

If you didn’t know any better, you’d say he was apologizing out of the goodness of his heart.

“And who told you to apologize this time? Was it our fiery friend, or ‘The Blade of Frontiers?’ Or perhaps even our closest confidante; Astarion?” He raises a finger up with a confused expression to counter, but you beat him to it.

“With all due respect, Mr. Dekarios, we can go on our merry little way without discussing this.” You still refuse to look at him as you settle on admiring your nails for a change of scenery.

“Perhaps we’ll find some other fortune altogether and be rid of our parasites in the mornings that follow! And our little truce will matter not once we part ways and we both return to where we belong.” You finally move towards your tent to close your conversation, but Gale seems to ignore the implication as he follows you.

“You can finally return home to your beloved tower in Waterdeep, and I will be happily rotting in my little hovel.” You make one final tilt of the head to look at him, as if turning your whole body would be too much of an effort or grace to bestow upon him.

“Good night, sir Archmage.” You huff out as you disappear into the flaps of your tent without even letting your old classmate a chance to retaliate.

He stares incredulously at the still swishing material of your sanctuary. He releases a heavy sigh that built up in him and walked back to his own space in the camp to stew in his thoughts.

His eyes catching on the spyglass that he set up right outside his tent with disappointment.

If things had gone pleasantly, he would’ve asked you to observe the stars with him, as they were clearer to see from here than in Baldur’s Gate.

He distantly recalls you wanting for one during your academy days as the view from your little hovel, as he once called it, was rather murky. What with all the factories in the area.

He takes one last look at your tent from his and shakes his head.

It eludes him why you’re so hostile around him.

And even more so when you’re nowhere near this way around the others. He figured you two would be closer, given your shared interests and trade.

Hells, he even admired you all those years ago. Watching you accomplish so much, despite many difficulties. He wonders if you’ve ever respected him in the same way.

He sees Wyll looking at him, and he shakes his head to tell him that he doesn’t feel like talking. Entering his own tent to turn in for the night.

Hoping for any good that the gods can afford them come first light.

#bg3 x reader #I’m clearly not meant to write anymore #but I needed something like this out there at least #somebody please do a better job than me #gale dekarios x reader #bg3 #Gale x reader #gale of waterdeep x reader #gale of waterdeep x tav #gale dekarios x tav #gale x tav #gale of waterdeep #Gale dekarios #gale bg3 #bg3 gale #bg3 gale x tav #bg3 gale x reader #wizard rivalry? #wizard shit or something

[sophiethewitch1]

Hey! I just wanted to say that I love the WWW series so much that I've literally read it like 4 times over. SO! I have several questions + observations about it that have been bugging me a little, if you don’t mind answering + talking about them.

Everyone’s ages are something that I've been curious about. I know that it’s stated that Damian and the Reader-insert are 3 years apart in age, 19 and 21 respectively. I’m assuming that they’re more like 2 1/2 years apart based on the ages we’ve been given.

Do they follow canon ages? For example, is Tim still around 7 years older than Damian???

Because i’m picturing the lineup looking something like this:

Bruce: 47

Dick: 33

Jason: 28

Tim: 26

Reader-insert: 21

Damian: 19

I was just curious because picturing everyone’s relative age is something that is really important to me when regarding the dynamics between characters.

Another thing that I noticed was how in the Reader-insert’s  original reality/world, her entire family died on the same day that Jason did. (“Your lives had both technically ended the same day, in the same grand calamity.”). Does that remain the same in this new world?

Because that would mean that the Reader-insert’s  counterpart would have known Jason at some point, which I think is SUPER interesting. Lots of implications.

That’s supported by something that Tim says in his 1st pov: “Your family had died, Bruce’s new wife had died, and all the siblings he never really got the opportunity to meet, gone in a brilliant flash.”

THAT has a few implications that I think are really interesting. It supports the idea that her family did die on the same day in this reality, and that she would have known and been living with Jason at the time (Well, before his death.)

Tim would have most likely only seen them at galas or something similar by that time…leading to his statement about how he “never really got the opportunity to meet” them.

This would mean that Jason knew her counterpart when the Reader-insert met him for the first time. 

Now, going off of all of those assumptions, I can only begin to guess what her and Dicks relationship was like before her family's death. I picture it like this:

Dick had only left the manor around 3 years TOPS before Bruce had remarried, bringing a whole nother family into the fold. Now, we don’t know too much about Dick in this story yet, (I'm SO excited to see more of him in the next chapter BTW) but I can assume that this would feel pretty upsetting. Leaving your home, and your adoptive? father only for him to marry into a whole new family not long after?

I’d be pretty bitter if it was me in his situation. I wouldn’t really want to have any kind of relationship with the new children he had taken in. MEANING that Dick and the counterpart didn’t have too much of a relationship before her family's death.

And between their death and Jason’s, Dick would probably consider the counterpart as some kind of chance to actually build a relationship with his siblings in the light of what he lost. Obviously, the counterpart didn’t appreciate the attempt.

Uhhh there’s probably a lot more that I'm forgetting to mention, but I think the way you write is super compelling, and the Reader-Insert has been the only one that I’ve ever read that I can relate to so well!

So TYSM for writing, it literally makes my day!! 🩷🩷🩷🫂🫂🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

(And I’m really bad at conveying my tone in text, so if I seem overly critical or anything then I’m really sorry!!! I don’t mean it like that!!!)

Sorry this took so long to answer I have been in sickly victorian woman mode. I'll answer these questions to the best that I can, but also I don't have everything planned and even if I did I regularly forget shit if I don't write it down <3 <3

First of all the ages- I aged both the younger Waynes up and the older ones down a bit, because I'm personally not into the super huge age gaps but also. Imagine them however you want, even if they come up later in continuity still just insert your personal preferences if you want. Like it really doesn't matter lmao they're relationship has bigger issues than the age gaps. Anyway here are how I had them written down but I might change my mind I am a fluid being

Reader: 21, Damian: 19, Tim: 22, Jason: 25, Dick: 29, Bruce: 45, Alfred: 67, Molly: Also 21, Cass: 25, Stephanie: 23, Barbara: 30, Duke: 20

Also yes, reader's family died the exact same day in both universes, and first world reader like... knew about the waynes but wasn't particularly interested in them till their own family was ripped away, then she started obsessing. in second world, reader and the batfam were like... sort of involved? she lived with them, and she was getting to know them, but wouldn't you be kind of weirded out if your mum married like. jeff bezos or something. and reader is sort of introvert coded, even if they don't read that way. it's just because she's trying so hard not to be, because she's so starved for attention. other world reader like,,, didn't seem to react the same way to what happened to her. but she might've, in the newest chapter it seems like she was talking to bruce after the disaster, and then stopped. But yeah you're right they never knew each other because not much effort was made to do so, and the Waynes are always SUPER busy.

Also about the Dick thing, he was actually pretty happy about the new family! But like you said he still didn't know other reader till the disaster. He just didn't have time to get to know her. He was obviously very upset with Bruce because he left to fuck off to Bludhaven for a while, but he's always loved how the Wayne family kept growing. Even when it was just him Jason, Babs and the weird kid who followed them around with a camera. Then he like decided he was going to treat her like a project because he has a savior complex that comes out especially so when he's having a hard time (oh damn my brothers dead). Not your best moment Dickie. I mean other reader definitely did need help but... as if she'd accept it from a guy like Dick. Imagine your entire family dies and you have to deal with the most beautiful guy on earth trying to comfort you while you look like a creature that crawled out of the sewers. And he tries to make you go outside because you're genuinely very mentally sick. I'd kill him tbh. Anyway this is all still technically up in the air and I might go back and edit the fic later because I'm like... very bad at timelines I just can never remember them properly which creates a lot of issues and inconsistencies.

Anyways thank you for sending in your questions/theories and enjoying my work so much! I'm glad you can relate to reader so well, she's like, one of the strangest characters I've ever written who refuses to behave in any concrete mannerisms because she's stubborn and has intimacy issues. But I think we're all a little bit like that lmao. And thank YOU for reading my stuff, I wouldn't still be doing it if it weren't for folks like you :P (also also you didn't come across as critical at all, you were very polite!!!)

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #series:www #archetype0venus #tw long post #also i know what ur thinking: sophie are you writing #no i am not but i am listening to the www playlist and daydreaming which is like. sort of writing #i write like ten thousand rambling tags and then delete them because i remember they have absolutely nothing to do with this post #theres nothing in my brain nothing at all

[slushiepizza]

I just read your 'The Pursuit of Catharsis' and I'M NOT OK BUT IN A GOOD WAY!!!

And because I'm a sucker for angst... I wanna twist the knife in Guy's heart a bit more ❤️

Imagine if Guy - with his name now in the spotlight, his career at its peak and yet he's so miserable to the point of suicidal because of the cheating, of the scandal and the divorce - saw Honey on a random street on night.

Looking just as perfect as the day he lost them.

Looking like they're untouched by time.

Because after losing Guy and working themselves up to be the best version of themselves, to have the healthiest mental and emotional health in their lives, Honey becomes someone else's...

Treasure.

YES, IT'S EXACTLY WHO YOU THINK HE IS!

ANYWAY, THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME! GOOD BYE!

link to the fic

Thanks for reading and enjoying the fic!!! I'm using this opportunity to discuss the Divorced!AU lmao

warning : discussions of suicidal behavior, mental health issues, substance abuse

i. honey being treasure

ough..... that's a really sad idea but now I'm more focused on something specific in this scenario. If Honey later became Treasure, there's the implication that they weren't doing as well as they hoped they were because as mentioned by Porter, 'your friends suck'. And they now have a semi-toxic circle of friends.

I like that, I think. That no matter how hard they try and how far they've come since the divorce- there's always the ghost of it that they couldn't get rid of and managed to sneak away into their life.

ii. Guy's misery and cheating

Hm, about Guy being miserable to the point of suicidal...I do think that he was already like that before he cheated and when he and Honey were still married but had problems. That was sort of my take on his reasoning behind why he cheated actually.

He was just someone who couldn't cope with fame while at the same time craving it severely. He spent all of his time working and tried to remedy his lack of effort into maintaining his relationship with Honey with lavish gifts. He struggled with substance abuse- mainly alcohol but sometimes others- because he refused to realize that he had nothing else to live for now that he's at the top.

When he and Honey's fights got really bad, he'd go on a bender. He'd go for one night stands mostly, and they all have traits that are reminiscent of Honey's. They weren't on speaking terms when he missed their anniversary for the sake of going abroad. And Guy has this feeling that whatever they're dealing with- they won't be able to come back from this. He'd imagine the people and sex workers he'd spend the night with was Honey he was laying with, as and under the blur and haze of the stupor he was in, they might as well be. When people found out about him cheating, the world moves on. He's a Hollywood writer, of course it wouldn't be something people blink an eye at. His career wouldn't take a hit at all.

iii. honey's aftermath

After they got divorced, Honey would move away from Dahlia and live in a small town where they can escape Guy's name and fame. They'd heal but they severely missed someone who used to be their best friend.

Life in the small town was idyllic and had the community they needed to heal. Honey started work as a cargo truck driver, finding comfort in long winding roads in between states. They don't quite care about the cities or fame or success anymore- it's sullied by how things used to be and how Guy turned out.

At a local bookstore new, freshly packaged books was displayed front and center- and it had Guy's name on it. It stated that it was a bestseller and that it's from "American Horror Sensation, Guy". They shrug and tried to feel glad that he got what he wanted. Oh well. The two of them were different people now from the college kids that shared a home, unrecognizable from who they used to be.

They remembered what they used to tell him when he had writer's block and needed the extra push: "Dude! You're good at this. If you ever get published, I'd definitely everything you write."

"Really, everything?"

"Everything. I really do like the way you write."

They buy the copy anyway, unfortunately.

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted guy #slushieanswers #sweet asks

[uncanny-tranny]

Another bonus to learning a fiber art is being able to speak to others in a Lovecraftian language that nobody else understands...

...and also being able to read things like THIS:

#art #crochet #fiber art #described images #image description in alt #used a crochet pattern for this because it's just INSANE #see i can recognize some of these stitch markings but i haven't done them all yet #i actually kind of prefer the diagram pattern because it actually shows you the shape and the way stitches compliment the piece #with a 'normal' pattern (e.g. 1 dc in fifth ch from hook ch 2 4 dc) i understand it sure but. it isn't the same. #i was reading somebodys recommendations for tapestry yarn and understood all the abbreviations and what they mean #plus i feel like diagrams can be a great way to teach you not only how stitches look but how they contribute to the larger piece #one of my crochet proficiency goals is to be able to look at a piece and know instantly what made it #*cue me at the store analyzing a crochet piece so i can replicate it for 5× the cost* #if you're selling a crocheted piece for like $20 then it's my imperative to replicate it and not buy it 🫡 #i think that has the same moral implication as like... 'proplifting' #did crochet as the example because thats what i do as a fiber art. if theres a similar thing for knit/weave/ect then DROP IT BELOW I BEG YO #i want to learn all the lovecraftian languages of the fiber artists <3 #i feel like describing the image in exactly what stitch marking indicates what would have been too much so hopefully the explanation as to.. #...what the diagram DOES and how it visually indicates a pattern was helpful <3

[mamawasatesttube]

timcassie is so compelling to me. they were not into each other even a little bit. it was such a messy coping mechanism fuelled entirely by grief. they were making out with each other because they were both substituting each other for kon. cassie was far more aware she was doing this than tim was. unironically, dating a girl here is one of the gayest things tim has done

#rimi talks #it is SO messy and its so fun. i don't think geoff even realized the implications but they sure are there when you read it #god... you know its BAD when modern comics have me missing tt03 of all Fucking comics #but like. todays ''tell don't show'' writers would N E V E R do something this interesting #tom taylor would be all. oh! tim we shouldn't kiss. i'm just substituting you for kon because i miss him and you were his best friend! #and then he'd have tim go oh wow cassie you're right i didn't realize that! my bad. all forgiven? yay!!! :) #GOD YOU KNOW ITS BAD OUT HERE WHEN I THINK *GEOFF* DID SOMETHING RIGHT. GOD. GOD #GEOFF MY MORTAL ENEMY GEOFF. grits teeth yeah geoffrey i have to give you this one............ #its just such a deliciously unhealthy coping mechanism. theyre a MESS. theyre using each other. theyre only able to go on bc of each other #its not a romance but it IS a codependency #bart isn't even dead yet when this happens. like. he's just off being the flash. #bart (extremely depressed bc he couldnt stop sbp and hold him in the speed force forever): :| ok #not his circus. not his monkeys. #well it is his monkeys even if he left the circus. but he's too depressed to deal with it #but its so fun. this relationship is haunted. there's a ghost in the middle. they both want to kiss him instead of each other. #tim #cassie #timcassie

[cowboyskeletons]

pair nettle with hemlock for a loved one who has been taken away too soon

pair nettle with oleander to warn someone that their betrayal has been discovered

#dndads #hermie the unworthy #....uh maybe #dndads spoilers #just because of the implications i guess? don't want to risk it #back at it again with flowers and hermie !! #ughghghgh i made the canvas too small so i couldn't do the hemlock properly #also the nettle... couldn't figure out how to make it not too busy without scrapping it for the 20394th time #whatever. on its own i like the hemlock and the oleander is nice #anyway hermie...... hermie brainrot....... #i have so much work to do and yet. flower language #i wanted him to hand the oleander to normal but i can't do perspectives so i gave that up quickly #also the initial idea i had was to have just a headshot with him wearing a crown of nettle and oleander but i kept looking in the book #....maybe i'll still do that actually #both of those #is this just procrastination because i am struggling with the take an l animatic? maybe #oops what did i just do #i think i made it private for like five seconds whoops

[flovverworks]

thought again how overwhelmingly lonely akira would become after everything while time does its healing. u go from having a twenty-something ppl around u at all times to being alone. no one to knock on ur door in the morning, no ppl going in & out, no chaos of sudden fights. even in the (more likely) case where akira forgets its like. this haunting feeling of having forgotten something u shouldnt have. guy who goes to every social gathering ever to have that chaotic energetic experience of having so many ppl around again

#stardust speaking ! #meeting some of the most important ppl to u and losing them in a yr is uhhh a lot #akiras had a lot of themes of not wanting to leave their world just yet/see through what theyre there for #as well as questions like 'what will /i/ be doing next time x happens?' in a very...hm. accepting way? casual? #actually idk if theres ever been any point where its been 'yeah probably a year and then we'll see what happens' #but considering akira went from 'i wanna go home;_;' to 'whats the way to make sure all of u are safe in the fight against the moon' #as well as what they knew about them appearing right after their last battle w the moon. theres. suspicions. i am sure of it #either way there Is that one 1.5 segment too....... #I LOST MY THREAD #but. lots of stressful topics too #since akira knows how many wizards THEY had to summon and the implication the old sage summoned at least one too #thinks about some of the drusilla event lines again.....forget being special i wish we had met under normal circumstances...... #i had more to say about this topic but it also feels like just repeating myself i just think its gonna SUCK for akira #thinking about some lines in kk's diary too...T_T very akira to me. ill go find them again l8r

[nevert-the-guy]

The Great Cave Story Offensive

#cave story #kirby #nevert's funky lines #i was imagining a cave story mod that replaces quote with kirby #effectively nullifying most of the platforming challenges #kinda like that one mod for the original celeste #and then i imagined the further implications of that #this was just wishful thinking of course #i can't mod anything yet #but still #originally i considered calling this “kirby story” #y'know #like curly story #but i thought the great cave offensive pun was better #other things i wanted to draw but forgot: #kirby blissfully flying through the bloodstained sanctuary as quote and curly are covered in spikes and debris #kirby eating king's sword right in front of him #the doctor's ghost possessing misery then morpho knight coming in to do Its Thing (would it take both or just the doctor?) #booster giving just a shrug when kazuma asks what kirby is #kirby in quote's hat (why didn't i draw this one?) #aaaaand i'm just realizing i forgot quote's scarf #art cancelled #oh also balrog mouthful mode #i wanted to draw that too

[skhardwarevers1]

when he writes you an entire letter to provide closure (the closure is vaguely mentioning that he messed up a little in the middle of three pages just accusing you of being a manipulative lovebomber): 😨

#Sorry I just needed to rant a little because HELLO ??? WHAT THE FUCK???? #Who the fuck does he think he is? It’s so poorly written too #I would excuse it if it was hand written—but this was TYPED AND PRINTED OUT #Not to mention he quite literally blames me for everything. Blames me for making him “loose his ability to be kind” #And for making him “never love again” #I’m sorry? If you think that I changed in a bad way? Because if you do you definitely need help #For the first time in MONTHS I felt confident without worrying about what he’d say about what I was wearing or how I looked #And how uncomfortable it made me every damn time #And I’m not even going to get into the endless amount of harassment and pressure to do the things he wanted to do because it’s gross #Cuz I’m not fully ready to face all that just yet. I’m literally still getting over spoken things and implications #Back to my point—subconsciously I started associating happiness with that feeling I had in the summer rather than with him #I grew as a person. I realized how fucked everything all was. If he can’t see that he might be right about being too far to fix himself #In conclusion: fuck Eloise and fuck his bullshit letter and fuck everything he did to me #S.K thinks #Vent #again….sorry

[southislandwren]

ohohoho boy update. today at work it was just us doing cheese while everyone else pulled an ice cream order, and i was like hey if youre not busy saturday would you want to roadtrip with me? and i fully expected him to say no, but we are roadtripping to nebraska on saturday <3 <3 anyway what playlist do i put on in the car. do we trust him enough for get loose get looser

#music wise. i think maybe take a walk in the sun or normal music. not sure about glgl yet #i will probably put him on aux for at least half of the trip #(and when i say trip i mean like. 6-7 hours round trip. like we're not going very far for very long) #we're leaving at like 2:45-3pm and i get sleepy around 10 so not like a super good road trip for me #i told him that the way i plan trips was usually a long drive based purely off vibes but i would try to have an actual plan this time #and i asked him what time he would want to be home for work the next day since he works at 6am #and god he was so cute he was like 'i'll call off work on sunday so you can do one of your usual trips' #and yeah. sighh i am down so bad #and i HAVE to promise to be normal on this trip. i always get weird in cars late at night. #but theres Implications of him being in my car like 100 miles from home. so i cant do or say anything weird #like could you imagine being in a car with someone you dont like and they start being weird. like what the fuck do you even do. #but anyway yeah good day. he was very talkative today. and he is so cute sometimes i cant stand it #work is really fun when theres 6 of us and i can stand there while the underclassmen do all the work #boy post #oh and he said he was going to message that he was streaming skyrim but it ended up being boring #so that revealed some info. 1) twitch streamer 2) did think about texting me at least once last week 3) trusts me to know about his twitch #ugh. i would love to just hurry all this up but i have to be patient i have toooo #okay! off to take a disease quiz and then study some ice cream #talk to you later tumblrinas

[v-iv-rusty]

as much as I never post about it I kind of genuinely am fascinated by the evil cheese grater man

#misc.txt #(lautrec) #he's terrible. I'm rotating him in my mind #the dynamic of him and fina is really interesting to me #sure fina is a character that does not actually appear. being a background god only mentioned by name and all. but like #the implications of the ring of favor breaking permanently if you EVER take it off even just once #(I am ignoring that it doesn't do that in 3 because I do what I want and I think it's a stupid change) #and #'adrift on a sea of isolation only his faith in the love of his goddess remained true and so the knight forsook all else' hello??? #^arms+legs of favor set desc in 3 #and in the very same set it describes her love he desires SO badly - above all else - as 'fickle as the weather' (chest) #and not just that but it also says that the 'embraced' design itself completely ignores the fact that her love is like this #his own armor is literally formed in the shape of the love he has total faith in but it's heavily implied to be a futile desire and I just. #there's so much left unsaid yet so much implied and YET we still get to know so little about lautrec himself #and like this is just his armor set this isn't even touching on what we actually see him DO. or say #basically I want to take his whole.. situation put in a petri dish for a few days let it fester and then study it under a microscope. #I just. hhg *throws him against the wall like a wet paper towel*

[captain-amadeus]

grey void bisnus

#dazz XJ #ft eus doing beeznuf in the made up scenario #he pay money to have his worst enemy offed #he would probs do it himself but just imagine it is one enemy where he either thinks doesn't deserve HIS wrath #or would be difficult to deal with himself #when wants to personally slay but can't because killing people even as king is questionable #dazz wears a prosthetic eye in public aka I do not know the implications of someone else having only one eye in front of eus #nor its consequences #also ft my son philip #he visit (he not know the crimes yet) #stf ocs #one of them is not my oc it is the one paying for dazz's services (he smelly xp) #captain's art (oc fanart edition) #captain's art

[wingsyliveblogs]

Finally, I’ve got a bit more time for liveblogging! It’s pretty late, so I probably won’t get too far, but let’s see where this episode is going! (On a related note, I’ll be responding to the messages I’ve received later.) 

I spy with my little eye someone who is not reading the room. To be fair, though, she hasn’t exactly gotten a proper explanation for what’s going on here yet.

Meanwhile I feel that Amity running off was completely warranted this time - that’s a lot of pressure!

Hmm, interesting. The wording suggests that it’s not entirely a bad thing, in that Luz’s reaction didn’t seem completely out of place, but it’s still “tough”... 

Also, I’m definitely getting the impression that Willow’s on much better terms with Amity now, and I’m very happy to see it.

#wingsy liveblogs #wingsy watches owl house #owls ep 16 #since I'm not getting around to asks just yet I do want to drop a quick reminder #please don't mention anything that might lead my thinking or that has implications about stuff I haven't seen yet! #my siblings don't always catch those minor details and even little suggestions and implications can really put me off #so please be mindful of that!

[niuxita21]

(✿ ♥‿♥) Drunk!Mariana Edition

Bonus: The adorable way she looks at Ana while trying to comfort her as best she can in her sleepy drunk state

#madre solo hay dos #ana servín #mariana herrera #shitty screencap posts (TM) #me? finding absolutely ANY excuse to make posts about them in this episode? it's more likely than you'd think! #I know she is technically not drunk yet in the first set of caps but she's about to be so whatever it still counts #I really love how she gazes at ana while watching her pour back shot after shot of whatever that liquor was that made them compelled to bang #and she was SUPER charmed by ana's grumpy attitude all night long like just giggling along at everything she said #a less patient human would have been like fuck that noise I'm gonna go off to have fun you stay here and sulk if you want #but I guess ana is not the only one who has it bad and hasn't realized it yet #and this is unrelated to the main point of this post but looking at the last two caps it just reminded that #this wasn't the first time that an intoxicated ana rambled on and on about death while mariana tried to comfort her #idk maybe it was unintentional but I liked the callback #and the implication that thinking about the possibility of dying (more so than the drugs/alcohol I think) #is what makes ana make a move on mariana that she never would have made sober #anyway looks like I really am gonna write a thesis on every single throwaway moment between these two all season long sorry not sorry

[pepprs]

the way i am going to need to be tranquilized and sedated to get through tomorrow. god fucking help me

#purrs #particularly from like 1:30-3:30 specifically. i do not know how i will be able to get work done. i do not know how i am going to be able to #not fucking die. i really feel like i am going to pass out. i can’t do this i really truly genuinely cannot #every time i remember. like just… there are implications of this i have not even THOUGHT OF yet. that haven’t even crossed my MIND that are #still so engrained in my life and way of thinkjng and being. and i don’t know ifim gonna make her uncomfortable or panicked or guilty by #sobbing my eyes out not to mention other people witnessing that but there is NO WAY im gonna be able to not sob hysterically. this is #legitimatelt one of the most painful things that has ever happened to me in my whole life which says something about how much pain i have #experienced as a human being and how ridiculous it is that im freaking out over this LOL. but ummmmmm. this is……. this is so bad. i think #everything after tomorrow will be very hard (because i’ll miss her terribly) but it’ll be okay because it’s like this is the reality and now #we have to just like move forward and yeah im gonna have breakdowns on here abt how i feel like we aren’t properly grieving it or whatever a #and how i want time to like cope with it and not keep movi ng at 38472974mph WHILEALSO trying to not convey panic. but it’s been this #excruciating mindfuck of a situation bc she’s still HERE. STILL USING THE ‘WE’ THE DAY BEFORE SHE LEAVES! LIKE WHAT IS GOING ONBNNN THE COGN #COGNITIVE FUCKING DISSONANCE OF IT ALL!!!!! and like seeing her and having her stuff still around and whatever is um. it’s bad. it’s really #making it hard for me to accept that this is happening. so tomorrow is it then and we will drag ourselves through it and i swear to god i #will be hysterically crying. maybe even as i walk in and see her there knowing it’s the last time. LOL. like how do i not…. omgggggggg 😍😍😍😍😍 #this is so so so bad. why is this happening. not only is it embarrassing and humiliating but it’s like girl thisis an office this is work it #it’s really not that big a deal. BUT IT IS. TO US. TO ME. WHY IS SHE DOING THIS? i am about to punch the WALL. but nothing will help or make #it better until time passes or if she randomly decides not to do it. idk .i just can’t believe it. im so angry and sad and hurt and scared. #tomorrow will straight up kill me. it really actually seriously will. i don’t know how im gonna get through it. LOL #delete later

[crystalkleure]

There’s a certain kind of possessive stalker-type who will not leave you alone and let you go not because they care anything about how you are at all, you as a person means nothing to them, you have no specific personality trait they adore and just feel like they can’t live without or something -- they don’t even LIKE you, or even an imaginary version of you they’ve constructed in their own head. It’s not infatuation that is driving their obsession with you. It’s just the fact that you, that anybody, could “get away” that they can’t stand.

The issue is that they take it as a personal failure that reflects poorly on them if somebody rejects them. It wounds their ego. The feeling of failure is what they cannot tolerate, that blow to their pride is too painful.

They can even straight-up hate you as a person, but will still hang onto you by the skin of their fucking teeth until they feel you don’t hate them. That’s what they want -- not you, per se, but a lack of rejection. Nobody is allowed to think they’re not worth staying with, not even people they don’t actually even WANT anywhere near them.

Massively fucked up.

#My mother completely hates everything about me as a person and yet will not let me go because ''You think you're too good for me?!'' #''You're pathetic! You could NEVER survive without me; couldn't last one day! You NEED me!!'' #.It speaks #Abuse // #When most people think of ''possessive'' or ''stalker'' they think of an infatuated person #That's not the only thing that motivates this sort of obsessive controlling behaviour though #Sometimes it is *literal hatred*. It's ''I want you to submit to me; concede that I am better and beg to remain in my presence.'' #''Admit that I am better than you and you are dirt and beg for my forgiveness.'' #''You aren't allowed to THINK differently than me because that means you think I'm WRONG about something and that is unacceptable!'' #It's very creepy and extremely frightening. #It's rooted in an extreme fear of failure; fear of rejection; and intense self-loathing they are desperate to counteract #''I feel like I'm worthless so I need other people to constantly reaffirm that I'm not'' makes any even slight IMPLICATION of rejection -- #-- feel like the complete end of the world apparently #At least from what I have seen #I have to lavishly praise everything my mother does and enthusiastically agree with all of her opinions + never even slightly criticize her #If she detects even Trace Amounts of ''Ehh...not sure about that one chief'' she launches into an ''Oh. Okay. You hate me.'' snippy shitfit #And she is goddamn hypersensitive to the tone of my voice. Literally just my neutral relaxed speaking voice sounds too apathetic to her. #I have to speak in an incredibly exaggerated way that is just DRIPPING with convincing affection and adoration [and meekness] at all times #The paranoia over ''Are you even THINKING anything about me is less than flawless?! Do I smell DISAGREEMENT????'' is insane #It's either ''I am PERFECT in every single way; there is nothing wrong with anything about me ever''... #...or ''I am utterly worthless human garbage who should be dead'' with evidently no in-between #Please just go to therapy instead of holding me hostage? I can't fix whatever the fuck's wrong with you #''THERAPY??? ARE YOU INSINUATING THERE IS SOMETHING /WRONG/ WITH MY BRAIN????'' #<-- Exact reaction I get every time I try to GENTLY suggest that therapy is good and awesome